Do Over

Now I know it has been a while since my last chapter and I did temporarily have an alternate chapter 13 prior to this, but I realized at the time that I wasn’t comfortable with the direction that chapter was taking, so I took it down and instead thought about it a bit and wrote this replacement chapter… which will not be removed, unless for editing purposes. So I hope you all enjoy the ‘real chapter 13’ and please review because I would love to hear your comments on it.

Do Over-Chapter 13 by KitsuneFun

Disclaimer: I don’t own Naruto that honor is held by Masashi Kishimoto

There was only one place Gaara would be, in Home Ec; it was the redhead’s easiest class due to his culinary talent and the one that Naruto, despite his boyfriend’s tips, always failed. However, Gaara never held that fact against him, saying that he always enjoyed cooking for Naruto… especially when he got to listen to all the hot noises Naruto made when he ate, which usually ended in a make out session between the two.

Naruto blushed a bit at the enjoyable thought, wondering why a similar incident couldn’t have happened earlier; instead the worst possible situation happened that morning with Sasuke kissing him.

It didn’t take Naruto long to reach the classroom, thought it all seemed to be a blur at the time, as he tried to keep his scattered emotions in check as he traversed the hallways, with eyes that were still blurry due to the tears that were still falling slowly from his eyes.

‘I should have never let the bastard kiss me…’ he could still feel the ghost like memory of those warm lips pressed against his own, ‘God how could he have been so stupid to allow that to happen. He shook his head at the memory before it could consume him further, what was important now was for him to find his boyfriend… even if it ended bad, the redhead still deserved to know what happened before he found out from the bastard himself.

The Home Ec’s class was placed near the very back of the school, an almost deserted location, close to the auditorium where they held the plays and about a 5 minute run from the entrance, but it was also the most spacious for the needs of the students who took the class there. Naruto managed to get there in record time, just as Gaara was reaching to open the door and flung his arms around his boyfriend’s waist holding him close from behind and causing to other to stop and stare down at him in surprise.

“Wow… I guess you can’t get enough of me huh?” It was meant to be like the playful banter that Gaara normally had with his boyfriend, but he was surprised by the teary-eyed and devastated looking reaction, to his words, on his boyfriend’s face, “Naruto… Koi what’s wrong?” he turnedon his heel and wrapped the distraught boy within his warm and secure arms, bringing Naruto closer to his body.

Naruto leaned his forehead against Gaara’s chest and began to cry anew, “Oh god… I’m so sorry…” he hiccupped, burying his face further into his boyfriend’s warm chest, he’d cheated on the one person he never wanted to hurt.

He felt a strong hand run up through his soft hair, rubbing at his scalp, as Gaara petting the locks in a soothing like manner, “You don’t have to be sorry, you didn’t do anything…” the redhead was thinking it all had to do with the incident with Shino earlier and the fact he had left them while they were doing their daily joking session, “I know how you are… its something I have gotten used to…”

“No…” Naruto mumbled, clutching Gaara tighter almost making the redhead uncomfortable with the grip the smaller boy had on him, as he shook his head negatively in response, “I never wanted that to happen with him… he should never have entered my life again… I hate him…” if possible, the blonde’s tears started flowing faster down his cheeks, “I hate him so much.”

It was the only clue, Gaara had, that this clearly wasn’t about Shino, whom he liked almost as much as the redhead, his hand stilled against Naruto’s head as he thought about this incident having anything to do with his boyfriend’s ex, “Is this about Sasuke?”

Gaara look down slowly at the head of spiky white blonde hair against his chest and watched it pause in response before slowly in agreement, “What did he do?” the redhead asked slowly, dreading the outcome.

Naruto gripped at the loose fabric of Gaara’s school jacket from behind him and started to shake in response, “You’ll hate me…”

“Naruto!” the blond flinched at the sudden angry tone that laced his boyfriend’s voice, having already expected it, but still dreading the actual response all the same, “What the hell happened?” the redhead pushed his boyfriend back enough so he could look down into the other boy’s depressed face.

Normally beautiful blue eyes, were puffy and red, from all of Naruto’s crying and his nose was slightly swollen, making him appear as if he had a cold, “I didn’t want it… and he did… he made me, but I…” he couldn’t stop shaking in fear of loosing Gaara over his stupid actions.

Jade green eyes stared down at him in confusion over his jumbled words, taking a deep breath to school his emotions, Gaara closed his eyes briefly and tried again to get a clearer answer from the blonde, already feeling annoyed at the obliviousness of the other boy’s answers, “I promise that I wont get angry… just tell me what happened…”

The redhead didn’t expect his normally cheerful boyfriend to act this way, it hurt seeing the sudden blank expression in the others eyes, that were normally so filled with life, “I let him kiss me… I” he stared deeply into the redhead’s jade green eyes as he continued, “I enjoyed it… and” he watched Gaara freeze in surprise at the confession and paused, afraid to continue.

Gaara crossed his arms in anger as he stared at Naruto, “He kissed you?” Naruto nodded yes, not wanting to push his luck, “And you let him kiss you after we…” Gaara pushed a hand up through his short spiky hair, gripping it slightly in his frustration, he didn’t want to bring out his anger at Naruto, he’d been told about the boy’s past relationship, did the kiss mean that somewhere… where Naruto was repressing the emotion, that he still had feelings for Sasuke, “Tell me… do you still love him?”

Naruto opened his mouth in surprise at the question and yelled, “No! I…”

“Don’t Lie!” Gaara held up a finger, signally his boyfriend to stay quiet, which had started to shake, over him suppressing his anger over the situation, “Tell me the truth… do you still care about him!”

Naruto looked hurt by the accusation, “He hurt me by using me then discarding me like I was nothing… in fact, he even said I was nothing to him in his letter and just when I thought that maybe it was a joke… I found pictures of him fucking another guy, why the hell should I love him!”

Gaara was shocked, his green eyes widened slightly in surprise, by the amount of anger that filled his boyfriends voice, but it seemed that it was laced more from hurt than genuine anger, “You didn’t answer my question…”

He watched the blonde duck his head against his chest, “I…”

“Naruto…” he lifted the other boy’s chin slowly, eyeing the hurt that was clearly tearing at the other boy’s soul, as his red-rimmed and blue eyes stared up at Gaara, “Why are you with me?” It was a question that had been buzzing through his brain, ever since he was told about the Uchiha and he wanted to know for sure what his heart was telling him, but he needed Naruto to say it.

Unlike the last few minutes, Naruto wasn’t confused when he answered, “I love you…” their was no question in his mind that what he felt for Gaara was real, “…he can never replace you,” ‘But that’s it…’ Gaara thought staring down, in sudden realization, at his boyfriend, with a clear head, more so than what the blond was feeling himself.

“The truth is that I can’t replace him Naruto… is that it?”

The blond’s mouth dropped in horrified shock at the suggestion, “No… its not the same…” he moved to close the distance only to have Gaara widen it again by moving his feet away from Naruto.

“What does that mean?” Naruto flinched at the harsh tone to the redhead’s question and gritted his teeth to hold back the tears that threatened to spill again from his eyes. Naruto clenched his fists tightly against his sides, hoping to will the fear away and answer, he had owed Gaara that from the beginning, but had let the redhead think less about the situation, than what it truly was, in that way, he was about as guilty as Sasuke was for what happened between them.

“How can you stop loving someone that has been your best friend since kindergarten, who was like your other shadow, someone who knew everything about you… your likes and dislikes, someone who was closer than a family member… Sasuke was that for me and then in junior high…” Naruto’s voice broke a bit as he relived the memories, “I started dating girls and it never worked and whenever I cried about it… Sasuke was there for me, he was always there for me… so” he paused to lick at his suddenly dry lips as he started to confess the rest.

“So…” Gaara asked wanting and yet not wanting Naruto to continue about his past, knowing it would break his heart the more he was told about the situation between his boyfriend and Sasuke.

Naruto looked up at him sorrowfully, “I didn’t intend to fall for him… I didn’t even know I could like guys that way…” he blushed remembering the day Sasuke had confessed his feeling to Naruto, on the top of the school roof, just after Hinata had dumped him. He gripped his arms across his middle tightly, feeling the echoed fluttering of butterflies swirling in his stomach, “He said that no one loved me as much as he did… and that all the girls that I had dated and kissed made him sick because they were always trying to use me to get to him… when all he wanted…” Naruto moved his hand to touch at his throat that had started to chock up a bit at the memory, “He just wanted me… Sasuke always loved music and wanted to be a singer, but he said none of that mattered unless he had me…”

“It was true, but he lied… didn’t he, “ The both turned to stare at Shikamaru that had exited the Home Ec class when he noticed Gaara wasn’t there yet, when the redhead was normally the first one to be in the classroom.

Naruto nodded slightly, Shikamaru had been there after all so he knew more about what had brought Sasuke and him together and what had broke them apart than anyone else, “I showed Shika the letters and at first he even tried to convince me that Sasuke wouldn’t have done that, that I should talk to him.”

Gaara turned to look at Naruto’s current best friend in surprise, “You knew all about the relationship…”

“Yes,” the stoic brunette wasn’t one to pull his punches and only hid the truth a bit when it came to Naruto because it was important for him to protect, one of only two people that he saw as family, the other being Chouji. He had only grudgingly started talking to Kankurou again, this last year, when the other boy, finally convinced him that he wouldn’t try to help Sasuke anymore… that they weren’t friends, especially since his brother was dating Naruto, Shikamaru believed him, “We all know how that turned out so you don’t have to tell Gaara anymore…”

The blond shook his head slightly, “Gaara more than anyone deserves to know everything, don’t you think so Shika?”

The brunette only shook his head slowly, in an annoyed manner, “How troublesome…”

Naruto smiled a bit at the comforting normality, in the slight chaos that was happening, “You always think everything is troublesome, you ass…”

Shikamaru sighed and waved his hand for the other to continue, “So I have been told… so annoying…” he leaned his back against the side of the hallway nearest the blonde to give him the mental support he needed, in telling Gaara the last of his confession about the past.

“That night you saved me wasn’t the only night I tried to kill myself…” Naruto managed to continue his story, though he started to fidget from one foot to the other in anxiety, “About 6 months earlier, Shikamaru had to call an ambulance to save my life because I was comatose due to the amount of alcohol poisoning in my system… I promised Shika then that I wouldn’t continue to drink, but I never promised him that I wouldn’t try killing myself again… it seemed so natural for me to give up after seeing, that the one person I had thought I could trust unquestionably with my heart, had decided that I was nothing to him and chose to love someone else…” he pushed his hands against his chest, feeling the pain that still resided there at the continued memories, “But your right… in some way, I still feel something, even though I want to hate him, for what he did to me…”

Gaara didn’t know how to respond, he wasn’t expecting to hear that their was so much history between Sasuke and Naruto, but despite his anger, he could tell how much it hurt Naruto to confess all he had to him, “Is that all?” at Naruto’s nod, he took a deep breath to calm his anger, which had surprisingly simmered a bit at the confession, “I guess that leaves me no choice…” Naruto flinched a bit as the redhead reached towards him, thinking the redhead might hit him, but instead his boyfriend pulled him close and kissed him softly on the mouth, “I guess I have to prove something to you… neh?” Blue eyes looked up at him in surprise, at his response, as the redhead turned to address Shikamaru briefly, “Tell Kurenai that I will be late to class… make something up, I need to talk to Naruto in private…”

The way he said private made Shikamaru uncharacteristically smile, instinctly knowing everything would turn out ok, “Just make sure your not late to second period… cause I doubt Iruka is as understanding as Kurenai…” with that he waved the two goodbye as he entered the classroom again, shutting the door with a quiet click, as he left the two lovers alone.

This time Naruto found himself being dragged to both his and Gaara’s 1st and favorite make out spot, the empty storage room next to the auditorium, it was a place they often went to when they thought they wouldn’t be missed during an assembly program, usually getting the info they needed from an bored Shikamaru later.

Looking up at his boyfriends intense expression, he wondered briefly what the other boy would do to him, thinking that it couldn’t be good considering his earlier actions despite having been kissed, he was pleasantly surprised when the other boy, after closing the door pressed Naruto’s body against the door with his own and proceeded to kiss the daylights out of him.

At the other boys’ mumbled gasp of surprise, Gaara took advantage of the situation and pressed his tongue inside the others mouth letting their tongues duel slowly, letting their combined tastes mingle. Naruto eagerly kissed back, with equal fervor, pulling the redhead close by running his hands up to wrap around the back of Gaara’s neck.

A minute later, they pulled away briefly, in order to catch their breaths and just stare for a moment into each other’s eyes, “Does that mean I am forgiven,” Naruto asked hopefully as he continued to stare into Gaara’s eyes.

Gaara sighed a bit, leaning his head forward in order to press his forehead against Naruto’s own before closing his eyes to take in the other boy’s musky yet sweet scent, “I am trying and I know I am going to regret asking this of you later, but…” he opened his eyes to look at Naruto again, loving the boy, yet hating what he had to do next, “I think you should date Sasuke.”

“What!” it was the farthest thing from Naruto’s mind, but Gaara knew that if his boyfriend didn’t confront Sasuke and get these feelings out of his system, him and Naruto could never move forward with their relationship because the blond couldn’t stop thinking about his old love, Naruto needed closure and Gaara, though he hated the idea, would give him the space to do that.