Mine

Mine

Chapter 9: Sasuke’s Yin to Naruto’s Yang

Naruto could merely stare at his hands as he listened to everything that Tsunade told him. Last night he had originally come to the Hokage Tower to demand answers from Tsunade in order to see if what Sasuke had told him was true or not. Naturally everything that had happened with Sakura had driven it to the back of his mind. Instead of instantly demanding answers upon seeing Tsunade, last night upon seeing the Godaime Hokage, he and Tsunade had immediately begun making preparations. They had made sure that when he left with her that they had a communication system set-up in order to let them know what was going on.

That had all been shot to hell when Sakura had escaped without him – though it appeared that Sasuke had helped her escape. Naruto wasn't sure how he felt about that. Sakura had clearly accepted Sasuke’s help over his own, and there was something unsettling in that knowledge. His feeling of helplessness increased at the knowledge that she had wanted him to stay in Konoha to stay alive and had taken Sasuke’s aid instead of his own.

Why did everyone think they knew what was best for him? Didn't he even get a say in anything? Listening to Tsunade explain that she had been trying to protect him from feeling helpless, from feeling like there was anything wrong made him feel angry. He honestly appreciated that his friends were concerned for him, he was very grateful for that, but wasn't it his choice what he wanted?

"So Sasuke was acting on your orders?" Naruto asked. Tsunade nodded. Naruto had had a hard time believing Sasuke when he had said that it was a mission. It was such an absurd situation that who in their right mind could have believed there was such a mission? "You mean to tell me, that the only way I can be kept alive is if Sasuke..." Naruto trailed off, unable to voice his thoughts. He made a few hand gestures that Tsunade understood well enough to nod her head in confirmation.

"Yes."

"That's the stupidest thing I've ever heard," Naruto said. "It's utter bullshit."

"Well this bullshit has kept you alive," Tsunade said, somehow managing to make her comment sound much lighter than it normally would have.

"I don't understand why no one told me. You and Sasuke have been lying to me for three years," Naruto accused.

"Naturally Sakura wasn't so happy to hear about it either," Tsunade said wryly, as she gently ran her finger down her slightly crooked nose, indicating that was what had sparked their “fight.”

"Did Sasuke want to do the mission?" Naruto asked. Tsunade shook her head.

"Not initially. But after a while, he became extremely enthusiastic about it," Tsunade said. Naruto raised his eyebrows, and Tsunade elaborated before he had a chance to ask a question. "I'd had a feeling for a long time with the way that you were so overtly obsessed over Sasuke, that you might have feelings for him."

"He's like my brother, of course I have feelings for him," Naruto said automatically, and then added, "even if he is a lying son of a bitch, and I feel like I want to punch his lights out."

"Naruto, those aren't the feelings I mean. I thought there might be some romantic interest on your part and on his part. I thought of the two of you, he would be the less likely to say something. I thought I was giving him the opportunity to talk to you about it. I didn't realize you were still so enamored with Sakura," Tsunade said.

"It wasn't your business to play matchmaker with me!" Naruto yelled. Tsunade didn't flinch and looked completely unlike herself in Naruto's mind's eye. Normally she would have given some smart-ass retort, but instead she just looked sad.

"It wasn't my business. I made a gamble, and as usual, I lost," Tsunade said. Naruto turned away, wishing that Tsunade hadn't referred to his relationships like gambling. He instead focused his eyes on a bookshelf off to the side.

"Sakura's gone," Naruto said mournfully. Tsunade nodded. "Why did she leave without me?" Naruto asked miserably, staring at the books, as though one of them could possibly give him the answer.

"She wanted you to have a clean slate for when you become Hokage," Tsunade murmured. Naruto rolled his eyes, and he was sure Tsunade could see his eyes roll even if his head was turned somewhat.

"Of course, but there hasn't even been a search for a Rokudaime Hokage yet," Naruto said.

"That's because I've already named you as Rokudaime if I die suddenly," Tsunade said. Naruto whipped his head back from where he had been examining the bookshelf.

"What?" Naruto gasped. Tsunade nodded.

"Do you think I would have taken such lengthy precautions to save your life without due cause? Think about a few other things here Naruto. How would it look to people if they knew that the Rokudaime has to have a man shove a dick up his ass in order to keep him alive? There would be a plethora of people would use that against you as a weakness, the least of whom being Sasuke himself. I know you and he have always been close, but think of your past. He could – and has – used his power against you."

"Though he didn't really use it this time. He could have, but he didn't," Naruto said. Tsunade raised her eyebrows obviously surprised at the way Naruto was defending Sasuke.

"So you're not mad at him?" Tsunade asked.

"Mad at him? Of course I'm mad at him! I’m beyond pissed off at the selfish bastard. He didn't tell me what was going on. He lied to me! If he really has been keeping me alive, why hasn't he just told me? He's supposed to be my friend; my best friend. Why couldn't he have asked me? He's been toying with my mind. If he had just told me, Sakura would have known, and she wouldn't have left! And you're a liar too!" Naruto yelled.

"Naruto-"

"You don't understand Baa-chan. If this was reversed, I would have asked him. If this was reversed, I would have given Sasuke a choice. I thought he would have done the same. Instead he's been keeping this to himself. He could have alleviated my worry, but he didn't, and I don't get why. He has this supposed "hold" over me, yet he was keeping it to himself. Secretive. It just...it just hurts," Naruto said, and he grasped his hand over his heart.

"Have you thought about why he kept it a secret?" Tsunade asked.

"No," Naruto said. Tsunade sighed.

"Didn't you listen to anything I said about him having feelings for you?"

"That can't be it. If he did, he would have told me. And besides, I know he doesn't. Something else is going on, and whatever it is, I don't like it."

Tsunade merely shook her head. Naruto wasn't making sense.

"Naruto, your thoughts are all jumbled. You're not making sense. You're running things around in circles. You're completely ignoring that Sasuke's in love with you."

"No he's not. That's stupid. He's a guy, and I'm a guy. I like girls, and I'm in love with Sakura. Sasuke can't be in love with me. I’d know if he was."

Tsunade shook her head. Naruto was purposefully not allowing himself to believe that Sasuke had feelings for him because it would put Naruto at a complete impasse. Tsunade had a strong feeling that if Naruto had had the opportunity, he would have chosen to be more romantically involved with Sasuke than Sakura, even if Naruto himself hadn’t known it. She realized she was getting no where with this topic though, so she decided to at least give Naruto a bit more of an upper hand over Sasuke. It was so weird to see Naruto be so close to Sasuke, and know him so intimately, yet know very little about Sasuke’s psychology. She would never understand Naruto's obsession with Sasuke. Even now, when Naruto was clearly angry with Sasuke for lying to him, even though he was hurting because Sakura had left him behind because of Sasuke’s (and her own for that matter) lack of honesty, he was still defending Sasuke.

"I think I explained to you already your imbalance of chakra, haven't I?"

"Yes," Naruto said impatiently.

"I also told you that Sasuke has a similar imbalance, correct?"

"I have too much Yang chakra, and he has too much Yin charka, yes, you told me," Naruto snapped.

"I already explained the complications too much Yang chakra has for you, but I haven't told you the problems that having too much Yin chakra has had for Sasuke," Tsunade said.

"Problems for Sasuke?" Naruto asked. Tsunade nodded.

"You said that if you were in Sasuke's place, you would have given him the choice. Let’s just switch the scenarios. You see, Sasuke shouldn't have been using his sharingan in order to make you unaware of what was going on. I even warned him – though I don't think he understood why. I would have told him if he had confessed that he was having poor eyesight, which I suspect, but he has not had the desire to confide in me about. You see, I told him to tell you so he wouldn't have to use the sharingan to force you, " Tsunade said.

"He’s saving my life. He wouldn’t have had to force me if the asshole has just explained the situation," Naruto grumbled. Tsunade continued as though she hadn’t heard his interruption.

"As you may or not know, yin and yang are also sometimes separated into terms heaven and earth, spirituality (or mentality) and physical (or corporal). As you probably know, Sasuke's curse seal is the Heaven seal, a yin seal which gives him imbalance. Now, a major difference between yin and yang is its point of origin. Yin is secreted from the intestines while yang is secreted from the pores. The yin chakra moves within the five viscera, the heart, liver, lungs, spleen and right kidney. His chakra points are being subjected to a much greater concentration of yin chakra – and since yin chakra is related to the mind, his emotions and moods are greatly affected by the offset. Yin chakra tends to make someone more passive, cold, and give off an air of darkness-"

"That's Sasuke alright. So you mean to tell me he's such a broody ass of a bastard because he has too much yin chakra?" Naruto asked. Tsunade finally allowed herself a smirk.

"Yang chakra is bright, active, and strong. You do have an excess of those qualities, so I have a feeling your own imbalance might have affected your moods and personality somewhat as well. Anyway-" Tsunade said, her voice once again serious and more in her "medical nin" tone, "he has a different way to release his chakra than you do."

"What do you mean?" Naruto asked.

"What I mean is that you cannot help Sasuke with his imbalance the same way he helps you. The yin chakra is stemmed from the intestines and is released through his spleen chakra point, aka his reproductive organ. Your yang chakra is released through your pores, but not released enough. Believe it or not, you need to sweat during sex in order to release your yang chakra. If the places were reversed, and he had as much excessive yin chakra as you have yang, he’d have to drink pints of your sweat in order to off-set his balance.”

"That's gross."

"I didn't make the laws of nature. Don't complain to me about them."

"It's still gross," Naruto added. Tsunade put a hand to her head.

"The point I'm trying to make is that while your imbalance is much more serious on a physical level, Sasuke's lesser imbalance yin chakra causes a list of other problems. I'll let you look at the list yourself," Tsunade said, taking out a piece of paper, and handing it to Naruto.

Naruto read the list, a lot of the problems reminding him of Sasuke, and his eyes widened at just how many of the problems he felt Sasuke suffered from.


Depression, lack of grounding, lack of inspiration (due to being disconnected from the spiritual source), headaches, poor eyesight, lack of concentration, difficulty communicating, ego, emotions get caught in the throat, anger, heart problems, rigidity, lack of love, lack of will, overemphasis on power, anger, poor digestion, eating disorders, fear, hate, sexual problems, jealousy, possessiveness, uterine or bladder problems, lower back pain, violence, anger, constipation, and survival fears. (1)


"Of these I think the one that has been affected the most due to his chakra imbalance is poor eyesight. While he has yet to tell me of his decreasing eyesight, I noticed that he seems to have been having more problems with eyesight than he lets on. The defocusing of his eyes, the few times I've seen him put a hand to rub at his eyes. From what Kakashi has told me, the mangekyou sharingan has a history of causing sharingan users to go blind." Naruto's head shot up at that remark.

"Sasuke doesn't have the mangekyou sharingan," Naruto said defensively.

"No. But he is having eyesight problems. I am sure he thinks he is going blind. He isn't. Just has poor eyesight. I believe he has been willing (though mistaken) to risk his eyesight to make sure he keeps you alive without your knowledge. He has no idea that it’s his own imbalance that’s causing it. My guess is that he has an inkling that it somehow related to how he used the sharingan to have sex with you. Which is true, to an extent. His poor eyesight is increased due to how he releases his yin chakra through his orgasm, and the increased levels of yin his chakra the flow to his eyes, thus resulting in greater damage to them," Tsunade explained.

“So his attempt to ‘save me’ is actually hurting him more?” Naruto asked. Tsunade shrugged.

“It’s possible. It’s also possible that his imbalance would have damaged his eyes anyway. Even so, my guess is that he thinks it’s somehow related to using his sharingan on you. Now tell me Naruto, do you really think Sasuke would give up his eyesight without a good reason?” Tsunade asked.

Naruto looked down at the list in his head. Depression...lack of inspiration...poor eyesight...difficulty communicating, ego, emotions get caught in the throat...rigid, lack of love, lack of will, overemphasis on power, anger...fear, hate...jealousy, possessiveness...survival fears.

"If your life did not depend on Sasuke, but rather his depended on yours to help get rid of these, what would you do? And would you tell him about how weak he is without you?" Tsunade asked. Naruto looked at the list.

Lack of love.

"I would tell him. He would deserve the truth, even if it’s gross that he has to drink my sweat. I wouldn’t like, collect my sweat and put it in his tea without telling him or anything. Even so it’s still not the same," Naruto said.

"Yes, youwould tell him. But don't you think part of Sasuke realizes he needs you to live just as much you need him? Sasuke isn't you. What would Sasuke do?"

Naruto once again looked at the list. Overemphasis on power...difficulty communicating...survival fears. Naruto snorted.

"He wouldn't tell me because he's scared for himself. Scared I'd reject him somehow. If I had too much yin, he’d put it in my ramen without telling me." Naruto made a disgusted face at that thought. “He’d probably not tell me because he’d be scared I’d reject his help.”

"And to him, you did. You chose Sakura over him, and it was hard for him to take because he loves you," Tsunade said. Naruto narrowed his eyes, and slammed his hand down on Tsunade's table.

"What are you getting at?! Are you rooting for Sakura or for Sasuke? You're supposed to be rooting for Sakura! She's your pupil. You supposedly hate Sasuke, yet here you are defending him for me. He fucking lied to me and fucking raped me. What if I would have rather died?" Naruto asked.

"You don't mean that," Tsunade whispered, her eyes wide.

"The hell I don't! I love Sakura, and I would die to be with her. I'd rather be with her than Sasuke. Sasuke doesn't love me. He's just possessive, that's all," Naruto said, pointing to the word on the list in front of him. "He has power issues, he always had. He's my friend, but he doesn't love me. Why do you keep saying he loves me?"

"Because it's easier to hope that he loves you a fraction of how much you love him."

Naruto took a step back as though Tsunade had slapped him.

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?"

"It means I think you love Sasuke. You’ve been obsessed with him for the majority of your life. It also means I think you two need each other. His yin to your yang. You’re his other half."

"My other half left because Sasuke and you both lied," Naruto said. With that, he turned from Tsunade's office and stormed off.

"Don't forget you have a mission tomorrow to go to Sand and inform them that Sakura might come to them for help!" Tsunade called after him, but he was already out the door. She shook her head. She really hoped he wasn't going to do anything stupid.

- - - - - - - - - - - -

Sasuke was surprised when there was a banging on his front door, and even more surprised to feel the strong chakra spike on the other side.

To Sasuke, it looked like Naruto was just as emotionless to see him as he had been the last time. To Sasuke, Naruto's face was still the same expressionless mask that he had worn since after Naruto had punched Sasuke to snap him out of his stupor. Sasuke was surprised to see Naruto standing at his door. He was surprised that Naruto had come back to him after everything. He was scared stiff that Naruto's emotionless mask meant that he hated Sasuke beyond words. He knew Naruto blamed him for Sakura leaving. It was, after all, partially his fault.

"Naruto?" Sasuke asked, opening the door wider. But Naruto didn’t talk to him. He strode by Sasuke, not bothering to even glance at him. Sasuke stared wordlessly as Naruto continued to walk through his house. The stunned shinobi followed his unspeaking friend to his bedroom. His face still blank, still not speaking, Naruto began to strip. Sasuke's eyes went wide, wondering if he was really seeing Naruto stripping in his room. There didn't seem to be any logic behind what Naruto was doing, and Sasuke could only stare open mouthed as he watched Naruto strip off the last of his clothes. His friend's body was as perfect as ever, yet Naruto’s body was as unresponsive as Sasuke had recalled seeing it in ages. Naruto's cock hung completely limp and lifeless, and Sasuke was sure that this was no mirage or fantasy because in all of his dreams and fantasies, Naruto came to him willingly, happily, and utterly hard. Not like this: emotionless and un-wanting.

Still, Naruto lied down on his stomach on Sasuke's bed, crossing his arms underneath his chin, staring at nothing in particular. Sasuke didn't dare move, unsure of what to do, unsure of Naruto's intentions. Was this some sort of test? Was Naruto giving him an opportunity to redeem himself? 'Resist me and I'll forgive you?' Sasuke stood, desperately wracking his mind, cursing his supposed genius at his inability to understand what Naruto was doing.

Minutes passed. Sasuke watched as the clock on his bedside table ticked by a full twenty minutes before Naruto finally spoke.

"I haven't got all day," Naruto's voice was low, and seemed extremely sad.

"I-I don't understand," Sasuke finally had to admit. Naruto finally lifted his head off from his arms, and looked over his exposed shoulder to glare at Sasuke. Sasuke's heart fluttered that Naruto's face had finally lost its emotionless expression, even if it was to stare at him angrily.

"Don't you have a mission to continue to fulfill?" Naruto demanded. He turned his head away from Sasuke. Horrible realization filled Sasuke, even before Naruto continued. "Now's best for me. I have a mission to go on that I'll be gone for a few days. Don’t get me wrong, I think you’re an ass, but I do appreciate you keeping me alive. And you did promise Sakura you were going to keep me alive, right?" Naruto questioned, his eyes once again set at staring at nothing in particular, and certainly not looking at Sasuke.

Sasuke's hands began to shake with anger at himself and with the utter pain the he felt. Naruto had come to him because he had to out of necessity – not because he wanted to. Naruto was going to be fully awake, fully aware, and fully unresponsive.

Sasuke took a deep breath, and slowly removed his clothes, anything to delay him from having to do what he knew he had to. He hadn't truly regarded having sex with Naruto as just a mission in so long. He had regarded it as his only opportunity to make love to the one he desperately couldn't live without. He saw it as a way he could make Naruto feel good physically, even if it was only a tenth as good as Naruto made him feel emotionally. Making love to Naruto was a blessing, had been a silent burden that had made him stronger and made him feel worthy. Forcing himself on Naruto – though he knew that's what he had been doing - hadn't felt like this before. This felt forced. This felt like true rape. Naruto knew. Naruto was there, of his own accord even if unwillingly so. But he was there unwillingly in the sense that he was only there to live – not because he wanted Sasuke.

Finally unclothed, Sasuke looked down at his own body, looking at his pathetically limp member. Sasuke tried to will erotic images of their past experiences to his mind, willing himself to become hard. He knew he needed to orgasm to "fulfill his mission," but the images weren't working. His body refused to become aroused when Naruto was so unhappy. Sasuke wrapped his hand firmly around his cock, but even pumping himself did little to get him to feel what he knew he needed to feel.

"Damnit," Sasuke cursed weakly under his breath. Tsunade had given him aphrodisiac pills (real ones this time) a while ago when she had learned that he hadn't planned on telling Naruto. She had made it seem like what he was doing should be more mission-like than what he had been doing. Sasuke had almost thrown the pills away because he thought he would never need help being aroused around Naruto. How wrong he had been! And how grateful he was that he had them still. He quickly exited his bedroom, dashing down to his kitchen, and popped several pills down, not bothering to read her recommended dosage. He ran back to his room, fearing that Naruto would have left in the time that he had been gone, only to see Naruto looking as completely and utterly emotionless as he had when Sasuke had left.

Sasuke had half a mind to hit Naruto just to get him to react. This was not the Naruto he knew. The Naruto he knew would have been yelling, protesting, angry, hurt – something! This was far worse than any vile words he felt Naruto ought to be yelling at him, far worse than any physical pain that Naruto could have inflicted upon him. Sasuke felt so alone in Naruto's silence. He wondered if Naruto knew that he was making him feel so utterly alone. Knowing Naruto, and his attuned senses in reading how people were feeling, he knew perfectly well how much he was isolating Sasuke. It was clear, despite his seemingly emotionless state, Naruto was still pissed off at him.

Grabbing the lube he kept in the nightstand next to his bed, Sasuke popped open the cap, pouring some onto his hand. He coated himself, relaxing almost slightly as his cock finally flatted to life. He then took some of the lube, and began to press his fingers to Naruto's entrance.

"What are you doing?" Naruto asked, his voice annoyed.

"Preparing your body," Sasuke said mechanically.

"What for?" Naruto asked, still annoyed.

"What for? So you don't tear," Sasuke explained.

"You're taking too long. Skip it. I need to leave soon," Naruto said.

"You'll tear," Sasuke repeated. Naruto turned to face Sasuke, his annoyance now clear on his face.

"I heal fast. Skip it," Naruto said, once again turning away from Sasuke. Sasuke threw the bottle back into the top drawer, his hands and body shaking. He had had sex with Naruto on several occasions when he hadn't prepared Naruto's body for him. He recalled in perfect detail the way that Naruto seemed to enjoy those more, and it was almost a silent taunt for him, wondering if Naruto had any idea how much his own body seemed to enjoy the experiences even more when Sasuke took Naruto unprepared, but he doubted it. No. Naruto was asking him to knowingly risk tearing his body.

Sasuke could never have imagined feeling so horrible as his body felt so good while he entered Naruto's body. Naruto's face still showed no emotion as Sasuke began to move inside him. Sasuke bit his lip, half expecting Naruto to moan in pleasure, to make some sort of sound, to see some sort of reaction like he normally had in the past, but none came.

After over fifteen minutes of continuous thrusting, continuous movement, Sasuke knew that he wasn't going to be able to orgasm. The pills may have gotten him hard, and the movements may have kept him hard, but it was Naruto's reaction, the idea that he was pleasing Naruto that had always gotten him off.

Now, he feared he was hurting Naruto. The idea that he hadn't prepared Naruto's body and was still thrusting in dry after so long, the idea that Naruto hated him just made it impossible for his body to want to continue, despite some of the pleasure. He was about to give up, about to explain, when Naruto spoke.

"Hurry it up. I told you I haven't got all day," Naruto said, his voice low. Sasuke's movements stopped for a moment, and even inside of Naruto he could feel his body want to quit, until he risked glancing at Naruto's face. He nearly sighed in relief. Naruto's face was still set forward, but his eyes were closed, and he was biting his lip, but even Sasuke could tell that Naruto wasn't in pain. His voice had come out low and not annoyed because Naruto was enjoying what Sasuke was doing to him.

Naruto was enjoying it – even if he wasn't meaning to – and that was all that mattered to Sasuke. He picked up his speed, his troubled mind finally willing to co-operate with his wanting body. It only took another minute for Sasuke to finally orgasm, his eyes closed, silently wording Naruto's name in ecstasy as his body slammed forward. He wrenched open his eyes, looking at Naruto's face, seeing that Naruto's eyes were still closed, seeing him panting slightly, though trying hard not to, his mouth opened in a silent scream of pleasure. Sasuke finished riding his orgasm, and pulled slowly out of Naruto. Naruto slowly opened his eyes, turning his face away from Sasuke, but Sasuke could see Naruto's profile in enough detail to see the emotions flickering across his face. Sasuke smirked.

Sasuke was about to ask if Naruto wanted him to help him get-off, but the smirk vanished from his face when Naruto got up abruptly, the front of his body completely blocked from view as he hastily pulled his clothes back on.

"I'll be back in a week. Next time, figure out a way to fulfill your mission faster. When I become Hokage, I won't tolerate such lack of discipline and preparation," Naruto said icily as he finished dressing. He didn't bother to look at Sasuke as he walked by him. Sasuke could merely stand stunned. Naruto's voice had sounded different, completely unlike Naruto. If he hadn't seen Naruto's lips moving, he would have thought it had come from a different person.

Sasuke stood stark naked in his room, the smell of sex still lingering. If it weren't for the fact that Naruto still needed him to live, he would have taken a kunai to his heart just to stop the exploding pain he felt.

- - - - - - - - - - - -

As he walked through Sasuke's house, Naruto's facade finally crumbled. The emotions were too overwhelming for him. He was never one to bottle anything up, and it was only a matter of time before everything exploded. He wished he could have waited until he left Sasuke's house – just a little bit further – but he had been bottled up for too long.

"Kuso!" Naruto yelled, nearly crying as he lashed out, punching a hole in one of Sasuke's walls. He took deep shuddering breaths. He was angry, so angry, and mostly with himself.

Why had he enjoyed that so much?

He was married to Sakura and nothing – nothing – that they had ever done had made him feel so much as what Sasuke had just done to him. He hadn't even wanted it – or at least, he hadn't thought he had.

When Sasuke had tried to "stretch" him, placing his fingers on his ass had somehow made his body come utterly alive under Sasuke's touch. No matter what he had tried to do, his body knew Sasuke's touch, and he craved it. It had cost him all his will power not to moan at the foreign, yet somehow extremely familiar, touch. He had demanded Sasuke to get on with it because Naruto had been so afraid he would want to touch Sasuke back, so afraid that he would break his vows to Sakura.

Sakura. Naruto cursed. He had practically forgotten about her. Naruto had tried hard imagining Sakura's face while Sasuke entered him, but he hadn't been able to. All he could remember was the image he had seen of Sasuke when he had woken up with Sasuke inside him, the way that Sasuke's face had seemed so blissful and perfect. The movements between the two times had been different. Naruto had woken up pleasured in the heat of Sasuke's passions. This time, Sasuke had been reluctant and scared, as though afraid Naruto would disappear.

He was a horrible person for enjoying how much he had controlled Sasuke, wasn't he? Naruto punched another hole in the wall before storming out of Sasuke's house, slamming the door as he left.

There was a part of Naruto that had wanted to tell Sasuke to lick him, to taste his body, perhaps see if lapping at his sweating body would alleviate some of his eyesight problems, but Naruto hadn’t dared. He feared he would have liked Sasuke’s tongue on his body too much.

His strides were long as he mentally yelled at himself for enjoying the way that Sasuke paid attention to him, for the way that he had seemingly controlled Sasuke.

Tsunade had been right about him, been right about how much he was somehow obsessed over Sasuke. He yelled at himself for the way he had ached so long to know that he was as important to Sasuke as Sasuke had been to him. Yelled at himself for having craved Sasuke's attentions since they were children, craving his friend's presence, spent three years of his life chasing after him, obsessed with him. Yelled at himself for only feeling okay when Sasuke was around, knowing that Sasuke was the only one that had ever understood him in the way he needed to be understood.

He yelled at himself for being mentally unfaithful to Sakura, whom he also loved. She had been there for him when he had needed someone too. He loved her. Naruto knew that, but – he also loved Sasuke. Were they different kinds of love? Were they the same kind of love? And whom did he feel stronger about?

Naruto cursed at himself, knowing which feeling was stronger, which one controlled him, and had controlled him since he had been a lonely child. He yelled at himself for being so easily controlled by one person.

He yelled at himself again for being unfaithful to Sakura. Sakura had fought for him, had made sure that he would fulfill his dream. Yet in some ways, he felt betrayed. She had left without him. He was mad at her for leaving without him.

He was furious that Tsunade had seemed to know that there was something more between him and Sasuke than even Naruto had realized. He hated not knowing if Sasuke really had feelings for him or not. Was it just some sick twist of imbalance of yin and yang? Naruto was just furious at the way he was no longer in control of his life.

And he was furious at Sasuke for the way Sasuke controlled his body – and his heart.

(1) Feel free to e-mail me for the website which I got all these symptoms from.

Yes, I know I’m taking some liberties with chakra again, but since there is nothing saying otherwise, and from what evidence I have found in my research, it’s not implausible.

What did you think? ~ Jelp