Reason I Breathe

Chapter2

Naruto crashed into the bathroom across the hall from his room. He emptied the contents of his stomach into the toilet. He reminded himself to breathe between gagging and emptying more of his stomach contents into the porcelain bowl. He heard a door slam below him and yelling began. He retched again, and his body started shaking. He fell over onto his side as the tears streamed down his face. He heard a woman cry out. He held onto himself tightly and started humming an old lullaby as he cried. Finally coming to his senses, he picked his trembling body up off of the ground and headed back into his room. He calmly shut and locked the door. He blocked the noise from downstairs out of his mind, and pulled his box out, calming his shaking body. He fell backwards onto his bed afterwards to stare at his ceiling. He grinned at the light blue paint. He had had the ceiling painted to resemble the cloud-filled sky when they had moved into the house. Naruto had long since grown up from the boy of six. Yet, his ceiling would never seem childish to him. The sound of glass breaking sent him back to reality. He sighed and closed his eyes. He rolled over, and let sleep claim him.

When Naruto took his seat in class the next day, he was sorely regretting wasting his high the night before. He shook his head, dispelling the thought of sneaking off. He put on a grin and waved to Sasuke. The emotionless boy sat on Naruto’s desk.

"You’re slipping, dobe," he warned.

"Sasuke," Naruto groaned. "Don’t tell them. Its under control I promise."

"How bad did he hurt her this time?" Sasuke dropped his voice to a whisper.

Naruto blinked away the tears.

"I don’t know. I heard something break and went to sleep. I didn’t see either of them this morning."

Sasuke dropped his hand on his friend’s shoulder before standing to claim his own desk. Shikamaru Nara took his seat next to Naruto and let his head fall onto his desk as the bell rang. Naruto sighed.

‘Good idea, Shikamaru,’ Naruto smiled at his thoughts.

He let his head fall to his own desk. His eyes closed slowly. He would sleep off the pain. His stash would need refilling that night. If he was going to be in control this time, he would have to suffer through school before using. Naruto could have sworn that no day passed as slowly as that day did. He put on a show through the headache. He lied about the blood shot eyes. His dad had been home, he explained all day. Everyone knew what that meant. Comforting words sent him home. He cursed himself for his weakness. He toyed with the idea of quitting again. He felt the bile in his stomach churning, and knew he could not. He hid in his room again. No yelling that night. Naruto thanked God for giving his mother a rest, even if for just one night. When the night turned its darkest, Naruto found himself once more miles from home. Pein was waiting as usual. He smiled as his toy walked up the street towards him. He took note - the boy had conserved better that round.

"I’ve got a treat for you, Naruto," Pein purred as he slipped an arm around the blonde’s waist.

He showed a flash of powder. Naruto grinned. They used a different motel this time. It was on the opposite side of town as the last one. The two knew better than to let people see them more than once. They were shutting a door twenty minutes later.

"That’s the purest I’ve seen in moments," Naruto whistled as he looked at the bag on the table.

Pein’s shirt landed next to it. Naruto sighed and removed his own. Cold hands rubbed the boy’s muscles.

"Good to see you’ve stopped letting him hurt you," Pein teased.

Naruto tensed under what he knew to be an insult. He clenched his fists a few time. Last time he had talked back, he had gone home with broken ribs. Pein’s mouth crashed roughly onto Naruto’s. Naruto threaded his fingers into the red hair. A tongue invaded his mouth and attacked his own. He whimpered into the treatment. He had learned that any noises he made only egged the man on. Naruto was shoved onto his knees. He winced as he felt his knees bruise from the force. Pein’s pants fell around his ankles. Naruto took a deep breath. He did not have to be forced anymore. He took Pein’s cock into his mouth as soon as it was freed from the boxers. Naruto looked up to Pein and made quick work of the blow job. He swallowed everything as Pein came into his mouth. He was pulled to his feet by his hair once he was finished. Naruto dropped the rest of his own clothes before being thrown onto the bed. He bit his lip as Pein rammed himself into Naruto. He was sure to bleed that night. He let the rest of his screams flow from his mouth as Pein cruelly sodomized him. Hours later, he was exiting the motel with his reward. He would be set for another week with the bag he had earned. Naruto limped home. With any luck he would get a few hours of sleep before having to drag himself to school.

‘Two more days and I get a whole weekend,’ he reminded himself.


~Next day~

Naruto rubbed his nose contently as he sat down to enjoy his lunch. Sasuke shot him a glare.

"Ne, Kiba! This weekend still happening?" Naruto asked, leaning on his elbows.

"Yep. My mom’s going to send me with brownies. Not for you," he laughed as Naruto’s face fell at the last sentence.

Sai wrapped his arms around Naruto’s neck from behind.

"You two use condoms. No STD’s, ‘kay?"

"Shut up Sai!" Kiba shouted.

"Kiba’s not my type," Naruto winked.

Sai rolled his eyes and slid into Naruto’s lap.

"You know, I just wanna take you home and rape you, Naru-chan," Sai teased.

"Can’t rape the willing," Naruto kissed Sai on the lips quickly.

Sai threw himself on Naruto in a hug. The members of the group that did not like seeing such things turned away. Sasuke snickered as Kiba blushed. Everyone’s preferences were told up front. If you were friends with Sai, you spoke up if you did not want him hitting on you. Naruto nudged Sai off his lap so he could finish eating before the bell rang. As Naruto walked to class, Sai caught up to Sasuke walking behind him.

"Sasu, what are we going to do? His parents just don’t care."

"Nothing. If he wants to kill himself, it’s his choice. Only Kiba sees it. Respect him enough to not tell anyone else just yet."

Sai pouted but nodded. He slipped off to his own class. Naruto was laughing and talking with Shino and Neji. Sasuke watched the blonde stumble. He laughed it off and kept going. Sasuke clenched his fists in anger. He knew his friend would either run off to fix the problem, or end up with the nurse, sweating and throwing up within the hour. He was starting to agree with Sai. Naruto needed serious help.