The Secrecy between us

Disclaimer: I don’t own Itachi, Sasuke or Naruto. Events are all mine, everything else is copyright of Kishimoto-sensei.

Pairing: ItaSasu, slight SasuNaru/NaruSasu

Author’s note: Yaay! My first ItaSasu! I didn’t really like it at first…But I think it came out well in the end. And yes, it’s sad. Sorry about that… It just comes from the mood I’m in these days; no matter what I write there is a certain amount of sadness written into it. But I guess it’s all a matter of how you look at it when it comes to this fic. Basically there’s 4 parts to the story… Each ‘chapter’ is marked by ***
As I’m writing this I still don’t have a title, so whatever says underneath….It might be changed, ok?
Good...Err… oh yeah: WARNING: Explicit scenes of Male-male nudity. Graphic descriptions of MALExMALE SEX. INCEST. NC-17. LEMON. ORAL,ANAL, YAOI!! Spelled it out clearly enough? Good. If ANY of the above offend you. Just get the hell outta here…. Fellow pervs; Enjoy!! ^___^

As Always: For my Baby

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The secrecy
Between us.


When they were kids it had all been so much easier.... Some still saw Sasuke as a kid, but the truth was he’d grown up a long time ago. He had grown up on the day that his brother had ripped his heart out of his chest.

Back when he was a child, Sasuke had adored his brother. Itachi was everything Sasuke wanted to be; well liked, well behaved, smart, clever and flawless. Itachi was perfect in every way. Their parents, their father in particular had always set Itachi higher than anything. From an early age all Sasuke could remember being told was: “Work hard and you’ll be like Itachi.” And “Good job Sasuke, just like your older brother.”
It was a wonder actually, that he hadn’t been sick with envy at his older brother, that everyone seemed to look upon as a god. Although there might have been traces of jealousy and hurt in the younger of the brothers, his adoration of his older brother washed it all away. Itachi saw Sasuke. Other people saw him too of course, but only as a ‘mini-Itachi’ or ‘Itachi’s brother’. Itachi saw Sasuke for Sasuke. Itachi loved Sasuke. Itachi could spend hours with him. There was a time when Itachi would do anything for his brother…
That time was long since passed.

As kids they had played together. In those days Itachi could smile. Back then, Sasuke smiled too. He didn’t know of pain and darkness then, but maybe Itachi did? The thought had crossed Sasuke’s mind many a time since then.
As innocent children, Sasuke and Itachi had played within the walls of the Uchiha estate. They had played hide and seek in the many rooms of the manor. They’d used to go fishing, or swimming, even doing chores had been fun, because they had always been together. Then something changed; already at an early age Itachi had decided to become an exceptionally good ninja. He dreamed of joining the ANBU, and being honored as a true hero. He began training, working hard. He was accepted to the academy at a very young age, and showed great talent; he graduated faster than anyone else had, and rose in the ranks just as quickly. Itachi was a genius.
It was at that time that Sasuke too decided to become a genius, because he wanted to be like Itachi, just as everyone told him, and because he wanted Itachi to be proud.
He wanted Itachi to care about him.

Once he had told him that, and Itachi had just laughed. Laughed and told him; “I care about you already. You’re my brother Sasuke. I love you.” His eyes were soft back then.
“I love you too Onii-chan!” Sasuke replied cheerily.
Suddenly Itachi’s lips were pressed to his.
The soft kiss lasted nothing more than a few seconds, and Sasuke wasn’t old enough to comprehend the feelings that flamed up inside him at that point, but he felt closer to his brother than ever. Sasuke’s heart fluttered, and his cheeks flushed.
“You mustn’t tell anyone,” Itachi had told him. “Not kaa-san, not tou-san, not auntie or uncle…Nobody must know, you understand that Sasuke?”
The child nodded.
“Is it not ok for onii-chan to kiss me?” he remembered himself asking.
“Not like this…” Itachi replied. “Not on the lips.”
Sasuke could still remember how Itachi’s bangs had covered his eyes as he said that, as if he was ashamed, as if he was trying to hide it.
“Then I won’t tell!”
“You’re a good kid.” Itachi’s lips brushed over his again.

The kisses became many.
In the hidden the brothers would use any chance to kiss each other. On the outside they appeared to have a close relationship, closer than most brothers. People would look at them in awe, talking about what cute kids they were, and how extraordinarily gifted they’d both proven to be.

In later times Sasuke realized that Itachi must have had other urges than just soft kisses and careful touching. His brother was several years older than him after all, - he must have been longing for something other than the innocence in Sasuke.
However, he never tried to do anything that Sasuke didn’t want. He would always apologize if he did anything that made the boy uncomfortable. He would always smile, and tell Sasuke how beautiful he was when he cried, how cute he was when he blushed…. But in the depths of Itachi there must have been other desires?

They’d both known it was wrong. Sasuke had long since understood that the things he did with his older brother was not normal for brothers to do. Itachi had known it was sick, and probably resented himself for doing it. Maybe that was what made him do the things he did later? Self-loathing?

The days of happiness were over. Itachi joined the ANBU, he became quiet, closed, he was barely home, and when he was he was either sleeping or training. He found no time for his little brother anymore. At times he’d let Sasuke curl up in his bed, and sleep next to him for the night. Yet, he didn’t see him anymore.

They were all dead. Itachi had murdered the entire clan, leaving only a petrified Sasuke.
The child was sobbing, begging his brother to tell him why he had done it. Begging him not to go.
It was at that point Sasuke realized that he loved Itachi. Not as a brother. Well….That too, but he loved him in a deeper level. He loved Itachi from the bottom of his heart, and here he was; ripping his heart outside, as if the millions of kisses Sasuke was sure they had shared meant nothing to him.
On that day, at least on the surface, Sasuke lost his childhood. On that day his smile faded, just as his heart broke, just as Itachi turned and left him.
****

At age 14 Sasuke had sworn to kill his brother. He would avenge his clan by having the head of their killer. He had told everyone how much he hated him until he believed it himself. He forced himself to shudder at the sound of Itachi’s name. He forced himself to think of Itachi as a monster, to remember only the horrible deed he’d done, and everything else that was bad about him. He didn’t want to remember…. He didn’t want to love him. He didn’t want to have these feelings for his parents’ murderer, for his own brother. It was wrong, and beyond sick. He just couldn’t forgive Itachi… No, he couldn’t forgive himself for being the fool he was; loving him.

Yet, he dreamt of him.
Frequently, Itachi visited Sasuke in the web of his dreams. In a cloud of surreal fuzzy emotions and images he saw his brother. He saw his brother and himself. Just as it had been; Itachi’s soft lips against his, his tongue dancing over Sasuke’s lips, as if painting the contours. Sasuke’s heart fluttered just as it had used to, the string of pearls that was the emotions he carried in his soul showed as a necklace around his neck...A necklace which in every dream, Itachi would give to him.
Feather-light kisses fluttered on his skin, his hand intertwined with Itachi’s, eyes burying into each other… God, how he wanted it.
Night after night, the same dream, the same longing. The same shame following; he hated Itachi, or so he told himself.
“Not only did he kill your family…He’s your Brother Sasuke!! Get a grip!! You’re sick!”
Maybe so….Still, a part of him wanted to be a child again, an innocent child that could just snuggle up to his big brother and then all the big bad worries would go away.
Sadly, things don’t work like that. So the Uchiha heir spent night after night alone in the empty old manor, dreaming of Itachi. Dreaming of an Itachi that no longer existed. The Itachi he had loved, the older brother he had lost his heart to….was no more.


He stirred. The room was cold. But, hadn’t he shut the window before going to sleep? Now however, mentioned window was open, and a soft breeze invaded the room.
Sasuke didn’t bother getting up, just pulled the blanket tighter around himself.
Glancing over towards the window he thought he spotted a shadow, but it couldn’t be… “Your mind is playing tricks on you. This house in the dark…You should know.” He soothed himself, closing his eyes.
“What? No hello?”
Sasuke went cold; his heart skipped a beat at the sound of that voice. That low, calm, cold voice that he hadn’t heard for years, but that belonged to none other…
“Itachi?”
The shadow moved, came closer.
The teen was sure this was another one of his dreams, so he firmly closed his eyes again. “I am asleep.”
What little light there was in the room; the pale moonlight streaming in from outside, was suddenly overshadowed. Sasuke’s eyes flew open, and he stared straight into his brother’s eyes. Itachi’s face was hovering above him, his lips so close to Sasuke’s he could feel his breathing on them.
“What the hell are you doing here?” Sasuke growled, concealing the odd feeling of…he didn’t know what…to see his older brother again.
“Sasu-“
“Get lost!” Sasuke spat. He was not scared, although he knew he ought to be; Itachi had killed everyone but him, maybe he was there to finish the job?
“Get the fuck out Itachi!”
He wasn’t scared. He was pissed off.
“Sasuke….Why are you angry?”
“WHY? You come here asking why?!” he was so angry he was shaking. His brother leaning over him, his crimson eyes digging into Sasuke’s own, seemingly reading him like an open book.
“I hate you…” his voice cracked, for reasons he could not comprehend his eyes filled with tears. “I hate you…”
“Sasuke…”
“You left me!” Sasuke choked back a sob, but couldn’t stop the tears from streaming down his cheeks.
Itachi’s eyes went back to normal; dark, almost black, like they had always been, like Sasuke’s own.
“Baka otoutou…” he said in a soft voice.
Gently he touched Sasuke’s lips with his own, in a kiss so light and tender it could make Sasuke cry. He pulled away.
“I did not leave you Sasuke… There were many things I needed to get away from…But not you.”
“Onii-chan…” Sasuke whispered into Itachi’s shoulder, not wanting to let go of the childish expression.
Itachi’s body was hot over his own, his brother smelled of forests, of wilderness and campfires… He hadn’t used to smell like this. Sasuke inhaled the scent, it was intoxicating. He never wanted to stop breathing in this wonderful scent.
“Sasuke…Look at me.”
He looked up, and his lips met with Itachi’s once again.
The kiss was just as they had used to be and yet not. There was no innocence. This time they both understood what they were doing, and how wrong it was. This kiss was deep, searching, longing….
Itachi’s tongue slid over Sasuke’s lips, which parted slightly, so their tongues could meet.
The soft sensation of tongues brushing one another sent tingles down Sasuke’s spine.
He had wanted to be an innocent child in his brother’s arms again, but this was all but innocent.

Itachi’s slender hand slid under the covers, touching Sasuke’s hot skin carefully, brushing over a nipple in the process.
Sasuke shook lightly.
The sheet between them slid away, exposing Sasuke’s bare skin.
Itachi looked at him, ran his eyes over the younger Uchiha’s body.
“You’ve grown up to be so beautiful, Sasuke…” he whispered, burying his face in his shoulder, biting carefully.
Sasuke wrapped his arms around his brother, not wanting to let go, giving a slight gasp as Itachi found a sensitive spot on his neck.
His hands wandered down Itachi’s body, like he had no control over them anymore. They clenched at the fabric of Itachi’s tank top. He was not wearing the coat with the odd red clouds. Not now…

Itachi understood what he wanted; let Sasuke pull the light clothing over his head.
His skin was pale, even paler than Sasuke’s own, and he was lean, but muscular. Just as Sasuke had suspected; Itachi was perfect to every detail.
Inside his boxers his erection was growing harder, throbbing with need.
His cheeks flushed. He’d always known he loved Itachi, but…Lusting for him was something completely different.
Itachi leaned down, engaged him in a deep kiss.
“It’s ok Sasuke…” he whispered. “I know….But….It’s ok.”
“I-Itachi…” a low moan escaped Sasuke’s lips, feeling his brother’s hand sliding further down his body, searching over the growing bulge in his boxers.
The corner of Itachi’s lip curled into a soft smirk. Again he found his brother’s lips with his own, kissing him deeply, tasting him, while running hid hand up and down black cotton, caressing Sasuke’s member.
Arching up to Itachi, Sasuke felt that he was also hard. He felt the hardness of his cock twitching impatiently against his skin, through Itachi’s pants. A bit hesitant he let his hands find the buttons of Itachi’s dark trousers.
Itachi gave another soft smile, and helped the blushing Sasuke get them off.

Soon after they were both naked, pale skin was touching everywhere and heavy breathing cutting through the silence. Itachi was on top, showering Sasuke with deep, careful kisses. The younger Uchiha shivered underneath him, giving a short gasp as their erections briefly touched.
Looking down he felt his cheeks flush again as his gaze fell upon the aching hardness of his brother, and then his own, his dark, curled hairs touching Itachi’s smooth, clean-shaved skin.
“That blush suits you…” Itachi whispered into his ear, starting to kiss his way down Sasuke’s body.
Sasuke didn’t answer; bit his lip as Itachi’s tongue brushed a nipple, bit carefully at it.
The searching kisses kept tracing down his skin. Itachi ran his tongue over the skin on his stomach, dipping it playfully into his navel, before kissing his way down to Sasuke’s neglected hardness.
Sasuke ached for him to move further down, for the tip of Itachi’s tongue to brush over him… Taste him…
But his brother only teased him; running his tongue over his hip, over the sensitive skin on his inner thigh. Sasuke shuddered.
“Mmh…”
His erection was throbbing, begging for attention.
He bit his lip with surprise, gasping loudly as something warm and wet; Itachi’s tongue brushed over the head. He threw his head back in a voiceless scream as the same warm wetness surrounded his cock completely.
Itachi’s tongue lapped at the vein on the underside, and Sasuke’s entire body tensed, he let out moan after moan, not wanting this sensation to stop. Not now, not ever.

Itachi stopped, not listening to the protests escaping Sasuke’s soft lips. Instead he started caressing every inch of the boy’s skin. He kissed, licked, bit slightly, and caressing him in every way possible, in every reachable spot. Sasuke’s world became a swirl of pleasure, a bubble within only he and Itachi existed. Within this bubble Itachi was never leaving him again.
Sasuke arched back, pressed himself against Itachi. Something deep within told him that he wanted him inside, his throbbing erection was painfully screaming for attention, but his brother merely pushed him back down on the bed.
His long bangs fell to cover his eyes as the older leaned down, starting to run his tongue over Sasuke’s stomach again. He moved farther down, painfully slowly, teasingly avoiding the aching limb.
Pale, slender legs were gently spread, as Itachi’s tongue kept tracing Sasuke’s inner thighs. He ran it closer to the boy’s groin, still ignoring the erection, starting to lap gently at the tense sacs instead. A light shiver went through the younger Uchiha.
“Nnn…”
Itachi smirked, ran his tongue in a circle, before spreading Sasuke’s legs even more.

The boy flinched as something warm and wet brushed over his entrance.
His cheeks were colored in a deep shade of red.
“I-Ita…” he gasped. “D-don’t…”
“Ssh…” his brother soothed. Again his tongue brushed the tight opening.
Despite being deadly embarrassed, Sasuke couldn’t stop the soft moans brewing in his throat, and the coils of heat running down to his groin.
Itachi’s tongue skillfully traced the sensitive skin, licking carefully, but persistent, smiling slightly as Sasuke relaxed and his tongue darted inside.
“Ah!” Sasuke cried out in surprise.
His brother kept going teasing around the entrance, darting his tongue in and out, drawing new gasps from Sasuke with each second that passed by.

Sasuke couldn’t help but protest as the wondrous sensation went away without any warning at all.
“No…” he murmured. “No…Don’t stop…”
”Don’t worry…” Itachi purred into his ear, getting on top of him. “I’ll show you something even better…”
He pulled himself more on top, his member brushing Sasuke’s entrance.
Itachi looked down at him, placed a soft kiss on his lips, smiling as Sasuke’s legs spread even more.
Sasuke looked up at his brother, midnight eyes meeting crimson. When had Itachi activated the sharingan again?
Itachi spotted his puzzlement.
“Don’t worry…” he whispered again. “I’m not gonna hurt you… It’s just… Nevermind…” he broke himself off.
Their lips met in another kiss. As Sasuke’s eyes slid shut he felt the older’s cock twitch against his opening.
“Mmh…”
As he looked up again, he saw Itachi’s eyes were dark again, right before they slid shut in pleasure.

The pressure on his opening grew, and soothed by Itachi’s kisses he relaxed and became less tense. His entrance gradually started giving in, responding to Itachi’s erection, and the need to feel him from the inside.
Finally he opened enough for him to enter, and in one deep thrust all of Itachi’s length was inside of Sasuke, buried to the hilt.
Sasuke grit his teeth, and clenched the sheets, forcing back the tears. The pain was unbearable, but he survived. He could just imagine how long his brother had waited for this moment.
“Aah! I..I love you Sasuke….” Itachi moaned before looking down at him. “Are you ok?”
Sasuke nodded, surprised to see his brother blushing.
“I’ll try to move again…” Itachi whispered into his ear.
It was only a shallow thrust, but Sasuke felt a jolt of pain that made him cry out, while his nails dug into the skin of his brother’s back.
“S-sorry…” Itachi whispered, kissing away the tears that rolled down his brother’s cheeks. “It hurts, I know… But it will get better… I promise.”
He waited, showering Sasuke with kisses, ensuring the boy he wasn’t going to hurt him, whispering comforting words into his ear.
“Itachi…”
“Hnn?”
“I…I think I’m ready again…”
“Want me to try to move again?”
“Yeah…”
“Alright….” Itachi kissed him softly, his tongue running over his lips, before starting to move, slowly, carefully.
At first there was no difference, but Sasuke was determined to endure the pain.
Itachi’s thrusts were soft, and careful, but he knew the older boy was struggling. He knew that Itachi wanted much more. His weak moans and gasps bore traces of frustration.
He shut his eyes and with determination he thrust back into Itachi, who gave a surprised gasp.
To Sasuke’s surprise it didn’t hurt as much as he’d thought. Within minutes his world changed completely, as he was engaged in passionate kisses while his body responded to Itachi’s thrusts in a whole new way.
Every soft thrust had him begging for more. It wasn’t enough. He wanted to feel him deeper…Harder.
“Itachi…” he breathed. “H-harder…” His face flushed.
Itachi smiled his beautiful smile, diving deeper into him.
Sasuke arched his back, clenched the pillow behind his neck. “Aah!”
“You like that?”
He nodded, giving another lustful moan.
The oldest of the brothers continued like this, his thrust becoming fiercer, Sasuke rocking his hips towards him in want and need, both moaning into each new kiss they shared.
Sasuke tightened around Itachi’s shaft, his inner muscles clenching his cock, the pleasure making him lightheaded.
“Mhm…Sasuke…” he moaned.
Despite being afraid he’d hurt his younger brother, he couldn’t hold back, giving several hard, thrust as deep as he could get.
“Aaahh!” Sasuke’s deep dark eyes were heavy with lust, his body ached for more.
The boy’s pale skin was shining with sweat, drops of perspiration dancing on his forehead. The young teen was close to his climax, Itachi could see it, feel it, sense it…
Again he dove into him, hard, deep.
Sasuke almost screamed in pleasure.
“I-Itachi!”
The warmth and tightness surrounding Itachi’s aching member had him seeing spots, and then… He brushed something soft, sending Sasuke into ecstasy.
“Aah!”
He smiled again, focused on hitting that spot with every single thrust.
Sasuke arched up to him, gasping his name over and over as his body started shaking under Itachi’s touch.
Itachi held him close, bringing their bodies even closer as he gave the final thrust, sending them both into violent trembles and shivers.
“I-It-Itachi! Aaah!”
“S-Sasuke…Mm…Aaah!” not even Itachi could hold back: Screaming out his pleasure as he released his seed deep within Sasuke.
They collapsed on the bed.
Itachi brushed away a lock of onyx hair that was sticking to Sasuke’s sweaty forehead. Carefully he kissed him.
“I’m sorry…” he whispered. “For everything….I’m really sorry Sasuke…”
“Itachi…”
“I never wanted to hurt you… Or leave you…”
“Stay.” Sasuke replied.
“Stay?” Itachi’s dark eyebrows rose inquisitively.
“Tonight… Stay with me tonight…”
“Is that what you want?”
Sasuke gave a weak nod.
“Then I will.” Itachi smiled, kissing him. “I promise.”


When Sasuke woke up the next morning, he was alone.
Itachi was gone.
The only thing witnessing that last night had ever happened was the rumpled bed and the sticky substance still clinging to Sasuke’s thighs, where it had dried.
The room felt cold and lonely without Itachi there.
A chilly breeze blew through the still open window, where Itachi first had appeared. Sasuke shuddered and pulled the sheets tighter around himself. Itachi’s scent was still clinging to the fabric. He sighed and lay back down.
“How long?” he wondered. “How long before I will see you again?”
With the thoughts lingering in his mind he went back to sleep, pretending Itachi was still there, pretending his arm was around his waist. With each breath he inhaled the smell of his brother, wishing he’d still been there.
“How long?”
*****
Three years had passed since the night when Itachi had appeared in Sasuke’s bedroom.
Three years had passed since he’d given his innocence away to his older brother. Three years since Itachi had left him again.
He wasn’t mad though. That night Itachi had told him everything, he had revealed his true self, and they had shared something that was stronger than hate, stronger than deceive, Itachi had a reason to leave, Sasuke was sure of it.

Lately Sasuke had found himself feeling slightly attracted to a certain loudmouthed blonde, but he didn’t know what to do with these feelings. After all…He had something with Itachi. He didn’t want to break whatever they had…If Itachi was to come back and find him with Naruto… It just wouldn’t work. His heart would forever belong to the raven haired beauty that was his older brother.

Sasuke took a deep breath, he’d just come home from a mission, and he was absolutely beat. He wanted nothing more than to have a soak in the bath and then go to bed.
But fate wanted it otherwise:
Sasuke walked through the garden hidden behind the fence that went all the way around the impressive estate that had belonged to the noble Uchiha clan. Now it was his, and…Itachi’s.
It was a warm evening, but still Sasuke felt a cold chill as he saw the shadow reaching out over the grass from behind a cherry tree. His heart begun to race and his pulse rose with anticipation.
“It’s you isn’t it?”
“Sasuke, come here…”
The teen walked into the shadow, taking a deep breath.
His eyes fell upon the person standing there; searched the lean frame and the silky black hair hanging as a veil in front of the man’s face and tied in the back with a piece of black string. His pale skin almost shone in the darkness of the shadow, and a soft smile caressed his lips.
“Sasuke…” he spoke with velvet in his voice.
“Itachi…” Sasuke choked on his words. “You came back…”
“There’s…” Itachi sighed. “There’s so much I need to tell you…” he pulled him close to his body, and smothered his lips with his own.
Sasuke let himself become engaged in the kisses, let Itachi pin him to the ground.
The two brothers ravaged each other’s mouths while practically ripping each other’s clothes off; years of suppressed worry, lust and love bubbled to the surface.
Erections rubbed against each other, in desperate search for sweet warm friction to soothe the throbbing, almost painful need.
“Fuck me…” Sasuke whispered. “Let me feel you in me…. I need you.”
They melted together as one.
It was fierce, desperate and hard. There was nothing sensitive about the way Itachi slammed into Sasuke, all of his length being buried to the hilt inside of the tight and waiting opening. But they both needed it. It was the desperation that made it what it was. Their moans and screams echoed between the walls of the empty buildings of which the impressive estate consisted.
When it was over they walked to the baths together as soon as they’d gotten their breaths back.

“Why did you come back?” Sasuke asked slipping down into the hot water.
“I needed to see you.”
“Why now? After three years? Why now?”
“Sasuke…” Itachi sighed again.
“No…” the seventeen-yearold shook his head. “No more excuses! Don’t try to explain it to me as if I was still a child… Something’s going on, isn’t it?”
“You always were bright, weren’t you?” his brother’s calm voice replied.
Itachi slid closer to him, slipping an arm around him.
“Not like you…”
“Don’t say that. You’re unique Sasuke… You’re the last Uchiha.”
“No. I’m your brother. That’s who I always was. And now…I’m the avenger.” He gave a bitter laugh; a flash of crimson danced in his eyes, but disappeared just as quickly. “Some avenger… They should all have known what I do with him… What I let him do…”
“That’s not what I meant. You’re unique for you, Sasuke. Don’t let yourself get lost within the darkness in your soul like I did.”
“Why did you come here?” Sasuke asked again. He couldn’t bear to talk of the past with Itachi like this. He couldn’t bear the pain of it.
Itachi looked at him. Sasuke’s eyes met his. His eyes….
Somehow they seemed tired… Dull…Non-reacting.
“Itachi…?”
His brother nodded. “Yes Sasuke…” he said before the question escaped Sasuke’s lips. “I’m blind. The sharingan… I overused it. You knew too didn’t you? That this would happen to me?”
Sasuke looked away, refused to admit it.
“You did, didn’t you?”
“Yes…” Sasuke looked at him again.
Itachi ghosted his lips over Sasuke’s neck.
“I came here to see you one last time…” he gave a soft laugh at the choice of words.
“What do you mean ‘one last time’?” Sasuke inquired.
Itachi gave another sigh. “I…I’m being followed Sasuke… ANBU, from all over, with orders to kill on sight.”
“What?”
“You knew this Sasuke… You know I’m not supposed to be alive after what I did.”
Sasuke didn’t answer, just stared straight ahead. “Kill on sight…”
He himself had once sworn to kill this man, and now it hurt him to hear these words. His insides felt like they were being ripped apart from the turmoil he felt at hearing this.
“I’m still at an advantage…” he continued. “They seem to have lost my track… But that won’t be for long. That’s why I came here Sasuke. To make sure I got to see you before they…”
“NO!”
Itachi was perplexed at his brother’s outburst.
“No! You can’t die! You can’t leave me again! You promised..!”
Itachi sighed, pulling him close.
“Nii-san…” Sasuke whispered against his chest.
“I don’t want to leave you…And I’m not proud of what I’ve done…But either way, I must pay for what I have done.” His voice seemed to be filled with sincere regret.
Again Sasuke felt like a child, sobbing into his brother’s arms. His hate, which might have been artificial, created by him on purpose… It had caused him to forget about so many things he wanted to remember: Precious memories that he carried deep within his heart. He didn’t want Itachi to be a mere memory. He wanted him to be his brother again. His brother and lover…

A long silence reigned.
Itachi brushed away a few strands of hair from Saskuke’s face, tilting his chin up. “Don’t cry. You knew this would happen.”
“But….” Sasuke didn’t finish. He didn’t know what to say.
“You swore to kill me yourself, don’t you remember?”
“It was all an act.” Sasuke’s midnight eyes stared straight ahead. “I love you…”
Itachi pressed his lips softly to Sasuke’s.
“Don’t be afraid, Otoutou…”
“Onii-chan…”

Pale soft lips met again and again. Sasuke’s eyes met Itachi’s, but his brother’s once lively eyes were expressionless, like glass, so he closed his own; soft long lashes caressing his cheek.
Itacih slid his hands around Sasuke’s waist, pulled him close. Bodies wet, pressing against each other.
Sasuke sighed quietly into the kiss, biting carefully, tugging softly at the other’s lips.
Only Itachi could make him feel like this, and he was going to be taken away from him. He knew, maybe more than anyone that Itachi had done gruesome things, and perhaps he truly deserved what was coming to him, but in a way Sasuke wished that Itachi could get away, that he could escape, or defeat his enemies. Without the sharingan though…Without his precious eyes there wasn’t much he could do. He could run, but for how long?

A sob escaped his lips. Itachi tightened his grip on him, pulled him even closer.
“Please…” he whispered. “Don’t cry.”
Sasuke looked at him, pressing himself close to Itachi’s warm body.
The second sob was silenced by Itachi’s lips.
One kiss turned into two, two turned into several…
Itachi hauled Sasuke into his lap, continuing to kiss him while the younger boy felt how Itachi’s cock twitched under him. He himself was hardening again, and he longed desperately for the warmth and security that only Itachi could provide.
He tilted his head to the side as Itachi’s lips found his jugular, the kisses going lower, traveling down his neck. Feather-light pecks danced over Sasuke’s alabaster skin, until Itachi found the spot where shoulder and neck connected; giving a slightly rough bite that made Sasuke shudder.
Sasuke could feel his brother smirking against his skin, teeth carefully grazing over the sensitive muscles.
He exhaled deeply, shivered lightly.
His hand fisted in Itachi’s hair, as he tilted his head more to the side, giving Itachi better access to his neck.
The blind one’s hand gently stroke Sasuke’s back, touch moving lower, to his buttocks, groping slightly. One finger searched the entrance, teasing, just barely touching.
Sasuke gave an impatient groan, his strained member twitching against his brother’s stomach.
Itachi’s slender finger slid inside the tight hole. Sasuke flinched with surprise, but gave a pleasured gasp. Itachi waited, enjoying how the younger Uchiha tensed with anticipation. Then he slowly slid in another digit.
“Ah!”
Itachi’s lips quirked slightly. He started moving his fingers, carefully in and out, pressing gently from time to time at that bundle of nerves that made Sasuke shoot his back and moan.
Carefully he started stretching Sasuke, preparing his entrance for what was to come.
Sasuke buried his head in Itachi’s shoulder, kissing and biting at the flawless skin, a tingle of enjoyment spreading in him from feeling his brother’s fingers inside.

As the fingers disappeared Sasuke settled himself, straddling over Itachi. The older’s manhood stood hard and aching under him, pressing against his ass, pulsing.
Sasuke’s slim hand grasped the shaft and brought it to his opening, slowly he lowered himself, biting his lip as the hole gave in, and Itachi’s cock entered.
Impaling himself further he kept pressing down until all of his brother’s length was inside him. His breathing was ragged, but the pain wasn’t bad, he was already stretched from doing it once just a little while ago.
Itachi cupped his cheeks, brought their lips together for a deep kiss.
“Mhm..Sasuke…” he purred. “When you’re ready…”
Sasuke nodded, and rocked his hips forward as a response. The water splashed against the rocks as a result from the movement.
Itachi’s hands ran down Sasuke’s body, gently caressing the skin, brushing over the nipples and down the sides, settling at his hips, lifting him up, lowering him and lifting him again. The teen was tight and warm around him; impulses of pleasure running down his spine as he whispered his brother’s name again.
He couldn’t see him, but he felt soft lips on his neck, silky bangs touching his shoulders as Sasuke moved, riding his cock, moaning into his ear.
His thrusts were careful but deep, bringing them closer than ever, extracting lustful moans from both brothers.
Itachi held Sasuke tightly as they both moved, thrusting into each other. They were so close Sasuke could feel Itachi’s heartbeat through his chest.
With each movement either of them made, Sasuke’s erection grind against Itachi’s belly, acquiring the sweet friction it so desperately longed for.
“I-Itachi!” Sasuke gasped into a kiss.
Itachi broke the kiss, took aim for Sasuke’s ear; “You’re beautiful…” he whispered, tongue swirling over an earlobe. “One doesn’t need eyes to see that…”
“Nii-san…”
Itachi’s member connected to Sasuke’s sweet-spot, and the boy tightened around him, letting out a sharp cry: “Ah! Onii-ch-a-n!”
Itachi couldn’t help but smile.
The hot water surrounding them splashed violently as things started to intensify.
Itachi dove deeper into Sasuke, who gave another loud moan.

Deep within the depths of Sasuke Itachi focused his thrusts on one particular spot every time. Each thrust sent coils of warmth throughout the teens body and back into his groin again. Sasuke thrust back into Itachi, sweaty bodies coming together, lips parting and meeting. Tension rose, and their labored breathing warned that they were both close.
Sasuke came first, shaking violently as his nails dug into Itachi’s back once again while the boy screamed out; “N-Ni-ii-san! Aah! I l-love you!”
Itachi pressed his pale lips to Sasuke’s silencing him with a kiss before his world exploded with pleasure. Not even he was capable of holding back the scream as the warm waves washed through every cell of his being.

When it was all over he pulled Sasuke close, and just held him for a long time. A nightingale sounded its tune somewhere in the night, other than that everything was quiet until Itachi spoke; “Let’s go to bed.”
Sasuke was still feeling woozy. “Huh?”
“Come on, let’s go to bed.” Itachi replied, staggering to his feet without letting Sasuke go, he simply lifted him up as well.
“You’re not leaving?”
Itachi shook his head. “Not yet… I want to stay with you for a while.”

The heat of Itachi’s body and the smell of him; his sweat and the crisp scent of forest that still clung to the ivory skin, now also to Sasuke’s, soothed him as they lay in bed together. He rolled over, facing his blind brother.
“Itachi?”
“Hnn?”
“Are you sleeping?”
“No.”
Sasuke placed a soft kiss on his lips.
“Sasuke, what is it?”
“I’m scared.”
“I know.” Itachi’s hand reached out and touched Sasuke’s cheek, then tousled his hair. “Don’t be.”
“Aren’t you?” Sasuke insisted.
“Yes.”
“Then how can you be so calm?”
“I’ve had a long time to think it over, I’ve settled down with the thought. It’s time you do too…I might get killed any day, and I deserve what’s coming to me.”
“But-“
“It’s the life of an exiled ninja Sasuke.”
The young Uchiha could hear the remorse in Itachi’s voice. He did regret it after all… That made it even worse.
“In my search for power I was willing to sacrifice everything, even those closest to me. Nothing mattered except from strength and power. It was foolish, I see that now, but it’s too late. I have come to terms with it, so must you.”
“But…I love you!”
The words echoed in the empty room.
“And I you, but Sasuke, in this world, love….it’s nothing. In the world of ninjas it is the justice and loyalty to one’s village that’s most important. It must go above all else. You know that, don’t you?”
Sasuke turned away, but Itachi made him face him. Even without his eyes he could read him like an open book.
“I know…” he reluctantly answered after a while.
“I know you do. Listen closely, there’s something I want to say to you.”
“What?”
“This is most likely the last time I see you, and I want you to know that I love you. I love you so much, I don’t want you to be in pain. And I don’t want you to enclose yourself within darkness. When I’m gone, don’t throw everything away.”
“What are you saying?”
Itachi gave a low chuckle; his breath played in Sasuke’s raven hair. “You have feelings for the Kyuubi boy, isn’t that right?”
“N-no…I-“
“It’s alright. I didn’t expect you to wait around for me forever.” He smiled. “Look, I’ve kept my eye on you,” he chuckled again. “More than you know…. And I’ve seen how your relationship has developed. He loves you Sasuke.”
“I…”
“I know you feel terrible about the whole thing. And I’m not telling you to throw yourself at him first chance you get… But when you’re done grieving, when you’re ready… Open your heart to him. For your own sake…” he paused. “And for mine…”
“Itachi…” Sasuke’s voice broke, and choking a sob he buried his face in Itachi’s chest.

****

Three weeks later the message came; Itachi was dead.
The best ANBU squad in Konoha had tracked him down. The kill had been swift and painless according to the captains. Itachi had been a wreck when they found him; blind, apathetic and thin, and he hadn’t put up much of a fight.
Apparently he had seemed relieved, which wasn’t at all odd, seeing he’d been on the run in his poor state for weeks.

Sasuke sat in his room, he looked down on his hand; twirled the ring on his finger.
One of the captains had brought it the day after the capture of Itachi and said that the oddest thing had occurred; the former akatsuki member had asked for them to give the ring to Sasuke. Not knowing what to do they had decided to bring it to him.
He smiled softly. This ring might be evidence of his brother’s grim past and cruel deeds, but it was also an item that Itachi had wanted him to have. It was something for him to remember what they’d had by.
He sighed. Life without Itachi… He hadn’t been around much, but knowing that he was dead… It was something very different. Sasuke was glad Itachi didn’t have to live with his regret and pain anymore, but his heart was still aching. He couldn’t cry though… He’d run out of tears; for the first few days all he had done was cry.
Now he couldn’t cry anymore, but he could look back at what they had shared. The secret they had kept for so many years. He looked back on their last night together with confusion… Itachi had given his blessing for Sasuke to move on, but did he really want to?

“Sasuke?” there was a soft knock at the doorway.
“Naruto.” Sasuke turned to the blonde in the doorway.
“How are you?” Naruto crouched beside him.
“It’s… I’m ok.” Sasuke smiled softly.
“I…” Naruto started. “I know how you felt about him…But…he was your brother….and...” Naruto seemed to be searching for the right words. “It’s ok for you to mourn, Sasuke.”
“I know. I’m ok.” Sasuke replied, his eyes meeting ethereal blue orbs.
“I was just… If you want to be alone that’s fine…” Naruto curled a few strand of blonde around his finger. “I was just worrying about you. You shouldn’t be alone… I wanted to see if you were ok?”
“I’ve told you already.” Sasuke couldn’t help but give a soft chuckle; much like the ones Itachi had uttered the last time they saw each other.
“Yeah. It’s just…you know.” Naruto smiled, the familiar fox grin played on his lips. “Come on Uchiha, join me for some ramen? You could use a bit of sun.”
Sasuke smiled, grabbed the hand that was reached out to him, and stood up. “Sure.”

As he followed the blonde outside, his glance fell to the ring again; crimson and black.
“Not yet.” He thought. “I’m far from ready… I don’t want to let you go. But in time… In time I will. With time I’ll do it for all of us.”

“Sasuke!” the voice echoed through the estate.
“What?”
“For a genius you’re slooow!” the loudmouth blonde shouted at him.
“For a fox you’re unusually thickheaded!” Sasuke shouted back and laughed.
“Come on usuratonkachi. I’m hungry.”
Naruto grinned, happy to see his friend was handling the death of his brother so well.
“By the way, Naruto?”
”Wha?”
“You’re paying right?” Sasuke smirked.
“WHAAAAT?!”

~~ Owari

[I just wanted to edit, and thank all of you who've reviewed!! Thanks for your comments and kind words:
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