Help me believe its not the real me

Author's Notes

Sorry about the long brake in between the chapters… I went out and got an Anbu tattoo on my arm, (image link in profile) along with that I need a brake for lack of a muse… typing up a seven to nine page chapter along with six or more one page role play game replies was starting to get on me. However, thank fully the brake was good… I feel refreshed and ready for more!!

Again, Blizzy has yet to proof this chapter… He is working on it I swear… he is just super busy with other stuff and fitting the proof reading in when he can.

That is all!
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“Don’t close your eyes”

Chapter 11

“I wanna love you, but I better not touch
I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop
I wanna kiss you, but I want it too much
I wanna taste you but your lips are venomous poison”

Groove Coverage - Poison
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Kakashi struggled to get out of bed, he might have come back from being unconscious but his body fought him. It wanted to just rest longer, placing the palms of his hands on the side of the bed he let out a soft pant from the am ought of energy it took him to just move that small amount.

“Kakashi… you need to rest still,” Naruto said as he rushed to his side

Kakashi took a deep breath and pushed Naruto out of the way with his right arm, he did not care… He needed to tell her. Naruto stumbled back a bit but recovered and went back to Kakashi’s side trying to keep him from getting up. However, when he looked down at him Kakashi was glaring at him with his one dark blackish eye.

“I won’t tell you again, get out of my way” he said with a growl

Naruto turned his head to side and put his arms up in the air to show that he was not going to try to stop him again. He took a few steps back and watched as Kakashi took a deep breath again and tried to get off the bed. He rocked him self back and forth a few times before pushing up off the side of the bed. He let out a hiss of pain as he found him self standing next to the bed.

“I don’t think you’ll get that far just so you know... Your room is right a cross from the nurses station… might as well give up now before they knock you back out” Naruto said with a sigh

He crossed his arms and looked over to Kakashi who had found a bag on the floor next to his bedside table that had some of his stuff in it. Picking it up and placing it on the bed, he took his vest, headband, gloves and few things here and there.

“I don’t care… you don’t know what’s going on... You never do Naruto,” he said coldly a

Kakashi pulled on his gloves and then put his vest on. Letting out a sigh he turned to Naruto who just looked at him as if he had just hit him in the face.

“Is that so Kakashi… fine have it your way… do what you want… just don’t come crying to me or any one else!” he said in angry tone

Naruto stormed off out of Kakashi’s room, leaving him there with a wide-eyed look on his faces. Letting out a sigh he picked up his book off the bedside table and stuffed it in his open vest.

“How troublesome he can be at times…,” he said softly

He slowly made his way out the door and in to the hall where he leaned on the wall off to the right of his room for a brief moment and looked around. The nurse’s station was empty; no one was around. Kakashi let out a soft sigh of relief before pushing him self off the wall and placing his right hand on it to steady him self as he moved down the hall to the door that lead to a stair case.

Kakashi opened the door and started down the stairs, he was aiming to get to the first floor where Sakura more then likely to be. As he got to the landing in between the two floors h let out a gasp of pain, his eye was starting to bother him once again. He leaned in to the wall under a bright light and waited for it to pass. A soft pant could be heard before Kakashi started to go down the stairs again.

It took a good thirty minutes to get to the first floor. He pushed open the door and looked out in to the lobby; he could see threw the font doors of the hospital. It was starting to get dark out; the sky was a mix of pink and orange. Taking a deep breath Kakashi left the staircase, turned to his left, and started down a long hallway.

Kakashi was half way down the hall when he heard some one running after him, his right eye twitching a bit as he heard some one call out to him.

“What are you doing out of bed? What do we have to do… put on lock down and station and Anbu out in front of your door so you don’t get up and walk around?” came a women’s voice from be hind him.

Kakashi came to a stop and looked up in to a bright light above him.

“That would never of work… not with me like this…,” he said dryly

“What do you mean?” the women asked as she came to as stop behind him.

Kakashi did not say any thing at first, turned his head a bit, and looked at the women with his grayish eye.

“Shizune…” he said softly

With out another word he started to walk down the hall way again. A small hand grabbed him on the arm and stopped him

“Kakashi… please… go back to your room and we’ll send word of your student once she is out of intensive care,” she said looking down at the ground.

Kakashi pulled his arm out of her hand and took a deep breath before started to walk again leaving Shizune there to stand in the hall by her self.
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Tsunade let out a sigh as she wiped her forehead with the back of her right hand. Her brown eyes soften as she started to see the color came back in Sakura’s face.

“That was a close one you…” she said softly

Had Naruto found her an hour or so later; she might not have made it. The kunai that the man ran her threw with had nicked the Aorta in her lower back as well as cut threw her small intestines; She would of most likely bleed out in the woods.

Walking away from the bed that Sakura laid on she stopped by a small table in the room and wrote out her report of how she patched Sakura up and what had happen. If it was, one thing that Tsunade did not like it was paper work. She shifted threw a few papers skimming past a few parts here and there. There was a knock at the door as Tsunade laid the papers back on the table and was getting ready to leave.

“Come in” she called out as she walked to the door.

The door was slowly pushed open and the sight that met Tsunade shocked her a bit. Kakashi stood there leaning on the door a bit showing a slight discomfort in a soft pant.

“Kakashi… what are you doing here? You should be in bed,” she said softly

“How is she doing...?”

Tsunade stepped back and tilted her head to the sigh looking at Sakura sleep

“She’ll make it, it was a close call but what kind of medical ninja would I be if I couldn’t heal what was wrong with her,” she said as she looked at him from the corner of her eye.

Kakashi let out a sigh of relief, his grayish eye closed as he lifted him self off the door and stepped past Tsunade entering the room. He came to a stop next to the bed that Sakura was laying on; she looked so peace full just laying there. He hung his head as he lowered him self to the floor next to her bead.

“You shouldn’t have left… Why did you do it?” he asked softly

His words not really looking for an answer, he reached out his left hand and rested it on her right had. It wasn’t till Tsunade stated to walk up behind him did he realize that he wasn’t a lone with her, but he would be really dumb to believe that Tsunade would leave him alone with her when there where questions that needs to be answer by him and from her. Lightly lifting Sakura’s hand, he laid a soft kill on the back of it.

“I am such a foul, I made my self cold and uninterested in you and where does that get us? Please for give me,” he whispered

“So, it wasn’t just her feeling that feeling of something more between the two of you?” The soft voice of Tsunade came from behind him.

Kakashi’s right grayish eye drifted to the side trying to find Tsunade, she had placed her hands up in the air and hung her head before she spoke again

“I take it she didn’t ready the scroll I have giving to you to give to her?”

“We lost that some where along day two out there after we where attacked” he said

Kakashi turned his head to look at her with a raised brow; He was slightly interested in what was written with that scroll. However, Tsunade just smiled at him.

“It doesn’t mater now, what’s done is done I guess… by the way Kakashi… while you where out cold we took a guess at what was wrong with you but I was wondering if my guess is right…the Forbidden Jutsu… was it any chance the Gedo Mark seal?” she asked as she looked down at him

“Yeah that was the name of it… Though Only Kabuto knows the Reverse Jutsu,” he said softly letting go of Sakura’s hand before he let out a sigh as he stood up.

“That’s not completely true… You see that was one of Orochimaru’s Jutsus, and Sarutobi had known of it and of its Reverse Jutsu… only he wrote them down on a scroll and hid it some where with in the village… I would not give up any hope just yet… I have a hunch as to where Sarutobi hid it… I just have been to preoccupied to go look for it” she said looking down at Sakura

Kakashi nodded his head before walking past Tsunade; who grabbed his arm as he walked passed her

“Kakashi… I will only warn you once... You harm her in any way and I will not hastate to hunt you don’t and kill you” she said in a cold voice before letting his arm go.

Sakura was her student as well but deep down in side she was like the Daughter that she never had.

“Understood” he said softly as he slipped back out in to the hall

Kakashi slowly made his way back up two the first floor where he walked past the front desk and threw the door out in to the open streets of the village. He need time to clear his head and he would not get that if he stayed in the hospital. He aimlessly wander around the village at first until he found him self coming to a stop, taking a deep breath he looked up in to the sky. The stars where out now lightly lighting up the filed he stood in, he had wandered over to the stone memorial that had thousands of names craved with in it.

“I am so confused,” he said softly as he sifted his gaze back down to the stone memorial.
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Tsunade’s upper half of her body lay sprawled out on the table that was in Sakura’s room in a deep sleep, snores could be heard now and then from the room. She had decided to stay with Sakura until she came threw and was able to do a full check up on here.

“What is that sound”

Sakura let out a groan as started to come threw her unconsciousness, she slowly picked up her left hand and rubbed her head a bit. The soft sound of talking and snoring where too much for head to take now.

“Where am I?”

Sakura opened her eyes a bit but was forced to close them quickly dew to the blinding white light that shined down from above her. She slowly brought her self to lean on her left arm before letting out a wince from the pain on her left side. That’s when her memories started to come back to her; the last thing she remembered was laying in the woods bleeding out as a guy lifted her there to die.

“Who the hell did I get out of that alive?” she asked her self softly

The sound of papers scattering on the floor next to Sakura got her attention. Tsunade had woken up at the sound of Sakura’s pain and pushed the papers that had to do with Sakura and there mission on to the floor as she had pushed her self up off the table and walking over to Sakura.

“Lie still now… how do you feel?” she asked

Tsunade took Sakura’s left wrist in her hand and checked her pulse.

“I feel like shit… how else would one feel after being stabbed?” Sakura replied as she closed her eyes.

Tsunade gave a faint smile as she let go of her hand and moved closer to Sakura to check her pulp response to light. Sakura let out a sigh at this but willing went threw with it.

“Everything seems to be fine… but I’ll be keeping you here for another day or two before I send you home; your on leave from missions for a while just so you know…” she said to Sakura as she watched Sakura trying to set up.

“And I hope this is a lesion to you young lady that when I say something is to dangerous for you to do a lone you well do as I say and not run off like you did!” Tsunade said in a cold tone to her to her student.

“Hmm” was all Sakura said

Sakura let her self fall back on her pillow with a wince of pain. Now more then ever she wished she were like Naruto, with the fast recovery time. She let out a sigh and looked over at Tsunade who was no picking up the papers that had fallen on the floor and was putting them in a few folders.

“Tsunade… How is Kakashi doing?” she asked in a soft voice

Tsunade placed the folders with papers in them back on the table and started to right on a sheet of paper.

“He’s up and about now… More then likely left the hospital by now... However, he did stop by a few hours ago, do not worry about him now… He has something things going on that he has to sort threw but I am sure he’ll be back some time tomorrow to visit you,” she said before finishing what she was writing.

“Oh…” was all Sakura could reply.

Sakura felt sleepy again at first she fought it but soon drifted back in to sleep as her mind still wanted to wonder what was going on with Kakashi.
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Sakura ended up staying in the hospital for two more days there had been no sign of Kakashi. It looked as if he had left town but Tsunade knew better; he had his feelings for Sakura to work out, that alone was a big thing to ask Kakashi to do… he was never one to show feelings for any thing or even let others close enough to him to get a glimpse of them. She would give him a few more days before she sent Anbu after him.

It was a nice sunny day; there where hardly any clouds in sight and the birds where out and singing, in all it was a nice day for it starting to turn in to fall. It was way too nice to stay in the house. Sakura could be seen slowly walking down an old path that lead to the training grounds, now she was not looking to train… no she was looking any sign of Kakashi. Sakura came to a stop near a large rock that was adjacent to three wooden poles. She smiled lightly at the thoughts of how there her teams first mission went and how they had grown over time.

Unknown to her she was being watched; Kakashi had been trailing her since left her house. He had himself in a tree on the other side of the field. His back against the three and his one leg propped up on a branch will the other one hung over the side of it. It was way to easy for him to keep him self hidden from her, he was after all an elite ninja.

Kakashi let out a sigh as he watched her start to move on her way again looking a bit depressed about something. He wanted to talk to her but every time he thought was a good time to do it he started to feel funny, no women had made him feel this way before. Sakura slowly started to leave his line of sight, now was a good of time as ever to talk, there was no one out in the field besides them. He closed his right eye as he lifted him self off the tree branch before he disappeared in a puff of smoke.

Sakura had just gotten to the fence that surrounded the training filed when a puff of smoke showed up in front of her and scared her half out of her wits.

“Yo” Kakashi said as the smoke started to clear a bit.

Sakura took a deep breath as she clutched her chest. Her green eyes flicked over to Kakashi with a glare.

“Don’t do that, you could of given me a hear attack” she yelled at him

He gave a surge as he looked around a bit before looking back down at Sakura. Sakura let out a sigh before she relaxed a bit

“I am glad that your doing alright Sakura” he said quietly

Kakashi closed his eyes as he started to walk away from her; he couldn’t do it, he couldn’t tell her how he felt. Sakura tilted her head before she reached out with hand to grab his arm.

“Kakashi…” she said just barely above a whispered

Kakashi stopped and took a deep breath, He knew she felt the same way about him as he did for her but why was he so hesitant in tell her. His heart started to race at her touch.

“I…I… Kakashi… please here me out” Sakura

She tugged on his arm in an in temp to get him to face her but he wouldn’t move to look at her. Sakura let out a sigh and looked down at the ground and was caught off guard when Kakashi started to talk to her in a low tone.

“For days now I had forced feelings for you and thoughts of from my head… not knowing why they where there in the first place and why they where so strong… I was confused more then ever in my life by them”

He paused for a moment when Sakura tighten her hold on his arm.

“I Think I have fallen for you and when I heard you where heart and might not live I felt as if my heart had been ripped out… no one has ever made me feel this way before…”

Sakura’s heart was racing just as fast as Kakashi’s now, her breath came in short shallow intakes as she fought the eager to lunge at him and hold on to him tightly. Days ago she thought he wanted nothing to do him but now he was putting himself on the line and letting Sakura see a side of him that she was quite sure that no one had ever seem before.

“Kakashi… I… I have feelings for you too” she said softly

“I know… I have known for a while now” he whispered back to her

“I.. I don’t know if we should..” Sakura said

She couldn’t finish her train of thought for Kakashi had spun around and took her in his arms. He held on to her tightly taking in her scent and listen to her ever breath. Sakura didn’t fight his touch, instead she too put her arms around him. He lowered his head next to her.

“Sakura… I think I love you” he whispered in her ear

Sakura nuzzled her face on his chest and clung to him

“And I you” her voice barley audible to Kakashi

Kakashi lifted his head a bit as he heard something coming close to them down the fence line. He had a choice to make, did he want others to know about his feels so soon after just telling Sakura her self or was he going to hide it for the time being of which he didn’t want to make it alone. He looked down at her before he spoke

“Sakura… someone’s coming” he said softly to her

She took a deep breath and loosen her grip on him, now of all the times for someone to be making there way to the training grounds. She let out a sigh, she didn’t want this to end.

“What should we do?” she asked

“Well we could go our separate ways and met up later or we could go some where a bit more quite” he suggested to her.

Kakashi looked back behind him, who ever it was they where getting very close to them now and soon the tall bushes near the fences gate will not hide them any more.

“How about we go for a late lunch?” she asked

Kakashi smiled to him self at the thought

“Sure”