Happiness: A Confusing and Elusive State
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Naruto › General
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
6
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1,989
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Thoughts of Others
A/N: I am starting to feel like I'm writing 50 Shades of Gray. The characters to me feel almost like characters in name only. Yet I can't stop writing. Enjoy anyway!
Hinata ran away from Naruto, still crying and blushing. She didn't mean to break down, but it still ended up that way. She loved him and wanted to be with with for the rest of her life. However, she just didn't have the courage and strength to tell him this. She had become braver and yet she couldn't do this. She couldn't say the words that would solidify their future together. She couldn't say, "I love you and I want to spend my life with you."
She ran out of energy far away from Naruto, out in the woods surrounding the village. She collapsed in a clearing somewhere far off from the village. She struggled to calm herself and suddenly it came to her attention that several of the trees that had once surrounded the clearing had been knocked down by something. It was the something, or anything really, that could distract her from what had just happened.
It wasn't something she'd paid attention to as she entered the woods, as she'd been wandering blindly. She wiped the tears from her eyes and sat upon one of the fallen logs. She wondered about what exactly could have caused such destruction. An overzealous ninja doing training maybe? She wanted to ponder further upon it, but her mind was inexplicably drawn back to her weakness, her cowardice.
For most of her life as a ninja, she'd admired and loved Naruto, even if he hadn't been able to see it for most of that time. She remembered how she had loved him, yet never had the courage to say anything. She'd always stood on the edge of that cliff, looking down at the image of her and Naruto, yet she never had the courage to jump. Here was an opportunity for her, and yet she didn't take the risk.
She remembered, when she had taken that leap, how he'd reacted. She remembered how when she was knocked out, Naruto unleashed a terrible fury on Pain. One that almost destroyed what was left of Konoha. She remembered at least, what others had told her about the incident afterwards. She felt so much better after that. It was some confirmation that he cared for her. He cared deeply for her.
He said he was going to be Hokage, which made her happy because it would make him happy. But at the same time, she felt like she would lose him when he was officially the Hokage. She imagined the workload he'd have. She knew that having a family was still possible, but Naruto would take some time to adjust, months, years maybe. She feared of what would happen in that time. Would she lose him permanently.
She knew she had to act fast. The fourth war was over, and now the world would move on. She wanted to settle down and have a normal life, and she wanted to be with Naruto. That was her single goal right at this moment, and it would be until she either succeeded or failed. After that, she wasn't exactly sure what she'd do. She knew kids were eventual, but what about before that? What would their life be like?
She wanted to succeed, she wanted to be with Naruto. She loved him. She had a fear that he would not want her. It attacked her confidence, that all-consuming "what if." What if he rejects her? What if someone else asks the question first? What if? What if? What if? The question smolddered in her mind, and she sat there, mastering it. Much later, she realized what time it was and hastened to make it home, before her family got worried.
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Sakura took another well-aimed punch at the training dummy, and promptly destroyed it. She released her chakra and took a break from her training. The fourth war was over, and she wasn't too sure what to do with herself. The fighting was over, and there was a severe decline in missions. The world didn't want any more fighting, but it would need help recovering and that was something that she could help with.
She had been spending a fair amount of her time volunteering her medical talents alongside Tsunade around various hospitals and even sometimes venturing outside to different countries. Sometimes she even encountered particularly difficult cases that gave her some satisfaction. Despite this, she felt on edge, as if something would happen any moment. In other words, civilian life was not suiting her well.
Damned if that stopped her though. She recalled how almost everyone had wanted to settle down either alone or with a family. So far living alone was not treating her well. While out and about she'd heard many a tale about parents and their kids. They seemed to make it out to be harder than being a ninja, which as far as Sakura could tell, might suit her a lot better. At the very least, it would give her an outlet for her energy and she just might calm down.
With that as her mindset, she came across a different question. Who would make the best father? Her mind wandered to Sasuke almost by reflex. No doubt she could be happy even if he had tried to betray the village. In a way, it would probably be better for him to be accepted by someone in the village. Maybe it would be possible to keep the whole thing under wraps. After all, she wasn't quite sure exactly how many people knew about it.
But there was yet another choice, Naruto. She recalled how she had confessed a love for him upon that mountaintop quite some time ago. She felt guilty for it. She knew it was to try to stop him from going after Sasuke, but in the end, things turned out for the better. Now that she thought about it, perhaps there'd been more truth in it than she'd wanted to admit. Naruto had always been there, Naruto had shown he cared.
Sasuke on the other hand, she had no clue as to what the real him was like. All she'd really known about him before he'd vanished was that he wanted to kill his brother and he wouldn't stop until he did. There was no limit to how low he would go for power. She still wanted to believe that Sasuke could be a good person. He just needed someone to be there for him. If that failed, she was strong now, she could beat some sense into him.
Naruto or Sasuke? Who could she be happy with? She really didn't want to think about what would happen if she thought she could he happy with one person but it turned out she couldn't be. She didn't worry about it at that moment. It was an unpleasant thought that would be best left alone unless she had to deal with it. She pulled herself up and focused on a new dummy, restraining herself. She imagined they wouldn't be too happy if all the dummies were destroyed.
Hinata ran away from Naruto, still crying and blushing. She didn't mean to break down, but it still ended up that way. She loved him and wanted to be with with for the rest of her life. However, she just didn't have the courage and strength to tell him this. She had become braver and yet she couldn't do this. She couldn't say the words that would solidify their future together. She couldn't say, "I love you and I want to spend my life with you."
She ran out of energy far away from Naruto, out in the woods surrounding the village. She collapsed in a clearing somewhere far off from the village. She struggled to calm herself and suddenly it came to her attention that several of the trees that had once surrounded the clearing had been knocked down by something. It was the something, or anything really, that could distract her from what had just happened.
It wasn't something she'd paid attention to as she entered the woods, as she'd been wandering blindly. She wiped the tears from her eyes and sat upon one of the fallen logs. She wondered about what exactly could have caused such destruction. An overzealous ninja doing training maybe? She wanted to ponder further upon it, but her mind was inexplicably drawn back to her weakness, her cowardice.
For most of her life as a ninja, she'd admired and loved Naruto, even if he hadn't been able to see it for most of that time. She remembered how she had loved him, yet never had the courage to say anything. She'd always stood on the edge of that cliff, looking down at the image of her and Naruto, yet she never had the courage to jump. Here was an opportunity for her, and yet she didn't take the risk.
She remembered, when she had taken that leap, how he'd reacted. She remembered how when she was knocked out, Naruto unleashed a terrible fury on Pain. One that almost destroyed what was left of Konoha. She remembered at least, what others had told her about the incident afterwards. She felt so much better after that. It was some confirmation that he cared for her. He cared deeply for her.
He said he was going to be Hokage, which made her happy because it would make him happy. But at the same time, she felt like she would lose him when he was officially the Hokage. She imagined the workload he'd have. She knew that having a family was still possible, but Naruto would take some time to adjust, months, years maybe. She feared of what would happen in that time. Would she lose him permanently.
She knew she had to act fast. The fourth war was over, and now the world would move on. She wanted to settle down and have a normal life, and she wanted to be with Naruto. That was her single goal right at this moment, and it would be until she either succeeded or failed. After that, she wasn't exactly sure what she'd do. She knew kids were eventual, but what about before that? What would their life be like?
She wanted to succeed, she wanted to be with Naruto. She loved him. She had a fear that he would not want her. It attacked her confidence, that all-consuming "what if." What if he rejects her? What if someone else asks the question first? What if? What if? What if? The question smolddered in her mind, and she sat there, mastering it. Much later, she realized what time it was and hastened to make it home, before her family got worried.
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Sakura took another well-aimed punch at the training dummy, and promptly destroyed it. She released her chakra and took a break from her training. The fourth war was over, and she wasn't too sure what to do with herself. The fighting was over, and there was a severe decline in missions. The world didn't want any more fighting, but it would need help recovering and that was something that she could help with.
She had been spending a fair amount of her time volunteering her medical talents alongside Tsunade around various hospitals and even sometimes venturing outside to different countries. Sometimes she even encountered particularly difficult cases that gave her some satisfaction. Despite this, she felt on edge, as if something would happen any moment. In other words, civilian life was not suiting her well.
Damned if that stopped her though. She recalled how almost everyone had wanted to settle down either alone or with a family. So far living alone was not treating her well. While out and about she'd heard many a tale about parents and their kids. They seemed to make it out to be harder than being a ninja, which as far as Sakura could tell, might suit her a lot better. At the very least, it would give her an outlet for her energy and she just might calm down.
With that as her mindset, she came across a different question. Who would make the best father? Her mind wandered to Sasuke almost by reflex. No doubt she could be happy even if he had tried to betray the village. In a way, it would probably be better for him to be accepted by someone in the village. Maybe it would be possible to keep the whole thing under wraps. After all, she wasn't quite sure exactly how many people knew about it.
But there was yet another choice, Naruto. She recalled how she had confessed a love for him upon that mountaintop quite some time ago. She felt guilty for it. She knew it was to try to stop him from going after Sasuke, but in the end, things turned out for the better. Now that she thought about it, perhaps there'd been more truth in it than she'd wanted to admit. Naruto had always been there, Naruto had shown he cared.
Sasuke on the other hand, she had no clue as to what the real him was like. All she'd really known about him before he'd vanished was that he wanted to kill his brother and he wouldn't stop until he did. There was no limit to how low he would go for power. She still wanted to believe that Sasuke could be a good person. He just needed someone to be there for him. If that failed, she was strong now, she could beat some sense into him.
Naruto or Sasuke? Who could she be happy with? She really didn't want to think about what would happen if she thought she could he happy with one person but it turned out she couldn't be. She didn't worry about it at that moment. It was an unpleasant thought that would be best left alone unless she had to deal with it. She pulled herself up and focused on a new dummy, restraining herself. She imagined they wouldn't be too happy if all the dummies were destroyed.