Spiral Falling

Title: Spiral Falling
Author: BeccaAmon
Genre: AU
Pairings: Naruto x Sasuke x Naruto
Warnings: Shounen ai, yaoi, lemon, language
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Author’s note: My first Naruto and NC-17 fanfiction. Be kind, enjoy^^. Thanks for reading. Thank you Ailetoile for beta-reading.
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“….” - Dialogue
* - Scene change/ time pass
Italic – Memory

Chapter 14 –Blood on the snow

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A roll of rumbling thunder woke Sasuke from his restful sleep. He opened his eyes to momentary darkness and quickly shut them again as harsh lighting painted the room a blinding white. He blinked in the dark once the lightning had passed, looking past the spots in his vision.

He rolled over to his side only to have his face buried in a mop of blonde hair. He suddenly registered where he was and the weight on his side reminded him of the other boy. Sitting up slowly, he lifted his arm aside and looked down at the messy sleeper. Using the light that was filtering into the room he traced the body beneath the thin blanket with his eyes. He ran long fingers gently down the exposed abdomen and stopped where the blanket began. He bit his lip when the blonde shifted, exposing a hipbone, stirring heat within him.

"This is bad," he chastised as he watched, fascinated, as his hands moved of their own accord to brush a pink nipple, massaging it until it hardened. Naruto groaned in his sleep, arching into Sasuke's touch.

"Stop it, Sasuke," he hissed to himself just before he bent down to take the nipple into his mouth, teasing it with his teeth and tongue. He felt himself grow hard against the other boy's thighs. He ran questing fingers up and down sinewy arms and then a chiseled chest, tweaking the other nipple. His body sought friction as he rubbed himself against the strong thigh.

Naruto groaned, his hands gripping the bed sheet in his sleep. His head tilted back onto the pillow, exposing the tempting neck. Sasuke moved to cover Naruto's body with his, aligning their hips starting a slow grind against the other boy's growing erection.

He felt the boy's breathing hasten as their chests touched. He ran a hand beneath the boy's back to press him closer, grinding harder.

He grunted as Naruto's hardened dick rubbed against his, sending pleasure coursing through his body.

He lapped and sucked on the exposed throat, teething the sensitized skin and sucking it harshly. Naruto moaned and rocked against Sasuke, his breathing uneven.

Sasuke covered the open mouth with his own, thrusting his tongue inside. The warm mouth kissed him back, a tongue tangling with his own. Surprised, Sasuke moved to pull back but a hand on the back of his neck prevented him from breaking the kiss.

Naruto ground against him just as another hand squeezed his ass, pressing him closer. They rocked back and forth together, feeling their slick naked flesh slide and thrum with unreleased pleasure.

Sasuke kissed Naruto harder, bumping teeth and sliding tongues. He tasted the other boy's saliva, mixing it with his own, no longer knowing which taste belonged to whom.

"I'm sorry," he apologized into the kiss, sneaking his hand in-between them to hold their erections together and pumping quickly.

"Don't be. It's a nice way to wake up," Naruto moaned back, biting Sasuke's bottom lip and sucking at the small hurt.

Sasuke broke the kiss to lick the boy's cheek and captured an earlobe teasingly. He felt the pleasure building just as the body beneath his stiffened and met each of his strokes, thrusting into his cock and hand. He let go of their erections and hold Naruto tight to him, burrowing his face into the warm neck.

Grunts and moans filled the air, uncaring of the noise as their bodies ground harder into each other. Naruto's hands dug fingernails into the side of his hips as the boy arched against him.

"Ahhhhh! "

"Nnnnnnnnnnahhhh!"

Sasuke ground himself harder as white fire spread throughout his body, releasing his seed on his and Naruto's stomachs. He felt Naruto grind and shudder beneath him, releasing sticky cum, as legs wound around him.

Sasuke collapsed on Naruto, spent, breathing heavily. Using the last of his strength, he pushed himself off to allow the other boy to breath.

They lay side by side, spent and exhausted for the second time that night. They looked up to the dark ceiling as forgotten lightning flashed and the unheard thunder rumbled.

"What were you doing up?" Naruto finally spoke up once he had caught his breath.

"I was going to change the sheets on the other bed." Sasuke explained.

"So what happened?" the other boy asked after a moment of silence.

"You're a messy sleeper."

A small laugh rumbled in Naruto's chest, the only laugh he could manage at the moment. "Would you have continued even if I had stayed asleep?"

Silence, and then, "Yes."

Sasuke turned towards Naruto to find the boy studying his profile. "I'm sorry," he apologized again, feeling guilt fall heavily to the bottom of his stomach.

Naruto sat up to nuzzle his neck. "Don't be." He accepted a soft kiss, and then winced as he felt the sticky mess between them. "We should clean up."

Sasuke nodded his assent. They rested for a while longer, shaking off the buzzing pleasure in their bodies before getting up to strip both beds. They found extra sheets in the drawers of both dressers.

Wrapping themselves in warm bathrobes and grabbing some clean clothes, they headed to the showers. They showered quickly and dressed.

They returned to their rooms wide awake, sitting opposite one another on one bed. Naruto ran fingers through his messy, damp hair, pulling at a few tangles. A few droplets of water slid from Sasuke's dark hair to fall on the fresh sheets, getting soaked in.

"It's three in the morning. Do you think we woke anyone?" Naruto asked, listening for any sort of noise.

Sasuke smirked deviously and winked at the blonde. "I guess we'll find out tomorrow."

They laughed softly.

Naruto lifted his leg and poked at Sasuke’s folded knee with his toe as he sat back, bracing his weight on his arms behind him.

"Why didn't you hit me like you usually did that day?"

Sasuke looked up from the boy's feet as he recalled the afternoon Naruto spoke off. He suddenly tasted the boy's sweat on his tongue, the memory still strong in his mind.

"I didn't want to," he answered, not knowing how to explain the complexity of his feelings at the time. He grabbed hold of the foot resting on his knee and massaged it lightly, digging his thumb into the arch.

Naruto groaned appreciatively and prompted him to continue his story.

"'I have nothing else to say. Why? Does it bother you not to know?"

Naruto shook his head, meeting his gaze easily. "You just surprised me a little that's all."

Sasuke raised a doubtful eyebrow.

Naruto laughed and it quickly turned into another groan of pleasure when the pads of Sasuke's fingers pinched at tangled muscles. "Okay, maybe not just a little surprised. I was plenty surprised and I was fucking angry, with a bit of disgust on the side. I wanted to pound your head into the pavement."

Sasuke winced and paused in his task when he heard a bitter edge in the boy's voice.

"I'm sorry." He seemed to be apologizing a lot tonight.

Naruto nodded, accepting the long overdue apology.

"We were both to blame. I was too weak," Naruto amended.

Sasuke opened his mouth to say something, but stopped at the shake of Naruto's head.

"I've been thinking about it for the longest time now. At first I blamed everything on you, but I knew it wasn't entirely your fault." Naruto's fingers scratched at his cheek as he spoke. Sasuke noticed that he always scratched on the barely visible whisker-like scars.

Abruptly, Naruto pulled away from Sasuke's touch, folding his legs in front of him and bringing his knees to his chest. He scoffed and buried his face inside his arms, hiding behind his knees.

"I think I wanted you to hurt me. I deserved to be punished..."

Sasuke strained to hear what the boy was muttering, his dark eyes widening at what he heard.

Slowly, he crawled beside the blonde, touching their sides together. The boy was silent for a long time and Sasuke waited patiently, watching flashes of lightning outside their windows.

"I killed my family."

Sasuke jumped at the voice, and then turned disbelieving eyes to the blonde head burrowed inside his arms.

Naruto moved slowly, stretching his legs on the mattress and hunching down, looking at his moving fingers. Sasuke listened carefully, alerted by the boy's stiff shoulders. He felt Naruto's quiet struggle with himself until he seemed to come to a decision.

"On my ei-eighth birthday..." Naruto began. His voice was distant. "My grandparents visited. I remember that my mom was so happy to see them. She hasn't seen her parents since we moved away while I was still a baby. I was excited, too. To finally meet them. They apologized that it took them so long. I said I didn't mind, that for their birthday the next year I would be big enough to visit them on my own. They just laughed and said they were proud to have such a spirited grandchild. I told them I’d do my best to be the greatest grandchild there ever was." He paused, licking his lips.

"That day, it snowed."

A haunted look came upon the boy's features. Sasuke looked at the pained blue eyes and shaking hands and was amazed that, despite that, Naruto's voice remained steady.

"I was impatient to get my present. My mom said I could choose any toy I wanted in the toy store. I began whining and everyone gave in, amused at my childishness. The snow wasn't heavy when we left, but it got worse as we drove on. I was sitting in between my mother and grandmother at the back. My father drove and my grandfather sat beside him."

Naruto's voice wavered, hitching.

"The snow... We could hardly see anything. The truck came out of nowhere. It pushed us. We spun in the snow. Everyone was panicking, screaming. Our car drove over the rails, flying. I was lifted from my seat. And then we crashed down a steep hill. We kept rolling down. My dad was pushing on the breaks. We didn’t stop."

Naruto grew quiet, lost in his memories.

"A large tree stopped us, bending the hood, breaking the glass. Right before the impact, arms drew around me. It was my mom and grandmother. The car was going too fast, the impact killed everyone. My dad died instantly, so did my grandfather. A branch through the window killed my grandmother. I found out later on that my mother died of internal bleeding.

"She was crying. Glass had flown into my cheeks, I was bleeding. She was crying because I was hurt and she didn't protect all of me. I told her I wasn't hurting anywhere.

"'Good,' she said and then she closed her eyes. I was still buckled onto my seat. ept ept crying because she wouldn't wake up. I kept shaking her. Shaking everybody. They were all asleep. So I curled up and went to sleep too. I slept surrounded by their corpses.

"There was a messy pile up. The snow had covered our tracks. By the time anyone found us, found me, it was dark."

Naruto turned to him then, the same haunted look in his eyes, but there were no tears.

"M... May I touch you?" Sasuke asked, hesitant.

Naruto froze, still caught in his memory, but his head nodded slowly.

Sasuke touched cold fingers, closing his warm hands over them and waiting until Naruto moved to intertwine their fingers. All he wanted was to hold the teen, but he was afraid that Naruto was too close to his memory of his mom holding him. Sasuke imagined it would not be as pleasant to the blonde as he intended. Instead, he tried to keep the boy talking. "What happened afterwards?"

Naruto moved their joined hands, squeezing and then relaxing, feeling. Sasuke realized it was a way for the blonde to stay anchored in the present.

"The authorities quickly found out who we were. They called my aunt, my mom's sister, my grandparents' eldest daughter. I stayed in the hospital for three days until she came to get me. She arranged the funerals first and took care of other things before picking me up. I lived with them. Her and her family. She told me...

"She told me I wasn't blessed for surviving like everyone else was saying. I was cursed; I killed them and I was a monster. I grew up hearing those words. Once I was fourteen, I heard her crying to my unthatthat I hy moy mother's eyes and that she couldn't stand looking at them, looking at me, anymore. They arranged an apartment for me. They visit once in awhile due to the obligations they felt toward my mother. They usually come when I’m not around."

A heavy silence descended on the room. Sasuke felt chills run down his spine at those words, at the boy's story. He wasn't sure what to do. This was the most Naruto had ever said about his life.

"I'm sorry," he whispered. The words sounded hollow to his ears.

"Me too," Naruto whispered back, his voice breaking. Sasuke held him them. The other boy clung to him, heaving, but still no tears would come. Sasuke wondered if there had been tears for Naruto since the day he had cried for his mother to wake up. He raked his fingers through Naruto's hair, feeling the boy's warm breath on his neck.

They sat in silence. Naruto held on to him. So he wouldn’t fall back to the past, he said. Sasuke held onarutaruto, keeping the boy close so he wouldn’t fall back into his own past, either.

"I kept telling death to take me instead..."

Sasuke held on tighter.

TBC