Rip My Heart Out

Warning, Male/Male lovin. Angst, sexy dirty talk. Don’t like don’t read, please (And why are you in the Male on Male Section anyway?!)
Just a Quick fic that I felt like doing. Rates and commets are appreciated if you see any problems or whatever, since this is not Beta’d. Much love, and onto the show.
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First person P.O.V.

I… I never realized how painful it would be, even now. To lose you, I mean. To watch you walk away.
Ha. Right. Just walk away?
No, you ripped my fucking heart out. The pain of losing you to… to that thing. Thats what I don’t get. I mean, what the hell was I supposed to do? I tried. Truly. You have no idea how much this rips up my soul. If I ever had one, and even if I did, its laying in little pieces around me, and I’m dying. I’m fucking dying. Your little self righteous ass couldn’t stay, couldn’t accept that we were becoming close! We were healing!
My hands are trembling, even now, Sasuke. My whole body aches, and my mind has gone blank. I don’t even know what to do anymore. Its like’s drowning in this deep abyss, but the coldness I feel isn’t coming from the water, but within. Like I’m sick to my stomach, from guilt, from pain, from everything! And my skin crawls with it. With guilt. Knowing that maybe… maybe I could have stopped you? Could I? We… we could have been something. Something whole. Neither of us are complete, and you know it. But…
But you left, Sasuke. You left me. That night, before you left...
I can still feel your lips, moving against mine, your calloused hands moving up my arms, caressing my face. Your tongue, Kami your tongue, moving sooo slowly against mine. My hands were trembling as they pushed up your shirt, almost shy, and brushed your nipples. The sounds you made, panting, groaning in appreciation, small cry’s of ecstasy. Then I moved lower, and took your length into my mouth. Your hands reached for my hair, and pulled. Did you realize that was a kink of mine? Heh. Of course not.
I licked up and swirled my tongue around the head, and your whole body reacted, so beautifully, arching up and crying out. Your body, flushed, sweaty. I sucked you until you couldn't hold it in anymore, until I pulled your very essence out of your body. Then, I kissed you. Your groaned, still tasting your seed on my tongue. You slowly ran your hands down my body, pushing me back, tweaking my nipples, licking my body with that sinful, sinful tongue. Teasing, pulling back from me, only to go lower, and lick my hole. Kami, pushing in, circling the ring, then delving back in. Stretching me for our first time. Your fingers replaced your tongue, pushing in, spinning, scissoring until they drove me mad!
You were so considerate, then, you raised my legs, me on my back so you could watch me. Those eyes of yours, staring into my soul, smoldering with heat and lust. They promised so many sinful delights. Your hair stuck to your skin, the twilight hitting you through my window, making you glow like the damned dark angels you hear about in fairy tales.
We are Damned, now and forever. But I couldn't bring myself to care as you entered me, slowly, So. Fucking. Slowly. Until I pushed you back and rode you, made you go so deep, deeper than anyone, hitting my prostate, my eyes glazed as I looked down at you. We were sweating, my muscles clenching so I could rise up just to drop down onto you, fucking like we were wild animals in heat. Your delicious body thrusting up, hour hands on my hips, mouth agape in pure pleasure. Kami, your beautiful, was all I could think.
“Harder, please, fuck me harder. I need you deeper, more, kami, more! I need you in me, mark me, make me yours! Fuck, please S’uke, please!” I said it over, and over, until it drove you mad. You threw me back and plunged into me, folding my legs back against my stomach and entered me, hard, deep, ruthlessly. Your muscles flexed each time your hips rammed forward, my mind blank, and you... You were the only thing I could focus on. Your breath, your life, your body, the pleasure you were giving me. I never wanted it to end! Your thrusts were becoming erratic, faster, hitting my prostate and making me scream out your name. I had never felt so complete, so wanted, so loved than in the moment you whispered my name, making me come as well. You collapsed onto me, breathing harshly. Our skin sliding against each others as we moved to kiss, you, still in me. And for the first time, someone held me as I fell asleep. I felt warm throughout my entire body, my heart, my soul, my life. Everything was just… warm.
Now, I’m left behind, once again. Abandoned. And after knowing such warmth, all I feel is cold. Like I’ve been emptied and all that is left is a shell. Its a deep abyss of hell, painful and deadly. I’m not sure what to do anymore. What should I do? Its been years and you still haven’t come back. I’m out of hope, Sasuke, out of forgiveness, out of everything. Kami, I fucking hate you. I hate you for making me feel something, and then taking it away. I hate you for making me love you. I hate you for everything you have done to me. Damn you. I hate you because I still fucking love you. I’m so sick and twisted for loving you. After everything you have done, the line of hate and love has become blurred and intertwined with each other. I’ve never hated and I’ve never loved anyone before. Just… damn you.

Journal entry: Page 354: Oct. 10th: By: Uzimaki Naruto
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Regular P.O.V
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“What… are you doing here Uchiha?” Naruto’s voice was monotone as he entered his home, seeing Sasuke sitting on the couch. He was reading Naruto’s personal journal. Sasuke’s ethereal skin glowed in the dim lighting from his couch lamp. Naruto still stood by his apartments door, coat in hand, frozen.
/shitshitshitshitshitshitshit/ was the mantra currently running through Naruto’s brain, thinking of all the possibilities he was here.
“Your’e not Rokudome…” Sasuke’s sultry voice stated.
“How observant. No, I’m not. After you left they demoted me, saying I wasn’t fit to be a ninja anymore. If I couldn’t bring back one ninja, then I obviously wouldn’t be able to do high rank missions. I teach at the Academy… taught. Taught at the academy.” Naruto’s voice wavered a bit at that. The parents of the children he taught kept moving them from his class into another one, not wanting them to be corrupted by the ‘monster’. So they finally had to “let him go” this past week.
He laughed ruefully at that. It was more of a “Finally, now get the fuck out, you monster!” Naruto finished shutting the door behind him, and leaned his body against the wall, watching Sasuke.
Sasuke finally looked up from Naruto’s journal, taking him in completely for the fist time in four years. He was taller, hair pulled back into a shaggy ponytail, and where the band didn’t reach, it spiked out in an attractive way. His face and body were lean, muscular, obviously still working out. Clad in a black, sleeveless turtleneck, and faded and ripped bluejeans, giving peaks to carmel skin. His shoes had been removed at the door, and black socks still adorned his feet. Sasuke’s eyes slithered back up Naruto’s body, to the crossed arms, and to his pierced ears, silver studs and hoops. And glasses. This change was unexpected. Silver frame reading glasses adorned his face, and a black spike pierced lip.
Naruto rolled his eyes, catching Sasuke’s attention. Those eyes. They were a dull blue, cloudy. Not the brilliant sapphire that he remembered, the ones that had haunted his dreams. Sasuke’s brow wrinkled at this.
“What?” Naruto asked. Sasuke had looked him up and down, and was staring at his face.
“The glasses? I had to get them, because reading so much at the academy started to strain my eyes…” Naruto bit on his pierced lip. Why would Sasuke show up here after all this time? To kill him? To fuck him? To… kami, to return?
“Interesting Diary...”
“Journal” Naruto interjected.
“...You have here, Naruto.” Sasuke ignored Naruto’s interjection.
“And that’s a personal journal, Uchiha.” Sasuke mentally raised a brow at the “Uchiha” naming instead of “Bastard” or “Sasuke”.
“Hn.”
“…” A few minutes ticked by, Sasuke still sitting on the couch, Naruto still leaning against the wall.
“What are you here for, Uchiha Sasuke?” Blue eyes narrowed onto Sasuke’s face, waiting.
Sasuke slowly stood up, unrolling his body gracefully. He had grown a few inches, hair still in the same ducks-ass cut, slim, beautiful. He had on geta* shoes, and black Samue* outfit. A happi* with his clans crest was laying on the back of the couch. Sasuke stepped towards Naruto, his geta clunking against the floor. Naruto’s whole body froze, muscles tightening for a fight. Each stride brought Sasuke closer to Naruto, until he was inches from his face.
“What… am I here for?” Sasuke made a ‘tsk’ing sound with his tongue.
“What do you think I’m here for, Na-ru-to?” Sasuke brought up his arms, locking the door with one, and then placing his hands on either side of Naruto’s body. Naruto’s jaw clenched at the close proximity, feeling their breath collide mid-air. Sasuke’s eyes were boring a hole into his, demanding an answer. Naruto licked his lips,
“To kill me, would be the most obvious choice.” Sasuke’s eyes widened a fraction, brow creasing once again.
“And why do you think that?” Anger started to boil in Naruto.
"Why?!" He hissed,
“You read my fucking journal, you bastard! Why the hell do you think?!” Sasuke slammed a hand down against the wall, cracking the plaster and wood. Naruto ignored it and went on.
“You fuck me, say that you care for me, then leave the village and leave me for dead the next day. Figure you thought the emotional fucking-over was done with so your here to finish the job!” Naruto was yelling by now, screw being careful, he had nothing to live for, nothing to lose. Let Sasuke kill him, it would be better that way. He stood there, fuming.
Seconds, then minutes passed. What the hell was he doing? Sasuke was just standing there, staring at him like he had grown a second head.
“They… didn’t tell you?” He was searching for something in Naruto’s reaction, his eyes.
“Who?! No, no one told me anything, Uchiha. You’ve been a missing nin for four years, with that snake creep and then you randomly show back up here. What the fuck am I supposed to think? To say? Hmm? ‘Oh hi Sasuke! Glad you showed up, because you sure fucked me up! Glad you Abandoned the village and Joined Orochimaru. Oh, hey, you want some tea?” He finished with a mockingly sweet voice.
“I don’t know who you think you are, coming into my house, but if your here to kill me then fuc…” Sasuke slammed a hand down over Narutos mouth, effectively stopping him from going on.
“I am not here to kill you, dobe. I’m here to claim you!”
“…” Naruto’s eyes widened, then narrowed.
“Wmp de hea mu taing amumpt?!” Was the muffled response.
“What the hell am I Talking about? My deal with the council, My mission to leave and go to Orochimaru. For staying with him and Kabuto long enough to slice their heads off and return, thats what. They were supposed to tell you, to keep you safe, to train you, so that when I returned to you we could be ANBU together. THATS what I’m talking about!”
Sasuke’s breath was harsh, his face an inch from Naruto’s, eyes still searching to see if Naruto knew the truth. But he found only confusion in those blue eyes.
“Mpnph?”
“I read your fucking journals, dobe. It hurt, and I thought you were just venting because I let you behind, but that's not it, is it? I read all of them, and you never mentioned my deal with the council, but you still… never stopped loving me? Without knowing? Naruto, I'm... sorry. I should have known that they... wouldn't keep their part of the deal.”
Sasuke slowly took his hand off Naruto’s mouth. He licked his lips, pausing, processing.
“So… you… didn’t abandon me?” Golden brow creased in confusion.
“No. You were supposed to be one of the ones told about my mission.”
“But… the Vally… you…”
“Orochimaru was watching.” Sasuke flinched as hurt filled Naruto’s eyes, and a hand went to his chest where the chidori penetrated it.
“I… wanted to tell you, Naru. I did, but that was one of the deals with the council…” Anger started to boil within him.
“Fucking council. I’ll kill them. They did it on purpose, knowing I couldn't reach you. They ruined you. I’ll kill them.” Sasuke’s fists balled up, and Naruto stared. Could it be true? That Sasuke really… His heart was hammering in his chest, and it was painful to think that maybe he did still love him… maybe.
“S’uke…” Sasuke’s eyes snapped back to Natures face in time to be caught between two warm hands, his lips being caressed by another’s. It was soft, sweet, shy. Asking. Asking if it was real, and not a cruel joke. Not some dream.
Sasuke responded, hungrily, passionately, tongue exploring Narutos mouth, rubbing sensuously against the others togue, rough and lovingly. Sasuke pushed forward, Hands bracing Naruto’s head so it didn’t hit the wall. Naruto mewled into Sasuke’s mouth, and answered by a groan.
“Nggh, S’uke. Ah. Wait. Your’e not, mmm, you haven’t, oh yes there, you need to check in, don’t, ha, don’t you?” Sasuke stopped his ministrations on Naruto’s neck, and looked up. Naruto’s face was flushed, eyes bright blue, shining with lust, mouth slightly open, lips swollen.
“Na-ru-to…” Sasuke purred, “I was reading that last entry you put in your ‘journal’, and that scene,” Sasuke started rolling his hips against Narutos, “I think we need to replay it. Make sure we got it right.” he started thrusting harder, the friction was delicious.
Naruto was panting as he replied, “Fuck, yes, harder. Ah, yes. O...okay. We, ah, we should. Ahh. Kami.” Sasuke smirked, and started running his hands up Naruto’s shirt. He reached the nipples and pinched them, teasing and rubbing them.
“Your journal was good, Naru, Mmmm, you should write porn, and we can be the stars. I know a few good scenes we can try out.” Sasuke leaned in and whispered, “You could be my dirty little whore, and I’ll be your master. I’ll fuck you so hard and so deep that no one else will ever be able to satisfy you. I’ll fuck you till you scream my name, with that delicious mouth of yours. You can ride me, your ass eating my dick and I’ll watch as it goes in. And. Out.” Sasuke bit the shell of Naru’s ear, making him whimper. His left hand abandoned the nipple in favor of a more delectable treat down south.
“I’ll fuck you hard. Make you cum until you can’t anymore, until you pass out from pleasure, only to do it again and again. Your body is mine, Naru-chan. You agreed to it, begged for it before I left, and I always get what’s mine.”
“Do it. Do it to me. S’uke. Please…”
Sasuke dropped to his knees and undid Naruto’s pants. His golden length stood proudly against his stomach. Sasuke fingered the slit, rubbing, applying pressure, and then lightning it.
“S’uke! Please!”
Sasuke smirked, and liked the head, lips wrapping around it. Tongue dipping in and tasting him. He slowly slid further down, going up and sinking. Up, down. Up, down. Until it hit the back of his thoat and swallowed. Naruto arched up, crying out.
“Please, please, please, oh kami yes, please! Ngghh, More.”
“Are you close, Naru? So soon?” He teased.
“No one else. Iv’e had no one else. Only you. Please!” Sasuke’s eyes widened at that. Naruto had abstained from sex with anyone else? How interesting. And hot.
He plunged down, deep threading him while fondling his balls and rubbing a finger over his perianal. Naruto Screamed, head thrown back in ecstasy, and released his seed into Sasuke’s mouth. Sasuke rose up, and caught a limp Naruto, kissing him deeply.
Naruto’s eyes fluttered shut, hands gripping Sasuke’s arms for support, almost desperately.
Don’t worry. I’m not going anywhere Naru-chan. Lets go to bed.” Sasuke picked up a still limp Naruto and started walking to the bedroom.
“S’uke. I have a question…”
“Hn?”
“When you out your hand over my mouth, and I licked my lips… It was salty.” Naruto grinned slyly, as a blush went across Sasuke’s cheeks.
“Was my writing that good?”

End~
Ha. Well, that was random and unexpected… please don’t shoot me? Anyway, this popped into my head, and I was kinda winging it. Erm, not sure what to do with this. Didn’t know how it was going to end, and so it kinda ended up like this…. Comments? Good? Bad? Although, I think this was my first yaoi shot… hmm. Yes, it was! Hehe! Anyway, what do you think, ne? I’d loooove to hear from you!
Fly away on the wings of your LovelessAngel.

Geta: wooden sandles
Samue are ultra-comfortable, durable, Japanese denim work clothes.
Happi: Shorter Coat: Traditionally the shop name or emblem or family crest was printed on the back of the coat .