Hottan (The Beginning)

OK so we thought it had another 2 chapters... we were wrong. This is the end of this story.

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Zu willingly complied. The long neglected erection kissed the tormented hole for a moment before Zu whispered. "Like before baby, breath in and out while bearing down..." Kyu seized his mouth, silencing his sweet concern. Izumo pressed in, slowly entering his lover, savoring the moment as they joined together just as they had both longed to be. Tears glistened on dark blond lashes as their lips parted and their bodies continued to fuse together.

Zu couldn't have stopped if he tried, he sank deeper and deeper into the tight hot silky heaven of Kyuubi's body. "Hurt?" he whispered fearfully.

Kyu shook his head as his beautiful blue eyes filled with tears. It did hurt a bit physically, but his heart felt whole for the first time in his life. It felt so full it might burst. He hadn't thought about it, simply said what he was feeling. "I love you."

Izumo froze as his heart stopped. His response was automatic, even though he'd never said the words to a single lover before this. "Love you Kyu." Their lovemaking took on a life of it's own from that point.

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Things went smoothly for them after that. The band was getting more recognition. Kyu was amazing on stage and the others rose to his challenge. Naruto forgot about his fight with Kiba, he didn't think about Iruka. He was living with Zu. They were so wrapped up in each other that they didn't really even notice when Ko quietly moved in with Anko. The world seemed to revolve around the pair of lovers and the future was full of endless possibilities.

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"Baka." Anko plopped down next to Ko on his futon. He hadn't unpacked. He was totally listless except when he was playing guitar. He threw everything he had into his playing and tried not to think too much about the rest. The buxom brunette wrapped her arms around her stupid friend and hugged him tightly. "Why are you so dumb? If you'd caught a clue sooner..."

He shrugged her off. "Don't know what you're talking about..."

"You love him stupid." She sighed in irritation. "You always have. Don't try to pretend you haven't figured it out."

"Too little too late," he whispered as he shut the bathroom door blocking her and everything else out.

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"You bought a car?" Anko was totally shocked.

"Yeah." Izumo grinned.

"See!" Kyu was actually bouncing he was so excited. "We did it for the band! Now we can travel more... you know, get out there and do gig's further away! It's gonna be great!"

The big grin was infectious and Anko couldn't help but pet the little puppies head as she smiled at him. "Sounds good then."

Ko just smiled and nodded at them. Kyu turned to Zu. "Told you so!"

Zu wrapped his long arms around this grinning lover and held him tight. "Like I argued gorgeous."

"Hehehe. Okay, well we gotta go now. We'll see you guys next week!"

"Next week?" Anko asked surprised.

"Um, yeah we have to um... try the car out and... ya know make sure it will be okay on long trips and stuff."

Izumo smiled indulgently down at his lover. "We're gonna go on a short road trip..."

"Oh, so that's the REAL reason you bought it..." Anko rolled her eyes. Ko was fiddling with his gear.

"Nuh uh!" Kyu stuck his tongue out at her petulantly. She leaned forward and snapped her teeth at him. He instinctively jumped back to get away from the crazy broad, jostling Izumo. The two lovebirds almost fell flat on their perfect little backsides. The witch cackled uncontrollably as they glared at her as a unit.

"Okay, well have fun... be safe and all that..."

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"Mmmm Kyu..." Izumo groaned and gripped the steering wheel a little tighter. The sexy blond was nibbling on his neck and caressing his erection through his jeans. "Can't wait 'til we stop baby?"

Kyuubi answered by squeezing his lover gently and flicking his tongue along the pale column of Zu's neck.

"Naughty," Zu murmured as he split his attention between the road and the minx trying to torture him.

As usual, they were in a world of their own. Neither of them saw the other car until it was too late. All Izumo could do was swerve out of the way. There was no where to go... Just before the car slammed into the embankment, their last conscious thoughts were of the other.

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“Thank you,” Jiraiya whispered softly squeezing her hand.

Tsunade smiled sadly. She was exhausted. She’d spent a great deal of time on each patient once they had stabilized. In the past week she’d had to open the older one up twice to repair pinhole tears in several areas. The younger one, Naruto, just wouldn’t wake up. The older man, Izumo; had been nearly crushed by the steering column when the car had flipped and impacted the embankment.

He had to keep heavily sedated most of the time, due to the severe pain he was in; emotional as well as physical. He had suffered a great deal of internal damage. Somehow he had managed to turn while the car was airborne and shield the younger man with his own body as much as possible. Naruto had sustained minimal injury except for the head trauma and three deep gouges slashing each cheek from where the windshield and side windows had exploded on impact. When Izumo was awake, all he did was sob uncontrollably. He’d actually ripped his stitches once.

Tsunade was bone tired from watching over the two of them. ‘Then there’s the others.’ She glanced in Iruka’s direction. The man’s facial expression was devoid of hope and full of self recrimination.

“Go easy on him bear. He did his best,” she whispered to her oldest friend.

“I know Tsu, but it wasn’t good enough was it?” Jiraiya was always blunt bordering on cruel.

Tsunade slugged him in the face. She could be blunt too. “I mean it. You make him cry anymore and I’ll kill you.”

The white haired man rubbed his jaw thoughtfully. “I’m taking Naruto back with me when I go. Iruka will cry a lot more when I do. Can’t be helped, he can’t control the kid and I sure as hell am not repeating this trip.”

Tsunade turned away from him. Tears threatened to spill down her face. ‘I’m just tired.’ “I’m going to my office, call me if anything changes.”

“Sleep well Susie-Q,” Jiraiya whispered too soft for her to hear Dan’s old nickname for her. ‘Damn I miss you. Why is it Danny Boy, I always miss you when shit goes wrong?'

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She’d just taken her white coat off when a very soft knock startled her. ‘I really am tired.’

“Enter,” she called out, not willing to expend the energy necessary to answer the door. It opened and a thin dark haired man slipped inside. She was standing in front of the cot she kept in the corner. ‘It’s that boy the nurses keep chasing out of Izumo-kun’s room.’

Kotetsu hit the floor and prostrated himself before the closest thing to Kami he would probably ever meet. He’d lost weight since she’d first seen him. His hair was hidden under a tightly tied blue bandanna, he’d been unwilling to spend even a moment on it.

The nurses had forced him to rest in one of the empty rooms once or twice until they’d found him mere minutes later back at Izumo’s side. Now they only chased him away when they needed to tend to the other man’s needs. Kotetsu didn’t raise his head as he cried his thankfulness to the doctor who had saved Izumo’s life. He sobbed and swore his soul to her to do with as she pleased.

Tsunade was moved by this sweet, sad, lost little boy. Much as she’d been moved by Iruka’s quiet desperation. Just as Naruto was the world to Iruka, Izumo was the world to Kotetsu. Tsunade understood their positions only too well.

“Off the floor brat,“ her voice was raspy with unshed tears. Kotetsu looked up at her. ‘His face has aged.’ Some of it was lack of sleep, but as a doctor she could tell that the boy would be altered physically as well emotionally from this experience.

“I did my job. It’s what I do. All I can ask is that you take good care of him from now on.” The boy didn’t get it. He just stared up at her without speaking. “I’m giving him over to your care now. If he pulls through now, it won’t be from anything I do. Got it?”

Kotetsu still looked puzzled, but nodded. He’d figure it out. She had faith in his incredibly strong feelings for Izumo, if anyone could pull that little wreck through it’d have to be this guy. “I need sleep. Get out.”

He was gone before she reached for the blanket.

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“I heard her,” Ko whispered softly as he stroked Izumo’s soft brown hair. “She said you were mine now.” He leaned in and kissed his best friend’s bandaged forehead gently. ‘I’ll share you with the chibi if I have to, but there is no way I’ll ever let anyone or anything take you away from me. Not now that I’ve finally ‘caught a clue’ as Anko is always saying.’

He laid his head down on the side of the bed, one hand stroking Zu’s hair and the other carefully holding his bandaged left hand as if it were the most precious piece of porcelain in the world.

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Iruka was standing outside Naruto’s door when the nurses shooed Ko out into the hall again. He frowned at them. He knew they were just trying to take care of Zu, but he really couldn’t understand why he had to leave. The two men’s eyes met briefly across the empty hallway. Ko looked away first. ‘He must blame us.’ They hadn’t known Kyuubi’s real age. ‘No, that’s not his real name. It’s Naruto. He lied to us. Zu never would have…. Not with a kid.' He glanced back at Izumo’s room. ‘How the hell am I supposed to tell him?’ No one had told the other injured man anything more than his lover was unconscious, but otherwise okay. That’s all they had managed up to this point. Izumo had completely freaked out and now he was borderline hysterical whenever the drugs wore off enough for him to be remotely coherent.

When Ko looked back to where Iruka was standing the older man was gone, back to his place at Naruto’s side. ‘He never let’s go of the kid’s hand. Is he blaming himself the way I do?’ Kotetsu swallowed hard in shame and grief. A nurse stepped out and waved for him to come back into the room.

Their eyes met several more times during the recovery period. Kyuubi/Naruto did finally wake up. The whole hospital knew he was awake as he screamed for Izumo. They wouldn’t let him see his ‘friend’. The staff insisted that they both needed to stay where they were. Iruka tried to calm him, it didn’t work. The man’s large white haired godfather tried to intervene. He caught a bedpan to the face for his trouble. The doctor who had saved both their lives even threatened to move them to separate hospitals. She garnered a sling of very inventive curses.

Zu was resting in his room down the hall in a drug induced slumber. Ko listened for a bit before a tumult of emotions boiled up. He stood and walked purposefully into the uproar. “Hey! Baka!”

The blond looked at him in complete shock. “Listen you obnoxious little shit.” Kotetsu took a step closer to the bed with every word. He gathered the front of Naruto’s gown in one hand and lifted the blond just a little. “He’s sleeping. He freaks out and cries until he pukes whenever he’s awake. He cries because he’s just sure he’s killed you. You are not going to wake him up to this shit. Now shut up and be a good little boy before I throw you out the Kami-be-damned window!”

Naruto’s blue eyes began to cloud with tears. Ko let go of him and turned to leave. As he stepped out the door he spoke softly. “Remember, you are NOT the only one who loves him.”

All the fight left Iruka and he slumped to his knees on the floor. His head fell to the bed and he began to sob softly. “Please remember, I love you.”

It was the most heartbreaking sound anyone in the room had ever heard. Naruto sat there while silent tears slipped down his face he thought to himself; ‘What have I done? It’s all my fault.’

“I always hoped you wouldn’t end up a horses ass like your dad. Guess it’s hereditary.” Jiraiya pulled a chair up to the bed, picked Iruka up unceremoniously, and plopped him down in the seat. Naruto managed to glare weakly at his godfather. “You need to say your good byes brat. As soon as Tsunade here says you can travel we, you and I, are leaving.”

“Leaving?” The blond managed to question.

“You have always been mine legally. I gave Iruka certain rights he needed to raise you, but it was all temporary. I’m taking it back and you with it. Hope you like the states. Well, that’s a lie. I kind of hope you hate it... would do you some good.” He glanced down at Iruka’s sagged head. “You’ve been coddled long enough.”

The large man turned to the doctor. “Okay Tsunade. I know you don’t like it, but the guards will be outside the door from now on. He goes no where without me knowing it.” He raised his eyebrow in anticipation of the argument.

“Teme!” Was her only retort.

“You can stay here for now if you want Iruka, but nothing changes. He’s mine now, not yours. You did your best.” He gave Naruto a hard look. “He didn’t appreciate what you did for him, can’t be helped.” The big man left them like that and the doctor followed shortly after.

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"I won't leave without saying goodbye." The blond sat steadfast on the hospital bed. He'd dressed and packed. He had tried to find a way out of this, but his uncle and the two bodyguards the man had hired had made it pretty clear, Naruto was leaving one way or the other.

"Ha! You have a lot of gall. You lied to him about who you were and how old you were. If I choose to I can have him prosecuted. You really think you have the right to impose upon him anymore?!" The big man shook his head. "My boy, you really are an ass." With that the boy was hoisted bodily and hauled kicking and screaming from the building.

Izumo was still heavily drugged and did not witness his lover's departure from the hospital and subsequent departure from the country.

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"Nooooo! Nooooo! Nooooo! I won't let you go! I won't let you go!" Ko repeated the chant as he held Zu's limp body in his arms rocking his beloved while trying to stop the bleeding. He'd moved them both into a new apartment near Anko. The psychiatrist at the hospital had warned him that Izumo should not be left alone for very long. The beautiful man was still very fragile. Anko stayed with her friend while Ko worked.

'I did everything right. I did everything right....' Ko kissed the pale forehead. 'I didn't leave him alone.' He had let Zu use the bathroom alone. He'd removed all the dangerous objects on the doctor's list and kept his love's pain pills locked away. He'd never imagined that Zu would break the window and... 'Your beautiful wrists... how could you...'

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Iruka bit his lip and waited. Kotetsu stepped out of the hospital room. His young face in a word held 'death'. Iruka moved without thinking and wrapped his arms around the poor man. "How can I help you? What can I do?"

Ko just broke down with no thought to who was comforting him. He cried and cried. "I'm not enough, I'm not enough..." He cried and held onto the older man. 'I'm not enough to hold him here...' It was a horrifying and excruciating thought.

Iruka met with Ko once a week, regardless of anything else either had going on. The two of them talked about Izumo and Naruto. They talked about the weather. They held each other together through Izumo's long recovery and Naruto's absence.

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Naruto was doing well enough in the states from what Jiraiya told Iruka. Iruka was not allowed to contact Naruto directly. Jiraiya was punishing the boy. Iruka didn't understand the reasoning, but apparently Naruto's godfather felt that everything had come a bit too easily to the boy and was going to make sure Naruto learned to appreciate the things he had. "That includes you Iruka. The brat needs to realize how much you mean to him. Absence makes the heart grow fonder. You'll thank me later." Iruka really couldn't see how that was ever going to happen. He had to admit it, he hated the white haired man more than any other person in the world.

Iruka had long ago reassured Ko that he held no harsh feelings toward Ko, Anko, or Izumo. He understood that the responsibility truly rested on the impetuous young man he'd raised. In fact he felt responsible for the damage that had been done to them and wanted to do what he could to help them through this.

It had been six months since Zu had tried to commit suicide. He was not ready to accept the nature and depth of Ko's feelings for him, but they had both taken a step in the right direction the night Ko confessed his deep and abiding love. They had a long road ahead of them.

Kiba had finally forgiven Naruto's band mates, at Iruka's urging. He was beginning to form a bond with the crazy female drummer and the two guitarists. He'd been very angry with Izumo until Iruka had forced him to see the man. No one could see how devastated the man was and hold the slightest grudge against him.

He loved Naruto, even if he only knew him as Kyuubi. He felt completely responsible for everything that had happened. The doctors had told Kotetsu that for Izumo to heal, he would have to learn to forgive himself for what had happened. Everyone knew that was going to take a very long time.

"I miss you Naru. Wish you were here... hell wish I could write your sorry ass to chew you out for all the hell you've created. I know you didn't want to leave... but you did... so you better be prepared for the beating of a lifetime when you get back from where ever the hell you are," Kiba muttered as he walked away from Ko and Zu's place with his hand on Iruka's shoulder.

There would be no sight or real word of Naruto for two and half years. Just hints from the man who stole him.

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Naruto sat in the airport, waiting for the airplane that would take him Kami only knew where, writing out lyrics to a song that had been going through his brain. His love and fascination with music, much to his Uncle's disgust, had not ebbed at all.

Naruto seriously doubted his love for music would ever go away it was in his blood after all. While it had been the best time of his life, he doubted that he would ever allow Kyuubi to come out again. Kyuubi was too much fun and much too dangerous. His lover... 'No EX-lover' he mentally corrected himself had been seriously injured. 'And all because I was horny and didn't want to wait. I am the world's biggest jackass.'

'I hope you can be truly happy now Zu and you better be treating him like fucking royalty, Ko or else I'll kick your ass when I get back!' he thought as he gathered and packed his music back into his travel bag.

He knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that he would be in for hell when he got back to Japan... and he WOULD go back. His Uncle may have him in a choke hold until he was 21 but that was only a few years away. So he would endure the few years of hell as his punishment and then endure anything else that was required of him once he made it back home.

He sighed as he sat down and looked out the window of the plane with, his bastard of an Uncle sitting next to him hitting on the stewardess. Yes the next few years would be hell... but while he was away he would earn enough money to live on his own when he returned... and then he would begin again. Hopefully with a few of his old friendships intact.

'Don't worry guys... I'll come back a new and better man. I promise,' he thought across the ocean as the airplane took him into his unknown future.


~Fin~


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