Altering Affection

With shaking fingers, Lee cut the last bit of rope. Gai quickly shook the cord off his skin and stood, dragging Lee up with him. Strong arms wrapped around Lee and pulled him into Gai’s chest. Distractedly, Lee marveled at how the difference in their height allowed Lee to rest his cheek on Gai’s shoulder. It was nice.

“Lee, I’m so sorry…”Gai murmured. “So sorry I hurt you.”

Hands roamed over Lee’s back, and rubbed at the nape of his neck. Gai’s hands seemed to be everywhere – as though now that he was allowed to touch his fingers couldn’t stop. Gai brushed his cheek against the top of Lee’s head, still softly apologizing. Then he reached down and pulled one of Lee’s arms from around Gai’s waist. Lee watched as Gai brought Lee’s hand up and inspected the scratched and scabbed skin. Lee took the bandages off days ago – he healed quickly – but his hands still carried the marks of his frustration.

“I did this,” Gai said as though speaking to himself. Lee wasn’t surprised that Gai guessed how he got the wounds. They knew each other well, after all. Gai brushed his lips over the worst of the scabs and sighed. “I’m such a damned idiot. So sor-“

“Gai, I forgive you,” Lee interrupted and Gai looked up. Their eyes met and this time when Lee saw the sadness there, he didn’t stop himself from instinctually touching Gai. Lee’s fingertips grazed Gai’s lips and traced over a cheek. Lee didn’t carry grudges – especially not against his most special person. He looked tenderly at Gai, still touching his sensei’s face.

“Just don’t do it anymore,” Lee said seriously.

“I’ll make it up to you, Lee, I swear it,” Gai said, low and fierce.

“I know how you can make it up to me,” Lee said.

Gai’s arms tightened around Lee, and his eyelids dropped lower over his eyes.

“How?” Gai whispered.

Amazed at his boldness but knees a little weak, Lee tilted his head up and let his mouth slide gently over Gai’s. Both men kept their eyes open, looking at one another and waiting. Lee’s heart fluttered, and he told himself that it was all right. Gai loved him – he said so. He wouldn’t push him away, he would –

- grab Lee and kiss him hard enough to bruise. After a breathless second, Gai eased up on the pressure and suckled Lee’s lips, tongue tasting and teeth gently nibbling. Lee’s mouth fell open and Gai’s tongue slid along Lee’s, lashing, licking, loving. Lee had never been kissed like this: like he was food and air at the same time and Gai needed him to survive.

With a helpless noise, Gai fell back into the chair and pulled Lee on top of him. Gai broke away from Lee’s mouth and kissed his chin, jaw, and over each closed eyelid.

“Wanted to do this for years…” Gai said softly as he pulled Lee closer and kissed his neck. “You taste so good.”

Lee breathed out a single syllable of need and let his hands slide over Gai’s bare skin. The touching made him feel greedy, and Gai’s lips worrying the skin of his neck made him feel feverish and weak. It was all so new and Lee’d dreamt about this for so long that the physical contact made part of his mind think he was dying.

And then Gai’s hands roamed down and gripped Lee’s ass and ground him against Gai’s lap. Lee moaned in the back of his throat and his nails dug into Gai’s skin. His mouth found Gai’s and the kiss was ferocious and desperate.

“House,” Gai said huskily when he finally pulled away from Lee’s mouth. Lee could only swallow and nod, his heart racing. Clumsily, Lee stood up and Gai followed suit. Gai grasped Lee’s hand, and Lee obediently followed his sensei out of the dojo and along the path that led to Gai’s home. The humid night air on Lee’s skin and Gai’s warm hand pulling him along helped to remind Lee that this was real and absolutely not a dream. No matter how surreal it felt.

All thought vanished again when they reached Gai’s front door. Gai tugged sharply on Lee’s arm and pushed him roughly back against the entrance to his house, his lips finding Lee’s. Gai’s tongue danced with Lee’s as he dug into his pocket for a key and somehow managed to kiss Lee senseless and unlock the door at the same time.

Gai pulled Lee to him as he opened the door, maneuvered them both inside, and then shut and locked the door. Lee felt pliable and languid despite the throbbing cock in his jeans. It was dark inside the house, the drapes drawn, lights off. Lee knew the interior well enough, but it was still disorienting.

Lee didn’t get a chance to get too acquainted with reality before he felt Gai’s hands moving him again. Gai turned Lee and then pushed him gently against a wall face-first, Gai’s hand under Lee’s cheek to cushion the blow.

“Mm, Lee,” Gai half-moaned. Gai pressed the length of his body against Lee’s and nibbled at his ear. He pulled back on Lee’s hips, putting some space between the younger man and the wall, and then ground himself against Lee’s ass. Lee gasped, the sensation of Gai’s hard dick against him sending Lee’s mind spinning. Gai chuckled low and soft into Lee’s ear and every hair on Lee’s body stood on end.

This was better than any dream or fantasy. The feel of Gai’s body, the way his mouth tasted, the steely heat pressing against him…Lee shuddered.

“Tell me…” Gai whispered as he traced light fingertips down to cover and grasp Lee’s hands. Then he slid them up on the wall above Lee’s head.

“T-tell you?” Lee stammered, letting Gai move him how he wanted.

Gai made a low noise and nuzzled Lee’s neck. “Have you ever been with someone like this, Lee?”

Lee swallowed. The two men never spoke about Lee’s relationships or lack thereof, so Lee supposed it made sense for Gai to ask now. His thoughts were interrupted when Gai none-too-gently kicked Lee’s legs wider. He now leaned against the wall like he was about to get frisked. Lee’s heart pounded in his chest at the thought.

“No,” Lee said, breathless.

Gai’s hands pressed against Lee’s – a silent command to hold still. Then Gai dragged rough fingertips down Lee’s arms and sides and slipped under Lee’s shirt. Gai’s hands were hot against Lee’s skin, and Lee could hear himself practically panting.

“Never?” Gai asked, his voice still rumbling directly in Lee’s right ear.

“N-no…well…” Lee paused to lick his lips, momentarily distracted by Gai’s hands caressing his stomach, tickling over his ribs. The new exploration over bare skin felt incredible. Lee pushed away from the wall a fraction of an inch to give Gai better access, but the hands stopped moving when Lee stopped speaking.

“I did make-out with Ino once, but it was terrible,” Lee amended.

Lee felt Gai smile against his ear and felt the soft kiss against its shell.

“But no lover’s ever done this…”

Lee was about to answer that, no, nobody had ever held him against a wall and made him want to beg for mercy. But then Gai’s fingers found his nipples, circled lightly, and then pinched gently once, twice.

“Oooh,” Lee breathed, and Gai did it again only harder. Lee flinched. Until that moment Lee had no idea that nerves in his chest were connected directly to his cock, but he knew now.

“No?” Gai whispered, still toying with Lee. His thumbs and forefingers squeezed and pulled the hardened nubs, and Lee felt a flash of helplessness and need.

Lee rolled his head against the wall, a negative.

“And no one’s ever undressed you in the dark?” Gai whispered and Lee shivered as hands pulled his shirt up and off. Then those hands were everywhere again: touching, exploring. Gai reached down to Lee’s belt and undid it slowly, the sound of the leather leaving the loops a harsh rasp in the quiet house. Lee trembled, beyond aroused and it was only beginning.

Gai shifted and Lee felt hands over his again – a press, stay. Then the hands grabbed his hips and squeezed.

“Don’t move,” Gai said softly and Lee thought he might not be able to even if he tried.

Gai’s hands slid down and undid the top button on Lee’s jeans. Button fly – but Gai had no issue with that. He somehow managed to undo all the buttons without really touching Lee at all.

Then Gai slowly slid his body down Lee’s legs, tugged on one leg to command it closer, and started working on Lee’s shoes. It took ten seconds and three times as many heartbeats.

The shoes came off, the pants followed, and without standing, Gai easily removed Lee’s boxers. Again – he did it without actually touching any of the parts that were dying to be touched. Lee’s legs trembled and he felt a soft kiss against his hip.

“Gai…” Lee whispered, desperate for something – anything. He tucked his face into his arm as something like amazement that he was naked with Gai kneeling next to him washed through him. It rendered him speechless.

“Well?” Gai said, and his tone indicated that Lee had forgotten something.

Lee felt Gai move and then had half a second to register lips on his skin before teeth bit into the flesh of his ass cheek. Lee yelped, but he came back to himself a little, and his voice returned.

“No,” Lee said loudly. “No one’s ever…nothing…never…” Lee’s words dissolved into a moan as Gai licked and sucked the tender flesh. Lee’s mind floundered, and his breath hitched as helpless desire overtook him. This was his sensei taking control of him, putting him into a wall, touching his naked skin. Lee tried to remember how to breathe, and his hands made fists on the wall.

God, oh God…I’m not going to survive this. Lee felt more than a little frantic.

Gai kissed the mark, nuzzling his face against Lee’s hip, and then stood quickly. He pulled Lee away from the wall and against his body, Lee’s head falling back on one shoulder. Hands roamed again and pulled Lee’s arms up and around Gai’s head. Gai’s touch traced the tender skin on the backs of Lee’s triceps and shorn underarms. Lee shivered, and Gai made an appreciative noise.

“Good,” Gai said. Lee didn’t have time to determine if Gai was responding to his answer or his hairless state because Gai stepped around Lee and knelt. Lee cried out as the world shifted and he suddenly found himself in a loose fireman’s carry over Gai’s shoulders. Lee’s hands scrambled over Gai’s back and arms trying to find purchase.

Gai laughed and playfully smacked Lee on the ass.

“Sensei!” Lee yelped and that earned another smack. They were moving now, through the living room and toward the bedroom. Lee didn’t like being carried in the least: it reminded him that no matter how much muscle he acquired, he would always be compact and lean in comparison to Gai’s wide and dense. If he’d thought about it rationally, he could have gotten down, but all he could think to do was squirm.

“Stop that,” Gai said, his tone oddly gentle. Lee felt one of Gai’s hands move up the back of his thigh and then dip between them. Fingers casually brushed up, over, and then into the cleft of his ass and Lee immediately stopped squirming. His eyes went wide and wild in the dark as the fingers continued their exploration seemingly without purpose – almost just prove they could touch there if they felt like it.

Lee made a strangled noise as he felt the depths of his inexperience coupled with the giddiness of finally being here in Gai’s house, over Gai’s shoulder, heading toward Gai’s bedroom. Lee felt dizzy again, like a tide was pulling him under.

Then Lee was air born for a second until his back hit the soft comforter of Gai’s bed. Lee met Gai’s eyes as his sensei quickly stripped off his pants in a fluid motion. The windows in this room faced away from the dojo and looked out over the garden. The shades weren’t as dark and Lee could see more – his eyes adjusting quickly. Lee’s breath caught as he looked at Gai. Of course he’d seen the man naked before – training all these years, it was bound to happen.

But the hunger in his sensei’s expression was entirely new. Lee swallowed and then Gai was covering him, a knee forcing his legs apart, a mouth kissing his cheek, his chin, his lips. Gai’s tongue dominated Lee’s, and Lee wrapped his arms around Gai’s neck, pulling him closer. Lee raised his hips seeking friction and Gai moaned into his mouth.

Lee felt like a live wire – a needy thing made of want and lust driven to touch, hold, pull, taste. He wasn’t even sure what he wanted – not specifically. More of Gai’s hands, more of his mouth. He wanted many of the things he’d read in Kakashi’s books, but had no clue how to ask for anything. What if Gai didn’t do those things?

Then he heard Kakashi’s voice telling him that Gai loved rope and many things of that ilk, and all Lee could do was moan helplessly into his sensei’s mouth.

“God, Lee,” Gai gasped, pulling his mouth away. Lee felt one of Gai’s hands reach between them, felt fingers quest and move with purpose. Then Gai’s hand wrapped around Lee’s cock and rubbed it against his own, and Lee’s head went back, his mouth open in a surprised, “Oh.”

“So hot like this,” Gai panted, his hand stroking them both.

“God, yes, oh, Gai, please…” Lee shook all over and his skin flushed. Gai sprinkled kisses on his shoulder and neck, licked over his Adam’s apple. Lee reached over his head and grasped at Gai’s headboard, which was made up of wrought-iron bars. He needed to do something or he’d fly apart. He gripped two bits of iron and pushed up into Gai’s hand, wanting more. The hand moving, the feel of Gai’s cock against his…oh God, too much…Lee gasped.

“Lee,” Gai said and Lee opened his eyes. Gai’s strokes never paused, but his gaze was on Lee’s hands above his head. Gai licked his lips.

“Gai?” Lee managed, thought struggling to clear the haze of pleasure.

“I want to…” Gai stopped and seemed to discard some idea. Lee swallowed, almost certain he understood. Lee threw a silent thank you to Kakashi and the author of that black book else he’d be completely confused.

Gai bent down to kiss Lee.

“Okay,” Lee said before Gai’s lips were on him. “Do it.”

Gai pulled back. “You don’t even-“

“Please,” Lee gasped. Lee hoped the single word managed both to give permission and beg Gai to get on with it. More, more, his mind screamed and his body echoed the need.

Gai’s expression grew equal parts tender and hungry. He kissed Lee and slowed his hand down by degrees and then pulled away. Lee ached for the lost touch and felt the precipice of pleasure slip away from him.

“Hold still,” Gai said, and anticipation sliced through his over-heated core. Gai rolled gracefully off of Lee and to one side of the bed, an arm sliding down and searching for something. Lee heard a container shift on the floor, and he watched as Gai moved and sifted through unseen items. The process took mere seconds.

Then Gai moved quickly back to Lee, something in his hand. Lee forgot to breathe as Gai knelt next to Lee’s upper body and reached for the headboard. Metal clinked against the iron and then Lee felt something soft encircle his right wrist. Lee’s entire body pulsed and trembled as Gai buckled each wrist into the leather cuffs. A chain connected the restraints and looped around one of the iron bars.

Lee suddenly and desperately needed to come.

Breath expelling in a rush, Lee whimpered as Gai settled over him again. Lee arched his body up and into Gai’s when his sensei kissed him, his teeth gnashing and tongue lashing. Gai gave as well as he got, and Gai’s hand returned to Lee’s leaking cock. Lee made needy sounds against Gai’s mouth, and Gai chuckled low in his chest.

The older man pulled his mouth away and looked at Lee, his expression tender. That made the need worse, and Lee bucked his hips unconsciously, trying to make Gai move faster; trying to find the release that felt so close yet impossibly far away.

“Another question, Lee,” Gai said, his eyes sly. Lee ground his teeth together. The man wanted him to think? Now?

Really?

“Sensei…please,” Lee implored with his eyes and pulled against the leather. The chain clanked, and Lee took a moment to think that karma was a bitch.

Gai swallowed and his eyes clouded with lust, but he shook his head. “Not yet. Tell me…if there’s been no one else, then where did that scene in the dojo-“ Gai pulled away as Lee tried to lean up for another kiss. Lee’s sensei was not so easily distracted.

“Where did that come from?” Gai continued.

Lee gasped and closed his eyes as Gai shifted and kissed down his neck. Lee tilted his head to one side and felt Gai’s teeth nibble his collar bone. Then his sensei moved lower, tongue laving a hot trail down the center of Lee’s chest. He blew lightly on one hard nipple and teased the tip with his tongue.

“Books,” Lee gasped. “I read…about all of it.”

“Ah,” Gai said, apparently satisfied. He shifted again and his face was suddenly hovering over Lee’s, their noses touching.

“Lee, if I do anything you don’t like or want…tell me, okay? I don’t want…” Gai’s eyes shifted to Lee’s wrists and he bit at his lip, as if feeling the irony. Then he nuzzled Lee’s face gently.

“I don’t want to go too fast for you.”

Lee swallowed. “I…I don’t like that your hand is moving so slowly,” Lee said. He hoped that managed to convey that going too fast wasn’t really a problem. Too slowly, however, was becoming an issue.

Gai looked sharply at Lee and then his face relaxed into an expression of pure wickedness and delight. He crushed his mouth to Lee’s, and Lee licked at Gai’s lips. He strained against the cuffs again, and Gai made a noise of pure desire.

Gai’s head dipped and he attacked Lee’s nipple and tightened his grip on Lee’s cock. Lee cried out, feeling over-sensitized and nearly insane with need. Every time he felt the tide ebb – felt a little bit of sanity return, his control attempting to surface – he remembered that this was Gai kissing him, touching him, stroking him…and then all he felt was heat.

But the pace still wasn’t fast enough, and Lee thrashed.

“Tell me what you want, Lee,” Gai said as he moved to the other nipple and gently bit down on the tender skin.

Lee’s head rolled back and he grunted. “Faster,” Lee panted. “Please, faster.”

Gai complied, but loosened his grip slightly. Lee yanked hard against the cuffs and if the headboard had been anything but iron, it would have bent. But before he could complain – loudly – Gai spoke again.

“I know what I want, Lee, and what you’re going to do.”

That got Lee’s attention, and he felt Gai plant a kiss on his upper abs, felt him move lower, the bed creaking, his hand steadily moving on Lee’s shaft. Lee’s entire body tingled.

“What…what are you…”

“Look at me, Lee,” Gai commanded, and Lee opened his eyes to look down. His brain nearly overloaded at the sight of Gai’s hand on his throbbing cock, his lips on his skin, and Lee barely managed to meet Gai’s intense gaze.

“I want to taste you, and you’re going to come in my mouth,” Gai said, and his tone brokered no debate.

Lee made a noise like he’d been punched in the gut and watched as Gai positioned himself over Lee’s cock and pulled the head between his lips. Then Lee was lost and falling backward on the bed, moaning. Nothing – nothing – ever felt so good. He was overwhelmed with the heat of Gai’s mouth, the warm lap of his tongue just under the head – so sensitive Lee nearly came off the bed. Lee felt Gai suck hard and swirl his tongue once, twice.

Then Lee’s vision went white, his mouth hanging open in a startled gasp.

“Gai-“ Lee managed and then he was coming – hard and hot, emptying himself down Gai’s constricting throat as Gai swallowed and drank him down. Lee’s back arched at the peak of pleasure, and then he panted and shuddered in the aftereffects of the most intense orgasm of his life. Gai didn’t remove his mouth until the last tremor subsided.

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