Square the circle

AN: Okay, here we go. This is the last "real" chapter. There will be one more after this, so don't forget to review and tell me your opinions.

Reno's_Lover: You noticed it! Thank you.
hina88: I feel sorry for him as well, lets see how it all turns out.
Silver4HENTAI: Here you go.
j.s: *pat pat* Don't cry ^^; Thanks, I like the title to have a meaning, even if it is obvious only in one chapter.
Mademoiselle_LaCroix: Yep, you did have that suspicion, and you were right. Lets see what I can do with the ending.
Hello: I think it's important for him to realise his true feelings :)
Reily: Thank you. I think it was quite realistic, I was really emotional about it when I wrote it. ^.^
ALD: It would have helped Iruka, true ^_^

Buckets of hugs and kisses and thanks to Juxtathought for beta reading this.

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The clock on Iruka's wall struck six, and there was knock at the door. Iruka stared at the clock. It couldn't be Kakashi—he was never on time. He hurried to open the door and tell whoever it was to go away before Kakashi came. Iruka opened the door and stood there, dumbfounded.

It was Kakashi. His expression was indifferent. Iruka asked Kakashi to come in and join him in the kitchen. Kakashi did and they sat down. Iruka remembered the first time they had dinner together, when he pulled Kakashi's mask down and the jounin had kissed him. He doubted very much that Kakashi would let him do it again.

Kakashi stared at him with his ice cold blue eye as if telling Iruka that he didn't have the whole evening to waste on this.

"Would you like something to drink?" asked Iruka conversationally, but Kakashi's cold stare told him that he wasn't here for social niceties.

"I wanted to tell you how sorry I am. If I could make it undone, I would... and if there is anything, and I mean anything, I can do to make it up to you, I will," Iruka pleaded.

Kakashi sat quietly, glaring at him.

"If you don't ever want to see me again, I understand," Iruka said. He sat there like a puppy with its ears pressed against its head and tail between its legs.

"You still don't get it," said Kakashi. His voice had a strange undertone. Iruka looked at Kakashi. Kakashi shook his head, sighed, and tilted his head away. Avoiding Iruka's stare, he continued.

"There's never been anyone like you before. I mean, I haven't felt like this for anyone before," Kakashi paused. Iruka's heart pounded. It hurt to see Kakashi this way, and the little voice in the back of his head was yelling at him, telling him what an idiot he had been. Blaming him and mentally kicking him.

"Can't you understand that? Can't you see Iruka, you're the only one I've ever loved." There they were. Those words. They hung in the air, and Iruka could only stare, his eyes filling with tears. The pain crept to the surface again, pressing his chest like a large, concrete plate. The voice inside Iruka was self-righteously saying 'I told you, but you didn't listen. And now you have fucked up everything!'

"I love you too," whispered Iruka.

"But all I have been to you is a replacement. You used me to fill the emptiness inside you," Kakashi continued without hearing what Iruka said. The words slapped Iruka, he felt the sting in his heart.

"I'm not what you want, what you need. Otherwise you wouldn't have kissed your ex the minute the chance came. For a long time, I could fool myself, but when I saw you with that Inuzuka, I had to admit it."

"That's not true! You are what I want. You are the only one I want!" Iruka yelled. His mind was racing. This wasn't the way this conversation was supposed to go. Kakashi was suppose to tell him to stay away from him or make him suffer in some other way. Surely he had shown Kakashi that he cared about him, that he was important to him. No, there shouldn't be doubt about that.

"No, I'm not. Do you really think that I haven't noticed the change in you after Naruto left?" Kakashi said and turned to face Iruka. Iruka was flabbergasted.

"Do you think that I don't know why you want the boy to be everywhere with you, why you don't want to be alone with me when he's in town, and why you seek comfort in me when he's gone?" Kakashi continued.

Iruka stared at Kakashi in shock. Was Kakashi jealous? Over Naruto? This is absolutely absurd, thought Iruka, totally ridiculous. Now that he thought about it, Kakashi had been intimidated by Naruto's presence from the beginning. Kakashi never wanted to talk about the boy, and Iruka had thought it was because Kakashi didn't want to talk about his work. But it was all because of Naruto, or Iruka's relationship with Naruto. Did Kakashi think Naruto was his rival? That was ludicrous!

"No matter how much I want to be with you, I won't submit to being just a substitute while you can't have the one you really want," Kakashi added.

"You can't mean that! You think me and Naruto..." Iruka let his voice fade.

"Well, aren't you. You have spent more nights with him than with me," Kakashi said, and now the hurt was visible in his eye and in his voice.

"No, we're not!" Iruka was becoming furious.

"That's sick! Naruto is like my kid brother! I could never think him in that way," Iruka continued.

"Then why has he spent so many nights at your apartment?" Kakashi sounded like he didn't believe Iruka.

"Oh my god, Kakashi. On most evenings, we talked or played games for so long that it was too late to send the boy home. That's all. I can't believe you thought that I could do something with Naruto! Do you really think that I'm a pervert who likes young boys?" Now Iruka was livid.

It was Kakashi's turn to be embarrassed. He really had thought that.

"Then why didn't you want to spend time alone with me?" Kakashi tried, but he had lost the edge to his voice.

"I did want to be alone with you. But as I said, Naruto is really dear to me, like a little brother. So while he was here in Konoha, I wanted to spend time with him. I knew he wouldn't be here for long, and after he was gone, we would have all the time we wanted together," Iruka explained.

Kakashi looked beaten.

"So this wasn't only about the kiss?" Iruka probed with caution.

"No. I saw the whole thing. I know you didn't continue it even when you had the chance. It was you who broke it. And I talked with the Inuzuka. She told me that whatever had been between you two had died a long time ago. I don't mean that I'm not angry with you, and if you pull anything like that ever again, I'm going to snap your neck," Kakashi said. Iruka's heart jolted.

"Does this mean that we're okay?" Iruka asked.

"I think so. But only if you're in this with your full heart," Kakashi answered.

And Iruka was. If there had been any doubt before, there was no sign of it anymore. He was in it with his full heart, so full that it hurt. Tears of joy ran down Iruka's face. He really loved Kakashi. He wanted to be with him no matter what. He leaped onto Kakashi's lap and wound his arms around him. He pulled Kakashi's mask down and drew the man into a kiss. Soft and full.

Iruka pulled away for some oxygen and looked deep into Kakashi's eye. Then he lifted Kakashi's hitai-ate. The angry looking scar ran over Kakashi's eyelid. The man kept his eye closed for a while and then opened it slowly. The crimson red eye with three black drops surrounding the pupil stared back at him. Iruka was startled, but he kept his eyes steadily on Kakashi's.

Then, absolutely resolute, he said, "I love you. You're the only one I want."

Kakashi looked at him. There was no hesitation, not a drop of mischief in Iruka's words. Kakashi closed his eye and pulled the hitai-ate down again.

Iruka pressed his lips against Kakashi's. He licked Kakahsi's lips, sucking the lower lip and biting it gently. Kakashi answered with a smile that pulled his lower lip from Iruka's teeth. Then Kakashi's tongue pushed inside Iruka's mouth. Possessively, it tangled with Iruka's. Iruka could feel Kakashi grow hard under him. His own pants were uncomfortable, restraining his erection. Kakashi's hands wandered under his shirt and found his wonderfully responsive nipples. Iruka's back arched with a moan.

Kakashi buried his face into Iruka's neck, marking him as his own. Iruka moved his hips, rubbing their groins together. Kakashi lifted Iruka's shirttail, pulling it up, blinding Iruka before binding his hands together. The touch of Kakashi's tongue on his nipple was intensified by the fact that he couldn’t see it. Hands were traveling down his back, stretching his waistband, squeezing in, and cupping his buttocks. They pulled him closer until he was sitting on Kakashi's erection, feeling the hardness under him. Iruka yelped when he was flipped on the table with one swift movement. He laid there on his back, blindfolded, bound, eagerly waiting. Suddenly, his pants were pulled off. He felt naked, and naked he was, laying on the kitchen table like a served meal.

He heard the fridge door open and close. He waited. Then a warm tongue traveled up his abs. Iruka held his breath. The tongue went away, and he felt something touching his hardened nipple. It teased the bundle, and as it hit the skin around the nipple, he moaned. It was cold and hard.

Ice. The ice jumped to tease Iruka's other nipple, and he panted and moaned. It circled that tight bundle. Then it slid lower, taunting his tight abs, making him shiver, his erection throbbing. The ice trailed his abs, leaving a trail of water after it before dipping into his navel. Then it was gone.

Iruka's legs spread, and Kakashi positioned himself between them. Iruka was holding his breath, waiting to see what would happen. He gasped as cold, sticky liquid ran over his nipples and chest, all the way down his abs to his erection. It jolted from the cold. The liquid was followed by a tongue, trailing its path, licking it off. The tongue stopped on his nipples, sucking then, playing with them, making sure that when it was finished, there would be not a drop left. Iruka closed his eyes even though he couldn't see anything with them open. It just felt so good. He savored every moment of it. Breathing shallow and uneven. He was almost ready to come, and Kakashi hadn't even touched his erection yet. The tongue continued its cleaning operation, going down titillatingly slow.

The tongue paused. The expectancy made Iruka's hard member throb and twitch. He panted, waiting, feeling. Then the tongue licked his length from the base to the tip. Iruka moaned. His hips thrust forward, urging Kakashi to give him his relief. This teasing was too much. Iruka quivered.

Kakashi sucked it all the way in so fast that it blew Iruka's mind. His back arched and he moaned aloud. He couldn't take it anymore. He wailed.

"Please, Kakashi, s-stop. Please, stop. I-I can't. P-please!" Just as the first waves hit Iruka, Kakashi stopped. He pinched the tip of Iruka's erection so hard that it almost hurt. Kakashi's other hand pulled his balls, making the orgasm withdraw. Iruka panted heavily as he pulled his shirt off. Kakashi was still fully clothed except for the mask, which hung loosely around his neck. Iruka blushed. He rose up from the table and kissed Kakashi. Restraining himself, Iruka stripped Kakashi naked and knelt in front of him. Kakashi's engorged erection in its full glory, dripping with sex, was just inches away from him like a treat. Iruka licked his lips. This time, nothing could stop him. His hot breath caressed the tip of Kakashi's erection, making it twitch.

Iruka placed his hand on the base of Kakashi's throbbing member, steadying it. His other hand took a tight grip on Kakashi's buttock. Teasingly slow, Iruka pushed his tongue out, letting it touch the tip of Kakashi's length. Circling, tasting it. He let it slide across the slippery slit, pushing a bit harder.

Iruka looked up. Kakashi's breath was uneven and his eye was glazed with lust. Kakashi's hand came down, pulling Iruka's hair loose. Kakashi's fingers went through his hair and fixed tight against his skull, gripping his hair. Iruka slid his tongue over the vein on the underside. Kakashi moaned softly. He tasted good. Iruka was careful not to rub his erection anywhere. It would be too embarrassing to come in this situation. It was so exciting, so sinfully arousing. Iruka took the tip of Kakashi's erection in his mouth. He let his tongue play with it as he slowly sucked it deeper. Kakashi's muscles tensed. It was big, so Iruka sucked it in slowly. Pulling Kakashi deeper, clenching his buttocks. He relaxed his throat and took Kakashi all the way in. The hoarse moan made him do it again. And again. He wanted to suck Kakashi more, to taste him in his mouth. He wanted to drink Kakashi's cum, feel it flowing down his throat. The fingers in his hair tightened their grip and pulled his head back. Iruka looked up as Kakashi opened his eye slowly. He pulled Iruka up and gave him a tender kiss.

Smoothly, Kakashi turned Iruka around and bent him over the table. An oiled digit slid down and found his passage. It circled around it and pushed all the way in with one thrust. Iruka moaned. He was so aroused that any more tenderness would make him come.

"More," he whispered with a breathy voice.

Kakashi pulled the digit out and rammed two fingers in. Still not enough, Iruka thought.

"More," he whispered again, and Kakashi complied. He pushed three digits inside Iruka. Now that was something. The pain was numbed by his greedy excitement. He was so aroused that it drove him mad, trembling with need. His orgasm had been too close for too long. He wanted Kakashi inside him, he needed it.

"Please, Kakashi," he begged.

The fingers withdrew and were replaced with something much larger. It wedged the head inside and evenly pushed in, inch by inch. Deep. Iruka pushed against it, wanting to feel more of it, deeper. It hurt, but Iruka's mind was so full of lust, so full of bliss, that the pain had no room to endure. Kakashi let out a long, breathy sigh. He took Iruka's hips and steadied himself. Iruka didn't want to wait, he wriggled his hips and pushed against Kakashi until he had to move. He rammed a couple of times into him, realizing that Iruka wanted it rough this time. He thrust in.

Yes, this is it, Iruka thought. Then those strong arms pushed him away and turned him around.

"I want to see your face," breathed Kakashi, and rammed into him again. Iruka was flushed with heat and lust. He tried to cover his face with his hands, but Kakashi's hands took them and pulled them down. Kakashi was panting, moaning softly. He rammed again and again into Iruka. He hit Iruka's prostate and Iruka moaned aloud.

"Say my name," Kakashi rasped. As Kakashi hit the sweet spot again, Iruka cried. The familiar pressure in his stomach told him it was coming. The heavenly feeling was so close that nothing could stop him anymore. One more forceful thrust and he was pushed over the edge. It was like free fall. Just one big mind-blowing, violent burst. Iruka cried Kakashi's name, lauding it. Iruka's muscles contracted, and Kakashi moaned, pumping his seed deep inside Iruka. Kakashi's hand found Iruka's sore member and stroked it gently. The last of his load dripped to his stomach. Not minding the mess, Kakashi bent over Iruka. He took him tightly into his arms, pressing him against himself. Iruka wound his arms around Kakashi's neck. The tears flowed from his eyes.

"Don't cry," Kakashi whispered. "Was I too rough?" he sounded worried.

"No, not at all. I'm just so happy," Iruka said, bursting.

"I'm happy too."

"I love you," said Iruka and kissed Kakashi's neck.

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AN2: Review and tell me how you liked it! Was there enough turns and twists? I know the first, let's say, six chapters were a bit slow but I think it was nice in a way.