Why

WHY


Chapter 6 : part 1

Naruto pov/thoughts-

I thought a lot this week. With everyone coming over to see me and encourage me to be a little more open. I wasn’t really only to Sasuke and Iruka sensei really, but that’s okay I know they care, the few that they are, they do. They show me in there own ways.


Iruka sensei’s, ever constant mothering me, when ever he’s around. Its sweet and I don’t know what I’d do with out him being there for me. He’s like the parent I never had but always knew would be there even if I didn’t believe it at times.


Kakashi sensei came over as well with Iruka. I swear if were not on missions there inseparable. Its cute the way Iruka can control Kakashi and yet be putty to the man. I know very few who could say they were truly that happy. I’m happy for them of all the people I know they belong together. They can take care of each other and be completely comfortable together. Now I’m not saying they don’t fight they’re just comfortable enough with each other that they don’t fight much and there problems get sorted quickly.


Sakura chan as always is being the big sister to both Sasuke and I taken it upon herself to make sure everything is getting done. Even if she’s working 24/7 with Tsunade baachan she still makes time to come see us at least for a few minutes a day. Her and Sasuke seemed to have grown closer this past week as well. They’re always seen talking about something I don’t pay them much mind most of the time. Its just nice knowing their there to talk with me if I so chose.


Sasuke and I have had most of our time taken up by the unexpected guests we got used to expecting to come round that we formed some weird schedule. Every morning I wake up to laying on his chest or shoulder sometimes just laying there with his arms wrapped around my waist keeping me close to him. It’s those times that I treasure because I know they won’t last. I cuddle closer to him and wait for him to wake, sometimes I can feel him watching me and I’ll lay there pretending to sleep a little longer just keep that feeling of rightness inside me.

Soon after though I have to get up, I’ll make us breakfast and he gets ready for the day. We eat in almost complete silence he reads the paper which holds very little information other than if there’s a festival coming up in one of the neighboring towns or if a war is going on between countries it comes every other day for some reason he likes to read it, I always have a book open and waiting to be read. Once done with breakfast I head upstairs get ready for the day while he cleans up the dishes.


It’s an odd thing for us to fall into the roles like an old married couple or something. But I’m fine with it I like to cook for him for some reason it makes me happy to do that for him. I guess it’s to make up for all he’s been doing for me for the past month.


Tomorrow’s my birthday I’ll be 18 finally I’ll be the same age as most the people I know. It sucks being the youngest and shortest in the group always they come up with something to say about my age or size. Mostly I try to ignore it cuz they don’t know how much it upsets me I guess that is my fault I never told them.


Sighing I put the leftover’s in the fridge and finish cleaning. I won’t have time to do this in the morning. I’m a little worried though I haven’t been feeling myself lately not big changes or anything just small things not that painful really easy to ignore but I still feel it something’s been changing in me I just don’t know what.


“Naruto?” I hear Sasuke call from somewhere in the house, while I’m lounging on the couch.


“What?” I yell back I so don’t want to get up that would mean having to move when I’m comfy.

“Come to bed we have an early start tomorrow and we have to see Hokage sama before we can go.”


Closing my book and walking into our bedroom yes its now our bedroom since we’ve been sharing it for almost a month now. Walking in I see him standing by the bed clad in only his boxers, ‘mm what I would give to be those boxers’. I think letting my eye’s roam over his body watching as his muscles flex as he bends to pull back the sheets.


Looking up our eye’s meet briefly before he turns his gaze back to the bed before climbing in. I follow quickly striping down to my boxers as well before climbing into bed next to him. Soon I have my head resting on his shoulder and he’s slowly running his hand through my messy hair. Sighing I settle in and begin to relax to his treatment. Soon I’ll be lost to the black oblivion that is sleep.

……

Sasuke pov- morning of Naruto’s birthday-

“Naruto.” I said quietly as I gently stroked his cheek.


He was sleeping so soundly, his head resting on my chest. Just seeing him like that made something in me flutter a spot I kept so well sealed began to warm and crack. Realizing where my train of thought was going I quickly locked it away and set about waking him.


“Naruto it’s time to wake up!” Slowly his eye’s flutter open and I’m greeted by a small smile.


“Hmm, why do we have to get up? It’s so comfy.” Naruto yawned burrowing into my chest.


“Well I thought you wanted to go to the cabins today? …Can’t do that if you’re sleeping on me.” I smirk ruffling his hair a little not like it would make it any messier.


“Humph fine.” He yawned again batting my hand away from his head. “Go get dressed and I’ll make us breakfast.”


“It’s your birthday, don’t you think I should be the one cooking for you?” I ask with a quirk of my brow.


“No, go I’ll have breakfast ready by the time your done.” He says smiling before he bounces out the bedroom door his lounge pants hanging dangerously low on his slim hips.


“Alright, fine. But that’s the last meal you’ll cook today.” I yell at him as I climb out of bed.


“Alright just go already!” He yells just out side the bedroom door.


I quickly shower trying hard to ignore how those pants looked hanging off him or how much I would like seeing them on the floor more than covering his body.


I’m down at the table the minute he places the food in front of me. I look up at him and he smiles one of his genuine smiles and I can’t help it I melt, I don’t know how he does it every time he makes my brooding bastard persona just melt away.


“I told you it would be done by the time you were ready.” He smirks.


I look down at the food and my mouth practically waters it looks delicious I don’t know how he does it and so quickly. There in front of me is a stack of pancakes with bacon eggs and coffee all sitting there waiting to be devoured. I dig in greedily showing how much I enjoy his cooking in the slight moan I let slip. After I finished eating I wait for him to get ready since he took his time to eat everything. Which for a change seemed to be quiet a lot for him.


…..

Naruto pov-

We finished with breakfast and I quickly ran up stairs to get dressed. I’m so excited I know I shouldn’t get my hopes up and it’s not that special really, but I can’t help it, this will be the first time I ever got something for my birthday that I could enjoy. No beatings, no nasty vulgar comments from the villagers. I know its just getting out of the village but it’s more than I thought I could get. Just some quiet which I know Sasuke will also enjoy. Maybe I should have packed a book or two.


Unfortunately we have to stop and visit baachan yet again to ‘see if I’ve progressed’ yeah right, what ever I’m just so happy to be getting away from every thing.


Sitting there took more restraint than I thought either of us expected to have. ‘Sigh’, I told her that my dreams have stopped. But, only if I’m sleeping next to Sasuke. Hmm that’s kinda funny but oh well I’m okay with that. I love waking up in his arms. It’s the happiest I think I’ve ever been.


“How do you feel about sleeping with Sasuke?” She asked looking me in the eye curious.


“Well I don’t know, its fine I feel completely relaxed and safe. I could trust him with anything. I know that it seems odd I guess but I don’t mind sharing a bed with him it almost makes me feel wanted.” I said trying to understand what I meant. It all just became jumbled in my head and so I looked up searchingly towards her hoping she understood what I didn’t.


“And how do you feel about all this Sasuke?” she asked with an almost knowing smile that Sakura chan gets when she knows something that the rest of us should.


“I’m glad that his nightmares have subsided even if that means he’s to remain in my bed.” He said casting a slight glare her way. “I’m fine with that as long as he’s happy and comfortable laying next to me then its fine.”


Trying to ignore the slight glare thrown at baachan I sigh with a sad little smile I’m quiet fond of I look over at him. “I’m practically smothering you when we wake in the morning Sasuke. But I must say that it’s quiet comfortable.” I say with a small smile as I look over at him.


Hokage Sama watched us interact for a few minutes before talking to us separately then let us go. With a small smile forming on her lips, I know there’s something behind that smile I just don’t know what it is.


I sighed in relief, finally twenty minutes later Sasuke and I are walking out of the tower, each with a small pack since he said we could stay there for a few days if I wanted. Which I do, why wouldn’t I?


The closer we get to the cabins though the more nervous he seems to be getting. I tried to start a few conversations with him but his only answer as usual was ‘hn’. Like that’s a word. The almighty ‘hn’ word I’m sure if you asked him. Finally I stop the cabin is only a few minutes away but I can’t take it any more.


“Damn it Sasuke!” I say my voice pitching at my annoyance.


“What?” he says with a frustrated confused sigh as he looks at me.


“I’ve been trying to talk to you the whole way here. What is your problem? If you didn’t want to do this with me you could have just said no.” I say unfortunately pain laced in my voice at the thought of him not wanting to do this and I can tell he heard it as he looked at me with more than just concern in those onyx eye’s of his.


“I’m sorry, I just I don’t know. Look I do want to do this. It’s your birthday and you deserve to get away on this day. Let’s just get to the cabin alright? I have something there for you already.”


“You got me a present? I told you I didn’t need a present just needed to get away.” I said looking up at him my eyes wide at the idea of a present waiting for me.


“I know, but I got you something any way so lets just get there so you can see it okay.”


“Okay yay you’re the best Sasuke.” I say wrapping my arms around him in a quick hug before I bound off towards the cabins.

…


Sasuke pov-


Finally we get to the cabins the lights are off inside as they should be. I push him through the door and before he can turn on the lights I reach over and do it. Smirking, when all his friends jump up yelling surprise.


Startled he jumps back into me before laughing it off and walking over to them.


I smirk at this he didn’t expect this at all. The baka he doesn’t know how many truly do care for him.


Well the party went off with out a hitch. Everyone seems to be having fun and Naruto is bouncing off the walls going from one group to another. I did how ever see him stay as far away from the punch as he could I know someone must have spiked it by now.


….


Naruto pov-


“So when did you put this together? Who put this together?” I ask excited looking between Sakura chan and Ino.


“Oh well that’s easy Naruto. Sasuke kun and a few of us were working on this for over a week. I hope you like it. I’ve never seen him work so hard at keeping something from you before when it was for you that he was doing it.” Sakura says smiling in that annoying, knowing way she’s so good at.


“Sasuke… did this?” I say shocked though I should have known. At least now I know why he was nervous he didn’t know how I would react to this.


“Yeah he came to me and asked me to help him. You know how he is with parties so he came to the expert he’s been so nervous that you’d find out before hand. You never saw it coming did you?” she continued on.


“I can’t believe he did this.” I say with a small dazed smile, that warmth I feel when I wake up with him flowing through me again.


“Did what dobe?” Sasuke said from behind me.


“You. Why did you do this? I told you I only needed to get away. You didn’t have to do all this for me ya know.” I say smiling at him I can’t help it, he did this for me.


“I know but I thought you’d like it.”


“But I don’t deserve all this.” ‘Crap what the fuck Kyubbi? What’s going on that hurts?’


“Naruto are you okay?”


“Huh..” I let out breathing a bit hard I can’t believe I’m still standing. “I’m fine, I think I just need to lie down for a bit I’m fine rea-ly.” I say walking away from him a little lightheaded.


I finally made it to the bedroom but not the bed before I fall. I’m panting hard trying to breath but the pain just gets worse. It feels like I’ve got a 500 lbs weight sitting on my chest and someone keeps punching me in the stomach it hurts and my vision is all but blurred.


‘Kyubbi what’s going on?’ I’m breathing so hard I can hardly hear my own thoughts.


“We’re getting closer to the final stages of merging kit. Trust me this hurts me as much as you but there’s still more to come, hold on okay.”


‘God why does it have to hurt this much’ still panting on the floor a few feet away from the bed.


“Oh my god, Naruto!” Someone yells. I hear them but I can’t respond I can hardly breath.


I can hardly hear them all I can concentrate on is the pain how I feel like I’m being burnt from the inside out.


……


Sasuke pov-


‘What’s wrong now?’ I watch him walk away he’s kinda staggering his way to the bedroom. ‘Crap maybe he did drink something I better go check on him.’


I walk into the room and I don’t find him on the bed, no he’s laying on the floor in a ball moaning like he’s in great pain.


“Oh my god, Naruto!” I yell running to him. I go to pick him up, he’s so hot how could he be running a fever?


Someone must have heard me yell ‘cause in seconds Sakura was standing in the bedroom door looking at us, confusion plastered on her face.


“Get Hokage sama now! Tell her he’s sick, very sick!” I yell rocking us back and forth before I muster enough brain power to pick him up carrying him bridal style to the bed where I gently lay him down.


“Mm, suke… it, hurts.” He moans curling into a ball.


What felt like hours really a few minutes Hokage sama came bursting into the room worry etched across her face. I look up at her trying to keep my cold distant mask on but it doesn’t work not while he’s like this.


“What happened?” she asks.


“I don’t know, he just, I don’t know I found him in a ball on the floor moaning in pain can you do something?”


“Su…ke mm hurts.” He panted out a pained expression covered his face.


“I know dobe I know.” I said not able to mask my distress over his pain.


“Naruto what happened? What’s going on?” Tsunade asked.


“Mer…ging.” He panted out his eyes tightly closed his hair sticking to his sweat drenched face.


Tsunade brought over a cold cloth, handing it to me. As I wiped his face and brow of the growing perspiration I gently moved the hair that had fallen into his face, away.


“How long is this going to last?” I asked running the cloth over him again.


“I don’t know. We’ll just have to wait and see.” She told me trying to stay calm but you can hear it in her voice she’s really worried about him.


15 minutes later Naruto uncurled himself taking deep breaths looking over he looked at me. I couldn’t help but let out a relived sigh when I saw his eye’s begin to open.


“Naruto?” I said barely above a whisper.


“Hai.” He responded his breathing begin to normal out somewhat.


“Are, are you okay? Is it over?” I ask unable to conceal my concern.


“No, it’s not over. There’s two more coming. And I’m afraid I don’t know how much time I have before the next part hits. I don’t know what to expect.”


“2 more?” Tsunade said on his other side. “Will they be just as bad?”


“Probably worse, I need to rest before the next one hits.” He said his eye’s already starting to droop.


“You’re right just rest and we’ll be right here for you.” Tsunade said carding her hand through his hair before she headed for the door.


“Do you need anything?” I ask wiping his brow again.


“Just stay with me.” he replied to me. I climbed into bed with him drawing the covers lightly over us.


The two laid there in bed Sasuke’s arms wrapped protectively and naturally around the blonde as they quickly fell into a light sleep.


The Hokage just looked at them for a few minutes before leaving them to rest it was going to be a very long day and hopefully everyone would make it through.


…..


Normal pov-


Walking out to the living room she noticed those who were still there and waited for answers.


“Is he okay Hokage sama?” Sakura asked worry present on her face.


“I’m sorry, I can’t answer that as of yet. They are resting now and I can tell you this is going to be a long day. Hopefully tomorrow I can answer your questions.” She looked out over everyone sighing before she spoke again. “Everyone should go home. Iruka, Kakashi please stay, you maybe needed.”


“Hai.” Came the joined reply.

…

4hrs later-


“EeeeYahhh….” The scream that brought everyone to attention in the few seconds it took them to get to the room, they found Sasuke in the center of the bed holding a shaking blonde chanting.


“It will be okay, it will be okay, it’ll pass.” Sasuke said in an unnaturally calm voice the worry visible on his strained face.


“Sasuke lay him down on the bed!” The Hokage ordered gently. “We don’t know what will happen.”


“I… can’t! Even if I wanted to I can’t!” He said his voice never leaving the calm chanting tone.


“What do you mean you can’t?” She said worry her voice sounding alarmed.


“His chakra is holding us together!” he said as he continued to rock the blonde.


“What!!!” she screamed.


“Its okay, when this part of the merging is done we can let go. It’s okay.”


Breathing a sigh of relief, Iruka moved to sit by them only to be pushed back by an unseen force. Before anyone could react he was sitting on the floor a few feet back holding his hand breathing heavily.


“Iruka!” Kakashi breathed crouching down by his lover looking him over.
“What in the Hell was That!” He said looking at the two teens on the bed.


“I’m sorry, I should have warned you.” Sasuke said. “As soon as it started a force field surrounded us.”


“Is he okay?” Iruka asked worry evident in his voice.


“No, he’s in a lot of pain and there’s still one more left to go after this.”


“Oh, god!” Iruka gasped.


“Ru? Are you okay?” Kakashi asked again looking at his lover.


“I’ll be fine.” He said still clutching his hand to his chest.


They watched over the two during the entire 40 minute pain filled merging session. The only clue that there was a break in the merging was when the two fell back breath labored and over half asleep from exhaustion.


The force field surrounding them dropped and Tsunade ran to their side checking them over. Letting out a breath she was happy to say they were asleep. She lightly ran a hand through Naruto’s sweat dampened hair noticing the red streaks had spread along with the length.


“Hokage sama… how is he doing?” She heard a worried Iruka ask.


Turning to look at him she stated. “All I can tell is that he is alive at the moment.”


“This isn’t fair! He shouldn’t have to go through this, he’s gone through so much already why this?” Iruka said.


“To think this little gaki is the reason our village thrives yet they punish him for saving there worthless hides.” She said frowning.


“I just don’t understand how he could remain so happy after what those men did to him, on top of a whole village scorning him.” Kakashi said frowning.

After that they took turns watching over the pair all hoping this would pass and they could see there smiling baka again. Unfortunately they knew that would never happen again he was changed forever if only they knew how much


Chapter 6 part 1 end

(tbc)


Well I hope you all enjoyed this latest installment of my fic… let me know what you think. It helps keep me going and to put more chapters out


And forgive me of anything that really needed to be fixed I’m beyond tired and lacking in caffeine but wanted to get this out before I went to bed.


Thanks for reading

As always Lost in thought