Mine

Mine

Chapter 2: Twisted Secrets

"Morning Sakura-chaaaaaan!" Naruto greeted happily as he came down to breakfast the next morning. Sakura flashed a forced smile at her husband. She had hardly been able to sleep the night before, the crashing reality that her husband was being raped by his best friend weighing down on her. She sipped her coffee as Naruto busied himself around the kitchen, making his early morning bowl of ramen. Sakura just sat staring at her husband as though looking at a fragile being.

Three years.

Sakura shook her head. How could she not have noticed for three years? How could no one have noticed for three long years? Even looking back on it now, it still flabbergasted her. Maybe it didn't happen often? Maybe it was only a once in a while thing? Maybe only once a year? Though somehow she doubted that. Obviously Sasuke would have had plenty of time in the beginning during his six-month probation to force himself on Naruto. Naruto had visited him all the time then. Come to think of it, Sasuke had only really let Naruto visit him.

Yet what about when Naruto and she had married? Even though Naruto had gone on plenty of over night missions, Sakura always stayed within the village helping out at the hospital. She was always home when Naruto was. Sakura rarely ever had missions outside the village. The mission she had gone on yesterday had been her first in months, and normally she wasn’t gone for very long; she had even gotten back two hours earlier than expected - only to find her once perfect little world not so perfect.

Sakura's musing stopped abruptly as a voice interrupted her thoughts.

"Ohayo," Sasuke greeted as he walked into their kitchen. Sakura's body went rigid, but she relaxed it, willing for herself to act as though nothing were wrong. Sasuke often came over for breakfast, and if Sakura was going to act like nothing was going on, she couldn’t react to Sasuke’s presence. He was often there at their house. But Sakura was always there too. Did that mean that Sasuke had been doing this right under her nose the entire time?

Sakura could not look at Sasuke, feeling as though an intruder had walked into her home. She wanted to reach out and smack him, or even put her body in between his and Naruto’s to protect her husband from his rapist, but moving like that would look too strange. She wanted Sasuke to leave, to feel pain, to know how much he had hurt her, but she couldn’t. If Naruto found out, the pain he would suffer would be far greater than her own. She would grit her teeth and keep the secret as long as Naruto never had to feel that pain. Though what if Sasuke still refused to stop going after Naruto?

"Ohayo," Sakura nodded back, swallowing the bile that had risen in her throat at that terrible thought, her eyes looking anywhere but at Sasuke.

"Good morning Sasuke!" Naruto chirped, still running around the kitchen getting his ramen ready. Sasuke sat down opposite Sakura, his eyes sparkling with amusement as he watched Naruto running around, pulling out the oddest assortment of foods and flavorings to add to his ramen.

"I hear you got assigned that escort mission to Wave Country," Sasuke said as Naruto finally sat down between Sakura and Sasuke. Naruto nodded, giving a "yeah" through a mouthful of ramen. He had swallowed what looked like half the bowl already.

"Gonna be there for five days helping with getting the new daimyo set up. He's apparently pretty good, but there are a few rogue nin from Mist that have it out for him. I gotta make sure that they don't mess with the election he's trying to set up to elect the new mayor to assist him in running Wave Country," Naruto explained through bites. "I hear you're gonna be gone for five days as well to take care of that lab in Rock country," Sasuke merely nodded. Naruto finished the rest of his ramen with a loud slurp.

"Alright! I'm finished. Love you Sakura-chan. See you later Sasuke. I'm sorry but I have to rush this morning. No time to chat like usual. I’m outta here," and with a kiss on the cheek for Sakura, and a wave to Sasuke, Naruto was out the door, leaving Sasuke and Sakura alone in the kitchen. Sasuke got up to leave when something finally clicked in Sakura's brain.

"You've been stopping him before he gets home from missions and using the sharingan on him then, haven't you?" Sakura asked as Sasuke turned to leave. It made sense. She hadn't seen them together in Konoha because they weren't together in Konoha. Sasuke intercepted Naruto before he even returned to the city's gates. Sasuke would be foolish to force himself on Naruto while they were training because anyone could show up and see them. It made sense that Sasuke intercepted him on the way home from solo missions.

"Do you really want to hear this?" Sasuke asked, his voice quiet.

"I have a right to know," Sakura said, rising from her seat.

"I notice you haven't told Naruto," Sasuke mused, avoiding her question. Sakura went rigid.

"Well do you have any ideas about how I go about telling him how much of a creep you are?" Sakura bit out as sarcastically as she could muster.

"Don't pretend you know half of what's going on. It's a lot more complicated than you think," Sasuke's voice was dangerously low.

"He's been my husband for over a year! How dare you pretend to care about Naruto when if he found out what was really going on, he'd be broken!" Sakura cried, tears streaming down her face. Last night she hadn't been able to feel angry at Sasuke because he'd been so pathetic, but now, in the daylight, as he dared pretend to care about Naruto, daring to come back into her home, her numbness had left her, and her rage was full blown.

"Don't you think I don't know that? Do you think I like keeping this a secret from him? He was mine well before you even thought to look his way. You're the one who doesn't know your own husband!" Without waiting for any more retaliating comments, Sasuke left the house.

Sakura stood in the kitchen, feeling utterly frozen for the second time in twenty-four hours. Sasuke's outburst had surprised her, his words ringing in her ears. What on earth was Sasuke talking about when he said that she didn't know half of what was going on? For a brief moment, he had seemed concerned about Naruto, as though raping his best friend was actually doing something good for Naruto. But then his concern had been replaced with a sickening possessiveness. Still, there was something in the way he said "do you think I like keeping this a secret from him?" as though there was some underlying meaning that she was missing.

"I don't know what to do," Sakura murmured to the air before getting up from the table and getting ready to go to Konoha hospital for her day shift. She had five days to plan before making any decisions.


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Sasuke was distracted during his mission. He knew that he was supposed to be infiltrating one of Orochimaru's abandoned labs in Rock Country. It was one that had been vacant for some time now. Sasuke had never been to it while he was under Orochimaru's "care", so he suspected that it was a project that the dead snake sannin had lost interest in well over six years ago. There really wasn't much there for him to do, but he still couldn't even focus on the task at hand.

How had been so careless as to let Sakura find him so intimate with Naruto? If Naruto knew how much he had hurt Sakura, Naruto would kill him. Sasuke gave a hollow chuckle at that thought. If Naruto ever found out what Sasuke did to him, Naruto would flat out kill him for that. Sasuke shook his head. That wasn’t entirely true. If Sasuke told him the reason why, then Naruto would understand – at least, Sasuke hoped he would.

Sasuke remembered the night he had planned to finally confess his deeds to Naruto, wondering if he had, if things would be different now.


FLASHBACK


Sasuke had been using the sharingan to force Naruto to be compliant during sex with him for about six months. Sasuke swallowed at that thought. It sounded so terrible even in his own mind.

'If I just explain why, Naruto would understand. He won't like it, he may even hate the idea of it, but at least he would understand, and I can finally stop pretending. Maybe – maybe he would even be conscious for it,' Sasuke had thought to himself. He had psyched himself up for this moment. He'd invited Naruto to meet up with him at their old training grounds. It was somewhere neutral. If Naruto felt the need to leave, he could. Sasuke wanted to make this as painless as possible for Naruto - and himself. Confessing was not something he did often, and therefore not one of Sasuke's strong points, but he was a strategist, and Naruto would probably need some space afterwards.

As Naruto approached him, grinning widely, Sasuke couldn't help but grin as well, though his insides turned at the thought that he would be wiping that grin off of Naruto's face.

"Naruto-" Sasuke began, wanting to get it over and done with as quickly as possible, but Naruto interrupted him.

"Ne, ne Sasuke, before you start, I have something I want to talk to you about," Naruto said quietly. Sasuke looked at Naruto somewhat surprised. Did Naruto already suspect something? He sounded so serious.

"I know you never really showed interest in Sakura or anything, but, I just felt that I should let you know that she and I are dating now. You know, just so that there are no hard feelings," Naruto said, rubbing the back of his head awkwardly. Sasuke didn't know what to say to that. Naruto was worried about Sasuke being hurt from him dating Sakura, when he clearly had no romantic interest in Sakura? If only Naruto knew that it wasn’t Sakura being taken that was tearing his heart apart right now…

"No, no hard feelings at all. Congratulations," Sasuke said, forcing a small smile to his face, and then quickly wiped it off. It was too forced, and Naruto would see through it immediately.

"Are you sure?" Naruto asked, chewing on his lips.

"Well, I mean, I'm sure it will be awkward for me being the third wheel on a mission, but I guess I will just have to get used to experiencing what you felt when Sakura used to hang on me," Sasuke said, trying to joke around at the situation. Naruto grinned.

"So, what did you want to talk about?" Naruto asked, looking around as though Sasuke were hiding some sort of surprise.

"N-nothing. Just wanted to spar. Needed someone I could go easy on," Sasuke smirked, knowing his comment would rile Naruto up.

"Teme! You'll never be able to go easy on me!" Without waiting, he attacked Sasuke, but Sasuke was used to how quickly Naruto would switch moods, and was prepared for the sudden outburst. This was what Sasuke lived for: these moments where Naruto's attention was focused solely on him. For Sasuke, he lived for the moments when he knew he was important to the blond, knowing that he was the only one to make Naruto get so riled up. He was the one that put that passion in Naruto's eyes. Even when Naruto looked at Sakura, he never seemed to have quite the same enthusiasm. Sakura would never be able to give him what Sasuke could. But thinking about Sakura hurt. She had liked Sasuke for so long, what did that mean for Naruto? Sasuke didn't like the idea that Sakura might just be using Naruto to get closer to him.

Sasuke's kunai clinked and scraped against Naruto's own blade, as the two of them turned to using weapons. Sasuke smirked as he dodged one of Naruto's shuriken, only to have three more clip by him, leaving three cuts in his clothing.

"What's the matter Sasuke? More distracted than usual? Even you should have been able to dodge those!" Naruto taunted, though still somehow managing to sound concerned about his friend.

"Just thinking that Sakura will probably be thinking of me while going on your dates," even as the words left his mouth Sasuke knew he had said the wrong thing. Naruto's attack stopped mid-air. It was a testament to just how strongly Naruto had felt insecure about his and Sakura’s relationship that he stopped his attack rather than continuing. The former fire in his eyes was replaced with fury. "Naruto I-" Sasuke said, and then stopped. He hadn't meant it to be mean, but he knew that it was a horribly sore subject for Naruto. Naruto had been head over heels for Sakura for ages, and Sasuke had always been in the way.

"Doesn't matter who she's thinking about as long as it's me she's with," Naruto gritted out before forming the seals to transport away from the training grounds. Sasuke stood, slightly stunned, feeling horribly burned. 'Naruto cares for Sakura so much that he would be with her, even if she were to want someone else?' Sasuke mused darkly.

Sasuke sighed before making the same seals Naruto had and transported himself to the top of the Hokage Tower, knowing this was Naruto's thinking spot. And indeed, when Sasuke arrived, Naruto was there. Before Sasuke could pat himself on the back for his insight, he had to duck as a fist attempted to slam into his face.

"Teme!" Naruto gritted out as Sasuke swung his foot behind Naruto's legs, causing him to fall to the ground where Sasuke quickly straddled the blond, lifting Naruto's arms above his head to prevent him from doing any more seals, his sharingan blazing.

"You stupid dobe! Why would you be with Sakura when she might just be settling for you? Why would you settle for that? Why her? Why not someone else?" Sasuke demanded almost growling, adding 'Why not me?' silently in his mind. He felt like a complete hypocrite because he knew he was doing the exact same thing with Naruto, but he needed to know just how far gone Naruto was in his adoration of Sakura.

"Get off me, teme!"

"Answer my question!"

"No!"

"Answer me, goddamnit!" Sasuke hissed.

"What do you care? Won't you be happy that she's stopped bugging you?"

"I care because I don't want her to hurt you!" Sasuke yelled. Naruto looked as though Sasuke had slapped him.

"Really?" Naruto asked, his voice low and thoughtful.

"Yes," Sasuke said.

"Well then get-off me and I’ll tell you," Naruto said grumpily. Sasuke slid off of him, which was probably a good idea since his lower regions had started to become excited at the familiar position of Sasuke being on top of Naruto, but Naruto actually being conscious and struggling against him.

Sasuke deactivated his sharingan as Naruto scratched the back of his head.

"Even though Sakura has been harsh with me a lot, she's always been there for me. She's been my conscious when I need one, and she doesn't treat me any different than I deserve to be. I annoy her, and she responds with anger. I make her laugh, and she compliments me on my joke. When I was little, she and I played together once before her parents told her not to. I still remember that. She was shy and alone like I was when she was little, and I think that's her true personality. I think her being so scary at times is her own kind of mask. Also, I sortakindastoleherdiaryandreaditandshesaidalotofnicethings- aboutmeinit. Sheactuallywasgoingtogiveuponthechuunintestbecauseshedidn'twantmetolose- mydreamofbeinghokageandall," Naruto said the last bit in one fast breath. Once Sasuke had deciphered what Naruto had said, he could merely nod, trying hard not to feel jealous, and not to say what he really wanted to.

'So it's okay that she beats you? It's okay that she was like all those who thought they were better than you? It's okay that she doesn't care about you?' But even as Sasuke thought about it, he knew that wasn't true. Sakura did care about Naruto. If he had understood what Naruto had quickly spurted out, he would have heard that Sakura would have failed the Chuunin written test for Naruto just so that he wouldn't have lost his dreams, and she would have known it would hinder Sasuke’s ambitious. Sakura would have had to know that Sasuke would have chewed her ear at for doing that. In a sense, Sakura had picked Naruto’s dream over Sasuke’s even back then. Had Sakura also liked Naruto the whole time, and Sasuke merely over looked it? Or had Sasuke just not wanted to see it?

"I see," Sasuke muttered out. Naruto frowned at Sasuke’s strange behavior.

"Ne, Sasuke. What's the matter? You haven't been yourself today. You really freaked out on me back there," Naruto said, poking Sasuke in the side. A wicked grin spread over Naruto's face. "I think you need to get a girlfriend to get laid, hahahahahaha!" Naruto said, grinning suggestively. Sasuke's eye twitched. Get laid? Yes, that sounded like a good idea to Sasuke…

"Perhaps," Sasuke murmured, reactivating his sharingan.

"Sa...su...ke..." Naruto tried to get out, but it was no use. Sasuke's sharingan eyes had found and captured their pray. Naruto's eyes glazed over, his mind in a blissful state of oblivion, as Sasuke's hands came up to unzip Naruto's jacket, sliding it off him. Sasuke's hands slipped underneath the fishnet shirt Naruto wore, his hands coming in contact with the most exquisitely warm and delicious skin as he slowly lifted Naruto's shirt above his head, deliberately allowing his fingers to ghost over Naruto's sides. The mere contact of Sasuke’s fingers left goosebumps on the other boy's skin. It always brought a smile to Sasuke's face to know that he could make Naruto's body react in such a way.

Sasuke took off his shirt and placed it like a pillow beneath Naruto’s head. He leaned forward and kissed Naruto. His friend responded, his mouth opening to allow Sasuke’s tongue to enter his mouth. Sasuke moaned as he pressed his mouth hard against Naruto’s. He brought one of his hands up towards Naruto’s face and used it to pinch Naruto’s nose, cutting off his air. A few moments passed, and Naruto’s body began to react, pressing itself harder against Sasuke, struggling for air as his mind went into a natural state of high. Using the weight of his body, Sasuke kept Naruto pinned to the ground.

As Naruto struggled, Sasuke reached his other hand down Naruto’s pants and began to stroke him, the natural high making Naruto’s body more sensitive and aroused, causing him to become hard more quickly. Sasuke gripped Naruto’s arousal harder, and began to pump him even faster. Naruto moaned into his mouth as he continued to buck furiously against Sasuke. Naruto’s lower half was slamming itself into Sasuke’s palm, and Naruto’s mouth pressed fiercely back against his. Sasuke suddenly withdrew his hand and removed his mouth from Naruto’s. Naruto whimpered and his body bucked a few more times before going still.

Sasuke hated himself, hated the fact that he had to manipulate Naruto’s natural need for air to get him to react, but he needed to see Naruto’s reaction. He needed to know that Naruto wanted him as he much as he wanted Naruto, at least on some instinctual level, in order to tell himself that what he was doing was okay.

Grabbing Naruto by the waistband of his pants, Sasuke pulled Naruto towards him up off the ground as Sasuke latched his mouth on Naruto's neck, and began to suck. He was rewarded with unconscious mewls of pleasure from Naruto's beautiful lips.

Slowly, Sasuke began to pull Naruto’s pants down. Naruto’s body reacted to his so deliciously, as he watched Naruto buck his body against his again. Sasuke stroked Naruto’s member a few times before pulling his own pants down, exposing his own hard member. Sasuke spat onto his hand, before slickening his cock with his spit. He was slightly afraid to hurt Naruto without lube, but figured Naruto should be well stretched by now from how long he had been having sex with him. Grabbing Naruto’s legs, he tugged Naruto’s pants completely off of him as he wrapped Naruto’s legs around his waist, laying Naruto’s head down against his shirt once more.

Sasuke positioned the head of his cock against Naruto’s entrance. Naruto’s cock twitched excitedly, his body turned on at the intimate contact. He began panting, and Sasuke grunted before thrusting into him. Naruto’s body pressed against him, as Sasuke began to move in and out of Naruto. Naruto’s body clenched around him, panting in time with Sasuke’s thrusts, his eyes glazed over as he was simultaneously lost in the genjutsu and his own unwilling lust.

The friction was amazing. Sasuke had never taken Naruto without lube before, and his whole body shuddered at the feeling of Naruto’s tight skin around his. Naruto was groaning and grunting underneath him, and Sasuke knew he wouldn’t be able to last much longer like this.

He continued to thrust into Naruto, watching as Naruto’s body arched against him every time he hit his prostrate, his breath coming in pleasured pants. Sasuke’s breath became shallow and his and Naruto’s bodies were soon covered in sweat.

“Naruto,” Sasuke moaned out, as he lost control, lost himself in the feelings. Waves of pleasure began to build in his body, building up inside him, crashing against him, ready to break at any moment.

“Nnnn!” Naruto moaned loudly as his body spasmed with the release of his orgasm underneath Sasuke soaking both of their stomachs with his sperm, his squirming making Sasuke lose all sense of himself, along with all of his seed. Sasuke came hard and long, grunting as he continued to push into Naruto, riding out the best orgasm he had ever had.

Sasuke looked down at Naruto’s face as he panted. Never before had he made Naruto come before he had. Who knew Naruto liked sex so raw? Who knew he would like it so raw as well? Maybe he would have another go at it right now since that time had been so quick…


END FLASHBACK

Sasuke shook his head, willing the erotic images to disappear from his mind. He needed to focus so he could finish his mission quickly and return to Konoha sooner than Naruto did. With that thought in his mind, Sasuke got to work making notes of the empty laboratory. It had clearly been abandoned for some time, and Sasuke could find no trace of life: not even a spider scurrying about. There was something sinister about it, but Sasuke was used to sinister. He took all of the documents that had been left there, set explosives throughout the lab, and then exited the building. Sasuke set off the explosives when he had secured the area, making sure no one was around. He watched in bemusement as the underground base collapsed in upon itself before leaving the area.

Sasuke made good time getting back to Konoha. It had taken him two days to get there, a day to secure the base, and another two days to return to Konoha. He should have made it before Naruto returned. Feeling slightly annoyed with himself due to his lack of concentration, he headed towards the direction that Naruto would be returning from Wave Country. If he were lucky, he could intercept Naruto before he returned and take him before they entered Konoha.

Unfortunately for Sasuke, he wasn't the only one to think along those same lines.

"Going somewhere Sasuke?" Sakura asked, standing along the path to Konoha that Naruto would used to return from Wave Country.

"What are you doing here Sakura?" Sasuke asked, unconcernedly, purposefully ignoring her question. Sakura's eyes narrowed.

"You've got a lot of nerve to come here, you know that?" Sakura hissed out, her hand clenching into a fist, and drawing back. The message was clear.

"You want to fight me, Sakura?" Sasuke asked darkly. "What would Naruto think to find us here fighting?" Sakura spat in his face. Sasuke's eyes swirled red, and his aura darkened as he wiped the spit off his cheek.

"Bastard! Like you care about Naruto!" Sakura threw her punch, but Sasuke deflected it easily. They hadn't sparred since before Sasuke had left for Sound, and Sakura was clearly unaware that Sasuke was able to see clearly through taijutsu and genjutsu. Some ninjutsu were the only things that he could not block completely. Sakura continued to try and land punches on Sasuke, the amount of concentrated chakra in her hand waiting to be released, buzzing dangerously close to Sasuke's head.

"What's going on?" Sakura stopped her punches, and Sasuke turned slowly as Naruto approached, a look of confusion on his face.

"We decided to spar while we waited for you," Sasuke lied easily.

"Yes, we were thinking that we should go to Iciraku ramen, just the three of us," Sakura said, playing along, coming up to stand slightly behind Sasuke. Sasuke's eyes were on Naruto, once again their normal black color.

"Wow, that sounds great! It's nice to have my two favorite people waiting for me to get back from my mission," Naruto said smiling, rubbing the back of his head, pleasantly surprised. Out of the corner of his eye he saw Sakura make a slight movement with her hand out of Naruto’s line of sight.

Sasuke did a very good job of keeping his face neutral as Sakura's hand lightly touched the base of his spine, mind-numbing pain jolting through his body. As soon as the pain subsided, he could tell all feeling had left his legs, and it was with sheer will power alone that he kept standing. Sasuke cursed in his mind both at Sakura and himself. He cursed at Sakura for clearly paralyzing his lower half and cursed himself for letting his guard down as soon as Naruto had appeared.

"On second thought, I think I might stay out here and meditate. It's so peaceful out here," Sasuke said, trying to rid his voice from the strain it was using as he poured chakra into his lower body. He couldn't feel his legs, so it was difficult concentrating the right amount to his feet to keep him standing. The effort was exhausting him. Sasuke's body couldn't take it, and he collapsed, landing as gracefully as possible, quickly trying to hide that he had actually fallen by placing his legs in a meditative position. Naruto only gave him a funny look, but Sakura's triumphant smirk let him know that he hadn't fooled her in the least.

"Oh, are you sure?" Naruto asked slightly put out at Sauske’s bizarre behavior.

"Un. I'll meet back up with you both in an hour," Sasuke said, waving his hand.

"It is such a lovely day. Take your time Sasuke-kun," Sakura replied brightly, taking Naruto's hand in her own and walking back. Naruto looked back over his shoulder at Sasuke once, giving him a confused look before pulling Sakura closer to his side and heading home.

"Kuso," Sasuke muttered as they were finally out of sight. He dug around in his pouch for a soldier medical pill. He popped it in his mouth and began chewing it. It tasted like crunchy earwax, and Sasuke nearly gagged. Feeling returned almost immediately to his legs, but he still felt unbalanced. He slowly got up and began to slowly walk back towards Konoha, cursing Sakura the entire time.

Next Chapter: White Lies


I’m not sure when I will post chapter three, but I was threatened under pain of death that I had to post chapter two. You can all thank lLotus (ff.net) for sending me death threats to get this chapter up. This story is dedicated to her, and this chapter is dedicated to Miss Mayumi (aff.net) who has also been pushing for its release. ~ Jelp