Don't You Feel It Too?

Don’t You Feel It Too
Part6

Pairings: Kankuro/Kiba, Kankuro/Shino, Kiba/Shino friendship (maybe more hehe), others have been mentioned but kind of forgotten.....

Rating: PG-13

Warning: none really, actually this part is kinda sweet enough to leave your teeth aching....

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Kiba ran as fast as he could down the quiet street. He needed to get to Shino, he had no idea what he would say when he got to the Aburame house, but he was damn sure he was going to fix this. Suddenly, there was a raw hate stirring in Kiba heart and to his surprise, it was towards himself. He had been hurting Shino for god-knows how long without even knowing it. How could he have been so ~blind~! Thinking back on all the times he had seen Shino, it was almost like a slap in the face. How could he have ~not~ figured out Shino was in love, and with Kankuro of all people! It made so much sense that Kiba felt like the most horrible person on the face of the planet for not figuring it out on his own. His best friend, the person he had loved like family for ~years~ was still a complete fucking mystery to him. All those years training together and talking and still Kiba had not learned anything about the Aburame. It was truly a heartbreaking realization that his friendship with Shino had apparently been so clouded that Kiba needed Akamaru and Kankuro to figure out such an obvious hurt in the tall and quiet boy.

Kiba stopped in front of the Aburame household and felt tears gather in his eyes. How could he have been such a horrible friend without even realizing it? He had unintentionally put Shino through the worst depression he had ever witnessed. How was he going to make this right? He couldn’t just go up to his friend and offer him to take Kankuro away, Kiba was in love, no matter how much of an asshole Kankuro could be. He also couldn’t tell his lover to just run away with Shino and just leave their relationship broken into pieces. Kiba sighed as he made his way to the side of the house, there could be no happy ending with such emotions running around. The Inuzuka knew he was going into Shino’s home just to hurt the other boy. Kiba had never felt so miserable in his life.

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Shino stared at the ceiling lost in thought, yet he could not put one rational idea together. Words and feelings seemed to mix together causing a sudden and sharp tightness to surround his heart. He was getting really tired of living like this, wasn’t there something that could help him?

Shino never thought of himself as a weak person, he had dealt with a lot in his years. He had been called an outcaste since the day he was born. He had suffered for years with the pain of insects bursting out and then burrowing back into his skin. He had been friendless for years and became introverted and cold. That was how he dealt with being hurt, now it just seemed he didn’t know how to control something this agonizing. This hurt more then people calling him names or running away from him, or the scars that were left in the kikaichu’s wake. This pain was something he couldn’t control and it was beginning to scare him. It was with that thought that he realized just how loud the kikaichu were buzzing. He hadn’t realized they were crawling over his skin until that moment. They seemed restless, going in and out of his skin, almost like a distraction. It would have been more helpful if it actually worked, unfortunately his insects were just adding more to what he was thinking.

There was a soft tapping on his window and he felt his body automatically sit up and grab a kunai he kept by his bedside table. He looked over to the window and sighed. Kiba looked as miserable as Shino felt. Slowly he put his kunai back and walked over to the window, trying to force the kikaichu back into his body. Kiba may be his best friend but that didn’t mean he wanted to freak the other boy out with the amount of bugs crawling over him. Hesitating only for a moment he unlocked the window and opened the screen.

“Thanks man.” Kiba crawled into the room almost falling face first onto the carpet. Shino nodded and walked over to his bed. He felt uncomfortable and awkward with Kiba in his room, it was such a foreign feeling that Shino could actually feel his cheeks burning. Kiba, now sitting on the floor where he almost fell, looked down at his hands and sighed. “Look Shino, I don’t know what to really say...I was trying to come up with something meaningful and what-not but...oh man...” Shino nodded as he looked to Kiba, it wasn’t supposed to be like this, Kiba was supposed to be talking about nothing and everything t once. This was not how a friendship of years was supposed to ~end~. Shino looked to Kiba and couldn’t explain the pressure in his chest but it hurt more then anything he’d ever experienced before. “Shino!” Kiba jumped off the floor and ran to the bed. Shino watched as Kiba ran to him and sat down, gently the brunette moved his hands to the Aburame’s cheeks and gently brushed the tears away. “It’s ok Shino, please don’t cry.” Shino blinked slowly as Kiba continued to wipe away the tears gently. “You know, I’ve never seen you without your glasses.” Shino nodded as he tried to get his throat to open enough for him to talk. He was petrified that someone was seeing him cry, but he was also thankful that if someone out of his immediate family witnessed him crying then he was grateful t was Kiba.

“I...” Shino realized that if he tried to speak he was going to begin sobbing, he really didn’t want that, he was embarrassed enough. Kiba smiled slightly and wrapped an arm around Shino’s shoulders. Shino couldn’t help but lean into the comforting embrace.

“You know I never, in the whole time I’ve known you, ever expected us to one day end up like this. I...I’m kinda happy though. For the first time ever, I feel that I’m finally seeing you. It’s nice.” Shino heard Kiba’s voice hitch as he spoke and knew the other boy was on the verge of tears too. Shino never wanted to hurt the Inuzuka and now that he was sitting here he realized that’s all that seemed to follow him, everywhere he went there was pain. That was why he was a loner and why people avoided him. It was an ugly thing to be surrounded by pain, it was even worse when he didn’t even realize he did such a horrible thing to people by just existing.

“I’m sorry Kiba.” Kiba looked at Shino who suddenly reached around Kiba and hugged him tightly. “I’m sorry, I never realized....” Kiba was confused as Shino mumbled into his collar bone. Hot tears seemed to scorch his neck as Shino continued to cry. Kiba felt confused and slightly frightened that Shino was breaking down so completely.

“Shino...Shino, come on hon, tell me what’s going on in that head of yours, cuz no offense but your confusing the hell outta me...” Kiba gently pried Shino from his neck and looked at him. He smiled slightly and cupped Shino’s face in both hands. “I have to tell you, your scaring the shit outta me, but at the same time I don’t think I’ve ever been happier that you finally let me see you without glasses and that shit coat you have.” Shino tried to glare slightly about the coat comment but his eyes weren’t making him look very threatening. “Hey it’s meant as a compliment , you’re actually quite breathtaking without all that crap.” Kiba’s smile died on his lips and he released Shino’s face. “You know maybe if you dropped all that stuff...maybe Kankuro would look at you differently.” Kiba glanced at Shino who suddenly looked like a deer caught in headlights.

“W-what?” Kiba smiled sadly and sighed.

“Kankuro told me why you have been so miserable lately...I had to come back and talk to you. I know it’s true I can see it now, I’m just sorry it took me so long. I feel like a complete bastard.” There was a short minute of silence. When Shino shook his head.

“Why?” Kiba looked over to Shino, his eyebrow quirked at an odd angle.

“Whadda you mean ‘why’?”

“Why do you feel like a bastard? I was the one who...I never wanted you to know because I knew you’d feel bad for me. I never wanted you ~or~ Kankuro to know...I was willing to go to the grave with this... I never wanted you to know and hate me. You are the only friend I have, I can’t lose you, I just can’t.” Kiba looked at Shino in surprise and smiled even as tears threatened once again.

“Shino, I may not be able to just hand Kankuro over, but that doesn’t mean I’m a complete asshole. I love you, I would never hate you for something you can’t control.” Kiba sighed as Shino looked away, a hand going up to his eyes. “Shino, please don’t cry again. I could never hate you, ever. You have meant more to me then anyone, sure I fell in love with Kankuro but that doesn’t mean I don’t love you. C’mon love give me a little more credit.” Kiba smiled slightly as Shino looked to him. “Don’t be upset anymore, I promise I’ll beat up Kankuro later for you too ok?” Shino shook his head slightly, his smile was sad and didn’t reach his eyes but he was trying, for Kiba’s sake.

“No it’s alright, you don’t have to. I... I just...I do feel better now though.” Kiba’s smile lit up the room as he hugged Shino tightly.

“Good cuz I was scared there for a while.” Kiba rested his forehead against Shino’s for a minute and whispered soflty. “Don’t ever let something like this eat at you again Shino, I mean it! If you have a problem then talk to me, we’ve been through too much for me to ever hate you. Especially for something like this, I mean I can’t blame you, Kankuro’s a sexy bastard.” Shino laughed softly even as a few stray tears rolled down his cheeks. Kiba wiped them away once again and leaned back. “Promise me ok?” Shino nodded as Kiba ran a clawed hand over Shino’s cheek. “You know now I’m going to want to see you without your glasses and coat anymore...” Shino smirked slightly and sat back. He looked down towards his lap where his hands rested.

“Are you hitting on me now?” Kiba laughed and lay back on Shino’s bed, hands behind his head.

“Sure, keep thinking that Shino.” Shino nodded and sighed softly. He felt a weight lift off his shoulders and felt like he could once again breathe. Kiba was still his friend and while it may hurt for a while that Kiba and Kankuro were together, it was no longer going to weigh Shino to the point of depression. Kiba had just saved him from hell and Shino didn’t think he’d ever be able to thank him enough. Suddenly Kiba sat up and chuckled and Shino looked at him. “Sorry, Kankuro is outside with Akamaru. It smells like he’s nervous...that’s not something I get from Kankuro a lot.” Shino stood up and walked over to the window. Kankuro was kneeling next to Akamaru and talking quietly with the dog. Shino was startled as Kiba leaned over him his hand on Shino’s shoulder. “Don’t tell him anything Akamaru!” Kankuro jumped from his kneeling position and looked up to Shino’s window. His face red with embarrassment. He scratched the back of his neck and looked up to the window, he kept shifting his weight from one foot to another. It was apparently the funniest thing Kiba had ever seen since he was laughing into Shino’s back. “Seriously he is such a dork, what do you see in him Shino?” Shino couldn’t help but chuckle a little at that, even if there was a sore spot that twinged slightly.

“Same thing that you do apparently.” Shino jumped as two arms wrapped around his waist. Kiba squeezed slightly.

“I think we should let him up and finally talk about this. Don’t you think so?” Shino sighed and nodded, Kiba was right, Kankuro deserved to know the truth, plus Shino was starting to feel bad about leaving Akamaru outside for so long without Kiba. Kiba let go after a minute and Shino almost protested. It had felt unbelievably nice to be held by strong arms that didn’t belong to his father for once, even if it was only in comfort. Shino had never realized Kiba had such strength just in his arms. “You want me to get the door or do you wanna see Kankuro try to climb up the side?” Shino smiled as he turned and went to sit on the bed. He reached for his glasses and put them on, not missing the slight whine of protest from Kiba.

“As fun as that might be to see, I don’t want you to have to leave Akamaru out there any longer.” Kiba smiled slightly and nodded. He went over to Shino and put his hand on his shoulder.

“I promise you that this will get better ok?” Shino looked up at his best friend and nodded slightly. Kiba smirked and turned towards the door. “Be right back my love!!” Shino bit his lip to stop the chuckle that was threatening. As Kiba left, Shino felt as if a piece of him had shattered but at the same time it felt nice to not have that cloud hanging over his head. So while he would still hurt a little, maybe after they all talked it would get better. After all, Kiba had promised and if there was one thing Kiba was good at, it was being fiercely loyal and protective of his loved ones. Shino finally felt that things might be looking up.