Its My Party

It's My Party


By Mija


Disclaimer~I do NOT own Naruto and company. There is M/M relationships and such in this fic, as well as cussing and what not. There will also be some Sakura hating so for those who actually like Sakura please forgive me, I needed a believeable person for this fic and she was the most likely person for what I have in mind. Dont get me wrong I like Sakura, for the most part, she was just the most oppurtune person I could use for this fic. This is a ONE SHOT. Im trying to work on my grammer spelling and punctuation, so please forgive my mistakes, they happen. Thank You Mija.

~~~Naruto's 18th birthday party was in full swing, it had started over an hour ago but his boyfriend was not there yet. No matter how much he looked or scanned the full room, he could not see one Uchiha Sasuke. They had only come out about their relationship a few months ago and this would be thier first real function where they would actually be seen together, as a couple. Before that they pretty much kept it low key, not many knew about thier relationship. Only a handfull really. Like Kakashi Sensei, Iruka sensei, the Godaime, Hinata, Kiba, Shino and Shikamaru. For the most part they had either caught them kissing, or had figured it out by they way they acted around each other like Shikamaru had. But mostly everyone else was oblvious really. Sasuke had swore they would come out in the open about them tonight. It was supposed to be Sasuke's present to Naruto for his birthday. Sasuke had known how much it bothered the blond to keep thier relationship a secret, he didn't care what people might think, he assumed most of his friends would care only that he was happy, not that it was with another boy he was happy with. As for Sasuke he had not really cared if people knew, he just hadn't wanted anyone to treat Naruto more harshly than they already did. For an Uchiha no matter what he did, they could not control or faze him with thier words, he simply did not care. But he knew his dobe often felt hurt when mean things and harsh words were directed to him, even if he had endured it most his life. But if this was what Naruto wanted then Sasuke had promised this was what Naruto would get.

~~~So where was Sasuke dammit? He was late and Naruto was getting a wierd feeling in his stomach about Sasuke's lateness. Something was wrong. But what? He couldn't figure it out. He should of been here long ago. As the music played on and his guest dance away all Naruto could do was watch the door and wonder where his boyfriend was. A few times a few of his friends had tried to get him on the dance floor or engage him in conversation, or get him something to drink. But Naruto just shooed them away and asked them to be left alone for awhile. No one could figure out why Naruto seemed distressed, since none of them really knew about him and Sasuke. But they let him be and went about doing the things they did at parties. Naruto was about to tear his hair out when he saw the front door opened. His eyes swang over to it and his heart feel somewhere down to the pit of his stomache. He was not the only one so looked shocked at who had walked in threw the door. Many of the guest looked at the couple waling hand in hand looking like a very happy couple. There was Sasuke, walking into the party with Sakura's arms wrapped around his, her smile large and bright, like a Queen walking in with her King, and oh what a birthday suprise when Naruto saw Sakura wearing Sasuke's ring. A larg ring with the Uchiha crest upon it, the ring Sasuke had swore Naruto would be wearing someday.

~~~Naruto stood frozen, unsure of what to think or what to feel. Ok he knew what he was feeling, he was feeling betrayed, hurt and the ache in his chest felt like someone was squeezing it so hard it would burst in his chest at any moment. The pain was unbearable. What the fuck was going on?? Why was Sasuke and Saskura walking into his party like THEY were a couple? Why was Sakura wearing the very ring Sasuke swore was his. SASUKE was his, wasn't he? So why was Sakura smiling and acting as if Sasuke was hers? It was too much. The hurt, the feeling of betreyal only growing as Sasuke looked at him, his face devoid of any emotion then turned away from Naruto's own stare, as if what Naruto was seeing or feeling didn't matter at all to him. Naruto felt frozen to his spot as Sakura and Sasuke walked around mingling with HIS guest, Sakura laughing and looking like a woman who had just won the most prized think in all the world. Naruto wanted to cry. Hell he may be a man and a ninja, but even someone like HIM could feel pain, could feel hurt and betrayal so thick he swore he would choke on it. Without a word Naruto turned around and pretty much ran out of the house via the back door. He needed to be alone. He needed to figure out what the hell was going on. Sasuke was his, so why was he with Sakura, acting like the perfect boyfriend? It didn't make sense, and the more Naruto thought about it the more it hurt. Even if he tied he could not stop the tears that rolled down his eyes and the ache in his heart from hurting so bad he just wanted to fall on his knees and cry out his agony.
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~~~Sasuke saw Naruto run out of the house and every instinct in him wanted to go after him, to run to him, to explain, to hold him tight and say he was sorry. But the tightening on his arm had him looking down at Sakura and into her jade green eyes. He saw all she needed to say in those eyes. He couldn't go after Naruto. If he did then everything Naruto had ever dreamed of would be taken from him. Sasuke would not let that happen. He loved Naruto too much to let his dreams slip from his grasp, just because he had been foolish enough to fall in love with Sasuke. He wanted to hate Sakura, he really did, but he couldn't. She wasn't any happier about this than he was. After all Sakura loved Naruto like a brother, she cared deeply for him and hated that what they were doing was causing him so much pain. Fucking council members. He hated them, he wished he could kill each and everyone for causing Naruto so much pain. But they were not the ones hurting Naruto were they? It was him and him alone. He had made the choice and he was going to stick by it, no matter what. He loved Naruto, more than anything in the world, and because he loved him so much, he would hurt him, and shatter everything they had shared these last blissful months together. He just had to be strong, he had to do what every he could to stay as far away from Naruto as possible, no matter how much it killed him inside.
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~~~The party was still going strong when Naruto had composed himself enought to reenter the house. Fuck Sasuke, and Sakura. He thought Sasuke loved him, he thought Sakura was his friend. But he didn't need them, they could go screw each other senesless for all he cared, even as a part of him said, that he did care. But what ever. He was tired of being made the fool. He'd been hurt before, he'd been shunned and spit at, hated for something he had not choice in. So fuck them all. He would close off his heart, close off his emotions and be the shinobi he was supposed to be, emotionless, cold, hard and strong. He didn't need ANYONE. He would become Hokage and do his damndest to be the best Hokage Konoha had ever seen. So what if he didn't have love? Friends? He'd managed without anyone to love or love him in return all his life. Friends he could live without as well, he had all his life as well. He was used to being alone, unwanted and unloved. He would be a good leader, a leader that cared for his village and those that followed him, he didn't need them to LIKE him, just follow him. He would protect them with his life, even if they didn't like him, he LOVED them and would do what ever it took to keep his village safe. If he couldn't earm thier friendship or thier love he would earn thier trust and thats all that he needed. Nothing more. At least thats what he kept telling himself as he plastered that fake smile upon his face and mingled with people he had thought were his friends, but he had thought Sakura was his friend, Sasuke too. And look what that got him. Stabbed in the back. Who was to know if any of the other wouold do the same when the whim hit them? From now on he would be more careful, he would protect his heart, his sanity. He wouldn't let them hurt him anymore, he wouldn't let them bring him down. He would be strong.

~~~And SO what if he cried alone in the bathroom, and felt like his heart was being torn out? Who cared if he felt alone in a room full of people that claimed to care for him? It was his party and he could cry if he wanted to dammit.

A/N~Ya ya another oldie but goodie inspired ficlet, just cant help myself at the moment, these songs sort of took root and left bunnies behind and I can not stop till they are out of my system. Tried not to make it as sappy and to much like the song, but somethings could not be helped. Now before I get booo'ed, I will say there is a part two to this song, called its Judy's turn to cry, sequel to Its my party and I can cry if I want to which this was was inspired from. So when I can I will be adding that one up as well and hopefully tie up any loose ends, but if not, cause there is not garuntee's dont like making them, then I hope this ONE SHOT will stand on its own. Was not meant to be a happy fic, never was. So please dont kill me, not that my writing is anything to get all worked up over but..le sigh sometimes things happen, hope some of you like it, huggles and smiles Mija...:-)