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The two lovers he’d ever had were not the only two men he had kissed in his life. Well, there had been Sasu when he had been eleven but that’s not the point here. He’s kissed quite a few men in his life; sometimes enjoyable, sometimes not.

This was definitely under ‘sometimes enjoyable’ and then some.

The hand that had been holding his had moved to slide up his back and the other brushed along the side of his face. Just like that first time his lips were soft and warm and he was definitely feeling that oh-so-familiar warmth in his stomach that was spreading throughout his body. The hands shifted onto his shoulders and the soft, light kiss became hard and passionate. His shoulders were being gripped hard as he was pulled flush against Sasu’s body. He allowed the other entrance at the feel of a tongue moving along his lips. When he did his friend made a small noise and the grip on his shoulders became almost painful. His own hands slid up to rest on the other’s shoulders and when he did the grip loosened and he could feel hands move down his arms and back around his body. The Hyuuga couldn’t recall the last time he had felt someone kiss him this passionately before, as if they couldn’t stop, couldn’t get enough.

Parting, both men were rather breathless but Sasu did not let go of him, instead he could feel those dark eyes still on him, intense. Before he could react he was being kissed again, just as passionately as before. It had been like this that day when he had left, he had kissed him just like this, excluding tongue but he wasn’t going to fuss over details. It had been probably the most amazing kiss he had ever experienced and he really hoped this wasn’t going to go south because wow.

The second time the kiss was broken his friend moved into a series of short but passionate kisses. When they parted for the final time he didn’t turn away from that dark gaze. Both were still a little breathless and then he felt hands moving to frame his face, his friend’s expression very serious.

“If I had known…” he scowled, upset about something “If I had known I would have come back when I had turned eighteen, like we had promised.” Then he began kissing him again “You have no idea how much I…” he murmured and the long haired man began to feel that perhaps…

“Let’s go back.” The Uchiha again. Neji nodded, he had no idea what else he could have done in this particular situation, his head was spinning and he felt as if he were floating a bit. The car ride back was quiet but the entire time he could feel his friend’s gaze on him and he wasn’t entirely sure how to feel. He was happy, very much so, but there was still that nagging doubt.

Did he really come back here for me? How…should I feel about that?

Had Sasu’s feelings been deeper than even he had realized back then? After all, it had been he that had recognized Neji first and if what he was saying was true the only reason he had never dated men was because of the feelings he had held for his childhood friend. It wasn’t that Neji hadn’t been sad himself or disappointed, but he had a feeling that perhaps his friend had liked him well before that day, whereas he had only realized it after the fact.

There was silence when they pulled into the complex and walked up to his apartment. Nervous wasn’t a good enough word for what he felt right now; for one this had been his best friend at eleven and two he hadn’t been with anyone for the past five years. This was the first time he has allowed someone to become involved in his life since his last relationship and he had mixed feelings.

“Hm?” he turned when he felt something move through his hair as they walked in and realized the raven haired male had removed his hair tie, brown hair spilling over his shoulders. Confusion graced his features as the door closed, the dark apartment’s only light from outside. Even though it was so dark he could still feel his friend’s eyes on him, looking as black as his hair.

“I like your hair like this.” His voice was low and almost amused as he closed the distance between them, raising a hand to let long strands of hair slide along his fingers. “I’ve always liked your hair.”

“I’ve been told I look like a woman when I don’t keep it tied back.” He had said it jokingly and his friend snorted, putting an arm around his waist and pulling him close again. His other hand continued to be fascinated with his hair.

“Whatever. You look fine.” As if to prove his point both hands delved into his hair before pulling him in for another kiss, this one slower and not as hard as the others. That changed quickly and he wrapped his arms around his friend’s neck, hand delving into thick short hair. It felt nice.

They parted and he tilted his head as lips trailed hotly down his neck and hands slid up his back once more. He lets out a soft sigh which turns into a low moan when he feels warm hands moving along his body, closing his eyes. It has been years since someone has touched him like this and he has to admit that he had seriously missed it.

“Lift your arms.” Comes the low command and he responds simply because resisting that voice just wasn’t possible. His shirt is gone and the hands return as lips continue their trek along his collarbone to his shoulder.

Nerves hit him again and he opens his eyes, hands moving to his friend’s shoulders “Sasu…you do realize that…” he lost his train of thought for a moment when he felt teeth move along his skin “this…isn’t exactly the same as…”

“Yes, I realize that.” He muttered, sounding a little exasperated “I trust you.”

“A-and it has been…about five years so I don’t um I don’t have…”

This time he did sigh “Look, don’t worry about it, I brought my own and before you ask yes I brought it just-in-case.”

Feeling a little embarrassed he tried one more time. He did not want his friend to regret anything later “Are you…absolutely sure about this? I am a –“
He was cut off with a slight gasp and moan when a hot hand rubbed along the bulge in his jeans, which, by the way, were becoming very painful.

“Hn. Yeah, you’re definitely a man.” Pulling away from him Sasu raised an eyebrow at him “I think the better question is are you sure?”

Frowning, he gave his friend a look “It is not that, it’s just…”

Hands gripped his hips and he was pulled once again against his friend and yes that was definitely a hard-on he was sporting pressing against him…

“Neji.” He made sure he had the other man’s full attention “I’ve liked you since I was a kid, I’m not going anywhere. Not if you feel the same way I do.”

I am being ridiculous. “I’m sorry, I was not trying to –“

He was silenced with a kiss and did not protest when he felt himself being guided into his bedroom “Don’t worry about it.” Came the low murmur.

Decision made the Hyuuga began to respond, hands moving to the buttons on his friend’s shirt. By the time they reached his bed the shirt was being shrugged off and his hands mimicked the movements that had been done with him, smiling slightly at the low sound of appreciation. Straddling him on the bed he bent down, moving his lips over the Uchiha’s. There’s another low sound when he breaks and begins to trail his lips along the other’s neck. There’s a small catch of breath.

“Your hair…” his friend said softly “I love the feel of it against my skin.”

Nipping along his collarbone he found himself smiling “So that dream where you were talking about having my hair draped across your body…?”

“That was no dream.” He groaned when teeth and tongue moved along skin, trailing along a nipple “Definitely not a dream.” It was said offhandedly while said long haired man continued to trail kisses and bites down a toned abdomen, hands moving to the waistband of Sasuke’s pants. The breaths above him were coming in a little heavier and he thought he heard his name when he finally got the offending material off.

I see time was kind to you as well my friend. He thought with amusement, lips and tongue trailing up a hard shaft, teasing around the sensitive head before lips wrapped around his friend’s cock, taking him in.

“Fuck,” came the breathy response, a hand fisting into Neji’s hair. “Gods your mouth is fucking incredible…” his back arched a bit and fingers dug into the sheets as the Hyuuga continued his ministrations, pale eyes snapping up to his lover in slight amusement. He removed his mouth, hand stroking the saliva coated shaft as his tongue and teeth lightly grazed along the head before taking him in again. He did this a few times, trailing his tongue along where his hand was not before he began sucking again, earning him a hard moan “Haah…shit Neji you’re…” he let out another harsh sound “Ungh...fuck, you’re amazing…” One hand Neji used to keep the other’s hips from moving while the other continued to stroke where his mouth was not. The soft grunts and moans of his lover were an incredible turn on and he really needed to unzip his jeans or something because it was becoming a bit too much. Taking his free hand he did just that, a low groan of relief emerging as he stroked himself, relieving some of the tension.

Sasuke’s gasps and groans were coming in faster and harder now so Neji increased his speed accordingly, swirling his tongue, driving the other man to a fever pitch. The grip he had in his hair was almost painful yet it felt so very good. “Fucking shit Neji…” his body began to tense and his back arched “shit, I’m…” He almost smiled when he could feel his lover’s cock swell just before he came, his name on the Uchiha’s lips and he drank him in, his eyes becoming hooded while he looked at the man he had just thoroughly pleasured.

The Uchiha put his hands into his hair, letting out a hard breath and a small grunt when Neji pulled away for a moment, trying to find what pocket his friend had put the lube in – really, who the hell just carried that around like a condom or something? It wasn’t like they absolutely needed it but it helped. Finding it he moved back so that he was half laying on top trailing kisses along his lover’s jaw and neck.

Raising his head he took in his lover’s flushed face and smiled slightly. “You alright?” the Hyuuga asked, quite amused, letting a smug note drift into his tone just to tease him.

That earned him a glare “Fuck you.” He snapped back, still a little breathy “It’s not my fault that was the best head I’ve had in like…ever.”

“Mm…” he trailed his tongue along the other’s neck “I will take that as a compliment.” A small pause “I need you to relax, I’m going to do this slowly.” Kissing him in an attempt to distract the male slightly he slid one slick finger into his friend, slowly moving in and out, stretching him. Sasuke didn’t tense and he kept his face carefully blank. “Are you alright?” he asked after a moment. When he got an affirmative noise he kissed him again, removing one finger to slowly slide in two, stretching even more. Beneath him his lover tensed for just a moment before forcing himself to relax. He felt strong hands moving up along his back as he moved his fingers when the pain began to fade. He continued his ministrations, continuing to stretch his friend while also moving to get to a particular spot. When Neji began to stroke his fingers along his lover’s prostate the kiss broke as the Uchiha let out another somewhat startled low noise and his back arched slightly. The Hyuuga blinked “Does that hurt?”

He didn’t respond for a moment. “No.” Neji felt a small shudder move through him at how deep and husky his lover’s voice had become. Moving his head back he let out another strained noise “Fuck, I’m hard all over again.”

Indeed he was. The entire time the Hyuuga is looking carefully at the other male, his gaze impassive. He takes in how pale Sasuke’s skin looks in the dark, how incredibly hot he looked when his lips were parted slightly as his breaths came in shallow. The looks of pleasure on his face are driving him a little crazy but he doesn’t want to rush anything or hurt his friend. He likes seeing him slightly out of control, hands gripping the bed sheets, eyes closed tightly. There was a bit of a grimace when Neji finally slid three fingers inside but that quickly faded into pleasure. As he was stretching Sasuke out for the final time the other man’s hand slid up his thigh and to his cock, stroking. His breaths began to come in harsh again and the Hyuuga couldn’t take it anymore. Removing his fingers he shrugged off the rest of his jeans and boxers he moved so that he was on top, bending down he brushed his lips along the dark haired male’s, his expression a little pensive. No matter what he did it was going to hurt and so he was still a little worried. At the same time this was the point of no return “Are you…?”

Dark eyes opened and took in white. “Yeah.”

Even with the lube it was still an almost painfully tight fit, which was to be expected. The entire time he is taking in his lover’s face. There’s a small grimace, realizes that Neji is looking at him and then his face shifts into an expressionless mask. Mentally sighing the long haired male pushes himself further in, his breaths coming in strained. Five years really was a long damn time and his body let out a delicious chill along his spine as he filled the other male. “Sasu…” it’s whispered, a small pant as he closes his eyes and lets his head roll back for just a moment, enjoying the feel of tight clenched muscles massaging his aching cock. “You’re…haah…so tight and so good…it’s been so long, too fucking long and you’re…”

Strong hands flew to his hips as the Uchiha pulled him forward, the mask cracking at the sensations. Both let out a small shudder when he’s fully inside.

Then he was moving, very slowly at first – which was painful for him – keeping his body low, long brown hair falling like a curtain over the two of them. Hands moved up his back and he felt nails dig into his skin, back arching slightly.

“Faster...move faster, harder…I want all of it…” His lover says softly, his eyes closed, lips parted, face flushed. So Neji moves faster and the silence in the room disappears as the two fill the void with their heavy gasps and moans “You fucking…ngh…feel incredible…”

His hands fly down to Sasuke’s hips, gripping them tightly as he began to thrust fast and hard as requested. His friend began to move his hips along, earning the man a short cry “Shit, Sasu…” he wasn’t sure if he’d be able to hold out like this, he was quickly reaching his peak from having gone without for so long.

There’s another harsh noise that comes from the Hyuuga when his friend begins to increase the speed “Faster,” the Uchiha demands once more “harder…fuck I can’t get enough…ungh…fuck me, Neji…” he arches his back again letting out a strained noise “Gods, I love your cock in me…unngh...deeper baby…just like that…don’t you dare fucking stop.”

Never. Face flushed, a small smirk emerges “I’ll give you as much as you want…” and he thrusts in hard, hitting his lover’s prostate once again. “More?”

“Fuck!” comes the cry as Neji pounds into him, hitting that spot over and over “Yes! More…as much as you can give me baby, I fucking…” A hand delves into Neji’s hair and the other rests along his lower back, when the man lowers his body onto him to pump in and out furiously. Sasuke puts a hand on the Hyuuga’s back as if trying to push him in deeper. “Neji…” the name is breathed and his back arches into him, the grip in his hair tightening. “Don’t…ahh fuck…fuck I’m gonna come…”

Gripping the mattress he continued to move fast and hard like his lover wanted, the headboard of the bed slamming into the wall from the force. He bites Sasuke’s neck and lets out a sharp cry and hiss when nails rake along his back hard. Hearing his lover, looking at the man underneath him, it was too much, too amazing “Aahh…Sasuke you’re the best…oh gods, you’re the best fucking thing I’ve ever felt…the best fuck…”

Lips slam together in a hard kiss as the Hyuuga makes the final thrusts that have both of them climaxing hard, heavy moans and names filling the room as warmth moves over his abdomen from Sasuke and he empties himself into his friend’s tight cavern, gasping. They lay there as they slowly come back down from the hardest, most mind-blowing orgasm either of them have ever had in their lives. Then there is only heavy breathing as the two lie there in each other’s arms. After a minute he finds his voice.

“We should shower.” The Hyuuga says, a little breathless.

Silence, then “Yeah, okay.”

“…Are you all right Sasu?”

“Hm?” Neji pulled back to look down at his friend/lover but he looked tired and sated more so than anything else. “Yeah, why?”

Worry filled him and he began to brush back dark bangs “I did not hurt you, did I?” he had ended up being rather rough and a bit out of control and it wasn’t as if Sasu had held a string of men before him.

An eyebrow rose “Did it sound like I was in pain?” he smirks and the Hyuuga returns it with a small smile.

“Point taken.”

The apartment complex he had picked had a rather large shower stall, more than enough to fit two grown men. Sasu seemed to have this strange fascination with Neji’s hair and wanted to wash it and the Hyuuga didn’t see a reason to say no.

“Mmm…” strong hands and deft fingers moved through his scalp as the raven haired male washed Neji’s hair, keeping the other man’s back against his front. It had taken quite a while, to the point where Sasuke let out a low moan when his lover rubbed his ass against his growing erection. After a moment of that he grabbed Neji’s arms and turned the soapy haired man around before pinning him to the wall, smirking at the small catch of breath he let out. Then their lips were locked and hips were rocking. His mouth trailed hot kisses down lightly tanned skin and toned muscle, biting sensitive flesh to soothe it over with a tongue. He didn’t let Neji move, one hand keeping his lover’s hips from moving. Lips moved over hard abs and lower, smirking when the Hyuuga’s hands tried to brace against the wall and his head arched back in anticipation. He took Neji’s cock in his mouth, ignoring the death grip the man now had in his hair, tongue swirling. With both hands he kept the other man’s hips against the wall and fucked him with his mouth hard and fast, wanting his lover to come just the same.

“Sasu…” he panted just before he tried to thrust his hips and arch his back, hot seed going down the Uchiha’s throat as he came, his moans long and loud. Satisfied with having paid the other man back from before he pulls Neji in the water to rinse out his hair. When they actually tried to bathe the Hyuuga had pressed himself against Sasuke’s back, one arm going around his waist while the other soapy hand began to stroke his already slick cock. With the soap and Neji’s hand moving over his shaft, stroking him just right he ended up also coming quickly, head arched back to rest on the Hyuuga’s shoulder. When they actually were able to wash, Neji’s white gaze shifted over to the dark haired male with a curious yet suspicious glance while they were out and drying off.

“For someone who has never had sex with a man before now,” the older man’s voice was definitely laced with suspicion “you certainly knew what you were doing just now in the shower.” The Uchiha snorted as the two of them walked back out into Neji’s bedroom, Sasuke moving to the bed. Idly, he watched as Neji slipped on some pajama pants, toss him a pair, and began to fuss with his hair. He smirked.

“I said I never had sex with a guy,” Sasu explained, shrugging into the borrowed clothes. He watched Neji fuss with his damp hair while he lay in bed “I never said I hadn’t messed around a time or two.”

Moving his fingers through damp hair he made a look but didn’t turn to Sasuke “Hm. I am sure I do not even want to ask at this point.”

“It’s probably better if you don’t.”

There was silence for a little while until Neji made an irritated sound “I am definitely going to need to cut my hair soon.” He grumbled, picking up a comb “This is getting ridiculous.”

Sitting up, Sasuke gave him a funny look “Why? You look better with long hair…I don’t even think I’ve seen you with short hair.”

He turned, a thick wet mass of hair over his shoulder while he straightened out the ends “Oh, not cut it short, just a few inches. Maybe just a little above my lower back, having it come past my waist is a bit much.” A small pause “I…had short hair once and only once. It was not a pleasant experience.”

Laying back down Sasuke put his hands behind his head, turning his head to look at him “What happened?”

Setting his comb down he looked at his lover, his expression dead serious “If I tell you, you must promise to never repeat these words or I really will kill you.”

That got him a small laugh and a raised eyebrow “Okay I promise, I’ve got to hear this.”

Neji continues to look at him, as if not completely convinced and then turns away, picking his comb back up with a sigh “My cousin Hanabi, she was a baby when you were around, decided at four that it was really funny to stick gum in people’s hair. She got Hinata while my cousin was actually trying to grow her hair out and she had to cut it similar to her old hairstyle. So, Hanabi gets me and it is definitely stuck in there and I had to cut practically all of my hair off. My hair was as short as yours when they had finished.”

It was very obvious the Uchiha was trying very hard not to laugh “Were you upset?”

“I was mortified but I said nothing at the time. It wasn’t until I went to bed that night that I reacted. Well, that’s not entirely true. When Hanabi had first done it I had all but tried to kill her and my cousin had to hold me back, reminding me that she was only four and did not really know what she was doing…considering how Hanabi is now I am positive that little demon knew exactly what she had been doing.” He looked irritated about it all over again.

“So what did you do?”

That earned him another glare “You will not repeat this ever, I am very serious Sasu, I will hurt you if you do.”

Laughing, he held up his hands in a pacifying gesture “I swear I won’t say anything. What, did you cry or something?”

“I bawled into my pillow like a girl and it is probably the most feminine thing I have ever done in my life. I am not a very vain individual except for when it comes to my hair. I take rather good care of it and having all of it gone had been devastating.” When Sasuke started laughing loudly at him Neji jumped him, both of them falling over on the floor.

“It’s not funny!” he wrestled his friend, his face a bright red “I swear if you tell a soul…”

“I said I wouldn’t!” still laughing, he rolled them over so that he was pinning Neji “But you can’t listen to a story like that and not laugh.”

Growling, he pushes his lover off of him and walks back over to his dresser “I think I hate you.” He sniffed indigently.

Still chuckling, the Uchiha walks over, putting his arms around Neji, resting his chin on his shoulder. His amused expression is quickly fading as hands slide down Hyuuga’s sides to rest at his waist “So, have I earned the right to learn about whoever it was that hurt you in the past?” he sounded serious even as he placed small kisses along his neck “Unless that guy was from a few years back I’m almost positive that there was someone else in there that fucked you over royally, you’re too strong of a person to have let just one guy get to you like that.”

Once again he set his comb down, frowning. It did still hurt, he couldn’t lie. His smirk was self-depreciating “You still know me quite well, even though it has been so long.”

“Some things don’t change.” There was something in his tone that Neji couldn’t quite figure out. It wasn’t anger but it was something similar although it wasn’t directed at him.

After a moment of silence he sighed “I have had approximately two lovers in my life, you make number three. The first one was a friend I had grown up with a few years after you had moved away. I won’t tell you his name, only that he had been well aware of the fact that I was not straight and had been very kind about not telling the entire school during our high school years. He had been a rather eccentric person but kind, loyal, and very understanding.

“Our freshman year of college he approaches me and says that he has held feelings for me for the past year or so. I am surprised to hear this of course, because I had been more than positive that my friend was quite straight. In any case, he was the first person I had ever been intimate with and by the time it had reached that point I had found that I had fallen for him. Seven months later he begins to become rather uncomfortable around me and acting as if he were walking around on eggshells whenever he spoke to me. I had been confused at first but then backed off although I had been rather hurt and put out. It took him another month to finally confess that he was sure that he was not truly interested in men and he had hesitated in saying so because we had been friends for so long and he had not wanted to hurt me.

“Well, I had been rather devastated but said nothing, in fact we are still friends although we are not as close as before. I am not sure of it now, but back then I had truly thought I had fallen in love. So afterwards I completely avoided the dating scene and there was one very uncomfortable incident my third year of college where someone who I had thought was gay had turned out to be straight…no, that is incorrect. He was gay, he simply hadn’t admitted it to himself. So he freaked out on me and his girlfriend harassed me for a good five or six months. Then she blamed me for her boyfriend ‘turning gay’, go figure.” He snorted the last part “After that I had sworn that I would never, ever make the first move unless I was one hundred percent sure that the person was into men; out of the closet or otherwise. I mean, one hundred percent meaning gay bars, maybe the person had had a boyfriend, bisexual even, whatever. I tend to try very hard not to repeat mistakes.”

After a long moment of silence again arms tightened “I take it it’s the second lover that seriously fucked you over.” Sasuke observed and Neji nodded.

“I cannot tell you his name because he actually works in the company and I would like to avoid as much drama as possible.”

“Alright.” A shrug “But if I find out don’t be surprised with the outcome.”

“I see you are still as violent as ever. In any case, this person approached me. Once again, he was a friend from high school and I had never really thought of him one way or the other, he was a little too girly and arrogant for my liking. I had been surprised but accepted…which was a very foolish mistake on my part. I should have asked my friends because apparently everyone had known about his habits except for me.” Closing his eyes he leaned back on his lover “The guy was one of those that pretended to be straight and had boyfriends on the side so his family would not find out. This went on for…I want to say we had lasted almost a year. I was, at the time unknowingly, just a stable source of sex for him. We never went out, we never did anything, he would become very upset if I tried to do anything intimate with him out in public like hold hands or whatever. Once again, I had started to really like him, so when my friends found out what was going on and told me it had truly hurt. Instead of breaking up with him I simply stopped accepting his phone calls and refused to answer the door if he stopped by.” Shaking his head he smirked “He text messaged me with a ‘So I guess that’s it then?’ I replied with a yes and I have not heard from him since. I go out of my way to avoid him and although it happened five years ago I must admit that it still bothers me terribly.”

“Did you love him?” there wasn’t anything revealing in his tone, it sounded like genuine curiosity.

Had he? He had liked him a lot and it had most certainly hurt but love? “I…do not believe so,” Neji finally answered “I had cared for him, but loving him would have been difficult; he was not the sort of person I could fall in love with.”

“I think I can understand now why you were so against us getting involved.” Sasuke sounded contemplative “I’ve never been in an actual relationship before,” he smirked when his lover turned; giving him a look “I’m serious. I dated, I screwed around, but never anything serious. There was nothing there most of the time so I only went after people who had similar mindsets.” He brushed his lips along his friend’s neck “You’re the first person I…” he paused, hesitating “what are we anyway? I mean, I know how I feel and I know what I want but I’m fine with whatever you want.” Another pause “…Well not completely. I know it’s not what you want but if you had wanted to do some sort of fling I would have backed off. Now that I know everything and we’re at this point I couldn’t do anything temporary, not with you.”

Closing his eyes, Neji slid his arms over his lover’s and smiled slightly “I believe at this point we could call ourselves a couple.”

“Hn.” The arms tightened “Alright, so what are you doing tomorrow?”

Finished with his hair as much as he was going to be, he pulled away, tossing the thick mass back over his shoulder “I did not have any plans. I suppose we could find a movie to watch here and –“

Sasuke snorted “No, we’re not staying inside the apartment. I want to take you out on a date.”

Pale eyes blinked at him for a second “I’m sorry, what?”

“A. Date.” He spoke to him as if he were a child “You’ve had two boyfriends and neither of them actually did anything with you. I’ve got nothing to hide and I’m perfectly comfortable being out in public with you, I mean unless it’ll become a problem at work –“

“Oh, no,” he waved a dismissive hand “we don’t even work in the same department, it’s fine. My father is aware of my sexual preference as I have stated so it should not be a problem.”
Sasuke paused, looking thoughtful for a moment “Have you ever been affectionate with another guy in public? Will it make you feel weird or whatever?”

That was actually a good question. Neji had not been affectionate with another male in public, not really. He had kissed a few men at a bar he had frequented before he had decided to become anti-social and avoid getting close to anyone. It wasn’t that he hid the fact that he liked men, he just didn’t try and broadcast it. If one asked, he would be honest, otherwise he left it alone. When he had actually been with someone he had always had to hide his relationship with that person.

“I…believe I will probably feel a little out of sorts,” came the eventual admission “but I do not believe I would be uncomfortable. There…is a district here that is has a very heavy gay and lesbian community. All of the bars and clubs are there, including some rather nice places to eat. I have not been out there in quite some time but I am sure everything is more or less the same.”

Sasuke pulled Neji back into bed shortly after and they merely lay there, the Hyuuga resting on his lover’s shoulder closing his eyes at the feel of the Uchiha’s hand moving up and down his arm. Right when he found himself drifting to sleep his friend spoke up in a low voice.

“Neji?”

Trying but failing to stay awake – he loved the feel of Sasuke’s hand on his skin, it was relaxing – he shifted slightly “Hm?”

“That day…” there was something slightly guarded in his tone “Do you…do you remember all of what I said?”

Briefly, Neji realizes that this is not the first time he has asked him this, but unfortunately he was too tired to think properly and so his response was a small yawn. He could feel a light chuckle coming from his lover and then the brush of lips along his temple.

“Never mind.” Sasuke sounded amused but a few other things that would have normally made Neji worried but he felt so warm and comfortable. He briefly realizes that he truly did miss being close and intimate with someone and for some reason being here like this with his childhood friend, his first kiss, felt right and good. Actually happy for the first time in years, after a long moment of silence he eventually closes his eyes and falls asleep.