Do Over

I am sorry it took so long to work on this chapter, but I had gotten stuck on how to present this chapter and was stuck on the one idea I had that I didn’t feel comfortable with presenting. Surprisingly it took me watching ‘Gossip Girl’ of all things to get me in the mood to do something dramatic and voila… the turning point of ‘Do Over’. I really like how this chapter came out, and I hope you all review because I would love to hear what you think.

Do Over-Chapter 16 by KitsuneFun

Disclaimer: I don’t own Naruto that honor is held by Masashi Kishimoto (lucky bastard)

It didn’t take Deidara’s magical brownies, which Naruto didn’t even know about, for him to do something he would regret later. Maybe it was the hurt look that Sasuke gave him as he stared down at Naruto from his place next to the Karaoke machine.

The raven had chosen to go first, but the most awkward thing was that he was singing their song, the one that was playing the first time they kissed, ‘Crush’ by Dave Mathew’s Band.

They had been sitting on the sofa at Naruto’s house listening to a bunch of American style music, that Sasuke’s cousin Sai had sent them from America, while trying to figure out what the lyrics meant since neither of them were proficient in speaking English yet.

Naruto sat laughing at the lyrics of the last song when ‘Crush’ came on, he had thought the tone was almost hypnotic and he had turned to look at Sasuke that seemed to freeze as he concentrated on what the singer was saying.

It was almost cute the way his eyebrow’s narrowed over his dark eyes as he thought out the lyrics, Naruto couldn’t help, but lean forward and try to rub them out, which made Sasuke flinch in surprise at the closeness of their faces.

Naruto had thought it was strange how his friend’s eyes had softened as they stared into his own and hadn’t thought about it till Sasuke let out a shaky breath and asked, “Do you know what he said?”

Not having a clue, Naruto shook his head in response, “Not really…” He gave a nervous laugh as he brushed a hand through the back of his hair in embarrassment, “But you were always better at languages than I was,” The blond gave a nervous laugh as Sasuke leaned closer even as Naruto tried to back off.

Sasuke gave his friend a warm smile as he leaned close and tucked a strand of blond hair back behind Naruto’s ear before pausing to let his hand linger a bit as he opened his mouth and sang, “So much you have, given love, that I would give you back again and again. Oh, the love, many now hold you but please, please, just let me, always…” in that low timber of his that didn’t fail in leaving a shiver lingering down Naruto’s back as he sung the words translated into Japanese just for him.

Naruto could feel his heart begin to thump madly inside his chest as his friend closed the distance between their lips and kissed him softly, it was Sasuke’s first kiss so it was inexperienced, but despite that fact and the realization of how many kisses Naruto had before Sasuke’s, it still managed to draw him in as he kissed the raven back.

It barely lasted a minute before Sasuke pulled back and started blushing, it was almost amusing to Naruto who wasn’t used to the site staining his best friend’s cheeks since he was always the more emotional of the two, “I’m… sorry I…”

The raven stood up and stopped the cd player as he tried to walk away and hide his embarrassment since this wasn’t the way he wanted to confess to Naruto that what he felt was more than just friendship especially since the blond already had a girlfriend.

“Sasuke?” Naruto asked in confusion as he watched the raven pace the room back and forth, “Did you mean it?”

Sasuke paused to look down at Naruto in surprise, “Why aren’t you angry?” he began to pace again as he ran a hand nervously through his hair, “You have every right to be… you have a girlfriend… A Girlfriend! Ah gods,” he sat stiffly down onto a chair nearby and hid his head in his heads as he rocked back in forth, “How could I do that…”

This was the most that Naruto had ever seen Sasuke act out of character, but in a way it made him realize that he had liked the kiss and in a way, being with his best friend made more sense than the lackluster feelings he had tried to accept with the girls he had gone out with in the past, Karin had been no exception to that rule, “Listen… Sasuke.”

Dark almost haunted looking eyes peeked up at him through the curtain of his bangs, “You don’t have to say anything…”

Naruto sighed as he stood up and walked over towards Sasuke before sitting next to him on the edge of the chair, almost falling off, Sasuke made room for him. The gesture made the blond smile as he grabbed the raven’s hands and pulled them away from Sasuke’s face, “At least let me say something before you assume anything you ass!”

The right and well placed curse word could always help to break the stiff atmosphere between them, and this time was no exception as Sasuke sat up and glared in his direction, “Don’t call me an ass when its my heart on the line idiot!”

It almost made Naruto laugh as he gently shoved Sasuke in the side in rebuke, “Maybe it doesn’t have to be,” the blond mumbled, “Idiot…” before turning to look into Sasuke’s eyes warmly.

The look confused Sasuke who open and closed his mouth, confused over what to say next, he finally settle with, “Ok… so where does it leave us then?” he was as afraid of asking the question as he was of the response he would get.

Naruto only gave him that odd smile before leaning in and kissing Sasuke again on the mouth, this time it lingered a bit longer, making the raven moan a bit in surprise before he leaned back and stared into amused blue, “Dobe…”

“I guess that means yes… huh?” it wasn’t the response that Sasuke had expected from the blond, but it had been the one he had wanted more than anything.

“But… Karin?”

Naruto shrugged, “She never really meant anything anyways… I guess in a way I was waiting for you too.”

The blond didn’t realize that Sasuke had finished his song; he was so caught up in the long ago memory, that he didn’t hear Sasuke walk up and tap him on the shoulder, “Your turn idiot…”

Instead of the glare and expected curse word in response to the raven’s comment, Naruto just looked up at him and smiled warmly, making Sasuke wonder if the blond even knew what he was doing.

“You certainly know what buttons to push don’t you Sasuke?”

The raven snorted at the comment before sitting down next to Naruto on the couch, “I’m sure that boyfriend of yours knows about them as well as I do,” he couldn’t disguise the sound of loathing in his voice at the mention of his rival.

It didn’t help that it helped to remind Naruto why he was there with Sasuke in the first place, “Your right…” he nodded before standing up and walking over towards the mike and started to adjust it to his height, “but he was never my best friend… no one could replace that Sasuke.”

Sometimes it was hard, sitting in a room alone with the one you love and feeling that, even though you were right there within touching distance, you were never so far away from one another.

Sasuke felt like that, that every moment being with Naruto was pulling him farther and farther away from his goal of being with him and it didn’t help that the blond was fixated on his nemesis, Gaara.

Didn’t Naruto know that he wasn’t the only one who had to endure being rejected time and time again? The blond didn’t realize how hard it was to get his attention only to have it thrown back in his face, of course Sasuke hadn’t known at the time that everything had been orchestrated by Kisame in order to fulfill his plans with the Uchiha.

It had been unnerving how far his manger’s obsession over his brother had gone, leading to the moment Sasuke stumbled upon his papers in the office, if Kisame had been their in that moment, the raven would have killed him without a second thought.

All his hard work… all the love Sasuke put into his music in order to appease his fans and Kisame made him regret it all because it made Sasuke lose the one thing that meant more to him than the music ever had and that was Naruto.

His one-time best friend had been the support the raven had needed to pursue his love of the music, to go on when Itachi committed suicide by overdosing on drugs, when it felt like no one else was there for him… Naruto was there.

The blond had always been there and it had felt like someone had thrust a hand into his chest, tearing out his heart and making it bleed… that was how harsh and unrelenting the betrayal and loss had been for Sasuke.

‘Yet he was here… wasn’t he?’ Sasuke thought while staring at Naruto as he thumbed through the music catalog in order to choose a song, unlike Sasuke who already had sung the one he had in mind, it was the only song that meant anything and that was his and Naruto’s song, ‘Crush’ by the Dave Matthews Band.

Who would have thought that it would take one kiss to prove to Naruto, over 5 years ago, that they were meant to be. Thinking about the past, reminded Sasuke of the one who had almost taking Naruto away from him, Karin.

If it hadn’t been for her interest in the naive blond, the raven never would have had the guts to confess to his best friend about his own feelings.

It had felt a little like fate. The kiss that followed the confession had been awkward at best, but they had learned together how to kiss properly and how to tell what the other liked by touch alone.

Everything should have been perfect, but the raven’s interest in his brother’s music triggered the change. If he had never gone to that club and auditioned for his brother’s old band, wouldn’t he and Naruto still be together.

“Hey Teme!” An almost painful flick to the center of his forehead drew Sasuke’s attention back to Naruto, who happened to be sitting eye to eye with him and looking concerned, “Are you ok?”

Maybe it was one of those moments, where you don’t realize your doing something you will regret, only that your body tends to move on its own and you just have to go with the flow.

It’s the only thing that could explain Sasuke grabbing Naruto by his arm and pulling him close and kissing him, despite his common sense that keep telling him he should wait.

However, the kiss had been worth it, as he caressed the smooth yet firm flesh as it pressed against his own, when Naruto’s mouth opened in a gasp of surprise and he charged forward with his tongue entering his ex’s mouth allowing their distinct flavors to mix…this was heaven in a single instance.

Pushing Naruto back against the couch, Sasuke leaned over him and continued to kiss the hot and sweet tasting mouth beneath him before pressing the lower length of his pelvis into Naruto’s crotch making the blond squeak out a muffle protest and try to get the raven to move.

Neither noticed when the door opened partially as Tobi watched the kissing couple in amusement, or when the same boy closed the door behind him quietly and headed back in the direction of the front where Deidara was looking at the computer screen in order not to interrupt them like his sempai wanted.

Sasuke finally pulled away when he realized, at one point, Naruto was no longer participating, “Naruto?”

The blond pushed him forcefully the rest of the way off him, pushing him onto the couch as leaned back as far away as he could get from Sasuke before giving the other boy a glare, “God dammit Sasuke… this was the reason why I didn’t want to do this… god!”

Naruto stood up and began to pace the small length of the Karaoke room before turning to glare at Sasuke, “I don’t know why anyone thinks that there is anything there between us that is still left Sasuke…”

His ex held up a hand when he noticed the raven open his mouth, “No, it’s my turn Bastard, I put up with your shit for a long time and maybe I did miss you… you were my best friend, and it was wrong to have this date because your not ready to see me as anything other than what you want to see me as,” he stop and threw his hands into the air in frustration, “I’m tired of it Sasuke… but right now I can say with absolute clarity that I don’t want to see you!” with that said, Naruto exited the room with a slam of the door and ran off.

Sasuke didn’t waste anytime running after him, but the blond was known for his speed at school being a star athlete and easily outdistanced the raven, leaving him alone… perhaps for ever this time and the thought pained Sasuke more than it had the first time.

“I guess we don’t need those brownie’s after all hon,” Deidara sat overlooking the camera footage in the karaoke booth in mirth, it was almost poetic in its deviousness, too bad he hadn’t been to blame for it, but it seemed that neither boy needed an incentive to create the tiny and hot scene between them.

The scene was ever better when, with the help of, Deidara could loop certain parts together, with Apple’s Final Cut Studio, making it appear as though it had lasted a lot longer than just 2 minutes, but really what was the movie program good for if it couldn’t help with a little blackmailing masterpiece every once in a while.

‘Wait till Gaara sees his little bitch at it,’ The blond thought while emitting an evil chuckle, ‘He’ll wish he had never said no to me.’

(Turning Point)

Later that evening, Gaara stood alone in the ‘Sandpiper’ kitchen, standing next to the metal counter with a piece of wax paper laid out along with some flour spread in a pile on top of it, he had hoped that coming down here to the kitchen in order to bake something would have taken his mind off of the idea of Naruto and Sasuke having a date together, but it only left him feeling empty since he had no one to share the treat with.

Running his hand through the flour, Gaara let the soft particles sift through his pale fingers and spread out across the wax paper sheet, back and forth… it was almost hypnotic.

“Hi,” Green eyes looked up in surprise at the sound of the husky voice that interrupted him, ‘Naruto’. The blond’s hand was held mid-loft in greeting as he gave a nervous smile in Gaara’s direction.

“What are you doing here?” Gaara asked while he rubbed out the drawing of a heart that he had unconsciously started to draw with his finger in the soft flour, he clapped his hands clean from whatever residing flour still lingered on his fingers as he moved around the metal counter and approached Naruto part way.

Naruto lowered his hand and his nervous smile vanished as he rubbed at the side of his pants with his sweaty palm in partial fear of what he had to explain to the redhead, “I came back from my… date and,” He looked away a moment afraid to explain what had happened.

He didn’t want to look at Gaara and explain something he couldn’t even understand himself, “And?” he looked up at the redhead’s question, as Gaara began to wipe his hands off on a wet towel. Green eyes stared down at him in curiosity.

“I…” Naruto gave a nervous laugh before walking up towards Gaara, giving him what he thought was a flirty looking smile, but it only came out a little awkward as he lifted a hand and brushed at the flour that had somehow landed on the redhead’s shoulder, eyeing his own hand for a moment as it paused in mid-swipe, Naruto was reminded unconsciously of the differences between Sasuke and Gaara… whether he wanted to think about it or not, “It doesn’t really matter…” Naruto tried to brush off what he was about to say, but inwardly he thought, ‘you won’t have to worry… I don’t want to see him again.’

“Naruto…” Gaara grabbed the blond’s hand and pulled it gently from off his shoulder, before using his other hand to lift his boyfriend’s chin in order to stare him deeply in the eyes, it seemed to him like Naruto was trying to avoid something important and he wanted to know what it was.

When Gaara lifted the chin, the redhead noticed tears floating in his boyfriend’s blue eyes and the redhead felt his heart constrict painfully over the look, “What is it?”

Blue eyes tried to shift away from Gaara’s intense stare, but they turned back and looked at him weakly behind their film of tears, “I kissed him again,” the blond looked away from the hurt that he saw flashing in his boyfriend’s eyes at the comment. Naruto could feel his heart break a little at the site since it was the last thing he wanted to do to anyone else, especially Gaara, considering how Naruto had felt when Sasuke had done it to him.

“Gaara… I can’t do this anymore, I can’t lie to myself about what I did because I love you…” the blond pushed away, suddenly feeling faint and needing to sit down.

Naruto spotted a chair nearby and sat down on it while cupping his hands together and staring down at them as they shook, “But… I don’t know if I can hate Sasuke anymore either.” The blond’s stomach began to churn and it felt like at any moment, he might throw up, but he needed to tell Gaara the truth, even though he felt like he was screwing up the only thing that had really mattered to him for the past 3 years.

Gaara remained silent for a little bit as he thought over the confession, “So do you want to date him some more…” The redhead knew he was foolish for asking the question because he knew the answer to it before it had even left his mouth.

He watched as Naruto stared up at him, looking lost with those large blue eyes of his begging him to say something… anything and the redhead couldn’t say it since it was starting to make him feel ill, “I can’t…” Gaara backed up and started walking over towards the counter again.

The redhead could feel the cold steel of the counter beneath his fingers, but otherwise he felt numb, ‘I can’t deal with this…’ The situation reminded him a lot of his mother who had given up all of herself for his selfish father, was it really worth it to give up that much for Naruto.

Turning to look over at the blond, Gaara realized that yes, he would do anything for Naruto, but the problem was that Sasuke wanted that position more than anything and he wasn’t willing to back off because he new the old Naruto, someone Gaara had never met and that was something he couldn’t fight against and maybe his boyfriend was just now beginning to realizing it and that fact scared Gaara.

“Naruto…” the blond looked up at him, and the redhead could see the pain swimming in those blue eyes, that seemed to have dulled a bit over these past few weeks, ‘Was there anything that he could do to bring back that light?’ before he could think about what he was doing his body seemed to answer automatically for him, “I think we should break up.”

Those blue eyes widened in shock and Naruto leapt off the chair and ran over towards him, “No Gaara… I don’t want to break up with you… I’ll stop seeing Sasuke,” he shrugged his shoulders and acting like it was an everyday thing to give something up, “It can’t be that hard, I have done it before, I’ll just tell him to leave and…”

Naruto could feel his heart pound with dread, ‘This wasn’t what he had expected to happen and he didn’t want to loose Gaara.’

Gaara silenced the blond with a soft kiss, it was passionate and full of the redhead’s need for the boy before him, but even before the redhead pulled away, Gaara could feel the tears in that kiss and he closed his eyes against the sharp pain that filled his heart with that knowledge. The redhead closed his eyes and leaned his forehead briefly against Naruto’s, “I can’t pretend that I don’t care anymore…” Gaara opened his green eyes and stared back into sorrow filled blue, “Just let me go.”

Naruto gasped as the redhead pulled away, he tried to grab onto the redhead only to have the other boy shrug him off, “If it means giving you all the space in the world in order to make you happy, then think of this as my gift to you,” Gaara said with a weak smile as he left the kitchen without a backwards glance.

The tears started to fall in earnest as Naruto could feel his legs give out beneath him and he fell to the ground, banging his knees in the process, ‘Why did this have to happen,’ he could feel his heart clench painfully at the realization that he had lost Gaara, if possible it was worse than the feeling of having lost Sasuke three years earlier, but he had a feeling that unlike the raven, Gaara wouldn’t take him back, ‘It’s all my fault…’