Black Sand

Chapter Six

Dinner had gone as well as could be expected with three kids at the table. If not for Shikamaru’s mother Sai suspected there could have been a food fight. Thankfully there had not been, Sai wasn’t in the mood to get dirty after having cleaned himself up not to long ago. After they had all had frozen juice on a stick, Seiko explained to him they called it a popsicle, Gaara, the kids, and Sai went for a walk.

Mairen had fallen asleep as predicted and they made there way back to the Nara residence. After tucking them in Gaara had asked Sai to walk him back to his rooms, which Sai couldn’t really refuse. Which was how he was in the room alone with the man now.

“If it bothers you so much, why don’t you try touching me how you think you’d like to be in return.” Gaara stated calmly in the dim light of the moon drifting in through the window.

“We could get caught.” Sai told him.

“But you want to touch me though.”

Sai looked away, it was true he wanted to badly, he wanted to know what it all felt like but he was also scared. He was scared for so many different reasons getting caught was the least of which, but it was the less embarrassing reason to admit.

“Sai,” Gaara breathed and when Sai looked over at the man he was unbuttoning his long coat to roll it off of his shoulders, and the fabric dropped to the floor with a quiet thump. “It doesn’t matter to me that you don’t really know anything, I just want it to be you.”

Sai reached his hand forward and slid the barest touch from Gaara’s left shoulder down his arm. Like usual the man felt warm and smooth, “you’ll only touch me like I touch you?”

Gaara nodded and to prove a point slid his hand down Sai’s arm in the same manner making him shiver. The first thing on Sai’s list was to kiss again, he’d liked that the most. Leaning towards the other man, he tilted his head slightly to the right and pressed his lips against Gaara’s chastely. The redhead must have been surprised by the action because he tensed before pressing back.

Sai parted his lips slightly and pressed a kiss once more, this time their lips tangled together causing him to moan. They both parted at the sound and looked at one another before Sai pressed their lips back together and this time he rose his hands to the sides of the other man’s face. As the heat in the pit of his stomach intensified his hands slowly slid into Gaara’s hair causing the man to groan and lift his hands into Sai’s black hair.

When fingers touched the back of his scalp it sent tingles down his spine and as if someone else controlled his body his tongue slipped into Gaara’s mouth. Sai was about to pull his tongue back shocked that he had done such a thing, but then Gaara’s slid up and around to tangle with his and it felt good. He groaned into the mouth connected to his and his hands slid down Gaara’s back causing the man to curve into him pressing their fronts together.

Pulling back from the kiss, he panted having forgotten to breath, and the tight black shirt the redhead still had on suddenly irritated him. Reaching up under the front of the shirt he moved his hands up to drag over taunt firm muscle, his eyes watching his fingers scale up the body. He knew it was irrational to feel as if this was his first time doing such a thing, Gaara had been shirtless before, he had touched the expanse of naked flesh before, and yet he felt as if this was different.

Gaara’s arms went up in the air as Sai dragged the shirt up the arms and off his body. Sai deftly let it drop to the ground when Gaara brought their mouths back together again, and Sai heard himself groan when those hands slid up under his mesh shirt. He was starting to feel hot, as if he were outside in the middle of the day the sun beating down on him. They broke the kiss just long enough for Gaara to toss his shirt off in some direction and then they’re mouths were back together.

Sliding his hands down Gaara’s back again he went slowly allowing his finger to dip and rise with the contours of the man’s body, while Gaara’s own hands rose up his back. It felt so, he couldn’t put a word to it because it felt better than good. Pulling back from the kiss to breath again they rested their foreheads against one another.

Gaara slowly pulled away sliding his hands down Sai’s arms and stopping to cup his hands. Carefully he walked backwards keeping eye contact the entire time, which caused Sai’s pulse to race, as he pulled the other man with him. When the back of his legs hit the edge of the bed, he slowly laid back tugging Sai gently to follow. Sai placed one knee on the bed, as if in a trance, and followed the redhead as the man climbed further up to rest his head back against the pillows.

Elegant fingers made circles in his palm before sliding up to his wrist only to slip under the elastic of his glove and pull it off tantalizingly slow, before moving to the other one to do the same. Sai choked back a whimper when those same hands slid back up his arms to cup the back of his neck and bring him back down for a kiss.

He felt dizzy, feverish, and there was a strange throbbing in his pants that caused him to rock into the man below him to relieve some of the pain. Sai almost snapped back, not sure what he had done was appropriate but when Gaara’s hands grabbed a hold of his hips and rocked him again he groaned with the man. Sai was finding it a little hard to think, found that his body, his hands, just did whatever it wanted and he wasn’t overly upset about that either.

His naked hands slid down over Gaara’s face thumbs rubbing over closed eyes and cheeks, his fingers tracing over hairless brows then his lips were back over the other man’s as their hips met again. Heart slamming against his chest, the throbbing in time with it, his hips continued to move up into the other man’s and he could feel a hardness brush up against his own every time. He could feel himself closing in on something but he wasn’t sure of what and his mind fazed out as his body was over loaded with sensory information.

The sounds the redhead made caused him to feel slightly unhinged and he rocked harder to hear more of them and to get him to make them louder. His arms up under the redhead’s shoulders, he dug in his knees and fisted his hands in the sheets under Gaara’s neck to give him more leverage and with the next rock up Gaara’s hands tightened and the man threw back his head and groaned his name.

“Oh fuck,” he moaned and his forehead dropped to Gaara’s naked collar bone.

Hands slid up his slick back which caused him to rock up into the man below him again and they both groaned low in their chests. When legs wrapped around his thighs and pressed into his ass to push him harder a thrill zinged through him and without thinking his mouth came down on a pale throat, causing Gaara’s whole body to contract his hands yanking slightly on black hair. Sai would have thought he’d caused pain if not for the fact that the redhead let a long low moan filter past his parted lips.

Bodies moved together in a frenzied pattern and Sai lost track of time or how long it took for him to finally reach a moment where his body froze and a pleasurable sort of pain ripped through him. Below him Gaara buried his face in his arm and his body went rigid. The hands on his back bit into his skin but instead of feeling pain it felt good.

Collapsing against Gaara he closed his eyes and caught his breath, his pants were wet and they felt sticky but he couldn’t find the strength to move to fix the problem. Against his stomach it seemed Gaara had a similar problem as the cloth was wet to the touch.

He listened to Gaara’s heart beat pound in his chest for a few moments and a sense of peace washed over him.

“You’re heart beat is loud,” he commented breathless.

Gaara slowly opened his eyes to peek down at the man not sure if it was an insult or compliment, “you can move if it bothers you.”

Sai shook his head minimally, “no, it feels like coming home.”

Gaara grew quiet and held his breath for a moment before relaxing again with a small smile quirking the corners of his mouth upward. It was an odd way of explaining how he felt, but Gaara understood all the same. Sai took a deep breath and sat up slowly, much to both their disappointments.

“My pants bother me,” Sai explained before sliding them off and dropping them to the floor.

Before Gaara could move or say a word his pants were gone as well and Sai was laying down beside him. When a hand pushed on his shoulder he got the point and rolled to his side, then the warmth of the other man pressed up against his back. The redhead shivered when Sai nuzzled his face into the back of his neck, and then he used his top leg to pull one of Sai’s forward to tangle them together. Sai hummed sounding pleased and the two started to drift asleep as Sai wrapped an arm over Gaara and tucked it in between his chest and arm.

With Gaara pressed tight against his body Sai felt warm on the inside and he felt as if his chest would burst. It felt so, felt so…

“What is a word that is more than good?” He whispered into the hair at the nape of Gaara’s neck.

“Great, wonderful, breath taking, amazing, brilliant, fantastic,” he rattled off in a tired mumble.

“This feels like all those words then,” Sai interrupted with a smile pressed into the other’s neck.

Gaara smiled as well and laced fingers with the hand against his chest, “yes it does.”

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It was still the early hours of the morning the sun just brightening the very tip of the night against the horizon. They had stayed wrapped in each others arms until they both had woke and now were quietly talking to one another, Gaara on his stomach his head turned to Sai while the other man lay on his stomach one arm under his head the other one stretched out trailing fingers down a pale back.

For some strange reason he was mesmerized by the feel of skin against his fingertips. Smooth and giving but defined and hard under his hand as he traced the curve of the redhead’s back from neck to hips. His dark eyes watching the movement of his hands, and the muscles as he went along slowly a very small smile on his lips.

“You have done something like this before yes?” Sai asked Gaara.

“Not quiet like this.”

Sai paused for a moment then continued, “how is one partnering different from another?”

If it was anyone else other than Sai Gaara would have told them to shut the hell up and it wasn’t their business. Sai just wanted to know the dynamics of a relationship as he’d never done anything like this before. Still he sighed, he’d known it would eventually come up and he wasn’t really looking forward to it.

“You are new to this for one, he wasn’t.” Gaara paused, “it was not a real relationship simply sexual. He was lonely and hurting needing comfort, and I was curious. I suppose at one point I thought I loved him, but I didn’t know what that really meant.”

Sai put it all together in his head and realized the man that Gaara had given himself over to was more than likely Naruto. The thought made him grit his teeth and feel irritated at the idea of the blond touching Gaara. When he took a breath the moment passed, and he was left wondering exactly what that was all about.

“You love the children.”

“I love my brother and sister too, but that is different I have been informed.”

Sai was quiet, “what is this then?”

Gaara thought that over as Sai hand seemed to burn into his back when he let it press flat no longer moving. It was harder to think of an answer when his mind seemed to short out and all he could think about was that flat hand.

“It’s not what I had before,” he said carefully.

“You do not know?”

Gaara took a deep breath, “no entirely. It’s different, more meaningful, but beyond that I can not define what this is.”

Sai thought about what Gaara had said, his fingers moving again his eyes following along. Sai too cared deeply for the children, in an odd quiet way he also cared for Shikamaru and Kankurou, but what he felt for Gaara was different. Stronger, but weaker which did not do anything more than confuse him on the issue. How could something be strong and weak?

“Gaara?”

“Hm?”

“How can something be strong and weak at the same time?” Sai asked taking his hand away all together to look at the redhead’s face.

Gaara peeked an eye open and looked at him, “everybody has a weakness but they are also strong in what they excel at. But I don’t think that’s what you are talking about.”

Sai looked down at his hand wiggling his fingers while he thought about that, “no it’s different than that.”

Gaara sat up on his elbows his red hair falling into his eyes shadowing them as he looked at Sai, “then what are you talking about?”

“I-I’m not sure really,” Sai confessed his brow creasing into a frown.

Gaara suspected he had a vague idea of what he was talking about but didn’t feel comfortable trying to explain it. Sai had trouble trying to talk as it was, mix in emotion and he became muddled which only confused him more. In the year he had known the man, he had come to understand this much was true.

“Think about it for a while and then ask me later.”

Sai nodded, but Gaara suspected the conversation was closed for awhile if ever to be opened again. He sighed, he had to get up and ready as there was a meeting to attend in about two hours.

“I must get ready for the day, it’s probably best if you leave before to many ANBU are out and about.”

Sai nodded and grabbed his pants, a distasteful look upon his face which secretly amused Gaara, before he slipped them on with a grimace. The man grabbed his shirt next and tug it on over his head, Gaara watching with appreciation, before heading to the door.

“Next time we are to do that we must not wear clothing.” Sai announced just as he exited the room.

If he had stayed a moment longer and had looked behind him he would have seen a very surprised Gaara his eyes wide before it morphed into one of amusement again. They really would have to try it without clothes, assuming of course that Sai could handle something like that.

~TBC~

End Note: Okay so I realized that I should probably inform you all... that I havn't been paying close attention to the time line. Very unlike me. So there is some inconsistancies that I'm going to clear up here and now and hopefully remembersaid time line andstay true to it. Seiko is now six at this point. Chiharu's birthday will be coming soon. which means that Sai and Gaara have been in a reltionship for a about a year now at least possibly a little over. So ignore the inconsitancies from previous chapters and just go with it from here and what I have just informed you of. Thanks. Love you guys and don't forget to tell me what you thought of this chapter and the things going on here. ^^