Black Sand

“Chapter Seven”


Sai sat in the library, towards the back, in a far corner with several volumes in front of him. Yet none of them were explaining the finer details on how two men had sex, it had other positions but it was always with a woman. A few of the ways the people in the books, whom were not that great to look at to begin with, were having sex did not appeal to him in the least. Not to mention they seemed near impossible to perform unless you were a nin, it was obvious that the couple in the book were not.

He sighed and closed the book, propping his head on the palm of his hand, sliding it away from him. At this rate he was never going to be ready to do anything more than he’d done thus far with Gaara. The man didn’t seem to mind, even though it had been little over a year now, that all they had done was some kissing and touching. Well there had been that one night were they had lain in his bed naked and tangled together after that orgasm(Gaara had informed him later), which for him had had his intestines all tangled in knots as well.

A frown creased his brow together and he tapped his fingers on the table top in an uncharacteristic gesture of agitation. Sure Gaara didn’t mind, but Sai could also tell that he wanted to do more too. To be honest Sai did too, but he didn’t know what that something more was. Which was why he had come to the library looking to gain some knowledge, yet there was only heterosexual intercourse and all their unappealing positions.

“Sai?”

Sai looked over to see a mass of silver hair and the mostly covered face of one Hatake Kakashi, “hello sensei.”

Kakashi’s one eye looked over at the pile of books, then back at the younger nin with a raised brow. Sai felt embarrassment flood him and could tell his cheeks were reddening again. He quickly looked away and slid the book even further from him, a silent statement of “this isn’t mine”. Kakashi chuckled and pulled a chair taking a seat, with his feet on the seat and his butt on the back of the chair.

“May I know what you are looking for?”

Sai made a strangled sound in the back of his throat, and Kakashi was surprised to see the young man become even more embarrassed. The man who usually wasn’t afraid to ask anything and never felt embarrassment was feeling torn about whatever it was he wanted to know. It was interesting to say the least.

“I, I am looking for answers about homosexual relations.” Sai mumbled.

Kakashi almost hadn’t caught the last two words, but he had and he smiled at Sai, “you are gay?”

“I do not know if wanting a man makes me gay, whatever that means, but I am interested in such acts.” Sai replied still not looking at Kakashi.

Kakashi placed his hand against his face, his elbow on his knee, “well are you attracted to women?”

“I am only attracted to this one person,” Sai confided.

He hadn’t realized it of coarse, that he’d given himself away to Kakashi. Now he wondered who it was, what man would get Sai’s interest. Kakashi looked away as if not fully interested, which seemed to put the other man at ease. Sai was so particular, the slightest flaw and he was not interested in you. Not to mention not to many people could put up with Sai, were they already together?

“Well, usually one starts with kissing and touching. Not to many people just jump into bed with another person.” Kakashi commented.

Sai let out a breath as if he were loosing patience, “we have already done such things. I did not know how to really do that either. The whole prospect of a relationship is daunting and confusing. He says he’s fine with what we have been doing, but I can tell he wants to do more. I don’t really know what more is other than sex, but how does one have sexual relations with another man?”

Kakashi was glad that he had a mask on, the sight of Sai getting all flustered was quite comical to say the least. The silver haired man hummed in his throat as if considering all that Sai had said, in reality he was trying to figure out what to say to it all. Sai’s dark eyes were on him, studying him closely waiting for him to answer.

“Well Sai,” he began strumming his fingers on his masked face. “there are different kinds of sex.”

“What?”

“There’s oral sex, manual sex, and of coarse the ever popular sexual intercourse.” Kakashi explained.

“There is more than one kind of sex?” Sai's face darkened into a frown and to Kakashi’s surprise he seemed to pout.

“Yep more than one.”

“What are these kinds of sex?”

“Well, oral is where you use your mouth. Manual is when you are using your hands, and intercourse..” He trailed off and swept his one eye over the stack of books.

Sai followed his gaze and his dark eyes became angry, irritated that the book had not deemed to tell him the secrets of “homosexual relations” as he had so named. Kakashi smiled under his mask and stuffed down his hearty laughter. He so wanted to know who this mystery man was that Sai wanted so badly to please. It had to be a nin, a civilian would never do.

“I will never understand any of this.” Sai grouched with a sigh and looked away from the aggravating pile.

“Has your partner had sex before?”

Sai looked at him then nodded.

“Then ask him to show you more.”

Sai seemed to consider this, “one is allowed to ask such things?”

“Generally that’s how it works.” Kakashi replied.

Sai seemed to be pleased then something else came to mind and the frown was back, “that only solves the immediate problem.”

“What’s this new problem?”

“I still do not know how to have sex with a another man.”

Kakashi ‘hmmed’ before answering, “usually when you ask the partner to show you more that would involve him showing you how to have sex as well.”

Sai seemed to deflate, obviously he didn’t want to be so clueless about it anymore. A surprise perhaps? It wasn’t very Sai-ish but none of this was who the man was, or at least not whom he’d thought anyway.

“What exactly have you done?” Kakashi asked, though so he could help the boy not to sate his inner perv or anything.

“I have done kissing, I have touched him, he has touched me..” Sai began until he looked up and saw Kakashi staring at him. Oh… the nin wanted details. “Sakura-chan is right you are a pervert.”

Kakashi looked taken aback offended, but Sai had been a shunobi long enough to see it’s mockery, “Sai-san I am not a pervert. I’m a dear sensei.”

Sai rolled his eyes and looked back out the window, “he would not be pleased if I told you. I am certain of this.”

“I don’t even know who he is.” Kakashi countered.

Sai’s eyes slid back to him placing his chin in his hand keeping his face towards the window, “you will be more observant now that I have confided my weakness.”

Kakashi studied him for a long silence, “if what you say is true it could be a strength.”

Sai’s eyes went back to stare out the window, “it is not allowed.”

Kakashi had a feeling that the man was speaking about not having a lover specifically because of his job. The weight those words carried implied that if they were found out there would be hell to be paid. It narrowed his search down, higher ranker for sure. There were loops holes for such things, but it had to be more complicated than that. Sai was good at finding loops holes, it was why the man was still alive. Had been able to be a double agent for Konoha against ROOT even with the silence seal placed on him.

“Is he foreign?” Kakashi asked testing the waters.

Sai didn’t even twitch, that was how good he was, but that also said things to Kakashi. The silver haired nin hadn’t gotten to where he was either by being stupid. Sai not making any indication one way or the other said more than if he had said no. Though he could be wrong, Sai was a tricky thing to figure out. Apparently there was someone out there that got him or Sai wouldn’t be here trying to figure out the finer details of sex between two men.

Kakashi sighed, and Sai looked back over at the man expectantly. There had been an indication that the silver haired man was going to tell him something important. He waited patiently, sometimes Kakashi could get nervous or become tongue tied about things too. Granted it didn’t seem to happen often but it did happen.

“I,” he paused. “have books you could read.”

“I am not interested in those books that pretend to be something more than pornographic in nature that you carry around.” Sai informed the older nin and non to politely either.

Kakashi chuckled, “everyone’s a critique I suppose. I’m not talking about those books.”

“What books could you have that I would be wishing to read then?”

Kakashi struggled with a decision for a moment before standing up, “follow me. I’ll take you to my place and you can see the books.”

Sai frowned and made no move to follow, “why must I go with you to find out what these books are?”

Kakashi had his one eye scan the area, “just come with your favorite sensei and you’ll find out.”

Sai stood, Kakashi noted his displeasure, and grabbed his bag to follow.

As they were about to exit the building Sai informed him, “I do not have favorites.”

Ah, Sai was always so refreshing for ones confidence.

*******

Sai refused to enter the large apartment before taking stock of everything and their placements. It had been a split second but Kakashi recognized it for what it was. He approved of course, and if he hadn’t been someone who’d known who Sai was he wouldn’t have been able to tell. The kid could be a genius at being a nin, but he had been training to be a nin long before he should have been.

“Well that’s what you’re looking for.” He pointed to a book shelf off to the corner.

Sai walked over to it and scanned the contents of all the books touching each and every one of them with his pointer finger.

“They are alphabetized.” Sai noted.

“Uh, yes.”

“You are not that organized, which leads me to believe you have a lover. Since you have homosexual books I would assume that it is a man.” Sai continued to scan for a moment, “you have in depth mystery novels here as well.”

Sai slid his eyes over knowingly to Kakashi. In three minuets he had figured out whom it was just by looking at the books. Other people had to look at the bathroom study the interior of his lodgings, and then even some wouldn’t get it. His closest friends hadn’t been able to get it in one go let alone three minuets. It just proved that Sai absorbed everything around him at all times even when he didn’t seem to be.

“If you could keep it a secret please?” Kakashi asked kindly.

Sai nodded, “it is not my secret to tell.”

“I can’t let you leave with the books, so you can sit at the table and read if you like.”

“If having a lover can be a strength why can’t you tell anyone?” Sai asked pulling one book off the shelf.

The book was green and warn, the edges of the binding fraying, Sai imagined it had been read many times. Kakashi seemed as some one who would glance at a book like this and then try what he saw not what he read. It meant his lover had been the one to bond with this book. It seemed to fit the warm brown eyes and shy smiled older man Naruto loved to death like a brother or father.

“A strength as in someone who can give you theirs when you are at your weakest. Hold you while you cry even though not a drop falls. Knowing that someone is thinking about you and worries if you are alright.” Kakashi said oddly revealing more to this boy than most anyone else.

Sai only ever seemed to tell the truth, it was hard not to return the favor sometimes. Sai didn’t look at him which was a relief, that would have been embarrassing if he’d seen the sappy look he’d had plastered on his face. Somehow Kakashi knew he’d done that deliberately.

Sai stayed crouched on the balls of his feet the book placed against his knees and tapped his right hand pointer finger on the cover. He waited until he was sure the other man was looking like his usual self. He might not understand the intricacies of social behaviors but he knew them. Kakashi had shared something intimate, it was always best not to look at someone when they were doing such things. Sakura had punched him once for doing it, he doubted Kakashi would do the same, but the pain of that bone cracking hit still lingered.

“Social courtesy dictates that I thank you for this kindness.” He said finally looking over at Kakashi.

Kakashi’s one eyes grimaced, “uh don’t think about it.”

Sai frowned, “you are supposed to say you are welcome I thought.”

A man coughed from the back door and Sai looked over at the man and gave him a brief smile. He was confidant that he had those down now as all he had to do was think of the children or … Unknowingly his eyes softened and his smile became lighter and carefree. Two other men stood astonished to see such an honest face on him.

Sai didn’t really care when the image of a certain redhead came to mind, those sea green eyes intelligently watching over the children, and the other people he cared about. It now included him, he was apart of something. He was apart of someone’s thought process and it made his chest warm.

“You are right Kakashi-sensei.”

“Oh?”

“These things can give you strength too.”

Kakashi’s one eye smiled, “well I’m glad.”

“So what do I owe this visit for Kakashi?” Iruka asked.

“Sai needed a little help sorting some things out.”

“I wanted to know how to have sexual relations with another man.” Sai clarified as he stood.

If Kakashi wasn’t so worried about the repercussions of Iruka’s wrath from allowing another to read his books, he would have laughed his ass of when the man’s eyes turned wide, face blushing, before passing out. Sai went to the table Kakashi had mentioned before, leaving the silver haired nin to see after his fallen comrade.

Well at least he never had to worry about not understanding what Sai meant.

~TBC~

Author Note: Whoo! Yet another full filling chapter of Black Sand. I'm pretty damn happy with this chapter. It came out quite easy actually. I had alot of fun writing this one. Hopefully you have fun reading it!! ...Poor Iruka-sensei. To all my reaers! I love you guys so much! So....if you can guess... what the next move fore Sai may be... let me know and uh... I will give you ten cookies!! Yay! (it's not what you think I bet.)
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