Petals of a Sunflower that Shouldn't Bloom

An Author's note to kindly thank my reviewers and those who took the time to rate the story.

:) when I saw that someone had reviewed my story while i was putting the second chapter up I was really pumped so this chapter is dedicated to you. And the answer to your question is yes you clever girl.

Dragon: I am glad you like the story and hope you enjoy this chapter.

AnA La PaNa83: Thanks for mentining the summary. I was a little nervous if I was wording it correctly. So knowing that it is doing what it is supposed to (drag people in). This is my first story so I'm nervous about a couple of things and please feel free to point out any mistakes.

otaku_rainbow: Thanks for taking the time to review twice (that's the shit to me by the way) and I hope you enjoy this completed update.

Boals4: Thanks for hints I will keep them in mind. Although when it comes to the length of the chapters I will usually stop where I think it will best go with the flow of the story. So some of the chapters will be longer then others.


This story will be bouncing between the present and the past and will follow some canon, but since my memory is crappy when it comes to direct quotes and stuff I may stray off the beaten track (so please be aware) and don't throw rocks at me) I'm sensative like that. Sorry this story is not beta'd. Please enjoy.


I Also Do Not Own The Song In This Chapter The Artist Name Is Jet.

Chapter 1 Hold On

"Try so hard to be someone that you forget who you are"
"Tried to fill your emptiness till all you had spilled over"
"Now everything's so far away that you don't know where you are"



It had just reached dusk when Sasuke Uchiha had returned to the abandoned Uchiha compund. Unlocking the door after deactivating the booby traps or fangirl deterrent as he liked to call them.


Walking into the living room he sank into the plush cushions of the black leather couch and thought of his current problem. He had been wandering around aimlessly trying to get the lecture that Kakashi had told him out of his mind, but the words were to strong to ignore; and the guilt he felt for almost severly injuring Naruto was not so easily displaced as well.


"We have both been unlucky as to have lost precious people in our lives. But we have also been lucky enough to find new ones to hold close in our hearts", Kakashi softly proclaimed.


Though softly spoken the words seemed to gather force and keep resonatting with in him. It wasn't like he trying to murder Naruto, after all the dobe was his most precious person.


When he heard that Itachi was after Naruto he was terrified. He had thought that Itachi was after Naruto because of him. He was so scared for his friend knowing how deadly Itachi could be after witnessing it firsthand for himself.


Imagine Sasuke's surprise when the brother he hadn't seen in years barely spared him a glance. Sasuke was furious that Itachi didn't even want to acknowledge him and moreover it was not just Itachi who wanted Naruto but the organization that he had joined Akatsuki wanted him as well. He was jealous that Itachi had focused his eyes on Naruto instead of him. His big brother still didn't think he was worthy, and no matter how much he hated Itachi that fact hurt alot.


Sasuke was ashamed to admit it if only to himself that he always thought Itachi's eyes was focused on him as his ultimate challenge, like his was focused on Itachi. And to think how Itachi had moved on with his life after the massacre of their clan as if it and him meant nothing was a blow that he could not easily rise up from.


But the sight of a frightened Naruto gave him the stregnth to attack again with his chidori, not that it did any good. But as he sat propped up against the wall after being defeated by Itachi all he could think was, "I hope Naruto is alright", before he lost consiousness.


When he regained conciouness in the hospital the first person he saw was Naruto and realizing he was alright took a lot of the pressure he had been feeling in his chest. After realizing all the things that Naruto had went through for him from speaking to Sakura, he felt even more of the pressure leave his chest. He did not need Itachi to validate him anymore. Naruto valued him and would do anything to help him and that is all that mattered. He squashed the jealousy in his heart and went on about his daily life with his friend and teammate.


Then they went to help that ungrateful racer: Sasuke's feelings of inadequacy reared it's ugly head again. Naruto's improvement on the battlefiled was outstanding using some amazing new move he learned while Sasuke was incapacitated after the fight with Itachi.


It surely didn't help when the mist nin they were battling stated that ,"the weakest Uchiha had survived the massacre."


After he tried to chidori his weapon and it didn't break Sasuke was easily defeated and thrown over a cliff. The humilation of having to be carried back home again after a mission was more than he could stand.


Itachi's statement, "that he didn't have enough hate", kept repeating over and over.


Why wasn't his hate strong enough. Didn't he love his mother and father. Wasn't his aunts, uncles, and cousins precious people whom he missed everyday. Don't they deserve vegenceto bring closure to their lives. As the sole survivor wasn't it his duty to help them rest in peace.


Itachi deserved to be punished for his crimes, especially for leaving Sasuke alone. He would never forget when he left the hospital after the massacre and walked through the Uchiha district for the first time and saw blood stains, but none of the people that the blood, the Uchiha blood, none of his clan was present.


The stongest and largest clan in the village of Konoha, now just consisted of him. Sasuke always thought that the way his father ignored him was the loneliess feeling in the world but the silence of the empty streets was way worse. He never really paid attention to it at the time, but he always had someone even if his father did not acknowledge him. Be it his mother, brother, or uncle he always had someone to fall back on. That even though he always thought of himself as independant, he actually had always been dependant on someone to help make him feel important. To help him realize his own self worth.


At that moment Sasuke Uchiha realized that he was truly alone "the avenger" was born. An avenger needs no one and lives in the past. All he needs is to train to become stronger so that he can have his vegence. There is no room for doubt when you are an avenger because one eye is always focused on the past and the other a future that is limited.


When did his focus become so spintered so that he could visualize the past ,present ,and future. As he shifted through his memories and his thoughts of the future one thing remained constant and one person who was always there; Naruto. Even though the role in his life was vague he is someone who Sasuke knew was someone who he trusted with his life.


Sasuke remembered the fear he felt when he thought Itachi was about to take away his last precious person. He remembered the despair and the deep void that would open up if anything ever happened to Naruto. When he remembered how he felt when he thought Naruto was going to die and realized that he almost did to Naruto what he thought Itachi was going to do. A small slight tremor barely noticable snaked through Sasuke's body. Sasuke reminded himself that he never wanted to be like him, but unintentionally that is what he was becoming. He began to take a hard look at himself and his "role" as "the avenger", and how he was allowing it to rule his life.


Was this the life that his clan had wanted for him to be the perfect killing machine, emotionless, deadly and alone; or was there another way for him to redeem himself without totaling losing all that uniquely made him Sasuke. Because if he became what his clan wanted he would no longer be Sasuke but Itachi.