Help me believe its not the real me

Author’s Notes

Some of you might have noticed that I have yet to post a chapter in the normal time spot of Mondays for a very long time now. I have had many real life problems that popped up once a month. It all started in October with me getting sick and put on bed rust for two-three weeks then once I was back to work, I had to put down my ferret because she was very sick and no way would she make it out of it. I had nothing really happen for a month beside work then I got hit again with having to put a ferret down but this time the vet thought he could save her so went with idea which lead to me getting only four-five hours of sleep a night for a month. Then two more ferrets got sick both need sugary and so far have had theirs and is doing well… so yeah I have had a lot happen in the past eight months

Please forgive me for such the long long wait.

That is all!

“There's no need to tell anyone”

Chapter 12

“Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you”

Evanescence - Anywhere

Kakashi looked back behind him, who ever it was they where getting very close to them now and soon the tall bushes near the fences gate would not hide them any more.

“How about we go for a late lunch?” she asked

Kakashi smiled to him self at the thought

“Sure” he whispered in to her ear

Kakashi loosen his grip on her before he started to walk away

“You know the place... See you soon” he said softly as he left her standing there.

Kakashi slowly made his way out of the training grounds fenced in area just as the one that had made Sakura and him stop being slow close came to a stop in front of him. Kakashi let out a sigh as Naruto rubbed the back of his head with a feeble smile on his face.

“Hey Kakashi, Have you seen Shikamaru…? He said he wanted to train with me but I haven’t been able to find him,” he asked

Kakashi let out a sigh, of curse it had to be Naruto that interrupted them. No mater, Kakashi may have been a bit hurt that he had to let his little cheery blossom go so soon but maybe it was for the better? Kakashi shook his head before he started walking again away from the area. He had other things on his mind now and he really did not want to put up with Naruto now. Kakashi lifted his arm and waved a good-bye as he disappeared in to the shadows.

Naruto stood there for a moment then looked back where Kakashi came from; he found Sakura walking out of the training grounds with a slight smile on her face. Naruto raised an eyebrow for a moment in thought. Sadly, Naruto’s brain could not come up with any ideas as to what was going on. He looked at her as she walked pasted him with narrowed eyes.

“Sakura… have you seen Shikamaru…?”

She stopped for a moment and looked up to the sky in thought before she turned around to reply to him.

“No I haven’t… I have to go... Something came up and I need to be some where shortly”

She said in a rush as she darted off away from Naruto who just stood there with a black look on his face. It was not until She was gone that he started to see what was going on. He had a slight smirk on his face as he looked back to where Sakura ran off to.

Sakura rushed home, she still had some time before she had to meet up with Kakashi. There for she should look somewhat good, she opened the door to her house with a smile and stepped in to her house. She rushed up the stairs to her room and sat down on her bed. She had no idea what she would want to ware out; her bright green eyes shifted over to her dresser, which had a dower open near the top. She slowly got up and walked over to see what was in the dower. She raised a brow as she looked down and pulled out a black lace pare of panties and then looked behind her as if some one was watching her.

“Oh… I just have to ware these,” she said with a giggle

She then opens a dower that was right under that one, it had a few shirts in it but nothing caught her eye so she went to the next dower. A short-sleeved shirt that had a light pink with a pattern of cherry bosoms falling on it caught her attention.

“Oh I have been looking for this shirt… Hmm if I can just find…”

Trailed off as she opened up yet another dower; she threw a few pieces of clothing behind her until her hand landed on a short light blue skirt. At first, she was going to throw it with the others that had landed on or near her bed but brought it back down near her face and laid it on top of the shirt she had picked out. The light blue skirt had a faded hemi that looked almost white.

“That looks great... Now to just get dressed”

She said as she turned around and walked to the bathroom to get dressed. Once she was done she looked in to the to check her air

“Hmmm what ever”

She said as she ran out of the bathroom, down the stairs, and out the door.

After Kakashi had left Sakura and Naruto, he slowly made his way over to the Hokage compound. He still had a few other things on his mind and had some time to kill seeing as he was on leave of missions until further notice. Now that he had gotten use to the pain it wasn’t that back as long as he didn’t use much or any chakra; which was why he was walking to where he had planed to go. It took a bit longer then he would like to get to the Hokage compound and then walk up the few flights of stairs to Tsunade’s office.

The door was open to the office; in side, Tsunade sat at her desk and had Shizune by her side as she chatted with Jiraiya. He slowly walked in and gave a little cough as he looked at Tsunade; who stopped talking for a moment and looked up at him then at Jiraiya.

“Kakashi…. I see your doing well… what is that you need?”

She asked as she narrowed her eyes at him and leaning forward on the desk. Kakashi let out a slight sigh, he knew he would have to ask this eventually but thought it would be good to know where he stood with her on this whole ‘Teacher Student Relationship” thing.

“Tsunade Sama, I have a few questions I need to ask you in light of resent advents with one of my students”

He said as looked away from her and over at Jiraiya; who know looked a bit more insured in what Kakashi wanted to talk about then what he had came there to do. Tsunade let out a short sigh and she slouched back in to her chair with her eyes shut in thought. At first, she did not feel like talking about this now, she was in the middle of something with Jiraiya. However, Kakashi hardly ever asked to talk or even ask questions. Sitting up she looked at Shizune.

“If you would be so kind Shizune… could you shut my door and cancel the next few things I have scheduled?” she had asked

And with out a word Shizune got up and left shutting the door. Kakashi relaxed a bit more now with it only being the two of them and a closed office. He shifted his weight a bit as Tsunade fixed her gaze on him.

“Now then Kakashi what is that you want to know?” she asked

“If I where to peruse this ‘Relationship’ how could it affect her and I?”

She thought as much that that was what he had came to talk about it

“You are both will train ninjas; you live mission to mission never knowing which mission will be your last. Life is to short and I as the Hokage see nothing wrong with this ‘Relationship’” she paused for a moment and closed her eyes “Some people will not understand it and some will most likely frown on it and question the whole time you where with her from the very start of you being her teacher”

Kakashi nodded as he took in what Tsunade had to say and gave his head a slight bow when she was done.

“Thank you Tsunade Sama, I have some where I need to be shortly… and I don’t want to be to late getting there”

He said with a smile as he turned to leave but he was not too far before Tsunade called after him.

“Oh and Kakashi remember, you hurt her and I’ll hurt you… take it easy”

Kakashi just stopped and waved his hand as he opened the door and walked away leaving Tsunade and Jiraiya a lone in the offices.

The place that Kakashi had picked was called the Leaf which was really only busy at night and mostly only ninja in there at all times of the day. Kakashi had treated Sakura and Naruto to a few meals after missions here; the food was good and so was the service was ok.

Sakura was the first to arrive at the restaurant which with Kakashi was nothing new. She stood there looking around for a moment trying to see if she could see him in the distances but she had no such luck. She let out a sigh as she turned and took a hold of the handle to the door and opened it. She stepped inside and let the door close, she looked around for a moment till she heard the door open again behind her. She turned her head to meet a smiling Kakashi; she let out a soft giggle almost not even audible.

“Well, lets get a place to sit shale we?” he asked

Sakura nodded and let Kakashi lead the way. There was tons of setting areas in the restaurant, you had the bar, the open room and there was even a back room with privet booths where you could set. Kakashi lead her past the open floor and the bar in the back area.

“We need to talk a bit and I would rather not have people hear what we where going to say”

Kakashi said dryly as he motioned for Sakura to sit a cross from where was sitting. At first she raised a brow but sat down. Kakashi let out a soft sigh as he looked at her.

“I’ve spoken with Tsunade about you and me pursuing any type of relationship”

Sakura nodded her head as he paused to see if she might be upset in any where. After all Tsunade was also her teacher and looked out for her best interest as well.

“What did she have to say?”

She asked him as she tried to relax a bit. Kakashi let out a soft snort as he laughed to him self.

“She won’t do any thing to use but warned me that some people might not see our relationship being a good thing.” He paused for a moment in thought before going on “If you want out now you can go and I won’t hold it against you… there is after all a four-teen year age gap and some people might think bad things if we go threw with this”

Kakashi didn’t want her ending up hurt. It wasn’t that she couldn’t handle herself but he knew all to will what other say can some times hurt more then a deep cut. He lounged back on his side of the booth waiting for any thing that Sakura would say back. At first she didn’t say a word; she weighed the pros and cons of a relationship with her past teacher in her head. There where way more bad things then good but she was willing to strike out and take a chance. She smiled as she leaned in on the table between the two of them.

“I get what you’re saying… I really do but you have to admit that there something there between the two of us. Why not just try it out with out telling others that way if it doesn’t work oh well and no one ever knew a thing but if it does…”

she paused for amount and looked down, she didn’t want to get to far a head of her self. Kakashi laughed a little and sat up.

“Don’t worry your self over that Sakura, We’ll get there when we get there” he said softly as he stood up and placed an hand on her right shoulder “Now then let me get us something to eat”

Sakura nodded her head and watched him walk over to an open order window and ask and old dirty looking man for something but couldn’t make out what he said. He stood up there waiting for the man. It wasn’t long before the man came back with a tray of food.

Kakashi slowly made his way back to her with the tray in his one hand and placed it on there table.

“I hope you like… Raman” he said with a laugh as he sat down

Sakura smiled and took a bowl off the tray and place it in front of her and looked at Kakashi with a raised brow for a moment.

“So, are you going to eat in front of me or point something out and make me look away while you inhale your food?” she said with a laugh

Kakashi laughed with for a moment, he could do that with out any problem but where would the fun be in that? He let out a sigh as he took his bowl off the tray and sat it down in front of him. He looked at the bowl for a moment as he scratched the back of his neck with his hand before surging and slipping two fingers in to the top part of the mask and brought his hand to the front of his face and pulled it down.

“Its not like you haven’t seen my face already… it was you after all who cared for me out on the mission” He said in coy tone as he looked up at her with a smile.

“You don’t look your age at all, you still look as if your around my age Kakashi… well at left in your twenties” she said right back to him in a coy tone and he let out a laugh and the two of them started to eat there lunch.

They didn’t stay that long to eat here lunch, there where more important things to do then to sit down and eat Raman. As teacher and student Sakura never really got to know much about Kakashi because he didn’t think that they needed to know or just didn’t feel like putting up with Naruto asking so many darned questions about his pass.

After they eat what they could they left the restaurant Kakashi offered to walk Sakura home. Even though it t was only some time around one or two in the after noon. This gave them some more time to talk and get to know one another more. Sakura started by asking Kakashi some question.

“So Kakashi… what are some of your likes, dislikes, hobbies and what are some of your plans for the future?” she asked as she ran a head and stopped and faced him.

“This sounds oddly familiar to me…” he said with a laugh as he rubbed the back of his head.

“Oh come on Kakashi… and don’t use the same answer you did before!” She said with a laugh

“Alright… alright; let’s see… will I like ready, and taking long walks… dislikes… I would have to say I really don’t like Raman… hobbies… I like to read?” he paused and laughed for a moment and looked at Sakura who looked to be hanging on his every word “Plans for the future… I don’t have any… really...” he said as he came to a stop and looked down at the grown.

Most men don’t plane out there life let alone a ninja. Sakura smiled as she looked back at the some what confused looking Kakashi.

“Its alright... don’t think to much in to it… really I just want to get to know you more Kakashi… is all really” She said as she took his hand in hers and lead him off towards her house.

They walked hand in hand for a while till they got to Sakura’s house. She stood on her door stop and looked at Kakashi as he stood there looking back at her.

“So… thank you for Lunch… Kaka…”

She was cut off and taken by surprise when Kakashi quickly pulled down his mask and kissed her on the lips ever so lightly. Sakura wrapped her arms around him lightly as he rested his head in the nook of her neck. He took a few deep breaths taking in her scent and then started to nuzzle her neck nipping here and there. Sakura held her breath for a moment before she panted out softly in to his ear

“Want to come up?”

“Sure”

Sakura reached behind her, took hold of her doorknob in her hand, and turned it. Her door slowly opened with a loud creek sound.

“Don’t you lock your door?” he asked softly letting her go and pulling away.

Sakura turned around and lead Kakashi in to the first room of her house. A small living room had a couch, a small table and a bookshelf that had a few titles that Kakashi knew well.

“Why should I lock it?” she asked

“Well you don’t want some old pervert coming and walking in to your house”

He said as Sakura closed the door behind him and then wrapped her arms around his waist. She leaned in to his chest and closed her eyes it all seemed right to her. Kakashi lowered his head to rest on hers and put his arms around her back. They stayed like that for a few minutes until Kakashi picked Sakura up in his arms, took her over to the couch, and placed her down ever so gently.

Kakashi knelt down in to the couch on top of her, one knee on the couch and the other stretched out and on the ground to balance him. He pressed his lips to hers, his tongue tasting her mouth. Her back arched with attention, and she lifted her legs to wrap around his middle.

Kakashi nibbled on her lower lip as he placed his left hand behind her back and placed his right hand over her shirt-covered breast and stated rubbing softly. She let out a soft whimper at the feeling of him rubbing her breast. Kakashi let go of her lip and moved to her neck where kissed along the carver of her neck to her coaler bone where he lightly suckled causing Sakura to moan a bit. She was starting to feel a light heat between her legs and a sight throbbing. Her breathing was starting to pick up a bit as she moved her one hand from his upper back to the back of his head taking hold of his long silver hair. She left her other hand in his back.

Kakashi moved his right hand down to the hem of her shirt and hesitated for a moment. He lifted his head so that it was leaved with Sakura’s and looked her in the eye; keeping his hand at her middle.

“Maybe we should stop… we have gone far enough” he said softly

“No… keep going”

Sakura moaned as she tried pushing her self in to him to find some way to calm the throbbing and heat between her legs. Kakashi smirked as he lifted her shirt up with his right hand and slipped his hand up on to her bar covered breast. He pulled the bra down with his thumb and took hold of her soft hardened nipple in his hand. He rolled it between his thumb and index finder and watched her bite her lower lip, creased her brow and closed her eyes, as the throbbing feeling got much stronger. Kakashi let go of her nipple, pulled her close to him slipping both hands behind her back to undue her bra, and then take both the bar and her shirt off.

Kakashi gazed down as the eructat nipples that now meet him. He smiled coyly as he lifted his left hand on her back and lowered his head down to her right breast. He took her one nipple in to his mouth and at first sucked lightly on it causing Sakura to let out a deep-throated moan as she tightened her grip on Kakashi sliver hair. He stopped for a moment and lifted his head and her grip losing and her hand feel to rest on his shoulder. He took his right hand and whipped his mouth.

He shifted his weight and brought her waist close to his. She could feel his penis threw his pants. He lowered his head down to her ear and lightly sucked on her earlobe; she gasped and panted hared. The feeling she had before was stranger then ever now and she now felt hot and wet between her legs. Kakashi let go of her ear and whisper in to it

“Are you sure about this… because in a few minutes...”

Sakura pressed her mouth to his and parted his lips with her tongue drawing his tongue forth he held her tight for a moment before pulling her shirk to the floor along with her black panties. Sakura undid his vest and pulled it off him with his shirt.

He grabbed her but in his hands and drawn her closer to his heard penis in his pants and she moaned softly and wrapped her arms around his lower back. Kakashi could not wait any longer; he quickly undid his pants and pushed Sakura down on to the couch softly. He parted her legs and took hold of her hips in his hands.

“This might hurt a bit,” he said dryly

He placed the head of his penis at the opening of her vagina. She moaned softly from the contact and that is when Kakashi slowly threshed his erect penis in to her. She gasped and wrapped her legs around his waist and placed her face in to his shoulder panting heard until he was fully in her. At first, his penis felt like it was ripping her apart from the inside; she knew how ever that with her first time it could be pain full a bit.

Kakashi smiled and looked down at her clinging on to him. He placed his head in between her shoulder and neck before he pulled out and trusted back in he repeated this movement a few times until Sakura found his rhythm and followed him. He would pull out and she would rock her hips back, he would thrust in and she rock her hips forward and up in to him eagerly taking him in. The movement across her clitoris was starting to drive her in to a climax; it was like a pending explosion. She arced her back with his every thrust as she hold on as tight to him as she could.

Moans soon shifted to gasps as she felt her lower half starting to go numb with pleasure. Kakashi tightened his grip on her waist as she cried out his named in a moan and buried her face in to his chest as her climax rang through out her body. Kakashi picked up the pace of his thrusting at the sound of his name; he found his release. He bowed his head in to her neck and grunted as Sakura road him out.

They where both spent, Kakashi pulled out of her lowered him self on to her so that his head was resting on her chest. They both laid there on her couch trying to regain there strength. Sakura slowly moved her left hand on top of Kakashi’s head and rested her hand in his silver hair.

“Wow.” She whispered down to him.

“Hmm…?”

“Nothing” she said softly

Sakura stroked his forehead with hand as Kakashi wrapped his arms around her waist and nuzzled his head in to her chest.

She learned that evening that Kakashi really enjoyed snuggling.