Why

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WHY

Chapter 4:


New beginnings part 1


Naruto pov-

“It’s open!” I yell, ‘I really don’t want to move.’ I groan, my head properly buried in the couch, soon after I had yelled, I could hear the door creak open.


“You know, that’s not a safe thing to do?” I hear from the door way before the door is shut.


“Hmm, don’t care! What do you want?” I ask already half asleep on my broken couch face now only half buried in the cushion now, since I find air helpful to living.


“Pack a bag!” He orders like I’m going to just jump up and do that. A little smug are we humph.


“Why?” I grumble not moving from my spot, almost ready to give him a pout. No scratch that I will not pout at him I won’t.’


“Hokage sama has ordered you to stay with me for a while.” ‘He sounds tired. Of course he’s tired I’m tired.’


“Why?” ‘What did I do? Why would she order me to stay with him?’ “She never told me this!”


“Kakashi sensei has gotten you taken off of active duty. And the only way your gonna get back on is when your better.” He states firmly. “He did it right after you left. He’s worried every one is worried!” ‘Now I am pouting, I guess my little freak out left a bad taste for them damn.’


“Great, so I’m never going back to work. Just kill me know and save yourself some time. They never seemed to worry about me before so why start now?” I say almost getting to the hysterics. ‘Why is this all happening now I don’t understand? First the dreams started coming then phantom pains. I can hardly eat over all this stress and now this. Who the hell did I piss off?’


“Naruto don’t say that. Just pack a bag so I can go home. I’m tired; you’re tired it’s been a stressful mission for everyone. Please, don’t make this harder than it already is.” ‘Harder on who I was just told I have no job and I’m being forced to move! I don’t mind that it’s with him but I have no choice in the matter and that’s what angers me.’


“Alright, fine, fuck it I’m going.” I grumbled as I got up from the couch and went back to my bedroom. “So, why did she say, I’m to stay at your place?” I yell from the bedroom. “I could have stayed anywhere! I could have stayed home! Why do I have to go to your place?” ‘He told her didn’t he? After I told him not to! But I did tell the others, they probably voiced their worry to her and he told her. Ugh what a mess. This is all my fault, once again way to go Naruto, why don’t-cha just jump off the mountain while you’re at it.’


“Does it matter? She ordered it so I complied. Now hurry up.”


I quickly packed a bag and made sure to grab my ramen. Who knows what Sasuke has in his house, at least I can eat that. Rolling my eye’s at him slouched against the wall arms folded across his chest. ‘God could he look any more annoyingly… ‘Hot!’ stop thinking like that, your going to be living with him baka.


“Kay I’m ready!” I say coming out of my closet bag in hand


“Good!” he says pushing off the wall before making his way to the door. Holding it open for me I blush then yell at him to move on so I can shut and lock the damn door and we were on our way to his large scary overly Uchiha house.

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Sasuke pov-


When we got to my house, I let him in before me. He seems almost hesitant to enter though. It’s not like he hasn’t been here before.


“Is something wrong?” He looks up sheepishly at me and I frown, waiting for his answer what does he have to worry about being here?


“N-no nothings wrong. Where will I be sleeping oh gracious Uchiha san?” he asks through a stutter and covering it with a yawn. ‘Why is he acting so strange and what’s with this Uchiha san crap?’


“Hn. I’ll show you. It’s next to mine, so if you need anything…” I say trailing off as we head up the stairs.


“Alright.” He said it so quietly I could hardly hear him as we went up the flight of stairs. Going down the hall we pass my bedroom door and I opened the next one stepping aside for him to enter the room.


“whoa, this room… is huge!” he said his eye’s wide with surprise but his voice barely a whisper.


“You think so?” it’s no bigger than the rest of the rooms I think looking around the room. It’s got a bed big enough for two, a dresser a couple of night stands and that’s about it not much else, but he looks over whelmed. I forgot that he lives in a small one bedroom that is hardly bigger than this room maybe by a foot or two.


“Did you not see my apartment? This is more than...”


“Well anyways.” I said cutting him off. “Like I said I’m next door and the bathroom is across the hall. I’m gonna get some sleep. You should probably do the same.” I say about to turn and head to my room.


“Yea, alright.” He sounds sad.


“Naruto?” I say turning around.


“Hmm?”


“I… what’d ya say we get some ramen, when I wake up!” I offer not happy at how out of it he seems. Plus ramen always seem to make him happy it’s a wonder he’s not over weight by how much he eats but no he’s so small its easy to mistake him as a female which some of our client have in the past. I think with a smirk.


“Sure sounds good. If I’m still asleep wake me kay.” He says furrowing his brows. Nodding I turn back to my room.


Closing the door behind me I wait to move until I hear the door to the next room shut as well. I lay down on my bed only taking the time to pull my shirt off, I’m so tired but for some reason I can’t fall asleep. ‘Damn I must have gotten used to sleeping next to him.’


Just as I’m about to fall asleep to the quiet of my house I hear him. He’s sobbing. Why is he sobbing? Should I go to him? Crap I’m not gonna get any sleep as long as I hear him.


I slide out of my room and into his. I’m so quiet he doesn’t hear me. Slowly I start to move towards his bed where he’s in a tight ball his body shaking.

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Naruto pov-


I didn’t hear him enter my room. Until the bed shifted from his slight weight I had no idea he was there. Subconsciously I rolled over into his arms as he wrapped them around me.


“Shh Naruto, why are you crying?” he asked his voice so soft against my ear. I sigh moving ever closer. Why, why am I crying?


“I’m, I’m so.. sorry. Sorry I’m doing this to you. I don’t deserve for you to be so kind.” I choke out through my sobbing. “I’m such a weak person to cry over nothing.”


“Naruto shh, it’s okay. Your not weak you’re the strongest person I know and you deserve so much more than what I give you.” He says laying my head down on his chest while he rubs small circles on my back.


I stifle my sobs letting his body calm me. As I lay there against his chest I start thinking back over what Sakura had said the other day. A smile plays with my lips as my eye’s start to flutter shut. In a quiet voice that I don’t know I’m voicing a question at him.


“Do you think I’m pretty?” with that I fell asleep in his arms breathing deep his sent that lulls me to a peaceful sleep.


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Sasuke pov-

“Do you think I’m pretty?”


I blink, I don’t know what to say. I hear him fall asleep as he asked the question. I feel the heat rise to my cheeks and I’m glad he’s asleep and can’t see me.


Quietly so’s not to wake him I answer. “No, you’re beautiful” I kiss the top of his head closing my eye’s to sleep away my confusion.


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Somewhere else in Konoha-


“Kakashi, where’s Naruto? I can see you’re back, but he’s not home. I checked Ichiraku’s, his apartment, he’s not there and I can’t think of where else he could be. I’ve checked everywhere.”


“Iruka calm down, he’s fine. He won’t be back to his place for a while if ever.” Kakashi stated calmly.


“What are you talking about? Where is he?” asked a frantic Iruka.


“He’s at Sasuke’s.” Kakashi stated tiredly.


“What, why would he be there?” Iruka asked surprised.


“Calm down, he’s living with him for right now on orders of Hokage sama.”


“Why?” Iruka asked worry even more present his eyes than before.


“You’ll have to talk to him about it love.”


“Fine I’ll do just that.” Iruka said and started off in the direction of the Uchiha estates.


“Hey wait. They’re probably sleeping Iruka. Don’t I get a welcome home kiss?”


“You’ll get one when I see that he’s safe and sound.” Iruka huffed walking away.


“Fine, then I’ll come with you. If only he knew how much you worried over him, he’d feel so much better.” Kakashi muttered to himself.


The two walked to Sasuke’s house. Knocking on it Iruka got angry no one had answered he knocked again still no answer. Turning to his lover he pouted.


“Kakashi do something about this!” Iruka huffed.


“Okay, okay stop pouting!” He said letting out a sigh fiddling with the door for a moment he quickly let his lover into the house finding still silent. “Maybe they’re asleep.”


“Right!” Iruka said walking towards the stairs. Going to the first door he found the room empty, except for a shirt rumpled on the floor. Frowning he moved on the next. Opening it just as quietly as the other he peered in. letting his breathe out at the sight of Naruto sleeping before he took in the whole scene.


“Shh, don’t wake them.” Kakashi said peering over the younger mans shoulder.


“Wha.. What’s going on?” Iruka whispered to him.


“They’re sleeping!” Kakashi stated wrapping his arms around his lover’s waist as if it was perfectly normal for the two to be sleeping on the bed together.


Iruka looked at them. Naruto cuddled up against Sasuke his head resting on the others chest and an arm resting over him.


“They’re so beautiful lying there like that!” Iruka sighed. “I’ve never seen him sleep so peacefully.” Iruka let out a just barely a whisper of uncontrollable happiness for the two.


They decided to let the two sleep on, now that Iruka knew Naruto was safe and sound he was beyond happy.


They left Sasuke’s and once outside Iruka turned to Kakashi with one of his ‘to die for smiles’.


“I’m sorry I’m such a worrywart. Why do you put up with me?” Iruka said through the pout he was trying to wear.


“Cuz I love you!” Kakashi said bending slightly to press his lips to the others.


“Mm, say it again.” Iruka murmured his lips still touching Kakashi’s.


“I love you.” Kakashi said smiling before kissing him again.


“How long have they been together?” Iruka asked a confused smile on his face as he pulled slightly away.


“Who ever said they were? If you ask them they don’t like each other that way. But if you watch them while they sleep or comfort each other you’d say they were destined to be together. But I’ve thought that for years.” Kakashi said wrapping an arm around his love as they walked back to their apartment.


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Sasuke pov-


I woke up to a warmth I was starting to get used to. Like it was burrowing deep inside me and making me see things I never dreamt I could have seen.

I opened my eye’s to see a head of blond hair resting on my chest. I smile at the knowledge of who it is. I let out a small sigh and wait for him to wake not wanting to move, other than to run a hand lightly through his mess of blonde hair.

Smiling again since he’s asleep and can’t see it. I let myself lightly dose until he wakes up.


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Naruto pov-


I awoke to a slightly dark room. My head resting on a moving pillow and a sent that if I didn’t move would lull me back to sleep. I smile knowing who it is and I can feel his eye’s on me. Slowly I move my head so I can look up at him.


Looking up into those dark ebony eyes. I smile and am locked in his gaze, I can’t move my body from his and I don’t want to. I see his hand move towards me. My breath hitches as it gently caresses my cheek.


Finally I find my voice as a blush spreads across my face. “Sa.. Sasuke?” I question he says nothing dropping his hand as he lets out a sigh.


“I was wondering when you’d wake up. Feel better?” He asks softly.


“Mhmm, much better!” I said quietly still resting on his chest I don’t want to move and he hasn’t made me yet, maybe he won’t.


“You hungry? Well that was a stupid question of course you are.”


“No, I’m not that hungry. But if you are then I’ll move.”


“You’re not hungry? I thought you said you were feeling better?” He questions me his brows furrowing.


“I am, feeling better! I’m just not hungry for some reason my appetite has changed and I don’t eat as much. But it’s okay as long as I’m still eating its fine right.”


“And what does Tsunade sama think about this?”


“I haven’t told her about this. It’s not a big deal I’ll live. It’s not like it’s my biggest problem ya know. Why don’t you go eat and maybe later I’ll be hungry.”


“Alright. But come with me maybe once you smell food you’ll be hungry.”


“Fine, just give me a minute alright.” I say grumpy I have to move away from his body.


“Fine.” He says moving off the bed and heading towards the door.

20 minutes later sitting at Ichiraku’s….


“You sure?” Sasuke asked yet again as he ate more of his ramen.


“Fine I’ll eat one bowl!” I said rolling my eye’s at the persistent person next to me. I’m not hungry I don’t see why I have to eat.


I ordered my bowl of ramen and sat silently waiting for it to be set in front of me. I feel his eye’s on me the entire time. I don’t look at him I know he’s thinking all sorts of things about me right now. Probably thinking how did he get stuck taking care of the dobe.


Sighing I run my hands through my hair just as my ramen appears. Sighing again I break my chopsticks and slowly begin to eat. Never once do I look up at him but I know he’s watching me. “Please stop staring at me Sasuke, I’m not in the mood.” With that said I finish eating.


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Sasuke pov-


I just don’t get it. If I didn’t know him the way I do I’d say that this wasn’t him. But there’s just something’s you just can’t fake and this is him, broken. Why is he letting the past hurt him so much? Why does this village have to hate him? Don’t they understand that there trying to destroy something, beautiful? That when he’s happy everyone is happy when he’s not how are we suppose to act. I can’t even be my usual self and I don’t want to be I just want to hold him tell him everything will be alright and have him believe me.


I know that won’t happen at least not during the waking hours. When he’s asleep he seems to believe me. Why can’t it be that easy when were awake?


At least I got him to eat but I’m not sure he’s registering that he’s even eating like he’s on auto pilot forcing the food to his stomach.


We walk in silence all the way back to my house. It’s amazing how much he has changed in the past 5 years since we became team-mates. He’s still shorter than me but he’s slimmed out a lot. Though looking at him you would never believe he is as strong as he is. With having such a feminine body he’s even grown out his hair. I smirk thinking all this over. It looks good longer. More under control now than it once was. But still that sunshine color it always was. I only wish his eye’s still looked as bright.


I sigh I hate to think of what caused it to fade without us noticing. What kind of friends are we that we didn’t notice? So lost in thought I didn’t notice we were home until Naruto pulled my sleeve speaking in his now quiet voice.


“Hn?”


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Naruto pov-

“Sasuke, where you going? We’re home!” I ask lightly pulling on his sleeve seeing him lost in thought as he starts to pass his house.


“Hn?” he looks up looking confused.


“Come on we’re home!” I state giving him a smile.


“Right, sorry.” He said shaking his head as he goes to unlock the door to let us in.


“What were you thinking about?” I ask once were inside and walking into the living room.


“Hmm? Oh, nothing.” He says furrowing his brows. There’s a face I don’t see him make often. “ I’m sorry, I know you didn’t want to eat and I forced you its just, your so thin lately I’m,… I’m a little… worried about you.”


“There’s nothing to worry about, just don’t expect me to eat breakfast I’m stuffed.”


“That’s all you seem to be eating.”


“You know you’re right, well breakfast is the most important meal of the day or so Iruka sensei always told me.” I say with a smile.


“Does he know?” He asks looking me in the eye.


“Know what?” I ask not sure what he’s talking about.


“You two seem to be close so I was just wondering.”


“Sasuke I already told you. You’re the only one I told until Kakashi sensei and Sakura-chan that is. Iruka sensei knows nothing it would have worried him too much for him to know. He’s such a worry wart that he really didn’t need the added stress of my life going to hell.” I say sadly. “Well I’m kinda tired, its funny I never looked forward to sleeping before. But since we left on our mission, I feel better. My dreams do a 180 and it’s hard to explain.” I say knowing I’m rambling but for once he doesn’t seem to mind.


I yawn quietly as my eye’s start to droop slowly I start to move towards the stairs. I feel him walking behind me as I walk up the steps some how it comforts me to have him so close to me all the time.


As I walk past his room I feel him stop. Turning around I look up at him his ebony eye’s watching me. Letting another yawn pass my lips I ask…


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Sasuke pov-


He’s so cute and innocent when he yawns like that. Silently I continue to stare at him waiting for whatever it is that made him stop by my door.


“Sasuke?”


“Hn?”


“Can I sleep with you? I don’t want to sleep alone, I don’t think I can.” He seems so sad how can I tell him I never want him to sleep alone again.
Opening my door I see the slight pout cross his face as he waits for my answer.


“Come on!” I say walking in my room as I shed my shirt and pants so that I’m clad in only my boxers.


I hear him walk in and close the door behind him. His quiet footsteps gliding behind me and the slight sound of clothes dropping to floor.
I climb in bed and close my eye’s sighing as my head hits the pillow. I hear him settle in next to me.


We lay there in silence until I hear a light snore coming from him. Slowly I let myself drift off to sleep listening to the slow rhythmic breaths that come with sleep.


End chapter- 4

(tbc)


As always
Lost in thought