Fallen Leaves (Formerly Kakashi: No Regrets)

DarkAngelJudas: Honestly, I don’t feel much for them either, but I felt I needed to give them a little scene.
Prescripto13: I kinda like this not-quite-duel-personality thing.
krito1389: Thank ye!
bmth-007: I do love Itachi. *sniff*

Short chapter with a little sweet lemon before the final battle (didn't say the end of the story though).

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Juugo thought he should stay with Sasuke, but Karin’s words had left a mark.

“We no longer have a medical-nin, so take extra care not to get injured,” Sasuke said. Kakashi was leading them to a Konoha outpost on the border with the River Country.

That was the only instructions Sasuke gave them. Sasuke used to say ‘no killing,’ but not anymore. With this group, ‘kill everyone’ didn’t need to be said. It made Juugo sad; the man who recruited him, the one who said he would help him, the one who allowed him to leave his cell, the one who had made him feel trusted and needed, was dead. Some part of Sasuke’s soul had died with his brother even if his brother was in a sense living within him.

Juugo had control when they initially attacked, but the scent and sight of blood brought out all his murderous urges.

Juugo woke up crouching among the bodies, his exhaustion having ended his rampage. At first he didn’t remember anything, he just saw the carnage around him. His memory began to fill in as always, unveiling the horrors he himself had committed.

He turned to Sasuke. The raven haired man was dispassionately stabbing the throats of each dead shinobi. Sasuke had let him rampage and it wasn’t Sasuke who’d stopped him. Karin’s words came back to him. Sasuke had no intention of helping him, just using him. He looked away. These three men were enjoying killing people. Did he really want to remain with them?

He was unaware that Sasuke had stopped what he was doing and was watching him.

“Juugo.” Juugo looked up into Sasuke’s eyes. “Gather provisions for yourself and head out on your own when you’re ready.”

“Eh?” Suigetsu said, surprised.

“Juugo isn’t like us, he’s like Karin. You were rather calm up north, you should head up there, Juugo.”

“Wait,” Suigetsu argued. “We have to carry all this stuff ourselves?”

“I’ll help you,” Juugo said. “I’ll leave from our base.”

Sasuke nodded to him. He looked up with his Sharingan and scanned the area. He leapt away with Kakashi moving with him as if he could read Sasuke’s mind. Suigetsu followed them. Juugo stayed behind.

Sasuke and Kakashi made the perfect team cutting through the Konoha shinobi. But he ordered one man left alive.

Sasuke saw a hawk flying away. He summoned one of his own, leaped onto his back, and went after it. His own hawk screamed and Sasuke let him kill the smaller messenger rather than hit it with his Chidori. Sasuke circled the outpost to find any more shinobi running around or hiding. He actually missed Karin for a moment.

Sasuke returned to the ground and grabbed the man Kakashi was holding. Sasuke didn’t bother with verbal questions, he just used his Sharingan to probe the man’s mind.

Sasuke’s eyes faded to black. “Kill him.” Kakashi slit the man’s throat. “The Hokage has not woken up and they are making due with a council for the time being. The number of shinobi here was because they want warning, if not prevent, our crossing the border again. They don’t know where we are, but they think we’re in one of the smaller nations like River or Waves, or using Oto.”

“They haven’t put much effort into tracking us,” Kakashi said.

“They don’t have many shinobi to spare.”

“Be better to hunt us then reinforce the borders,” Suigetsu said.

“Konoha is now vulnerable and they are ripe for invasion,” Kakashi said. “Reinforcing the borders is prudent. We and Pein have ravished Konoha.”

Sasuke smiled. “Indeed. It’s late and there were more shinobi here than I anticipated. Everyone’s dead so there shouldn’t be any reinforcements coming; we can probably sleep here tonight. We’ll gather everything we intend to take first so we can head out immediately in the morning.”

Pretty certain they’d killed everyone, they begin gathering supplies.

Just beyond the Sharingan’s range, one shinobi broke from his hiding place and ran. He ran toward Suna rather than Konoha, Suna being closer. They were close allies and could either warn Konoha or move in themselves.

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They weren’t comfortable having sex in enemy territory, but Sasuke let Kakashi fondle him while they kissed. Sasuke had commandeered the commander’s room and had taken care of any booby traps. He didn’t want to drop his guard, but it felt too damn good. He cam into Kakashi’s hand. Sasuke pulled his hand up and licked it clean then pushed Kakashi up against the wall, fell to his knees and suck him off. Kakashi thought it was funny that Sasuke was fine with this, but didn’t want his cock in his ass. Sated, they fell asleep.

They were still asleep when the attack came. Suigetsu woke up a few hours after dawn and knew if Sasuke wasn’t ordering anyone around, he was asleep. He did maintenance on his sword outside when he sensed someone approaching. Several someones.

Suigetsu leapt up and looked over the wall. Suna. He ran down to where the others were sleeping.

“Sasuke! Suna is attacking.”

Sasuke rushed out of the room, pulling on his belt, already half dressed. Kakashi was on his heels fastening his weapons pouches. Sasuke was smirking.

“Kakashi, the ground isn’t very hard here.” Sasuke looked him in the eye. Kakashi understood and left.

“Suigetsu, have fun.” Suigetsu ran back out to the wall. “Juugo!” Sasuke adjusted his equipment. Juugo came out of his room. “We’re being attacked. Do whatever you want.” Sasuke went out to join the fight.

Outside, Kakashi used his headhunter jutsu, pulling several shinobi into the ground. It wasn’t a lethal jutsu, it was a taunt. And their attention was directed at the ground. Suigetsu seemed to come out of nowhere to cut them in half. Then Sasuke appeared with his Chidori and sword. It was a massacre.

“They underestimate us, they didn’t send Gaara.” Sasuke beheaded two shinobi.

“Gaara’s Kazakage,” Kakashi said snapping another man’s neck.

“Really? I hadn’t heard that.” Sasuke threw Chidori senbon into two men’s eyes. “Kinda wished Oto was more legitimate; I’d be a Kage too now.” The Suna shinobi were amazed these two were having a normal conversation while they were outnumbered twenty to one. Emphasis on ‘were.’

The Suna shinobi regrouped and attacked the two of them while Suigetsu stood some ways off taking on his own group.

“Kakashi, back to back.” Kakashi obeyed, backing up into him. Sassano grew up around them. His sword appeared and took out the eight men rushing them. He turned and shot an arrow at the last the one going for Suigetsu. He lowered the painful jutsu. Suigetsu finished off the last of them. Juugo never arrived.

“We’ll have breakfast and rest, then go home.” Sasuke wasn’t perturbed by the attack in the slightest.

“Was Suna attacking Konoha?” Suigetsu asked.

“No,” Kakashi answered. “Suna and Konoha are close allies. Someone must have escaped us and gone to Suna.”

“No double a message made it to Konoha,” Sasuke said. “They will be incensed. Eat quickly.”

They came back and walked right by Juugo. There was no anger at the fact he hadn’t helped, they completely disregarded him. He was no longer one of them.

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Juugo carried the bulk of their supplies to their home base as promised. He gathered his things and prepared to leave. Sasuke stood at the entrance waiting for him.

“I am sorry to see you go. No hard feelings.”

“Really?”

“You didn’t sign on for a war with one of the Five Great Shinobi Nations. As long as you don’t betray us, I wish you well.”

“Thank you.”

“Do me one last favor.” Sasuke gestured to a well stuffed pack. “Take this to another of Orochimaru’s hideouts.” Juugo nodded and Sasuke pulled out a map and showed him the location. “Just leave the pack in the entrance way.”

“I will do it.”

“Thank you.”

Juugo took the extra pack and left. Sasuke did feel a little sad; he’d come to feel something for this team he put together. Now he’d lost two of them.

Sasuke wondered back into the hideout. Kakashi was sitting on Itachi’s bed repacking his and Sasuke’s weapons pouches. They hadn’t just stolen provisions, they had stolen replacement weapons—shuriken, kunai, and a few scrolls—and medical supplies. They were preparing for their finale battle against Konoha after all and they had lost their only medical-nin.

“Juugo’s gone. Suigetsu is only staying for the slaughter, but that’s one reason I chose him; he’d never shrink at bloodshed. Once this is over, we’ll part ways with him as well.”

“It might start getting lonely around here.”

“I haven’t been gregarious since I was eight,” Sasuke said sadly. “I’ve since loved quiet. But I will miss them. Soon it will be just you and me.”

It was Kakashi’s turn to look sad. “It will be less lively. But there’s only one person I’ll miss.”

Sasuke’s eyes softened. “You and I will have years together if we survive.” Sasuke’s eyes shut and when they reopened it was Itachi looking at him. He smiled gently at him, his eyes full of affection.

“I will miss you so much, Itachi,” Kakashi said.

“You’re going after Madara?” Sasuke’s voice still sounded so strange taking on Itachi’s deeper tone.

“Yes.” Kakashi wasn’t really lying; he was their target immediately after Konoha. They were expecting a message from Madara soon ordering them to go after Naruto. They would do it then use his delivery as a blind for attacking him.

Kakashi removed all the pouches and weapons from the bed. Itachi got in behind Kakashi and put his arms over his shoulders. If Kakashi kept his eyes closed or Itachi stayed out of Kakashi’s range of vision, he could pretend Itachi wasn’t dead. But he wanted to see him, feel him, smell him. As much as he truly, deeply loved him, he missed all the physical things about Itachi.

There was nothing sexual about the way Itachi was touching him. Kakashi could have sex—violent, passionate, utterly disgustingly satisfying sex—for the next few decades with Sasuke. He didn’t want to have sex with Itachi now, but he couldn’t think of anything to talk about.

Itachi nuzzled his head against Kakashi’s. He couldn’t think of anything to say either.

“I love you,” Itachi said. “Be careful when you fight Madara.”

“I will. I don’t want to lose you again, but that can’t be helped.”

Itachi’s arms tightened around him. The truth was, Itachi was fully aware of the change in his lover and his brother. They were darker; there was no better word. He didn’t want to stay much longer. Kakashi wasn’t the same man he’d fallen in love with anymore. He still loved him, but he was different. Itachi wondered how much of it was because he still existed in Sasuke’s mind. He knew he was the root of it all, but wondered what additional damage was done by his ghost.

Itachi reached up to pull Kakashi’s mask down and stroked his bare cheek. “I will always love you,” Itachi said.

“And I you.”

Itachi withdrew his arms to put them around Kakashi’s waist and lay his head against his upper back.

Kakashi thought about Itachi: white, unblemished skin contrasting with his black hair and eyes. He had been so young and innocent looking back then, and still did even the day he died. Itachi was alive in his memory. He turned to look at his lover causing Itachi to let go and lean back. Kakashi couldn’t stop the look of shocked disappointment when he saw Sasuke’s face.

Sasuke’s face took on a pained expression. “I didn’t want to do this,” Itachi said, “I thought it would make things worse, but we have so little time left. I want to see you happy just once more.”

Itachi made a few hand signs and the image in Kakashi’s mind appeared before his eyes. Itachi as young and fresh as he’d been a year before. Tears formed in Kakashi’s eyes even as he smiled. His beautiful little raven.

“For one night, you can have me again,” Itachi said in his own deep voice.

Kakashi slipped Sasuke’s loose shirt over Itachi’s thinner shoulder. The perfect, hairless chest was just as he remembered. And there, on the left bicep, the black ANBU tattoo. Kakashi leaned forward to kiss Itachi’s shoulder then the tattoo. He kissed it then licked it. He tasted like Sasuke, but he was acutely aware of the situation. Something wouldn’t let him deceive himself this time. It only made the situation more poignant to him.

Itachi leaned back, bracing himself with his arms. Kakashi slowly stripped him, kissing the revealed skin, caressing the flesh still under the clothing. It felt so good to Itachi. Sasuke’s body reacted.

Kakashi kissed across his collarbone to the cleft of his shoulder. He moved to one nipple to another, then down to kiss every ripple of muscle. He repositioned to kiss the inside of Itachi’s right knee and down the taut thigh muscle.

He smelled like Sasuke, but there was something of Itachi to him. Same blood. He took Itachi’s erection in his mouth. The jutsu made it seem like Sasuke’s cock had shrunk to Itachi’s thinner length. But the most satisfying thing at the moment wasn’t the pulsing hardness in his mouth, but the sounds of pleasure coming out in those deeper tones. At first Kakashi was having trouble getting hard due to the emotion that had him practically weeping, but that was rectified with those moans.

Kakashi sat up and stared at the passion rapt face. Itachi opened his eyes. Kakashi kissed him, deeply, but briefly. He pulled back a few inches to look closely into Itachi’s eyes.

Kakashi reached around Itachi to stack up the pillows and maneuvered Itachi back against them. He found the lube and prepped him quickly—Sasuke’s body was loose enough. Kakashi pressed into him and kept his eyes on that rounder face. Itachi tried to keep his eyes open, but couldn’t, he needed to concentrate on the jutsu through the pleasure. This wasn’t for him anyway. Kakashi’s eyes never left his face. He made love to him gently, watching him. They panted into each other’s faces. Itachi’s breath and the feeling of his pulse made him feel more alive.

Kakashi grabbed Itachi’s cock to keep him from cumming as they both got closer. He held out for as long as possible then removed his hand. It took just one thrust for Itachi to lose it and Kakashi cam with him. Kakashi watched his face. That sighing, writhing form was one of the most beautiful images he ever saw.

Itachi relaxed back onto the pillows, his dark eyes opening, shinning with afterglow. Kakashi stroked his cheek.

“I love you so much it hurts,” Kakashi told him.

“You are the only person I’ve ever loved.”

“Stay like this, just for a little while longer.”

Itachi nodded. Kakashi sat back and took Itachi’s foot in his hand and massaged it, watching that lovely face. Itachi felt a little guilty that Sasuke was missing the attention being paid to his body as Kakashi moved on to his calf then his other foot. Sasuke wasn’t so out of touch with his senses, he was just keeping quiet. Itachi completely relaxed and let himself be pampered.

“Stay like that and turn over,” Kakashi said. He took the pillows away so Itachi lay flat on his stomach. Kakashi pulled the stray strands of hair from the visible side of Itachi’s face then massaged his sexy back down to the lovely dip of the small of his back then upward curve of his perfect ass. His whole body was perfection. Kakashi took in as much of his body as he could.

Kakashi lay next to him and pulled Itachi to him. “Let me fall asleep like this.”

“Alright.”

“I’d like for you to talk, but I don’t know what about.”

“Nor do I.”

“I just want to listen to you.”

“I wish I could sing.”

“Why don’t you tell me about what you did and where you went when you were wondering around with Akatsuki?”

“Boring tale.”

“Doesn’t matter. I just want to hear your voice.”

Itachi talked about going on simple missions and traveling around with Kisame. Kakashi wasn’t listening to his words, but he craved the sound of his raven’s voice. He fell asleep with Itachi voice dancing on his ear. He would never it hear it again.

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Yes, half this chapter was purely getting rid of Juugo.