Why

Sorry for any typos I don’t mean them but I can’t control them either. Unfortunately they stay until I can go back and fix it. Please forgive me for my typos and I hope you can still enjoy the story with the minor annoyance.

Warnings see first two chapters….

Pairing: Sasuke/Naruto, Kakashi/Iruka.


WHY

Chapter 3: the mission-


Normal pov-


Setting up camp for the night the three had set up a small tent for the client as Kakashi made a perimeter check. When they were finished with that they set about there own bed rolls. The team took their turns on guard duty doing perimeter checks and doing basically nothing else but the security of there camp site.


“Naruto take first than Sasuke, Sakura you okay with being last? Kakashi said more than asked.


“That’s fine.” She says around a yawn.


“Good. I’ll wake you when it’s your shift.” Kakashi states heading to his bed roll as she nods.


The team went to there bedrolls all except Naruto who did another perimeter check before heading back to the fire poking at it a few times while he got comfortable on a log.


His shift was beyond uneventful nothing happened even the light snoring was boring. Finally when his shift ended he crouched down by Sasuke to wake him. Happy at the prospect of getting some rest.

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Naruto pov-


‘I hate to wake him he looks so peaceful laying there, even if it is on hard ground. Oh well I gotta. I need sleep too.’ with a quick nod to himself he set about waking the other.


“Sasuke it’s your shift.” I say lightly shaking him. Slowly he opens his eyes.


“Mm” he lets out looking at me with his sleep glazed eyes.


“It’s your shift, come on let me get some sleep.” I say with a yawn trying to cover up the smile that started to spread across my face.


“Al~right” he yawns stretching.


I move away from him and towards my own bed for the night. Climbing in I look over to see that he’s just starting his own perimeter check before sitting in the same spot I had just been sitting. I let out a small yawn and close my eye’s hoping I have another peaceful rest.

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Sasuke pov-


After settling on the log I stare into the fire still not awake. I keep seeing, those eyes, looking down at me. So, trusting and tired, but beautiful even in the dead of night. There beautiful and some how calm my heart, that was originally beating fast from seeing them. ‘What has happen to me what have you done to me that I’m thinking these things baka’. I look over my shoulder to see him not fully asleep yet. ‘I hope he can sleep tonight, even if I love the feel of him in my arms’.


It’s getting closer to my shift ending nothing is happening, just the way we like it. Quiet except for the light snoring from the others. Finally I go over to Kakashi to wake him. I swear he was awake before I even got off the log.


Just as I’m climbing back into my bedroll I hear a noise that is familiar yet shouldn’t be heard. Frowning I pull my bed roll over to him and laying as close as I can I wrap an arm around him. Ignoring the odd look I get from Kakashi.


“Shh, it’s okay.” I whisper into his ear.


He turns in his sleep to face me and buries his head into my chest letting out a sigh as he gets more comfortable. With my arm wrapped around him, he drifts off to a more peaceful rest, as I settle into one myself. All the while Kakashi is still watching us.

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Naruto pov-


‘Why do I feel so warm? What is this feeling I don’t understand? I feel so safe so comfortable with this sent covering me. I could breathe it in forever. Why do I know this sent? It’s so masculine and yet there’s a smell of lavender there.’ Burrowing closer to the sent I sigh feeling strong arms tighten around me.


Wait since when are there arms wrapped around me and I know this sent its, oh god do I know this sent. I’ve dreamt of this sent wrapped around me why is he though? Do I chance opening my eyes; will this dream fade and leave me alone again?


Slowly I open them seeing nothing but the dark of his shirt. It’s, not a dream. But why? Shifting my head up slightly I see his face. I see his eye’s start to flutter open. Its morning and the others are already up. I hear them, I don’t want to but I do. Closing my eye’s I rest my head against his strong chest again trying to control my heart that suddenly started racing.


“Oh good, your up! Maybe now you could wake your, er, um, wake Naruto so we can head out soon.” Sakura said. She must be looking at us lying on the ground behind her.


I feel him shift slightly and his arm has moved off me. Only, to rest his hand on my cheek. Lightly he’s caressing it.


“Hey, it’s time to get up.” Sasuke whispered.


“Mm… 5 more minutes, ‘em comfy.” I moan not moving to get up.


“Sorry but I think we’ve already over slept. Get up dobe!” Sasuke said taking his hand away from my cheek.


“Humph. Fine!” Damn why did they all have to be up. “Do we get breakfast?”


“If you get up now you do!” Sakura stated before taking a bite of her food.
Hearing this, we quickly got up and put our bedrolls away before sitting down to eat.


Kami sama knows it’s the only meal I take time to have. I’m surprised they haven’t said anything about that, I used to consume 5 bowls of ramen in one sitting. I don’t understand why my appetite has dropped so much.


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Normal pov-


The mission was only supposed to take a few days. Take the noble to the village they wanted then come back. Simple as could be they couldn’t have asked for a simpler mission.


The third day out when they were on their way home, Sakura couldn’t keep her thoughts quiet anymore. She had, had enough of waking to find her two male team- mates in each others arms and the both of them still saying they had no attraction to the other.


She wasn’t buying it; she could see it in their eyes and the way they snuggled while they slept. She knew just knew there had to be more going on.


So going up to Naruto she waited for him to start talking before she said anything. Knowing he couldn’t stand her keeping silent for to long.

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Naruto pov-


“What is it Sakura?” I ask her sighing. I know there’s something she wants to talk about. I just hope it’s not ‘that’.


“It’s just that.” She starts licking her lips as if still in thought. “I know what you said the first morning but, I was just wondering how you really feel about Sasuke!” Oh I was hoping I really was. I guess I didn’t do it well enough. She asked me the one thing I didn’t have a real answer for. If I lie she’ll know, she can always tell when I’m lying.


“What do you mean? He’s my rival like he always has been, and my best friend. Why do you ask?” I try to keep my blush down. I don’t know why I’m blushing every time I think about him.


“Why has he been waking up next to you every morning? You seem closer than just friends.” She asks point blank.


“Well what we seem and what we are, seem to be two different things! What do you think we are hmm?” I ask trying to turn it around on her.


“I figured you knew how I thought! When I first saw you. I was shocked but then it was cute to see you both so happy in your sleep a way I haven’t seen either of you. I was happy for you, but you keep saying that you’re not together.”


“Why would you think that we were? That we would like guys? I never thought I gave any indication with all my flirting with girls and such.”


“Naruto, no girl wants to date a guy that’s prettier than them.” She says with that knowing smile she gets.


Frowning I look at her. “Well then why won’t they date me? I’m not pretty! Guys aren’t supposed to be pretty. I know I’m small but come on how could I be to pretty to get a date?”


“Oh Naruto you have no idea how you look do you? When you were younger maybe, but now that you’re older and have grown as you have, you put most woman to shame. You’re small, petite, all curvy like a woman. Plus you have never dated any girls and have always tried to be better than Sasuke-kun and he you. It just seemed, logical that you would be together.” ‘Logical she says hmm’


“We fight constantly, we never agree unless it’s to fight. He insults me every chance he gets and I him. Why would you say it’s logical to think we were together? And I’m not all curvy like a woman! I’m a 17 year old guy Sakura chan” I complain with a pout firmly placed.


“It was all foreplay Naruto. You fight more with the people you love. If you didn’t care for each other you would have run out of insults for each other a long time ago.” She says smiling that now annoying smile again. “Well I’ll let you be.” She says before dropping behind me.


‘Hmm what she talking about, foreplay! Well okay I do like him, but he’s only there to comfort me. He wouldn’t like me in that way. That just doesn’t make sense.’

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Sasuke pov-


‘Hmm what are they talking about? He’s frowning that’s not good. Crap she’s coming back here!’


“So Sasuke-kun” ‘Oh great, just what I need.’


“Hn?” I grunt not wanting to talk to her I know what it’s about but I don’t want to talk about it.


“I was wondering if you could shed some light.”


“And how is that possible? Sunshine boy is up there!” I state.


“Yes well, that’s what I wanted to talk to you about!”


“Why?” ‘I don’t want to talk about him right now I just get more confused.’


“He still seems to be off, not quite himself. He’s hardly been eating and I was wondering if you could…?”


“What? I’ve done what I can for him already. I wish I could do more I just don’t know how. He hasn’t told me the whole story I know he hasn’t but there’s nothing I can do about it.” Crap I might have said too much.


“What have you done I’m lost?” yep I know I have.


“All he needs right now is to know people care for him. So go be a friend!”


“I should say the same to you. You know, he cares for you too. I just wish you two would admit it to each other.”


“Hn.”


“Fine I see how this is going. Just so you know, I see what the two of you are refusing to see, even Kakashi sensei can see it so don’t think your fooling anyone Sasuke.” With that said she moved away and placed herself between the two.


Finally as night was starting come upon us we decided to make camp for the night we’d be in Konoha the next day weather we stopped or not.

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Norm pov-


“There’s no need for us all to take shifts tonight. I noticed that you two were taking longer shifts than needed so why don’t you two head off to bed Sakura and I can take shift alright.” Kakashi stated.


“Wait, that’s not fair to you two. I’m fine to take a shift Kakashi sensei.” Naruto said looking up defiantly.


“No, you’re not. You’re still not with it yet, just get some rest.” Kakashi said not leaving any room for discussion.


“Naruto he’s right just go to sleep.” Sasuke said siding with the others.


“No I’m taking my shift. I refuse to have you all order me around like I’m a child I may be younger and chuunin, but that’s just bull shit.” Not caring that he’s being a stubborn ass about it. He just didn’t want to go to sleep where he couldn’t control himself.


Sighing Sasuke walked over to Naruto grabbed his wrist and pulled him away from the others.


“Stop that! Let go of my wrist. That hurts teme.” Naruto complained.


Ignoring his complaint Sasuke pulled the other along none the less. Stopping after he put some distance from the others. He looked down into Naruto’s eye’s concern laced over his features.


“What?” Naruto said looking up into a pair of onyx eyes a slight pout starting to form.


“Look, they’re worried about you baka. They just want to make sure your getting enough sleep and quite frankly so am I. So just get some sleep for once.”


After a short silence Naruto looked away then back up at Sasuke “Are you going to sleep with me again?” Naruto asked in a quiet voice.


“If you want, me to.” Sasuke sighed wanting nothing more than to do just that.


“Sasuke I. I’m so.. tired.” Naruto said in a sad quiet voice.


“Come on lets get you to bed!” Sasuke stated gently pulling Naruto back to his bed roll. He didn’t struggle against Sasuke he didn’t complain as the covers were pulled over him he let sleep cover him as he closed his eye’s breathing in Sasuke’s calming sent.

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Sasuke pov-


He’s been asleep for a few hours the others are keeping to there word with there shifts Kakashi kept telling me to go to bed as well but I stayed up.


It had to be around 11pm that the first sounds from Naruto started. I looked over at Kakashi to see if he had heard him. Sure enough he had and so had Sakura who was now awake and looking over at Naruto.


I lower my head letting out a sad sigh. I know what he’s dreaming about its not hard to figure it out he told me all about it and I’ve heard it every night since the mission started. It’s no wonder he hadn’t been getting any sleep.


I climb to my feet and drag my bedroll next to Naruto’s. I don’t see why I don’t just put it there to begin with. I guess I keep hoping he won’t have another dream and be fine for a night. But then I wouldn’t get to wake with him in my arms, hmm. He seems to be having a really bad one this time he’s all but kicking in his sleep I see the tears starting to stream. I wipe them away and put my lips by his ear.


“Shh its okay. There’s nothing to be scared of.” I whisper in his hear. Slowly he turns his body so he’s facing me and buries his head in my chest as I wrap my arms around him like I’ve been doing for the past few nights.


I know the others were watching but there was nothing I could do. They heard his scared pleas. I saw there eye’s widen when they realized what he was dreaming of. At least a general idea. I hate to think what they’ll say tomorrow.


Sighing I let the warmth of his body lull me to sleep as I hear him sigh as well his hot breath seeping through my shirt to warm my skin even more and I felt my heart skip a beat at that. I close my eye’s and let sleep pull me away.

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Naruto pov-


There looking at me strangely, more so than normal. What happened after I fell asleep? Crap did I have another dream? I must have I woke up with Sasuke surrounding me. hmm I love that feeling being held close to him being able to breath him in all night long.


I felt so much comfort from him. I felt so safe and warm like nothing could go wrong if I were in his arms. Just thinking about it makes me smile.


They’re still looking at me glancing here and there. Were almost to Konoha, they need to stop. I’m starting to get nervous.


“That’s it. What is going on here? Stop looking at me like that.” I order and they all stop, the only one that wasn’t looking at me was Sasuke but he already knew so much that wasn’t a surprise.


“Naruto, do you want to talk about it?” Sakura starts. ‘She seems unsure what to say though.’


“Talk about what?” I say angry I just want to go home and take a hot shower.


“Your dream, last night!” she continues. ‘Oh god was it that bad.. FUCK!’


“Sakura I don’t think my dreams have anything to do with you, they are the past and I’d like to forget the past.”


“Naruto you were screaming and the minute Sasuke whispered in your ear you were fine. Is this why he’s been sleeping with you?”


‘Cut right to the point don’t-cha.’


“Naruto we can’t help you if you don’t tell us what’s going on.” Kakashi states. Great, just what I need him siding with Sakura. I’m never going to get out of this now. I take a quick glance at Sasuke but he’s still looking away, I can see the sadness on his face though. I know this is not going to be easy.


“Fine you want to know. I’ll tell you then I can go on with my fucking life.” Great there goes my calm control over all this and I was doing so well before I opened my mouth damn it.


“Naruto, you don’t….” Sasuke starts to say, concern lacing through his whole body.


“No, they wanted to know. I’ll tell them.” ‘sigh lets see how should I start I know be blunt and hope they leave me alone.’ “I’m a little demon whore that no one loves unless they’re fucking me and then they only love to hurt me and make sure I know my place. I’m a bitch in the gutter no one should look at me. I should be dead that’s where… that’s where… I …. Should be.” I can’t help the tears that are falling I know they don’t understand at least not like they should all but Sasuke, he knows.


“Naruto stop it. It’s not your fault.” Sasuke yelled at me. I couldn’t stand any longer and I let myself collapse to the ground. I’ve been holding this all in for so long. “You’re not a demon and you’re not a whore! You’re a broken hurt boy stop.” Sasuke said wrapping his arms around me as I sob crumpling on to the ground.


‘Why? Why is he so worried he shouldn’t like me, he shouldn’t have his arms around me but I don’t want them to ever leave me. I just want him to stay and tell me everything is alright that he loves me. That he loves me… oh god ‘I love him’ ’


“You just had to push him. Gods, Naruto please stop crying, it’s okay. ‘They’re’ dead ‘they’ can’t hurt you anymore ‘they’ will never hurt you again.” He sounds so strong and so sad as I’m shuddering in his arms.


Slowly I lift my head to his shoulder I’m only slightly shuddering now I’m so tired all this crying makes me so tired. I could fall asleep in his arms right now but I have to get up were wasting time just sitting here waiting for me to get back up.


“I’m okay now Sasuke.” I let out a sigh as I start to walk back to our village.

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Sasuke pov-


Slowly I let him back up. I look at the others I’m so angry at them. Why did they have to ask? I told them I was taking care of it. Why now look at him.


“Are you sure?” I ask him. He doesn’t say anything just nods his head. “Well if were done here why don’t we get home, you look tired.”


“You always say that!” he says sadly but smiles at me none the less.


“Well can’t help that I state the obvious. Let’s go!” I say trying to hold in my emotions.


We set off again towards home. Funny I never really considered it home before.

>>>>


We reach the gates of Konoha sometime after noon. Upon meeting with Hokage the others are looking oddly towards Naruto I’m not sure if he notices it though he’s still kinda out of it.


“Naruto you may go.” She says looking worriedly at him.


“Alright baachan.” He says while turning around and leaves not saying another word as he goes.

...

Normal pov-


“Alright what’s going on with him?” she asks when the doors are closed.


“Hokage sama, I’d like to ask for him to be placed on off duty for now.” Kakashi states.


“What? Why?” Tsunade..


“He’s not himself.” Kakashi..


“How?” Tsunade..


“He’s become quiet, taking more care in what he says like he’s afraid what we might say or think of him.” Kakashi stated trying to keep the worry out of his voice.


“He’s losing weight too, he hardly ate during the mission!” Sakura adds.


“He’s been having reoccurring dreams lately that leave him feeling tired and.” Sasuke starts just to be interrupted.


“And what?” Tsunade asks before he could even finish.


“He thinks he’s worthless. That no one loves him because he’s a demon that everyone wants gone.” Sasuke says sadly.


“Why would he think that?” Tsunade asked.


“Because that’s what he was punished to believe. I know I shouldn’t be the one to tell you or to tell anyone and I won’t tell anyone else but he’s hurt so bad that I don’t know how to help him.” Sasuke said sadly.


Everyone sat down while Sasuke retold the story he was told the first night of there mission. He didn’t look up to see their reaction until he had finished knowing that if he looked up they’d have questions.


“So you see why I’m at a loss of what else I can do.” Sasuke stated once he finished.


“How, could someone hurt such a beautiful child?” Tsunade said pained at the information she received.


“I never knew. How could he smile the way he does after all that?” Sakura said sadly.


“Sakura if he were to stop than he would believe that he’s what they say. He needed the façade to survive he couldn’t let anyone know that he couldn’t handle life.” Sasuke said understanding that need.


“Sasuke I think maybe you should have him come live with you.” Tsunade said looking lost in her own thoughts.


“Are you sure Hokage sama? Will he be relived of active duty?” Sasuke asks.


“I think for right now that would be a good idea until he’s more himself. I will inform Naruto that he’s to gather a few of his things and head to your place.”


“That’s alright, I’ll let him know. He won’t be happy if he knows that I told you about what happened.”


“I’ll tell him I ordered you now you should go find him. Everyone’s dismissed I’d like a report in a week about how he’s doing.”


“Hai Hokage sama.”


The three left the office of the Hokage and went there separate ways. Sakura to her parents, Kakashi to his apartment he shared with Iruka and Sasuke he headed to Naruto’s already tired at the thought of what was to come.


Chapter end

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