Fallen Leaves (Formerly Kakashi: No Regrets)

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A little more Itachi and Kakashi just for you bmth-007.

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Sasuke’s group rested once in the woods before pushing on to their base. Karin was very quiet the whole time. She had been a help to Sasuke, healed him, and watched his back, but Sasuke had nearly abandoned her during the fight with Danzo. And his chakra was so cold and dark . . . she didn’t know him anymore. She would never get her wish, she would never see him smile, really smile, ever again. Unless it was at Kakashi.

They made it to their adopted home and all went to their rooms to sleep. Except for Kakashi. He was still fuming. Sasuke was enraged by the stolen Sharingans Danzo had used, but he was tired. While they were running, Kakashi’s furious energy was being spent, but now . . .

In Itachi’s room, Sasuke put a hand on Kakashi’s shoulder to try and calm him, but Kakashi rounded on him and pushed him into the wall. The hit to his head against the wall dazed Sasuke. He looked into Kakashi’s eye and saw blind fury. Kakashi pinned him there.

Sasuke called out mentally for Itachi. Itachi was confused to wake up to Kakashi’s furious eyes.

“Sempai?”

Kakashi’s eyes immediately softened. “Itachi.” Kakashi let go, his furious energy drained and he crouched in front of his lover.

Itachi crouched as well. “What’s wrong? I never thought Sasuke would ever run and hide behind me like a frightened child again.”

“Minato.”

Itachi’s expression turned supremely sympathetic. Sasuke was watching from within. Minato sealed his chakra in Naruto and spoke to him, Sasuke told him. He said he can’t talk to him anymore and I doubt they’ve been like us.

Perhaps it was a onetime thing connected to the Kyuubi’s seal.

Naruto mentioned Minato and Kakashi was furious.

He has reason. That, his father’s suicide, the death of his teammates, and your leaving Konoha were the only things he ever showed grief or anger about. He had come to terms with all the latter, but Minato’s disappointment . . . Tell me, what happened today?

We went to stop Pein, Sasuke lied. We were too late.

That was the rage I felt?

Part of it. Naruto defeated Pein before we arrived. We had to act as the villains. I tried to capture Naruto and that’s when he mentioned Minato, trying to sway Kakashi from trying to capture him.

That must have hurt. I can see why he’s upset.

The conversation didn’t take very long internally. Itachi pulled Kakashi to him. “I’ll tell you again, I don’t believe Minato was disappointed in you. Maybe he was disappointed in himself, that he couldn’t save them and was ashamed to face you.”

“I can’t forgive him for abandoning me. I may have been a Jounin, but I was still a child.”

Itachi rubbed at his hair and back comfortingly. “You must try to let it go.”

“I hate him so much.”

Itachi repositioned and pulled him in even closer. “Doesn’t do anything to hate a dead man. Forget him. His opinion doesn’t matter anymore. Go to sleep. Sasuke’s tried, you must be exhausted.”

“Apologize to him for me; I didn’t mean to attack him.”

“I will.”

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“He always loved Sasuke more,” Naruto said. He was looking at his food rather than eating it.

Sakura sat opposite him, barely eating either. They sat alone in a small tent Naruto would be sharing with Yamato and Sai. Sakura would be staying in the tent housing Tsunade and Shizune.

“He let you and me be trained by the other Sanin after Sasuke left. He wanted to train Sasuke. He took him aside and trained him for the chunin exam. I’ve always been jealous even though I know it was because of Sasuke’s lightning nature and he was better at chakra control than me, but he didn’t even try to find out what my nature was. He palmed me off to Ebisu. That hurt.

“But I still can’t believe Kakashi-sensei would turn on us,” Naruto said. “I really thought he cared about us. He may have palmed me off back then, but he had confidence in me, went out of his way to train me to use my wind nature when I came home. I think he was proud of me; he said he believed in me, that I was capable of surpassing Yondaime. I never knew my parents, but when he and Iruka and Ero-Sanin praised me or looked proud of me, I thought I knew what it must be like to have parents. But the way Kakashi spoke to me . . . what he said about my father.”

“Your father?”

Naruto realized he hadn’t told Sakura about meeting Minato. “Sakura, when I let the Kyuubi take over, it was Yondaime who suppressed him, not me. And he told me he was my father. I’m the son of Yondaime. I was angry at him for putting the Kyuubi inside me, but I was really happy to meet him and that he’s my father.

“You know he was Kakashi’s sensei?” Sakura nodded. “Did you hear what Kakashi said?”

“No.”

“He sounded like he really hated Yondaime.” Naruto felt awkward calling him anything other than Yondaime. “He said Yondaime abandoned him and blamed him for the deaths of his teammates. It felt like he hated me too. I can’t help thinking that he always hated me. Was he acting all this time?”

“Grief can do strange things to people. That’s the root of it with Sasuke too. They’ve both changed.”

“Sasuke already attack us,” Naruto said. “I’m not so surprised by him. I think I can understand him wanting revenge against the village. It’s like what I said to grandma Tsunade when I blamed her for sending Ero-Sanin on the mission that got him killed. I can understand Sasuke. But Kakashi-sensei?”

“I know. But if what they said was true, that he and Itachi were lovers, then I guess it’s not that different from Sasuke’s revenge. He must have really loved him. But to betray the village? I can’t imagine that of Kakashi-sensei. Could it be Sasuke’s influence?”

“I don’t know.”

“Do you still think either of them could be saved?” She was slightly hopeful. If there was any light in this situation, Naruto was the one who could see it.

“No. But I don’t want to kill them. Sasuke was going to take me to Akatsuki. He must know they will kill me.”

Sakura looked down at her food again. After a minute, she came around to sit next to Naruto and hug him. He put an arm around her. She wanted to comfort him, but she started to cry. They had lost the two people closest to them forever.

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Itachi was still there when Kakashi woke up. Sasuke was emotionally exhausted and had drifted off while Itachi was still cuddling the sleeping Kakashi. They had moved into the bed and Itachi was dozing against the headboard with Kakashi’s head in his lap. Itachi’s strength was increasing and could remain in possession of Sasuke’s body much longer.

Kakashi’s stirring woke Itachi. The way Itachi caressed his head told him this was still Itachi and not Sasuke. As he moved, Kakashi felt his lover’s morning erection. Kakashi mouthed it through his clothes. They were both mostly clothed, so Itachi pulled at Kakashi’s shirt. As they stripped, Kakashi continued to use his mouth on Itachi’s erection. Finally, he was free to engulf his lover’s bare cock with his mouth.

Itachi was too lost in pleasure to feel Sasuke’s silent presence. He was just a little jealous that Kakashi was so gentle to his brother. But he couldn’t begrudge either of them that; Sasuke was the one who was into violence, his brother was not.

Kakashi kissed up his lover’s torso, flicking his nipples with his tongue.

“Which way do you want to go?” Kakashi asked, his lips caressing his chest.

“Let me take you,” Itachi sighed.

Kakashi intended to switch places with Itachi and lie on his back, but Itachi took his face in his hands and kissed him. Slow and languid. Itachi knew just where to lick inside his mouth, sucked on his tongue just the way he liked, sucked and licked his lips almost too perfectly. Kakashi was lost in just the kiss. It didn’t matter anymore that this wasn’t Itachi’s body; this was Itachi. His lover. His soul’s idol. He kept his eyes closed, not wanting to see Sasuke.

Itachi moved around, holding Kakashi in place, on his knees. Having just recently been taken by Sasuke, Itachi knew he didn’t need to prepare him. Was he jealous of the amount of sex he knew Sasuke and Kakashi were having? Not really. He had given his blessing and could feel his brother’s very strong, long repressed libido. And he knew Kakashi’s libido well enough. He decided, however, to remind Kakashi what he used to beg for, what Kakashi would get down on his knees for. They had a loving, not S/M, relationship, but he enjoyed it when Kakashi got on his knees to beg. Sasuke saw a shadow of that memory and liked it.

Itachi knelt between Kakashi’s spread legs and moved closer, pressing his arousal against Kakashi’s ass. Itachi trailed his fingers feather light down Kakashi’s scarred back. He teased the edges of the more serious scars where Kakashi was most sensitive, where the scar tissue met the normal skin. He leaned in to lick between Kakashi’s spine and his shoulder blade. Itachi reached around to massage his lover’s chest. He racked his fingernails over his nipples, then gently tweaked them, rubbing them between his fingers as he continued the lick his back, kissing the scars. Itachi backed off to move his lips down his spine, stopping to lap at the salty skin along the way, dragging his fingers down Kakashi’s abdomen as he went.

“Itachi,” Kakashi sighed. Sex with the two brothers was so different. Itachi was the embodiment of patience—most of the time—and always gentle even when his lover was in no way delicate. Sasuke was . . . aggressive.

Itachi’s fingers brushed between his cheeks and over his needy entrance. Kakashi jumped at the feeling of his lover’s tongue even if it was not uncommon. Itachi spread his cheeks and teased the smooth skin of his cheeks and crevasse before teasing the puckered rose. At first it was just light laps, but then he started to stab it with the tip of his tongue. He stabbed deeper and deeper, letting the growing circumference of his tongue force Kakashi’s body open. Kakashi relaxed as much as he could, encouraging the wet muscle deeper.

Somewhat loosened, Itachi began darting his stiffened tongue in and out at varying speeds; first slow, then as fast as a descent fucking; it felt better against his rim than being fucked.

“God, Itachi!”

Kakashi groaned in frustration as Itachi’s pace changed back to a slow poking or switched to gentle lapping. Then he hooked his tongue up and pressed his lips to the rim and sucked.

“Fuck!”

Itachi continued to suck while moving his tongue around. As he did so, Itachi drew a finger down Kakashi’s scrotum. Itachi’s touch was so much gentler than his brother’s as he caressed the flesh Sasuke had been abusing two days ago. Kakashi mewed. Itachi switched back to tongue fucking him, leaving copious amounts of salvia in and around his entrance.

Finally, Itachi moved away and tapped on Kakashi’s hip to indicate for him to turn over onto his back.

Itachi kissed Kakashi’s shoulder, right above the crease of the armpit where he knew Kakashi was particularly sensitive. He tongued it, poking it and licking it. He then drew his lips down Kakashi’s body, beginning at the crease and going down his chest down to his hip, just on the side so to tease the more sensitive skin. His lips came back up to his collarbone to travel back down over a nipple and down his abdomen, his breath puffing against his skin. It was light and enticing. Sasuke marveled at the affect it had on Kakashi who was breathing heavily and wanting to writhe, but restrained himself, giving Itachi complete control. A body so used to pain and discomfort cried out at the slightest touches of pleasure.

Itachi’s tongue created a spiral around Kakashi’s navel, licks and ghostly touches making his abdominal muscles twitch. That tongue dipped into his bellybutton. It was an intimate kiss, his tongue caressing the inside of the small alcove and then sucked on the edge of it, just as he had with Kakashi’s hole.

He left off the kissing to continue trailing his lips down one of the ‘fuck me lines’ leading down into Kakashi’s groin. His breath tickled the hairs around Kakashi’s already painfully hard erection. Kakashi had completely forgotten whose body was above his. He was waiting for Itachi’s long hair to fall and feather his hip.

The tip of Itachi’s tongue was the only part of his body touching Kakashi’s as it lightly touched where the shaft met his scrotum. The small lick, not even an inch long, touched the throbbing vein. Kakashi repressed a plea, wanting more, but enjoying the teasing far too much to make it stop. Itachi turned his head sideways and drew the tips of his teeth up the underside of Kakashi’s cock, his tongue poking out along his length. His teeth were so light that it only enticed rather than hurt him. Itachi then allowed his saliva to fall from him lips onto Kakashi’s weeping erection, lubing it.

Itachi was back up at his chest teasing his erect nipples expertly. His palm gently rubbed Kakashi’s saliva coated cock, pressing it against his stomach, while his fingers ventured down at every down stroke for slight touches to his swollen sac. Itachi’s erection was rubbing against his thigh as he writhed whorishly against him.

Itachi’s hand vanished from his painful erection and reappeared to poke at his perineum, tapping his prostate from the outside. Kakashi tried to not to buck, wanting to leave everything to Itachi, but his body fought against his will to get more. Itachi’s lips brushed his abdomen lightly again as he slowly drew himself up to reposition.

Suddenly, after all the light touches, Itachi pulled away and took Kakashi’s length into his mouth. The teasing was replaced with aggressive sucking and laps of his tongue. Kakashi could hear the wet sounds in the back of Itachi’s throat when the head of his cock went in to the hilt. Itachi let a few whorish sucking sounds escape as he gave Kakashi one of the best blow jobs of his life, jabbing his tongue in the silt and again varying the speed and intensity as he had with his ass. Itachi grabbed the base of his cock feeling Kakashi getting close too quickly. Itachi gave Kakashi one last suck, his lips being pulled tightly up to the head, then catching on the flare before releasing him.

Itachi let go of him. He pulled Kakashi legs up and began using his lips again as he had on Kakashi’s chest on his inner thigh. His fingers played on the side of Kakashi’s knee and behind it. He was waiting for Kakashi to calm down enough so that Kakashi wouldn’t cum as soon as he continued.

Itachi contained to tease Kakashi’s inner thigh as he reached down to tease Kakashi’s entrance. Kakashi hardly noticed that Itachi’s long, slender fingers were far too calloused from swordsmanship to be Itachi’s. Like all of Itachi’s touches tonight, they were light and teasing, rubbing the remnants of salvia into the ring. Kakashi couldn’t help writing against them, wanting to be fucked so bad.

Itachi pulled away and dragged his hands down the sides of Kakashi’s slender hips then grabbed his ass to raise it and push his scarlet blanket under him, to bunch it up to get a better angle.

Itachi grabbed the lube and prepared himself. He touched the head of his cock to Kakashi’s entrance and just swirled it around without any penetration. Some memory or consciousness told Kakashi not to open his eyes and he didn’t, letting the illusion of this was wholly Itachi continue.

Sasuke’s larger head popped in, but it was Itachi’s method. Itachi pushed in inch by inch without ever pulling out in between thrusts. Very Itachi, denying him any draw back. Even the last inch was pressed in at the same speed. No punctuation. No feeling of finality that he was completely in. With Sasuke’s added length, it was an easy illusion as it continued longer than remembered.

Completely buried within his lover, Itachi leaned down to breathe on Kakashi’s neck. Sasuke’s height was a hindrance and he tilted his head up to breathe on Kakashi’s upper chest. Sasuke’s body was a hindrance, but he continued.

Once again very sudden, Itachi pulled completely from Kakashi’s body. Though this was his method with Kakashi, he never quite did it the same way. Kakashi was expecting a hard thrust back in, but instead it was another slower, uninterrupted thrust.

Itachi held still. Kakashi’s inner muscles twitch, wanting something, anything, to happen. Itachi rolled his hips, twisting it inside him, moving in every way possible without pulling out or thrusting. The squirming movement within him without Itachi fucking him, made Kakashi sigh and gasp.

“Itachi.” Itachi remained silent despite wanting to say something, he let Kakashi enjoy it without Sasuke’s voice interfering; he knew Kakashi was deep in a self induced illusion that neither of them wanted to break; he wanted to preserve the illusion that this was a month ago. How much had changed in such a short time? Itachi pushed the thought away. Sasuke could hear it and had to agree; so much had changed. So much. It even made Sasuke sad. Everything had changed. Sasuke was forced to slink back away from his own senses to keep Itachi away from that sadness. Let him have uninterrupted time with his lover.

Kakashi started moving his hips up and down on his own. Itachi aimed and started thrusting right into Kakashi’s prostate. It only took half a dozen strikes to make Kakashi cum. He cried out Itachi’s name.

Itachi pulled from Kakashi’s body and leaned down to lick Kakashi’s cum from his stomach. Again something whispered to Kakashi not to open his eyes, rather he brought up the memory of Itachi’s beautiful young face licking up his cum. Normally Itachi would kiss Kakashi and let him taste himself, but he was afraid of Sasuke’s taste interfering. So, instead, Itachi reentered him, slowly and gently, and fucked him that way, slowly and gently. Itachi cam deep inside him.

By this time, Kakashi’s erection had come back. Itachi went to work. Nothing fancy this time, just powerful, wanton sucking. Kakashi finally moved on his own, wanting to put his hand in Itachi’s hair, but Itachi stopped him, putting his own hands in Kakashi’s threading his fingers together with his. There was a new urgency in Itachi’s sucking. Finally, Kakashi cam again, this time in his mouth.

Itachi crawled up Kakashi’s body and snuggled up under Kakashi’s chin. The spikier, less silken hair brought Kakashi fully back to reality. He put his arms around Itachi’s more muscular brother.

“I’ll always love you, Itachi.”

“Always.”

Sasuke let himself feel his brother’s satisfaction and went back to sleep with Itachi and Kakashi following him back into oblivion.

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Juugo was outside communing with birds before the sun set. Karin came out, startled to see Juugo there.

“I didn’t know you were out here,” Karen said nervously.

“I’ll be going in soon. Do you need something?”

“No. Actually . . . I’m getting out of here. I’m leaving. Sasuke’s obviously with Kakashi and he doesn’t care about any of the rest of us. I think he did before Kakashi joined us. I just wanted to see Sasuke smile one more time. But it’s not the same. It’s not him anymore. I don’t know if it’s his brother or Kakashi or his lust for revenge, but Sasuke’s changed. I have to leave. You should leave too.”

“Sasuke is the only one who can suppress my urges to kill.”

“He doesn’t care about that anymore. He will only stop you from going on a rampage when it’s inconvenient to him. Sasuke’s just using your urges to kill to get his revenge. He’ll dispose of you once he doesn’t need you anymore and will sacrifice you when it suits him. You should leave too.”

“I won’t leave him.”

“Good luck with that. Give me a head start before you tell them.”

“I won’t say anything unless they ask.”

“Thank you, Juugo.” Karin ran off into the trees.

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“Karin’s turn to cook?” Sasuke asked as he entered the dining room. A night and day’s rest had done wonders for his and Kakashi’s dispositions; they were somewhat recovered from the anger over Minato and Danzo’s usurped Sharingans. Now they were pleased that the elders who gave Itachi the order which ruined all their lives were dead. Itachi and Kakashi having sex didn’t hurt. And Sasuke’s eavesdropping. “Where is Karin?”

“I haven’t seen her most of the day,” Suigetsu said, happily.

“Juugo?”

“I saw her outside. I don’t think she’s coming back.”

“We have a runner,” Kakashi said.

“Let her go,” Sasuke said. “As long as she doesn’t betray us, she’s free to go. In fact, the two of you are free to go; this is our mission. I appreciate your help though.”

“Where else can I use my swords as I see fit?” Suigetsu said. “I’m staying.”

“You’re Kimimaru’s replacement, the only one who can help me; I’ll stay.”

“Thank you.” Sasuke wondered into the kitchen. “As long as my brother isn’t allowed to cook.”

“I concur,” Kakashi said.

Itachi chuckled in Sasuke’s mind. I can’t believe you don’t like anything sweet, Itachi said. You’re just like Kakashi.

“That’s right, I’d forgotten about that,” Sasuke said out loud.

“What?” Kakashi asked.

“That you don’t like anything sweet.”

“True, I don’t,” Kakashi said. “The one thing Itachi and I never saw eye to eye on.” He was not put off by Sasuke having half a conversation anymore.

“We’re nearly out of everything. Just steak left.” Itachi shuttered inside of him. “Well you don’t have to eat it. Just back off my senses for a while.”

Tastes like blood.

“I happen to like that taste.”

The conversation was beginning to worry Juugo and Suigetsu.

“Is he always like this?” Suigetsu asked Kakashi.

“Very rarely. They’re switching much more easily now.”

“Itachi’s getting stronger and I’m indulging him to feel my senses,” Sasuke explained. “I’ll be ‘eating alone,’ so to speak,” Sasuke smirked. He threw the last of the meat in a spice mixture and heated up the indoor grill. “You can have dessert while I take a nap.”

“That’s just weird,” Suigetsu said.

“Tell me about it,” Kakashi said.

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Itachi was shut out of Sasuke’s senses as Sasuke curled up into Kakashi’s side.

“No doubt we will be sent to capture Naruto now,” Sasuke said.

“None whatsoever.”

“But our larder is empty; that should be our priority tomorrow. Feel like some marauding?”

“Anytime.”

“I shouldn’t be so tried.” Sasuke snuggled closer.

“It’s been emotionally trying. You’ve been sort of living for two; I’m not surprised you’re tired. Get some sleep. We’ll need all our stamina to complete your plan.”

It was a little worrying how quickly Sasuke fell asleep. Having two souls—three, if you count the locked away Orochimaru—living in Sasuke’s body was beginning to take its toll. Kakashi had hoped Itachi could live on in Sasuke’s body indefinitely, but that was proving impossible. Soon after this was all over and he would have to say goodbye to Itachi forever. Once again.