All You Wanted

Hi! Well it certainally took me long enough to get this posted didn't it? This is gonna pretty much follow Naruto and the song is Linkin Park's "Breaking The Habit"

Disclaimer I do NOT own the song "Breaking The Habit" nor do I own Naruto.

'thoughts'
song lyrics
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Naruto looked out of his apartment's single window to the street below, not really seeing anything.

Memories consume
Like opening the wounds
I'm picking me apart again

His mind was perversly going over memories of Sasuke. No matter how hard he tried to block them out, they floated to the surface mocking his efforts to stop the pain that thoughts of the Uchiha caused.

You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again

He'd rather be at the training grounds, beating himself to exaustion, but his apartment was the only place that his well-meaning friends wouldn't come to try and comfort him.

I don't want to be the one the battles always choose
Cause inside I realize that I'm the one confused

He was getting sick of this, sick of his self-imposed isolation. He knew why he was avoiding Sasuke but he didn't understand why he fought so hard to avoid all mention of the brunette.

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

He'd been snarling and insulting towards anyone who tried to be nice to him and he hated it. 'I've got to stop this.' He went out determined to act like his old self.

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I have no options left again

Only to run back inside, slam his door shut, and lean against it panting. He'd seen Sasuke almost as soon as he'd hit street level and now it felt as if his heart had been ripped in two once again. 'I can't leave the apartment as long as he's around.'

I don't want to be the one the battles always choose
Cause inside I realize that I'm the one confused
I don't know what's worth fighting for or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate and say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

Iruka came into the apartment through the window, attempting to coax Naruto out. The blond screamed at him to get out, "I don't want your fucking sympathy, I want to be left alone! I don't need you here so get the hell out!"

Iruka smiled sadly and paused at the door, "I know you're hurting. When you feel ready to talk you know where to find me," then the chunin left.

Naruto fell to his knees, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry Iruka-sensei."

I'll paint it on the walls
Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this id how it ends

Suddenly he surged to his feet and threw a bowl of cold ramen across the room, where it shattered against a wall, noodles and broth oozing down the dull paint. He tore through his apartment. Furious at himself, he smashed his furniture to useless pieces. Finished, he slid down against a wall, drained of his fury. 'Why am I so angry at everyone? I was the one who walked away from Sasuke.'

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit

'Course I walked away cause I figured that's what he wanted.' Naruto's head shot up. 'But that's not what he wanted was it? He wanted th keep me from being hurt by him again. The stupid bastard was trying to protect me.' Naruto rose to his feet and looked at the shambles of his apartment.

I'm breaking the habit

He kicked a chair leg aside as he went to his closet for a jacket. 'I'm miserable away from him and I'm pretty sure he's not happy either.'

I'm breaking the habit

He stalked to his door, "The hell with avoiding that bastard. We're dealing with this."

TONIGHT

And Naruto slammed out of his apartment in search of Sasuke.
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Took Naruto a little bit didn't it? Hope you liked this chapter and yeah I know it was heavy on the lyrics. The next chapter will follow Sasuke and the song will be Nickleback's "Savin Me" Please review? Ja ne!