Drabbel Days
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Naruto › Yaoi - Male/Male
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Adult +
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Category:
Naruto › Yaoi - Male/Male
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
35
Views:
2,170
Reviews:
10
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
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I Do not own Naruto nor do i make any money from writing this.
Coming to my end ( Sasuke)
Sasuke walked the dark streets; nothing held meaning for him anymore. There was nothing to life, no happiness. Then again, there never really was. There was once, maybe, but he couldn’t really remember when. No, it wasn’t that, everything was just too hazy. These last few weeks had gone by like that. Like it wasn’t real…none of it, like it had been a bad dream. As if he would wake up any moment and realize he hadn’t fucked up and destroyed everything in his life.
Sasuke stared up at the midnight moon as he continued to his last destination. The walk seemed so much longer than it used to be. Maybe it was anticipation or maybe just his nerves. Everything was leading up to this. Even though he should have known it would turn out like this. But truthfully he didn’t mean for it to happen. Naruto was so happy, and he had a girlfriend, a fairy tale life going for him.
Sasuke couldn’t stand it and the bitterness consumed him. He loved Naruto and Naruto had walked away from him. It made him angry, hurt; it made him feel things he didn’t ever want to feel again. Things he would never have to feel again. So he did it...he raped Naruto. He had hoped that...well he wasn’t really sure what he had hoped. Maybe he had hoped Naruto would realize that he belonged with him. Realize that he loved him...but that’s not what happened.
Naruto wouldn’t even look at him. He wouldn’t talk to him aside from asking him to leave in a tone Sasuke had never heard before. He couldn’t bring himself to speak, such sorrow, sadness, and hurt. Things he never thought he would ever hear in Naruto’s voice. After that Sasuke felt even colder like a piece of his soul had died. How could Naruto understand the feeling of being crushed by the one you loved? How could he understand what it felt like to make yourself feel like a monster? Sasuke didn’t think he could feel any lower than that day, didn’t think he could get anymore broken.
The loneliness that had set in and it seemed to be rotting him from the inside out. And just when he didn’t think it could get any worse it had. The phone call he received the next day had made everything crumble around him. It destroyed his very being and obliterated what was left of his heart, although, he didn’t think that was much to begin with. Apparently there was and now this was the only way he could make the pain stop.
~*~
Sasuke entered Naruto’s apartment. It held a gloomy feel to it…no, that didn’t quite describe it. But it no longer had that happy warm feeling it once did. And just like everything else in this world it was empty and cold. Sasuke leaned against a white wall as he slowly slid to the ground. He wouldn’t leave Naruto alone in the dark, not anymore. Not because of him...
‘Rip my heart out.’ Sasuke stared at the door way….Naruto…Naruto was here.
‘Please watch me bleed’ Sasuke’s expression changed to one of slight agony, not from the pain. Naruto’s face no longer held the beautiful coloring it once did. And his eyes were watery and full of hurt. Why? Why was he still hurting Naruto?
‘Then you can stare into the empty space where my heart used to be.’ Sasuke couldn’t feel anything anymore. His body was finally going numb as the white, ripped shirt turned a darker shade of red. There was a large X carved over where his heart once was.
‘But please don’t cry.’ Sasuke tried his hardest to look away from Naruto and he didn’t like it. He didn’t like seeing Naruto cry for the second time. Not because of him, not again.
‘Please don’t try to weep.’ Sasuke finally looked down, staring at the bloody knife and the pool of blood that was soaking the floor. It didn’t hurt, it didn’t hurt like he wanted it too. He wanted to feel the pain that he had put Naruto through. He needed the same suffering as his punishment so he could find forgiveness. So that he could finally forgive himself.
‘I’m giving you what you wanted.’ Sasuke’s eyes darkened slightly as the blond lowered himself and placed his hands over his chest. It was as if Naruto was trying to stop the bleeding. ‘The end of me.’
Sasuke could hear the sobbing from the other male now, as Naruto held him in a tight embrace. He rested his eyes and it was finally over. He let everything fade into the black as Naruto whispered what Sasuke so desperately wanted to hear. “I forgive you, and I love you.”
( Beta'd by Cai)
Sasuke stared up at the midnight moon as he continued to his last destination. The walk seemed so much longer than it used to be. Maybe it was anticipation or maybe just his nerves. Everything was leading up to this. Even though he should have known it would turn out like this. But truthfully he didn’t mean for it to happen. Naruto was so happy, and he had a girlfriend, a fairy tale life going for him.
Sasuke couldn’t stand it and the bitterness consumed him. He loved Naruto and Naruto had walked away from him. It made him angry, hurt; it made him feel things he didn’t ever want to feel again. Things he would never have to feel again. So he did it...he raped Naruto. He had hoped that...well he wasn’t really sure what he had hoped. Maybe he had hoped Naruto would realize that he belonged with him. Realize that he loved him...but that’s not what happened.
Naruto wouldn’t even look at him. He wouldn’t talk to him aside from asking him to leave in a tone Sasuke had never heard before. He couldn’t bring himself to speak, such sorrow, sadness, and hurt. Things he never thought he would ever hear in Naruto’s voice. After that Sasuke felt even colder like a piece of his soul had died. How could Naruto understand the feeling of being crushed by the one you loved? How could he understand what it felt like to make yourself feel like a monster? Sasuke didn’t think he could feel any lower than that day, didn’t think he could get anymore broken.
The loneliness that had set in and it seemed to be rotting him from the inside out. And just when he didn’t think it could get any worse it had. The phone call he received the next day had made everything crumble around him. It destroyed his very being and obliterated what was left of his heart, although, he didn’t think that was much to begin with. Apparently there was and now this was the only way he could make the pain stop.
~*~
Sasuke entered Naruto’s apartment. It held a gloomy feel to it…no, that didn’t quite describe it. But it no longer had that happy warm feeling it once did. And just like everything else in this world it was empty and cold. Sasuke leaned against a white wall as he slowly slid to the ground. He wouldn’t leave Naruto alone in the dark, not anymore. Not because of him...
‘Rip my heart out.’ Sasuke stared at the door way….Naruto…Naruto was here.
‘Please watch me bleed’ Sasuke’s expression changed to one of slight agony, not from the pain. Naruto’s face no longer held the beautiful coloring it once did. And his eyes were watery and full of hurt. Why? Why was he still hurting Naruto?
‘Then you can stare into the empty space where my heart used to be.’ Sasuke couldn’t feel anything anymore. His body was finally going numb as the white, ripped shirt turned a darker shade of red. There was a large X carved over where his heart once was.
‘But please don’t cry.’ Sasuke tried his hardest to look away from Naruto and he didn’t like it. He didn’t like seeing Naruto cry for the second time. Not because of him, not again.
‘Please don’t try to weep.’ Sasuke finally looked down, staring at the bloody knife and the pool of blood that was soaking the floor. It didn’t hurt, it didn’t hurt like he wanted it too. He wanted to feel the pain that he had put Naruto through. He needed the same suffering as his punishment so he could find forgiveness. So that he could finally forgive himself.
‘I’m giving you what you wanted.’ Sasuke’s eyes darkened slightly as the blond lowered himself and placed his hands over his chest. It was as if Naruto was trying to stop the bleeding. ‘The end of me.’
Sasuke could hear the sobbing from the other male now, as Naruto held him in a tight embrace. He rested his eyes and it was finally over. He let everything fade into the black as Naruto whispered what Sasuke so desperately wanted to hear. “I forgive you, and I love you.”
( Beta'd by Cai)