Hearts desires

Author notes: Ok so you’re all probably wondering what the fuck Base is talking about…. So here! Ok so‘gods’ have powers much like demons. Demons have destructive powers, gods have healing powers. Eiji was able to restore Yuudai’s body to ‘virgin’ Yuudai, where literally nothing happened to him, all ‘essence’ of the demon twins is gone. Gods only use their powers on special humans. Yuudai is special for having alerted the wolves to the demon’s hideout. It’s why the wolves never used their powers for the village girls and boys. Gods believe in free will and cannot use their powers to mess with a humans mind, or memories. Demons use their powers to get what they want, so they do use their powers to control a humans mind and memory. The kids of the village were under a spell by the demons, but because Yuudai had attacked the demon twins, the demons did not use their powers to make Yuudai forget, or anything. They wanted to hurt Yuudai as pay back for fighting back.

 

Get it? :3

 

~*~*~*~*Chapter 10~*~*~*~*

Yuudai curled up on the large bed, his eyes watching the small bandaged fox as she slept, her small body wrapped from neck to tail in bandages. Yuudai frowned running his hand over her head. The fox was in such a bad state she must have fought those demons before they took him, sometime after knocking him out. Yuudai sighed pulling the fox close, careful not to touch any wounds. He shook closing his eyes.

“I’m sorry Kit… This is all my fault… I’m such a fucking idiot.”Yuudai blushed feeling the fox’s small tongue run over his cheek. She chirped, her tail swaying. Yuudai smiled softly petting her again. They had gotten to Suna that morning and went straight to the Kazekage’s house. Yuudai closed his eyes relaxing as the sun beat down through the window, warming his body. He still had yet to send a bird to Konoha. He really just wanted to relax and forget the past three days altogether.

Slowly the door opened. Yuudai frowned glancing at the door then relaxed, seeing the one-armed brunette walk in slowly, those golden eyes watching him with a worried expression. Yuudai sighed, sitting up and frowned seeing the dark brown and white bird. Base had brought a messenger falcon. The bird was beautiful, its eyes covered with a leather cap to stop it from flying off too soon. Yuudai sighed softly grabbing the pouch of coin and began writing his note to the Hokage.

 

Mission a success, everything’s fine, kit and myself in Suna getting healed from minor injuries, will be back in Konoha by next week

 

Yuudai

 

“That’s all?”

“That’s all the Hokage needs to know.” Base frowned sighing softly. Yuudai was still refusing to call Naruto his mother. Base had noticed that in the past few years, ever since the Uchiha came back, Yuudai had begun to distance himself from the small family. Yuudai had moved out on his own as soon as he was allowed a small apartment to himself. He rarely came by to visit the family and spent his time on missions. Yuudai had begun to close himself off from his family.

It had gotten worse when the two children Ai and Chokichi were born. Ai was a female mirror image of Gaara and Chokichi, the image of Yuudai. The brunette could see it in his mother’s eyes, could feel the love radiating off his mother when he held the two babies. Chokichi was a child birthed of love, and Yuudai was a child birthed of such horror and pain. Naruto never noticed the looks he gave Yuudai, the sad pain filled looks. Naruto loved his son, he really did, but Yuudai brought so many pain filled memories of his attack.

So Yuudai had begun to distance himself from his mother and since his ‘father’ was the cause of his mother’s pain, Yuudai stayed away from the brunette man too. Gaara was the only one Yuudai would let near. The man took him in as his own, even though Yuudai was no blood relation, but then Ai came along and Yuudai closed himself off from the Kazekage. Gaara had two children he could raise. Two children born with the same blood as him, and Yuudai was left, the black sheep, alone, even with such a large family so close.

“Alright…. are you hungry?” Base asked softly attaching the pouch and letting go of the birds leg.

“No, I just want to sleep.” Yuudai laid back on the bed, his arm covering his eyes. His body shuddered, he suddenly felt sick at the thought of food.

“…. At least try to eat something later then…. You haven’t eaten in days…” Base frowned taking the hood off the large bird watching it fly out the window towards Konoha.

“…. Base…. I want you to go home… with Kit…” Base frowned looking the small brunette over. Yuudai’s arm was still over his eyes blocking out the sun, but it was clear the boy was crying. The smell of salt water filled the air and small lines of water ran down the boy’s cheeks.

“I will take Kit home to Konoha, but I will not stay there…”Yuudai frowned and shook; he didn’t want anyone to see him so weak, not Base, not anyone! He just wanted to be alone, wallow in his own darkness, but Base was smart. He could figure Yuudai out in seconds. He knew the boys inner turmoil… he knew the thoughts Yuudai had.

“I just want to be alone…”

“You just want to be alone… to do something stupid.” Yuudai smirked darkly; of course Base could figure it out. Yuudai was planning something dark and horrible for himself.

“You’re fucking useless.” Yuudai peeked out from under his arm, his black eyes darkening. He jumped from the bed towards the one armed man, swinging his fists. He blinked, his eyes going wide when for the first time, he’d actually punched Base, right on the jaw. Yuudai shook staring at the wolf god. Base’s face was turned from the force of the impact, a small frown on his face, his hair covering his eyes.

“I am useless… I couldn’t save you when you needed me the most… If hitting me will make you feel better, I will be as useful as you need… Hit me, slap me, bite me, stab me… I cannot die… But I will take as much punishment from you as you need to get rid of…”

Yuudai’s eyes went wide, tears began to fill them. He shook growling, his eyes darkening before he punched Base again, and again, and again…tears rolling down his whiskered cheeks.

Base shivered closing his eyes. The hits did hurt, but he knew this pain was nothing compared to the mental anguish the boy was suffering right now. He would allow the abuse to continue until Yuudai exhausted himself, until the boy let it all go. Base frowned feeling the final punch. It was weak, the fist lingering on his face. The brunette frowned looking at Yuudai. The boy’s eyes were screwed shut, his body shaking, tears rushing down his cheeks.

Yuudai fell to his knees, a broken shaky sob escaping his mouth. The boy screamed holding himself, his body shaking. He curled up with his forehead resting on the floor and his arm’s wrapped around himself, his knees pulled to his head. His sobs continued, his face covered in tears.

Base frowned, kneeling beside the boy placing his hand on Yuudai’s back. If this was all he could do to help the boy, he would. He would happily leave if it meant Yuudai’s happiness. He loved the boy. He loved Yuudai with all his heart and right now his heart broke watching the boy cry like a child on the floor, a broken motherless child. All the pain Yuudai kept hidden inside himself, all the self-loathing, came pouring out of him. Base pulled Yuudai onto his lap, holding the boy’s face near his shoulder. Yuudai’s arms wrapped around the larger teen, his face buried in the man’s neck. His broken sobs continued, his body began to shake harder. Base frowned sitting there on the hardwood floor, letting the boy sob onto his shoulder. Right now Yuudai needed support. He needed someone there and that someone was not him. Yuudai needed someone who had gone through the same mental pain.

Yuudai needed his mother.