Darkness be my light
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Naruto › Yaoi - Male/Male
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Adult +
Chapters:
7
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47
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cp2-My own prison
Wow...thanks for all the comments guys o.o" I didn't think you'd like my fic so much XD And because everyone was promting me to write the next Chapter (including you sarah...nag nag nag...always with the nagging *grins*) I thought I better put it up...sorry if it is a bit short ^.^"
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Cp2-My own Prison
Darkness
Shadow
Pain
It was all seeping back. The emotional ache that squeezed in my chest with cold fingers. Lacing through my body as it jerked, forcing a jolt and a moan from my lips as Red Chakra pushed through. Breaking, burning, hurting. No, I didn't want this. I didn't want this to go away...this calm black work. Inky and void. Cold and alone, but a safe world where I didn't have to feel...feel pain, feel the world, feel the words.
I wanted to cry, even if I promised never to. Wanted to bleed the pain away. Wanted it to stop. Why couldn't they understand that! Why did the have to drag me back. Just so they could kick me down again!!
The Kuyuubi growled faintly in my head, blazing yellow eyes, slitted and tired, but loosing none of their hated fury. Stared at me through the pitch. Glowed and hissed. Wrenched me back with another thrust of depleating Chakra. Force a slowing heart to pulse so suddenly it hurt.
"STOP!" I cried at the eyes as the narrowed.
"STOP KUYUUBI!!! STOP!!!"
Another jolt and I felt my body arch, ripped back with a gasp. Freedom, I wanted freedom, but my earthy prison folded into place. The world flooding back...and I screamed
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Cerulean eyes burst open, blank and masked with death and I felt my heart cletch as the body in my arms shuddered. Red chakra coiled and whipped about the quirvering boy I held tightly in my arms. I knew that Chakra, fought it, but still didn't understand it. It pressed against my skin, like something hot and living.
I watched a trickle of awareness filter back into those spring blue eyes, a soft shine of life hazing them. The marks on his wrists hissing like water on sudden head. Slithering closed, the blood the only memory of the marks.
I held the boy as he shuddered his lips parting, expecting a breath to be gasped through those lips, but was met by a sudden maddening scream of anguish. A howl of pain the splintered the air. It froze me like a shaft of ice jabbed in my gut and I gripped Naruto tighter, as if the contact could stop the sorrowful sound.
"Naruto!!"
The scream melted into a slow gasping sob, a fine tremble shivering through the blond boy's body. His fingers balling in my shirt with surprising strength for a almost-dead man. He whispered something past soft lips. I watched them mouthed almost soundlessly and knew he was saying something to me.
A mixture of worry and relief flooded me. He was alive, breathing and slowly becoming warm again. A small weight lodged in my chest shifted, that small pressure easing. But it was replaced by another, something smaller but more. His eyes held life of blood and flesh, but were dead. Like watching a summer sky still blue, when the light was fading...greying...just before the red bleed though.
"Naruto?" I murmured as he whispered again, his eyes gazing into the void of a moonlit night. I couldn't hear his words.
"Naruto...what..."
"...hate you..." The words whispered softly as his fingers tightened in my shirt.
***
It hurt, dammit, it hurt. I hated it. I hated the pain, the feeling, all of it. I hated Sasuke, holding me like that like he cared. I hated Kuyuubi for making me lived. I hated....hated....it all.
Sasuke asked me to repeat something I didn't know I was saying. I felt my lips move, the words felt perfect. So why did it hurt so damn much to say them?
Why did I want to take them back?
Why did I want him to care?
No godammit! No one was allowed to care, I didn't want anyone to care. No one cared...no one cared....NO ONE!!
"I HATE YOU!!"
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"I HATE YOU!!" He shattered scream tore through suddenly, tears steaming down his face and I didn't even think he knew he was crying. I didn't think he knew where he was, or how loud he was screaming. He was shaking hard, like he was terrified.
He repeated the words again and again in a softer mantra, his nails tearing my shirt, frustrated.
"Naruto..." It hurt.
It hurt when he said that? I swallowed back the lump in my throat as his breath came in shakey gasps, his voice soft and defeated. I couldn't stand this. Not Naruto. His grin was gone, that smile, the sunshine in his words. The life he spilled out that was so infectious it made you want to laugh at the stupidity of it all...wanted to make you live, because it felt worth it...watching that smile.
"I hate you..." He sobbed. "...Why don't you just let me die...I liked it there...."
I couldn't understand. Why did he want to die. Why...why? He was so damn stubborn. He didn't give up like this!
"Naruto..."
"You don't care Sasuke..."
It hit me, like something artically cold, shoved into my chest and wrenching it out again. Shit it hurt.
I feel to my knees with him in my arms and did something I didn't think I could still do. Thougt it was beyond me. I hugged him. Clutching his smaller frame against my chest as it trembled, tears dotting my shoulder as they sqeezed free of tightly shut lids. Like he was trying so hard to surpress so much more than he was showing. His body remained almost limp in my arms, not hugging back as his breath came out in dry racking sobs.
"I do care."
'thats my problem' I thought silently.
TBC
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Wahhhh...I feel this chapter is somewhat lacking..and there are probably a trillion spelling errors *dies* x.x
But it is laaaattte where I am right now writing this, and you will just have to forgive the spelling until I get the energy to check it all XD
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Cp2-My own Prison
Darkness
Shadow
Pain
It was all seeping back. The emotional ache that squeezed in my chest with cold fingers. Lacing through my body as it jerked, forcing a jolt and a moan from my lips as Red Chakra pushed through. Breaking, burning, hurting. No, I didn't want this. I didn't want this to go away...this calm black work. Inky and void. Cold and alone, but a safe world where I didn't have to feel...feel pain, feel the world, feel the words.
I wanted to cry, even if I promised never to. Wanted to bleed the pain away. Wanted it to stop. Why couldn't they understand that! Why did the have to drag me back. Just so they could kick me down again!!
The Kuyuubi growled faintly in my head, blazing yellow eyes, slitted and tired, but loosing none of their hated fury. Stared at me through the pitch. Glowed and hissed. Wrenched me back with another thrust of depleating Chakra. Force a slowing heart to pulse so suddenly it hurt.
"STOP!" I cried at the eyes as the narrowed.
"STOP KUYUUBI!!! STOP!!!"
Another jolt and I felt my body arch, ripped back with a gasp. Freedom, I wanted freedom, but my earthy prison folded into place. The world flooding back...and I screamed
***
Cerulean eyes burst open, blank and masked with death and I felt my heart cletch as the body in my arms shuddered. Red chakra coiled and whipped about the quirvering boy I held tightly in my arms. I knew that Chakra, fought it, but still didn't understand it. It pressed against my skin, like something hot and living.
I watched a trickle of awareness filter back into those spring blue eyes, a soft shine of life hazing them. The marks on his wrists hissing like water on sudden head. Slithering closed, the blood the only memory of the marks.
I held the boy as he shuddered his lips parting, expecting a breath to be gasped through those lips, but was met by a sudden maddening scream of anguish. A howl of pain the splintered the air. It froze me like a shaft of ice jabbed in my gut and I gripped Naruto tighter, as if the contact could stop the sorrowful sound.
"Naruto!!"
The scream melted into a slow gasping sob, a fine tremble shivering through the blond boy's body. His fingers balling in my shirt with surprising strength for a almost-dead man. He whispered something past soft lips. I watched them mouthed almost soundlessly and knew he was saying something to me.
A mixture of worry and relief flooded me. He was alive, breathing and slowly becoming warm again. A small weight lodged in my chest shifted, that small pressure easing. But it was replaced by another, something smaller but more. His eyes held life of blood and flesh, but were dead. Like watching a summer sky still blue, when the light was fading...greying...just before the red bleed though.
"Naruto?" I murmured as he whispered again, his eyes gazing into the void of a moonlit night. I couldn't hear his words.
"Naruto...what..."
"...hate you..." The words whispered softly as his fingers tightened in my shirt.
***
It hurt, dammit, it hurt. I hated it. I hated the pain, the feeling, all of it. I hated Sasuke, holding me like that like he cared. I hated Kuyuubi for making me lived. I hated....hated....it all.
Sasuke asked me to repeat something I didn't know I was saying. I felt my lips move, the words felt perfect. So why did it hurt so damn much to say them?
Why did I want to take them back?
Why did I want him to care?
No godammit! No one was allowed to care, I didn't want anyone to care. No one cared...no one cared....NO ONE!!
"I HATE YOU!!"
***
"I HATE YOU!!" He shattered scream tore through suddenly, tears steaming down his face and I didn't even think he knew he was crying. I didn't think he knew where he was, or how loud he was screaming. He was shaking hard, like he was terrified.
He repeated the words again and again in a softer mantra, his nails tearing my shirt, frustrated.
"Naruto..." It hurt.
It hurt when he said that? I swallowed back the lump in my throat as his breath came in shakey gasps, his voice soft and defeated. I couldn't stand this. Not Naruto. His grin was gone, that smile, the sunshine in his words. The life he spilled out that was so infectious it made you want to laugh at the stupidity of it all...wanted to make you live, because it felt worth it...watching that smile.
"I hate you..." He sobbed. "...Why don't you just let me die...I liked it there...."
I couldn't understand. Why did he want to die. Why...why? He was so damn stubborn. He didn't give up like this!
"Naruto..."
"You don't care Sasuke..."
It hit me, like something artically cold, shoved into my chest and wrenching it out again. Shit it hurt.
I feel to my knees with him in my arms and did something I didn't think I could still do. Thougt it was beyond me. I hugged him. Clutching his smaller frame against my chest as it trembled, tears dotting my shoulder as they sqeezed free of tightly shut lids. Like he was trying so hard to surpress so much more than he was showing. His body remained almost limp in my arms, not hugging back as his breath came out in dry racking sobs.
"I do care."
'thats my problem' I thought silently.
TBC
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Wahhhh...I feel this chapter is somewhat lacking..and there are probably a trillion spelling errors *dies* x.x
But it is laaaattte where I am right now writing this, and you will just have to forgive the spelling until I get the energy to check it all XD