Red

late update again! I know.. *groanes* buuut.. SEF is soon finished. and then this will be my pri. yay??



oh!oh! send my beta annieme(my superstar wifey. I love you!! *kisses all over*) some love for betaing this in what?? five hours from i sendt it to her and getting it back. even when she is sick..and all doped up on pain killers. seriously.. she beated this with one hand.. coz she has shingles... chicpox in her right arm?????!!! weird shit! anywaaaays! thnx hon!and feel better soon..



KatFo: XD yes, bad bad sasuke.. *evil glint in eyes*



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Blisblop: XD thank you thank you. I love it when I can spark something in my readers. Lol! Other than tendrils of erhm.. sexual frustration?? Lol! Hum...yes,the girl was supposed to be like that. Mhm.. ever seen a girl drooling over an alpha male.. XD.. its quite entertaining really. Wahahaha!! Anywayssss.. domo arrrigato for the nice rev! *licks face before running away squeeeeing*





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It was another two hours and Kakashi still hadn’t came back home. Two hours of Gaara sitting in his usual place on the windowsill.. just watching the moon as it climbed it’s familiar path up the darkening sky, illuminating the town below alongside blinking little pinpricks littering the sky in random patterns. While he contemplated all the new things, all the information making him feel dazed. It was all too much, and he found himself remembering new fragments of the conversation he had had with the boy, Sasuke.. on the beach.



He didn’t know what to think, how to feel..



Now he knew. Knew.. just what he was... A monster. A killer. And an immortal.. never changing, forever the same.. like those boys in Peter Pan, yes.. a lost boy, never ever growing old. That idea scared him even more than the idea of the monster in his head.



He really did have a monster in his head. A bijuu?? Was it?.. an ancient monster that had lived in his head, his body, ever since he was a baby.. a little over seven hundred years ago. Seven fucking hundred years! So long.. too long. And here kakashi had been worried he was under 18. Gaara snickered a sarcastic laugh to that.



And then there was the name.. Gaara. His name.. Gaara. Yes, it felt fittingly that he was named after a demon. And it felt familiar, the way it sounded and the way it felt on his tongue..



Gods.. at least there was a upside to all this.. now he could get kakashi to moan that name when he was lost in pleasure.. not "Red" but "Gaara". His real name.. him. So that Gaara would get that feeling, that.. yes. This was his name rolling from that mouth, those lips while that body spasmed and came for him.



But what about this other boy. Sasuke.. pretty, pretty Sasuke. That had said he loved him, missed him. Could he trust that? Yes.. even if a part of him warned him, silent whispers of deception, he wanted to believe that pretty boy. Selfish as it might sound, he wanted him to be his, needed that feeling that someone had loved him. Still loved him, missed him.he wasn’t alone..



But then what about him and Kakashi? His perfect, sweet.. sex god Kakashi. He couldn’t, wouldn’t give him up. No..no matter what happened, he would keep Kakashi.

‘But. Oh god! What if Kakashi doesn’t want me anymore now?’ Gaara suddenly felt sick. What, what if.. if Kakashi didn’t want anything to do with a killer. Of course Gaara would understand. But could he handle that?



‘No..’



Maybe it was for the best if he didn’t say anything? Maybe he should just pretend he never met Sasuke, make it all go back to the way things were before he had approached him?



Gaara groaned and rubbed his temples, this was giving him a headache.



“Red?” Kakashi’s soft voice broke through the deafening silence in the little house. Gaara had been so preoccupied with all the new information, he had even forgot to turn on the radio. And with the dogs out in their pen, the house was so silent. Gaara was surprised he hadn’t heard the demon whisper to him.



“Red? Are you here?”



“Here..”



“Oh.. It was so silent I thought maybe you had gone to bed early.” Kakashi smiled at his lover and padded over to kiss that soft mouth, ruffle Red’s hair. Gods, he had only been gone for four hours, and he had already missed him. ‘How the hell am I going to survive monday?’



“No.. I was just, MmmM,” Gaara smiled at Kakashi as the doctor kissed him gently, threading long fingers through his hair. He felt the headache evaporate into nothing.



“Just what?”



“Nothing.. I was just thinking.” Gaara smiled and wrapped his arms around Kakashi’s neck, silently asking to be picked up. He knew he was a bit big for this, but he loved it when he was carried by his lover. Especially like this, with his legs wrapped around Kakashi’s waist.



Kakashi carried him over to the couch and flopped down, careful not to crush Red’s legs. Deepening the kiss the moment he didn’t have to multitask with carrying his lover alongside trying to kiss him into a puddle of goo.



Gaara was sitting on Kakashi’s lap, grinding so deliciously down on Kakashi’s erection. Rubbing it with his own through the fabric of their pants.



“Love me?”

He was shocked to hear the words leave his mouth. Had no idea why he said them. He wanted dearly to take them back. And the way his lover had stiffened under him the moment he mouthed them against soft lips.. oh god. Now he had gone and ruined it all. Not only stepped in the salad, but rolled around in it to boot..



But then those lips smiled against his, and he pulled back to see Kakashi’s eyes crinkle in a little smile. A playful glint appeared and disappeared in those grey eyes before Kakashi hugged him closer, leaning his forehead against Gaara’s, or Red’s..



“Yes.” Kakashi pecked Gaara’s lips before he stared into teal eyes, those big, big eyes. Fuck.. he had never seen eyes like this. Too dazzling. And the flow of emotions in them now. Making them glow with love, so much love. Kakashi knew he didn’t have to ask. He could see it, could fucking feel it radiate from the other’s body. But he wanted to hear it. That sweet voice had to say it.



“Love me?”



And there it was. Just the thing he wanted. That sweet voice coupled with the biggest smile Kakashi had ever seen on that face. “Yes.. I love you Kakashi..”



“And I love you Red.”



Gaara felt something heavy tug at his heart. No.. not Red. He wasn’t Red. He was Gaara. Fuck! He had to tell Kakashi. Kakashi had the right to know who he was. What he was. Oh god.. Kakashi, handsome, cool Kakashi that had just said he loved him. And now.. now Gaara had to flip his world around. What if Kakashi didn’t want him now.



He felt tears press against the backs of his eyes, while his throat grew ten sizes too big. Forming a painful lump. What the hell was this?



Something wet ran down his cheek, and he knew it was a tear. A salty little tear. He was so afraid to lose kakashi. So he hugged him close, wrapped his arms around Kakashi’s neck and smothered him close. Voicing his biggest concern. “Don’t leave me?”



Kakashi didn’t really know how to react to this, hadn’t expect this reaction from his lover when he told him that he loved him. Tears? And that desperate look in those eyes. For what? And now Red had asked him not to leave, of course he wouldn’t leave.



He did the only thing he could do and crushed his lover close, kissing at Red’s neck, smelling in that intoxicating smell of Red. “I love you Red, I would never leave you baby. Open your eyes baby, look at me.. I love you.”



“No.. no. Not Red. I-I’m not Red..”



‘Not Red?’ Kakashi felt confused. What was Red talking about? Not Red?



“Gaara.. I’m Gaara. That’s my name.. Gaara."



“Gaara?” It took a couple of moments before it all sank in, and like a rock hitting the bottom of a well shaft it all flowed over Kakashi’s mind. Red.. no Gaara, remembered. Had gotten his memory back. At least some of it. But that was great! Why..why was he crying then? He shouldn’t be crying. Should be smiling. And why didn’t he tell Kakashi right away? What was this insecurity he could feel seeping from his lover?



“But that’s great Red! Gaara... I mean Gaara. That’s such a pretty name. I like it. Hm.. My Gaara.” Kakashi took a soft grip around Gaara’s chin and tilted the boy’s head up, shocked to see the steady flow of tears running down soft white skin.



“Baby what’s wrong?”



“I’m...I’m not what you think I am.” The voice was so low Kakashi almost, just almost didn’t hear it.



“What do you mean?” Kakashi wiped away the tears with the pads of his thumbs staring at his lover in confusion.



“I’m.. I’m a monster.”



“What do you mean baby. I don’t understand. Please.. what happened?”



“Everythings a mess..” Gaara shook his head and looked down. He felt so hot. Too hot. He regretted opening his mouth. Everything felt so confusing. But just because he used to be a killer, didn’t mean he had to keep killing, right? Even if he wanted to. And that scared him, he wanted to kill.. craved to feel the life of another person seeping out from them, he craved to feel that power. He shook his head again and looked down. No..he would never do that again. Not as long as he had Kakashi with him..



“I-I’ll explain later ok? But I’m Gaara.. that’s my name. Please don’t leave me..”



“Of course I won’t leave you baby.. explain when you feel ready, ok?” Kakashi hugged his lover close again, petting soft red curls. Oh god.. it was so adorable the way Gaara’s hair curled slightly in the neck when it grew long enough.



Gaara nodded into the nape of Kakashi’s neck. Sniffling softly, ignoring the silent whispers from the monster inside. ‘He will never love you now.. he’ll hate you. Who would want a killer? And what about Sasuke? He’ll come back.. he said he would call. What if Kakashi answers? What then? Then Kakashi will know that you lied..’



‘But I didn’t lie..’



‘Not telling can be just as bad as lying Gaara..’



Gaara frowned, cuddling closer into the soft fabric of Kakashi’s shirt, and he slowly, silently started whispering the story Sasuke had told him, all the while clinging close to Kakashi’s chest. His knuckles white from the death grip he had on the fabric. He would never let Kakashi go. And he made sure to tell Kakashi that. He didn’t say anything about him and Sasuke, and their relationship.. that they were lovers. And he certainly didn’t say anything about him still wanting Sasuke.



Kakashi sat in silent shock as he took it all in. All the while rubbing comforting circles on the boy’s back. Gaara.. was a main member of The Snakes?.. He had a main member of The Snakes sitting in his lap, crying.. He had fucked a main member of The Snakes..



Kakashi would be lying to himself if he didn’t admit that he was terrified. The only reason Gaara knew all this, was because this Sasuke had told him. Sasuke.. Kakashi swallowed some bile rising in his throat.. according to Gaara, Sasuke was one of the infamous raven brothers. And Gaara.. Gaara was the sand demon. ‘Fuck!’



This explained everything. Gaara had most likely been shot with a shotgun. Shot straight through the head. But since the boy was immortal, his flesh had lapped itself back together, but his memory was lost. Even if his brain worked. It hadn’t been able to put the memories back together. A-and.. he had a monster sealed inside. Explaining the weird kanjis Kakashi had seen on the MRI.



Kakashi cringed slightly when he realized just what could happen if Gaara really did get his memory back.. his memories and his real personality.



Then he would lose his precious Red. Even if he said he was Gaara, this would always be his sweet, sweet Red. He would call him Gaara, of course.. and probably even love Gaara too. It was weird how his mind decided to differ the two, even if they were the same person.



He hadn’t noticed that Gaara had stopped talking, he had probably missed some important details to the end, but Gaara would tell him again. And.. oh-god.. no wonder the boy had seemed confused. No wonder he had sought acknowledgement that Kakashi really did love him. Begged for Kakashi not to leave him.



If it was this confusing to Kakashi, how confusing was it to the boy? It must have been mind shattering. Kakashi hugged Gaara close, before he forced the boy to sit back up.



Shame.. so much shame in those eyes. And Gaara was biting his lower lip, trying to stop it from trembling to no avail. Kakashi wiped away a new stream of tears. Before he leaned in and kissed his baby. “I love you Gaara..I don’t care what you were. That’s not who you are.. and I won’t leave you. Ok? Thanks for trusting me enough to tell me.”



Gaara looked shocked. His eyes searching Kakashi’s throughly before the smallest of smiles played over his lips. “Y-You.. don’t hate me? You still want me?”



Kakashi did want gaara, but he wasn’t too sure how he would deal with all this. To know that Gaara was a killer. He didn’t know if he could deal with that, but he was willing to try. Oh god, he had it real bad if he was willing to try and work with something that big.



“Yes, I still want you baby..”



They could both feel the tension lift between them. Like a veil had been lifted. And Gaara smiled, a real smile creasing his soft features. “I was so worried you’d hate me now..”



“No.. I still love you.. you haven’t changed now. Have you?”



“No..” Gaara smiled and kissed his hero. He really didn’t deserve this man. But he was going to enjoy him the best he could now that he still had him. And he was going to make sure that he had this man moaning his name as soon as possible. He needed to feel loved, safe and he needed to feel that hard cock pulsing inside him.



And he made sure to let his lover know that too. Leaning in so that his mouth was just next to Kakashi’s ear he whispered sweet little somethings, soft murmurs sending shivers up and down Kakashi’s spine, despite the numbing fear he could feel eating at his bone.



Slowly but surely the little whispered moans coupled with the redhead’s gentle rocking of hips had Kakashi’s breathing coming out in laboured puffs. All fear tucked neatly back in his mind..Gaara’s hands were drifting over his upper body in soft patterns, somewhere along the way it had found its way under his shirt.. the other hand tangled in silvery hair. And the way the redhead was working his mouth against his. Oh kami sama! Kakashi could die just there. Gaara was like a hungry little kitten. Desperately trying to get Kakashi to react. And fuck! Was it working. Kakashi felt his blood boiling in his veins. He felt almost desperate, the way Gaara was persuading his body to react, his dick standing proud against the too fucking sexy ass grinding down on him. Gaara almost giving him a lap dance where he sat, creating just the right amount of friction.



And that voice, that velvety soft voice was still murmuring sweet little somethings into his ear in hot puffs.. Whenever Kakashi pulled back out from the kiss to lap at creamy porcelain skin.



“Ka-kashi.. MmMm gods, I’m so hot baby.. gods, I need to feel you baby.. Need to feel your cock from the inside. Shit! Do you have any idea how big your cock feels inside my ass? How full you make me feel? So complete.. I would die without you, you know? Please... fuck me.” Gaara moaned out the last part as Kakashi had pushed him slightly back so he could take a hold of Gaara’s cock. Gaara’s long, dusky pink cock.. redder veins standing out from that silky smooth shaft, with a perfect wide, swollen mushroom head at the tip leaking out sweet, sweet essence.



Kakashi unconsciously licked his lips at the sight. But Gaara noticed..



Bringing a hand down he gathered some of the fluid on the pad of his thumb and brought it to his mouth, sucking it clean while he looked at Kakashi with lust glazed eyes.





It was clumsily done, but after some fiddling Kakashi had managed to rip off Gaara’s pants and laid him down on the couch. Oh...shit! Kakashi groaned at the sight of the boy laying stretched out on his dark blue couch, a little red dusk to his cheeks making him look way too innocent. And the way his chest heaved, his legs spread.. showing off that perfect little pink pucker to Kakashi, all the while jerking himself off in slow little motions.. gods!



And then that voice was there again.”"please.. please.. Kashi! Fuck me.. fill me.. Mmm.” A little devious flicker rushed through teal eyes before Gaara turned around, getting on his hands and knees stretching in a catlike motion, making all his muscles on his back ripple overly sexy, all the while keeping his eyes on Kakashi. And when he pushed back just like, oh god.. just like that, yes, his hole opened up to Kakashi, just a little.. inviting him in..



Kakashi’s eyes zoomed in on that little pink hole.. and seconds later he was on his knees on the floor. Between two perfect globes.. kissing creamy skin, his tongue licking it’s way in towards its’ goal. Gaara was practically purring as that tongue flicked against his pucker. “Oh Gods yes!” He had never felt anything like that before..it felt so weird, but so good at the same time.



And he felt a little ashamed to. Kakashi was licking his ass, plunging his tongue in and out from his tight hole, and damned! It felt soo fucking good. He felt his body spasm as Kakashi kept working his hole, Kakashi’s hand playing with his balls.



Gaara was moaning and whimpering, clutching on tight to the couch, burying his face in the soft pillows while he tried to contain the noises escaping his lips.



His whole body jerked as suddenly a slick digit accompanied the probing tongue. Kakashi worked the finger in agonisingly slow. Gaara could feel how it sank deeper, and deeper into him. could feel it so good when Kakashi bent it.. probed around inside alongside his tongue. And Gaara couldn’t help but love the feeling. His whole body was tightening, preparing for a mindblowing orgasm. And the Kakashi snuck in another finger to join the first. Two fingers giving Gaara’s insides a gentle massage. Gaara was trying to hold back.. trying to keep his whole body from shivering. But to no avail, and seconds later when both fingers hit that one spot..Gaara whimpered into the pillows as he came. Hot spurts of cum leaving his swollen cock.



Gaara collapsed down and heaved in a couple of heavy breaths. Ignoring the sticky feeling on his stomach. And then a heavy warmth was on top of him. And he felt Kakashi’s hard cockhead nudge his entrance. Gaara moaned and spread his thighs the best he could in this position, bending a hand behind his back to guide the cock to his awaiting hole. Helping Kakashi to get it in.



Kakashi shuddered softly from the feeling. And then Gaara started clamping down.. milking Kakashi beautifully, all the while moaning.. panting hard into the pillows he was pressed down into by Kakashi’s heavy body weight. He was getting hard again from that amazing feeling of being full. And when he clamped down like that, gods.. he could feel Kakashi inside. Too good. Way too good. Gaara moaned and rocked his hips gently, still clamping down in a steady pulse.



Kakashi held still the best he could, sucking at the redhead’s neck. It felt so wonderful.. almost like Gaara’s ass was jerking him off..

But, oh shit.. he needed to move. Felt some of his control slipping.. he was almost there..



He took a hold of Gaara’s hair before he jerked his hips back then slamming in. He was so.. so close. And as he started an erratic pace, he started shaking slightly from trying to hold back..



Gaara felt like he was dying in heaven. He was so sensitive from the former orgasm. .and now he could feel a new one building.. fast. And the friction created between his cock and the couch was all too good.



Kakashi worked in his thumb alongside his dick into the boy’s ass.. spreading him even wider. Knowing that Gaara would love that.. and oh yes! He had been so right.. because only seconds later that lithe body under him was spasming again. Those tight ass muscled milking him even harder than before. Sending molten lava up and down his spine.



“G-Ga--aara!!” Kakashi came so hard he saw white and black stars dancing behind his eyelids as he emptied himself into the awaiting heat still shivering around his dick.



Breathing out heavy.. Gaara smiled contentedly into the pillow now wet with saliva.. he felt fluids run down his inner thighs and he knew he was lying in a puddle of their cum. And Kakashi’s couch would need a serious cleaning.. but that didn’t matter.. nothing else mattered. He had his Kakashi with him. Snuggling him real close, and that was the only thing he cared about right now..



So he drifted off into a light slumber. Unaware off the shadow lurking just outside the window. Three little tomoes whirling dangerously around in blood red eyes..