Want your love

OKay this is my first naruto fanfic, please be gentle... You have to keep in mind that Naruto is ill, and feverish so his logic is quite a bit laid back... This story is a three part oneshot. Since I haven't decided if it's going to be Naruto or Sasuke on top you can say hich one you would prefer in a review.
Well I think that's all I had to say... on with the fic.

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I slowly wake up to the sound of my doorbell. I don’t need to look at your empty place on the bed to know that you are long gone. I close my eyes again and imagine your sleeping form next to me. That would be so nice.

I wish you had stayed and shared my bed for more than a quick fuck. But I know this is simply not your style. You always come in the middle of the night, getting in with the key I gave you and waking me with your kiss and caresses. I wish I could resist you, stop you from breaking my soul with each time you take my body and leave me alone in the dark afterwards.

I already know that when I will see you today you will act like nothing happened, like my ass wasn’t sore because of you, like you barely stand me. And it hurts. It hurts so much. But I will go on with my life, my ever present smile on my face warming every heart but mine. They say it’s wonderful how always cheerful I am. Some even say a smile from me often helps them get through their day. They have no clue. They don’t know me. But if my mask pleases them so much, I’m happy for them.

My doorbell gets my attention again, someone is really having fun… it’s ringing constantly like the person kept his finger on the button. Great, now I have to get up. As I try to get myself to a sitting position I feel the consequences of our nightly activities. Damn, but my ass hurts; you must have had a lot of frustration to get rid of last night.

I make my way slowly to my door dressed in only my bed sheet. Rubbing my eyes tiredly, I open the door and put on my smiling mask. Whoever it is doesn’t need to have his day spoiled because I’m weak before you.

My best friend stares at me for two seconds then the only thing I have the time to register after those two seconds is a quick flash of pink and the noise of my door closing. I find myself sitting on my couch with a cup of hot chocolate with marshmallows in it and a worried look directed my way. Okay, when I said nobody knew me I clearly forgot the exception: one pink haired girl. Sakura must be the only one that can see right through my mask. Even you were never able to, after all, you do seem to think I just want to have fun between the sheets with you. Do you even know how much you hurt me? But if this is what you need, how can I deny it to you?

I still remember long ago when I used to have a crush on Sakura. When I confessed to her she showed me, quite clearly, that she only liked me like a friend and not more. That’s when our friendship began, and to my astonishment, I realised that I only liked her as a sister and she could be as annoying as one. Since then, we became best friends and she was the first to learn I was bi and in love with an Ice Prince.

I’m snapped out of reverie as I hear Sakura shouting in her phone. My eyes lock with hers and her words slowly get to my still sleepy brain.

“… you stupid? Aren’t you supposed to be a genius? He looks like a zombie! Just where are you? Bring your fucking frozen ass here this very minute, I have to talk to you!...”

My eyes widen in horror as her words finally register. No! She can’t possibly be talking to you! I try to take the phone away from her but she runs away and glares at me.

“… know him at all? You arrogant prick! You…”

I finally get the phone and cut the conversation before she tells you too much. I don’t want to loose the little I can have of you and I know you don’t want any kind of real relationship, certainly not with a guy, and never with a guy like me.

I smile back sadly as she tries to kill me with a look. After a few minutes of angry and ready-to-kill-Sakura, she relaxes at last and surprises me with a big bear hug that nearly suffocates me.

“You are too kind for your own good. You shouldn’t be hurting yourself just to please him, baka.”

I laugh softly and hug her back, her warmth comforting my aching heart if only for a moment. Suddenly, my legs feel very weak and I nearly fall, her arms the only thing keeping me up. My mind feels like someone wrapped a blanket over it and I can nearly feel myself drifting away, Sakura’s worried voice calling my name becoming more and more distant.

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Something cold is gently pressed on the warm skin of my forehead and I slowly open my eyes to your dark ones mere inches away. Your look is veiled like in the rare occasions where I can’t see your emotions, so I close my eyes again and let your caressing hands and your deep voice lull me back to sleep.

When I open my eyes again it is already dark. I feel warm and comfortable and it takes me a while to realise that it is because you are half lying on me, your head in the crook of my neck and you dark hair tickling my jaw. I must have moved or made some kind of noise because you suddenly withdraw from me and getting on your side you stare at me with those beautiful eyes of yours.

“Dobe. Why didn’t you tell me?”

Your question takes me unaware. I try to find something stupid to say to change the subject but you seem to read my mind.

“Don’t try to play dumb, Usuratonkashi. Just answer my question.”

Why do you have to be so talkative when for once I don’t want you to be?

“Why didn’t I tell you what? I thought you knew I was just back from a mission! It’s normal to be tired after a mission. And I didn’t think I would faint because of that, I never faint! You were the one ravishing me when I clearly needed sleep, Teme!”

I try to buy me some time but again you are having none of it. In mere seconds you have me pinned underneath you, my arms over my head and your knee on my groin promising a lot of pain would I want to escape. Shit.

“Baka.” you say just before your lips crushes mine as you stumble with something I can’t see. I realise what you were up too when I feel cold metal against my wrists as you tie them to my bedpost. Shit I’m in bigger trouble than I thought… stupid Sakura, what did she tell you?

“Talk.”

For once I’m calm, gone my hyperactive self, long gone my babbling or excited or angry self. I hope Sakura didn’t tell you how much I care for you, but I’m not taking any chance. I’m not going to tell you what you want to hear. I don’t want to be called a freak or to have my heart even more broken than it already is. I love you. I know I do. But you don’t have to know that, you already have too much power on me and I’m not totally suicidal. So I shut up and just look up at you waiting for you like I always do.

“Naruto.” My name feels like a threat on you tongue but I already made up my mind, Sakura is right, I’m not letting you kill me slowly. This is the last time I let you touch me. Tears gather in my eyes and I try to keep them in.

Your hand is surprisingly gentle as it strokes my cheek, your thumb playing with my lower lip. And I must say you are scarier like this than when you tie me from head to toe to have your wicked way with me. You are never that kind and I have no idea what you are up to. Your other hand move to my chin and you slowly lower it so you can kiss me long and tender.

“Naruto… Tell me. Why? Why didn’t you tell me I was hurting you?” Your voice is no more than a murmur now, almost sensual and we both feel the shiver that it sends through me. The way you are treating me now is right out of one of my fantasies and this time I can’t stop the tears from falling. I wish you weren’t like that just to get an answer from me. I wish…

My heart skips a beat when you kiss me again as you slowly move your knee against my boxer covered dick, applying just the right pressure to make me moan softly in your mouth. God, but I feel like a puppet in your skilled hands.

“Naruto…”

You finally notice my tears and I close my eyes; I don’t want to see the pity in yours. I feel your tongue drying my tears. My eyes shoot open in surprise as I realise you just untied my wrists and your hands are slowly massaging them.

“I’m sorry… Naruto.”

Okay. Now I get it. I’m sure. This is just a fucking dream again, I know you never apologise. But your hands on me feel real enough and your mouth kissing my neck too. I must say, if it is a dream I clearly don’t want to wake up.

You carefully trail kisses on my jaw, then my neck again, your mouth slowly making its way lower and I can’t keep in the moans you drag from me. My eyes close again as I let the pleasure overwhelm me. But suddenly I can’t feel you anymore, your warmth is gone and the cold air of my room caresses my heated skin. A small whimper escapes me but soon you are there again and this time I can feel your skin against mine as you find your place between my legs.

I gasp when your mouth closes on my right nipple and you start to suck on it gently. A new kind of electricity shoots from my nipple directly to my cock when I feel your teeth on my sensitive nipple biting not hard enough to hurt but hard still. Then that wicked tongue of yours is attacking my other nipple while your fingers trace random patterns on my stomach making shivers race through my body.

My thoughts fly away and the only thing I can do is feel, feel the pleasure and pain you skilfully entwine together to arouse the hell out of me. Oh, yes! Your fingers come near my never regions and my breath hitches but you are teasing me. Your hands continue to roam my body without touching me where I really want it, NEED it.

I give in when you finally touch my hard shaft and a low moan escapes me. I can’t hold back any more and I open my eyes and chance a look into your lustful dark orbs. I can nearly see worry (and love?) there and it is killing me, please, please I don’t ever want to wake up. This is so cruel. I don’t want to see my dream come true than have it whipped away from me… I wouldn’t stand it…

You kiss me breathless and with more passion this time. You growl when I bring your body closer to mine, your weigh crushing me against the mattress and our arousals grinding together. When our kiss finally breaks, I realise my hands are in your hair. You slowly pull away and get on your back bringing me with you.

We resume our kiss but a sudden knock on my bedroom door stop your hands midway to my ass. You curse silently and I know that my last chance to have sex with you just evaporated. I promised myself this would be our last time together before I get out of this village. I can’t stand the hate anymore. I wanted you to come with me but I know you don’t want that kind of relationship. It wouldn’t do to be a missing nin twice would it? Not for the likes of me anyway…

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