Don't You Feel It Too?

Don’t You Feel It Too?
Part 4

Pairings: Kankuro/Kiba, one sided Kankuro/Shino, others mentioned but not really worth writing down....
Rating: R , will eventually go even higher
Warning: Shino’s not exactly in character at the moment....
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Kiba watched from his front step as Shino ran from his house like a bat out of hell. Kiba sighed and turned back into the house. He looked over to the couch and smiled sadly as Akamaru whined softly.

“He’s in even worse shape than I thought. What the hell is bothering him so much?” Akamaru growled and barked softly causing Kiba’s eyebrows to shoot up high on his forehead. “Shino in love?....I would never have thought so but I guess that does make sense. I wonder who it could be...” Kiba sat down on the couch and pet the large dog’s head. “I guess I’ll just have to find out huh?” He grinned as he jumped up from the couch, a determined light in his eyes. “C’mon Akamaru, we’re going to find out, and if he won’t tell me, fine. I’ll just do some investigating myself ” Akamaru barked and quickly followed his master to the front door. This was going to be one mission Kiba was definitely going to be successful in.

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Shino had an awful headache when he opened his eyes. The sun decided not to help any as it’s rays seemed determined to burn the retina out of his eyes. He put a hand to his head and groaned softly. This was becoming a common occurrence and it was annoying to no end. He struggled slightly to sit up. He leaned heavily against his pillows as he thought about his actions around Kiba. He felt as if he had a rock sitting in the pit of his stomach just thinking of how he acted. He had treated Kiba so rudely and all the other nin tried to do was help. Shino sighed and shook his head, ashamed of his words and actions. Kiba had been so wonderful trying to help him and all he could do was run. It made the Aburame feel rather disgusted with himself. He knew he was going to have to apologize, even if he was mortified with his actions. Sighing once again the kikaichu master stood up and walked towards the door. He needed to calm down first before he went to see Kiba. He walked out of his bedroom door and walked quietly down the hall, he knew his father had heard him earlier, running into the house like he had seen a ghost. It was embarrassing to know that his own father had heard him acting so cowardly, it made him want to sink a little further into himself.

Shino walked into the bathroom and closed the door tightly. He needed to make things right with Kiba. He couldn’t let this stand between their friendship, not when Kiba was the first friend he ever had. He sighed as he looked in the mirror and leaned his forehead against the cold surface. He needed to break out of this depression, if not for himself then for everyone around him.

He turned to the shower and turned on the hot water letting it heat up until he needed the cold water. He winced as he took off his coat. His t-shirt underneath was tight so it would not get in the way under his coat. That didn’t bother him as much as the scars under the shirt. Shaking his head he he threw his shirt towards the laundry basket and then looked down to his pants. He’d always been uncomfortable with his body. After being a kid and seeing that no one else outside the Aburame clan had those kind of scars, it scared him into hating his own nakedness.

He slid out of his pants and quickly jumped into the shower, the water still slightly hotter then he liked. He hissed and quickly turned up the cold water. Once it was comfortable, Shino leaned against the tiled wall away from the spray feeling only the mist hit his skin.

He was miserable, and that seemed to be putting it lightly. How did anyone live life with unrequited love? Shino thought of Hinata suddenly and felt his lips turn upwards. Naruto may have been blind to her affection but she was strong. She had lived with the pain and learned to overcome it. He just needed to do the same thing, he needed to get his mind ~and~ heart off of Kankuro and worry about other things....of course that was easier said then done. Shino cursed softly as he thought of Kankuro. There was something about the sand-nin that just interested Shino at first, the way he used puppets to fight and the strength of the poison they had. Slowly that interest had turned into something deeper without Shino’s consent. Suddenly he found he could not think of anything or anyone else but the other boy. Soon it was not his fighting style or what he used to fight, it was the way his muscles moved in his arms when he manipulated the chakara strings. Or how his skin was nicely tanned and that the paint he wore on his face covered something unbelievably handsome. How his hair was actually a sexy mess under that ridiculous hat.

Shino closed his eyes and stepped into the spray of the shower, he felt the kikaichu start to get restless as he thought of Kankuro and that was never a good thing. Not a good thing at all for the Aburame teen who was always composed and kept his body in check. Shino swallowed thickly as he ran both hands through his hair, he couldn’t believe his body was reacting to only the thought of Kankuro. Running both hands over his face, he couldn’t help but feel the heat grow in his gut and slowly spread downwards. He looked down and cursed again, his member was beginning to harden and become quite uncomfortable. Shino glared at his body and leaned over to the handle for hot water turning it off completely.

Shino almost cried out as the ice cold water hit his back, forcing the air out of his lungs. His breath came in gasps as he tried to will his growing erection away. He did not want to touch himself, he was angry and upset at his behavior from the day before and he did not want to disgrace himself anymore. Unfortunately for him, his cock seemed to have other ideas as it continued to be a bother even with the cold water. Shino put a shaking hand on the hot water nob once again and slowly turned it back on. Really there was no reason to suffer if it wasn’t helping anyway. Shino looked at his erection, the warm water feeling like sensual fingers against his cold skin. It felt really good and that seemed to register to his erection. Shino groaned and took a step back from the spray. This shouldn’t be a big deal, he should be able to get rid of a hard on without feeling so distraught

Closing his eyes, he lowered his hand and slowly grabbed his now aching erection. He felt his cheeks burn with embarrassment as he started to run his hands over his skin. The first caress made his knees buckle as the pleasure shot up his spine. He had to bite his tongue to hold back the tiny whimpers that wanted to escape his throat. He felt his body flush as he ran the hand over his cock faster and gripped just a bit tighter. He wanted it to end quickly but his body denied him as the pleasure swelled but refused to burst just yet. Shino felt his chest tighten and suddenly he couldn’t tell if his not being able to breathe was from the pleasure or from the tears.
It was then with his hand at the base of his cock that he suddenly pictured Kankuro on his knees, that smartass smirk on his lips as he looked up at Shino and used his own hands. Shino shook his head trying to rid his mind of the image but it was just such a wonderful thought of somebody for once ~wanting~ him. His heartbeat was faster and the kikaichu moved quickly under his skin as his minds eye pictured Kankuro taking the head of his member into his mouth and caressing it softly. Shino noticed he was making tiny mewling noises as he stroked himself faster but couldn’t stop. The image of a wet Kankuro sucking him off was just too much. The knot that was sitting in his gut tightened quickly and suddenly Shino felt the fire explode and rush through his body. He didn’t realize he let out a cry until he heard it echo off the tiled walls.

Shino slid onto the floor and slowly pulled his legs to his chest. He put his forehead to his knees and he began to cry. All the emotion of the last few days seeming to rush through him as he sobbed uncontrollably. This wasn’t how things were supposed to be. Shino Aburame should not be crying in the shower like some love sick girl He should be happy for his best friend, should be sucking it up that he would ~never~ have Kankuro and ~move on~ with his life.

It was a few minutes before Shino had enough strength to stand up and wash his body. Finally he turned off the shower and stepped out into the steaming bathroom. He walked over to the mirror and slowly wiped at the condensation. He looked tired and ~miserable~, the dark circles under his eyes just seemed to have gotten worse and he just looked like he was in depression. Shino had never felt more worthless.

He quickly pulled on a new shirt and some sweat pants. He was going to go in his room and sleep for a while, maybe that would help him. He sighed and opened the door of the bathroom then stopped. At the door stood his father, his eyebrows drawn low and he looked concerned, ~extremely~ concerned.

“Shino.” All it took was his name being said and suddenly he felt just as horrible as in the shower. He tried to control the feelings inside him as he looked up at his father. The usual stern face now softened in worry. Shino suddenly just wanted to be held, he wanted to feel comfort from someone he knew loved him. He lowered his head and slowly stepped up to Shibi, he then wrapped his arms around his dad’s waist and hugged him tightly.

Shino closed his eyes as he Shibi hesitate for only a second before he was wrapped in strong arms. They stood there for a few minutes and Shino felt better then he had in weeks. While his dad wasn’t very emotional, he never turned Shino down for anything when he was upset.

“What is it Shino?” Shino took a shuddering breath and looked up at Shibi.

“Dad....Can we talk for a little?” Shibi ran a hand through his sons hair and nodded slightly.

“Ok.” Shino nodded and broke away from the hug. He turned and began to walk towards his room. Shibi took a deep breath and followed. He was ~very~ worried about his son.

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Kiba walked up to the porch of Kankuro’s temporary house. He was going to get some help with finding out what was with his best friend. He jumped up the stairs and grinned as he banged on the front door. He heard some cursing from the other side of the door and chuckled softly.

“That’s why we have a fuckin’ door bell! Why the hell...” The door was ripped open and standing in all his glory was Kankuro, war paint half applied to his face and a makeup brush in his hand. He looked at Kiba and glared, his curses dying on his lips. Kiba on the other hand couldn’t help but laugh at the look his boyfriend was giving him.

“Holy shit! Stop it please, you’re killing me!” Kankuro rolled his eyes and moved to the side to let the younger boy into the house. Kiba grinned as he walked past the taller boy and moved towards the couch. That was until his arm was caught in a strong grip and he was turned quickly, his lips attacked by Kankuro’s. Kiba moaned and threw his arm over the sand-nin’s neck opening his mouth to deepen the kiss. Their tongues battled almost fiercely for dominance over the kiss, both too stubborn to give up. Finally Kiba pulled away for a breath. Kankuro smirked and turned towards the couch slapping Kiba’s ass on the way past. Kiba rolled his eyes and followed the other boy to the couch. “You look really stupid with only half your face painted you know.” Kiba flopped down onto the couch and put his feet on the coffee table. Akamaru had made himself comfortable near the book shelf on the other side of the room.

“Really? I think I look rather dashing, anyway not that I mind or anything but why are you here?” Kankuro was now looking in the living room mirror carefully putting on the rest of his paint. Kiba looked at him with a false hurt look.

“You know I come here to get your help and all you can do is ask why I’m here? Like I need a reason now? What if I just came to fuck?” Kankuro looked at Kiba through the mirror and snorted.

“Yeah right, if you came here to fuck, as you so elegantly put it, you’d have your pants around your ankles and your ass sticking up in the air. Remember last time?” Kiba smirked slightly as he grabbed a throw pillow from the couch.

“And you didn’t love it?” Kankuro quickly put the finishing touch on his face and turned towards his lover.

“Never said I didn’t.” Kiba watched as Kankuro walked to the kitchen disappearing for only a minute before he came back with some water. Kiba took it gratefully and took a large gulp. Kankuro sat next to his boyfriend and leaned back. “So what’s up?” Kiba bit his lip for a moment then turned to Kankuro, eyes now extremely serious.

“I’m worried about Shino.” Kankuro looked at him questioningly but didn’t say anything. Kiba sighed. “He was over at my house earlier and when I tried to get him to talk to me he ran. Kankuro, I’ve never seen him fall apart like that. There’s something seriously wrong and I want to find out what it is.” Kankuro sighed softly and shook his head.

“Look Kiba I understand he’s your friend and all but come on, the kid isn’t exactly ~sociable~. So he didn’t want to talk to you about anything, that’s not exactly a shock.” Kiba growled slightly as his hands clutched into fists.

“That’s not the point! There is something really killing him and I want to know what it is. Akamaru thinks Shino’s in love.” It was a good thing Kankuro hadn’t taken a sip of water other wise he probably would have choked on it.

“What?! Shino in love? Yeah and I bet hell has frozen over too. I don’t think that kid can even ~feel~ love.” Kiba glared darkly at his lover. “What? C’mon Kiba I’m not saying he’s not a nice guy or anything but it’s not exactly like he wears his heart on is sleeve. So he’s in love, unfortunately that can hurt more than anything and if he’s got it that bad for someone who doesn’t like him back then of course he’s going to be depressed. Don’t get me wrong I feel for him, I really do, but there’s not much anyone can do about it. Do you even know who he’s got the hots for?” Kiba sighed and shook his head.

“No but it’s not fair. Shino’s a great guy, he’s just kinda shy...” Kankuro smirked and leaned back against the couch.

“Shino isn’t shy Kiba, he just doesn’t like people. Hell are you sure he just wasn’t annoyed by you presuming he was miserable?” Kiba shook his head and groaned I frustration.

“You don’t fucking understand Kankuro! Shino doesn’t just act like that. He was really ~sad~. I want to help him.” Kankuro looked at Kiba for a moment and groaned.

“Fuck you want my help don’t you?” Kiba grinned and jumped onto Kankuro’s lap.

“Yep, so come on. We are going to Shino’s house to see if we can get him to talk now come on!” Kankuro jumped up quickly and pulled at Kankuro’s hands. “Come on!” Kankuro sighed and slowly stood up, Kiba kissed him quickly. “I knew you’d understand. Now come on let’s go!” Kankuro watched as Kiba practically flew out the door and shook his head. He really couldn’t see any kind of confrontation ending nicely, not if Shino, the unfeeling cocoon was actually in emotional pain. Oh man what the hell did he get himself into.