Love and Happiness
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Naruto › Yaoi - Male/Male
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Adult ++
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19
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Love and Happiness
Disclaimer: Unfortunately anything dealing with Naruto does not belong to me but to a very rich and lucky person. So no suing!
Includes: Yaoi (male/male relationships)
Pairings: Sasuke/Naruto, mention of others
Beta(s): Me
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General A/N: First off, its been a long time since I’ve posted a story, life has been busy and my mind has been slow to work. Lol. I even forgot about my LiveJournal but I’m about to go there.
Second, this is my first Naruto fic so I hope it is good. Also, all the short, cut of sentences or run on sentences are not grammar errors, but done on purpose. This is told by Naruto’s POV-his thoughts so I didn’t think he would be very good at grammar anyway. Lol.
Well, I’ll shut up now and let you guys read. Hope you enjoy…
Love and Happiness
by Ravenx
A quiet breeze blew through the green leaves of the trees, the smell of fresh mountain air floating along with it. I laid back further into the grass, letting the warm blades press through the fingers of my right hand, my blue eyes watching the clouds sail slowly across the clear blue sky.
Today was a beautiful day, a wonderful day for the festival the town of Konoha was throwing to celebrate the victory over that slimy snake bastard. I still can’t believe that after three years of training and searching we finally found him and defeated him and his little lover boy. It wasn’t an easy battle but it was won by us, although not all of us made it out without injury.
Even though it had been a month since the fight, Neji and Kiba were still stuck in the hospital with strict orders not to leave their beds for another couple of days. At Kiba’s side was his faithful companion Akamaura and his lover Shino, the two absolutely refused to leave the boy’s bedside. And Neji had his shy cousin, Hinata, and Tenten to deal with. The two babied him enough to give me a headache whenever I visited. I envy those too guys so much, not that I’d ever say anything to them or anyone about it. But I envied the fact that they had people that loved them. People that would do anything for them. And they aren’t the only ones I envy.
In the battle, Lee proved his love for Sakura by taking several throwing stars in the back to protect her. Shikamaru even made his love known for Choji after he thought the chubby ninja had died due to a dangerous throwing needle sticking out of the boy’s chest. Comes to find out the thing just got stuck in a bag of chips Choji was carrying, Shikamaru almost killed him afterward with a blush to his cheeks.
I’m happy for them. I’m glad the others have found true love. They deserve it. I know that everyone is in town now having a good time. I also know that they don’t expect or rather don’t want me to show up. My friends may have begged me to come but I know the villagers don’t want me anywhere near them. After all this time they still fear me.
I wish I understood why, I mean, without my fox spirit that snake bastard would have won. If I hadn’t released my other chakra then I wouldn’t be laying here today and this town would probably be destroyed. But the villagers don’t see that. All they see is the blonde boy with the evil fox demon sealed inside of him. They believe that the only reason we won the battle was because of Sasuke.
Which is true. He helped greatly after he returned to our side. The villagers don’t even seem to remember that he betrayed us three years ago, all they see is the last of the Uchiha clan returning home. He doesn’t even have to say that he is sorry and they welcome him with open arms. What happened when I came back from the mission? What happened when I walked through the gates of the village with only scratches? They sighed, looked disappointed, and went on welcoming back the others. No one looked at me after that. No one offered to help when exhaustion finally set in and I stumbled for a moment, almost falling into a pile of rocks. They just rolled their eyes and laughed.
Its not like I expected anything else. I’m not as stupid as they think I am. I know I will never achieve the goal I want. My dream of becoming Hokage someday. I say that I will. I tell everyone that will listen. But deep down I know it will never happen. The villagers will never trust me enough to have full control over the town. And believe it or not, I’ve come to accept that fact. It was hard to do but after living the life I have I’ve come to realize that the most I will probably ever be is a Chuunin.
I’m still pretty surprised that I made it that far. Took me almost two years longer than the others but I did it. By now they are all ahead of me, and I see them going much further than they are. I see great things for all of them in the future. At times I feel anger toward them for making it so much further then I ever will but I can’t hold it against them. They are normal, well, sometimes I don’t know about Kiba. That boy is just way to hyper sometimes for his own good.
The festival must be in full swing now, I can hear the sounds of laughter and music all the way up here. I bet the others are having a great time, playing games and telling jokes together. Oh well, best not to think about it. If I don’t then maybe I won’t be missing much.
I close my eyes, trying to focus on the sound of the wind blowing the leaves rather than all the fun I’m missing out on. I move both my arms behind my head, my legs crossing at the ankles as I feel myself start to drift off slightly. Then I hear it. I remain unmoving, my heightened hearing reaching out to hear another light thud.
Sounds like someone leaping from tree branch to tree branch. I don’t know who could possibly be up here instead of at the festival. They’re trying mask their chakra, even though I can’t tell who it is I know they mean me no harm. I just stay where I am, waiting for them to show themselves.
I don’t have to wait long before silence falls again, the festival noise low in the background of the chirping birds. I can sense someone watching me. A moment later there is a soft thud as the person jumps down from the trees to land a couple feet next to me.
“I know you’re awake, dobe.” The deep voice of my former team mate says.
I open my blue eyes to look over into pure black ones staring down at me. His black hair tinted with a dark blue is like it was in his childhood, hanging down the sides of his face while spiked in the back. His attire consist of white shorts and loose black shirt, undoubtedly with his family crest on the back of it. I can see his small weapons pouch poking out from behind him, the one usually on his leg missing, how odd.
His black sandals caring him over until he is right beside me, his eyes boring down into mine. He has become so much taller in the time he was gone, he has always been taller then me but now he simply towers above me, even when we are standing.
“What do you want, teme?” I don’t hate him anymore but I still love to see him glare.
“Why aren’t you at the festival?”
“Don’t feel like going.” I shrug, closing my eyes again. Better not to tell him the truth. He might just use it as an opportunity to make fun of me, or worse yet, he may take pity on me. I don’t think I could handle seeing pity in his beautiful eyes.
Yes, you heard me. I think his eyes are beautiful, actually I think everything about him is beautiful. I have for a long time. That’s why I tried so hard to find him. I…I love him. Even back then. Even when we fought before he left, I loved him. but I know I can’t tell him that. He could never love me. Who would ever love the boy with a monster inside of him?
I hear him sigh before sitting down next to me.
“Everyone has been talking about this thing for weeks. The others are all there, even Neji and Kiba got released from the hospital for a couple hours to attend.”
“Good for them. I bet Shino, Hinata, and Tenten are happy.”
“Yeah. How long have they been together?”
“Well, Shino and Kiba actually got together during the first Chuunin exam but they kept it a secret for about a year. Then about two years ago Neji confessed that he loved Hinata and Tenten. The two girls talked it over and ended up deciding to share him.” I chuckled just thinking back to that day. The look on Neji’s face when he found out that he was to have to lovers. I’ve never seen the boy happier then that moment, or more shocked for that matter.
“A lot has changed in three years.” Sasuke’s voice is low, almost a whisper.
“You honestly didn’t expect things to stay the same, did you?” I peek at him through a half-lidded eye to discover that he is sitting cross-legged facing me. His head is bowed, hands resting on the new forehead protector gracing his head.
He could have had his old one, I still had it even though it had a slash across it. But I told him that I had lost it long ago while searching for him. I had to lie in order to keep it. I want it for myself. Hell, I don’t remember the last night I slept without it under my pillow. Its something that keeps the bad dreams away.
“No, but its just weird to come back with so many changes. I feel like I don’t belong here anymore.”
“You’re not thinking about running away again are you? Cause I honesty don’t feel like chasing you down right this minute.” My eyes slip close again as he starts to raise his head.
“You would come after me again?”
“Of course.” You’re the one I love. I’d go anywhere and through anything to bring you back here safe.
“Why?”
“Better question is why are you up here talking to me when you could be playing with everyone else down at the festival?” Trust me, Sasuke, you don’t want to know why I’d go to the ends of the earth to bring you back here. You won’t like the answer.
“Its too nosy down there. And they won’t stop smiling and welcoming me back. Its annoying.”
Its weird, isn’t it. He doesn’t want all the attention he gets and I would do anything for just a moment of it.
“They have reason to celebrate. The last member of a very prominent family has returned. Now you can pick a girl and settle down. Revive your clan by having a ton of kids that will take on your bloodline. You’ve got it made. Especially since the snake bastard is gone.” Just talking about him getting married and having kids has my stomach in a knot. I don’t like to think of him with anyone but me. I know, its selfish. I should just think of the happiness he’ll have with having a lovely girl standing beside him and kids hanging all over him.
“Like that will really be happening.” He snorts under his breath which gets my attention. I open my eyes to look at him.
“What do you mean?”
“Mean by what?”
“That it won’t be happening.”
“You heard that?” He sounds shocked, I guess people forget that I can hear better then a normal person.
“Yes. What did you mean?”
“I…nothing.” Something about the way he says that, the way his eyes look off into the distance, the way his cheeks take on a slight pink color makes me think it was something.
“Sasuke, you can’t lie to me. What did you mean? You know I won’t give up until you tell me so just save us both some time and breath and say it already.”
He looks like he is about to deny it again but then his black eyes turn to look at me again. Its like he is studying me, looking through me for a moment before turning his head away again.
“Do you have a problem with Shino and Kiba or Shikamaru and Choji?”
“What do you mean? They’re my friends.” Some of the only people in the village that don’t look down at me, that treat me normal.
“I didn’t m…I meant…do you have a problem with their relationships with each other?” He stumbles over his words like he can’t get out what he really wants to say. I think its cute. Especially mixed with the slight blush on his cheeks. What is he getting at?
“Of course I don’t. I envy them. I mean they found someone that they love more than anything and that person feels the same about them. Why would I have a problem with something as great as that?”
Okay, I don’t know if I said the wrong thing but he is looking at me like it’s the first time we’ve meet. His hands move nervously down to the grass between us as he speaks.
“So you don’t mind them being gay?”
“No, why would I? I mean it would be kinda odd hating someone because their gay and I am to…” Crap! I said to much. Maybe he brought this up to say he doesn’t like gay people, that he finds them disgusting. Now he’ll have a whole new reason to hate me.
I close my eyes, waiting for what will happen next. In my mind I’m picturing his fist coming at me hard and fast.
“You’re gay?” His voice sounds shocked. There is no denying it now.
“Yes.” I’m still slightly tensed waiting for some blows.
“So it seems we have more in common then I thought.” Okay, I was waiting for some physical blows not some mental ones. What did he mean by that, only one way to find out.
“What?” I look over to see him smirking down at me.
“I said we have more in common then I thought we did.”
“And what exactly does that mean?”
“I’m gay too, dobe.” His dark black eyes roll up the sky as he chuckles, a deep sound that I just love to hear. A sound that has haunted my dreams for the past three years.
I sit up quickly, a little too quickly if the slight headache is anything to go by. I know my eyes must be wide as saucers as I just stare at him, my mouth slightly agape. He just sits there, smirking at me, his fingers playing in the blades of grass.
“What?” He cocks an eyebrow as if challenging me to say something.
“You…but that…not possible.”
“Why not?” Because if it was true then that means I would be a step closer to having you. But I still know there is no way that will happen so it will just bring me more heartache to see you with another guy.
“Because you’re Uchiha Sasuke, the boy wonder, the last of your clan, the boy that can do no wrong. Do you realize what the villagers will say when they find out you won’t be continuing your bloodline?” They will be upset but there is no way in hell that they would hate him.
“I’ve thought a lot about it but I really don’t care. If I don’t have an interest in girls then there is nothing I can do about it. The bloodline will just stop with me, I’m sure my brother isn’t going to continue it.” He shrugs as if it means nothing, as if giving up the Sharingan is alright.
“How can you say that? The Sharingan is an amazing trait. You can’t just not pass it down.” I don’t know what to say.
“Maybe there will be someway in the future to pass it along but right now I don’t care about it. Right now I’m too concerned about…about telling someone I like him.”
“You like someone?” I think my heart is breaking.
“Well, actually, I think I love him.”
Okay, I know my heart is breaking now. Its in a million pieces that can’t be picked up and put back together. Why did he have to tell me this? Why does he have to hurt me this bad without even knowing it?
“Oh…lov…really…” I can’t think of how to speak right now. I’m too busy trying not to cry.
“Yeah, I’ve loved him for a long time but never really realized it until I came back to town. Now all I do is think of him consistly, of his smile, his amazing eyes, his stupid laugh.” Sasuke smiles widely, his eyes looking off into the distance again.
I want him to stop talking. I want him to just shut up and pretend he never said anything for the past few minutes. I want my heart to be put back together.
“That’s…that’s gr…great.” I’m glad that he is happy. That should be all that matters, his happiness. Maybe if I keep telling myself that the pain will go away.
“Look, I don’t know who else to ask that wouldn’t go crazy and yell it to the whole town but…what should I do to get him to like me?”
Just smile at him, if he is anything like me he will melt into your arms in one second flat. I never imagined Sasuke would be talking to me about his love life, let alone asking me how to make someone like him. This is just too much. I didn’t think my heart could break anymore, turns out I was wrong.
“You’re asking me?”
“Yeah, I know we pick on each other about almost everything but I thought that with this we could be serious. That maybe you would keep it a secret and give me some advice.” He shrugs gently, his black eyes boring into my blue ones before I look away.
“Its…why ask me? I’ve never…had anyone special like that.” Only you and I know for certain now that that is way out of my range, well, I’ve known that forever but now its really confirmed.
“Well, then tell me what you like someone to do for you. Then maybe I can try it on him.”
“Why not do something you like?”
“I don’t what I like. I’m not really into the romantic crap.”
“Then why bother?”
“Because I think he is. I want him to like me. Just give me some ideas.” He looks like he is getting angry now. His fist clenching at the grass between us.
“Well…” I can’t believe I’m about to tell him the truth, but I can’t stop it from coming out. “He might like to have some flowers delivered or some of his favorite sweets. Maybe…I think I need to go.” I have to get out of here. I can’t bare to tell him how to attach a lover that isn’t me anymore.
I stand to leave but find that I can’t move because he has followed into a standing position, one of his hands grabbing the fabric of my long sleeved orange shirt. I never thought I would hate wearing long sleeves, but right now they are denying me his touch.
“Why are you leaving?”
“I…its just…I have to do something.” Like go home and cry my eyes out.
“What?”
“Something…at home. I just remembered. Good luck getting the special guy.” I give him one of my famous big goofy smiles, pull my arm from his grasp and run off. I don’t look back. I don’t want to look back and see him thinking about what to do for his new soon to be lover. I just want to run away and never come back.
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A week has passed since I last spoke to Sasuke. A week filled with me crying myself to sleep, not eating nearly enough, and tossing and turning at night. My dreams were still filled with the dark haired boy except now I dreamed of him turning his back on me and going after some mysterious boy. I can see them laughing and kissing, my heart breaking over and over again every time I fall asleep as I hear Sasuke’s voice echo in my head.
“I think I love him. I’ve loved him for a long time but never really realized it until I came back to town. Now all I do is think of him consistly, of his smile, his amazing eyes, his stupid laugh.”
I’ve thought about it for the last week, trying to figure out who it could be. Who could still my Sasuke’s heart, who could make him talk like that, smile the way he did when he said it? But I can’t think of anyone. Most of the people we knew from the Academy were already together with someone else, so who could it be?
I even went so far as to asking them if they received anything in the last week. They looked at me weird and laughed, asking what I was talking about. I just played my idiotic self and they passed it off as nothing.
My apartment seems to get darker and darker every night, I know it sounds stupid but even when I didn’t think I could have Sasuke I still had a little hope buried deep inside of me. But now that hope has been crushed, I knew it would be one day but I expected it to be in the future when I was at his wedding, not so soon.
I look down from my ceiling to the door as I hear a knock, firm yet soft. Who could that be? My friends are either on missions or with their loved ones, Sasuke is probably wooing his new lover right now. Just the thought of it brings fresh tears to my eyes.
I’ve got to remember to move that coffee table, every time I walk by it I hit my shins. Hobbling to the door I notice the knocking stopped, actually I only think I heard it once. Either someone had the wrong apartment and realized it or someone is playing a joke on the monster boy.
Sighing I open the door expecting to find no one and in a way I do. I find that no one is in the hallway but there is something sitting just outside my door on the old wooden floors. Two somethings actually, which make me take a big breath, my heart pounding wildly in my chest.
Why you ask? Because in front of me is a large crystal clear vase with a dozen long stemmed white roses. Propped up next to it is a small box of my favorite chocolate that I don’t get often because its too expensive for an everyday purchase.
My eyes look up and down the hall again, just making sure no one is there. There isn’t. I’m all alone. With shaking hands I reach down and take the vase carefully in my hands, bring it into my apartment and sitting it on that blasted coffee table before quickly running back to the door and getting the chocolate. One last look up and down the hall before I shut the door behind me, moving to sit on the sofa.
I just stare at the flowers, my hands rubbing the edges of the expensive box of chocolates. Someone made a mistake. Someone left these for the one they love at the wrong apartment. These are meant for someone other than me. These are meant for someone who is loved, and judging by these chocolates, they are loved a lot.
What should I do? I don’t know who they are meant for so I can’t just go around to all the neighbors asking them if they were expecting a delivery, they already think I’m weird enough. Oh, there is a note. Good, I can find out who these things belong to and get them out of my apartment before I devour these candies.
I picked the note from the small stand sticking out the middle of the roses, unfolding it I stared in shock at the first word I read.
“Naruto.”
Why does it have my name on it? There is no way someone would give me flowers and candy. Unless this is some sick joke. That’s probably what it is. Someone playing a joke on me. Oh well, might as well keep reading and see what they have to say.
“I didn’t know what kind of flowers you liked but I knew you use to enjoy this kind of candy when we were younger. I hope I didn’t make a mistake. You said you don’t have anyone so I’m hoping that will change and you’ll allow me the chance to be with you. If you want to take that chance then meet me at the training goods in the woods after you read this. I’ll be waiting. Sasuke.”
“No…no…” This is a really sick joke. I can’t believe someone was listening to our conversation the other week and would go so far as to do this.
I know what will happen. I’ll show up at the training grounds to have someone jump out, probably with their friends, and laugh at the stupid fox boy for falling for their trick. Well, I’m not going to give them the satisfaction. They obviously don’t know Sasuke the way I do, he would never like me like that. He already has someone.
I sit the chocolates on the couch before standing up and taking the flowers to my window, opening it up I look down at the dumpster right below. This should teach those jokers, well, I guess they won’t actually be seeing this but it should still teach them not to play games.
I watch as the vase and flowers fall straight down, the crystal breaking on impact, water going everywhere in the dumpster. I close the window again before returning to the couch, no use wasting such good chocolates though. I don’t know why they would waste so much money on a joke, they must really have wanted to get me good.
These taste so good, I can almost pretend that I’m not crying. I hate to be picked on usually when I’m around others I just act like nothing is wrong, sometimes I even laugh with everyone else. But when I’m alone, that’s when the tears come, that’s when acting doesn’t work.
My plan tonight is to eat all this chocolate until I get sick, go lay in bed with a sore stomach and fall asleep crying my eyes out while thinking of my dark haired angel. I don’t know why I insist on punishing myself, I just can’t help it.
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Pounding. Why do I hear pounding? There shouldn’t be any pounding in my dream, well, not unless it was my dream Sasuke pounding me into the bed. That’s a good thought. I want to go back to sleep and dream of that but that blasted pounding won’t stop. What is that?
I slowly sit up in bed, my feet wrapped up in my light green blanket, I have no idea where my sheets have gone. One of my hands brush over the remains of the candy wrappers that lay scattered all around me while my other hand flicks my blonde hair off my forehead.
My nap to get my stomach to stop hurting worked but now I’m getting a bloody headache with all this pounding. Who the hell wants me so bad they have to almost knock my door down? Only one way to find out.
I disentangle myself from the covers, almost falling flat on my face no less then three times. Stumbling out of my bedroom I make my way to the door, jerking it open with barely opened eyes.
“What?” I practically growl.
“What? That’s all you have to say to me?” I have to blink several times to make sure that I’m seeing what I’m seeing.
Sasuke stands on the other side of my open door, his usually white and black attire in place. His hair looks like someone has run their fingers through it too much, probably his new lover. His dark eyes are narrowed in my direction, his fist clenched at his sides. What have I done now?
“What did I do?”
“I thought you felt the same way. I’ve been watching you, how your eyes linger on me when you think I’m not looking. How you blush every time I say something that could be consider flirting. I even did as you told me to do and what do you do? You leave me out in the woods for three hours. I’ve been waiting and waiting. The least you could have done was come and tell me you really didn’t feel anything more than friendship for me.”
I don’t know what to be more of, shocked or confused. I don’t think I’ve ever heard him say so much in one breath. But I also don’t really understand what he just said to me. Did he just say that he likes me? No, I didn’t hear him right, right?
“Huh?” Very intelligent Naruto.
“Don’t ‘huh’ me, dobe. Why didn’t you come and see me? Why didn’t you come and at least tell me it was pointless? That I didn’t have to sit in the cold night air for hours.” He kinda looks like he wants to rip my throat out which is actually easy to forget once his words hit me.
“What was pointless? What are you talking about?” I may not be as dumb as I act most of the time but I do have my blonde moments.
“A relationship, dobe. I know you got the flowers and chocolates. I saw you open the door before I left to wait on you.”
“You…you left the flowers?” No, that can’t be true. Wait, did he just say a relationship?
“Don’t tell me you forgot how to read, dobe, or did you just not find the card? I thought I left in a place even you would see it.”
“I…I read the card…I…I thought…I…oh crap.” I look over my shoulder at my window. I threw away flowers that Sasuke gave me. The first and now probably only gift he will ever give me and I threw them away. I want to cry again.
“What did you do, dobe?”
“I thought…someone…someone was playing a joke. I didn’t think you would…would get me flowers, you already have someone you said.” I look back at him, his dark eyes staring at me, his hands no longer in fists.
“So what did you do with the flowers?”
“Threw…threw them out the window into the dumpster.” I say it in one breath, fast and low hoping maybe he wouldn’t hear it.
“You what? Do you have any idea how much trouble I went through to get white roses at this time of year? They don’t even exist around this village.” He sighs deeply, moving past me with a brush of shoulders. By the time I get the door shut and turn around he is already on the couch, his sandals by mine near the door.
“I…I…Sasuke?”
“What?”
“Sorry. I’ll pay you back for them. Just let me know how much they were. Do you want anything to drink or eat? I can make something real fa…”
“Shut up, dobe.”
I ramble when I get nervous, when I have no idea what to say, and apparently when my heart is beating a mile a minute.
“You don’t have to pay me back. It was a gift. So since you thought it was a joke what do you have to say now?” Its hard to think of anything to say when his beautiful black eyes are staring at me.
“What do you mean?”
“What do you think about me? About us getting together?”
“You…you…” He can’t be serious. Us? Is there an us? Do I want there to be an us? Who am I kidding of course I want there to be an us but he can’t be serious, there is no way he could want me as his…boyfriend. My heart is beating to fast.
“Stop stuttering and speak full sentences, dobe.” He is actually smirking at me, I can’t believe this.
“Why? Why would you want me? You can have any girl or boy in the village and trust me they are all a lot better then me. And I don’t think you will have any trouble at all getting them to go out with yo…”
I can’t speak anymore. Why? Oh, his lips are on mine. What? His lips are on mine, his hands cupping my face, his tongue ghosting over my slight fangs. I can’t move, I can’t breath, I can’t think.
“Don’t ever say that again.” He says as he pulls back from my lips, his hands remaining on my whiskered cheeks, his eyes staring down into mine.
“Say what?”
“That anyone is a lot better than you. In my eyes you are the best of all the villagers, the one I can’t stop thinking of no matter what.”
“You can’t…you can’t choose me.” I have to get him to stop thinking like this. If the villagers knew that he wanted me then they would do nothing but hate him for sure. I can’t let him be treated like I have for my whole life.
“Why not? I thought you didn’t have anyone.”
“I don’t. But you can’t choose me. You have to find someone else, someone that won’t make your life a living hell. Someone who the villagers don’t hate.”
“I don’t care about the villagers and you already make my life a living hell but I want you anyway. Doesn’t that count for something? Why do you always have to think about the villagers before your own happiness?”
“What are you talking about? This isn’t about my happiness this is about yours. If you get with me then everyone will hate you. That’s what I’m worried about, I couldn’t stand for them to look at you the way they do at me.” I’m yelling now, he has to understand.
“I already told you I don’t care about the villagers. All I care about is you. We can ignore them together. Let them think what they want. If they give you anymore dirty looks, I’ll hurt them, okay?”
“No, you can’t. You can’t…” His lips are back on my own, he taste like apples. His hands move through my hair to rest at the nape of my neck. Slowly he pulls away from me.
“I can do anything I want. The question is do you want me the way I want you?”
“Yes but…” This time his finger laying over my lips stops me from finishing speaking.
“No buts. All that matters is that we want each other, right?” I nod slowly, looking deep into his black eyes I feel like I’m about to drown. “Then its settled.”
“What is?”
“We are a couple now.”
“What?” Just like that? That can’t be. It can’t be that…easy. Can it?
“We are together from now on.” His lips skim over mine, his hands working the back of my neck gently. Its amazing how such strong hands can be so gentle at times.
“Sasuke…I…are you sure? You’re…” Its hard to talk when his lips keep distracting me.
“I’m positive. Are you? Is this what you want?” He pulls back just a little to look down at me.
“I’ve…I…” Best to say the truth now. “I’ve wanted this ever since we first met.”
“Good.” He is kissing me again, his tongue sliding over my lips like he is asking for entrance. Who am I to say no? I’ve been dreaming about this forever.
His hands are once again in my hair, my own hands moving to wrap around his neck, my fingers threading through his thick spiky locks. We move closer until I’m pressed right up against his chest, I still have to get on my tip toes to reach him even though he is leaning down. I feel his warm hands move down my neck, traveling over my bare shoulder blades, his finger tips teasi…wait a minute…bare shoulder blades?
I jump back away from him, my arms wrapping around my bare chest. I can’t believe I forgot I was only in my boxers. This whole time, him touching me, him kissing me, and I was almost nude. I know we’ve seen each other like this before, on missions and such, but this is different, very different.
“What’s wrong, dobe?” His smirk tells me that he knows exactly what is wrong.
“I’m…I’ve got to…I’ll be right back.” I practically run into my bedroom and over to my closet. Well, I would have gotten to my closet if I didn’t trip over my blanket that laid half in floor. I braced myself for the hard landing but instead of meeting the wooden floor, I was meet with strong arms wrapped around my waist from behind.
“Be careful, dobe.” Sasuke’s breath ghosts over my ear causing me to shiver. He pulls me to him until I’m pressed firmly into his chest again, his chin resting on my shoulder, arms snuggly wrapped around me. “Where are you going to so fast that you almost killed yourself?”
“I…I was just going to put on some clothes.” Please tell me I did not just moan out loud.
“Why? I like you better this way.” His lips kiss wet trails under my ear making me shiver.
“Sa…Sasuke…don’t…we…we just can’t…not like this…please…stop.” I want him more than anything but I don’t want to move to fast. If something were to happen tonight and he woke up in the morning regretting it I don’t know what I would do. Best for us to just date for a little to make sure this is what he wants. I can wait a little while longer, I’ve waited years already.
“I thought you wanted me, Naruto.” His lips just brush against my ear now, no more kissing but his arms aren’t moving from around me.
“I…I do but…can’t we take it a little slow? I don’t want you to…” Don’t say it out loud you moron. To late.
“Don’t want me to what?”
“I don’t want you to wake up tomorrow regretting that we…you know. Maybe we can wait a little, date some to make sure you really want me as your…lover.” Lover. Oh, how I want to be his lover.
“I won’t regret anything but if that is what you want then I’ll wait.” He says he’ll wait but his fingers are playing with the waist band of my boxers.
“Sasuke, stop it. I mean it.” I let out a small growl that causing him to chuckle but he releases me.
I take a deep breath, running my hands up and down the sides of my boxers before turning around to look at him. The only problem is that he isn’t standing behind me anymore, he is sitting on the edge of my bed, his hands removing his navy shirt to slowly reveal his creamy pale skin. Snap out of it, Naruto!
“Sasuke, what are you doing?”
“Getting ready for bed.” He lets his shirt fall to the floor before taking off his weapons pouch and laying it on the night table by the bed. He brushes the candy wrappers into the floor. “Guess you had no problem with chocolates.”
“I thought you just said we won’t…you know…yet.”
“We aren’t. But after you made me sit out in the cold night air for three hours I think the least you could do is let me stay here for the night instead of tracking all the way across town to my house.” That does make sense.
“Oh, okay.” I reach down and pick up the blasted blanket I tripped over and threw it on the bed, moving to the closet I grab an extra pillow and blanket from the top shelf. I’ll be a nice host and let him have the bed, its not like I haven’t fallen asleep on the couch plenty of times before anyway.
“What are you doing?”
“You can have the bed, I’ll take the couch.”
“No we’ll both take the bed.” Oh, stop the bad thoughts running through my head.
“But you said…”
“We won’t do anything. I promise. But I’m not letting you out of my sight tonight. I want to wake up with you in my arms so I know this wasn’t a dream.” When did he get so romantic?
I quickly drop the extra blanket and practically fly into the bed next to him, resting the new pillow right beside the one his head is already on. He smiles at me, an actual smile not a smirk, before pulling me over to him, his arms once again wrapping around my waist. I really think I’ve died and gone to heaven.
He buries his nose in my hair as I tuck under his chin, my own arms wrapping around his waist. I feel so safe and warm, like nothing could hurt me. I feel myself starting to doze off, I’ve never been able to fall asleep this fast before. I just hope when I wake up this won’t have all been a dream.
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He once said he wasn’t into the romantic crap, boy was he lying. Either that or he just didn’t realize how sweet and amazing he can be sometimes. Its been two months since Sasuke told me he wanted me to be his, since the first night I fell into a peaceful sleep in his arms. And I’ve had plenty more of those.
He practically showers me with small gifts. Almost every other day I can expect to wake up with a little trinket on the pillow next to me. The gifts range from my favorite chocolates that he gave me for his first gift to flowers to clothes to even weapons. I told him he didn’t have to give me so many gifts but he just shrugged and said he enjoys seeing me happy. How can he be so sweet?
So far he has kept to his promise of waiting until I was sure for us to be together in bed like a real couple. I think its killing us both. Almost every night is spent at his house, in his enormous bed, wrapped in his strong arms. Somehow must of my belongings have found their way to his house, I guess because it’s bigger, and I do mean bigger. I’m not complaining though, I love his house or rather mansion, its so much better then my crappy apartment.
The villagers where as happy as I thought they would be but just one look from Sasuke, his red Sharingan swirling, they quickly shut up. I still get dirty looks or angry whispers but only when I’m alone, never when he is with me. Our friends took it better then I thought they would, well, all except Ino. She still had a thing for Sasuke so she wasn’t too happy at first but now she is calming back down, at least she talks to me now instead of just glaring at me.
Kiba keeps trying to give me tips for when we do finally get intimate. Just hearing about some of the things him and bug boy do makes my nose bleed. So lately every time I see dog breath I run in the other direction as fast as possible.
I do the same thing when I see Lee and Sakura just for the simple fact that I hate standing there listening to Lee go on and on about young love and destiny. Truthfully I have no idea what he is talking about half the time. Our other friends took the news well too, we received encouraging smiles and pats on the backs. I’m glad I have friends like them.
I always thought that Sasuke was a person that hides his emotions from the world, that never showed his affection in public for fear of others seeing it as a weakness. Turns out I was wrong. Every time we go out together he holds my hand as we walk down the sheet or wraps an arm around either my waist or shoulders, he even pulls my chair out for me in restaurants. At first I blushed like mad and told him not to do that, people were staring. All he said was he didn’t care. He wanted to do it for me, just ignore the other people. So that’s what I do now, I ignore the silent stares of hatred directed at me and focus solely on him, his beautiful deep black eyes.
In the last two months we’ve shared a lot of kissing…and a lot of touching. His hands are so amazing, just thinking about them makes me hard. I don’t know if I can wait any longer to official become his lover. There has been so many times these last months that I’ve wanted to just jump him but I’ve managed to control myself.
At first it was waiting to make sure he was sure about us, and now I know he is. The way he looks at me, the way he touches me, the way he actually growls at strangers in the streets who looks at me with evil intent. I love it. I love him. I want him. I want to be his lover.
With that thought I snap out of my daze. Currently I’m sitting in the large window in Sasuke’s bedroom, waiting for him to get home. He had a meeting with the old hag Hokage he had to go to, no telling what she wants with him. I hope it isn’t another mission. I’ve had a couple hours to think things over since he left, I think tonight is going to be the night. Maybe that is why I’m sitting here in just my boxers, well, actually his boxers. I love the feel of the navy silk against my skin, and he loves for me to wear them too although I think he just likes to see me wearing his family crest, the boxers are literally covered in them.
I don’t even have time to turn around after I hear the bedroom door open before I feel his presence next to me, his hand moving up to brush a lock of blonde hair from my forehead.
“What did the old hag want?” I lean into his chest as he steps even closer to me.
“Nothing really. She just wanted to get my advice on a mission she is planning.” His lips brush over the top of my head, I can feel his breathe moving my hair around.
“A mission you are going on?”
“No. She said she’ll probably send Kiba and Shino.”
“Then why did she need you?”
“Because they will be going to the sound village. Not a lot of people know the way around there. I do. She wanted me to help draw a map of the area and tell of certain spots that they can use for cover if need be.” He slips away from me, moving to the other side of the room again.
He doesn’t like to talk about what happened when he was gone, he doesn’t even like to bring it up. I asked him why the other week and he said he didn’t want to remember betraying me. I told him not to worry about it because he did come back but he still hates for anyone to mention that three year period.
I can’t take my eyes off of him as he starts to undress. His hands tug the navy shirt over his head, revealing smooth pale skin for my eyes only. His dark locks get slightly messed up before the shirt is thrown into a dirty laundry hamper near the bathroom door. He turns away from me toward the dresser as his fingers undo his weapons pouch, laying it on top of the dark wooden piece of furniture before moving back to undo his pants.
He is watching me watching him, I can see his black eyes looking back at me through the mirror on the dresser. He gives me an evil smirk as his white shorts fall down his narrowed hips and legs, pooling at his bare feet.
“I’m going to take a shower before bed, dobe. Why don’t you warm up the bed for me?” I almost miss what he says as he bends to pick up his shorts, putting them in the hamper with his shirt as he walks into the bathroom, the door closing behind him softly.
“Okay.” So I’m talking to an empty room about five minutes after he has left. It takes my mind a while to catch up with me after seeing so much of his skin bared for my eyes.
I move over to the large black silk covered bed but stop as I start to crawl into it. I want this to be the night and by the way he was looking at me in the mirror he does to. So I will warm up the bed for him, with my nude body. I can’t help but giggle like a little girl as I remove my boxers, throwing them across the room to land on top of his discarded clothes.
The silk is so cold as I slide between the sheets of the bed but the silk feels so good, I’m already hard as a rock and he isn’t even out of the shower yet. I want to look sexy when he comes out to find me waiting for him but how do I do that? I don’t know anything about being sexy. Should I lay down or just sit here?
I’m nervous and with good reason. This will be my first time and I hope it will be his. I think it is. I don’t know for sure though, like I said he doesn’t like to talk about those three years he was missing. I have no idea if he had a lover or lovers while he was gone. Maybe I’m not his first but I want to think I am.
Stupid, Naruto. Don’t think about something like that when you’re about to give yourself to the person you love. If I think like that I’ll worry about not satisfying him. What if he did have lovers before me? What if I can’t compare to them? What if I’m really bad at this and he throws me out into the night with my things, telling me to leave him alone? What if…
His soft yet firm lips over mine make me loose my train of thought. I didn’t even hear him come out of the bathroom.
“What are you thinking about?” He is sitting on the edge of the bed in nothing but a towel that is very low on his hips, one of his hands run through my thick locks as his dark eyes bore into my lighter ones.
“N…nothing.”
“Lair. What were you thinking about, dobe?”
“Really it was nothing.” I can’t let him know what I was thinking, he would just laugh at me.
“Fine don’t tell me. Will you at least tell me why you are laying in bed nude?” His eyes rake down my naked chest to the covers resting just below my belly button.
“I thought…I just thought that we could…you know…”
“You want to make love tonight, Naruto?” He is leaning over, his lips brushing against my cheek.
“Yes…if you want to that is. We don’t have to if you don’t wan…” He can be such a forceful kisser sometimes while still remaining gentle. How can he do that?
“I’ve been waiting a lifetime to make love to you.”
He pushes me back until I’m laying in the bed with him leaning over me, smirking. I know that smirk, that smirk means he is about to do something I might not like. And I’m proven right as he yanks the covers off of me, throwing them to the foot of the bed.
I don’t know what to do with my hands, I want to cover myself up. I can feel the heat in my face meaning I’m blushing. We’ve seen each other nude in passing just for moments at a time but this is different, much different. He is staring at me like he wants to eat me up, he even licks his lips. I feel like his favorite food dish.
I move my hands to cover myself up, I want us to be together but all of a sudden I’ve gotten very shy. I think it has something to do with the way he is just looking at me up and down.
“Don’t.” He reaches down and gently slaps my hands away. “I want to see you, all of you.”
“Stop staring, teme.” I still call him that from time to time but he knows I don’t mean it anymore, at least not most of the time.
“I can’t help it. You’re just too beautiful not to stare at.” His eyes are focused back on my own. Again I ask, how can he be so romantic and sweet?
The next thing I know I have his warm lips on mine, his slightly wet hair hanging down around my face, brushing my whiskered cheeks. The bed dips more under his wait as he crawls over me, his knees slipping between my legs, forcing me to spread them so that he can lay between them. His towel covered hips grind down into my bare ones causing both of us to moan loudly into the quiet room.
His hands move to either side of my head on the pillow, his tongue slipping out to run over my lips asking for entrance. I give it to him instantly, I don’t think I could ever deny him anything, especially something like this. His warm appendage maps out every inch of my mouth, our tongues battling for a moment as if fighting for dominance. But I give it over to him. That is something that has really surprised me these last couple of months, seems like I’m a submissive type. I would have never guessed but I love for him to take control with our make-out sessions. And he loves it too.
I moan around his mouth as his hips keep grinding into me causing my legs to spread even wider. He lowers himself until his forearms are resting on the pillow, his smooth pale chest laid tight against my darker tanned one. Suddenly he pulls back, his eyes staring down into mine.
“Are you sure about this? If you don’t stop me now I won’t be able to stop later.”
“I want this more then anything.” I don’t think I could tell him to stop if I wanted to. Especially with the way his hips keep moving.
I reach up and pull his head back down to mine, my lips opening up for his exploring tongue again. He moves his weight to one arm as the other starts sliding down my side, tickling over my ribs until he reaches the low towel on his hips. I gasps, my eyes widening, as he yanks the material off and throws it into the floor by the bed.
He just smirks down at me, our now nude erections pressing against each other. This is more then I ever thought it would be and we haven’t even gotten to the sex yet. I don’t think I’m going to last long. I can feel a heat in the pit of my stomach telling me that it will be over too soon if he keeps this up.
“Stop…stop.” My hands grip his hips, stopping his moments as my eyes close, my breath coming out deep and fast.
“Naru…Naruto, I’m…I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have. I just thought…I’m sorry.” He quickly jumps off the bed, grapping the towel from the floor and wrapping it around himself again. His black eyes look everywhere but at me before he starts moving toward the door.
“Wait! What…Where are you going?” I move to sit on the edge of the bed, suddenly not caring that I’m nude. Has he changed his mind? Has he finally realized what a dumb mistake he has made being with me? Why did he have to realize that now?
“I…I’m going to…to go get something to…eat.” He is having a hard time thinking up an excuse to get out of this room, away from me. He can’t even look at me. I knew this was too good to be true. The past two months have just been something for my dreams, he’ll get his voice back soon and kick me out of his place. I won’t be able to hold him or kiss him any more. I want to cry.
And I do. I don’t care if he sees me. I don’t care if he thinks I’m weak. I don’t care about anything anymore. Not when I can’t have him. Suddenly I feel two warm hands brushing the tears from my cheeks, I look up to see him kneeling in front of me.
“Naruto, why are you crying? I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have…I’m sorry.”
“Don’t. I don’t want to hear how much you regret it. I’m the one that is sorry for getting the villagers to hate you too. Maybe after I move…move out they won’t be mad at you anymore.” I can only hope. I still love him, no matter how much it breaks my heart to know he doesn’t love me.
“Nar…what…I don’t regret anything.”
“Then why did you start saying you’re sorry? Why did you get up and start to leave me?”
“I thought…wait, you didn’t want me to leave?” His hands have moved to rest on top of my knees, his eyes searching mine for something.
“Of course not. I have wanted this forever.”
“Dobe.” He shakes his head as he lowers it, then I hear his chucking. Is he laughing at me now? “We are both so stupid.”
“What?”
“I don’t regret being with you.” His head raises, his eyes staring back at me. “You told me to stop, I thought it meant you were regretting this. That you didn’t want to go through with it. I thought maybe I had pushed you too far too fast.”
“I just wanted you to stop moving your hips. If you didn’t I wasn’t going to last much longer. I didn’t mean for you stop completely.” How can we both be so stupid?
“Looks like we are both pretty nervous. What do you want to do?”
All I do is smirk down at him as I reach to tug the towel from around his waist. His thick erection bounces slightly up and down causing a little giggle to escape my lips. He narrows his eyes before pouncing, literally on me, pinning me to the bed, his lips attaching themselves to my neck.
“I really want this Sasuke.” I whisper.
Once again his hips are grinding into my own, his knees moving to rest on the bed between mine causing me to move up slightly to allow him room. My hands work up and down his strong back, smooth soft skin covering hidden muscles from years of training. His body is truly flawless, no scars what so ever. I don’t know how he does it. I know he gets injured but somehow he always avoids getting scars. I don’t have any either but that’s because I have a monster inside of me that always heals my wounds, I don’t know his excuse.
“What are you thinking about?” He moves his lips down my neck, licking and nipping at my tanned flesh.
“How wonderful this feels.” And boy does it feel wonderful. I could die happy right now with him on top of me.
And when one of his hands sneak down my body to wrap around my erection I think I’m about to. My hand has never felt this good, my hips buck up into his hand causing him to chuckle softly into my neck. His teeth bite down hard on my collarbone, I moan loudly, my eyes slipping closed.
“Sasuke…please…”
“Please what?” He is so evil.
“Please…need more.” I want so much more, I want to feel him inside, feeling me up until I’m about to burst.
“Need more of what?” How does he get his voice to sound so sexy?
“Need more of you. Please…please…Sasuke I need you.” A small part of myself can’t believe I’m actually begging. I never beg and yet this boy on top of me can make me do anything.
Before I know it he is off of me, the cool room settling over my nude form causing me to shiver slightly. What happened? What did I say? Why has he left me?
“I would love to tease you for hours but I can’t wait that long myself.” I look over to see him digging in the nightstand, slowly I move to lay my head on the pillows, I’m so nervous when I see him pull out a small bottle of lotion that I start to fidget with the sheets under me.
“Am I that irresistible?” Good, make a joke and maybe I can calm down a little bit.
“Yes, you are.” I jump, when did he get close enough to whisper into my ear?
His lips are back on mine, his legs between my own, his hard erection grinding against my equally hard one. I moan loudly into his mouth as one of his hands works its way between my legs, I feel a slick finger move around my hidden entrance. I know my eyes have to be a wide as saucers now but he doesn’t notice, his lips are too busy moving down my neck.
My hips move away from his finger as it pushes past my ring of muscles. This is kinda painful. How can people like this? How can they stand to have something bigger than a finger inside of them when just the tip of his finger is about to kill me? He shifts his weight to his knees, using his other hand to grab a hold of my waist, he pushes me down into the bed preventing me from moving.
“Stay still, dobe.” He pants against my neck.
“Can’t…hurts.” I’m whining. I feel so stupid for whining. I don’t need to show him any weakness yet I can’t stop.
“It will pass in a minute, just relax.” How does he know that?
Regardless of what my mind is telling me I try to do as he says, I’ve wanted this for a long time even since before we were dating. I should have been better prepared but I really didn’t think it would feel like THIS! Oh, what was that? He just touched something deep inside of me. Something that has turned my brains into mush, along with every other muscle in my body.
“Wh…what was that?”
“What? This?”
His finger curves again inside my body, hitting something that makes me see stars. Oh, how I love this man on top of me.
“Do it again.” My arms wrap around his neck, pulling his lips to my own. We meet in a passionate kiss as he moves his finger to hit that spot over and over again.
I’m in heaven. Sometime during all the pain I died and now I’m in heaven. This feels incredible. Just as I’m enjoying the sensation I feel another one of his fingers slip into me. It stings slightly but isn’t anything compared to what it was before. And it helps that he keeps hitting that special spot.
He moves his head back, looking down at me with those pitch black eyes until I feel myself blush.
“What are you looking at?”
“Some one that is beautiful.” He can make me blush with one sentence, he really is amazing.
“Stop talking like th…” My words are cut off by the feeling of yet another finger entering into me. I can feel his three appendages moving inside of me, every once in a while hitting that spot deep inside that makes me want to just scream in pleasure. Its all I can do to stop from doing just that.
His lips descend on mine for a quick kiss before he moves to place all of his weight on his knees, his fingers slip out of my now slick passage. His hands wrapping around my thighs and pushing them to my chest.
“Hold them there.” His voice is rough and panting, his dark eyes filled with lust. Lust for me! I can’t believe it. He really does want this, he really does want me.
Without hesitation I grab the backs of my knees, holding them to my chest as I watch him squirt some more lotion onto his hand. The bottle falling to the floor shortly after as his slick hand wraps around his arousal. He looks so sexy with his hand moving back and forth, my eyes can’t move away.
After a long second he removes his hand from his erection, taking a firm hold on the back of my thighs he moves forward. His dark eyes lock onto my light blue ones as he moves forward, the tip of his arousal nudging against my opening.
“You are sure you want this?”
“More than anything. Please, Sasuke, I want you so bad.” I can’t keep the small whine out of my voice, why is he delaying? Is he regretting this? Has he changed his mind? Is he going too…
My mind stops thinking. Sentences can’t be formed anymore. My eyes close, my hands gripping the backs of my knees tightly as the tip of his erection pushes into me. This hurts more then just his fingers, I bit down on my lower lip to keep from screaming.
I can feel every inch pushing inside of me, I may have thought he was big just by looking at him but now that it is pushing into me I think he has grown several inches longer…and wider. There is no way this is going to happen. There is no way he can fit all the way inside of me like this.
Tears slide down the sides of my face as I squeeze my eyes tighter. Suddenly there is a shadow over me, then I feel a rough, wet tongue licking my tears away. I open my eyes to see that he has moved his hands to either side of my head, his lips kissing me all over my face. I realize that he isn’t moving anymore, his hips are flush with my own. When did he move all the way inside of me?
“I’m sorry. Just relax. The pain will fade soon. Trust me, dobe.” I will always trust him. Even when I’m in pain like now, I still trust him.
He moves back slightly before pushing back inside. I continue to bite my lip, my eyes close tightly as he does it again, this time pulling a little further back. Slowly the pain starts to fade, my eyes shoot open as one of his inward pushes hits that spot deep inside of me.
“Oh…Sasuke…do that again.” And he does, this time with a little more force. I can’t hold back my screams any longer, only they aren’t screams of pain anymore, they are screams of pure pleasure.
I move my hands from my knees, his chest holding my legs in place, as I wrap my arms around his neck, pulling him down for a deep kiss. He moves in and out of me in long, deep thrusts. I love this. So the pain was worth it after all, it really does feel fantastic. I’ve never thought anything could feel this good or that I would ever feel anything like this anyway. I didn’t think I deserved this good of a feeling.
“Sasuke…more…please…” I’m begging again. How does he make me beg like this?
“More what?” I sneak a glance at him through my half closed eyes to find him smirking at me. My fingers thread through his dark hair, pulling slightly as I growl.
“Don’t play with me.”
“Then tell me what you want.” His hips are moving slower now making me want to cry with frustration.
“Please…Sasuke…please just move more.”
“Like this?” He thrusts his hips just a little faster, making me feel so good.
“Yes…more…faster…harder…” I don’t care if I’m begging him. I just want this feeling to last forever.
He doesn’t ridicule me, he just does as I asked him to. His hips start to piston into my own, his member moving in and out of me with a force that shoves me back into the mattress. I moan loudly in pleasure, my eyes snapping shut at the incredible feeling, my hands running up and down his back.
My erection is trapped between our bodies, the friction of his every movement bringing me even more pleasure. How can a person feel this good after that much pain? I never want this to end, I want him to stay inside of me like this forever.
“You feel so good, Naruto.” He is panting now. So this feels as good to him as it does to me, I’m glad.
“Sasuke…please…I don’t think I…I can last much longer.” I can since the end coming. I can feel myself about to explode and I haven’t even been touched yet.
“Me either.”
He thrusts deeper into me, his head falling back. My nails rake down his back, I know I must be leaving marks but right now neither of us care. His inward movements keep hitting that one spot that makes me scream even louder. Good thing he doesn’t have any close by neighbors.
“Are you ready, dobe? I can’t hold out any more.”
“Me either. Please, Sasuke.”
Leaning down he kissing me roughly, our lips clashing together as I feel myself explode between us, my essence sticking to our chests and stomachs. I hear him growl into my mouth as I feel a sudden fullness inside of me, he must have released just after I did. His hips continue to move very slowly for a few minutes as we both calm down.
I move my arms to wrap around his neck, my fingers playing with the spiky hair sticking out at the back. Sasuke slowly slumps down until he is laying fully on top of me, our chests raising and falling erratically from our passionate encounter. His lips find my neck right below my ear.
“That was prefect.”
“Yeah. I didn’t think it would feel that good.” I mumble, my eyes have fallen shut. I feel like I just trained for hours, I’m so exhausted but in a very good way.
“So it stopped hurting?”
“Oh yeah.”
“Good.” He nibbles my neck. “You’ve managed to wear me out, dobe.”
“You did the same for me.”
“Am I too heavy?”
“No.” Truthfully he feels perfect on top of me. Not to heavy but not to light either, just right. And I like the fact that he is still inside of me.
“Good, I’m too tired to move.” He chuckles into my neck. I can feel his breathing start to even out with my own. Our fist intimate encounter has us both worn out. Looks like a second round is defiantly out of the question, or at least on pause until tomorrow morning when we both have our energy back.
I can feel sleep start to take over my mind, my tired muscles slowly relaxing, I chuckle softly as I hear a very light snore next to my ear. Looks like he already beat me to it but I’m not that far behind.
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I never would have thought that having a fox demon inside of me could be a good thing. That it could bring me miracles I didn’t even know I wanted until they were here, in my arms. Okay, so I knew well before Sasuke was in my arms that I wanted him, but he isn’t the miracles I am talking about.
No, I’m looking at those miracles right now as I sit under a tall tree, the breeze blowing lightly, ruffling my blonde hair. I can’t help but laugh out loud as my black haired lover picks up a small boy with matching black hair only cut like mine. The little boy giggles loudly as Sasuke spins him around in the air, the boy’s bright blue eyes looking over at me every now and then.
Sasuke stops spinning the black haired boy as he feels small hands pulling on his shorts’ legs, there standing next to him is another little boy, this one with blonde hair spiked like Sasuke’s and dark black eyes looking up at my lover. Smiling Sasuke puts the black haired boy down to pick up the blonde one.
Yep, this fox demon inside of me can be a good thing after all. Only a year after Sasuke and I started dating I started getting sick in the mornings, well actually throughout the day. It lasted for weeks before Sasuke finally just dragged me to see the old hag. We both fainted when she told us I was pregnant, Sasuke even knocked his head on a table on the way down.
A couple months later when we found out not only was I pregnant but I was having twins, we did it again. And again he hit his head on the way down. Poor baby, I was thinking about carrying a pillow to every meeting with the old hag from then on just to make sure he didn’t hurt himself anymore.
At first I was scared and nervous. I didn’t know if Sasuke would be happy about having children with me or angry. Yes, I still had doubts about our relationship. I still didn’t think a wonderful guy like Sasuke could want anything to do with someone as cursed as me. But know I know he would never leave me. He has told me thousands of times, with words and with actions that he loves me more than anything. I haven’t doubted him in a long time.
Turns out he was more then happy about me having his children. He was walking around the whole village for months with a big smile on his face. Even when I was sending him out in the middle of the night for my weird cravings or screaming at him when the first labor pains hit me, he was all smiles.
After our sons were born, Reita and Sakito, Sasuke finally stopped smiling long enough to tell me of his fears. He was afraid he wouldn’t be a good father, that he would mess up big time and cause trouble for our kids. We had a long talk and found that we both had similar fears. We promised to do our best, ask for help from the old hag or Iruka or even Kakashi when we needed it.
Its been two years since the boys were born and we have done a great job, at least in my opinion. At first the villagers weren’t happy at all. They were afraid that since I had an evil spirit inside of me so would our children. But Sasuke stood up for us, he yelled at anyone that dared even look at me and kids with a glare. Finally the villagers realized that the boys weren’t evil and that they held the Uchiha blood in them. That’s all the villagers really wanted, someone to carry on the blood trait of the Uchiha clan.
“Daddy!” I prepare myself for the little black haired boy running at me, laughing as he lands in my lap with a little bounce.
“Done playing with papa, Reita?”
“Papa said we could go get ice cream.” Reita smiles up at me, his blue eyes shining with hope. That is another thing Sasuke has taken to very well, he can spoil these two like no one else can.
“Well, I guess that would be okay.”
“Yea! Daddy said it was okay.” My little boy yells over his shoulder at his other father and brother, the two coming over to join us under the tree.
“Then why don’t you get up, dobe, so we can go?” After all this time he still calls me dobe, but I don’t think of it as an insult anymore, more of a pet name.
“I’m going, I’m going. It’s a little hard to get up with a rugrat in my lap.” I get up with a little difficultly, the little boy in my arms just laughing quietly into my shoulder.
Sasuke moves closer to me once I’m on my feet, his lips descending on mine after he shifts Sakito to one of his hips. The boys’ giggling reaches my ears as I kiss my love back, pulling away I can’t help but look deep into his black eyes filled with love and happiness.
Never in my life did I think I was going to be this happy. Never in my life did I think I deserved this. All my life I thought having a demon spirit inside of me was terrible. But now I realize that to have happiness, to have love, sometimes one must go through hell to get it. I’ve made my journey, I’ve found my love and happiness. I never believed in miracles before but now I do. Because right here with me now I have three miracles I never even imagined I would one day have. And for that I am truly happy for the first, but not last, time in my life.
THE END
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Note: The names Reita and Sakito came from two of my favorite Jrock bands, Gazette and Nightmare.
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Includes: Yaoi (male/male relationships)
Pairings: Sasuke/Naruto, mention of others
Beta(s): Me
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General A/N: First off, its been a long time since I’ve posted a story, life has been busy and my mind has been slow to work. Lol. I even forgot about my LiveJournal but I’m about to go there.
Second, this is my first Naruto fic so I hope it is good. Also, all the short, cut of sentences or run on sentences are not grammar errors, but done on purpose. This is told by Naruto’s POV-his thoughts so I didn’t think he would be very good at grammar anyway. Lol.
Well, I’ll shut up now and let you guys read. Hope you enjoy…
by Ravenx
A quiet breeze blew through the green leaves of the trees, the smell of fresh mountain air floating along with it. I laid back further into the grass, letting the warm blades press through the fingers of my right hand, my blue eyes watching the clouds sail slowly across the clear blue sky.
Today was a beautiful day, a wonderful day for the festival the town of Konoha was throwing to celebrate the victory over that slimy snake bastard. I still can’t believe that after three years of training and searching we finally found him and defeated him and his little lover boy. It wasn’t an easy battle but it was won by us, although not all of us made it out without injury.
Even though it had been a month since the fight, Neji and Kiba were still stuck in the hospital with strict orders not to leave their beds for another couple of days. At Kiba’s side was his faithful companion Akamaura and his lover Shino, the two absolutely refused to leave the boy’s bedside. And Neji had his shy cousin, Hinata, and Tenten to deal with. The two babied him enough to give me a headache whenever I visited. I envy those too guys so much, not that I’d ever say anything to them or anyone about it. But I envied the fact that they had people that loved them. People that would do anything for them. And they aren’t the only ones I envy.
In the battle, Lee proved his love for Sakura by taking several throwing stars in the back to protect her. Shikamaru even made his love known for Choji after he thought the chubby ninja had died due to a dangerous throwing needle sticking out of the boy’s chest. Comes to find out the thing just got stuck in a bag of chips Choji was carrying, Shikamaru almost killed him afterward with a blush to his cheeks.
I’m happy for them. I’m glad the others have found true love. They deserve it. I know that everyone is in town now having a good time. I also know that they don’t expect or rather don’t want me to show up. My friends may have begged me to come but I know the villagers don’t want me anywhere near them. After all this time they still fear me.
I wish I understood why, I mean, without my fox spirit that snake bastard would have won. If I hadn’t released my other chakra then I wouldn’t be laying here today and this town would probably be destroyed. But the villagers don’t see that. All they see is the blonde boy with the evil fox demon sealed inside of him. They believe that the only reason we won the battle was because of Sasuke.
Which is true. He helped greatly after he returned to our side. The villagers don’t even seem to remember that he betrayed us three years ago, all they see is the last of the Uchiha clan returning home. He doesn’t even have to say that he is sorry and they welcome him with open arms. What happened when I came back from the mission? What happened when I walked through the gates of the village with only scratches? They sighed, looked disappointed, and went on welcoming back the others. No one looked at me after that. No one offered to help when exhaustion finally set in and I stumbled for a moment, almost falling into a pile of rocks. They just rolled their eyes and laughed.
Its not like I expected anything else. I’m not as stupid as they think I am. I know I will never achieve the goal I want. My dream of becoming Hokage someday. I say that I will. I tell everyone that will listen. But deep down I know it will never happen. The villagers will never trust me enough to have full control over the town. And believe it or not, I’ve come to accept that fact. It was hard to do but after living the life I have I’ve come to realize that the most I will probably ever be is a Chuunin.
I’m still pretty surprised that I made it that far. Took me almost two years longer than the others but I did it. By now they are all ahead of me, and I see them going much further than they are. I see great things for all of them in the future. At times I feel anger toward them for making it so much further then I ever will but I can’t hold it against them. They are normal, well, sometimes I don’t know about Kiba. That boy is just way to hyper sometimes for his own good.
The festival must be in full swing now, I can hear the sounds of laughter and music all the way up here. I bet the others are having a great time, playing games and telling jokes together. Oh well, best not to think about it. If I don’t then maybe I won’t be missing much.
I close my eyes, trying to focus on the sound of the wind blowing the leaves rather than all the fun I’m missing out on. I move both my arms behind my head, my legs crossing at the ankles as I feel myself start to drift off slightly. Then I hear it. I remain unmoving, my heightened hearing reaching out to hear another light thud.
Sounds like someone leaping from tree branch to tree branch. I don’t know who could possibly be up here instead of at the festival. They’re trying mask their chakra, even though I can’t tell who it is I know they mean me no harm. I just stay where I am, waiting for them to show themselves.
I don’t have to wait long before silence falls again, the festival noise low in the background of the chirping birds. I can sense someone watching me. A moment later there is a soft thud as the person jumps down from the trees to land a couple feet next to me.
“I know you’re awake, dobe.” The deep voice of my former team mate says.
I open my blue eyes to look over into pure black ones staring down at me. His black hair tinted with a dark blue is like it was in his childhood, hanging down the sides of his face while spiked in the back. His attire consist of white shorts and loose black shirt, undoubtedly with his family crest on the back of it. I can see his small weapons pouch poking out from behind him, the one usually on his leg missing, how odd.
His black sandals caring him over until he is right beside me, his eyes boring down into mine. He has become so much taller in the time he was gone, he has always been taller then me but now he simply towers above me, even when we are standing.
“What do you want, teme?” I don’t hate him anymore but I still love to see him glare.
“Why aren’t you at the festival?”
“Don’t feel like going.” I shrug, closing my eyes again. Better not to tell him the truth. He might just use it as an opportunity to make fun of me, or worse yet, he may take pity on me. I don’t think I could handle seeing pity in his beautiful eyes.
Yes, you heard me. I think his eyes are beautiful, actually I think everything about him is beautiful. I have for a long time. That’s why I tried so hard to find him. I…I love him. Even back then. Even when we fought before he left, I loved him. but I know I can’t tell him that. He could never love me. Who would ever love the boy with a monster inside of him?
I hear him sigh before sitting down next to me.
“Everyone has been talking about this thing for weeks. The others are all there, even Neji and Kiba got released from the hospital for a couple hours to attend.”
“Good for them. I bet Shino, Hinata, and Tenten are happy.”
“Yeah. How long have they been together?”
“Well, Shino and Kiba actually got together during the first Chuunin exam but they kept it a secret for about a year. Then about two years ago Neji confessed that he loved Hinata and Tenten. The two girls talked it over and ended up deciding to share him.” I chuckled just thinking back to that day. The look on Neji’s face when he found out that he was to have to lovers. I’ve never seen the boy happier then that moment, or more shocked for that matter.
“A lot has changed in three years.” Sasuke’s voice is low, almost a whisper.
“You honestly didn’t expect things to stay the same, did you?” I peek at him through a half-lidded eye to discover that he is sitting cross-legged facing me. His head is bowed, hands resting on the new forehead protector gracing his head.
He could have had his old one, I still had it even though it had a slash across it. But I told him that I had lost it long ago while searching for him. I had to lie in order to keep it. I want it for myself. Hell, I don’t remember the last night I slept without it under my pillow. Its something that keeps the bad dreams away.
“No, but its just weird to come back with so many changes. I feel like I don’t belong here anymore.”
“You’re not thinking about running away again are you? Cause I honesty don’t feel like chasing you down right this minute.” My eyes slip close again as he starts to raise his head.
“You would come after me again?”
“Of course.” You’re the one I love. I’d go anywhere and through anything to bring you back here safe.
“Why?”
“Better question is why are you up here talking to me when you could be playing with everyone else down at the festival?” Trust me, Sasuke, you don’t want to know why I’d go to the ends of the earth to bring you back here. You won’t like the answer.
“Its too nosy down there. And they won’t stop smiling and welcoming me back. Its annoying.”
Its weird, isn’t it. He doesn’t want all the attention he gets and I would do anything for just a moment of it.
“They have reason to celebrate. The last member of a very prominent family has returned. Now you can pick a girl and settle down. Revive your clan by having a ton of kids that will take on your bloodline. You’ve got it made. Especially since the snake bastard is gone.” Just talking about him getting married and having kids has my stomach in a knot. I don’t like to think of him with anyone but me. I know, its selfish. I should just think of the happiness he’ll have with having a lovely girl standing beside him and kids hanging all over him.
“Like that will really be happening.” He snorts under his breath which gets my attention. I open my eyes to look at him.
“What do you mean?”
“Mean by what?”
“That it won’t be happening.”
“You heard that?” He sounds shocked, I guess people forget that I can hear better then a normal person.
“Yes. What did you mean?”
“I…nothing.” Something about the way he says that, the way his eyes look off into the distance, the way his cheeks take on a slight pink color makes me think it was something.
“Sasuke, you can’t lie to me. What did you mean? You know I won’t give up until you tell me so just save us both some time and breath and say it already.”
He looks like he is about to deny it again but then his black eyes turn to look at me again. Its like he is studying me, looking through me for a moment before turning his head away again.
“Do you have a problem with Shino and Kiba or Shikamaru and Choji?”
“What do you mean? They’re my friends.” Some of the only people in the village that don’t look down at me, that treat me normal.
“I didn’t m…I meant…do you have a problem with their relationships with each other?” He stumbles over his words like he can’t get out what he really wants to say. I think its cute. Especially mixed with the slight blush on his cheeks. What is he getting at?
“Of course I don’t. I envy them. I mean they found someone that they love more than anything and that person feels the same about them. Why would I have a problem with something as great as that?”
Okay, I don’t know if I said the wrong thing but he is looking at me like it’s the first time we’ve meet. His hands move nervously down to the grass between us as he speaks.
“So you don’t mind them being gay?”
“No, why would I? I mean it would be kinda odd hating someone because their gay and I am to…” Crap! I said to much. Maybe he brought this up to say he doesn’t like gay people, that he finds them disgusting. Now he’ll have a whole new reason to hate me.
I close my eyes, waiting for what will happen next. In my mind I’m picturing his fist coming at me hard and fast.
“You’re gay?” His voice sounds shocked. There is no denying it now.
“Yes.” I’m still slightly tensed waiting for some blows.
“So it seems we have more in common then I thought.” Okay, I was waiting for some physical blows not some mental ones. What did he mean by that, only one way to find out.
“What?” I look over to see him smirking down at me.
“I said we have more in common then I thought we did.”
“And what exactly does that mean?”
“I’m gay too, dobe.” His dark black eyes roll up the sky as he chuckles, a deep sound that I just love to hear. A sound that has haunted my dreams for the past three years.
I sit up quickly, a little too quickly if the slight headache is anything to go by. I know my eyes must be wide as saucers as I just stare at him, my mouth slightly agape. He just sits there, smirking at me, his fingers playing in the blades of grass.
“What?” He cocks an eyebrow as if challenging me to say something.
“You…but that…not possible.”
“Why not?” Because if it was true then that means I would be a step closer to having you. But I still know there is no way that will happen so it will just bring me more heartache to see you with another guy.
“Because you’re Uchiha Sasuke, the boy wonder, the last of your clan, the boy that can do no wrong. Do you realize what the villagers will say when they find out you won’t be continuing your bloodline?” They will be upset but there is no way in hell that they would hate him.
“I’ve thought a lot about it but I really don’t care. If I don’t have an interest in girls then there is nothing I can do about it. The bloodline will just stop with me, I’m sure my brother isn’t going to continue it.” He shrugs as if it means nothing, as if giving up the Sharingan is alright.
“How can you say that? The Sharingan is an amazing trait. You can’t just not pass it down.” I don’t know what to say.
“Maybe there will be someway in the future to pass it along but right now I don’t care about it. Right now I’m too concerned about…about telling someone I like him.”
“You like someone?” I think my heart is breaking.
“Well, actually, I think I love him.”
Okay, I know my heart is breaking now. Its in a million pieces that can’t be picked up and put back together. Why did he have to tell me this? Why does he have to hurt me this bad without even knowing it?
“Oh…lov…really…” I can’t think of how to speak right now. I’m too busy trying not to cry.
“Yeah, I’ve loved him for a long time but never really realized it until I came back to town. Now all I do is think of him consistly, of his smile, his amazing eyes, his stupid laugh.” Sasuke smiles widely, his eyes looking off into the distance again.
I want him to stop talking. I want him to just shut up and pretend he never said anything for the past few minutes. I want my heart to be put back together.
“That’s…that’s gr…great.” I’m glad that he is happy. That should be all that matters, his happiness. Maybe if I keep telling myself that the pain will go away.
“Look, I don’t know who else to ask that wouldn’t go crazy and yell it to the whole town but…what should I do to get him to like me?”
Just smile at him, if he is anything like me he will melt into your arms in one second flat. I never imagined Sasuke would be talking to me about his love life, let alone asking me how to make someone like him. This is just too much. I didn’t think my heart could break anymore, turns out I was wrong.
“You’re asking me?”
“Yeah, I know we pick on each other about almost everything but I thought that with this we could be serious. That maybe you would keep it a secret and give me some advice.” He shrugs gently, his black eyes boring into my blue ones before I look away.
“Its…why ask me? I’ve never…had anyone special like that.” Only you and I know for certain now that that is way out of my range, well, I’ve known that forever but now its really confirmed.
“Well, then tell me what you like someone to do for you. Then maybe I can try it on him.”
“Why not do something you like?”
“I don’t what I like. I’m not really into the romantic crap.”
“Then why bother?”
“Because I think he is. I want him to like me. Just give me some ideas.” He looks like he is getting angry now. His fist clenching at the grass between us.
“Well…” I can’t believe I’m about to tell him the truth, but I can’t stop it from coming out. “He might like to have some flowers delivered or some of his favorite sweets. Maybe…I think I need to go.” I have to get out of here. I can’t bare to tell him how to attach a lover that isn’t me anymore.
I stand to leave but find that I can’t move because he has followed into a standing position, one of his hands grabbing the fabric of my long sleeved orange shirt. I never thought I would hate wearing long sleeves, but right now they are denying me his touch.
“Why are you leaving?”
“I…its just…I have to do something.” Like go home and cry my eyes out.
“What?”
“Something…at home. I just remembered. Good luck getting the special guy.” I give him one of my famous big goofy smiles, pull my arm from his grasp and run off. I don’t look back. I don’t want to look back and see him thinking about what to do for his new soon to be lover. I just want to run away and never come back.
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A week has passed since I last spoke to Sasuke. A week filled with me crying myself to sleep, not eating nearly enough, and tossing and turning at night. My dreams were still filled with the dark haired boy except now I dreamed of him turning his back on me and going after some mysterious boy. I can see them laughing and kissing, my heart breaking over and over again every time I fall asleep as I hear Sasuke’s voice echo in my head.
“I think I love him. I’ve loved him for a long time but never really realized it until I came back to town. Now all I do is think of him consistly, of his smile, his amazing eyes, his stupid laugh.”
I’ve thought about it for the last week, trying to figure out who it could be. Who could still my Sasuke’s heart, who could make him talk like that, smile the way he did when he said it? But I can’t think of anyone. Most of the people we knew from the Academy were already together with someone else, so who could it be?
I even went so far as to asking them if they received anything in the last week. They looked at me weird and laughed, asking what I was talking about. I just played my idiotic self and they passed it off as nothing.
My apartment seems to get darker and darker every night, I know it sounds stupid but even when I didn’t think I could have Sasuke I still had a little hope buried deep inside of me. But now that hope has been crushed, I knew it would be one day but I expected it to be in the future when I was at his wedding, not so soon.
I look down from my ceiling to the door as I hear a knock, firm yet soft. Who could that be? My friends are either on missions or with their loved ones, Sasuke is probably wooing his new lover right now. Just the thought of it brings fresh tears to my eyes.
I’ve got to remember to move that coffee table, every time I walk by it I hit my shins. Hobbling to the door I notice the knocking stopped, actually I only think I heard it once. Either someone had the wrong apartment and realized it or someone is playing a joke on the monster boy.
Sighing I open the door expecting to find no one and in a way I do. I find that no one is in the hallway but there is something sitting just outside my door on the old wooden floors. Two somethings actually, which make me take a big breath, my heart pounding wildly in my chest.
Why you ask? Because in front of me is a large crystal clear vase with a dozen long stemmed white roses. Propped up next to it is a small box of my favorite chocolate that I don’t get often because its too expensive for an everyday purchase.
My eyes look up and down the hall again, just making sure no one is there. There isn’t. I’m all alone. With shaking hands I reach down and take the vase carefully in my hands, bring it into my apartment and sitting it on that blasted coffee table before quickly running back to the door and getting the chocolate. One last look up and down the hall before I shut the door behind me, moving to sit on the sofa.
I just stare at the flowers, my hands rubbing the edges of the expensive box of chocolates. Someone made a mistake. Someone left these for the one they love at the wrong apartment. These are meant for someone other than me. These are meant for someone who is loved, and judging by these chocolates, they are loved a lot.
What should I do? I don’t know who they are meant for so I can’t just go around to all the neighbors asking them if they were expecting a delivery, they already think I’m weird enough. Oh, there is a note. Good, I can find out who these things belong to and get them out of my apartment before I devour these candies.
I picked the note from the small stand sticking out the middle of the roses, unfolding it I stared in shock at the first word I read.
“Naruto.”
Why does it have my name on it? There is no way someone would give me flowers and candy. Unless this is some sick joke. That’s probably what it is. Someone playing a joke on me. Oh well, might as well keep reading and see what they have to say.
“I didn’t know what kind of flowers you liked but I knew you use to enjoy this kind of candy when we were younger. I hope I didn’t make a mistake. You said you don’t have anyone so I’m hoping that will change and you’ll allow me the chance to be with you. If you want to take that chance then meet me at the training goods in the woods after you read this. I’ll be waiting. Sasuke.”
“No…no…” This is a really sick joke. I can’t believe someone was listening to our conversation the other week and would go so far as to do this.
I know what will happen. I’ll show up at the training grounds to have someone jump out, probably with their friends, and laugh at the stupid fox boy for falling for their trick. Well, I’m not going to give them the satisfaction. They obviously don’t know Sasuke the way I do, he would never like me like that. He already has someone.
I sit the chocolates on the couch before standing up and taking the flowers to my window, opening it up I look down at the dumpster right below. This should teach those jokers, well, I guess they won’t actually be seeing this but it should still teach them not to play games.
I watch as the vase and flowers fall straight down, the crystal breaking on impact, water going everywhere in the dumpster. I close the window again before returning to the couch, no use wasting such good chocolates though. I don’t know why they would waste so much money on a joke, they must really have wanted to get me good.
These taste so good, I can almost pretend that I’m not crying. I hate to be picked on usually when I’m around others I just act like nothing is wrong, sometimes I even laugh with everyone else. But when I’m alone, that’s when the tears come, that’s when acting doesn’t work.
My plan tonight is to eat all this chocolate until I get sick, go lay in bed with a sore stomach and fall asleep crying my eyes out while thinking of my dark haired angel. I don’t know why I insist on punishing myself, I just can’t help it.
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Pounding. Why do I hear pounding? There shouldn’t be any pounding in my dream, well, not unless it was my dream Sasuke pounding me into the bed. That’s a good thought. I want to go back to sleep and dream of that but that blasted pounding won’t stop. What is that?
I slowly sit up in bed, my feet wrapped up in my light green blanket, I have no idea where my sheets have gone. One of my hands brush over the remains of the candy wrappers that lay scattered all around me while my other hand flicks my blonde hair off my forehead.
My nap to get my stomach to stop hurting worked but now I’m getting a bloody headache with all this pounding. Who the hell wants me so bad they have to almost knock my door down? Only one way to find out.
I disentangle myself from the covers, almost falling flat on my face no less then three times. Stumbling out of my bedroom I make my way to the door, jerking it open with barely opened eyes.
“What?” I practically growl.
“What? That’s all you have to say to me?” I have to blink several times to make sure that I’m seeing what I’m seeing.
Sasuke stands on the other side of my open door, his usually white and black attire in place. His hair looks like someone has run their fingers through it too much, probably his new lover. His dark eyes are narrowed in my direction, his fist clenched at his sides. What have I done now?
“What did I do?”
“I thought you felt the same way. I’ve been watching you, how your eyes linger on me when you think I’m not looking. How you blush every time I say something that could be consider flirting. I even did as you told me to do and what do you do? You leave me out in the woods for three hours. I’ve been waiting and waiting. The least you could have done was come and tell me you really didn’t feel anything more than friendship for me.”
I don’t know what to be more of, shocked or confused. I don’t think I’ve ever heard him say so much in one breath. But I also don’t really understand what he just said to me. Did he just say that he likes me? No, I didn’t hear him right, right?
“Huh?” Very intelligent Naruto.
“Don’t ‘huh’ me, dobe. Why didn’t you come and see me? Why didn’t you come and at least tell me it was pointless? That I didn’t have to sit in the cold night air for hours.” He kinda looks like he wants to rip my throat out which is actually easy to forget once his words hit me.
“What was pointless? What are you talking about?” I may not be as dumb as I act most of the time but I do have my blonde moments.
“A relationship, dobe. I know you got the flowers and chocolates. I saw you open the door before I left to wait on you.”
“You…you left the flowers?” No, that can’t be true. Wait, did he just say a relationship?
“Don’t tell me you forgot how to read, dobe, or did you just not find the card? I thought I left in a place even you would see it.”
“I…I read the card…I…I thought…I…oh crap.” I look over my shoulder at my window. I threw away flowers that Sasuke gave me. The first and now probably only gift he will ever give me and I threw them away. I want to cry again.
“What did you do, dobe?”
“I thought…someone…someone was playing a joke. I didn’t think you would…would get me flowers, you already have someone you said.” I look back at him, his dark eyes staring at me, his hands no longer in fists.
“So what did you do with the flowers?”
“Threw…threw them out the window into the dumpster.” I say it in one breath, fast and low hoping maybe he wouldn’t hear it.
“You what? Do you have any idea how much trouble I went through to get white roses at this time of year? They don’t even exist around this village.” He sighs deeply, moving past me with a brush of shoulders. By the time I get the door shut and turn around he is already on the couch, his sandals by mine near the door.
“I…I…Sasuke?”
“What?”
“Sorry. I’ll pay you back for them. Just let me know how much they were. Do you want anything to drink or eat? I can make something real fa…”
“Shut up, dobe.”
I ramble when I get nervous, when I have no idea what to say, and apparently when my heart is beating a mile a minute.
“You don’t have to pay me back. It was a gift. So since you thought it was a joke what do you have to say now?” Its hard to think of anything to say when his beautiful black eyes are staring at me.
“What do you mean?”
“What do you think about me? About us getting together?”
“You…you…” He can’t be serious. Us? Is there an us? Do I want there to be an us? Who am I kidding of course I want there to be an us but he can’t be serious, there is no way he could want me as his…boyfriend. My heart is beating to fast.
“Stop stuttering and speak full sentences, dobe.” He is actually smirking at me, I can’t believe this.
“Why? Why would you want me? You can have any girl or boy in the village and trust me they are all a lot better then me. And I don’t think you will have any trouble at all getting them to go out with yo…”
I can’t speak anymore. Why? Oh, his lips are on mine. What? His lips are on mine, his hands cupping my face, his tongue ghosting over my slight fangs. I can’t move, I can’t breath, I can’t think.
“Don’t ever say that again.” He says as he pulls back from my lips, his hands remaining on my whiskered cheeks, his eyes staring down into mine.
“Say what?”
“That anyone is a lot better than you. In my eyes you are the best of all the villagers, the one I can’t stop thinking of no matter what.”
“You can’t…you can’t choose me.” I have to get him to stop thinking like this. If the villagers knew that he wanted me then they would do nothing but hate him for sure. I can’t let him be treated like I have for my whole life.
“Why not? I thought you didn’t have anyone.”
“I don’t. But you can’t choose me. You have to find someone else, someone that won’t make your life a living hell. Someone who the villagers don’t hate.”
“I don’t care about the villagers and you already make my life a living hell but I want you anyway. Doesn’t that count for something? Why do you always have to think about the villagers before your own happiness?”
“What are you talking about? This isn’t about my happiness this is about yours. If you get with me then everyone will hate you. That’s what I’m worried about, I couldn’t stand for them to look at you the way they do at me.” I’m yelling now, he has to understand.
“I already told you I don’t care about the villagers. All I care about is you. We can ignore them together. Let them think what they want. If they give you anymore dirty looks, I’ll hurt them, okay?”
“No, you can’t. You can’t…” His lips are back on my own, he taste like apples. His hands move through my hair to rest at the nape of my neck. Slowly he pulls away from me.
“I can do anything I want. The question is do you want me the way I want you?”
“Yes but…” This time his finger laying over my lips stops me from finishing speaking.
“No buts. All that matters is that we want each other, right?” I nod slowly, looking deep into his black eyes I feel like I’m about to drown. “Then its settled.”
“What is?”
“We are a couple now.”
“What?” Just like that? That can’t be. It can’t be that…easy. Can it?
“We are together from now on.” His lips skim over mine, his hands working the back of my neck gently. Its amazing how such strong hands can be so gentle at times.
“Sasuke…I…are you sure? You’re…” Its hard to talk when his lips keep distracting me.
“I’m positive. Are you? Is this what you want?” He pulls back just a little to look down at me.
“I’ve…I…” Best to say the truth now. “I’ve wanted this ever since we first met.”
“Good.” He is kissing me again, his tongue sliding over my lips like he is asking for entrance. Who am I to say no? I’ve been dreaming about this forever.
His hands are once again in my hair, my own hands moving to wrap around his neck, my fingers threading through his thick spiky locks. We move closer until I’m pressed right up against his chest, I still have to get on my tip toes to reach him even though he is leaning down. I feel his warm hands move down my neck, traveling over my bare shoulder blades, his finger tips teasi…wait a minute…bare shoulder blades?
I jump back away from him, my arms wrapping around my bare chest. I can’t believe I forgot I was only in my boxers. This whole time, him touching me, him kissing me, and I was almost nude. I know we’ve seen each other like this before, on missions and such, but this is different, very different.
“What’s wrong, dobe?” His smirk tells me that he knows exactly what is wrong.
“I’m…I’ve got to…I’ll be right back.” I practically run into my bedroom and over to my closet. Well, I would have gotten to my closet if I didn’t trip over my blanket that laid half in floor. I braced myself for the hard landing but instead of meeting the wooden floor, I was meet with strong arms wrapped around my waist from behind.
“Be careful, dobe.” Sasuke’s breath ghosts over my ear causing me to shiver. He pulls me to him until I’m pressed firmly into his chest again, his chin resting on my shoulder, arms snuggly wrapped around me. “Where are you going to so fast that you almost killed yourself?”
“I…I was just going to put on some clothes.” Please tell me I did not just moan out loud.
“Why? I like you better this way.” His lips kiss wet trails under my ear making me shiver.
“Sa…Sasuke…don’t…we…we just can’t…not like this…please…stop.” I want him more than anything but I don’t want to move to fast. If something were to happen tonight and he woke up in the morning regretting it I don’t know what I would do. Best for us to just date for a little to make sure this is what he wants. I can wait a little while longer, I’ve waited years already.
“I thought you wanted me, Naruto.” His lips just brush against my ear now, no more kissing but his arms aren’t moving from around me.
“I…I do but…can’t we take it a little slow? I don’t want you to…” Don’t say it out loud you moron. To late.
“Don’t want me to what?”
“I don’t want you to wake up tomorrow regretting that we…you know. Maybe we can wait a little, date some to make sure you really want me as your…lover.” Lover. Oh, how I want to be his lover.
“I won’t regret anything but if that is what you want then I’ll wait.” He says he’ll wait but his fingers are playing with the waist band of my boxers.
“Sasuke, stop it. I mean it.” I let out a small growl that causing him to chuckle but he releases me.
I take a deep breath, running my hands up and down the sides of my boxers before turning around to look at him. The only problem is that he isn’t standing behind me anymore, he is sitting on the edge of my bed, his hands removing his navy shirt to slowly reveal his creamy pale skin. Snap out of it, Naruto!
“Sasuke, what are you doing?”
“Getting ready for bed.” He lets his shirt fall to the floor before taking off his weapons pouch and laying it on the night table by the bed. He brushes the candy wrappers into the floor. “Guess you had no problem with chocolates.”
“I thought you just said we won’t…you know…yet.”
“We aren’t. But after you made me sit out in the cold night air for three hours I think the least you could do is let me stay here for the night instead of tracking all the way across town to my house.” That does make sense.
“Oh, okay.” I reach down and pick up the blasted blanket I tripped over and threw it on the bed, moving to the closet I grab an extra pillow and blanket from the top shelf. I’ll be a nice host and let him have the bed, its not like I haven’t fallen asleep on the couch plenty of times before anyway.
“What are you doing?”
“You can have the bed, I’ll take the couch.”
“No we’ll both take the bed.” Oh, stop the bad thoughts running through my head.
“But you said…”
“We won’t do anything. I promise. But I’m not letting you out of my sight tonight. I want to wake up with you in my arms so I know this wasn’t a dream.” When did he get so romantic?
I quickly drop the extra blanket and practically fly into the bed next to him, resting the new pillow right beside the one his head is already on. He smiles at me, an actual smile not a smirk, before pulling me over to him, his arms once again wrapping around my waist. I really think I’ve died and gone to heaven.
He buries his nose in my hair as I tuck under his chin, my own arms wrapping around his waist. I feel so safe and warm, like nothing could hurt me. I feel myself starting to doze off, I’ve never been able to fall asleep this fast before. I just hope when I wake up this won’t have all been a dream.
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He once said he wasn’t into the romantic crap, boy was he lying. Either that or he just didn’t realize how sweet and amazing he can be sometimes. Its been two months since Sasuke told me he wanted me to be his, since the first night I fell into a peaceful sleep in his arms. And I’ve had plenty more of those.
He practically showers me with small gifts. Almost every other day I can expect to wake up with a little trinket on the pillow next to me. The gifts range from my favorite chocolates that he gave me for his first gift to flowers to clothes to even weapons. I told him he didn’t have to give me so many gifts but he just shrugged and said he enjoys seeing me happy. How can he be so sweet?
So far he has kept to his promise of waiting until I was sure for us to be together in bed like a real couple. I think its killing us both. Almost every night is spent at his house, in his enormous bed, wrapped in his strong arms. Somehow must of my belongings have found their way to his house, I guess because it’s bigger, and I do mean bigger. I’m not complaining though, I love his house or rather mansion, its so much better then my crappy apartment.
The villagers where as happy as I thought they would be but just one look from Sasuke, his red Sharingan swirling, they quickly shut up. I still get dirty looks or angry whispers but only when I’m alone, never when he is with me. Our friends took it better then I thought they would, well, all except Ino. She still had a thing for Sasuke so she wasn’t too happy at first but now she is calming back down, at least she talks to me now instead of just glaring at me.
Kiba keeps trying to give me tips for when we do finally get intimate. Just hearing about some of the things him and bug boy do makes my nose bleed. So lately every time I see dog breath I run in the other direction as fast as possible.
I do the same thing when I see Lee and Sakura just for the simple fact that I hate standing there listening to Lee go on and on about young love and destiny. Truthfully I have no idea what he is talking about half the time. Our other friends took the news well too, we received encouraging smiles and pats on the backs. I’m glad I have friends like them.
I always thought that Sasuke was a person that hides his emotions from the world, that never showed his affection in public for fear of others seeing it as a weakness. Turns out I was wrong. Every time we go out together he holds my hand as we walk down the sheet or wraps an arm around either my waist or shoulders, he even pulls my chair out for me in restaurants. At first I blushed like mad and told him not to do that, people were staring. All he said was he didn’t care. He wanted to do it for me, just ignore the other people. So that’s what I do now, I ignore the silent stares of hatred directed at me and focus solely on him, his beautiful deep black eyes.
In the last two months we’ve shared a lot of kissing…and a lot of touching. His hands are so amazing, just thinking about them makes me hard. I don’t know if I can wait any longer to official become his lover. There has been so many times these last months that I’ve wanted to just jump him but I’ve managed to control myself.
At first it was waiting to make sure he was sure about us, and now I know he is. The way he looks at me, the way he touches me, the way he actually growls at strangers in the streets who looks at me with evil intent. I love it. I love him. I want him. I want to be his lover.
With that thought I snap out of my daze. Currently I’m sitting in the large window in Sasuke’s bedroom, waiting for him to get home. He had a meeting with the old hag Hokage he had to go to, no telling what she wants with him. I hope it isn’t another mission. I’ve had a couple hours to think things over since he left, I think tonight is going to be the night. Maybe that is why I’m sitting here in just my boxers, well, actually his boxers. I love the feel of the navy silk against my skin, and he loves for me to wear them too although I think he just likes to see me wearing his family crest, the boxers are literally covered in them.
I don’t even have time to turn around after I hear the bedroom door open before I feel his presence next to me, his hand moving up to brush a lock of blonde hair from my forehead.
“What did the old hag want?” I lean into his chest as he steps even closer to me.
“Nothing really. She just wanted to get my advice on a mission she is planning.” His lips brush over the top of my head, I can feel his breathe moving my hair around.
“A mission you are going on?”
“No. She said she’ll probably send Kiba and Shino.”
“Then why did she need you?”
“Because they will be going to the sound village. Not a lot of people know the way around there. I do. She wanted me to help draw a map of the area and tell of certain spots that they can use for cover if need be.” He slips away from me, moving to the other side of the room again.
He doesn’t like to talk about what happened when he was gone, he doesn’t even like to bring it up. I asked him why the other week and he said he didn’t want to remember betraying me. I told him not to worry about it because he did come back but he still hates for anyone to mention that three year period.
I can’t take my eyes off of him as he starts to undress. His hands tug the navy shirt over his head, revealing smooth pale skin for my eyes only. His dark locks get slightly messed up before the shirt is thrown into a dirty laundry hamper near the bathroom door. He turns away from me toward the dresser as his fingers undo his weapons pouch, laying it on top of the dark wooden piece of furniture before moving back to undo his pants.
He is watching me watching him, I can see his black eyes looking back at me through the mirror on the dresser. He gives me an evil smirk as his white shorts fall down his narrowed hips and legs, pooling at his bare feet.
“I’m going to take a shower before bed, dobe. Why don’t you warm up the bed for me?” I almost miss what he says as he bends to pick up his shorts, putting them in the hamper with his shirt as he walks into the bathroom, the door closing behind him softly.
“Okay.” So I’m talking to an empty room about five minutes after he has left. It takes my mind a while to catch up with me after seeing so much of his skin bared for my eyes.
I move over to the large black silk covered bed but stop as I start to crawl into it. I want this to be the night and by the way he was looking at me in the mirror he does to. So I will warm up the bed for him, with my nude body. I can’t help but giggle like a little girl as I remove my boxers, throwing them across the room to land on top of his discarded clothes.
The silk is so cold as I slide between the sheets of the bed but the silk feels so good, I’m already hard as a rock and he isn’t even out of the shower yet. I want to look sexy when he comes out to find me waiting for him but how do I do that? I don’t know anything about being sexy. Should I lay down or just sit here?
I’m nervous and with good reason. This will be my first time and I hope it will be his. I think it is. I don’t know for sure though, like I said he doesn’t like to talk about those three years he was missing. I have no idea if he had a lover or lovers while he was gone. Maybe I’m not his first but I want to think I am.
Stupid, Naruto. Don’t think about something like that when you’re about to give yourself to the person you love. If I think like that I’ll worry about not satisfying him. What if he did have lovers before me? What if I can’t compare to them? What if I’m really bad at this and he throws me out into the night with my things, telling me to leave him alone? What if…
His soft yet firm lips over mine make me loose my train of thought. I didn’t even hear him come out of the bathroom.
“What are you thinking about?” He is sitting on the edge of the bed in nothing but a towel that is very low on his hips, one of his hands run through my thick locks as his dark eyes bore into my lighter ones.
“N…nothing.”
“Lair. What were you thinking about, dobe?”
“Really it was nothing.” I can’t let him know what I was thinking, he would just laugh at me.
“Fine don’t tell me. Will you at least tell me why you are laying in bed nude?” His eyes rake down my naked chest to the covers resting just below my belly button.
“I thought…I just thought that we could…you know…”
“You want to make love tonight, Naruto?” He is leaning over, his lips brushing against my cheek.
“Yes…if you want to that is. We don’t have to if you don’t wan…” He can be such a forceful kisser sometimes while still remaining gentle. How can he do that?
“I’ve been waiting a lifetime to make love to you.”
He pushes me back until I’m laying in the bed with him leaning over me, smirking. I know that smirk, that smirk means he is about to do something I might not like. And I’m proven right as he yanks the covers off of me, throwing them to the foot of the bed.
I don’t know what to do with my hands, I want to cover myself up. I can feel the heat in my face meaning I’m blushing. We’ve seen each other nude in passing just for moments at a time but this is different, much different. He is staring at me like he wants to eat me up, he even licks his lips. I feel like his favorite food dish.
I move my hands to cover myself up, I want us to be together but all of a sudden I’ve gotten very shy. I think it has something to do with the way he is just looking at me up and down.
“Don’t.” He reaches down and gently slaps my hands away. “I want to see you, all of you.”
“Stop staring, teme.” I still call him that from time to time but he knows I don’t mean it anymore, at least not most of the time.
“I can’t help it. You’re just too beautiful not to stare at.” His eyes are focused back on my own. Again I ask, how can he be so romantic and sweet?
The next thing I know I have his warm lips on mine, his slightly wet hair hanging down around my face, brushing my whiskered cheeks. The bed dips more under his wait as he crawls over me, his knees slipping between my legs, forcing me to spread them so that he can lay between them. His towel covered hips grind down into my bare ones causing both of us to moan loudly into the quiet room.
His hands move to either side of my head on the pillow, his tongue slipping out to run over my lips asking for entrance. I give it to him instantly, I don’t think I could ever deny him anything, especially something like this. His warm appendage maps out every inch of my mouth, our tongues battling for a moment as if fighting for dominance. But I give it over to him. That is something that has really surprised me these last couple of months, seems like I’m a submissive type. I would have never guessed but I love for him to take control with our make-out sessions. And he loves it too.
I moan around his mouth as his hips keep grinding into me causing my legs to spread even wider. He lowers himself until his forearms are resting on the pillow, his smooth pale chest laid tight against my darker tanned one. Suddenly he pulls back, his eyes staring down into mine.
“Are you sure about this? If you don’t stop me now I won’t be able to stop later.”
“I want this more then anything.” I don’t think I could tell him to stop if I wanted to. Especially with the way his hips keep moving.
I reach up and pull his head back down to mine, my lips opening up for his exploring tongue again. He moves his weight to one arm as the other starts sliding down my side, tickling over my ribs until he reaches the low towel on his hips. I gasps, my eyes widening, as he yanks the material off and throws it into the floor by the bed.
He just smirks down at me, our now nude erections pressing against each other. This is more then I ever thought it would be and we haven’t even gotten to the sex yet. I don’t think I’m going to last long. I can feel a heat in the pit of my stomach telling me that it will be over too soon if he keeps this up.
“Stop…stop.” My hands grip his hips, stopping his moments as my eyes close, my breath coming out deep and fast.
“Naru…Naruto, I’m…I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have. I just thought…I’m sorry.” He quickly jumps off the bed, grapping the towel from the floor and wrapping it around himself again. His black eyes look everywhere but at me before he starts moving toward the door.
“Wait! What…Where are you going?” I move to sit on the edge of the bed, suddenly not caring that I’m nude. Has he changed his mind? Has he finally realized what a dumb mistake he has made being with me? Why did he have to realize that now?
“I…I’m going to…to go get something to…eat.” He is having a hard time thinking up an excuse to get out of this room, away from me. He can’t even look at me. I knew this was too good to be true. The past two months have just been something for my dreams, he’ll get his voice back soon and kick me out of his place. I won’t be able to hold him or kiss him any more. I want to cry.
And I do. I don’t care if he sees me. I don’t care if he thinks I’m weak. I don’t care about anything anymore. Not when I can’t have him. Suddenly I feel two warm hands brushing the tears from my cheeks, I look up to see him kneeling in front of me.
“Naruto, why are you crying? I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have…I’m sorry.”
“Don’t. I don’t want to hear how much you regret it. I’m the one that is sorry for getting the villagers to hate you too. Maybe after I move…move out they won’t be mad at you anymore.” I can only hope. I still love him, no matter how much it breaks my heart to know he doesn’t love me.
“Nar…what…I don’t regret anything.”
“Then why did you start saying you’re sorry? Why did you get up and start to leave me?”
“I thought…wait, you didn’t want me to leave?” His hands have moved to rest on top of my knees, his eyes searching mine for something.
“Of course not. I have wanted this forever.”
“Dobe.” He shakes his head as he lowers it, then I hear his chucking. Is he laughing at me now? “We are both so stupid.”
“What?”
“I don’t regret being with you.” His head raises, his eyes staring back at me. “You told me to stop, I thought it meant you were regretting this. That you didn’t want to go through with it. I thought maybe I had pushed you too far too fast.”
“I just wanted you to stop moving your hips. If you didn’t I wasn’t going to last much longer. I didn’t mean for you stop completely.” How can we both be so stupid?
“Looks like we are both pretty nervous. What do you want to do?”
All I do is smirk down at him as I reach to tug the towel from around his waist. His thick erection bounces slightly up and down causing a little giggle to escape my lips. He narrows his eyes before pouncing, literally on me, pinning me to the bed, his lips attaching themselves to my neck.
“I really want this Sasuke.” I whisper.
Once again his hips are grinding into my own, his knees moving to rest on the bed between mine causing me to move up slightly to allow him room. My hands work up and down his strong back, smooth soft skin covering hidden muscles from years of training. His body is truly flawless, no scars what so ever. I don’t know how he does it. I know he gets injured but somehow he always avoids getting scars. I don’t have any either but that’s because I have a monster inside of me that always heals my wounds, I don’t know his excuse.
“What are you thinking about?” He moves his lips down my neck, licking and nipping at my tanned flesh.
“How wonderful this feels.” And boy does it feel wonderful. I could die happy right now with him on top of me.
And when one of his hands sneak down my body to wrap around my erection I think I’m about to. My hand has never felt this good, my hips buck up into his hand causing him to chuckle softly into my neck. His teeth bite down hard on my collarbone, I moan loudly, my eyes slipping closed.
“Sasuke…please…”
“Please what?” He is so evil.
“Please…need more.” I want so much more, I want to feel him inside, feeling me up until I’m about to burst.
“Need more of what?” How does he get his voice to sound so sexy?
“Need more of you. Please…please…Sasuke I need you.” A small part of myself can’t believe I’m actually begging. I never beg and yet this boy on top of me can make me do anything.
Before I know it he is off of me, the cool room settling over my nude form causing me to shiver slightly. What happened? What did I say? Why has he left me?
“I would love to tease you for hours but I can’t wait that long myself.” I look over to see him digging in the nightstand, slowly I move to lay my head on the pillows, I’m so nervous when I see him pull out a small bottle of lotion that I start to fidget with the sheets under me.
“Am I that irresistible?” Good, make a joke and maybe I can calm down a little bit.
“Yes, you are.” I jump, when did he get close enough to whisper into my ear?
His lips are back on mine, his legs between my own, his hard erection grinding against my equally hard one. I moan loudly into his mouth as one of his hands works its way between my legs, I feel a slick finger move around my hidden entrance. I know my eyes have to be a wide as saucers now but he doesn’t notice, his lips are too busy moving down my neck.
My hips move away from his finger as it pushes past my ring of muscles. This is kinda painful. How can people like this? How can they stand to have something bigger than a finger inside of them when just the tip of his finger is about to kill me? He shifts his weight to his knees, using his other hand to grab a hold of my waist, he pushes me down into the bed preventing me from moving.
“Stay still, dobe.” He pants against my neck.
“Can’t…hurts.” I’m whining. I feel so stupid for whining. I don’t need to show him any weakness yet I can’t stop.
“It will pass in a minute, just relax.” How does he know that?
Regardless of what my mind is telling me I try to do as he says, I’ve wanted this for a long time even since before we were dating. I should have been better prepared but I really didn’t think it would feel like THIS! Oh, what was that? He just touched something deep inside of me. Something that has turned my brains into mush, along with every other muscle in my body.
“Wh…what was that?”
“What? This?”
His finger curves again inside my body, hitting something that makes me see stars. Oh, how I love this man on top of me.
“Do it again.” My arms wrap around his neck, pulling his lips to my own. We meet in a passionate kiss as he moves his finger to hit that spot over and over again.
I’m in heaven. Sometime during all the pain I died and now I’m in heaven. This feels incredible. Just as I’m enjoying the sensation I feel another one of his fingers slip into me. It stings slightly but isn’t anything compared to what it was before. And it helps that he keeps hitting that special spot.
He moves his head back, looking down at me with those pitch black eyes until I feel myself blush.
“What are you looking at?”
“Some one that is beautiful.” He can make me blush with one sentence, he really is amazing.
“Stop talking like th…” My words are cut off by the feeling of yet another finger entering into me. I can feel his three appendages moving inside of me, every once in a while hitting that spot deep inside that makes me want to just scream in pleasure. Its all I can do to stop from doing just that.
His lips descend on mine for a quick kiss before he moves to place all of his weight on his knees, his fingers slip out of my now slick passage. His hands wrapping around my thighs and pushing them to my chest.
“Hold them there.” His voice is rough and panting, his dark eyes filled with lust. Lust for me! I can’t believe it. He really does want this, he really does want me.
Without hesitation I grab the backs of my knees, holding them to my chest as I watch him squirt some more lotion onto his hand. The bottle falling to the floor shortly after as his slick hand wraps around his arousal. He looks so sexy with his hand moving back and forth, my eyes can’t move away.
After a long second he removes his hand from his erection, taking a firm hold on the back of my thighs he moves forward. His dark eyes lock onto my light blue ones as he moves forward, the tip of his arousal nudging against my opening.
“You are sure you want this?”
“More than anything. Please, Sasuke, I want you so bad.” I can’t keep the small whine out of my voice, why is he delaying? Is he regretting this? Has he changed his mind? Is he going too…
My mind stops thinking. Sentences can’t be formed anymore. My eyes close, my hands gripping the backs of my knees tightly as the tip of his erection pushes into me. This hurts more then just his fingers, I bit down on my lower lip to keep from screaming.
I can feel every inch pushing inside of me, I may have thought he was big just by looking at him but now that it is pushing into me I think he has grown several inches longer…and wider. There is no way this is going to happen. There is no way he can fit all the way inside of me like this.
Tears slide down the sides of my face as I squeeze my eyes tighter. Suddenly there is a shadow over me, then I feel a rough, wet tongue licking my tears away. I open my eyes to see that he has moved his hands to either side of my head, his lips kissing me all over my face. I realize that he isn’t moving anymore, his hips are flush with my own. When did he move all the way inside of me?
“I’m sorry. Just relax. The pain will fade soon. Trust me, dobe.” I will always trust him. Even when I’m in pain like now, I still trust him.
He moves back slightly before pushing back inside. I continue to bite my lip, my eyes close tightly as he does it again, this time pulling a little further back. Slowly the pain starts to fade, my eyes shoot open as one of his inward pushes hits that spot deep inside of me.
“Oh…Sasuke…do that again.” And he does, this time with a little more force. I can’t hold back my screams any longer, only they aren’t screams of pain anymore, they are screams of pure pleasure.
I move my hands from my knees, his chest holding my legs in place, as I wrap my arms around his neck, pulling him down for a deep kiss. He moves in and out of me in long, deep thrusts. I love this. So the pain was worth it after all, it really does feel fantastic. I’ve never thought anything could feel this good or that I would ever feel anything like this anyway. I didn’t think I deserved this good of a feeling.
“Sasuke…more…please…” I’m begging again. How does he make me beg like this?
“More what?” I sneak a glance at him through my half closed eyes to find him smirking at me. My fingers thread through his dark hair, pulling slightly as I growl.
“Don’t play with me.”
“Then tell me what you want.” His hips are moving slower now making me want to cry with frustration.
“Please…Sasuke…please just move more.”
“Like this?” He thrusts his hips just a little faster, making me feel so good.
“Yes…more…faster…harder…” I don’t care if I’m begging him. I just want this feeling to last forever.
He doesn’t ridicule me, he just does as I asked him to. His hips start to piston into my own, his member moving in and out of me with a force that shoves me back into the mattress. I moan loudly in pleasure, my eyes snapping shut at the incredible feeling, my hands running up and down his back.
My erection is trapped between our bodies, the friction of his every movement bringing me even more pleasure. How can a person feel this good after that much pain? I never want this to end, I want him to stay inside of me like this forever.
“You feel so good, Naruto.” He is panting now. So this feels as good to him as it does to me, I’m glad.
“Sasuke…please…I don’t think I…I can last much longer.” I can since the end coming. I can feel myself about to explode and I haven’t even been touched yet.
“Me either.”
He thrusts deeper into me, his head falling back. My nails rake down his back, I know I must be leaving marks but right now neither of us care. His inward movements keep hitting that one spot that makes me scream even louder. Good thing he doesn’t have any close by neighbors.
“Are you ready, dobe? I can’t hold out any more.”
“Me either. Please, Sasuke.”
Leaning down he kissing me roughly, our lips clashing together as I feel myself explode between us, my essence sticking to our chests and stomachs. I hear him growl into my mouth as I feel a sudden fullness inside of me, he must have released just after I did. His hips continue to move very slowly for a few minutes as we both calm down.
I move my arms to wrap around his neck, my fingers playing with the spiky hair sticking out at the back. Sasuke slowly slumps down until he is laying fully on top of me, our chests raising and falling erratically from our passionate encounter. His lips find my neck right below my ear.
“That was prefect.”
“Yeah. I didn’t think it would feel that good.” I mumble, my eyes have fallen shut. I feel like I just trained for hours, I’m so exhausted but in a very good way.
“So it stopped hurting?”
“Oh yeah.”
“Good.” He nibbles my neck. “You’ve managed to wear me out, dobe.”
“You did the same for me.”
“Am I too heavy?”
“No.” Truthfully he feels perfect on top of me. Not to heavy but not to light either, just right. And I like the fact that he is still inside of me.
“Good, I’m too tired to move.” He chuckles into my neck. I can feel his breathing start to even out with my own. Our fist intimate encounter has us both worn out. Looks like a second round is defiantly out of the question, or at least on pause until tomorrow morning when we both have our energy back.
I can feel sleep start to take over my mind, my tired muscles slowly relaxing, I chuckle softly as I hear a very light snore next to my ear. Looks like he already beat me to it but I’m not that far behind.
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I never would have thought that having a fox demon inside of me could be a good thing. That it could bring me miracles I didn’t even know I wanted until they were here, in my arms. Okay, so I knew well before Sasuke was in my arms that I wanted him, but he isn’t the miracles I am talking about.
No, I’m looking at those miracles right now as I sit under a tall tree, the breeze blowing lightly, ruffling my blonde hair. I can’t help but laugh out loud as my black haired lover picks up a small boy with matching black hair only cut like mine. The little boy giggles loudly as Sasuke spins him around in the air, the boy’s bright blue eyes looking over at me every now and then.
Sasuke stops spinning the black haired boy as he feels small hands pulling on his shorts’ legs, there standing next to him is another little boy, this one with blonde hair spiked like Sasuke’s and dark black eyes looking up at my lover. Smiling Sasuke puts the black haired boy down to pick up the blonde one.
Yep, this fox demon inside of me can be a good thing after all. Only a year after Sasuke and I started dating I started getting sick in the mornings, well actually throughout the day. It lasted for weeks before Sasuke finally just dragged me to see the old hag. We both fainted when she told us I was pregnant, Sasuke even knocked his head on a table on the way down.
A couple months later when we found out not only was I pregnant but I was having twins, we did it again. And again he hit his head on the way down. Poor baby, I was thinking about carrying a pillow to every meeting with the old hag from then on just to make sure he didn’t hurt himself anymore.
At first I was scared and nervous. I didn’t know if Sasuke would be happy about having children with me or angry. Yes, I still had doubts about our relationship. I still didn’t think a wonderful guy like Sasuke could want anything to do with someone as cursed as me. But know I know he would never leave me. He has told me thousands of times, with words and with actions that he loves me more than anything. I haven’t doubted him in a long time.
Turns out he was more then happy about me having his children. He was walking around the whole village for months with a big smile on his face. Even when I was sending him out in the middle of the night for my weird cravings or screaming at him when the first labor pains hit me, he was all smiles.
After our sons were born, Reita and Sakito, Sasuke finally stopped smiling long enough to tell me of his fears. He was afraid he wouldn’t be a good father, that he would mess up big time and cause trouble for our kids. We had a long talk and found that we both had similar fears. We promised to do our best, ask for help from the old hag or Iruka or even Kakashi when we needed it.
Its been two years since the boys were born and we have done a great job, at least in my opinion. At first the villagers weren’t happy at all. They were afraid that since I had an evil spirit inside of me so would our children. But Sasuke stood up for us, he yelled at anyone that dared even look at me and kids with a glare. Finally the villagers realized that the boys weren’t evil and that they held the Uchiha blood in them. That’s all the villagers really wanted, someone to carry on the blood trait of the Uchiha clan.
“Daddy!” I prepare myself for the little black haired boy running at me, laughing as he lands in my lap with a little bounce.
“Done playing with papa, Reita?”
“Papa said we could go get ice cream.” Reita smiles up at me, his blue eyes shining with hope. That is another thing Sasuke has taken to very well, he can spoil these two like no one else can.
“Well, I guess that would be okay.”
“Yea! Daddy said it was okay.” My little boy yells over his shoulder at his other father and brother, the two coming over to join us under the tree.
“Then why don’t you get up, dobe, so we can go?” After all this time he still calls me dobe, but I don’t think of it as an insult anymore, more of a pet name.
“I’m going, I’m going. It’s a little hard to get up with a rugrat in my lap.” I get up with a little difficultly, the little boy in my arms just laughing quietly into my shoulder.
Sasuke moves closer to me once I’m on my feet, his lips descending on mine after he shifts Sakito to one of his hips. The boys’ giggling reaches my ears as I kiss my love back, pulling away I can’t help but look deep into his black eyes filled with love and happiness.
Never in my life did I think I was going to be this happy. Never in my life did I think I deserved this. All my life I thought having a demon spirit inside of me was terrible. But now I realize that to have happiness, to have love, sometimes one must go through hell to get it. I’ve made my journey, I’ve found my love and happiness. I never believed in miracles before but now I do. Because right here with me now I have three miracles I never even imagined I would one day have. And for that I am truly happy for the first, but not last, time in my life.
THE END
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Note: The names Reita and Sakito came from two of my favorite Jrock bands, Gazette and Nightmare.
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