Hard Love Life

Hidan awoke in the middle of the day. Kakuzu was still sleeping so Hidan got some praying done before returning to the bed. He smirked to himself, watching the still sleeping Kakuzu. He poked his lover gently. "Kakuzu~! Wake up."

Kakuzu twitched when Hidan poked him to wake him up. He tugged the pillow over his face and let out a muffled groan before actually sitting up and looking at his lover. "Well, someone's perky."

"Yeah well I'm in a good mood." Hidan replied, resting his cheek in his palm, "Have a nice nap? Did you dream about anything? Money? Me?"

"I can tell that you're in a good mood," Kakuzu muttered, stretching and sighing happily as his back popped. "I didn't dream about anything. At all. And I've never have."

Hidan slicked back his hair. "Every one who still has a brain dreams. You must have at one point." he said, yawning deeply before hugging Kakuzu's waist.

Kakuzu took his hand and messed up Hidan's hair once more. "You look cuter without your hair slicked back." He shrugged, "I don't like to remember my dreams." His arms slipped around Hidan's torso and he pulled his lover closer.

Hidan scowled and slicked his hair back again. "Just because you don't like it doesn't mean I'll stop styling it like this." he said, running his tongue up Kakuzu's side, "Do you not remember them because they are bad?"

Kakuzu sighed and twined his fingers into Hidan's hair. "Not even when we're alone?" He tugged on his lover's hair slightly, just to piss him off. A shiver ran through his body when Hidan's tongue trailed up his side. "Yes. They are… Very bad."

Hidan hissed. "Fine! Just let my fucking hair go. It hurts." he smiled, "Then you must remember them if you know they're bad ones. Tell me." Hidan chuckled when he felt Kakuzu shiver, "You say you don't like being touched and your body says other wise."

Kakuzu let go of Hidan's hair, resting a hand on his lover's shoulder. "I don't want to remember them." He glared at Hidan slightly. "I can't help it if I can't control my body sometimes." Kakuzu shifted away from his lover.

"Oh~ they're that bad? Damn." Hidan whine when Kakuzu tried to move away, but he held firm to Kakuzu's waist. He licked the skin again, hearing Kakuzu gasp quietly. "I need to touch you. I really like it. It's the best."

Kakuzu growled and tried to move away from Hidan once more, not liking the feeling of Hidan’s tongue on his skin. "It's not like you'd die if you didn't touch me Hidan." He looked over his lover. "I have a question. When you use the transformation jutsu, you turn completely into a woman. That means you have the reproductive system of a woman. Doesn't that mean you can get pregnant?"

"I'd be sad and mopey if I don't." Hidan said, kissing Kakuzu's skin. His face screwed up in thought. "I guess I would be a complete woman. The only thing I was really good at was transformation." Hidan sat up and clung to Kakuzu's shoulder. "As long as I turn back into a man right after we have sex we should be fine."

Kakuzu frowned and wrapped his arms around Hidan once more, pulling him to lay back against the bed. "What if you do end up getting pregnant though? What would we do?"

"Get rid of it. Duh. I'm not having a kid. I'd die for sure." Hidan kissed Kakuzu's chest, "It takes time for the egg and sperm to meat right? We'll be fine. Why are you asking all of this? Do you want a kid?"

Kakuzu shrugged and looked to the side, pulling Hidan closer to him. "Three days I think. I was just wondering. And... I don't know, maybe I want a kid." He sighed and ran a hand through his hair, closing his eyes.

"See? I can only keep up a transformation for only five hours." At hearing Kakuzu might want a kid Hidan sprung away, glaring at him, "No way. No fucking way. I'm not having some whiny brat who cries day and night for the first year of its life." Hidan placed a hand over his well-toned abdomen, "I'd rather have sex with Kisame then carry something that will make me fat. Fucking no."

Kakuzu sighed and looked away when Hidan moved away from him. Ah, he should've known this would've happened. He should've told Hidan straight out now, that he did not want a kid. But he didn't, so now there was a conflict. Kakuzu stood and walked towards the door. "Just... Forget I mentioned it. I'm going to take a shower, try and recompose yourself by the time I come back."

Hidan huffed as Kakuzu left, sliding out of bed to get dressed. He found a nice outfit and put it on, mumbling about how Kakuzu was crazy. He sat and waited, calming down rather fast.

Kakuzu sighed and entered the room about three hours later, going straight to his desk and began to pick up where he left off on his paperwork, planning to ignore Hidan completely for flipping out on him when he just said maybe.

"Kakuzu~! I'm not mad anymore." Hidan said, "Don't ignore me~!"

Kakuzu punched a few numbers into his calculator, continuing to ignore Hidan.

Hidan pouted. "Come on Kakuzu. Why are you mad at me? You shouldn't have said that to begin with." He continued to pout for a while, waiting for a response, "Kuzu~! Stop ignoring me."

Kakuzu rolled his eyes. So now Hidan was telling what not to say? Right that's exactly what was going to get him to talk. He finished his work and pushed away from his desk, going to his bookcase and pulling out his favorite book, going to his bed and beginning to read.

Hidan whined. "Why are you ignoring me? I'm not mad any more. Just say something."

Kakuzu blinked at Hidan. "I'm sorry, I didn't notice you, I thought you were some whiny brat... Apparently I was right."

Hidan flinched, believing that what he had said about kids was what upset Kakuzu. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean what I said about kids." Hidan lied, picking at his clothes.

Kakuzu scoffed, "I don't like empty apologies, brat." He turned his attention back to his book, glaring daggers at it.

Hidan bit his finger. "Why are you mad at me? Do you want a kid that bad?"

Kakuzu shook his head, "No... But it's just the way you said that you'd never have a kid was… Well, you didn't have to yell at me for wanting a kid."

Hidan pouted again. "That's it? You got mad over that? That's fucking stupid. Only a woman would get pissy over that."

Kakuzu glared at him. "Are you trying to make me angrier? Because you're doing a wonderful job of it."

"Fuck you. I just say I don't want a kid the way I say it and you fucking leave! You don't correct yourself or tell me that you wouldn't use me." Hidan crossed his arms, "And your gone for three hours and you're still upset? What the hell?"

Kakuzu gave Hidan a confused look. "Use you? What would I use you for?" He was trying to drop the subject about him being angry because this new subject peaked his curiosity. Placing the book on the side table, he beckoned Hidan into his arms.

Hidan walked to Kakuzu and sat in his lap. "Use me to get a kid." he replied, "Make me get pregnant with your kid."

Kakuzu pulled Hidan close. "I wouldn't use you to get a kid. That'd be useless." He kissed up Hidan's neck.

"How would it be useless?" Hidan asked, shivering as Kakuzu kissed his neck.

"Because I'd loose you," Kakuzu admitted grudgingly.

Hidan hugged Kakuzu. "Loose me?" Hidan asked, "Your afraid of loosing me?" Hidan kissed Kakuzu softly.

Kakuzu looked away and frowned, "Yes, I guess I am. But that's just because you're a good fuck buddy." He leaned into the kiss.

"I mean more to you then that.” Hidan said, kissing Kakuzu's cheek, "I'm sure I do. Am I right?"

Kakuzu nodded slightly, "I guess you mean more to me than that."

Hidan squealed in delight, showering Kakuzu's face with kisses. "You're so awesome some times. It's great." he said.

Kakuzu sighed, letting Hidan shower him with kisses. "You act just like a woman Hidan, it's unbelievable."

"I don't care. I'm happy right now." Hidan said, planting a firm kiss on his lover's lips, "You're so awesome."

Kakuzu rolled his eyes. "Why are you so happy about me caring for you just a little?"

"It makes me happy that you like me for more then just sex." Hidan said, "It means a lot to me."

"I guess that must be a huge deal for you..," Kakuzu mumbled, stroking Hidan's hair. "How do you feel about me now?"

"It is. I don't know why, but it is." Hidan said before kissing under Kakuzu's jaw, "I really really like you Kakuzu. Your just so... I don't know."

Kakuzu sighed and rubbed at his eye with one of his wrists. "I like you too Hidan. Not... Really really like. But like."

Hidan humphed, clinging to Kakuzu tightly. "Is the sex you have with me the best now?" He asked, pouting, "Better then any other person you've slept with?"

Kakuzu nuzzled Hidan's hair. "Hmm.. It's some of the best, but not the best... I've had sex with someone who was better, but that's just because there was more feeling in it."

"It's going to be the best. You'll see." Hidan said, seething with jealousy, "I'll be better then her. You'll never think of her the same way again. One day." Hidan hugged Kakuzu possessively, inhaling his sent in order to calm himself.

Kakuzu stared at Hidan, "Why are you so jealous of her Hidan?" He shook his head; jealousy is such a stupid emotion. "I doubt you could change how I think of her just by having sex with me."

Hidan kissed Kakuzu's neck. "You'll see." he said, "You'll like me more. You won't want anyone else." Hidan sighed. "Sorry I'm sounding so possessive, but I don't like sharing."

Kakuzu frowned. "I… I don't think I could like you more. You're lacking qualities that she had and she's lacking qualities that you have. Maybe I'll end up liking you both almost the same one day, but I could never like you more. I'm sorry."

"Yes you can!" Hidan said, grabbing the back of Kakuzu's head and kissing him savagely, "I want you to. I want to be liked. No one else likes me. They fucking hate me. I want you to like me more then anyone."

Kakuzu pulled away form the kiss that Hidan pulled him into. "Hidan! Relax, I like you! But Jesus, you can't blame me for liking another person, can you?! I'm guessing you don't want me to have friends either? Humph, I'm sure that’s why you don't to have kids. You'd be afraid I'd like them more than you."

"Have all the friends you want. But I want to be the most important living person in your life!" Hidan said, pulling Kakuzu back for another kiss, "I want you to like me. I want someone to care about me. And I fucking hate kids I hate them. They're only good for killing."

"Fine! You can be the most important person in my life! Damn it Hidan! Why do you have to be so needy?" Kakuzu leaned into the kiss. "I like you Hidan. I care about you. Just a little bit."

Hidan huffed bitterly, "If I am going to be important to you then you need to care about more the a 'little bit'." He said, before deepening the kiss as he ground his hips against his lovers.

"Gah, caring takes times, Hidan. I'm sure you don't care about me that much." Kakuzu's tongue licked at Hidan's lower lip, sliding a hand into Hidan's pants. "How about a hand job from me?"

"I do care. I'll be your shield." Hidan moved to kiss Kakuzu's neck, leaving a hickey. He gasped as Kakuzu's hand slid into the skintight pants he was wearing. He lifted the skirt up so not to get it dirty, "Yes. God yes."

Kakuzu huffed when Hidan marked his skin with a hickey. "Do you really think you should be the one marking up my skin?" His fingers undid the clasp of Hidan's clothes and began to force him out of them. "I like you better naked. Easier access." His hand began to squeeze tightly onto Hidan's member, like he did last time. "How do you want it done this time?"

"Yes. I like your skin. It tastes good." Hidan whispered, watching his clothes fall away from his person, "Keep me warm. I get cold easily." He whimpered when Kakuzu grabbed him, "Lets try softer touches. And could you use your threads too?"

Kakuzu leaned up Hidan's body, wrapping an arm around his waist. "You'll be plenty warm soon enough." He relaxed his grip on Hidan. "I thought you liked it rough though? Fine. I don't know how great I'll be with this though." A few threads snaked from his wrist and slipped into his lover's tight hole. His hand began to pump Hidan's member slowly, teasingly.

"I want to try new sensations. Is that bad?" Hidan mewed softly and Kakuzu's threads entered him. It felt odd being touched in several different places, but it wasn't bad. "You'll do just fine." he reassured when Kakuzu belittled himself. He watched Kakuzu touch him; the teasing movements were just as good as the rough ones. "Oh wow. That feels wonderful."

"No, it's not bad," Kakuzu leaned in and kissed his lover, keeping his hand on Hidan's member, beginning to pump him faster as the threads inside of Hidan began to poke, prod, and tear at his prostate. "Tell me if anything is too much."

"If something is to much keep doing it. Torture me." Hidan panted out before screaming. His hips jerked as the tendrils explored him. "Oh god. I -ah- I'm going to~!" Hidan painfully grabbed Kakuzu's shoulder, coming hard. The threads began to withdraw but he grabbed them and kept them in place. "Don't stop. Keep going."

Kakuzu shrugged, torturing him didn't sound too horrible. Actually, torturing Hidan sounded like fun. "God Hidan, you're so damn easy, like the slut you are." Kakuzu leaned down and began to lap at the cum that coated Hidan's stomach, leaving his threads to tear at his lover's channel, and a few other threads to pump his member and begin to sow their way through his skin.

"You said I wasn't a slut." Hidan said, not really caring. Hidan moaned as Kakuzu continued, trying the ride his threads. "God, how can sex be a sin?" Hidan asked more to him self then his partner. He tossed his head back, moaning. As the threads began to stitch his erection, Hidan's hand began to rub Kakuzu's groin.

"You are sometimes." Kakuzu smacked Hidan. "Stop you idiot, you can't ride them." He rolled his eyes when his lover asked how sex could be a sin. His hand pulled Hidan's hand away from his groin. "No, this is about pleasuring you. I don't want sex."

"I want to ride something." Hidan pulled away, "I don't want anymore." He began to pull the stitches out of his member.

Kakuzu sighed. "Well there's nothing for you to ride. What do you want? Me to go get you a chair leg?" He winced when he saw Hidan pulling the stitches out of his member, even if it wasn't him it was happening to, it still looked outrageously painful. So he made the threads retract themselves, that way his lover didn't have to rip at the sensitive skin. "How can you just… Stop wanting that?"

"A chair leg would have been nice." Hidan said, watching blood flow over his skin. "I don't know. I just... Lost it." Hidan looked to the side, his face blank, "I don't get it. I guess I just prefer having regular sex." He blushed, " Maybe I just want you to try and give me oral."

Kakuzu leaned in and kissed Hidan softly. "How can you stand getting pain like that?" He frowned and sighed. "Was it because of me?" Kakuzu growled and shook his head. "No, I will not give you oral."

"I just feel it differently. It feels good." Hidan turned his head again so Kakuzu just kissed his cheek, "Maybe it is you." He tossed his head back, exposing his neck; an invitation to ravish it. "How is having sex with me not gay? I'm a fucking man. You have sex with me you're gay or bi."

"It makes me feel it myself somewhat." Kakuzu gave Hidan a pained look. "I didn't try to ruin your mood." He began to suck and nip at Hidan’s neck when it was exposed to him, leaving a trail of hickies in his wake. "Having sex with you is gay, I don't deny it. But I don't like giving you head."

"Maybe it's a ritual of mine." Hidan said teasingly, "I know you didn't." He moaned as Kakuzu kissed and bit his neck, "How do you know if you don't like it? The closest you came to it was my inner thighs."

Kakuzu smirked, "Knowing you, that's probably it." He nuzzled Hidan's neck after leaving a cluster of hickies. Thinking for a few moments, he tried to think of something to say to get him out of giving his lover head. He thought of something, but he knew he'd regret it. Taking in a deep breath, he was about to say something he didn't mean. "I love you," he lied, hoping that Hidan would stop trying to get him to give him a blowjob.

Hidan's throat grew tight when Kakuzu told him he loved him. No one had ever really loved him, not romantically anyway. He felt happy. "Kakuzu... I-..." Hidan paused to think. Did he love Kakuzu back? He didn't know what love was. He had never felt it before. He bit his lip. All of that thinking was hurting his head. "I love you too." Hidan said slowly, still not sure.

Oh. Great. Of course, Hidan had to be happy about him telling his lover that he loved him. Now there was no way to say he was just lying with sounding like an ass. So he faked a smile and kissed Hidan gently. "I'm glad to hear that."

Hidan smiled and rested his arms on Kakuzu's shoulder. "No one has ever loved me in this sort of way before." he said softly, "My mother told me it was the best thing in the world to be loved."

The pike of guilt slowly dug deeper into his chest. It was too late now to tell Hidan the words had no meaning, that they were merely a distraction. Why did Hidan have to say those things? Inside he was punishing himself, while on the outside he was nuzzling his lover and placing tender kisses all over his body.

Hidan smirked, running his fingers through Kakuzu's hair. He felt happy for some reason. He pulled Kakuzu back up to his face. "I love you." Hidan pulled Kakuzu into a tender kiss, sucking on his lower lip softly.

Kakuzu sighed at the feeling of Hidan's fingers running through his hair. He was slowly dying on the inside. "I love you too." Kakuzu moaned slightly when Hidan sucked on his lower lip, more out of anguish than pleasure.

Hidan tilted his head. "Is something wrong Kakuzu?" he asked, feeling something was wrong.

Kakuzu shook his head. "No, nothing is wrong," he murmured, slowly, yawning. "I'm just a little tired, I guess."

Hidan nodded, getting up and going to his bed. "Lets sleep in mine. Yours is dirty." Hidan slid under the covers and patted next to him.

Kakuzu followed Hidan to his bed, not knowing how he was supposed to sleep with this guilt on his mind. He snuggled up against Hidan's side when he laid down.

Hidan grasped Kakuzu's hand, kissing it tenderly. "How much do you love me?" he asked, oblivious to the obvious signs that Kakuzu was uncomfortable.

Kakuzu shifted awkwardly. Oh how he hated Hidan right now. "I love you so much, more than her," he added in that last bit for an added effect. Though, that wasn't true.

Hidan smiled, curling up next to his lover. "I love you more then Jashin." he said, dosing off.

Kakuzu was close to bashing his head in. Damn Hidan loved him too much. "Why'd you have to say that...?" Slowly, Kakuzu fell asleep.