Countdown before a kiss mark fades

VI
Liar liar who?

The bed continued to creak, sheets, ropes, clothes pooling around the bed on the floor and the sound of whimpers and moans with the evident scent of sex lingering in that room which had been locked all day making an invincible poster marking the room ‘Prohibited area: Homos’ lair’ from the other students living in the dorm who had heard their extra curricular activities going on about, it was needless to say it was something they didn’t need to hear to realize the Uchiha was fucking his best friend.

Whoever lived on both sides of the currently making out couple’s room had got to be in the worst possible case of them all.

‘I love you… Naru…’

Liar.

Naruto felt it again that warm gush of thick liquid spurt inside him but the restraints were no more, his arms where faint rope burns surround the skin of his wrist were now lying flat on the bed supporting his head, thighs wantonly spread wide apart and knees buried deep on the cushion while on his back lay countless kiss marks much darker than the earlier ones, hand prints on both side of the hips.

Naruto let out an unconscious moan as he felt Sasuke’s cock slide out of him, his body going flat against the nearly naked cushion of the bed due to all the squirming in attempt to escape when Sasuke removed the binds earlier but failed. Resulting in him getting raped several times more.

“That’s all… for now.” Sasuke was able to breathe out in the middle of panting as he staggered to sit on the side of the bed, the two stark naked in the suddenly humid room. Each of them remained silent for a long while, mostly spent trying to regulate their breathing and mustering all the strength they had left after what both had thought to be the most strenuous exercise they had done in their lives.

Even swimming one hundred laps couldn’t compare to what the bastard did to me. Naruto thought incoherently, trying not to pass out for the second time which would rather be embarrassing, he wouldn’t let Sasuke get the better of him, didn’t he always used to brag about him having the longest stamina of the two?

Wait, that’s not the problem, he just got raped… REPEATEDLY. The bastard raped him and he couldn’t believe it was that easy for Sasuke to pin him down and tie him flat on the bed, were those muscles the blonde grew just for display?

The bed creaked once more when Sasuke finally managed to stand up without his knees buckling and Naruto couldn’t help but chuckle mildly as the bastard unconsciously braced a hand flat on the wall as he swayed with just taking two steps away from his position earlier.

Sasuke looked over his shoulder to glare at the blonde, narrowing his eyes before he smirked as the chuckle turned into a whimpered ‘ow’. The blonde was lying on his stomach flat on the bed, thighs slightly parted when they were too tired to move with cum dripping from the round posterior and the shoulder blades down to the small of his back creating a small arch straight to the sheets damp with sweat and something more beneath Naruto’s stomach down.

“What a tempting pose.” Sasuke slowly turned around, crossing his arms as he leaned his side against the wall and smirked at the icy glare Naruto was giving him.

“Bastard.” That smirk turned into a full blown grin when he noticed the blush creep up Naruto’s face.

“You weren’t as opposed to this as you would have me believed.”

“Put yourself into my shoes, see if you can still say that when you’re the one who got screwed up senseless without any consideration by someone you thought you trusted.” The tone in that voice was what made that grin dissipate and turn into its once again deadpan expression. The blonde turned to face the other side and remained silent after that, no matter how he wanted to brood about it now it wouldn’t be able to do anything.

Fact: He was raped.

Fact: By his best friend.

Fact: He hated to admit it but he came. (Couldn’t remember how many times)

And even if he wanted to kill Sasuke, his body was too spent to even move an inch, even talking was so tiresome.

“Don’t move, I’ll clean you up.”

You think I’d let you step an inch away from the bed alive if I could move!? You’d have been a fucked up eunuch if I didn’t leave my sword back at home you bastard!

C’mon move your hips…

Naruto winced, throwing his head to the side to stare blankly on the locked door as he let Sasuke clean his body with a piece of damp towel, the basin of lukewarm water on the floor, now that he had the spirit to think, could they have heard those noises outside? OH MY SHITLESS GOD!!!!

Yes, tha’s right… s’tight as expected, but you’re loos’nin’ up.

The raven looked up at Naruto’s face when he saw the blonde’s stomach tense as a gasp escaped the unmoving form, seeing the mortified look on his face a sign that reality was now beginning to sink in on the blonde.

Fuck… Naru… m’gonna…

“At least they wouldn’t have to call you an impotent virgin anymore.” Sasuke said jokingly, not expecting at all for a broken sob to leave the suddenly trembling blonde.

No more… stop… I do not want to see you like this.

I do not want to hear my name from you like this.

I do not want your hands to touch me like this.

“You’re no different from Orochimaru…”

STOP!

And immediately, Sasuke felt his vision go black.

During high school Orochimaru was one of their teachers in class, he was a chemistry subject teacher which the class believed to have taken a liking to his apprentice Sasuke, well, not really, it was just Orochimaru who called him that being the first to have exceeded the snake-like bastard’s expectations but the raven couldn’t care less he was just too wary of the said professor for him to drop his class and spend summer with supplementary lessons with the creepy teach’.

One of the reasons being Orochimaru almost always asking about a certain blonde who would always jump inside the chemistry lab from the sliding window to pick Sasuke up, you could say that Orochimaru, based on the tapping of his fingers every time he would wait for the class to be dismissed and his lucid yellowish green eyes darting every once in a while to the window, was anticipating the hyper active blonde’s arrival.

Had Naruto not felt the same disgusted shiver running down Sasuke’s spine every time he would hear Orochimaru call his name in a slithering way, he would have considered taking tutorials from him for his chemistry class taught by Kabuto.

And then Sasuke Uchiha’s worries were confirmed, when in all of the possible people the snake-bastard could have trampled with, it had to be with him. No one gets to molest his sexy blonde up to that extent and gets away with it, hell no one gets to lay a hand on his blonde that way, if he couldn’t kill him he at least had to cut something from the snake-bastard, like his hand or… his dick perhaps.

Naruto felt the lump in his throat burn his eyes and lungs with liquid fire, eyes beginning to shed tears as he struggled to loosen the grip of Sasuke’s hand on his throat. Saw how those eyes grow cold, like the one he once saw on the raven when Orochimaru was caught by Sasuke in the middle of molesting him.

“You dare spit another man’s name in that mouth of yours again, and you’ll regret ever having been born with a tongue.” Sasuke’s breath hovered above Naruto’s face, he could smell the nauseous scent of cigarette and beer mixed together, Sasuke must have drank after taking a shower earlier.

It was the first time that he had felt so cornered with Sasuke. Knowing Sasuke, Naruto knew the raven was not one to drive you into a corner just because he was pissed, it’d take you a really good amount of effort to get a rise from him being the stoic, snobbish and selfish Uchiha that he was, he’d prefer to ignore you since he knew it’d piss you off rather than trouble himself to react, but then, Naruto didn’t know that he was the only one who could get a rise of the Uchiha, long as it was because of him, or involving him there would always be a reaction from Sasuke.

“You say we’re the same, so you would rather have me injecting you sedatives and aphro’s then? Just like that time? Or record your video, put something inside like a vibe perhaps? You’d really make an interesting subject to watch…”

Sasuke’s hand moved upwards to cup at the blonde’s jaw, Naruto taking a huge intake of breath to regain composure as his eyes refused to look away from Sasuke’s piercing gaze. “Did Orochimaru defend you from that Sai prick? Did he come and comfort you when your parents died? Welcomed and support you when you had nowhere to go to?”

“That’s right… maybe you’re not the same…” The blonde managed to sob out with his eyes squinted cynically as he smiled. “He didn’t do those things… so it makes you worse. At least… with him I wouldn’t have to feel betrayed.”

Sasuke fought the urge to twist the blonde’s neck as he roughly let go of the blonde’s jaw, quickly standing up as he slipped in military speed in cargo pants and a black tee. “You’ll stay here.” The raven said, narrowing his eyes dangerously to emphasize that warning which the blonde refused to look at and to listen to, facing the other side and trying to sleep despite his back side and his limbs hurting all over.

Grabbing two sets of keys, and a phone, he slammed the door close.

When Naruto heard the clinking of the keys and the sound of the door latch being locked which he was sure from the outside he quickly whipped his head to look at the door with panicking eyes.

The bastard locked him in!?

“Sasuke-ow… shit, I can’t shout… I can’t walk… the fuck just kill me already.” From the idea of lunging and banging at the door the blonde had resolved to lie on the bed all through out the day, trying to recover his strength, his phone was gone, his keys were gone, crap… his virginity’s gone! And it’s not something he could cheerily get proud of and brag about his friends!

+++

In front of the full body mirror in the dorm’s bathroom there stood a blonde, fussing over his shoulder length celebrity cut hair, making sure to cover his neck, fussing over the ends of the black sweat’s sleeves and its turtle neck, fussing over his jeans…

Eye color, not sore: check

Hickeys, covered: check

Rear, healed: … not so check, but can do. (He couldn’t miss another set of classes… poor him.)

And so, locking the room’s door behind him he put on his canvass bag, ignoring the cat calls, the whistles, but couldn’t help giving them a few dirty looks to start off the day.

It had been circulating for nearly a week now, how their moans echoed through the thin walls and nearly got half of the dorm evacuating because of it. Suddenly the people who knew the blonde had a new enlightenment of him.

No he’s not impotent, he’s gay!

Hurrah! And look Sasuke finally screwed him! I knew there was a reason for him hitting on Naruto’s left overs…

Actually, Naruto didn’t know if he’d be happy even if they went back to thinking he was impotent, so which of the two lesser evils?

For a time since that ‘incident’ had happened, Sasuke had abnormally kept a distance between them in the university even when the two of them was following the same major, Sasuke even went and slept over one of his girlfriends’ rooms for a couple of days now but still he would go back to their room and change, Karin, was it?

Just change rooms already for all I cared!

Those were the girls Sasuke just keep on the side, probably for convenience. The jerk had no morality whatsoever and what’s worse was that the more Sasuke was acting like a piece of overbearing shit to Naruto, the more Naruto was, as much as he hated to admit it, getting bothered about it.

The hell, why should I feel guilty, he’s the one who screwed me all over! Naruto thought as he continued to walk across the hallway towards the room where the lecture was to start, trying not to glare at the couple halfway making out with Sasuke pinning Karin on one of the lockers.

Ignore them. Ignore them. Ignore them.

“Bastard…” Still Naruto couldn’t help but let out a low hiss as he passed them by, audible enough for the couple to hear and Karin smirked as Sasuke finally pulled away from the lip lock, black eyes following the retreating figure of the blonde.

He treats me no better than those girls he snatched away from me. ‘I love you’ my ass.

+++

“It’s gone already… almost.” Naruto sighed heavily as he strained once again to twist his head to look at his back on the full body mirror he brought from the bathroom, only in his underwear mostly what used to be dark reddish spots and bite marks were now mere spots, from turning a sick melancholy purple, it faded into a yellowish hue.

Spots on his back, his hips, the insides of his thighs, his shoulders and chest, it was obvious that the person who had done that to him had left it there deliberately to be seen, not even sparing his arm or wrist.

His duffel bag was already ready to be dispatched by the door, his bed was stripped of pillows and sheets, the picture frames on the cabinet were put neatly on a cargo box, along with his books, his p.c., although he couldn’t make himself to bring along an old captured picture of him and Sasuke in their middle school.

A stoic (aroused but suppressing) half naked Sasuke wearing only his summer shorts being glomped from behind by a wet, grinning and only trunk wearing Naruto with a single gold medal where the ribbon was surrounding the both of their necks while waving the peace sign.

He stared hard at it for a while before resolving to put it face down on his desk.

Those were just memories, a useless piece of intangible line that used to connect the two of them.

It’s useless now.

The second year of his college was going to start soon, after the eventful winter break Naruto decided then that it would be best if he asked for a room change on one of the singles but in the same dorm. Even though he refused to admit it to himself, he was really amazed at his own idioticness, was he a masochist? Staying with Sasuke was like staying with a human torture machine, just seeing him would make you want to disappear in the face of the planet.

He was the one who got betrayed, he was the one who got violated, fuck, he thought he could endure it, he thought he could live with the bastard’s liking for inflicting pain on others, but Sasuke actually wanted to sleep with Neji, he just saw him making out with Karin earlier on that same day and he just had to be an idiot and walk in on them in the midst of their making out and still when he caught sight of them, when Sasuke showed that kind of expression, as if he was the one who was at fault…

Why did he feel so guilty about something that he couldn’t remember how he got outside of the dorm in a six degree Celsius below temperature…?

After that he begged Chouji, one of his friends to let him sleep on his room for a few days, the bite marks disappeared, the kiss marks faded…

That time when he saw them on Sasuke’s bed, he couldn’t describe what he had felt, just that he thought he found it hard to breath, and the inner of his nose felt painful like he was going to a have a sinuous or something, still he was able to breath on what he was sure to be the last word that Sasuke would hear from him.

“Bastard.”

That time, if Chouji didn’t wipe his eyes and told him about it, then he wouldn’t have realized that he was crying.

The memories would be forgotten.

The pictures would be destroyed.

The words would be meaningless.

Could it be possible that what Naruto had been waiting for all this time, was for the countdown for their connection to each other end?

Soon the kiss marks would fade.

What would happen after that then?

Just like nothing happened they would be two individual strangers living in the same time, the same place, talking to the same people but to each other, refusing to recognize the existence of the other.

The blonde had never thought that he would fall in love with his best friend, looking back he never thought that he could endure hiding his feelings away ever since childhood, a simple admiration that turned into something more.

Every time.

Every time.

He would feel flattered, he would feel happy when Sasuke would pay attention to him more than them. When he would get jealous and possessive even if the reason was just purely because of his monopolistic character.

He would unconsciously hate those women that would fawn over him just so they can get Sasuke’s attention.

It was a repetitive case, where a girl instead of confessing to Sasuke, they would go to him, just so the raven would notice them. So as if rebelling he would date them, ignore them after and then anticipate when Sasuke would come to them with an offer of comfort and rejoice at seeing the women’s hurt face after Sasuke would dump them afterwards with a time span of one or two days.

It wasn’t just because he had wanted to be independent that he wanted to go solo in high school, he was so in love with him that he felt so afraid what could happen if they didn’t part from each other, the happiness was so real, that he was afraid, when the time comes that they should part.

Grow up.

Join the work force.

Get married.

Have kids.

Die.

Those are realities which cannot be altered, even knowing that he still couldn’t believe that he, like an idiot, had returned to Sasuke yet again. He had wanted him to need him. He had wanted for Sasuke to depend on him. Even if he knew the raven’s love for him was far more different than what he wanted it to be.

Sasuke might need him, but that’s all there is to it.

If maybe the two of them didn’t grow together and had just recently met, would Sasuke still give that same trust to him? Would the two of them still be friends? He was sure, that had Sasuke not lost his family, not met him under those circumstances… he would act as if the blonde didn’t exist.

Somehow no matter how cruel it could sound, Sasuke’s tragedy in that cold winter accident had given Naruto another chance to return to him.

And then, something happened. It was the fact that even being raped, he felt happy somehow that Sasuke felt desire for him, even if the reason behind it was because Naruto was there, it could have been anyone… and didn’t he ask for it? Didn’t he always bug Sasuke about experimenting as a poor excuse just to be held by him? Just so he could confirm if he could hope that Sasuke would like him that way, he had said that ridiculous phrase and yet he got scared about what might happen if ever Sasuke agreed out of just his whim.

I really am the worst.

Even though those words of ‘I love you’ were just said in the spur of the moment without any meaning he felt happy. He was ready to receive Sasuke’s hatred the moment the raven left him locked up in there.

Now all he had left was…

“Nothi-”

“Naruto!”

The blonde almost knocked the full size mirror down as he stepped back with shock when Sasuke suddenly burst in panting inside the room, hands quickly zipping his pants up as he finished putting the last of his clothes on.

And with a deer-caught-in-the-headlights look, he stuttered the man’s name.

“Sasuke, what-I thought you’re off visiting cum-cum guy-”

“You’re leaving?” The raven’s hair was adorned with white collected snow, his coat clad shoulder in the same state.

“I thought it’d be best for the both of us.”

“What-You can’t leave! You’re not going to leave…” The back of Naruto’s knees hit the edge of his bed as he stepped back, wincing at the loud sound of the slamming door as Sasuke practically threw it close.

“Sasuke, how long have we known each other?”

“Stop asking stupid ques-”

“Answer me!” The raven was taken aback, with the pleading look as if the blonde’s life rested on that one answer.

“Ever since I can remember… since birth, I guess.”

“That’s right, we’ve been together even before we knew how to call each other’s names. When you did that… was it just because I was there-”

“No! I told you didn’t I!? I love you!”

“Then why did you keep on hurting me even after that! Acting like we’re together and saying that kind of thing, acting like you give a shit about me then feign ignorance it would’ve been better if you just killed me! You fuck women till they feel like dying and still you say those things to me!? Even Neji, fuck… you knew I loved you didn’t you? You were aware, since middle school but still you kept on playing with my feelings…”

“What-” Naruto’s back found company against the wall as he unconsciously slid farther from the confused raven walking towards him.

“I was always the one to chase you, I was always the one to follow your decisions, sacrifice my own just so that I can follow you but still you’re the one who’s always trying to keep me away! Why are you… acting like nothing’s happened and still keep on…”

I was guilty. I felt disgusted with myself. For doing that to you still, I hated myself even more because I couldn’t regret what I had done, what I was doing to you I jump from one person’s bed to the other but I couldn’t stand the knowledge of you being with another person other than me.

“What did you say? Naruto, say it again… Naruto-” The blonde swatted the raven’s hand as Sasuke knelt down in front of him, attempting to hold the blonde’s head up to face him.

“Don’t touch me! Even now, I still think that I cannot leave you but you’re making it hard for me not to leave Sasuke, you need me, because you have no one else. When the time comes that you should find someone… I’m afraid I would break apart. Of all the people I could fall in love with… why did it have to be in such a bastard like you-”

And then his lips were covered with the raven’s own, head held firmly by both the Uchiha’s hands so that he couldn’t look away. It was such an energy draining experience, he could feel his body go limp, to just kiss, no tongue, no fondling, just pure, passionate, chaste kissing.

The reason wasn’t curiosity.

The reason wasn’t lust.

The reason wasn’t boredom.

It was just purely…

“… love you Naruto. For years… I’ve always loved you. It’s not because we were childhood friends, it’s not because you were just there. If you knew what kind of dreams I had of you you’d think me a dirty old pervert worse than Kakashi…” Sasuke’s hands were clasped together at the back of Naruto’s neck, shoulders slumped, his head hung low as he leaned on the flustered blonde’s chest, legs sprawled on the floor opposite each other while Naruto’s face looked as if he’d just been told he won a hundred billion yen.

“Liar… you were always with women…”

“Because I couldn’t have you, I looked for substitutes… you may say I’m a jerk but that was all I could do to stop them from taking you away from me.”

“About Neji-”

“I wanted to make sure you were in love with me. It’s true that there was some part of me that thought you liked me that way, but I wanted proof… I wanted you to realize that you like me too. That prick was the one who gave you those hickeys right? I was just so angered that I just… He said he was serious I was afraid that you’d go to him ‘coz you hate me…”

“I realized that a long time ago, about you and your excuse just to make me angry, you’re such a baka.”

“Then you’re the liar.” Naruto’s chin rested at the top of Sasuke’s head, tanned hands already making its way to wrap around slumped shoulders.

“Had we not lied…”

“Don’t leave… we can still start all over again. This time, let’s just fall for each other. I’d die if I lose you. You’re too important to me.”

“Same here.”