Permission To Seek

CHAPTER 35 The Weeping Willow

“My area is secure however, like I told you we will have a problem once we get further up this mountain. Do you want to change course it may add an additional week but we will not be able to evaluate the rock slide until we are closer?” Neji felt worried his comrade from the time they left Suna a mere shadow of his former self. The dynamics of there group functioning to perfection undeniably due to the ‘talk’ the leader gave the team the previous evening.

“Should that become necessary we will adjust our course.” Shino responded. His face looking into the darkening forest displaying no sign he would join them for dinner.

Shino continued to distance his interactions with the team, every conversation addressing only issues relevant to the mission. Not a person who normally discussed his home life, his team became accustomed to him as an avid listener; showing a keen interest in anyone who would willingly discuss their personal life. However, this is no longer the case, the primary reason being Uzumaki. The hours since Naruto concluded their relationship stretched endlessly to the bug lord. Whenever he was in the young ninja’s presence, without the distraction of mission duties, he has visions more like fantasies of crushing the blond ninja under one foot while cutting out Sasuke’s eyes. Contributing to the rage was Naruto’s attitude.

Naruto completed his assignments with his usual level of perfection, assisted other teammate when they needed and remained alert to his surroundings while they traveled. He also continued to display his good natured and positive attitude. That usually included his loud barking laugh, devious warnings about his strength and endless questions about anything and everything in other words as he never stopped talking.

To Shino it was as if Naruto did not need to adjust to their brake up falling easily back into his usual routine, which at this point on the mission everyone had become accustomed to the yellow-haired chatterbox. However, Shino took great strength to avoid casting him evil glares, the fantasies of ripping his tongue out and shoving it in another hole flashing before his eyes. The non-stop drabbles drilling at the ache on the side of his head. Just before they made their final camp for the night, his tolerance broke after convincing himself sixteen hours of the voice enough for one day.

Stopping unexpectedly and turning to face Naruto, who not looking where he was going telling Kiba yet another story crashed into Shino bounced off and nearly fell backward as Kiba grabbed him to prevent the fall. Shino glared darkly at the blue eyes the storm in his heart rolling over itself as he chose his words. Then threatened: *‘If you continue to run your mouth in this manner I will personally remove all of your teeth, it will be in your best interest Naruto is to keep your mouth closed and your head on this mission.’*

An ominous moment followed these words, Shino rarely chastised Naruto and none of the team could remember the last time he threatened their comrade; further more after the fight that the two had the previous day some of the team doubted the leader could truly back up his threat. The uncomfortable silence broken as he told them all to make camp, stalking off to get away from the blond ninja.

Now later…..

“Shino, I am not trying to interfere with the way you are conducting this mission, however I have a couple of question I would like to ask?” Neji said eyeing the leader seriously.

Shifting slightly against a large tree he nodded his consent then beckoned Neji to follow, leading Neji several feet away from their camp area checking security.

Several minutes passed before Neji realized Shino would not prompt him to begin. “This artifact that Sand wished to secure, they let us leave without incident or should we expect war once we return?”

Shino looked at the white-eyed ninja, for as long as he could remember he felt a since of respect for the young man. He admired the way he conducted himself especially toward his comrades; he considered telling him that he should have acknowledged him as well during the meeting with the team; however, he suspected Neji knew his worth and did not need such recognitions. He understood why the Fifth suggested Hyuga assist him. The relationship Neji established had a positive influence in his dealings with the Sand Shinobi. Once again thinking Neji is a worthy rival.

“Do not concern yourself with the artifact, I have returned it to its proper place.” Shino concluded, staring at a trail on leaf cutter ants scurrying up a tree.

“I am surprised you returned it; I believed you would secure the object for the Hidden Leaf seeing as the Sand considered it valuable enough to send their most elite Shinobi to recover it.” His white eyes stared at the side of the dark frames wondering why he would not keep the document.

“Yes extremely valuable,” Shino agreed. “However Neji, the thing is not worth the life of my team, nor all the citizens of the Hidden Leaf. So there was really never any other recourse given the situation we would face.”

His comrade glanced at him then his eyes followed the ants as well toward their nest. “I am glad you did that Shino, I am sure the Fifth will understand your decision.” Shino looked over his shoulder at Neji and nodded they begin the walk. “My other question has little to do with the mission; it is in regards to your attitude lately.”

Continuing to walk without comment Neji went on; “You have avoided us during breaks. I still can’t believe the way you threatened Naruto and most importantly you have not eaten.” He concluded looking forward his Byakugan allowing him to see everything in his path.

“What is your question?” Shino replied

Now the white-eyes turned on him while his face remained forward; “I would think it is obvious, why to all of my statements.”

Shino paused on the path; soon they would be back in camp, his mind and heart at war with the questions wondering how much he could trust Neji. “I have not avoided my team during breaks, I chose to complete task that did not involve the entire unit; outside of that reason I desired to be alone. Regarding Uzumaki, he often talks too much today it has become annoying; he needs to recognize that his actions effect the entire team, the leader is not immune, although I have been tolerant in the past I do not plan to continue to do so.” Falling silent deep in his own thoughts, he wanted to be alone again.

“You still got to eat Shino, I prepared the fish, you said you like the way I make it.” ‘I wonder if that is the only reason.’

“Really, I will have some then.” Shino said, concluding that he would need to keep up his strength to get them back to Konoha. His energy still feeling the effects of the battle with Naruto despite the chakra teas he consumed.

They both started toward the campsite the smell of roasting fish greeting them. Shino imaged he could feel his appetite returning although as they approached the small group the sensation vanished. Kiba lounged back on his backpack talking to Sasuke and Naruto about a mission he did in the Mist Village. The tell he loved to use to brag although the story did not cancel his appetite; it was Uzumaki laughing loudly as the story unfolded and laying back with his head on Sasuke’s lap while the Uchiha appeared asleep hands behind his head and smirk on his face. The closer they drew to the pair the slower his steps became, until Neji stop to glare at him for his reluctance.

“What is it Shino?” he turned to stare at the fireside scene trying to determine why he would stop walking. Just as his eyes fell on Naruto, whose smile seems to falter mid-laugh then return in full force, Shino stepped pass him, headed toward the fireside.

Despite many promptings for Shino to join in the on the re-telling of that mission he refused allowing his comrade to finish to the end. While he stared pointedly anywhere but at Sasuke and Naruto, the later now with his eyes open stroking the blond ninja’s hair periodically Shino not looking long enough to see the words they exchanged. The fish he enjoyed had no flavor, as soon as his portion was consumed Shino stood telling Kiba he would wake him in a few hours for the next watch. The dark frames swept over the group once more before leaving them all to get some rest while he took the first watch.

Naruto feeling Sasuke’s fingers go through his hair again, sat up, “Ok, Naruto I won’t do it anymore; lie down again.” Unlike the relationship he shared with Shino, Sasuke made it well known he intended to get as close as possible to the Naruto. This made the blue-eyed ninja nervous, he did not like his personal life or those who wanted to be part of that life broadcast for all to observe. He especially did not appreciate Sasuke demanding demeanor towards him since the fight he had with Shino. He badgered him constantly in a hushed voice for details of the fight, until Naruto told him he was sleep walking and did not remember any part of the incident. Some how he knew the raven did not believe him but he could have cared less; Shino was taking it far worse than he imagined. Naruto believed if he were more relaxed around Sasuke somehow everything would be all right. “Donki, come on I’ll behave, I promise.” he smirked as the blue eyes half turned toward him.

“No that’s ok Sasuke I got to relieve myself, get some sleep.”

“Want me to join you?” Sasuke added, followed by a raspy snicker from Kiba and Akamaru yowling softly.

Naruto shook his head he wanted to be alone shoving his hands in his pocket and walking off alone, for once since Shino yelled at him quiet. Twenty feet from the camp, he shifted into full ninja mode putting his hands together focusing his chakra. Dropping his heart rate moving with a level of skill he never showed his teammates he slip between trees, his movements blending with the sounds of the night the very shadows and breeze utilized as a cloak for his presence. If he could have seen his own image, he might have been shocked at how his features shifted in form; an extended nose, wider eyes and ears that sat a little further from his head. Naruto’s blue eyes obtained the most dramatic change with an inner and outer ring of red giving him the ability to see in the darkness every detail of the forest.

Several moments pass unable to locate his prey. Deciding to rest, he sat down listlessly under a willow the leaves extending to the ground like vines. A drop of water hit his cheek, he sniffed the air then stood slowly the scent of rain not detected as another drop fell from above, landing just below his eye, slowly trailing down his face mixing with the first drop. His sharp eyes focused, zoning in on the man well hidden among the trees as he lifted a trembling hand to touch the water on his face. The spot of wetness almost dry as he stared at it on his fingertip another drop landed in his palm. Falling silently against the tree, he slide down on the ground under the Weeping Willow, his chest aching feeling he had better not move until he pulled himself together.

Shino gazed at the picture of his parents on his chain, wondering if it would have been better if he had died that night. Lifting his gaze to the rising moon wondering how to set his path straight again, no matter what arguments he had with his uncle or the countless years of abuse, he always admired the man’s strength. ‘Something like this would not cause uncle to break; I need to be strong like him.’ The anguish in his heart constantly eating away at him, with great effort he kept his dinner down. Shino stood he felt at home in the forest so many friends to watch, but even the thought of night crawlers did not lessen the pain, ‘There must be something; besides death to fix this.’ Leaping from the tree into the next, he started the rounds of their camp again, hating himself for his dark thoughts toward his teammates.

Sasuke woke with a start, sitting up looking around wondering what woke him. Immediately activating his Sharingan all of his senses on edge, as Kiba and Neji slept close by neither noticed anything. Planning to lie down again he noticed Naruto had not returned. Standing up pushing on his sandals, he started first to the lake to see if the blond ninja decided to take a late night swim. He knew the path well, following it until he reached the pond with a beautiful waterfall that presently held a greater beauty under the falls a normal eye would not have detected the young man. Stripping quickly he eased his way around the rocky out crop toward the golden hair telling himself he would not force Naruto this time.

Naruto leaned his teary face against the rocks under the falls, using the sound of the splashing to cover his sobs. ‘What have I done, I just can’t take what I’ve done to him.’ The pain kept echoing in his heart when he sensed a presence. Spinning around “Shi…” “Sasuke? What are you doing here?”

Sasuke did not hear Naruto’s sobs but one look in his face and he understood something was bothering the jovial blond. “What’s wrong Naruto? Why are you here instead of sleeping?” He continued to step closer, Naruto easing back against the wall. “I woke and couldn’t find you so I thought you would come here, this place is beautiful, just like you.”

Naruto felt the familiar unease settle in his stomach, Sasuke too close and on top of that naked. “Well, I am about to get out so I’ll leave this to you.” Stepping forward to walk pass his dark-haired comrade, who blocked his path.

“Why don’t you stay a little longer? I prefer to have some company while I do this, please stay.” He leaned down toward the blue eyes Naruto turned away trying to step around him.

“Sasuke I am not interested in you like that, so if….” He stops talking suddenly his gaze fixed on the falling water, looking through it.

“I am interested in you Naruto.” Long fingers caressed his cheek turning the blue eyes on him. Naruto lifting his hand removing Sasuke’s fingers, Sasuke turned his hand in his grip lacing their fingers together. Looking deeply into the blue eyes, Naruto began to quake. Sasuke eased his free hand around the small of Naruto’s back pulling their bodies together; “I will never hurt you again Naruto; after what you did to Shino, I wouldn’t dream of trying.” He smirked easing his face down to the blond ninja’s face.

‘What I did to Shino…’ He felt cold, the water when he first got in feeling nice to cool his burning heart now; the dark eyes were over him moving closer. Shaking from head to foot, he raised his free arm around Sasuke’s neck allowing his body to press against the raven. Their lean bodies contrasting beautifully as Naruto tan peaches and cream complexion met Sasuke’s pale olive complexion.

“Kiss me Naruto.” He pressed his mouth to the blond ninja’s quaking mouth easing his tongue in carefully, pressing deeper as Naruto eased back. Finally, unable to stand the tease of the full lips Sasuke let go of Naruto’s hand so he could wrap both arms around his prize delivering a passionate kiss.

His entire body shaking as he turned away from the mouth attached to his staring through the falling water again. Naruto suddenly pushed against Sasuke attempting to get him off. Naruto’s body reacted to the feel their naked skin sliding against each other, while the raven placed delicate kisses down his neck.

The blond ninja spoke in suppressed anger trembling. “Let me go Sasuke.”

“This feels good,” he planted more kisses and light sucks on Naruto’s neck “I’m hard, you are too, why don’t we….”

Naruto blanched, his own erection annoying him but not as much as Sasuke’s words, his temper swelling; “Get off me now!” He snapped. Not waiting for Sasuke to comply as the shower scene flashed across his mind, ‘I am letting him do it again!’ Reeling back, his fist delivers a punch the causes the raven to black out.

Shino turned away from the waterfall and vomited. Wiping his mouth with the back of his hand, he ran quickly away from the area pausing in the camp to wake Kiba.

“Is it time already? Damn I should have cut that story short…” His eyes looking at Shino closely “What happen?” he jumped up, his comrade pale as a sheet.

“Nothing, I need to check something so keep a look for anything.” He started to walk away, working hard to control his pace, his eyes fall in the empty beds. “Those two are in the lake leave them alone.”

Scratching the back of his head and flopping back to the ground, he stared after Shino and shrugged as Akamaru asked him a question. “How am I supposed to know what’s going on between him and Naruto, they must have broke up.” The dog continued to speak to him as heavy foot steps pushed through the trees. Turing expecting the missing ninja he suddenly jumped to his feet again.

“What happen to Sasuke?”

“He slipped and hit his face on my fist.” Naruto replied. Dumping his dark haired teammate on top of his blanket, his clothes clinging to him because Naruto dressed him while wet. “Kiba, don’t tell Shino o.k. it will just cause problems.”

Kiba’s eyes went from the wet dripping face with blond hair blocking the blue eyes to Sasuke, dark hair not hiding the black and blue bleeding nose, ‘K.O.’ evil grin in place. “So he slipped huh?”

“Yes, I’m going to get some sleep.” Naruto turned over in his blanket as Kiba put wood on their campfire the heat helping with his outward chills, but not with the frigid block inside of him; as sleep came at last, he thought he heard distant thunder.

That morning Neji kept casting Sasuke furtive looks wondering how did he get the injury, since their ‘relationship’ ended Neji took great efforts not to speak to Uchiha unless necessary. All of there dealing only involved this mission, since neither Shino nor Naruto were back and Kiba was still getting sleep he settled for waiting to discuss it with Shino when he arrived.

“Will you stop staring at me Naruto punched me in the nose because I came on too strong. So now you know, its’ better if you do not tell that bug bastard or we will have civil fucking war. If you want to know more ask Naruto.” He ended contemptuously.

Neji stood, staring at Sasuke, he had a point about Shino if he found out why Naruto punched Sasuke there would be hell to pay. Neji knew about the beating Sasuke took at the hands of Shino, although he did not know what circumstances surround the incident.

Naruto sat in a high tree trying to keep his eyes open fatigued the sound of feet hitting wood woke him.

“Uzumaki.” Shino stared at the blond for several moments before looking away. “We will be leaving, gather your gear.” Shino then leap down toward the ground thirty feet below, Naruto directly behind him.

“Shino wait.”

Shino stopped, but kept his back toward his comrade, “Yes.”

Staring at the back of the dark hair Naruto mind stormed over what to say, ‘why did I stop him?’ “How are you?”

Turning to glare at his blond teammate, his stomach ached with his anger, “Why would you ask such a question?”

Standing up straighter his fist clenching to calm his nerves, it appeared evident his former lover is suffering; “I can ask we are still friends as far as I am concerned.”

The words echo in his mind reminding him of the offer to ‘help out a friend…’ Shino felt a familiar heart rise in his chest again as his mind stormed around the empty mansion in his heart searching for solace. He maintained slow deep breath to stop a sob from escaping his mouth when he spoke “We were never friends Uzumaki.”

The blue eyes flashed darker as he frowned at the dark shades, “I feel we were very good friends at one point, I don’t care if you do not see me as that anymore, I still see you that way.” His voice low and controlled, his mind still trying to rationalize this decision.

“You can call us what you want, but we were never going to be friends and now we never will.” Shino’s monotone voice cut into the blond ninja.

Naruto felt a strong desire to punch the vacant face then remembered the person in front of him created by his own actions. “Well you are an ass if you think we were never friends, and I will keep looking at you as ….” He stop talking emotions trying to surface, he took a deep breath. “Whatever Aburame!”

Shino turned away looking off toward the camp. “You said perhaps we could be brothers someday since we both loss our parents, do you remember?”

Clenching his teeth as that day came to mind, but he chose not to respond.

“I told you it would be nice and I would think about it.” Turning to face the blue-eyed ninja again crossing his arms over his chest his voice dropped deeper. “I never wanted anything from you besides everything.” Naruto face flushed then he looked down at the ground as Shino continued, “We were more than friends, beyond brothers and much more; you have always been more to me Uzumaki. I cannot go backwards and have you as a friend, call it a character flaw so from now on you will only be a comrade. I have allowed my emotions to interfere with the way I treat you, trust that will not occur again. If you believe I am being too harsh try opening your eyes and notice how I deal with your other teammates before you question my authority. I will not forgive you for doing so, be prepared to face the consequences for any insubordination if I do not agree with the challenge. One last thing, before you leave the camp be sure to inform someone of your location, that is common practice.” He turned away walking back to the camp leaving Naruto to follow.

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Several hours later they arrived at the mountain path, as Neji predicted completely blocked by a massive avalanche. Shino and Neji stood several feet ahead of the team discussing their alternatives as the team crouched and stare at their surroundings. Sasuke leaned over Naruto watching as he stared at some scrolls, the blue-eyed ninja quiet and subdued the better part of the morning hike.

“Naruto,” Sasuke said in a low voice, “I am sorry about last night, I should not push so hard.”

Turning his gaze away from the documents he stared at the barley visible bruising on the bridge of Sasuke’s nose, “You heal fast, its o.k. just don’t let it happen again.” He turned back to put away his things as Neji told them to get ready.

“Hmnn.” Sasuke smirked, “Well you can thank Neji for this.” Gesturing toward his nose, “He thought it would be a real pain if Shino saw what you did and I would of course tell him the truth about why so to avoid an ‘incident’ he healed it for me.” He smiled flashing his sharp eyes at Naruto.

Feeling embarrassed that his teammates were covering for him he nodded at the dark eyes as he stood turning his attention on the leader speaking to everyone.

“We will cut through this mountain, there is an opening, Uchiha you mentioned knowing about this region.” His face shifted to the raven standing next to Naruto.

“Yes, I only went in about one hundred feet from the other side, I do not know how the two intersect.”

“Neji estimates about forty-eight hours to complete the journey, but we will be considerably closer to our village once we come out. I have decided we will not camp in that mountain so after we check our supplies and eat will keep going until we resurface on the other side, prepare yourselves.” Finishing he spoke with Neji then left the group to get what rest they could.

Naruto following his departure as Kiba put an arm around his neck for him to assist with catching fish. Sasuke warned the ninja to keep his paws off Naruto.

Kiba laughed heartedly “Hey Sasuke you don’t need to worry about me I like girls after all, especially the way they taste.” He grinned licking his lips, while Sasuke shook his head and Naruto looked curious.

“Huh, taste what do you mean taste?” Naruto’s blue eyes shined with confusion wondering if Kiba actually ate humans.

Sasuke sucked his teeth, walking away waving his hand in dismissal of them both; as Kiba leaned in eagerly to explain to his comrade what ‘tasting girls’ involved.

After their meal, a shouting match between Naruto and Kiba that ended with a dark threat by Shino they made their way into the darkness of the mountain. As the ledge narrowed they squeezed single file into the nothing darkness, Neji in the lead followed by Shino, Naruto, Kiba holding Akamaru and Sasuke in the back. Neji could see the cave clearly and Sasuke Sharingan gave him a ultra-violet view so his surroundings appeared in the hues of the red color spectrum in the total darkness. Kiba has good night vision; however, in the total dark his keen sense of smell alerted the group as soon as they entered to the scent of death; although his eyes did little more than stare blindly in front of him.

Naruto did not mention how well he could see choosing instead to hold onto the back of Shino’s jacket. One of the first orders given prior to entering the cave stay close, hold onto the person in front and under no circumstances leave the team. Hours past as they moved slowly through the pitch dark pausing only once to get a quick drink and rest.

There was not much conversation the dark creating a claustrophobic feeling among the team and the fact that their voices echoed back eerily whenever they spoke made the circumstances even more unsettling. Shino shifted Naruto had stayed at his side the past thirty-seven hours the dark beginning to get to him but he had pushed everyone to keep moving for so long that Neji said he need to rest his eyes. He conceded to allow a few hours rest once they located a relatively flat surface to accommodate them. Naruto now leaned against him as they all rested with their backs against a wall eating some dried fish and roots. Shino ate nothing the darkness feeling like it was closing in; he removed his glasses, staring around at the cave walls apprehensively.

Shino has excellent night vision not common in clan; his uncle theorized the spider venom he ingested as a child might be the cause. His body did not so much reject the toxins as absorb mimic and eventually mutate the microorganisms; which allowed him to be immune to chemical attacks by his adversary. He began to tremble involuntarily; gritting his teeth, he wanted to ask Neji if he were ready but could clearly hear the soft whisper of his sleeping breaths. Closing his eyes trying to master the darkness a hand closed over his, he could here Kiba talking in a low voice to Sasuke as a familiar voice whispered in his ear.

“We will be out in no time.”

He swallowed a lump in his throat as he looked down at the blue eyes next to him smiling lightly; pulling his hand from under Naruto’s grasp. “I am fine.”

“I see lights up there I wonder what it is?” Naruto whispered a little louder, trying to distract Shino, although his shivering stopped as soon as he covered the larger hand with his.

“More than likely glowworms, they are called *Arachnocampa* which means spider-grub for the way the larva hang silk threads to catch prey once trapped they will be consumed. The glow from their bodies is due to *bioluminescence*, which is the production and emission of light by a living organism because of a chemical reaction during which the chemical is converted to light energy.

“See what you started Naruto, the guy may never shut up now.” Kiba snickered. Sasuke smirked behind him staring at Shino’s face absent the dark frames. He could see the eyes reflecting the light like a predator with green pupils his eyes jumping to Neji as he sat up his white eyes reflecting silver in the darkness. Naruto turned to snap at Kiba, Sasuke took in a sudden breath. Naruto’s eyes lights of red shifting on Sasuke he immediately faked blindness.

“If I could see you I would punch you in the mouth!” he growled looking away past his teammate.

Sasuke smirked, not fooled as Shino told them all to shut up and get moving. ‘So the little prick can see in the dark as well, I wonder why he’s acting blind.’

Shino could not resist offering Naruto a hand up, which he squeezed in gratitude for his assistance; he did not expect Naruto to hold his hand tighter in return grinning at him in the dark, before letting go. He felt confused with the emotions coursing through his head. Just touching Naruto made everything come back in vivid color and remembering his ex-lover in the waterfall with Uchiha made it worse. Taking a deep breath, he turned away from the bright eyes hoping they would see the light of day over the next hours in the dark mountain soon.

“Neji drink this it will help improve your chakra.” Shino offered him his drink, which the white-eyed Shinobi accepted nodding in gratitude. They started the last leg of the journey hopeful to finish up quickly, however mindful that caution would be necessary.

Gazing before them not more that three hundred yards ahead after a long decent and sharp turn they saw an opening of light. Neji confirmed would lead them out of the confines of the dark mountain, met with grateful remarks of joy finally able to be free.

“Wow I can’t wait to roll in the grass, right Akamaru.” Kiba chuckled.

“Hey I’ll be happy to join you on that.” Naruto agreed, met with Sasuke’s smirk.

“Keep it down we still need to get out here first.” Shino silenced, bending almost double as the passage got lower and lower.

“Aburame, this is not familiar to me I do not recognize this entry.” Sasuke just noticed.

Neji about to snap at his rear teammate as his eyes fell on something that made his blood run cold. He jumped as Shino put a firm hand on his shoulder whispering and urgent “Move!” The white eyes Shinobi leaped forward as he heard an audible sizzle from the exploding notes along the cave walls. Shino pressed his back against the cave shoving everyone to go ahead of him.

They all seem to come to the same realization as one, ‘Get Out Fast!’

“HURRY!!”

“GET OUT!”

“MOVE! MOVE! MOVE!”

Just as they broke the light at the end of the cave, the entrance exploded the mountain rumbled, large boulders and rocks collapsed down inside the former exit. Sasuke and Shino buried within.

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