Drowning in Your Tears

Sai dressed in his trademark belly shirt after a long soak in the onsen. Tsunade had granted Team 7 a break from missions after their hard work tracking down Sasuke. After Naruto almost getting killed about 4 times, the team had withdrawn from the area, but only after Orochimaru had decided to retreat. After such stressful work, Sai had decided to relax at the local hot springs. He was alone except for a few old men and Naruto’s former sensei, Kakashi Hatake. Sai had not seen Naruto since they had returned from the mission. The blonde had been silent and somber the whole way back to the village. Sai had seen the sadness and loneliness in his eyes when he had gazed upon Sasuke again for the first time in 2 years. He could tell that they had shared a special bond of friendship, maybe more. He knew the blonde felt betrayed and useless, but when he tried to confront him, Naruto only put on his characteristic cheerful face and pretended nothing was the matter. Sai had tried to bring Sasuke back to Naruto on his own, but that had not ended well. It was obvious that Sasuke had put all bonds behind him. Sai hadn’t known why he had tried to do this for Naruto. He and the blonde had not really been friends, but it still bothered Sai to see the perky shinobi so down.

He had taught Sai how to express emotions and form bond with others. He thanked Naruto everyday for helping him. Now it was his turn to help his whiskered friend. He had to show him that he was not trying to replace Sasuke in his heart, only on the team.

As he made his way to Naruto’s apartment, he noticed how quiet and peaceful the village was. When he had been in ROOT, the only noises he had heard were painful screams and shouts of anger along with orders being barked. It was nice to be in a place where people knew how to relax. Only the chirping of crickets and the occasional bustling of people was heard. All the members of Team 7 had been given keys to one other’s apartments to keep in contact with each other, and inform each other of any urgent missions. When he finally arrived at the apartment complex that housed the kyuubi boy, Sai had to step back a bit to take it all in. The building was 8 stories high, beautifully crafted, with the trademark look of a Konoha building. Sai went around to the entrance and climbed up 8 flights of stairs to the final floor. The doors were outside, and the balcony had a breathtaking view of the Hokage Mountain (I have no idea what it is actually called >_>) looming in the distance.

Sai knocked on the door that he knew belonged to Naruto. When he received no answer, he called out “Naruto-kun, are you home?”. He heard a faint rustling and what sounded like a sniffle from inside the room. Sai become worried and decided to let himself in using the key that had been given to him. What he saw deeply unnerved him. Naruto, the number one surprising ninja, who was the epitome of sunshine in human form, was lying on his bed, crying. The pillow was soaked with mucus and tears. Naruto’s headband was discarded on the floor, which was very unusual because the blonde usually adorned it 24/7. Perhaps the most unnerving thing about the whole scene was that, even though Sai had only known Naruto for a short time, it seemed impossible for the blonde to cry. He was always so cheerful, and brought happiness into the lives of others, and yet here he was, crying like a teenage girl. He did not seem the type to have a mental breakdown.

Whether Naruto noticed Sai’s presence, he did not know. The blonde only continued to weep and shudder. Finally, feeling at a loss for words, Sai sat down on the edge of the bed. “Naruto-kun, what’s wrong?”. The answer was obvious, but it seemed best if he started out the conversation slowly.

Naruto finally spoke, “I don’t know what I expected…but somehow I feel this was all my fault. If I had been able to save him he would still be here…I failed at maintaining the bond that was so precious to me…how can I ever become hokage when I can’t even save my friend?” Tears were streaming down Naruto’s face, staining his whiskered cheeks. It was incredibly adorable and horribly sad at the same time. Sai knew that failing to retrieve Sasuke had bothered Naruto, but he never thought it would be like this. Sai decided to try and comfort him. “Naruto kun…” he was at a loss for words. His heart sank. He actually felt sympathy for another...Naruto really did change people. Finally, the words just seemed to flow into his mind and out through his mouth. “Naruto-kun, why do you blame yourself? Do you think you could have changed his mind so easily? It was his choice to leave, and you could not have stopped him, even if you had beaten him into the ground. He was determined to gain power.” Naruto frowned and made an irritated face. He spoke in a low, violent tone, “I refuse to believe this was meant to be…I don’t believe in fate…I could have saved him…I could have…but I was too weak. Even after training with Ero-sennin, nothing has changed. I am still weak.”

Sai was taken aback by Naruto’s anger. He could feel the kyuubi chakra start to emanate from his body. Sai figured it was best to calm the blonde down before the fox got out of control. Not really knowing why, Sai leaned forward and embraced Naruto. He remembered reading that hugging was something close friends do. Sai hoped it would serve to calm the flustered boy. At first, Naruto stiffened at the touch, more from shock than disgust. “Naruto-kun, I know you wish to save Sasuke-kun, and I promise I will do everything I can to help you. I do not know why you feel so strongly for him after he betrayed you, but I will not question it. I will keep your bond from being broken.” Sai buried his face in the blonde’s hair. His smell was intoxicating, and suddenly Sai wished to be covered in it.

Naruto was speechless. Why would Sai, whom he had never welcomed or even tried to befriend, want to help him now? He decided to vocalize this thought. “But why? Why do you want to help me after I’ve been such a jerk to you?”. Sai chuckled. “I had not expected a warm welcome. I was replacing a teammate and a friend. At first I did not mind, it was just another mission. However, you have become dear to me, Naruto-kun. You have shown me how to feel, and what true bonds of friendship are. You are the first person to see me as an individual and not a tool. I thank you for it.” Pools of tears began to well at the corner of his eyes, and suddenly Sai realized something. He had not cried in 13 years. Ever since he joined root at the age of 4, Sai had been taught never to show emotion, for emotion was weakness. Forming bonds would be a fatal error. Trust no one, pretend to care, he had done that all his life. But now, he was free, and it felt so wonderful to feel, to be himself without fear of being punished for it. He had never expected to be saved from his own personal hell, yet Naruto had been the light to guide him out of darkness.

When Sai came out of his reverie, he realized Naruto was crying on his shoulder. The blonde spoke in a quivering voice, “All my life I’ve been seen as a monster, and yet when I met Sasuke, I finally realized there were others like me, that I was not completely alone.” Sai gently stroked the blonde’s hair. “Naruto-kun, you will never be alone again. I promise.” Naruto sat up and sniffed. The warm tears had soaked Sai’s uniform. “I’m so pathetic…here I am, crying like a girl. I have to be strong. I’m weighing you down with all my problems. I shouldn’t be sad. But why…why does it hurt so much?” Sai pulled the blonde closer. He knew that crying was not a sign of weakness. He had seen his own brother, one of the strongest ANBU members in history, cry as well. He supposed even the hokage cried. “Naruto-kun, you do not have to worry about burdening me. Do not be afraid to cry. I would gladly drown in your tears.” Naruto blushed deeply and pulled away. The redness spread over his whiskered face. It was an adorable sight. “Don’t say such weird things.” Sai only chuckled and pulled Naruto close. It felt so warm, so right. Naruto shifted until he was sitting in Sai’s lap. Sai was surprised at this, and felt a stirring in his groin and the suggestiveness of the position. He had always found Naruto attractive. His body was simply gorgeous, firm and smooth, not too muscular, not too feminine. Sai had seen it all at the onsen. He often teased Naruto about his manhood, although it really was nothing to scoff at. He had tried to distract Naruto from noticing his arousal by teasing him. But now, there wasn’t really any way to hide the growing erection pressing against Naruto’s bottom.


Sai knew lust. It had not been discouraged in ROOT because it was a basic instinct. However, sex was only to satisfy desires, never to show love. Sai had touched himself before, very rarely. Only when he met Naruto did he begin to more frequently. Thoughts of the blonde writhing and panting beneath him, sweat covering his body, begging for more…it was always too much for Sai to imagine, and he would have to relieve himself. Although now was not the time to be thinking about such things, Sai found that he was fighting a losing battle against his inner pervert. Naruto stood up. “Thanks for helping me out Sai. I’m happy I have a friend like you. If it wasn’t for you, I would have spent the whole night crying.” Sai’s heart skipped a beat. His precious Naruto-kun finally considered him a true friend? The blonde yawned and stretched. “I guess we ought to get some sleep, ne, Sai? You can stay over if you want. Just lemme go wash my face and change into my pajamas.” As Naruto began to head toward the bathroom, Sai grabbed his wrist and yanked him down gently. He held Naruto’s face between his hands, and planted a firm kiss on his lips.

Naruto was dazed and confused. He had been heading to the bathroom and Sai had just decided to kiss him all of a sudden? The kiss was not unpleasant, but it brought back memories of Sasuke. Naruto remembered when he and Sasuke had accidentally kissed. It had been short and sweet, and even though they both had acted disgusted, it was not at all unpleasant. Ever since that day, Naruto’s feelings for the Uchiha grew. They had a mutual respect for each other, and became close friends and rivals. However, Naruto soon began to feel more than brotherly love toward Sasuke. He appeared in his dreams, his thoughts. Naruto could finally understand why the girls had been so crazy about him. He was very attractive, his raven hair contrasted beautifully with his pale skin. He was more beautiful than any woman. Naruto had soon forgotten about his crush on Sakura and fell head over heels for Sasuke. He knew it wasn’t exactly normal to love another male, but since when had Naruto ever been normal? Losing Sasuke had hurt so much because he had trusted in the Uchiha, and did not want to lose him. It was painful to see the coldness in those Sharingan eyes when he finally saw him again for the first time in 2 years. He had never confessed his love to Sasuke, but there was no need to. Anyone could have easily seen the love that Naruto had for the boy. When Sasuke had gotten hurt on his behalf, he had never felt such rage as he did then. The kyuubi chakra had almost consumed him. The boy had saved his life numerous times. The fact that he had, in the end, been tossed aside so easily by Sasuke, had left a scar that could never even begin to heal. He had lost Sasuke to Orochimaru, who only meant to use him. Naruto had vowed to never give up until he convinced Sasuke to return to him. He promised no one would ever take his place in Naruto’s heart or team.

But now, Sai was trying to fill that void in his heart. Perhaps it would not be so bad to let someone try to take Sasuke’s place, although he knew no one would ever succeed. For now, the fact that someone loved him and wanted to be near him made his spirit soar. It felt so good to be wanted. Naruto finally returned the kiss. It was sweet and simple. However, he was not expecting Sai to force his tongue into his mouth. Naruto granted him access. Sai’s tongue probed his mouth, and wrestled with his own. They battled for dominance, but in the end, Naruto let him win. Finally the need for air broke the kiss. Both boys were cherry red and flushed. Sai turned away. “I’m sorry, Naruto-kun. I got carried away. I never meant to take advantage of you…I should be leaving now.” As Sai began to walk away, Naruto placed his hand on Sai’s shoulder. “Sai…I…thank you.” Sai was thoroughly confused about what Naruto was thanking him for. He had just molested him, hadn’t he? But the blonde only turned him around and kissed Sai passionately. Sai melted into the kiss and planted his hands on Naruto’s hips. As the kiss heated, his hands moved lower to squeeze his firm ass. Naruto blushed and pulled away. “Pervert!” Sai only smirked and moved his hand over Naruto’s groin. He squeezed his growing erection, causing the blonde to whimper. “It appears you are a pervert, too, Naruto-kun, because you seem to be enjoying this.” Naruto only blushed and hmmphed.

Sai pulled Naruto close enough for him to feel his hardness. Naruto smirked and grabbed Sai’s member through his clothing and stroked it. He would show Sai that he wasn’t just a shy, whimpering uke. Sai groaned and put his hands on Naruto’s shoulders. “Naruto-kun…if you do that…I’m not sure I can hold back.” Naruto continued his teasing. “It’s ok, you’ve already held back enough.” Sai took the initiative and pushed Naruto back until his back was against the wall. He ground their hips together, causing delicious friction between them. Sai found the clothes to be a nuisance, and began to undress Naruto. He unzipped his jacket, discarding it. He easily slipped the black undershirt over Naruto’s head, exposing his pale chest. The blonde was certainly the most beautiful man Sai had ever seen. He rubbed his thumb over one of the rosy pink nipples,causing Naruto to moan softly. Sai moved his mouth over the other perked nipple and swirled his tongue around it. Naruto whimpered and raked his hands through Sai’s hair. Sai knew the blonde wanted him to go lower. Sai traced a finger over the seal on Naruto’s stomach. It made Naruto giggle from the tickling sensation. Sai then traced the same path with his tongue, leaving a trail of saliva over Naruto’s stomach. To think that his seal was the only thing preventing the nine-tails from completely controlling Naruto. He admired the boy for controlling such immense power, and not being tempted to unleash it to its full extent. Sai remembered when Naruto had unleashed four tails in the battle with Orochimaru. He had almost lost himself, and was injured afterwards. Sai could not imagine the full power of the kyuubi.

Naruto noticed that Sai became lost in thought. He raked his hands through the soft black hair. It reminded him of Sasuke…so many things about Sai reminded him of Sasuke. His looks, his mannerisms, even his taste was similar. But Naruto knew that wasn’t the only reason he was attracted to Sai. He did see him as an individual. He undid the knot that held Sai’s headband in place, and it fell to the floor. The sudden feeling of Sai’s warm, wet tongue on his stomach again made him groan loudly. He wanted Sai to go lower. As if he had heard his silent plea, Sai began to unzip Naruto’s pants. His shoes were already removed so the plants slid off easily. Underneath was a pair of blue boxers with orange toads on them. Sai giggled at Naruto’s cute, childlike ways. Naruto huffed, “Don’t laugh! I can summon toads you know, even Boss Toad!” Sai smiled an actual, genuine smile unlike the one he usually put on. “I know, Naruto-kun. You are just so very cute. I wish to see more of you. May I?” Naruto blushed furiously and nodded. Sai slowly pulled down the boxers, revealing a nest of golden curls and Naruto’s erection. “My Naruto-kun, you are so much bigger when aroused. I am impressed.” Naruto just looked away and huffed. “Shut up, Sai.” Sai chuckled and rubbed the tip of Naruto’s member with a gloved thumb. After hearing the blonde’s moan of approval, he removed his gloves so he could grasp him fully, and began to pump his member slowly. Naruto moaned and shook with pleasure. He began to buck into the touch, and pre-cum oozed down Sai’s hand. He removed it and Naruto whimpered at the loss of the touch. Sai liked the pre-cum off his fingers suggestively.

Sai’s own erection was straining against his pants. He bent down until he was level with Naruto’s midsection. He grabbed his member and began to suck on the side of the head. Naruto’s head flew back, “Oh god, Sai!”. He was in heaven. Soon Sai took the whole head into his mouth and began to lick and suck it. The warm, wet cavern of Sai’s mouth felt so amazing. Touching himself paled in comparison. He had never gone farther than making out and being felt up by Sasuke. He’d often imagined what it would be like to be taken by him. Secretly he had always wanted to feel Sasuke inside of him, to become one with him and bask in the pleasure. He felt guilty thinking about Sasuke now. Sai had been so nice to him, why should he shun him for taking Sasuke’s place in Team 7? It was only his duty. Maybe they could become as close and he and Sasuke once had. With that, he completely gave himself over to the pleasure.

Sai had begun to pump the part of Naruto’s cock that he could not fit into his mouth. He occasionally reached down and fondled his balls, which made Naruto writhe in pleasure. He hoped no one was around to hear, but he found he really didn’t carcare at the moment. Sai knew Naruto was near his release. It made Sai happy to see that he was bringing the blonde so much pleasure, when he usually only brought pain and suffering to others. He wanted Naruto to be happy, because that made him happy as well. The thought of Sasuke returning saddened Sai, because he might lose Naruto. But he had made a promise, and intended to keep it. For now, he would comfort his Naruto-kun the best he could.

Naruto was almost at his breaking point. The combined pleasure of being sucked and stroked was overwhelming him. “Sai, you should stop…I’m going to…ahh!” Sai only sucked harder and swirled his tongue up and down the length. It would be embarrassing to cum in Sai’s mouth…what if he found it disgusting? However, from the way Sai was going at it, he didn’t think that was the case. Suddenly, Sai let his cock slide out of his mouth and slipped a hand behind Naruto and parted the cheeks. He began to probe Naruto’s tight entrance, and slipped a finger inside. Naruto hissed in pain, “Shh, Naruto-kun, I promise I will not hurt you. Relax.” The blonde relaxed a bit and let Sai slip another finger in. It hurt at first, but as soon as Sai began to move in and out with his fingers, it began to feel wonderful. Soon Sai brushed against sweet spot. Naruto threw back his head in pleasure. “Ahh, Sai!” he moaned and Sai began to pump his cock again. Naruto was in ecstasy while Sai continued to hit that spot. Sai moved and took Naruto’s cock into his mouth once again. The combined pleasure was too much, and which a deep thrust into Sai’s mouth, Naruto came hard. Sai swallowed all he could, only allowing a few pearly white drops to trickle down the side of his mouth. He removed his fingers and let Naruto’s member slide from his mouth. His Naruto-kun had made a beautiful face when he came, and tasted sweet but bitter. It was almost enough to make Sai cum himself.

Naruto had collapsed and leaned back against the wall, panting. Sai pulled the blonde close and embraced him. His aching member strained against his pants. He desperately desired release, but he would not push Naruto too much. “Sai…that was amazing, where did you learn to do a thing like that?”. Sai smirked, “I learned everything I know from books, Naruto-kun.” Naruto laughed and figured he probably learned that from one of Jiraiya’s infamous Icha Icha Paradise novels. He buried his face in Sai’s hair and inhaled his scent. He smelled fresh and clean and had the faint scent of flowers. He had been so lost in his pleasure that he had forgotten about Sai’s. “Sai…what about you?” Sai smiled, “Would you like to take care of it, Naruto-kun?” Naruto didn’t mind the –kun that Sai added to his name every time. He liked being called something other than the kyuubi boy. He kissed Sai deeply and slid his tongue into his mouth. He then slid his hand into Sai’s pants and discovered he wore no underwear. Naruto had figured as much. He began to pump his cock slowly, like Sai had done for him. Sai moaned and humped his hand, “Naruto-kun…I can’t hold back much longer.” Naruto bent down and began to slowly lick up and down his shaft. Sai shuddered with pleasure as Naruto swirled his tongue and around the tip and took it all inside his mouth. Sai ran his fingers through the blonde locks, tugging gently to prompt Naruto to go faster, take more of him in. “You’re so beautiful, Naruto-kun.”

Sai imagined his cock being engulfed by Naruto’s tight ass while he pounded him into the mattress. He imagined the blonde begging for more and crying out when he came inside him. He knew it was too soon for full blown sex, so he decided to keep such thoughts to himself. For now he was content with Naruto’s mouth. He thrust himself deeper, careful not to choke the blonde. He had to be gentle, no matter how much he had longed for this and wanted to be rough. The blonde was wonderful at oral sex, and he wondered if he had done this to Sasuke. He quickly but the thought aside. He finally reached his climax and came hard into Naruto’s mouth with a loud moan. Naruto swallowed sloppily, letting about half of the fluid escape from his mouth. Sai collapsed to the floor in front of Naruto. The blonde smiled and chuckled characteristically. “You’re beautiful too, Sai.” He took the black haired boy into his arms.

They held each other for a while, perhaps minutes, perhaps hours. Finally Sai stood and offered Naruto his hand. “Lets go to the onsen, Naruto-kun, we need to clean up.” He usually visited the hot springs twice a day when in the village. Naruto took Sai’s hand and stood up. They clothed themselves and retrieved towels from the bathroom. As Naruto headed out the door, Sai grabbed him by the arm. “What Sai? Let’s go, ‘ttebayo!” Sai smiled. “Thank you, Naruto-kun, you are truly amazing.” Naruto blushed and turned away. “Yeah, yeah. Lets get goin before it gets too crowded.” Sai followed him out the door, into the quiet night.

Naruto had never thought this would happen. He had let Sai into his heart, and formed a bond. He still loved Sasuke, and his bond with the Uchiha could enver be broken. He would bring the bastard back whether he liked it or not. However, perhaps Sai could help him begin to mend his broken heart. Perhaps instead of an ending, this would be a new beginning. Sai promised to help him get Sasuke back, and become a true friend. Naruto had a feeling Sai might even become his new special person. He was truly thankful that someone had saved him from drowning in his tears.