Almost Sucks

Almost Sucks
by Mashiro

Naruto fandom, series, no spoilers
AU, BOYS LOVE: Naruto x Sasuke, Kakashi x Iruka, Lee x Gaara

first time: July 25th 2008, Friday
second time: February 13th 2009, Friday

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DISCLAIMER: I don’t own the rights to the Naruto series or characters and I make no money writing this. I’m just a fan. This is fan fiction.

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76: Your mind away

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Epilogue 4.4: Sasuke and Naruto

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About a week before the sex ban came to an end Iruka had sat both Sasuke and Naruto down by the kitchen table and after a long moment of closed eyes and a ‘come on, you can do this’ expression on his face, given them The Talk.

Naruto had desperately tried to get them out of it as soon as he realized what was going on, going on about the book and how they really knew everything they needed to know. ‘The second time was great!’ he had almost yelled. Iruka had not been convinced. He had gone through the physical part, the emotional part and the responsibilities and risks (a.k.a. ‘condoms are more important for you now than homework’) part. Sasuke didn’t think he had ever been so embarrassed before and hoped he never would be again.

Still (he had to be crazy), only a few days later Sasuke had sought Iruka out and made sure they were alone.

‘We can start having sex again on Tuesday morning, right?’ he had said. ‘Could I get a couple of hours in his room?’

As expected, Iruka had appreciated Sasuke’s sincerity. He had even given more than Sasuke had asked for.

‘We could go for a drive,’ he had said. ‘Kakashi and I. You have been good this month.’

Good thing. Knowing they would be alone in the house without Iruka’s hawk senses was a relief, even if it was somewhat disturbing to know that the man would know what they’d be doing. Kakashi would know too, of course; he had been teasing Sasuke about his second sex debut (was there even such a thing?) for days. At least they wouldn’t know for sure. Sasuke didn’t think Iruka’s senses could pick up details and Kakashi had mostly teased about condoms.

Still, the hint of ‘oh, you horny teenagers are so adorable’ in Iruka’s voice when he said it had for a second almost changed Sasuke’s mind about the whole thing.

It didn’t feel like a month. It felt like a week, or an hour, or a year. It felt like he had never been inside Naruto’s pants. Reading that book had been one thing; actually standing outside Naruto’s bedroom, knowing what he would do (unless Naruto stopped him, of course), was like something born in a different universe. It was early, early in the morning; much too early to be up on a holiday, way before ten, but that was how Sasuke wanted it to be. He wanted to wake Naruto up to avoid him running off and doing something on his own and mess things up. While Naruto hadn’t been talking about the day when they’d be allowed to have sex again, Sasuke knew he had been thinking about it. Surely he must have some sort of plan.

But it was Sasuke’s turn now; this was his thing. He wanted to pull them closer together now when they had been apart. Their second time had been sort of Sasuke’s thing; his idea, him bringing the lube from the bathroom and... But this would be even more his thing. He had planned, prepared and decided.

They had been physically away from each other like boyfriends for a month, aside from a few kisses here and there and Naruto’s cuddling. After Sasuke’s time of solitude during the first half of the ban, they had spent time together but they had been careful; it was difficult and frustrating to be together without being free to really be together and somehow they had both known and respected that. Even Naruto, who always charged at challenges like a madman, had respected the difficulty. It had reminded Sasuke of the time before their first time. They had stayed together but kept their distance. Sasuke hadn’t been able to keep himself from thinking that it was mostly his fault. Now that it was time to be together again, he wanted to be the one to initiate it.

Sasuke was nervous, of course. His heart was pounding, his hands fisted and sticky. He felt nothing like planned, prepared and decided. It was like everything that he had spent days studying had fled from his mind. He felt like an idiot; silly and overdramatic and perverted and slutty. Just getting off was one thing, but... What the hell was he doing?

‘I will be together with my boyfriend,’ he told himself. ‘It will just be him and me being together, nothing more. Nothing less.‘

Sasuke pressed down the handle and pushed the door open and winced as it creaked. But there was not a sound or a movement from the form in the bed to indicate that Naruto had heard. Sasuke stepped inside and his heart jumped at the sight of the blond sprawled out on the bed. Half his back was bare, as was one of his legs and an arm. The comforter had slid halfway to the floor and in one corner of the bed the sheets had been pulled up. The blond hair was a mess. Naruto looked older sleeping like that and a tingle wandered to rest between Sasuke’s legs. They were allowed now.

Sasuke fell on his knees beside the bed and dragged a hand along Naruto’s arm first, fingers to elbow to shoulder. The fingers twitched, but Naruto didn’t move. Sasuke smiled, his eyes not leaving the skin. It was so warm and Naruto’s breathing was like the pulse of the room, soft and steady. Sasuke leaned closer, went to the leg and did the same; starting from the ankle he dragged his fingers, moving up the shin, over the inside of the knee (the leg jerked) and the inside of the thigh. When he came high enough Sasuke let his palm connect with the skin as well and journeyed under the comforter as the warmth grew hotter. Eventually the blond moaned, tiredly and questioningly, and the leg moved.

“Hey,” Sasuke breathed.

Naruto moaned questioningly again, and shifted his whole body. Sasuke ran his hand further up and over the underwear covering Naruto’s ass, letting the tips of his fingers trail the soft inside of the cheek through the fabric. The muscles under his palm and fingers tensed. Sasuke’s heart was pounding.

“I hope you’re a dream,” Naruto mumbled into his pillow, the voice so muffled that Sasuke almost couldn’t make out the words. “Because I don’t want to have to stop you.”

Sasuke smiled, his hand staying on Naruto’s back just above the waistline of the underwear.

“Because even if we can have sex today you’re still not allowed in my room,” the blond clarified.

“You don’t have to stop me,” Sasuke said softly.

Naruto shuddered against the pillow and Sasuke saw the deep breath move through his form.

“Good,” he sighed.

“Iruka let me have a couple of hours,” Sasuke said. As he had expected, at the words Naruto tensed again. When no words came from the blond, Sasuke continued.

“He left with Kakashi fifteen minutes ago. We have until they’re back.”

Still no words. Sasuke was nervous, but only part of him. A soft smile was still on his lips.

“You’re really here?” Naruto asked eventually, finally. The tone of his voice, so relieved and desperate for a ‘yes’, made Sasuke’s smile grow.

“I am,” he whispered.

Naruto groaned, moaned and whimpered in relief and shifted again against the bed under the comforter.

“You made a deal with Iruka,” he moaned.

“Yes,” Sasuke said. He moved closer then, moved his hand to wrap his arm around Naruto’s hips and press a kiss to his hipbone. Naruto shifted more and Sasuke looked to see the blue eyes peer at him. They were smiling.

“Sneaky,” he said. “You don’t get up before ten. I was going to surprise you.”

“I know,” Sasuke raised a brow and breathed in the smell of Naruto’s skin coated with glistening saliva from his kiss.

“Sneaky,” Naruto said again and let a hand down to fall on Sasuke’s face. “What do you have planned now?”

Sasuke kissed the gentle fingers and for a moment let himself be caressed. He was lucky to be here and to get this. Then he pulled away, unwrapped the arm he had around Naruto and pulled his shirt over his head. Sasuke kept his eyes locked on Naruto’s and noticed how something in those blue eyes changed as he bared himself. The shirt was dropped to the floor and Naruto blinked slowly.

“Strip and lie on your back,” Sasuke said as he moved his hands to his pants and pushed them down his legs, revealing no underwear and arousal.

It was not an order really, but a little more force and it could have been. Naruto jerked into motion, cleared his throat and swallowed. He looked nervous and excited and Sasuke felt more confident, even though deep down he knew that his heart was pounding too. Naruto shifted around on the bed, onto his back, adjusted the comforter and pulled his wayward leg back under cover. Soon the underwear dropped out on the floor. Sasuke made sure he met the blue eyes when Naruto was finished and looked at him again. Everything was straightened out and the blond lay like a neatly packed sardine in a can with his hands on the comforter; the only thing giving away his lack of innocence was the tent-shaped bulge in the middle.

“Done,” Naruto almost squeaked and Sasuke snorted at how whipped he sounded all of a sudden. Really didn’t take much to distract him.

“Now, let me come in,” Sasuke murmured and let a soft smirk form on his lips.

He could be nervous, he could think of Iruka and Kakashi knowing what they were doing and feel stupid, he could think about all the instructions and pointers he had read and things he had heard and of last time that was different but not entirely; he could if he let himself, but he didn’t.

Sasuke lifted the edge of the comforter and supporting his weight on the floor and the bed he crawled inside. The darkness and warmth enveloped his face and he pressed his cheek against Naruto’s tensing stomach. He shifted and slipped more of his body inside and felt the hard-on poke his skin. His stomach swirled. They were allowed. He ran his hands along Naruto’s sides and legs and then he pushed himself upwards. Sasuke purposefully let his body slide against the hardening flesh and enjoyed the sounds of the blond moaning. When Sasuke came back into the light and the cool air of the outside again he was face to face with the blushing boyfriend, Naruto breathing against his mouth. Sasuke’s face was warm as well. One of his legs was between Naruto’s and the friction between them made it difficult to keep eyes open.

“Are you sure we’re allowed?” the blond whispered against Sasuke’s lips.

“Yes,” Sasuke breathed and when Naruto’s hands found their way to his side, his waist, along his hips and further up to his ass, Sasuke had to close his eyes. He thrust down and they both moaned. They kissed and Naruto tasted so much better when they were naked and together and his hands were exploring Sasuke’s body.

“We have a lot of condoms left,” the blond murmured when their lips slipped apart and his fingers got bolder. “And lube.”

Curious, bold, teasing fingers. Sasuke shivered and remembered last time. That second time had been nice. He swallowed and let his own fingers go questing on Naruto’s chest.

“Or I could do you,” he murmured, pressing a kiss to the boyfriend’s lips again.

Naruto swallowed.

“Y-yeah.”

“You asked me how it felt, remember?”

“Yeah,” Naruto’s voice had gained some strength and he kissed back. “Do you want to?”

It was amazing really, how much confidence they had all of a sudden, like they had been doing it for years. There wasn’t a worried bone in Sasuke’s body. Nervousness over what he wanted to do, yes, but that was it.

“No,” he breathed against Naruto’s lips. “Not now. I want to do something else.”

Sasuke lifted his head and looked down at Naruto and found a soft frown on the boyfriend’s forehead. Curiosity.

“What?” the blond wanted to know.

Nervousness swirled, but also strangely excitement. Sasuke had to smirk. He shifted downward and kissed first Naruto’s chin, then his throat, then between his collar bones. He shifted again and let Naruto’s hard-on poke at his stomach. Naruto’s hands found their way to his shoulders.

“What are you doing?” the boyfriend sounded like he knew but couldn’t quite...

“There were a lot of interesting things in that book,” Sasuke breathed against Naruto’s chest and then kissed the same spot and Naruto’s hands squeezed. Sasuke’s hands wandered too. The fingers of one made a trip around a nipple and the fingers of the other found their way to the inside of Naruto’s thighs.

“You... read the book?”

“I did,” Sasuke said. His shoulders were level with Naruto’s hipbones now and his face with his stomach. He kissed the tensing muscles.

“W-what... did you read about?”

“Sex.”

“A-are... Are you really...?”

Sasuke shifted even lower and kissed the soft, thin skin connecting the inside of the leg and the body. The light hair tickled his cheek and the hardness was burning warm against the side of his head. It felt overwhelmingly dirty and crazy and slutty and out of the question just then, suddenly, but Sasuke pushed the feeling away. It was just Naruto. It was just his boyfriend and he was tense as a string just before it broke from being stretched too far. Sasuke’s heart was beating hard but so was Naruto’s, he could feel it with the hand he had pressed to the blond’s chest. The smell of arousal was strong and the very air was moist. Sasuke turned his head and saw the outline of the hardness in the dim colored light under the comforter. It looked oddly big from this angle and impossible to fit in any body. Some thing that, angles. Sasuke blew a stream of air on the base and Naruto’s hips jerked against his head.

“Shit...! That’s... You’re really...”

Naruto’s hands had left Sasuke’s shoulders and clenched to hard fists against his own sides. The blond shifted, as if he didn’t know where to go, still tense as that string, every muscle constricting. Sasuke marveled at his own cool as he moved in and ran his tongue, then pressed his lips against the skin he had touched with his breath. It was soft, but hard and Naruto flinched again. The blond whimpered. The taste reminded of the smell, or maybe it was just that the smell did such a good job invading Sasuke’s senses.

He pressed soft, small kisses and played with his tongue over the soft, hard flesh. He watched his teeth and let a hand help by fondling the side his mouth wasn’t on, or further down between Naruto’s legs. The other hand was still held against Naruto’s stomach as the blond moaned and shifted and whimpered and Sasuke didn’t have to look at his face to know that it was all scrunched up and the eyes closed. His hips thrust, but Sasuke didn’t think he was aware of it. He moaned words, but no full sentences. There came Sasuke’s name, ‘shit...’, ‘you’re not...’ and ‘please,’ and every so often his breath hitched and he moaned again. Sasuke worked his way up.

Sasuke should have expected it, of course, but he was caught by surprise when the liquid came pearling down and over his tongue. The taste was sudden and he pulled back without thinking, scrunching up his face. He remembered the taste from the time when Naruto had licked clean his face and then kissed him. Salty. Naruto whimpered at the loss of contact.

“No, no, no, don’t go... don’t stop,” he said, the urgency clear. One of his hands took hold of Sasuke’s hair and there was no doubt that he wanted Sasuke’s mouth back. For a second the nervousness and the overwhelming ‘I’m such an idiot, what am I doing? This is so...’ feeling surged through him and Sasuke had to close his eyes and struggle to stay put and not get up and leave. He focused on the gentleness. Despite his urgency, Naruto’s fingers were gently rubbing Sasuke’s scalp and nudging with his palm rather than pushing him back. The taste dissolved from Sasuke’s mouth and he breathed. The smell of Naruto’s sex was strong and the hardness intimidating this close up, but Sasuke was still there. He breathed again, then let himself go with the nudging. He let his hand slide up the length and let his lips, then tongue, connect with the tip, prepared for and able to ignore the taste this time. Naruto moaned in relief and pleasure and flinched and there seemed to be a pulse in the fingers in Sasuke’s hair.

“You’re so good,” Naruto moaned, or maybe whimpered, and Sasuke had to mentally roll his eyes as he trailed with his tongue around, circling the tip, shifting on his arms to get a better angle. How could Naruto know that Sasuke was good? He didn’t have enough experience with blowjobs to tell the difference between a bad and a good one, right? Or... Was this really a blowjob? Did you have to... well, suck for it to count?

As just the thought of having had his mouth this intimate with someone’s dick and still not having done a blowjob was horrifying, Sasuke quickly decided that he’d teased enough. Opening his mouth wider and lowering his head, he let the hardness slip between his lips, ignoring the taste and the uncomfortable stretch at the width. Naruto wasn’t huge by any means, but usually the stuff Sasuke let into his mouth was much smaller or got chewed on immediately upon entry. A loud moan tore from the blond as Sasuke sucked, making sure his teeth were as out of the way as they could be.

A sudden and probably involuntary thrust of Naruto’s hips pushed the length deeper and Sasuke found his eyes tear as he gagged. Pulling away and coughing he glared up through the dim under-the-comforter light as Naruto again whimpered at the loss of the mouth.

“Come on... please, don’t stop,” he moaned and his hips rose from the mattress. Once again Sasuke struggled with the urge to walk away as parts of him tried to convince him that he was an idiot for wasting time with such things. Where was his pleasure? He was acting like a stupid girl with no self-esteem, trying to blow her way to... But that wasn’t true, the rest of him said. He was spending time and sharing pleasure with his boyfriend. He had wanted to do this because... Sasuke had just wanted to surprise Naruto and blow his mind away, because he was lucky to have him.

The frustration eased and though the back of his mouth ached, Sasuke let his head fall down again. Taking a firm grip on Naruto’s hips with his hands to avoid any similar mishaps, he took the length into his mouth once more, as deep as he could without gagging. The taste was still different and the stretch of his lips still uncomfortable, but Naruto was moaning and shifting uncontrollably and Sasuke found that that made up for a lot of things.

Not long after the boyfriend tensed up and went still and his last moan was high-pitched. Sasuke knew him well enough to read the signs, was ready and pulled away; only a little fell on his tongue, the rest he caught in his hand and against his cheek, neck and shoulder. The taste was stronger now and for a second Sasuke wanted to spit and wipe his tongue on something, but in the end he swallowed. Naruto’s thighs were sticky with sweat and he panted and whined even afterwards, tossing tiredly this way and that. Sasuke found himself panting too. What the hell had he done? He wiped off his body as best he could with his sticky hand.

“You... Did you just...? Was that...? How...?” Naruto still couldn’t form sentences.

Sasuke breathed out deeply. He left confusion behind him and moved up again until his head popped out into light and cooler air and he would see Naruto’s flushed face, shiny with sweat. The boyfriend looked a mix of utter amazement and worry that it had all been just a dream. Sasuke paid him back for last time, kissing the boyfriend and sharing the taste that still lingered in Sasuke’s mouth. Naruto didn’t seem to mind at all, his hand came up and rubbed Sasuke’s scalp again.

“They had a whole chapter on blowjobs,” Sasuke said when they broke apart.

“I know,” Naruto breathed and his blue eyes glittered. Then his hand wandered to where Sasuke’s skin was still painted with pleasure.

“You’re all messy,” he mumbled and for a moment he looked mesmerized by the sight.

“I forgot to bring tissue,” Sasuke grumbled and shifted away from the fingers spreading out the mess. “Stop that.”

Naruto untucked his sheets and used them as a towel. ‘They need to be changed anyway,’ he said when Sasuke protested. When he was done, Naruto pulled Sasuke against him and cuddled.

“Was it gross?” he mumbled. “You’re not hard anymore.”

“It was distracting,” Sasuke muttered. “Not gross.”

“Do you want me to do you?”

“I just wanted to do it for you.”

“If you want to, I’ll do it,” Naruto said.

“It’s fine,” Sasuke said. “Some other time.”

“But then we can’t be here,” Naruto’s smile could be heard in his voice. “School is okay? Or the kitchen?”

He pressed a kiss to Sasuke’s ear.

“I want to do you in the kitchen,” he breathed and then giggled and Sasuke had to shudder at the thought, in a good way. He could sit on the counter or the table and watch the head between his thighs. Naruto suddenly giggled again.

“I had this dream,” he said. “Before you woke me up. You were... making pancakes. You were standing by the stove and you wore this really cute apron and you smiled at me and said...”

Naruto snorted and slapped a hand over his eyes. His grin was contagious and Sasuke couldn’t help but smile.

“What?” he asked, though he knew it had to be embarrassing.

“‘How...?’ ‘How badly do you want my cream?’” Naruto’s stomach muscles were clenching as he snorted his laughter through his nose. Sasuke punched his arm lightly.

“My cream, huh?”

“I’m serious, you said that, I swear. I can’t believe you blew me.”

They were both smiling. Sasuke’s cheeks hurt. Naruto lifted a hand and slipped it into Sasuke’s hair and caressed his scalp again.

“Why did you wanna do that for me?” he mumbled, still smiling.

Sasuke shrugged and tried to make it seem less than it had been and not embarrassing.

“Why not?” he said. “I thought you’d like it.”

“I did,” Naruto smiled so that his nose wrinkled. “I loved it. It was incredible.”

“And you’ll do it for me some other time.”

“I will,” Naruto murmured and kissed Sasuke again. Sasuke wondered if the blond could still taste himself in Sasuke’s mouth.

They lay together in silence for many more moments, close together, and Sasuke found himself thinking. He thought about things they had been through and things they would go through in the future.

They would change schools next year, after the summer holiday. Kakashi and Iruka would go on with their family plans. Gaara would keep teasing them and Lee would keep trying in vain to change his mind about it. Shikamaru would come and visit, sleep over and meet Iruka. Tsunade would come and visit and meet Iruka too. She would shake his hand and glance at Sasuke and her eyes would say that she knew how the man’s rules frustrated him sometimes.

They would have more sex. Sasuke had not just studied blowjobs and was more than ready to show Naruto how it felt. Next time.

There was a new year coming this evening.

“What are you thinking?” Naruto said softly, as if he knew that the thoughts had been special.

“I’m thinking...” Sasuke said and then he turned his head to look at the one beside him. “That it feels better when you’re close to me.”

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