Better Than Drugs

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Thanks for reading and thanks for the reviews!!! Ok, this is it!! Naruto will reveal his past. I do hope you all enjoy this.

Sorry for the delay,,,I'm working on a babyshower that's this weekend so I prob won't post the next chapter until next weekend.

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Chapter 9

“I…” ‘What a time to want to tell him,’ Naruto thought as he held the raven still. He gazed into obsidian eyes, his body shivering. He was going to tell him.

Sasuke looked down into cerulean eyes. ‘Why had he stopped?’ he wondered as Naruto lifted him off of him and placed him by his side. “Naruto…?”

Naruto swung his legs down off the bed, his back to the raven. He didn’t want to see the disgust on the face he has come to care about.

Sasuke didn’t like this. “What’s wrong Naruto?” He pulled the sheet to cover himself and was about to cover Naruto when the blond stood. He walked over to his pants and pulled them on.

Standing by the window, Naruto looked out into the night. He took a deep breath then turned to face him. He walked around the other side and stood by the side of the bed, looking down at Sasuke.

“Sasuke, the reason people look at me the way they do is because they think of me as a…monster.” Holding his hand up to silence any protest “they are right though… I am a monster.” As he looked into Sasuke’s eyes he willed his eyes to bleed into red.

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The silver haired stranger mouth dropped as he watched the blonde’s eyes turn red. “What the hell?” he cursed as he continued to film. Smirking, ‘Orochimaru will love this,’ he thought.

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“What…?” Sasuke didn’t know what to say. His first reaction was to get as far away for him as possible. But as he watched red turn back to blue he could see the sadness.

Naruto stepped back from the raven. He saw the look of fear in his dark eyes, even if it was for a second. But it was there, he lowered his head. “I should have told you,” he whispered.

Sasuke watched as his blonde head lowered, hiding his eyes. “Naruto…how?” He asked as he moved off the bed toward his pants. He had to move past Naruto, as he passed him he saw the blonde flitch then step back. Sasuke frowned. He pulled his pants on then turned to face Naruto.

Naruto waited for the blows, the razor sharp words to slice him in to pieces. He was use to it. That was the reason why he never could bring himself to love anyone. He stood there waiting, when nothing happened he lifted his head and found dark eyes staring at him with a familiar frown, “Sasuke?”

Sasuke walked over to Naruto and pulled him into his arms. Holding him tight he whispered into his ear, “I would never hurt you.” He kissed the tanned neck and pulled back. He could see slight relief in his crystal eyes. “Come, let’s go down stairs, and then you can start from the beginning, if you want to.”

Naruto eye’s widened, he wasn’t expecting this. Nodding they walked out of the bedroom.

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The silver haired stranger put the camcorder back into its pack and moved from the window. He headed toward the door, passing the corpse of the occupant of the apartment that he ‘borrowed’ for his surveillance. He walked out making sure he left no prints. Closing the door he walked out the back to his truck. “I think he will be pleased,” he sounded always happy that his master was going to be happy with him.

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They sat in the living room, the same place where they discovered their feelings for each other. Sasuke sat on the leather couch facing the fireplace, but Naruto didn’t sit, he stood up by the hearth with his back to him. Thinking on what he just had seen, he was shocked and a little scared, but those feelings drained away once he saw the sadness in those precious blue eyes he had come to love.

“You know, Gaara doesn’t even know about my past. We went out for almost 2 years, but I never told him.”

“Why are you telling me then? We’ve known each other for a shorter period of time?”

Turning, Naruto’s eyes pinned the raven, “You’re different from anyone else I’ve known.”

Sasuke’s eyes looked down, slightly angry at those words, “yeah, it’s not everyday you fuck a man whore,” he sneered as he stood to leave.

Naruto grabbed the Uchiha’s wrist and pulled him back. “That didn’t come out right,” he told the raven as he pinned him to his chest, looking into heated dark eyes. He softly kissed the raven’s lips, “I’m sorry.”

Sasuke’s anger drained as he laid his head on Naruto’s shoulder. “I’m sorry for jumping to conclusions.” Sasuke stepped back and resumed his seat on the couch, this time Naruto followed sitting down next to him.

“Different meaning that my feelings are different for you then with Gaara. This is why I want to tell you about me.” He saw his dark head nod but before Naruto continued he needed to know something.

His voice was soft, “you weren’t…scared.”

Sasuke’s dark eyes looked into blue, he chose his words carefully. “I was the second I saw your eyes but then I saw you and not your eyes. Granted your blue eyes are great but the person behind those eyes is more important.” Sasuke finished as he saw a small smile spread over the blonde’s lips.

“Thanks.” Naruto cleared his throat as he continued. “I was told by my grandparents that I…I was born different.”

“How?”

Naruto’s eyes looked into the fire. “I was an experiment.”

The raven was shocked. “What about your parent?” At least they would protect….

“They allowed it. I was removed from my mother early and placed in a tube of some sort. My granddad had pictures.” The pain was a dull throbbing, but not enough for him to stop. He pushed on. “He said that once I was “born” they used some strange kind of magic…”

“Magic? You’re kidding right??” Sasuke saw the seriousness in those blue eyes. “Wait, how does your grandfather know about this? I’m sure all this weren’t in those pictures.”

“He was there.” He whispered.

“What! And he didn’t try to stop them?”

“They would have killed me and my grandmother if he interfered. I forgave him a long time ago.” His blue eyes glazed a little at the thought of what they did to him.

Touching the blonde’s shoulder, “I’m sorry, go on.”

“They sealed something inside of me. My granddad told me that they were seeing if they could seal demons inside of babies, to make a stronger solider. The usual bullshit, but all they wanted was a mindless freak to do their bidding and to experiment on. There were other babies but I was the only one to survive.” Shaking a little he felt warmth surrounding him. He knew Sasuke held him so he leaned into his arms and continued.

“When I turned 1 I was allowed to go home to my parents. They were fine to me. As parents they were ok, but I knew that they didn’t love me when I came home one day after I had gotten into a fight. I had a black eye, my nose was broken, and my arms were bruised. There were no loving words but only calculated questions. ‘What did you do? Did you feel different when you got angry? Did you fight back? Did you kill them?’ I was 8 when this happened. I knew that I was different, but I didn’t know how different until that night.” Naruto stopped. He didn’t know if he could continue, but he had too.

That night as I took my bath I noticed that my wounds were healed. I got scared but I knew I didn’t want to talk to my parents. I decided that after school that next day I was going to go visit my grandparents. As I got into bed and drifted off into sleep I dreamt that I was being held down on my bed by straps. I couldn’t move. I woke up in a panic and realized that I wasn’t dreaming. I was strapped to my bed. I looked up and saw my parents standing there looking down at me. I called out to my mom but she sneered at me and told me to be silent. Silent tears rolled down my cheeks. My dad walked over to me and reached out his hand to me, I thought he was going to comfort me but he felt the tears on my face. ‘These tears are like human tears.’ He told my mom who wrote that down. My dad then lifted up my night shirt to place his hand on my stomach and muttered a few words. To my utter horror a swirl like tattoo appeared on my stomach. He stood and reached into his pocket and pulled out a knife. I started struggling in earnest when I saw that he had raised it, then realizing what he was about to do. I screamed for them to stop. I cried out that I’ll be a good boy….” His voice trailed off. He still could remember the blade as it slid into his stomach. He could feel the cold steel as it cut into his small body.

Sasuke couldn’t believe that his parents would do that. He was mad as he watched Naruto relive that night. He reached his hand out and gently laid it on his shoulder, “don’t Naruto.”

Shaking his head, “I have to.” He stood and walked over to the fire place. He stared down into the dancing flames. The colors mirrored the fire that burned inside of him that night. “The knife cut me deep. He pushed it until it was buried inside me. I cried, I pleaded to them to take it out but my voice fell on deaf ears. That’s when I heard it. The other voice inside my mind. It was telling me to rest and it would help me. I was 8 and wanted all of this to end so I closed my eyes. The next thing I realized was that I was inside of a large cage. I looked around and the strange thing about this was I wasn’t scared.

~~Flashback~~~

“Where am I?” the small blond boy looked around. It was dark and wet.
“I’m here to protect you kit,” a deep voice flowed around the small child.
Naruto looked around trying to see who was speaking to him, “who are you?” He inched closer to the bars. Naruto could see something moving in the darkness and gasped at the sight that emerged. The creature was very big and had nine tails like a fox.
“That’s right kit, I’m a fox demon. My name is Kyuubi. Those humans sealed me inside of you.”
The small boy wasn’t stupid, he knew he was different and now he found out why. Naruto started shaking. He was embraced in warmth immediately as two of the tails surrounded him and pulled him toward the fox.
As he settled in the make shift fox bed he mumbled in his sleep, “I don’t want to hurt,” then drifted off to sleep.

Naruto eyes opened slowly. He took in his surrounds and turned to see a man where the fox use to be, “Who are you?”
Smiling the man showed razor sharp teeth, “Kit, it’s me Kyuubi.”

Giggling, “I know you look….different.”

Frowning, “what you don’t like how I look?”

“I like the fox form better. You were soft and warm,” Naruto told him.
Laughing Kyuubi changed back into his original form. He walked over to him and looked into clear blue eyes. “Kit, those humans, the one’s you call parents still have you tied down.”

Anger seeped into the small body. How can they be so mean to him? He was a good boy!

The fox felt his anger. He hated the humans that did this to him. He hated all humans except this small boy.
“Let me help you.”

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Naruto’s memories of that night was vivid. He kept his eyes toward the flames. “I remember that Kyuubi offered to help me, but I didn’t know to what extent. I remember him taking over my body and like I was watching a movie I watched as I broke free of the restraints. I pulled out the knife and dropped it to the ground. My eyes were blood red and they pinned both of them. I smiled with Kyuubi’s mouth and spoke, ‘I hate all humans. I’ve tried to avoid any and all contact but when I was forced into this babe he has become my kit, my little one. Now you have hurt him, now you must die!’ I watched as I slashed my father’s throat and gutted him. I watched as I tore my mother in two. I watched their eyes fill with horror as their 8 year of son killed them both.” He stopped. He didn’t want to turn around. He knew that if he did the raven would be gone. But he wanted to see so he lifted his head and turned to find Sasuke standing behind him. Dark eyes held worry and compassion not hate or disgust.

Sasuke pulled the blonde man into his arms. Sasuke held the blonde, he felt his body tense. He knew he expected him to leave, to just get up and go when he heard his story. H would never do that. He would not judge anyone like that. As he continued to hug him he felt Naruto’s body relax and his arms slip around his waist. The blond pulled him close, held him tighter as his body shook. Sasuke felt wetness on his seeping through his shirt, he realized that Naruto was crying. “I’m not going anywhere.” He whispered into his ear.

Naruto couldn’t believe Sasuke was still here. He expected to be alone but now he had someone who didn’t judge him for what he did in his past. He pulled back from the raven and gave him a watery smile, “I…I don’t know what…” his voice failed him.

“Don’t say anything. What happened after that?”

Naruto sat back down on the couch, Sasuke joined him. “Afterward Kyuubi switch back with me. As I stared at the bodies of my parents I didn’t feel sad, or a sense of loss. To tell the truth I didn’t know what I felt. I walked out of the room and into my parents to use the phone. I called my grandfather. When he got there I was sitting on my bed that was covered in blood with my knees pulled up to my chest. I couldn’t take my eyes off of the bodies. I couldn’t believe that I had done that. Even though Kyuubi was controlling my body I allowed my anger to open the way for him to take control. When my grandfather saw me he ran over to me and picked me up. He called somebody on his cell phone. When he hung up we heard police sirens, someone called the police. More then likely they heard my parents screams. My grandfather placed me back on the be and whispered to me to forgive him and he will be back. Then he ran out of the room. The next thing I know is that a light was being shined in my face and I was looking a room full of police. One walked over to me and shined the light into my face. I didn’t know what happened, I looked up into his eyes and growled. I slapped the light out of his hand and snarled. I heard curses and then I heard my grandfather. He shouted to the police not to touch me. I turned toward his voice. The next thing I remembered was darkness as I passed out. My grandfather told me later that when he carried me out, he tried to cover me as best he could, but people saw the blood all over me and they over heard one of the police talking. They were saying that I killed them, that I was a monster because of the way they were killed.

I went to live with my grandparents. The people the funded the experiment decided to scrap it saying that there were flaw. After everything settled the people still looked at me strangely. From then on everyone avoided me, they hated me, they spit on me when I would walk down the street. Some would even hit me when no one was looking. They would say that I deserved it for killing my parents. In school I didn’t have any friends because their parents warned them away from me. Saying that I would kill them. I hated high school. My only option was to leave after high school and that’s what I did. I went to a place where no one knew who I was. Once I left, that’s when I met Kakashi in school and then Gaara.”

Sasuke was stunned to say the least. How could anyone blame him for the actions of the fox demon inside of him. Well they didn’t know about that but still, he was still a child. “Why did you come back?”

“My grandfather is sick. I wanted to help out my grandmother so I came home. Apparently nothing has changed. They still remember me.” Naruto turned to look into dark eyes. “My first day back was the day that I met you.” A tiny smile played at the corner of his lips. “That made the trip worth it.”

Sasuke leaned in and place a soft kiss on the blonde’s lips. Sasuke was still trying to absorb what he just heard. He had a tough childhood. He looked into blue eyes, “you are not a monster.” he told him.

Naruto looked into those dark pools. He has never met anyone like this man in front of him. He’s been told all his life that he was a monster, that he deserved to die like his parents. The only one’s that made him feel less like a monster was his grandparents, Gaara, Kakashi and Sasuke. Shaking his head, “I have to keep my anger in check or Kyuubi will take over again. I have to…I’m afraid that if I lose control people will get hurt.”


“You’ve been in control since that night. You have this demon under control.” Sasuke looked at the way the blue orbs stared out across the room. He seemed like he was someplace else…

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“Kit, you know I will never harm anyone.”

Naruto looked at the fox that has become more like a big brother and even a father to him over the years.

“I know, but what if I loose control, I just…” He didn’t want to hurt Sasuke.

Chuckling, “It’ll be ok kit, trust me. Now go back to your mate, he will worry about you if you space out for too long.”

Naruto frown at what the fur ball just said, “HEY!!!! I don’t space out!!!”

Smirking, Kyuubi flicked his tail in the air. A screen appeared and there was Naruto, sitting next to the raven with a wide eyed look on his face. ‘Geez, I do look like I’ve spaced out!’ groaning, Naruto shook his head as Kyuubi laughed.


The raven looked at the blonde as the light came back into his blue eyes, “what happened to you just now?”

Scratching the back of his head, “well, I can speak with Kyuubi.” He smiled.

“What!” Sasuke stood, “you’re telling me that you can ‘talk’ with the demon inside of you?” Seeing his blonde head nod. ‘I can deal,’ Sasuke told himself. “Ok, well, he doesn’t tell you to do bad things, right?” He asked as he sat back down.

“No, only when I’m angry, only when I loose control, that’s when he could possibly take over.”

Sasuke could see the sadness seep back into the cerulean orbs. He must be remembering, “Naruto they were going to kill you. Kyuubi had no choice…” He couldn’t believe he was on the demon’s side.

Nodding again, “he’s grown into a brother that I never had. He is always there for me, and…and,” his head dropped as tears threatened to spill. ‘Damn it! I didn’t want to cry…again!'

He started to wipe his face but he saw a pale hand reach over and caught one of his tears that slid down his cheek. Naruto raised his eyes to see the raven sitting a lot closer. He watched as he lifted his hand toward his lips, he watched as the raven’s tongue licked the tear off his finger.

Sasuke dark gazed locked with blue. “You have me now,” he whispered as he leaned in and placed a soft yet meaningful kiss upon the blonde’s lips.

Naruto smiled into the kiss. As he leaned into the raven he heard the fox inside of him chuckling, ‘that’s my boy!’

Naruto pulled away from those soft and inviting lips and deeply gazed in those obsidian eyes, “Sasuke…”
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I know it was long and kinda drawn out but this is what I had in my head for his past. I pretty pleased with it, I hope you all enjoyed reading this....

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