It's Always Been Us All

Chapter Sixteen— Lay Your Burden Down


It was the same as it had always been. No matter what happened between them, it seemed that in every aspect of their lives the two were always bound to fight for dominance. Naruto growled as Sasuke practically shoved him into the dirt. He didn’t particularly mind playing aggressive, but damn, the bastard could at least try and be a little nicer during foreplay. Though he had to admit that this had been sudden. Earlier when he had decided to wander off he had never expected to have Sasuke sucking on his neck in such a way that managed to make him almost dizzy.

He supposed it wasn’t altogether a bad thing. He could not deny that he had certainly had quite a number of dreams that went in this same direction, almost as if though copying his reality in that exact moment. “… Sasuke,” the blonde groaned as his crotch was rubbed furiously by Sasuke’s knee. He never would have thought that the teme’s knee could be so incredibly hot. His world seemed to be spinning in different directions.

“You taste weird, dobe,” Sasuke said, a hint of amusement latched onto his voice. Sasuke really had some balls to say such a thing, especially after all they had gone through. If it wasn’t for the fact that he was so damned horny at the moment, he would definitely consider holding back on the sex. He tried not to smile as he managed to pull away from the attacking mouth, avoiding the next kiss that the raven would have plastered upon his lips— “Stop kissing me then, baka.”

“Why do I want you so much?” Sasuke's voice was suddenly so gentle, and the raven placed a small kiss on his nose. Naruto could have sworn that butterflies were fighting all inside his stomach. Either that or he seriously needed to go barf. He had never been one to handle a romantic lover with ease— not that he had actually had many lovers in the past…damned butterflies.

“Because I’m a sex god,” he joked, avoiding any serious talk and just wanting to get on with the physical play. Who wanted to talk or be romantic while in the middle of foreplay with a hard-on raging between your thighs anyway? “So are you gonna suck me off or what?” He asked, regretting the question almost immediately. His cheeks were suddenly hot and he looked away from the heated gaze that always managed to make him feel so vulnerable. Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit.

“Is that what you want me to do?” Sasuke asked, his voice still gentle. Naruto nodded, because in all honestly that was really what he wanted. The image of his cock going in and out of that slick mouth that tasted so sweet was almost too much to handle and he groaned at the prospect of it. Sasuke leaned down and captured his lips in another kiss— and he loved the way their tongues played.

Sasuke’s pale hands traveled up and down his abdomen; touching and exploring every inch of his hot skin; making him moan in pleasure. Unfortunately though, somewhere in the darkness of his mind he had managed to conjure up a scary thought: What if he’s just mocking me, playing with me? Was it worth it? Was it worth trusting in Sasuke once more? Was he willing to give his body away to the Uchiha only to be rejected once again in the end? Could he handle the humiliation that he would no doubt feel if Sasuke neglected him, or even worse, left him afterwards? ….. But he had to see for himself, he had to take this chance— he had to see how far Sasuke was actually willing to go with him. He had to know once and for all if those feelings he had been trying so desperately to hold at bay for years were mutual.

When Sasuke’s hand traveled inside his pants to cup him gently, Naruto couldn’t help but tense for a moment. “You’re okay with this, right?” Sasuke asked, worried that perhaps he was going to fast for the blonde. Naruto could actually see the concern in his eyes, and in all honesty, he liked it… it meant that Sasuke did care about him.

“I want you to suck me,” Naruto stated firmly. He knew that perhaps Sasuke wouldn’t like the idea of him taking control, but he would simply just have to suck it up and deal with it. Sasuke had put him through so much that he just simply couldn’t bring himself to let him have all the power, he just couldn’t let Sasuke have the lead in this, not today.

The Uchiha said nothing for long moments, and the blonde was beginning to think that perhaps he had been an idiot in insinuating that he could actually take the lead in something so complicated as sex, especially when Sasuke was a participant. But then Sasuke leaned in and nibbled lightly on his shoulder, saying nothing as he pushed down Naruto’s pants. The blonde shuddered as rocks mildly scratched at his bare ass, making everything seem all the more real— he was about to get sucked off by Uchiha Sasuke in front of a lake, out in the middle of nowhere, on nothing more than wet dirt and rocks. This was something that would be embedded in his mind for the rest of his life, of that he was certain.

Sasuke pushed tanned legs apart, emitting a gasp from the withering blonde below him. His pale hand found the hard shaft between Naruto’s legs and he slowly began to pump it. A light moan escaped Naruto’s lips when Sasuke deliberately pinched the head of his cock, not so hard, but enough to where his eyes opened wide, and his hips bucked forward for more. He heard the Uchiha chuckle and watched in silent awe as he slowly slid his body further away from him, his mouth coming to rest only inches away from the dripping cock.

Sasuke looked up and when their eyes locked his hips bucked forward once again, making the raven smirk at him in such a way that made him want to come right then and there. “I guess I could lick you,” Sasuke said, his tongue slowly licking at the side of his cock, right where his sensitive vein was. “I guess I could kiss it,” he continued, placing small kisses along the thick shaft. Naruto thought that he would soon go crazy if Sasuke continued teasing him like this. “… And I guess I will suck you,” and with that, Sasuke gently brought the cock-head into his mouth, suckling gently, loving the way Naruto growled at the attentions he was giving him.

“Kami…” Naruto whispered, his hands going down and resting on dark locks of hair, guiding Sasuke down on his entire length. All coherent thoughts left as he focused completely on the insane pleasure that the ravens slick mouth was providing willingly. The heat and wetness was so immense that he knew he wouldn’t last much longer, and in all honestly he didn’t want to make it last; he wanted to finally experience what he had been dreaming of for years.

Sasuke’s hand reached up to pinch at a pink stub, causing the blonde to groan loudly and buck harder into his willing mouth. Just a bit more and he knew he would see stars… Just a bit more and he would finally have Sasuke in the palm of his hand.

The blonde let a few curse words stream out when Sasuke’s mouth left his shaft and began to suckle on his balls, “Damn Sasuke… oh Kami… Take me back into your mouth… I need to come inside you.” He watched as the Uchiha gave him a weird look, but obliged, taking the head back into his mouth, going all the way down on him, deep throating him completely. Then something unexpected but not altogether bad happened: Sasuke’s index finger found its way inside of his ass, and that was all Naruto needed to finally find his sweet release. He came hard. “Nahhhhhhhhguhhhhhh,” he moaned uncontrollably as Sasuke kept pumping his ass, simultaneously swallowing Naruto’s seed and pinching his nipple furiously. His heart was pounding, his breathing was uneven, and when he looked down at the smirking Sasuke who had pulled away from his softening cock, slipping his tongue out to lick away at the cum that had managed to get all over his lips, Naruto felt his heart race even faster with excitement. This had happened. This had actually happened. Sasuke had pleasured him. He had actually brought himself down from his own self given pedestal to pleasure someone like him.

He had his best friend back.

Sasuke climbed back up so that their faces were once more leveled, “Well that was certainly different,” he said with a smirk. He leaned in and placed kiss after kiss on Naruto’s lips, no tongue involved, and he was being so gentle that Naruto actually thought something might have possessed him. Then he felt it though, the hardness pressed up against his thigh. He looked down, and then Sasuke looked down… and then he knew it was his turn to give away pleasure. He looked back up into dark eyes nervously, not able to say anything at all.

Sasuke studied him for a few minutes before smiling once again, “You don’t have to,” he said, then chuckled as if though it were nothing. But in all honesty it didn’t feel like he didn’t have to, as a matter a fact he felt like a complete asshole because he knew that despite his guilt, despite knowing what it felt like to be left high and dry, he wasn’t about to give him release. He wasn’t ready for this to really mean something to him. This was his payback. This was his revenge and he couldn’t give himself away so completely to Sasuke, not yet. It didn’t matter that the bastard already had his heart.


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“Naruto!” Sakura screamed as she jumped on him and hugged him as tight as she could, “Naruto Naruto Naruto!” She repeated like a mantra, sighing in relief as her blonde willingly hugged her back just as tightly. The awful pressure that had been in the pit of her stomach since the moment Ako had told them he had been kidnapped dissipated when he flashed her a sincere smile. She was so incredibly happy.

“I’m so glad you guys are okay,” she said, trying to hold back tears.

“Hn, no thanks to that dobe,” Sasuke said, coming up behind her, waiting for the hug he knew would be bestowed upon him as well.

“Sasuke!” Sakura shrieked and threw herself onto the Uchiha, hugging him just as tightly as she had hugged Naruto, “I’m so glad you’re okay… I missed you so much!”

“Nice to see you too, Sakura,” Neji said from behind the three, a hint of amusement latched onto his voice.

Sakura had been so wrapped up in Naruto and Sasuke that she hadn’t even seen the Hyuuga genius crouched up against a tree behind them… but when she saw him her smile immediately went away. How could this have happened? “Neji…” She said slowly as she walked closer to the dark haired genius, eyeing the part of his body which should have had a hand attached to it. Her eyes widened when it dawned on her that this was not her imagination and Neji was indeed missing his hand. “What happened?” She asked as she went to his side immediately and went into medic-nin mode.

“We had a few problems,” Neji said, obviously not wanting to talk about the situation, but relieved that he now had a medic-nin to look over his injury.

Sakura nodded and said nothing as she kneeled beside him and lifted his arm gently, frowning at the poor made bandage. She undid the bandage and frowned once more when blood began to sprout forth, “This is not good, I think there might be an infection… Here, hold your hand up,” she said, and Neji did as he was told.

She took off her small back-pack and opened it, taking out a small rag and pouring a fair amount of water on it. Once she had managed to clean away most of the dried blood, she then poured a fair amount of disinfective medicine on it, just so that it wouldn’t get any worse. By the time she was done she had managed to stop the wound from bleeding. She was surprised at herself that she had acted so professionally. She didn’t know what to think or say; she knew by just looking at the wound that it was much too late to save the hand. He would have to live like this for the rest of his life, “Okay, this should do until we get back to Konoha,” She said gently as she finished wrapping the last of the clean bandage.

“Thank you,” Neji said, locking her in a gaze that made her so very uncomfortable. She felt so inadequate and so useless, but she played it off and simply nodded at him and averted her gaze back to see Jiraiya, Kakashi, Naruto, and Sasuke having what seemed to be a serious conversation. She sighed tiredly, surely they were going over the details of what all had happened.

All she knew was that she was incredibly happy that her teammates were safe. She didn’t want or even need to know the details just yet. She knew something terrible had happened because Lee wasn’t there with them and he should be. But she was determined to prolong her ignorance as long as possible. She didn’t need to know more bad things about her life. Too many things were already wrong with her life. She didn’t need to find out that one of her closest friends was now gone forever. She turned to look at Neji and sighed once again when she noticed that he had closed his eyes now, leaning against the tree comfortably. She packed up her supplies and found herself a sturdy tree to settle herself down on as she closed her eyes tiredly. If Lee really was gone, she’d find out for sure sooner or later, and if there was anything else she needed to know about the mission, she knew they’d make sure to tell her. She was in no hurry.

“How are you feeling?”

Sakura knew that voice, it belonged to the one she had been so afraid of losing. She opened her eyes and grinned up at the blonde, “I’m just a bit tired,” she admitted. Naruto nodded and took a seat beside her, and she couldn’t help but wonder when it was that he had forgiven her. She had been so surprised that he had hugged her back when she practically jumped on him. Though she wasn’t ignorant, she knew that things weren’t quite fixed just yet, it might have been his initial happiness at seeing her, but she was pretty certain that she wasn’t off the hook just yet.

“You know, there’s a lake nearby… I’m not sure blood brings out the color of your eyes,” Naruto said, a goofy grin on his handsome face. For a moment she was just perplexed, but then Naruto’s eyes averted down to her hands that were covered in Neji’s blood and she realized what he meant.

She smiled, getting that warm feeling in her chest that her blonde always managed to make her feel, “Yeah, I’ll go wash off before we leave.”

Naruto nodded and said nothing more, simply closing his eyes as he leaned his head against the tree. He was so beautiful that she couldn’t help but stare at him. How could she have been so stupid? How was it that she had actually let things get to the point where she had almost lost him? She would fix things though. She would declare her love to both Sasuke and Naruto and she would beat the living daylights out of them if they didn’t accept that they belonged together. They were a team. They had always belonged together… she simply couldn’t see a future without them.

“Stop staring… its uncomfortable,” Naruto said, opening a blue eye.

“Naruto…” She didn’t want to ruin the moment, but she knew that things had to be talked out, “… we have to talk about us.”

At that the blonde sighed and opened both his eyes. He looked briefly at Sasuke and then back at her, which wasn’t really all that odd. In fact, thinking about it more clearly, this conversation should be had with the three of them present. It shouldn’t be just her and Naruto, it should be the three of them. They all had things they wanted to say, and she was going to make damn sure that everything was said once and for all.

“Now?” Naruto asked, seeming rather nervous at the prospect, and she could honestly understand why.

“Now. With Sasuke,” she said, looking towards the Uchiha and mentally sighing. He was going to be the hardest to convince, she was sure of that. But she be damned if she was going to give up so easily.

“Alright then, we can go to the lake and talk in private, looks like Jiraiya is done questioning him anyways,” The blonde said as he got up and walked towards the Uchiha.

Sakura just hoped that they wouldn’t turn her away. She hoped that they would accept their destiny, because really, they were destined for each other. They were meant to be together, and if they gave her any problems whatsoever, she would beat them to a bloody pulp.

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“So talk,” Sasuke said, sounding rather bored as he looked at Sakura with inquiry.

Yeah, so she had been the one to suggest they talk, and yeah, she had wanted to confess her feelings to the both of them… but having a fidgety blonde and the usual asshole of an Uchiha in front of her kind of made her want to take it all back and just go along with the flow like she always did. She was at a loss for words and she didn’t know what to say. Would they reject her? Would they think she was insane for wanting this deformed thing that they had going on to work out as a relationship? Would Sasuke even want to be her boyfriend again after she confessed?

“I… just… we were so mad at each other before…” That had absolutely nothing to do with what she really wanted to talk about, but she figured that it was a start. I mean seriously, you can’t blame a girl when she’s under such pressure!

Naruto sighed loudly and sat himself on a large rock a few feet away from the lake, and in the scenery, surrounded by so many beautiful trees, she thought he looked gorgeous. “Really, after what happened today I don’t think I can afford to be mad anymore,” the blonde said as he looked over at Sasuke.

The odd thing wasn’t really the words that made no sense whatsoever, the odd thing was that when he smirked at Sasuke, she could have sworn the raven actually blushed, “What do you mean?” She asked, officially lost.

“I mean… I forgive you guys,” Naruto smiled widely.

Then Sasuke laughed, “Forgive me? Baka… I didn’t do anything wrong, in fact I forgive you,” he dropped himself onto the floor.

Well this was certainly going easier than she had expected, at least they weren’t breaking out into a fight like she had thought they would, “Wow… well you’re not pissed, that’s good to know,” She tried to play it off like it was nothing, tried to act cool like they seemed to be acting. It was hard to register in her mind that everything was okay though— when had everything suddenly become okay? Obviously something had happened before she had arrived; obviously they had come to amends without her… which didn’t make anything easier. In fact, it definitely made things all the more difficult for her to say now, because now it seemed like they were hiding something from her.

“We have to tell her Sasuke, she looks so lost,” Naruto said, chuckling at Sakura’s expense. Sakura narrowed her eyes, not at all liking the idea that they were keeping something important from her.

“You realize she’ll probably freak,” Sasuke’s voice sounded bored, and he actually leaned all the way back onto the floor, resting his weight on his elbows as he looked lazily to the clouds. He was acting so causal that she felt like beating him up just to make a point.

“Yeah but do you see the sweat forming on her eyebrow—”

“Enough!” She yelled, clenching her fists, “Someone tell me what the fuck you guys are talking about right now because if you don’t then I’ll just bypass the idea of talking and go straight to beating the shit out of you guys!” Maybe she had overreacted a tad bit, but she really didn’t like being in the dark, and they were talking about her as if though she wasn’t even there!

Though now she had the issue of them staring at her with weird looks on their faces… okay so maybe it was Naruto that had the weird look on his face, Sasuke just looked completely bored with the whole ordeal like usual. “What’s going on?” She asked, taking on a more serious tone.

Naruto sighed, looked at Sasuke, who simply nodded, then looked her straight in the eyes and said, “Sasuke and I… well, we sorta kinda got together and I mean that in a ‘lover’ kind of way… and now we want to be together with you, and I mean that in the ‘lover’ kind of way too,” he had a grin on his face, almost as if though he were expecting her to be completely willing… which don’t get her wrong, she was. She so was. But that didn’t change the fact that she was shocked beyond belief!

“Wha… What?” She asked as she took a few steps towards the sitting blonde. She had to make sure she understood exactly what it was that he was implying because it sounded way too good to be true. “What does that mean…?”

“It means, Sakura, that he still wants you. It means that I still want you. It means that if this is going to work, we’re going to be the weird team that fucks whenever they’re horny. It means that I don’t want to lose you or him… but most importantly, it means that you have to decided what it is you want.”

Sakura had to admit that it was weird hearing those words come from the usually uncaring Uchiha. She looked into his eyes and she knew then that he wasn’t playing a horrible joke on her; she knew he was dead serious. “I thought I was gonna have to beat you guys into the next world to make you understand…” She said, letting a sincere smile take over her face. She walked up to Naruto and threw her arms around him, “I was so scared of losing you.”

Naruto hugged her back, and when she began pulling away, he captured her in a breathtaking kiss. A kiss she feared she would never again experience, “You’re mine now, and I’m not gonna let you get away,” he said with a goofy grin, “the bastard’s just gonna have to fight if he wants a turn with you.”

“Hn, baka,” Sasuke said from behind them, but Sakura knew that they were far from being angry.

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AN: I know some people are wondering what the deal was with the blow job, right? It wasn’t the blow job in itself that was the issue- it was the fact that Naruto demanded it… and the fact that Sasuke was doing everything NARUTO wanted him to do— ALL FOR NARUTO’S pleasure, not his own. In a way, it was a form of apology for everything Sasuke put him through in the past. So no mean remarks cuz I thought it was super sweet! *smiles happy*

.... Alsoooooooo, I know I said my friend would help me beta this but I kinda sorta decided to just do this on my own since This really is almost finished (And I had a whole week for spring break to work on it). I estimate a total of maybe 4 more chapters before I wrap this baby up and call it finished (I think... I could be wrong though). :D Please be a sport and review cuz it makes me happy!-- really really really really happy! :D