Sweet Thing

My body was on fire, I could barely stand it. Itachi was pressed flush against me. I felt dizzy with happiness and with the heat of out bodies molding into one. We somehow managed to make it to my bedroom, I backed Itachi up until his knees hit the edge of the bed and he fell on his back with me on top. I lifted my shirt over my head and tossed it to the side. Onyx eyes appraised me as I straddled him, they rove over my body with appreciation. This time I didn't mind him staring at me like I was some kind of puzzle to solve. Everything I feel for Itachi is now being expressed with my entire body.

I attacked the tender flesh of his neck, biting, sucking, nibbling; there was nothing that I didn't do. I left love bites all over his porcelain skin that begged to be kissed more. I moved from his neck back to his delectable lips that made me feel me like I was intoxicated every time they touched. I devoured his mouth with mine drinking in everything moan and groan that I was able to bring forth. My hands started to roam his snow white skin that I needed to touch. I was in heaven there was absolutely nothing that could be better than this feeling of euphoria. I adjusted my position on top of Itachi and our erections brushed against each other moans erupted from both our throats. My eye lids were heavily lidded as I gazed down at Itachi, his body was covered in sweat, flushed, he was panting like he had just run a marathon. I wanted to bring more friction to give us both some relief, but I had other ideas in mind. Slowly I reached for the hem of boxers he watched me intensely, I couldn't tear my eyes away from his as my hand reached its intended goal. I started to lift the hem when Itachi's hand stilled mine. He shook his head and gently pushed me off him.

"No, Deidara." My heaven was taken away from me and I was now back in my room half naked with a raging hard on and no way of satisfying either of our needs, but more importantly I was rejected.

"Why?" I asked trying to drive the sting of tears away. There was nothing I could do to make me look him in the eye, silence took over the whole atmosphere. I'm pretty sure the only thing that could be heard was the breaking of my heart. I don't know how many times I can repair it before it's no longer able to become whole again.

Itachi shifted on the bed, he made to reach for me then retracted his hand back to his side. "I still don't how I feel about you," Itachi said. I peeked at him through my eye lashes. His face had become a mask. No emotions were visible on the surface, one look into his eyes told me that he was fighting an internal battle.

"I'm in l…," I clapped a hand over my mouth. I almost let it slipped that I'm in love with him. Itachi moved next to me on the bed. He put his index finger under my chin and lifted my face so I was staring in to his eyes.

"You're in what?" Iatchi asked gently. My heart screamed for me to tell him what I really felt, but I didn't want to risk the possibility of rejection after what just happened.

"I'm starving is what I am." I rubbed my belly for emphasis which brought me back to the realization that I was shirt less and still had a small problem that wasn't going to take care of itself. "And I need a shower. But better eat before something happens to all that food like Sasori gets it or something." I grabbed my shirt and hugged it against my body for comfort.

Unfortunately Itachi was not ready to let the conversation end there. Itachi caught me by the arm, whirled me around, I collided with his chest. He pressed me firmly against his body, I could feel the wonderful beating of his heart under my palm that was flat against his chest. "I'm not rejecting you. I want you so bad that I can't stand it. Do you know how hard it is for me not to take you right here and now, but I'm can't. Not until I know exactly how I feel. I will not hurt you for my own selfish desires. Give me some more time. That's why I wanted to stay here to see where it was going to lead. Obviously we are attracted to each other, but I have to know if it's just physical or something more. That something more is what I'm trying to figure out." Itachi wrapped his arms around me tighter. "Will you give me more time?" I was speechless. I nodded my head numbly. After holding me a few more seconds Itachi's grip loosened on me and I slipped out of his hold feeling dizzy. Not the kind of dizzy I was feeling earlier, but with having so much information thrown at me. "I'm going to the library. It helps me think and that's something I need to do now. You're welcome to come if you want."

"Sure, I need to work on some homework for school any way," I said as casually as I could without falling over. My knees were weak from being held in Itachi's embrace. I leaned against the wall for support.

"We'll leave in an hour." I put my head against my forearm to help regain my balance. "And Deidara don't think that it was easy for me to stop today. You better be careful or I might have to take you in the library if you keep walking around like that." Itachi's slender fingers danced along my spine, gooseflesh and a pleasant shiver ran through my body.

"What happened to you not wanting to do anything until you knew it was something more?" I asked looking over my shoulder trying to hide my blush.

"I don't know if I can resist." Itachi blew into my ear as he walked out of the door leaving me holding my ear trying to figure him out.

He's obviously messing with me this time. Teasing is probably his way of trying to alleviate some of the tension that was in the air. I smiled softly at the memory of Itachi's word. He must care some if he doesn't want to have a one night stand with me. Not that I want that kind of relationship either, but I don't even know what came over me when I crushed our mouths together earlier. I wanted Itachi to take me then and there, but now that my head is not clouded with lust I feel better about his decision to stop. It still hurts though. Rejection is never fun, but it's getting harder and harder to wait sometimes. I want to know now how he feels now. I can't force him to figure it out now though. I sighed loudly and ran a hand through my hair. Better get dressed and try not to jump Itachi again…at least for today. I smiled and went to take a shower to get refreshed and also to take away a lingering problem that got a little worse with Itachi blowing in my ear.