My One Love
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Part 2
My One Love
Part 2
Pairings: Shika/Neji, one-sided Chouji/Shika, & Lee/Sakura, Chouji/Lee friendship
Rating: Pg->NC-17 this chapter PG-13 (just to be safe)
Warning: Still angst filled but it will get better, oh and slight Ino bashing.
Chouji was eating a bag of chips as he watched Lee train. It was weird, he never thought he’d be spending his spare time with Rock Lee of all people. Shikamaru and Neji were on a date so Chouji obviously couldn’t be with them. That’s when he went to find Lee, it was easy to talk to the taijutsu master, though they tried to keep the topics light. Chouji looked on in amazement as Lee trained his hardest, practically beat the shit out of himself everyday just to prove himself, yet no one cared to notice. Chouji shook his head as his thoughts went to the darker topics, he didn’t understand why he tortured himself everyday.
“Chouji do you want to get something to eat?” Chouji looked up from his sitting position and nodded smiling slightly.
“Of course, when do I ever ~not~want to eat.” Lee smiled slightly as they headed off to get some food. As they walked into town they kept conversation to a minimum, they really didn’t feel like getting emotional on the streets where everyone could see them. As they headed to Ichiraku’s Chouji noticed Shikamaru and Neji sitting on one of the benches. If he didn’t know any better he’d say that they didn’t even look like they knew each other. They both sat at opposite ends of the bench, but the one thing that made it obvious to Chouji and Lee was the fact that both boys on the bench were smiling. Chouji turned around quickly. “I’m sorry Lee, but I don’t really feel like eating all of a sudden.” Lee nodded as he watched his friend walk away. It wasn’t fair, not fair at all...
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Chouji sighed as he reached his house. He felt bad for leaving Lee alone when the black haired ninja had invited him to eat but he really couldn’t eat after the sight of Shikamaru being so happy. Chouji knew he shouldn’t feel this way, his best friend and love of his life was ~happy~ that’s all that mattered. It shouldn’t ~hurt~ this much knowing that his friend was enjoying his life. Why was it every time he saw his friend smiling did he feel like another piece of his heart was shattering? He sighed sadly as he walked into his apartment and sat on the couch. He leaned back as he tried not to think about the pain that sat in his chest. He kept trying to remind himself that this feeling wouldn’t last forever, that someday he’d be truly happy that Shikamaru had discovered love. Closing his eyes he tried to force all thoughts from his mind, he didn’t know how much more he could take. Slowly he settled down further into the couch and tried to fall asleep, he hadn’t been sleeping well at all lately. Before he could loose consciousness there was a knock at the door. Chouji groaned and whispered to himself.
“Just leave me the ~fuck~ alone ~please~ ” Whoever was behind the door apparently didn’t hear him, or didn’t care because the knocks persisted. Chouji sighed and walked over to the door. He opened it and was greeted by a very familiar blonde. “Hello Ino.” Ino smiled brightly and came into the apartment uninvited, as usual. Chouji sighed ‘oh yeas please come on in and make me feel worse about myself, I don’t think I’ve felt shitty enough today.’
“So I’m guessing you know about Shikamaru and Neji?” Chouji nodded and closed the door. He turned and walked back over to the couch, sitting dawn he watched as Ino walked around the tiny space and touched ~everything~. Chouji decided he was not in the mood to deal with her so he decided to be blunt.
“What do you want Ino, besides touching all my stuff?” Ino turned a slight blush touching her cheeks but she was glaring.
“Well you seemed to have caught Shika’s manners...” Chouji took in a deep breath and let it out slowly. “Anyway I just wanted to ask if you knew, I mean I figured you did considering you’re his best friend and all but can you believe he didn’t even ~tell~ me I had to find out by TenTen who was talking to Neji about it ” Chouji smirked slightly.
“You weren’t spying on them were you?” Ino’s cheeks puffed out at the insinuation.
“Of course not I don’t need to ~spy~ to find out things in this village Unlike some people, I’m popular and people like telling me things.” Chouji decided to totally ignore that statement as he leaned his head back against the couch. He really hoped she’d get to the point soon, he was beginning to get a headache. “Anyway, I was just wondering if you knew where Shika was, I have some flowers for him to congratulate him on finally telling Neji.” Chouji nodded, of course Ino would get flowers for Shikamaru, not only did he hate them, but he liked to keep his private matters just that, private. Ino was the last person to ever listen, so it would make sense that she would do something like this.
“Last time I saw him, he was in the market with Neji. Ino you know Shikamaru doesn’t like flowers.” Ino snorted and sat down next to Chouji.
“Of course he does, he just doesn’t want to admit it. Anyway I’m surprised you’re not around him, what? does Neji threaten you whenever your around?” Chouji refused to let Ino know how much pain he was in so he just grunted slightly. Ino rolled her eyes and looked at him. “You’re being depressing, are you afraid you’ll never spend time being lazy with him again?” The problem was that’s exactly how he felt. He was petrified that Shikamaru would forget all about him, that the one person he loved so dearly would tell him to get lost or that he was completely useless. Chouji shook his head slightly to get rid of those thoughts, he did not want to get upset with Ino around, she’d probably just tell him to grow up. “Well, I better get going I want to get these to Shika and Neji as soon as possible. Don’t you think they make such a cute couple?” Chouji nodded as Ino let herself out, he could tell she didn’t really care what he was thinking anyway. ‘I can’t believe I’m losing myself like this. I have to be strong for Shika, I love him so much...and because of that, I have to let go of this hope...’
“Um Chouji, I’m sorry to bother you, but your door was open.” Chouji looked up and smiled slightly.
“It’s ok Lee, come on in.” Lee smiled and walked in, he closed the door softly and sat down next to his friend.
“I saw that Ino just left, are you alright? I know sometimes she can be a little...well she doesn’t realize exactly what she’s saying sometimes...” Chouji smiled slightly and shook his head.
“I’m fine don’t worry, actually I feel better then I have all week.” Lee looked skeptical and frowned slightly. The bigger of the two coughed into his hand lightly. “Ok, fine please just stop giving me that look.” Lee nodded as Chouji sighed. “I miss him Lee, I already miss him so much. It feels like every time I look at him, he’s getting further away from me. I’m losing him to something I don’t want to stop because he’s happy. I just wish I could be the one that makes him smile like that, but I know I can’t, Shikamaru doesn’t feel that way and never will. I just truly hope that whoever Shika ends up with, they make him happy. I just want him to be so, so happy...” Lee bit his lip as Chouji took a deep breath a tear running down his cheek. The bigger man laughed sadly as he wiped the tear away. “I ~really~ have to stop doing that.” Lee smiled slightly and rubbed his friends shoulder comfortingly.
“Chouji, Shikamaru is a lucky guy to have a friend like you, willing to but your own happiness aside for his. I don’t think that such a wonderful deed will go empty handed. I think one day you’ll find happiness too.” Chouji looked at Lee and suddenly it hit him, he couldn’t understand why this man next to him was always put down, sure he had big eyebrows and was very excitable at times, but he was an amazing person. It was hard to live knowing that such a good person was rejected so many times.
“You’re an amazing person Lee, I have to give you that.” Lee smiled and blushed slightly hitting Chouji in the arm trying to lighten the mood. Chouji smiled and stood up. “You want something to drink, I think with all the crying I’ve become a little dehydrated.” Lee nodded and watched his friend head to the kitchen. ‘It’s not fair, not fair at all...’
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Shikamaru stood outside the apartment and felt as if someone had punched him in the stomach.
Shikamaru had walked Neji home so the Hyuuga could practice with his uncle, after that he had decided to visit his best friend. They hadn’t been spending all that much time together lately so Shika made his way over to his best friends apartment. On his way there he had run into Ino who had basically just annoyed him until he was able to get away. It had been so troublesome... Once he got away he went to Chouji’s apartment only to be extremely surprised to see Rock Lee enter the apartment without even knocking. Shikamaru had no idea Chouji was seeing ~Lee~. He was about to leave, it wasn’t his business what his friend did, but for some reason he walked toward the door like a string was pulling him. He leaned against the wall and listened to what was going on inside the room. It was a little hard to hear at first, but then as he concentrated he could hear everything that was going on. Oh, how he wish he had just left before being nosey.
Chouji loved him. Actually, his best friend was ~in love~ with him. Shikamaru didn’t understand how he kept missing everything emotional in his life. And god, Chouji sounded so distraught...Shikamaru couldn’t begin to wrap his brain around what Chouji was feeling, he never ~knew~ that Chouji felt so strongly for him, he didn’t know he had hurt his friend so badly. What was worse is that he couldn’t do anything about it. If he walked in there and let Chouji find out that he now knew, Chouji would be even more heart broken, and Shikamaru was with someone else...No he had to just leave. He had to leave and keep this secret. It wasn’t fair but he couldn’t put his best friend through both the heartache of both thinking he was loving and not being loved in return, and it actually being true.
Shikamaru felt his own chest tighten. No that wasn’t true, he loved Chouji, he loved him so much, but he couldn’t just leave Neji, he loved him too. He turned to knock on the door but he couldn’t do it, he couldn’t complicate things... ‘Oh Chouji, I just hope one day you can forgive me...I’m so sorry....’ Shikamaru turned and walked down the hall, he didn’t deserve such a friend.
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Shikamaru felt tears gather in his eyes as he walked down the street. Chouji loved him, actually truly loved him, and what did he do? He walked away, just like he always did. He sighed and stopped in the middle of the street looking up at the clouds.
“Shikamaru-san!” Shikamaru turned and blinked as Hinata ran to him. “Can I please talk to you. It’s about Chouji-san.” Shikamaru sighed and looked at his shoes. Hinata looked at him with sad eyes. “You know then?” Shikamaru nodded. “I was hoping that I could help him and Lee-san, they were both so upset, but I didn’t want to hurt you or nii-san in the process. I’m sorry.” Shikamaru sighed and looked at his boyfriends cousin. Always trying to be helpful, and like Chouji and Lee, always being ignored by the one person she’d die for. He wasn’t feeling any better as he looked at the Hyuuga girl...well woman now.
“Thank you Hinata, but right now there is nothing I can do, nothing at all....” Hinata watched as Shikamaru walked away. It seemed the only thing left to do was to talk to her cousin and see if he could help...Oh she hoped he could....
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A/N: Hope everyone is enjoying this so far. Please R&R just so I know if I should continue or not. Thanks!
Part 2
Pairings: Shika/Neji, one-sided Chouji/Shika, & Lee/Sakura, Chouji/Lee friendship
Rating: Pg->NC-17 this chapter PG-13 (just to be safe)
Warning: Still angst filled but it will get better, oh and slight Ino bashing.
Chouji was eating a bag of chips as he watched Lee train. It was weird, he never thought he’d be spending his spare time with Rock Lee of all people. Shikamaru and Neji were on a date so Chouji obviously couldn’t be with them. That’s when he went to find Lee, it was easy to talk to the taijutsu master, though they tried to keep the topics light. Chouji looked on in amazement as Lee trained his hardest, practically beat the shit out of himself everyday just to prove himself, yet no one cared to notice. Chouji shook his head as his thoughts went to the darker topics, he didn’t understand why he tortured himself everyday.
“Chouji do you want to get something to eat?” Chouji looked up from his sitting position and nodded smiling slightly.
“Of course, when do I ever ~not~want to eat.” Lee smiled slightly as they headed off to get some food. As they walked into town they kept conversation to a minimum, they really didn’t feel like getting emotional on the streets where everyone could see them. As they headed to Ichiraku’s Chouji noticed Shikamaru and Neji sitting on one of the benches. If he didn’t know any better he’d say that they didn’t even look like they knew each other. They both sat at opposite ends of the bench, but the one thing that made it obvious to Chouji and Lee was the fact that both boys on the bench were smiling. Chouji turned around quickly. “I’m sorry Lee, but I don’t really feel like eating all of a sudden.” Lee nodded as he watched his friend walk away. It wasn’t fair, not fair at all...
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Chouji sighed as he reached his house. He felt bad for leaving Lee alone when the black haired ninja had invited him to eat but he really couldn’t eat after the sight of Shikamaru being so happy. Chouji knew he shouldn’t feel this way, his best friend and love of his life was ~happy~ that’s all that mattered. It shouldn’t ~hurt~ this much knowing that his friend was enjoying his life. Why was it every time he saw his friend smiling did he feel like another piece of his heart was shattering? He sighed sadly as he walked into his apartment and sat on the couch. He leaned back as he tried not to think about the pain that sat in his chest. He kept trying to remind himself that this feeling wouldn’t last forever, that someday he’d be truly happy that Shikamaru had discovered love. Closing his eyes he tried to force all thoughts from his mind, he didn’t know how much more he could take. Slowly he settled down further into the couch and tried to fall asleep, he hadn’t been sleeping well at all lately. Before he could loose consciousness there was a knock at the door. Chouji groaned and whispered to himself.
“Just leave me the ~fuck~ alone ~please~ ” Whoever was behind the door apparently didn’t hear him, or didn’t care because the knocks persisted. Chouji sighed and walked over to the door. He opened it and was greeted by a very familiar blonde. “Hello Ino.” Ino smiled brightly and came into the apartment uninvited, as usual. Chouji sighed ‘oh yeas please come on in and make me feel worse about myself, I don’t think I’ve felt shitty enough today.’
“So I’m guessing you know about Shikamaru and Neji?” Chouji nodded and closed the door. He turned and walked back over to the couch, sitting dawn he watched as Ino walked around the tiny space and touched ~everything~. Chouji decided he was not in the mood to deal with her so he decided to be blunt.
“What do you want Ino, besides touching all my stuff?” Ino turned a slight blush touching her cheeks but she was glaring.
“Well you seemed to have caught Shika’s manners...” Chouji took in a deep breath and let it out slowly. “Anyway I just wanted to ask if you knew, I mean I figured you did considering you’re his best friend and all but can you believe he didn’t even ~tell~ me I had to find out by TenTen who was talking to Neji about it ” Chouji smirked slightly.
“You weren’t spying on them were you?” Ino’s cheeks puffed out at the insinuation.
“Of course not I don’t need to ~spy~ to find out things in this village Unlike some people, I’m popular and people like telling me things.” Chouji decided to totally ignore that statement as he leaned his head back against the couch. He really hoped she’d get to the point soon, he was beginning to get a headache. “Anyway, I was just wondering if you knew where Shika was, I have some flowers for him to congratulate him on finally telling Neji.” Chouji nodded, of course Ino would get flowers for Shikamaru, not only did he hate them, but he liked to keep his private matters just that, private. Ino was the last person to ever listen, so it would make sense that she would do something like this.
“Last time I saw him, he was in the market with Neji. Ino you know Shikamaru doesn’t like flowers.” Ino snorted and sat down next to Chouji.
“Of course he does, he just doesn’t want to admit it. Anyway I’m surprised you’re not around him, what? does Neji threaten you whenever your around?” Chouji refused to let Ino know how much pain he was in so he just grunted slightly. Ino rolled her eyes and looked at him. “You’re being depressing, are you afraid you’ll never spend time being lazy with him again?” The problem was that’s exactly how he felt. He was petrified that Shikamaru would forget all about him, that the one person he loved so dearly would tell him to get lost or that he was completely useless. Chouji shook his head slightly to get rid of those thoughts, he did not want to get upset with Ino around, she’d probably just tell him to grow up. “Well, I better get going I want to get these to Shika and Neji as soon as possible. Don’t you think they make such a cute couple?” Chouji nodded as Ino let herself out, he could tell she didn’t really care what he was thinking anyway. ‘I can’t believe I’m losing myself like this. I have to be strong for Shika, I love him so much...and because of that, I have to let go of this hope...’
“Um Chouji, I’m sorry to bother you, but your door was open.” Chouji looked up and smiled slightly.
“It’s ok Lee, come on in.” Lee smiled and walked in, he closed the door softly and sat down next to his friend.
“I saw that Ino just left, are you alright? I know sometimes she can be a little...well she doesn’t realize exactly what she’s saying sometimes...” Chouji smiled slightly and shook his head.
“I’m fine don’t worry, actually I feel better then I have all week.” Lee looked skeptical and frowned slightly. The bigger of the two coughed into his hand lightly. “Ok, fine please just stop giving me that look.” Lee nodded as Chouji sighed. “I miss him Lee, I already miss him so much. It feels like every time I look at him, he’s getting further away from me. I’m losing him to something I don’t want to stop because he’s happy. I just wish I could be the one that makes him smile like that, but I know I can’t, Shikamaru doesn’t feel that way and never will. I just truly hope that whoever Shika ends up with, they make him happy. I just want him to be so, so happy...” Lee bit his lip as Chouji took a deep breath a tear running down his cheek. The bigger man laughed sadly as he wiped the tear away. “I ~really~ have to stop doing that.” Lee smiled slightly and rubbed his friends shoulder comfortingly.
“Chouji, Shikamaru is a lucky guy to have a friend like you, willing to but your own happiness aside for his. I don’t think that such a wonderful deed will go empty handed. I think one day you’ll find happiness too.” Chouji looked at Lee and suddenly it hit him, he couldn’t understand why this man next to him was always put down, sure he had big eyebrows and was very excitable at times, but he was an amazing person. It was hard to live knowing that such a good person was rejected so many times.
“You’re an amazing person Lee, I have to give you that.” Lee smiled and blushed slightly hitting Chouji in the arm trying to lighten the mood. Chouji smiled and stood up. “You want something to drink, I think with all the crying I’ve become a little dehydrated.” Lee nodded and watched his friend head to the kitchen. ‘It’s not fair, not fair at all...’
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Shikamaru stood outside the apartment and felt as if someone had punched him in the stomach.
Shikamaru had walked Neji home so the Hyuuga could practice with his uncle, after that he had decided to visit his best friend. They hadn’t been spending all that much time together lately so Shika made his way over to his best friends apartment. On his way there he had run into Ino who had basically just annoyed him until he was able to get away. It had been so troublesome... Once he got away he went to Chouji’s apartment only to be extremely surprised to see Rock Lee enter the apartment without even knocking. Shikamaru had no idea Chouji was seeing ~Lee~. He was about to leave, it wasn’t his business what his friend did, but for some reason he walked toward the door like a string was pulling him. He leaned against the wall and listened to what was going on inside the room. It was a little hard to hear at first, but then as he concentrated he could hear everything that was going on. Oh, how he wish he had just left before being nosey.
Chouji loved him. Actually, his best friend was ~in love~ with him. Shikamaru didn’t understand how he kept missing everything emotional in his life. And god, Chouji sounded so distraught...Shikamaru couldn’t begin to wrap his brain around what Chouji was feeling, he never ~knew~ that Chouji felt so strongly for him, he didn’t know he had hurt his friend so badly. What was worse is that he couldn’t do anything about it. If he walked in there and let Chouji find out that he now knew, Chouji would be even more heart broken, and Shikamaru was with someone else...No he had to just leave. He had to leave and keep this secret. It wasn’t fair but he couldn’t put his best friend through both the heartache of both thinking he was loving and not being loved in return, and it actually being true.
Shikamaru felt his own chest tighten. No that wasn’t true, he loved Chouji, he loved him so much, but he couldn’t just leave Neji, he loved him too. He turned to knock on the door but he couldn’t do it, he couldn’t complicate things... ‘Oh Chouji, I just hope one day you can forgive me...I’m so sorry....’ Shikamaru turned and walked down the hall, he didn’t deserve such a friend.
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Shikamaru felt tears gather in his eyes as he walked down the street. Chouji loved him, actually truly loved him, and what did he do? He walked away, just like he always did. He sighed and stopped in the middle of the street looking up at the clouds.
“Shikamaru-san!” Shikamaru turned and blinked as Hinata ran to him. “Can I please talk to you. It’s about Chouji-san.” Shikamaru sighed and looked at his shoes. Hinata looked at him with sad eyes. “You know then?” Shikamaru nodded. “I was hoping that I could help him and Lee-san, they were both so upset, but I didn’t want to hurt you or nii-san in the process. I’m sorry.” Shikamaru sighed and looked at his boyfriends cousin. Always trying to be helpful, and like Chouji and Lee, always being ignored by the one person she’d die for. He wasn’t feeling any better as he looked at the Hyuuga girl...well woman now.
“Thank you Hinata, but right now there is nothing I can do, nothing at all....” Hinata watched as Shikamaru walked away. It seemed the only thing left to do was to talk to her cousin and see if he could help...Oh she hoped he could....
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A/N: Hope everyone is enjoying this so far. Please R&R just so I know if I should continue or not. Thanks!