to break again

Sango: PLEASE DONT KILL ME or CHIBI Sango --she was actually really good to us by having me post this so soon.... you'll see why



Hitsugi: wow Sango-san.....i dont think your supplications will be heard....what you've done is pretty mean....thats such a steep cliffhanger.... i dont think they'll forgive you until you upload the next one



Sango: hitsugi sama you know i love u but...dont you think i know that?!



Hitsugi: O.O... okay then...i'll leave u alone now



Sango: nooo dont leave me *bows low* ..please dont desert me...im scared....



CHIBI Sango: you know what christopher titus says....quit being a wussy!





now....on with the fic







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Naruto felt lightheaded. Oh, that’s right—he forgot to breathe again. He took in a deep breath. Sasuke was gay? Sasuke ..was…gay. A goofy grin threatened to split his face in two. Sasuke was gay. That meant that there was chance for them, right? But his hopes were crushed immediately. Sasuke was gay. But he never kissed him. If he never kissed them then that means he never liked him and that means that Naruto has no chance with Sasuke at all and oh my god he was hyperventilating and thinking like a chick at the same time. He took another deep breath to calm his screaming lungs. He couldn’t look at Sasuke. Not now. He wished this stupid helicopter would just land so that he could hide out in the cabin and be away from everyone and everything for a while…or the rest of his life, he wasn’t picky.



Naruto was acting weird. That was the first thing Sasuke noticed. Then he noticed that Gaara and Neji had finally broken the kiss and were breathing raggedly and Neji had a look of pure bliss on his face, his eyes glazed over like he was high. Gaara was smiling which that in itself was just weird. Gaara was smiling. That must have been some kiss. But Sasuke shook his head and focused on the blonde again. He was looking away, his eyes were watery, as though he were going to cry. Why was Naruto crying? Was it because he found out that Sasuke was gay? But that made no sense, so Sasuke dismissed it as being too self conscious and just plain stupid.



“Hey, dobe, what’s wrong?” Sasuke asked, nudging the blonde with his knee. Naruto was blinking rapidly, trying to ward off the tears that were threatening to fall.



Of course Sasuke wouldn’t want him, even if he was gay. He was tainted and dirty and no one would ever want him that way.



‘Look at Neji and Gaara. They’re making out like there’s no tomorrow and that’s not gonna happen to me cuz they hate me for what Kyuubi did.’



What the blonde was thinking was irrational and wrong, but he couldn’t be blamed for thinking that. What was he to think, when the closest people in his life—the ones that knew what had happened to him and claimed not to judge him—had lives and loves of their own and didn’t include him. He felt deserted and undesirable…Sasuke proved that. The raven had had multiple chances to kiss him and never did. That must mean Sasuke didn’t want him.



Naruto was feeling low. At first he thought that his emotions were becoming a physical embodiment. In reality the helicopter was decreasing altitude. Hmmm, so that’s why the trees were looking bigger and individual rather than one big green blur.



Sasuke could feel the waves of depression coming from Naruto.



‘Dude…I thought I was emo. What the hell is wrong with him?! A minute ago he was grinning like the idiot I know he is and now he’s being more goth than Gaara!’



No matter how much he tried to, he couldn’t wrap his mind around the blonde and what the hell was going on in that little blonde head of his.



But while he was thinking this, his stomach was trying to escape up his throat as the helicopter began descending and fast. It looked like the ground was rushing up at them and Sasuke grabbed the edge of the seat for dear life.



‘If we make it through this, I’m going to kill Kakashi.’



Gaara was thinking along those same lines, except that he was making plans: creating alibis and trying to see the most painful way to kill that silver-haired freak. Gaara all but forgot the last 5 minutes, how his lips had molded against the Hyuuga’s, how he had dominated the pale-eyed so called seme and made him mewl for him. If it weren’t for that memory he would be panicking. That memory and the thought of what more he could do to the brunette to make him mewl like that again. As it was he only had a white-knuckle grip on the leather seat beneath him, and he was pretty sure there were going to be razor-like scratches on it.



Neji closed his eyes tightly, feeling his like he was free falling, except that he didn’t feel the wind against his face. It was only a few minutes until the helicopter stopped its vertical dissention and they finally touched ground. It was a while before the rotors finally stopped moving and Neji breathed easier as his thighs stopped throbbing dangerously. The man name Asuma came over and opened the door, a big burly man with arms the size of toddlers. The bearded man came and un-strapped all their buckles before he all but kicked them off the helicopter. Neji didn’t know why, but he was could have sworn that he heard the man say ‘stupid horny kids’. He was baffled at his own thoughts and the implications of the man saying such things. But whatever. Their journey was only halfway through. There was another guy waiting for them about fifty feet from the helicopter. This man was slighter, but you could still tell that he was toned and well defined. He also had a huge metal needle sticking out of his mouth, which Naruto didn’t think was safe…or smart. This must be Genma.



Even from the steadily closing distance between the man and the group, Sasuke could see the dejected look about this Genma person. Yep, Kakashi definitely bribed this guy…



“So, seeing as how we’re all here,”—‘against our will’, his mind supplied him though he didn’t say it out loud—“we might as well get this over with.” They walked away from the clearing and into the woods, following a distinct trail that was marked by yellow arrows.



‘Yea, real subtle’ Gaara thought disdainfully. ‘Might as well scream where the hell we’re going.’ But before they reached another clearing, Genma made a sharp left.



“Now, you have to stay close because this area has no trail and the only way to get to it is on foot and you can only see it from the sky.” Every few feet, Genma pointed out crucial landmarks (more like distinct shapes in trees or broken branches that didn’t look like nature made them(mostly the branches looked like numbers)) to help them find their way either back to the cabin or to the hanger, in case something happened. Naruto saw no point in it, since he was going to stay in that cabin for the rest of his life. He glanced at Sasuke again, once more berating himself for doing the one thing he promised himself he wouldn’t do. Yea…he was going to stay in the cabin until he rotted. It was another half hour of walking (mostly because Genma kept stopping to point out certain details that weren’t natural at all—once he stopped at a tree with a branch that looked like a 5. When he pointed up, there was a video camera hidden there, mostly camouflaged but you knew it was a camera because of the reflected light beam.)



“So there’s camera’s all over the place?” Sasuke asked feeling oddly relaxed about that little detail, even if it did seem weird.



“Only on the trees I pointed out to you guys.” Genma informed them. So, they were protected by multiple things: the remote location of the cabin; no-trail path to the cabin; and by invisible cameras to warn them of danger. ‘Cool.’ Sasuke thought as they finally reached the cabin itself.



Naruto’s eyed widened. Woah. He had never seen anything like this before. The cabin was more like a big lodge made of thick maple trunks rather than small planks he’d seen on other cabins. Compared to this, those were huts. The lodge itself was just two stories, it was small and discrete—cozy one might say. It looked warm and inviting and Naruto couldn’t wait to see the inside. In his enthusiasm he failed to hear Genma talking and was confused when the other began to walk away from the cabin. He followed along only to be surprised further.



“Okay, so this is a water mill. It takes the water from the stream running about half a mile from here and keeps the cabin functioning like it were in the city. The place had got indoor plumbing and electricity and two back up generators just in case. Nights get really cold out here, even in the summer. Its almost winter time, so you better warm up and turn on the fireplace—I’ll show you how to do that in a bit.” Genma turned away from the mill, the soothing sound of running water relaxing everyone there.



They got back to the cabin and Genma opened the door, giving Gaara and Sasuke a copy of the key, saying he didn’t have any more and that everything they needed was inside. He also warned that at least one person at a time be at the cabin at all times. He said that though it had never happened, there was still the slight possibility that there could be a fire.



“And speaking of fire, here’s how you turn on the fireplace.” He went to the huge fireplace in the living room—the place was huge. There was a giant screen TV with full entertainment system. Seriously, wasn’t going to the woods the whole point of getting away from electronics and society? Genma said one word and everyone understood—Kakashi. Kakashi had made sure to have everything they needed—even entertainment. There was what could have been a years worth of burning logs in the living room. After Genma had shown them how to start a fire properly without burning themselves of the house down, he went to the kitchen. There were two refrigerators and an icebox filled to the brim with food. There were three cupboards full of different flavors of instant ramen and Naruto looked like he would cry.



Seriously, how long did Kakashi think they were going to be here?!



“Now, there is only one problem.” Genma said as he led them upstairs. “The cabin only has two rooms.” Neji and Gaara looked at each other, the redhead smirking and the brunette blushing. Sasuke saw this and his thoughts were divided. On one side he was thinking, as giddily as an Uchiha could be ‘I’m going to sleep with Naruto.’ On the other hand, he was thinking, dreadfully, ‘great, I’m going to hear these two go at it while I’ll have Naruto with me without being able to touch him.’



Naruto looked at Sasuke and saw the look of scorn that flitted over his features and misinterpreted them completely. Genma finally left an hour or so later when everyone had settled in, Gaara and Neji taking the bigger room (needed more space for the sex that would ensue the second the older man left) and Naruto and Sasuke were stuck with the slightly smaller, but still spacious guest room. Naruto lay on the bed, staring up at the ceiling, unblinking, his face expression-less. Sasuke kept looking at him weirdly and Naruto either didn’t feel the raven’s eyes boring into his scull, or didn’t give a damn.



You see, Naruto wasn’t meant to be emo and angst-y like Sasuke or Gaara. Naruto was sunshine and smiles. This aura of emo-ness was getting on Sasuke’s nerves.



“What the hell is wrong with you, dobe?! Why are you acting like this…like the world just ended?!” Sasuke said, unable to take the deafening silence and unsmiling face of the blonde. Naruto’s eyes flitted to him briefly before returning their position to the ceiling.



“Listen. Is it because I’m gay?! You didn’t have a problem with me before you knew. Just…pretend you don’t know. I won’t touch you if that’ll make you feel better. But unfortunately, the prick and the goth are going at it like rabbits, so you’re stuck with me.”



Naruto’s eyes looked like they were about to pop out of their sockets.



There was just no way. Sasuke thought he was like this because the Uchiha was gay? What a racket! Naruto began to chuckle. Then it became a full blown, tummy hurting laughter as he replayed everything the raven had said. Sasuke was looking more and more wary at the blonde.



‘Great, he’s lost it.’



“What the hell are you laughing about, dobe?” Sasuke growled. Naruto was laughing so hard tears were running down his cheeks and his sides were hurting. It was a while before he calmed down enough to take a deep breath. And then another. And after a while he was breathing normally again, the bright smile faded from his face and a sad smile marred his features. There was a seriousness in the blonde’s eyes that Sasuke didn’t like.



“I wasn’t sad because I know you’re gay. Teme, I’m gay."


Gods...he was in love with his best friend who was male and had been, though unconsciously, for a while. He mentally sighed.


At least there was one good thing out of this arrangement.


" And it’s okay that I’m stuck with you…I don’t want to be with Gaara and Neji while they’re doing it.” But he stopped there.


Damn it that wasn’t an explanation!



“Then why were you angsting?!”



“Teme, angsting isn’t a word. You can’t make shit up just ‘cuz you’re emo.” Sasuke frowned at this—he was so not emo. Ugh.



“And I wasn’t angsting, as you so brilliantly pointed out. I…thought you didn’t like me…like that.”



“Naruto…” Sasuke began but the blonde cut him off.



“No wait, hear me out.” Naruto wouldn’t look him in the eye, but Sasuke knew this was important. He knew that what ever the blonde said next would change their relationship forever.



“I thought… that, since you are gay, that you didn’t like me…like that...because you never kissed me.”



“Naruto.” Sasuke had to stop him there. This was preposterous. How could… why did…



“Naruto, I never kissed you because I never had permission to kiss you. Those times you were in my arms, were always after you had nightmares. I was just there to comfort you…I never knew you wanted me to kiss you…I thought…that …after what you went through, that you wouldn’t want anyone touching you like that, much less a guy…” Sasuke trailed off. That was more than he had spoken about his emotional thoughts to any one—ever.



“Sasuke…” Naruto had grown teary again. He scoffed at himself. “Look at me, I’m acting like such a woman.” He huffed a laugh as he blinked his tears away and smiled— that brilliant Naruto smile Sasuke loved so much. There was still much to explain, on both their sides, but Sasuke didn’t care about that right now. All he cared about was…



“Can I kiss you?” He asked in a quiet voice and he heard Naruto’s breath catch in his throat before the blonde nodded his head and closed his eyes in bliss, a tear running unhindered down his cheek as Sasuke crossed the room to him.







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please dont kill me



and CHIBI Sango demands cookies for doing this so soon......