Choices & Cosequences

Notes, Sorry for the delay and the unedited chapter and the double posting I was posting on the run but it had to come out or I would have exploded like a chidori, also thank you The Simi you seem to be the only fan brave enough to review on a continuous basis everyone else come on like it or not let me know.



Disclaimer the same as is the warnings

Chapter Six



Unlocking the door and letting Sasuke walk in ahead of me I watched as he headed for the kitchen, it was twelve thirty a.m. and it was on schedule, Sauske usually came out of the bedroom looking to fill a weird craving around this time, I guess the days and nights events didn't effect his need to eat. Taking off my jacket I hung it up in the closet as he came out the kitchen, I threw myself down on the couch and got poked in my thigh by something hard.

"What the hell! There is something in the cushions."

"Huh, want some mint chocolate chip ice cream, I promise not to put anything too weird on it."

"No thanks, serious there's something inside the couch I'm surprised you haven't sat on it."

"Probably a popped spring, come into the kitchen with me."

"Um you’re probably right; I'll take care of it."

"Later."

"Wait why are you so intent on me getting away from the couch?'

"I'm not I just want company."

"Right, so if I did this?"

Sticking my hand between the cushions I gripped the hard thing and pulled and my eyes widened. Popped spring my foot, lifting up the three cushions I found the five pregnancy books that I had noticed was missing from the piles I had in my room, so this was were they ended up.

"Decided to take up new reading?"

"Fine, I've been reading them, I wanted to be as informed and educated about my pregnancy, I just didn't want you hovering and spouting off facts and statistics to me at three a.m."

Shaking my head and laughing, I took the books to the table and put them down. Turning to him I offered to get the other books that I had brought and let him read them. Going to my room I gathered up a pile of about five more and took them out to him, he had put the cushions back and was sitting down with the bowl of ice cream resting on his stomach, feet up and book opened and at his face.

"It's after midnight you know in fact it's twenty minutes to one, you should go to bed and get some sleep"

"I'm not tired."

Placing the books on top of the others, he peered over the pages and smiled. Going to the other side of the couch I sat down, watching as he swirled the spoon in the bowl while he read. Three hours later, and one bowl of green soup later, he closed the book, put the bowl on the table and reached for the next one.

"I want to compare what this one and this one say see how close they are."

"It's almost five in the morning, you haven't slept, I noticed recently that you tend to take naps and don't really sleep regularly, that isn't healthy."

"I can't"

"Can't what?"

"I'm as healthy as I need to be."

"That's not what you were going to say."

"It doesn't matter."

"If it didn't matter then you would be looking at me."

Moving to close the gap between us, I pulled the book out of his hands and reached for him. Turning his face back towards me, I wanted him to look me in the eyes and tell me it didn't matter. To tell me what put that haunted look in his eyes.

"Narrator, let me go."

"Talk to me, let me in."

"I told you I'm healthy, Tsunade said I'm doing fine right on target. The babies are fine."

"That's good but what about you, the lack of a full eight hours has to be messing with your brain, and I prefer the genius I know and not some brain fried potato."

"I already told you it's nothing."

"Then why do you have shadows in your eyes?"

Pulling my chin out and away from Naruto's hold I put my feet on the floor and pushed myself up. It was time for me to go to my room, to get away from this conversation.

"Does that make it better?"

"What?"

"Running away, does it make it all better?"

Stopping I dropped my eyes to the floor bit my lip and turned back towards him ready to let this one thing out, maybe telling him why I slept in short naps would shut him up finally and make him leave me alone.

"I don't I couldn't... Sleeping makes me vulnerable. I forced myself to sleep in increments, I woke up enough times with someone over me, on top of or forcing themselves on me, that I trained my body and mind to function on a hour or less of sleep that way I at least had a fighting chance. I'm going to my room."

Leaving the den, I went to my room and headed to the bed, I may not be sleeping but I wanted the comfort of something soft, something warm over me. Laying down I pulled the comforter over me letting the warmth from it sooth me. A few minutes later he knocked on the door jam I had noticed the door was leaning against the wall, seems that he had kicked the door off the hinges earlier. I was tempted to tune him out but with no door to close, I couldn't ignore him.

"I won't bother you if you want to be alone."

"It's fine come in and your so fixing the door later on."

"You were pregnant and that bastard still?"

"That bastard did a lot of things, but then again some of it I deserved."

"What? Are you insane?"

"You don't know, you weren't there!"

Sitting up I leaned against the headboard, thinking, hating that I had so much blood on my hands, innocent blood and I often wondered what gave me the right to carrying these lives inside me what made it okay for me to think I could have a family, when I had killed and deprived innocent people of there's taken away there children, wives on so on.

"No I wasn't but I wanted to be, I wanted you back home safe."

"Why?'

"Because."

"Because you fucked me!"

"That was crude."

"It's true."

"That it is but I wasn't always fucking you we were friends, best friends I always cared about you."

"You shouldn't."

"Why, because you willing went to him, that you tried to kill me to gain the Myengaku Sharigan, why shouldn't I care?"

"He used me, and when I fought back and disobeyed his commands he turned me into the village whore! After that I couldn't take it anymore and I broke, I did what he wanted, and it was horrible!"

By then I had tears flowing down my face like the dam had finally broke, there was just so much pain and hate inside and kami did it scare me to think that my children were being nurtured in that.

"I'm calling ba-chan"

"What? Why are you calling Tsunade?"

Wiping my face and cheeks with the corner of the comforter, I sniffed and hell with wiped my running nose to.

"Your extremely upset it can't be good for you."

"Actually it was, it doesn't hurt so much I don't feel as dirty by everything I did."

"You were never dirty, anyone would have done what you did in your position."

"Would you?"

"Sasuke, you should rest after that... that"

"Nervous breakdown, you mean would you have done it, obeyed."

"Hell yes! Kami you were alone, pregnant and he raped you and let others rape you to torture you, to break you. I would have done whatever to get it to stop."

"Thank you, I think your right I need to rest will you stay with me at least till I fall asleep?"

"Close your eyes"

Watching him slide down into the mattress, I hoped that the emotional outburst had exhausted him enough to get him to sleep more then an hour he needed a good twelve to fourteen hours, along with those shadows were the dark circles of lost sleep under his eyes. Watching him and listening I heard his breathing even out in sleep. I sat there as the sun rose watching him sleep. An hour later his eyes popped open looking around like he had to remind himself visually where he was at and that he was safe. Not wanting to scare him after what he told me before about waking up with people over him or raping him. I stayed in the chair till his eyes hit me and he smiled slightly at seeing me a second later he snuggled into the pillow under his head and fell back asleep like seeing me was enough to convince him he could let go. An hour later it happened again and again he fell back to sleep. After that I must gave fallen asleep myself cause his hand on my shoulder shaking me woke me.

"Um, what?"

"Go to bed Naruto, I'm fine, thank you for being here."

"What time is it?"

"10:00 a.m.. go to bed."

"What about you?'

"I already showered, I'll do some more reading on the couch."

Watching him leave I got up and stretched out the kinks from sitting and sleeping in the chair. Going to shower myself I finished and went to bed as he mentioned, feeling more tired then if I had stayed awake for days. How did he get by on so little sleep, if I felt low energy. I would make a point of talking to Tsunade about this, even though he was healthy now what about later when it would all catch up to him. I got into my bed and before my head even hit the pillow I was asleep and slightly snoring. The smell of cooking food woke me or more aptly woke my stomach. Getting up I headed toward the smell rubbing sleep out of my eyes.

"Good your awake, I thought you would sleep through dinner to."

"It's that late?'

"I'm sorry I kept you awake, as a ninja you need rest when you can get it."

"Don't I'm fine what are you making"

"Rice with chicken dressed with ginger sauce, I was in the mood for ginger and chicken so I thought I'd kill two birds with one stone. "

"Sounds good, when do we eat?"

"Ten minutes, go wash up."

Serving the food I poured out a tall glass of milk for myself as choice in beverage.

"Pour me some to, this looks good."

Eating in silence for a few minutes a loud moan stopped the chop sticks on the way to my mouth.

"This is really good, there is just a touch of ginger and you steamed the vegetables, there so good. I'm not into veggies but these are good."

Nodding at the praise I kept my face down to my plate. Reaching for the glass, I sipped the milk, it was the perfect beverage for the chicken.

"Um you have, wipe you mouth you have a milkstach."

Wiping my lip I smiled and finished eating. Taking the empty plates I was ready to wash them when I could feel body heat behind me

"You cooked, I'll clean, go put your feet up and read."

Not needing to be told twice I escaped kitchen duty and headed to the couch and books.