Don't You Feel It Too?
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Part 7
Don’t You Feel It Too
Part7
Pairings: Kiba/Kankuro, one sided Kankuro/Shino, Kiba/Shino friendship
Rating: PG-13
Warning: holy crap it’s become angst central again...
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Shino bit his cuticle nervously as he waited for both Kiba and Kankuro to come up to his room. It was slightly annoying that he suddenly picked up such a disgusting nervous habit. He had never been one to have ‘nervous habits’, hell, he’d never really been nervous before. He winced slightly as he ripped the skin away from his finger, a sharp sting racing through his hand. He looked at the abused flesh and sighed at the blood beginning to pool around his nail. Hopefully talking about this whole thing would ease some of the uneasiness Shino felt. He really hated feeling so out of his character.
Shino stood from his bed and walked to the window, Kiba had walked outside and was now seemingly dragging a flustered Kankuro behind him. Apparently the Aburame wasn’t the only one uncomfortable with this ‘talk’. Shaking his head, the tall boy made his way back to his bed. He had been all for talking when Kiba was in the room but now it seemed pointless. Kankuro had already known of Shino’s love so what would be the point of confirming it except to make Shino express feelings he wish he didn’t have?
Shino sighed and picked at a loose thread on the comforter. He was going to have his best friend and the person he loved in his room to tell them of a love they already confirmed he felt? That just seemed pointless and true, while he wanted to clear the air and tell them he wasn’t planning to interfere in their relationship, he still felt slightly discouraged. What would be the point except to open wounds that had just begun to heal? Shino shook his head and wrung his fingers together, he didn’t want to talk, he wanted Kiba and Kankuro to leave him and go enjoy their time together. He wanted to be left alone.
Shino cringed as he heard the stairs creak with extra weight. Sitting up straight, he took a deep breath and waited for what felt like the beginning of the end. Shino felt his heart thump heavily in his chest and he held his breath. He couldn’t really understand what was happening, maybe it was some sort of panic attack? Maybe, but as he waited one thing was certain, Shino Aburame was frightened. He was so ~scared~, almost to the point where he couldn’t move. The door to his room moaned quietly and Shino couldn’t do anything, he couldn’t turn away, he couldn’t even blink. All he could do was feel his blood rushing through his ears, hearing nothing, barely being able to see. Finally he swallowed and berated himself to calm down. This was not how a ninja acted and Shino ~never~ disappointed when it came to being a ninja. Suddenly his vision began to grey in the corners. At first Shino feared he was going to faint, the feeling making his stomach weak. What was going on? Just a minute ago he was beginning to feel better about everything.
Watching Kankuro come into the room seemed to cause his heart to pound and the kikai to buzz loudly. Shino never felt so light headed and as he stared at Kankuro’s somewhat dumbfounded face, he knew something was terribly wrong.
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Kankuro walked into the room before Kiba and looked to the boy who sat on the bed. He couldn’t take his eyes from the younger boy. He wanted to apologize for being such an asshole, to tell him everything would be ok. That of course would have been a lie and Kankuro was never one to resort to lying. Who was he kidding? This whole situation was fucked up and it most certainly wasn’t ok. Kankuro figured after this night, nothing would ever be ok.
Kankuro blinked as Kiba tapped his shoulder, pushing him forward slightly. Kankuro moved rather ungracefully into the room feeling unsteady and ~wrong~ for any number of reasons. The top being as how Shino seemed to just exist, his whole body language seeming to give up. Kankuro frowned and turned toward Kiba. He had been told that Shino was, at least at the moment, stable. Looking toward his lover confirmed that he was not the only one surprised by Shino’s look. Kiba pushed past Kankuro and sat next to the kikai master.
“Shino?” There was a slight pause as Kiba put a hand on Shino’s shoulder. There was a soft whimper from Akamaru who sat in the corner, a warning sound which made Kiba slightly nervous. Shino seemed unresponsive for a moment but then turned to Kiba, his lips in a thin, tight line.
“Kiba, I’m not feeling very well.” Shino’s breathing became heavy and labored as he looked down at the floor. Kiba’s eyes went wide with worry and he turned to where Kankuro was standing. Without even asking Kankuro was running down the stairs looking for Shino’s dad.
“Shibi!” Kankuro didn’t bother with formalities, there was something seriously wrong and Shino’s father needed to get up to the bedroom now. Shibi was in the livingroom reading a book when he stood, the excitement in Kankuro’s voice seeming to get his attention rather quickly. “It’s Shino...” Kankuro didn’t even get a chance to finish as Shibi was up the stairs and in Shino’s room in seconds flat. Kankuro cursed and quickly followed, all the while only one thought was circling in his mind ‘what the fuck is going on??’
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Kiba jumped out of the way as Shibi ran into the room, afraid he would be barreled over by the man if he didn’t move quick. He watched as Shibi kneeled in front of his son, a hand to the boy’s chest.
“Shino?” Kiba winced as he heard the concern in Shibi’s voice. Never in his whole time of knowing Shibi, had he ever heard the man sound so...scared. Kiba felt Kankuro’s presence behind him, a hand on his shoulder but all he could seem to do was watch in horror. He had never actually seen someone have any kind of attack like this, the fact that it was Shino just made it harder to understand. What had happened from the time he left to when Kankuro walked through the door?
“Shino, take a deep breath it’s ok.” Shibi took Shino’s glasses and placed them on the bed. Looking into his son’s eyes he gently talked his son through what looked like a pretty strong panic attack. Shibi turned to Kiba and Kankuro, his voice low and angered, another trait Kiba had never seen from the Aburame. “Get the Hokage.” Kiba nodded and turned to leave when Kankuro stopped him.
“I’ll go, stay here with Shino.” Kiba nodded as Kankuro raced down the stairs. Akamaru who had been quiet for the most part whimpered again. Kiba turned towards the big dog then back to Shino who seemed to be getting himself under control. Shibi cupped Shino’s face gently and looked into deep, dark eyes, still slightly unfocused.
“Look at me Shino.” Shino’s eyes turned to the older Aburame’s face, finally seeming to see through the cloudiness. His hands shook slightly as he nodded to his father.
“Dad...” Shibi sighed and stood up, he sat next to Shino who had tears lining his eyes. “Dad...” Shibi wrapped an arm around his son and pulled the boy closer.
“It’s over just focus on your breathing.” Kiba sighed in relief as Shino seemed to be over whatever he had suffered. Kiba was no med-nin but he hoped to everything holy, that he never had to witness his best friend suffer like that again. It was then that Kiba almost gasped aloud as those dark, beautiful eyes stared at him, unseeing.
“Dad...I’m falling apart....” Kiba had never actually felt his heart break before, but at that moment he felt his whole soul shatter. His best friend was suffering demons that no one could see and it was dragging him into a depth where soon no one would be able to reach.
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Kankuro ran like his life depended on it. The Hokage building seemed to keep moving further away as he ran in it’s direction. Growling deep in his throat, Kankuro pushed his body harder. Shino was in trouble and something needed to be done and fast.
Finally the entrance to the Hokage building came into view, Naruto was standing there with that kid Temari had a crush on. Kankuro ran past both of them, ignoring the shouts from the loud blonde. Skipping steps at a time he finally got to the Hokage’s office and pounded on the door until it finally opened. Standing in the doorway was a none-to-pleased Hokage, her eyes burning with annoyance.
“What do you want brat?” Kankuro growled but held back from daring her to call him that again. Instead he glared and motioned with a thumb behind him.
“We need you at the Aburame home now!” Kankuro watched as the Hokage’s eyes narrowed slowly then widened as if she had been hit by a 10 ton hammer. Without a word she pushed past Kankuro almost knocking him down the staircase. Kankuro quickly followed, jumping off the top floor to the ground floor. His knees buckled slightly at such a high jump, he hadn’t done one in a while and it showed. Shaking off the uncomfortable feeling that raced up his spine he quickly went to follow the Hokage when Naruto jumped in front of him, a worried expression on his face. The one next to him also looked slightly concerned.
“What’s wrong Kankuro?” Kankuro waved the other boy off not bothering for an explanation. He ran back towards his destination and cursed as he felt the chakara of the two leaf-nin’s follow him. Ignoring it for the moment, he hurried back to the Aburame house only to be stopped by a pretty shaken Kiba, Akamaru right by his side.
“The Hokage kicked me out, she needs to examine him.” Kankuro looked up to Shino’s window and sighed. “What are you two doing here?” Kankuro turned to Kiba and the other two that had followed him. Surprisingly Kiba sounded pretty angry that his friends were there.
“We followed him to see what the hell was going on! He was running like all hell was after him. What’s going on?” Naruto looked worried as he looked up at Shino’s bedroom window. “What’s wrong with Shino.” Kankuro was about to hold back Kiba, as he looked ready to attack, but to his surprise the genius next to him smacked Naruto hard in the head. “Shikamaru! What the hell?!” It was then that the Hokage came out of the house, a rather sad expression on her face. Kankuro bit the inside of his lip as his stomach seemed to drop out of his body suddenly. This did not look good.
“Hokage-sama?” Kankuro looked at Kiba and mentally sighed, when Kiba used formalities with Tsunade, that was definitely not a good sign. Tsunade looked at Kiba with narrowed eyes and shook her head.
“He just needs some rest. Leave him be for a while, he’ll be ok.” The Hokage walked away rather stiffly causing Kankuro to believe there was more to it then just ‘rest.’ Kiba turned to Kankuro and sighed.
“I need to see if he’s ....”
“That won’t be necessary.” Kiba blinked as he was cut off. All four shinobi turned to the house to see Shibi standing at the door. Kankuro knew by the tone the older man used that this was going to get ugly.
“B-but I...” Shibi shook his head tersely as his eyebrows drew closer together in anger. Kankuro grabbed Kiba’s arm and was about to pull him away when Shibi spoke again.
“It would be better for everyone if neither of you came back here.” Kankuro felt Kiba’s arm tense dramatically. Naruto looked confused while Shikamaru looked deep in thought. Kiba once again tried to speak but was cut off once again. “You’ve hurt him enough, please leave.” With that Shibi went into the door and closed the door gently, if nothing else the Aburame household was polite.
The words lingered in the air for a time making Kankuro feel slightly dizzy. The slight taste of bile hit the back of his throat as he thought of what had just happened. He had managed to single-handedly destroy someone that he had actually considered a friend. He felt like a traitor, a torturer, and a monster. He felt a hand on his arm and looked to Kiba who was trying desperately not to have a breakdown of his own. His eyes were absolutely devastated. Kankuro felt his heart tear painfully as he took Kiba in his arms. At that moment nothing mattered, not the odd looks they were getting from Naruto or the sympathetic one from Shikamaru. No, none of that mattered. It was all falling apart around them and all Kankuro could think was that he had been right, nothing would ever be ok.
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TBC
Right....Sorry for the angst...um I will make this happy eventually...I hope...
Part7
Pairings: Kiba/Kankuro, one sided Kankuro/Shino, Kiba/Shino friendship
Rating: PG-13
Warning: holy crap it’s become angst central again...
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Shino bit his cuticle nervously as he waited for both Kiba and Kankuro to come up to his room. It was slightly annoying that he suddenly picked up such a disgusting nervous habit. He had never been one to have ‘nervous habits’, hell, he’d never really been nervous before. He winced slightly as he ripped the skin away from his finger, a sharp sting racing through his hand. He looked at the abused flesh and sighed at the blood beginning to pool around his nail. Hopefully talking about this whole thing would ease some of the uneasiness Shino felt. He really hated feeling so out of his character.
Shino stood from his bed and walked to the window, Kiba had walked outside and was now seemingly dragging a flustered Kankuro behind him. Apparently the Aburame wasn’t the only one uncomfortable with this ‘talk’. Shaking his head, the tall boy made his way back to his bed. He had been all for talking when Kiba was in the room but now it seemed pointless. Kankuro had already known of Shino’s love so what would be the point of confirming it except to make Shino express feelings he wish he didn’t have?
Shino sighed and picked at a loose thread on the comforter. He was going to have his best friend and the person he loved in his room to tell them of a love they already confirmed he felt? That just seemed pointless and true, while he wanted to clear the air and tell them he wasn’t planning to interfere in their relationship, he still felt slightly discouraged. What would be the point except to open wounds that had just begun to heal? Shino shook his head and wrung his fingers together, he didn’t want to talk, he wanted Kiba and Kankuro to leave him and go enjoy their time together. He wanted to be left alone.
Shino cringed as he heard the stairs creak with extra weight. Sitting up straight, he took a deep breath and waited for what felt like the beginning of the end. Shino felt his heart thump heavily in his chest and he held his breath. He couldn’t really understand what was happening, maybe it was some sort of panic attack? Maybe, but as he waited one thing was certain, Shino Aburame was frightened. He was so ~scared~, almost to the point where he couldn’t move. The door to his room moaned quietly and Shino couldn’t do anything, he couldn’t turn away, he couldn’t even blink. All he could do was feel his blood rushing through his ears, hearing nothing, barely being able to see. Finally he swallowed and berated himself to calm down. This was not how a ninja acted and Shino ~never~ disappointed when it came to being a ninja. Suddenly his vision began to grey in the corners. At first Shino feared he was going to faint, the feeling making his stomach weak. What was going on? Just a minute ago he was beginning to feel better about everything.
Watching Kankuro come into the room seemed to cause his heart to pound and the kikai to buzz loudly. Shino never felt so light headed and as he stared at Kankuro’s somewhat dumbfounded face, he knew something was terribly wrong.
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Kankuro walked into the room before Kiba and looked to the boy who sat on the bed. He couldn’t take his eyes from the younger boy. He wanted to apologize for being such an asshole, to tell him everything would be ok. That of course would have been a lie and Kankuro was never one to resort to lying. Who was he kidding? This whole situation was fucked up and it most certainly wasn’t ok. Kankuro figured after this night, nothing would ever be ok.
Kankuro blinked as Kiba tapped his shoulder, pushing him forward slightly. Kankuro moved rather ungracefully into the room feeling unsteady and ~wrong~ for any number of reasons. The top being as how Shino seemed to just exist, his whole body language seeming to give up. Kankuro frowned and turned toward Kiba. He had been told that Shino was, at least at the moment, stable. Looking toward his lover confirmed that he was not the only one surprised by Shino’s look. Kiba pushed past Kankuro and sat next to the kikai master.
“Shino?” There was a slight pause as Kiba put a hand on Shino’s shoulder. There was a soft whimper from Akamaru who sat in the corner, a warning sound which made Kiba slightly nervous. Shino seemed unresponsive for a moment but then turned to Kiba, his lips in a thin, tight line.
“Kiba, I’m not feeling very well.” Shino’s breathing became heavy and labored as he looked down at the floor. Kiba’s eyes went wide with worry and he turned to where Kankuro was standing. Without even asking Kankuro was running down the stairs looking for Shino’s dad.
“Shibi!” Kankuro didn’t bother with formalities, there was something seriously wrong and Shino’s father needed to get up to the bedroom now. Shibi was in the livingroom reading a book when he stood, the excitement in Kankuro’s voice seeming to get his attention rather quickly. “It’s Shino...” Kankuro didn’t even get a chance to finish as Shibi was up the stairs and in Shino’s room in seconds flat. Kankuro cursed and quickly followed, all the while only one thought was circling in his mind ‘what the fuck is going on??’
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Kiba jumped out of the way as Shibi ran into the room, afraid he would be barreled over by the man if he didn’t move quick. He watched as Shibi kneeled in front of his son, a hand to the boy’s chest.
“Shino?” Kiba winced as he heard the concern in Shibi’s voice. Never in his whole time of knowing Shibi, had he ever heard the man sound so...scared. Kiba felt Kankuro’s presence behind him, a hand on his shoulder but all he could seem to do was watch in horror. He had never actually seen someone have any kind of attack like this, the fact that it was Shino just made it harder to understand. What had happened from the time he left to when Kankuro walked through the door?
“Shino, take a deep breath it’s ok.” Shibi took Shino’s glasses and placed them on the bed. Looking into his son’s eyes he gently talked his son through what looked like a pretty strong panic attack. Shibi turned to Kiba and Kankuro, his voice low and angered, another trait Kiba had never seen from the Aburame. “Get the Hokage.” Kiba nodded and turned to leave when Kankuro stopped him.
“I’ll go, stay here with Shino.” Kiba nodded as Kankuro raced down the stairs. Akamaru who had been quiet for the most part whimpered again. Kiba turned towards the big dog then back to Shino who seemed to be getting himself under control. Shibi cupped Shino’s face gently and looked into deep, dark eyes, still slightly unfocused.
“Look at me Shino.” Shino’s eyes turned to the older Aburame’s face, finally seeming to see through the cloudiness. His hands shook slightly as he nodded to his father.
“Dad...” Shibi sighed and stood up, he sat next to Shino who had tears lining his eyes. “Dad...” Shibi wrapped an arm around his son and pulled the boy closer.
“It’s over just focus on your breathing.” Kiba sighed in relief as Shino seemed to be over whatever he had suffered. Kiba was no med-nin but he hoped to everything holy, that he never had to witness his best friend suffer like that again. It was then that Kiba almost gasped aloud as those dark, beautiful eyes stared at him, unseeing.
“Dad...I’m falling apart....” Kiba had never actually felt his heart break before, but at that moment he felt his whole soul shatter. His best friend was suffering demons that no one could see and it was dragging him into a depth where soon no one would be able to reach.
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Kankuro ran like his life depended on it. The Hokage building seemed to keep moving further away as he ran in it’s direction. Growling deep in his throat, Kankuro pushed his body harder. Shino was in trouble and something needed to be done and fast.
Finally the entrance to the Hokage building came into view, Naruto was standing there with that kid Temari had a crush on. Kankuro ran past both of them, ignoring the shouts from the loud blonde. Skipping steps at a time he finally got to the Hokage’s office and pounded on the door until it finally opened. Standing in the doorway was a none-to-pleased Hokage, her eyes burning with annoyance.
“What do you want brat?” Kankuro growled but held back from daring her to call him that again. Instead he glared and motioned with a thumb behind him.
“We need you at the Aburame home now!” Kankuro watched as the Hokage’s eyes narrowed slowly then widened as if she had been hit by a 10 ton hammer. Without a word she pushed past Kankuro almost knocking him down the staircase. Kankuro quickly followed, jumping off the top floor to the ground floor. His knees buckled slightly at such a high jump, he hadn’t done one in a while and it showed. Shaking off the uncomfortable feeling that raced up his spine he quickly went to follow the Hokage when Naruto jumped in front of him, a worried expression on his face. The one next to him also looked slightly concerned.
“What’s wrong Kankuro?” Kankuro waved the other boy off not bothering for an explanation. He ran back towards his destination and cursed as he felt the chakara of the two leaf-nin’s follow him. Ignoring it for the moment, he hurried back to the Aburame house only to be stopped by a pretty shaken Kiba, Akamaru right by his side.
“The Hokage kicked me out, she needs to examine him.” Kankuro looked up to Shino’s window and sighed. “What are you two doing here?” Kankuro turned to Kiba and the other two that had followed him. Surprisingly Kiba sounded pretty angry that his friends were there.
“We followed him to see what the hell was going on! He was running like all hell was after him. What’s going on?” Naruto looked worried as he looked up at Shino’s bedroom window. “What’s wrong with Shino.” Kankuro was about to hold back Kiba, as he looked ready to attack, but to his surprise the genius next to him smacked Naruto hard in the head. “Shikamaru! What the hell?!” It was then that the Hokage came out of the house, a rather sad expression on her face. Kankuro bit the inside of his lip as his stomach seemed to drop out of his body suddenly. This did not look good.
“Hokage-sama?” Kankuro looked at Kiba and mentally sighed, when Kiba used formalities with Tsunade, that was definitely not a good sign. Tsunade looked at Kiba with narrowed eyes and shook her head.
“He just needs some rest. Leave him be for a while, he’ll be ok.” The Hokage walked away rather stiffly causing Kankuro to believe there was more to it then just ‘rest.’ Kiba turned to Kankuro and sighed.
“I need to see if he’s ....”
“That won’t be necessary.” Kiba blinked as he was cut off. All four shinobi turned to the house to see Shibi standing at the door. Kankuro knew by the tone the older man used that this was going to get ugly.
“B-but I...” Shibi shook his head tersely as his eyebrows drew closer together in anger. Kankuro grabbed Kiba’s arm and was about to pull him away when Shibi spoke again.
“It would be better for everyone if neither of you came back here.” Kankuro felt Kiba’s arm tense dramatically. Naruto looked confused while Shikamaru looked deep in thought. Kiba once again tried to speak but was cut off once again. “You’ve hurt him enough, please leave.” With that Shibi went into the door and closed the door gently, if nothing else the Aburame household was polite.
The words lingered in the air for a time making Kankuro feel slightly dizzy. The slight taste of bile hit the back of his throat as he thought of what had just happened. He had managed to single-handedly destroy someone that he had actually considered a friend. He felt like a traitor, a torturer, and a monster. He felt a hand on his arm and looked to Kiba who was trying desperately not to have a breakdown of his own. His eyes were absolutely devastated. Kankuro felt his heart tear painfully as he took Kiba in his arms. At that moment nothing mattered, not the odd looks they were getting from Naruto or the sympathetic one from Shikamaru. No, none of that mattered. It was all falling apart around them and all Kankuro could think was that he had been right, nothing would ever be ok.
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TBC
Right....Sorry for the angst...um I will make this happy eventually...I hope...