Three Deadly Little Words

Moodysavage: I apologize for the lack of clarity. *bows* However . . . I’m thinking up a new fic now that you’ve said that . . . Thanks so much for reviewing!!!
Kakashi Forever: Of course! Sasuke’s just too sexy not to love! But Kakashi’s going have to fight for him.

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Sasuke slammed out of his apartment shortly after Kakashi left. He wondered the village, through the streets and parks, past the lake where he learned to use the Fireball Jutsu, past the Uchiha shrine, and through the unfamiliar rebuilt streets. Finally he wondered past the rebuilt Ichiraku Ramen. Naruto was finishing off a fourth bowel when he sensed Sasuke’s familiar chakra. He peaked out and saw Sasuke’s back.

“Hey, Sasuke!” Sasuke stopped and look back. “Eaten yet? I’ll treat you to a bowel!”

Sasuke didn’t really want to, but he didn’t want to go home. He walked back and joined Naruto.

“You look really depressed,” Naruto commented as they were served.

Sasuke huffed. “How can you tell?”

“You may have been a gone for a long time, but I know you well enough.”

Sasuke struggled internally. Naruto had been the only one in Konoha to believe him when he repented. He knew that Konoha wouldn’t take him back after his attack on the Kage Summit, but for whatever reason there was one Kage would believe him. He’d gone straight to Suna and Gaara. Gaara helped him come home, but it was Naruto who made everyone else believe Sasuke really wanted to return to Konoha. Naruto had been his only friend in Konoha as he languished in Suna and the first few days back in Konoha; even Kakashi had been wary of him. Naruto had proven himself a true friend. But he couldn’t tell him everything. But he could tell him something.

“I don’t want to talk about it in public.”

Naruto was frozen in shock.

“What?” Sasuke asked.

“You’re gonna tell me?”

“Yeah.”

“You’ve never really confided in me when we weren’t trying to kill each other.”

“I can pummel you first if you prefer.”

Naruto was too surprised to laugh at first. At first. Naruto’s cheery laughter rose Sasuke’s spirits. It was only then he realized he’d even made a joke.

“I’m really so happy you’re back, Sasuke.”

Sasuke cracked a small smile and let Naruto gab for the rest of the meal.

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Sasuke accepted Naruto’s offer to follow him to his apartment. The place wasn’t quite as messy as his former apartment had always been. Nevertheless. Naruto went into the ‘flight of the bumble bee,’ cleaning as much as he could as fast as he could. Sasuke dropped onto the cleared sofa only partially concerned with that it might have been contaminated with. Ramen quite probably.

Done, Naruto perched on the sticky coffee table right in front of Sasuke and leaned in. Sasuke leaned back.

“So, what’s wrong?”

Sasuke arched his eyebrows until Naruto took the hint to back off, then he leaned back into the sofa.

“First off, I don’t know how much of a surprise this might be for you, probably a substantial one.” Sasuke let his gaze wonder to ramen poster on the wall. “I’m gay, Naruto.”

Naruto didn’t say anything or react at all; that drew Sasuke’s attention back to him. At least Naruto hadn’t thrown him out. Naruto looked shocked, but he didn’t look disgusted.

“For real?”

“Yeah.”

“So you’re not into Sakura.”

“When have I ever given any indication I was ‘into’ Sakura?”

“So you’re not?”

“I’m not.”

“Cool. So . . . is that the problem?”

Sasuke sighed. Why the hell was he discussing his problems with an immature dobe?

“No. I’m in love with someone.”

Naruto paled. “Who?”

“Not important to the discussion. My problem is I told him and he rejected me.”

“Is he blind?”

Okay, maybe it was a good idea to talk to Naruto. Sasuke almost laughed. His simple view of things made it all not so bad. “I think he’s scared what other people will think.”

“That he was the luckiest guy in the village?”

Sasuke smirked and looked down to the side. “I’m younger than him. I don’t know. I really thought he loved me back. He said so. At first. I made a proper fool of myself. Who would have ever thought I’d be heartbroken over anyone?” The pain of being so close to what he wanted only to have snatched away came back with a vengeance. How could he be so stupid to believe . . .

Sasuke felt Naruto’s eyes on him and caught him looking him up and down. Sasuke pulled in his arms, crossed them, and closed the small gap between his legs, uncomfortable by the attention.

“Who is it?”

Sasuke shook his head. Naruto never saw Sasuke look so sad as he did now. Sasuke had often been depressed before he left the village, but he was more irritated or angry, not sad. Now he was sad. Very sad. His armor was breaking before Naruto’s eyes.

“You really love him?”

“Yeah.”

The shine of a tear forming in Sasuke’s eye shook Naruto. Sasuke suddenly found himself being pulled forward and in Naruto’s arms.

“Wha—”

“I would never reject you, Sasuke. I would never do anything to make you sad.”

“What are yo—”

Sasuke was cut off by Naruto’s lips. He couldn’t help himself, he kissed back. Kakashi didn’t want him, but Naruto did? But Kakashi did want him and then rejected him. Could he trust Naruto? Why was he even considering Naruto? Because he needed to feel loved. Sasuke was desperate to feel what he’d felt last night; he let Naruto kiss him.

Until Naruto started feeling him up. Sasuke shook him off. “No, Naruto. We’d be taking advantage of each other.”

“What do you mean?”

“I know I’m vulnerable and I don’t want to use you to make me feel better.”

“Would it make you feel better?”

Yes, actually. “I don’t know.”

“If it will, then I don’t mind. It can be just a casual thing.”

“What are you talking about? You’re straight.”

“Maybe I’m bi.”

“I don’t want you to do this just to make me feel better.”

“Let me do this for you. It’s not like I think it’s repulsive or something; I’ve been curious what’s it like. You’re my best friend, let me help you. Have you done it before?”

“Yeah, once.”

“Then show me. You’re the only one I’d want to experiment with anyway.”

What could be the harm of casual sex with someone who wanted it? It couldn’t hurt any more than his disastrous experience with Kakashi. But what if afterward Naruto regrets it like Kakashi did? He knew he should say no.

“Alright.”

Naruto pressed Sasuke further back as he kissed him and reached down between Sasuke’s thighs. Sasuke shook him off again.

“We’re not doing this here, are we?” In truth he didn’t like how assertive Naruto was getting; he needed to slow it down. This is not a good idea, stop this.

Naruto pulled Sasuke up and into his bedroom. Finally, Naruto slowed down, embarrassed suddenly, unsure if he was supposed to strip Sasuke like in the movies or himself.

“Are you sure about this, Naruto?” Sasuke asked one last time.

“Yeah.”

Sasuke sighed and started stripping. Why am I doing this? I want to feel it again. Even if he’s not Kakashi. Naruto also stripped.

They had both seen each other naked many times in the past, but they both felt oddly shy. Sasuke shut off the lights. Naruto came over and kissed him. Sasuke wondered where this sudden passion came from. Sasuke found himself having difficulty getting hard. What are you doing? Stop this! But Sasuke kissed back. Fuck all. That silenced his better judgment.

Sasuke pushed Naruto onto the bed and hovered over him. “If we do this, I’m topping.”

“Fine,” Naruto said breathlessly. “I don’t know what to do anyway.”

“Do you have anything to use for lube? Lotion or oil?”

Naruto got out from under Sasuke to search his bathroom. He returned with a bottle of lotion. Cherry blossom scented. Sasuke was amused. Does he imagine this is what Sakura smells like?

Naruto got back into bed. Sasuke threw away the last of his inhabitations and started preparing Naruto the way Kakashi had him. Naruto shut his eyes and didn’t noticed how sad Sasuke looked. He wanted Kakashi. He tried to put that from his mind. He started to stroke himself as he stretched Naruto, trying to maintain an erection. He kept his eyes closed, trying not to think who this was.

Finally hard, Sasuke pressed into Naruto’s body. Naruto squirmed in discomfort. That brought Sasuke back, but he was able to stay hard though Naruto’s tightness hurt Sasuke a little too.

“Relax. It’ll hurt at first, but not for long. You can put up with it, can’t you, dobe?”

“Of course, teme.” Sasuke was pleased that Naruto didn’t sound angry. His erection hadn’t flagged. Naruto did relax and Sasuke was able to move further in.

Sasuke took a half minute to fill Naruto. They were now face to face, panting in each other’s faces. Sasuke opened his eyes to see Naruto’s closed ones.

“You okay?”

“Feels strange.”

“Let me know when you want me to move.”

Naruto nodded and tried to relax more. Sasuke felt the pressure around him ease. He wondered if this was what it was like for Kakashi. The pang he felt in his heart made him angry. Kakashi didn’t want him.

Naruto opened his eyes to see Sasuke cringing.

“Sasuke? Does it hurt?”

Sasuke opened his eyes. “Naw. Though you are really tight.”

“I think I’m ready.”

Sasuke nodded and pulled half way out and pressed back in. He looked at Naruto’s face to see if he was okay. Naruto didn’t look in pain, so he did it again. The tight heat felt really good. Instinct took over. He found a rhythm and Naruto moaned in pleasure. Sasuke slipped a hand under Naruto’s hip and lifted him up a little. Naruto lifted that leg up and hooked it over Sasuke’s shoulder.

“Faster,” Naruto gasped. Sasuke obliged him.

Sasuke grabbed Naruto’s cock with his lotion slicked hand and stroked him. Naruto’s convulsing orgasm brought Sasuke off too. Sasuke pulled out and fell down next to Naruto, panting.

“Enjoy it?” Sasuke asked.

“Yeah.”

“Mind if I crash here?”

“Sure.”

“Good.” Sasuke fell asleep almost immediately. Naruto turned to look at his face, then down the length of his body. Why wouldn’t someone want him? Naruto wanted to keep him.

“I love you, Sasuke.”

Sasuke couldn’t hear him.

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I didn’t want to write the actual Sasuke/Naruto sex though it was part of the plot, but I had to for a dear friend of mine. Sie wissen, wer Sie sind. ^_-