What hurts the most (songfic)
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Adult
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What hurts the most (songfic)
DISCLAIMER: I don't own Naruto, nor do I own the lyrics to Rascal Flatts song 'What hurts the most' I take no credit for that. I am making no money off this fic. I'm still poor.
WARNING: language, angst, and some hints at yaoi.
A One shot that's COMPLETE!
songfic
rascal flatts; what hurts the most
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I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
Rain pattered gently on the rooftops of Konoha. It reflected the depressed mood of one Uzumaki
Naruto. It had been a month since he had been beaten and left for dead, at his best friends hands. Been a month Since he had lost something so dear to him, since he had been betrayed. Tomorrow he would set out with Jiraiya to further his training, to get Sasuke back.
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in awhile
Naruto had cried until the tears had run dry. And yet just thinking of Sasuke made his eyes turn wet and his nose run. He felt as if the gaping hole in his chest that Sasuke had inflicted on him was still there.. As if the wound hadn't closed and never would. His heart break was truly the worst pain he had ever felt. He brought his bandaged hand to his chest and clutched the material of his white hospital gown. The the tears that he had been holding at bay were let out. A choked sob was heard as wet streaks ran down whiskered cheeks unchecked. His hands were to frozen to wipe them away. He wondered if he would ever be warm again. Wondered if his heart would stop hurting.
Even though going on without you still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm OK
But thats not what gets me
He go many visitors while in the hospital. Everyone seemed to think that he was doing very well, even after what had happened. What they didn't know was that Naruto was a good actor. He put on his happy mask, and smiled brightly, it had come so naturally and he wondered if maybe this happiness had always been fake. He hid his tormented soul with laughter and jokes, boasts, and brags. He told them, he would drag Sasuke's ass back to Konoha kicking and screaming. But he didn't really believe himself. The lasts Uchiha's strength had been so great. The burning hatred in his eyes almost palpable. How could Naruto compete with such strength and hatred?
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Was what I was tryin' to do
Kakashi had told him that Sasuke was not a lost cause. Leaving Naruto alive was testimony that the prodigy had not been able to sever all bonds. At the time Naruto had smiled and agreed. But after his sensei had left he had hung his head and let his smile drop. He didn't believe the masked jounin. Maybe Sasuke had thought that the blonde was as good as dead when he had left. Maybe he had been too low on chakra to deliver the killing blow. Why would Sasuke try and kill him all those times, just to leave him in the end? He had been so relentless before...
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
Its hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm all alone
Yesterday Saskura had come to visit him. She had brought a large basket of fruit and had worn a large genuine smile. The first he had seen since the incident on the roof. She believed that Naruto wouldn't fail a second time. Believed that they would both be able to bring her first love back. He had laughed and plastered on his fox grin. Said that Sasuke wouldn't have a chance once they teamed up. His words had sounded dull and rehearsed to his own ears. But Sakura had eaten it up like candy. Maybe she just wanted to hear that someone had hope for their lost friend. Even if that hope was non existant on his part.
Still harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
At the valley of the end words had been exchanged as well as blows. It hadn't been enough. Even though he had been in that dire situation he hadn't been able to muster up the courage. To tell Sasuke that he... loved him. He had hoped to get his feeling across with facial expressions and the declarations of "Not letting Orochimaru have him!". It hadn't stopped the sharingan user. And even if he had confessed his love he was unsure if it would have made a difference. His friend had been too far gone. And when his Chakra had turned red and the demon had shown itself, he had lost all hope of return feelings. The look on Sasuke's face had broken his heart. The fear in his eyes had shattered it into a million pieces. He knew that if the Brunette ever found out about Kyuubi he would be abandoned again. But maybe Sasuke already knew.
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Was what I was tryin' to do
The tears that had been making wet marks on his cheeks came to a halt. His eyes burned and were swollen and red. He wondered if they would ever go back to normal. If HE would ever go back to normal. If this crying kept up people, would find out. They would know it was his cheeriness was all a facade. At the moment he was too ignorant to know why people disovering his true feeling would be a disaster. For the moment it was only deep instinct. Naruto often relied on his instincts. They had helped him out many times in the past. It hadn't worked at the end of everything. Now he doubted if those insticts were any good. He was doubting alot of things these days.
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Was what I was tryin' to do
Sighing he looked up at the ceiling unseeing. He wondered where Sasuke was. Had he made it to Orochimaru's hideout? Was he... regretting? Did he feel the same pain that Naruto did? And Naruto wondered if he would ever see the one he love again. If he didn't would he be able to go on? To forget? At least going with Jiraiya would keep away the daily reminder of the raven haired boy. There were too many visual stimulations in Konoha. It was too painful. Even if Jiraiya had not offered to take him on a long training excursion, Naruto would have left. Would have tried to leave these painful memories behind.
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
At this moment all Naruto knew was that if he ever saw Sasuke again he would tell him. He would tell him how important he was. That Naruto would rewrite history for him, that he cared for him. That he wasn't alone, and was precious. But most importantly Naruto would tell him that he loved him. Always.
Until the day he died.
No matter what happened those feeling would never fade.
**********************************
Angsty little oneshot songfic I wrote.
The song just seemed to fit. Though it nearly
killed me to write something without a happy ending, and no humor at all.
*sigh*
Anyway this is a little present I'm giving my readers. I will be vacationing in California XD
for two or three weeks. During that time my other fics will be on hiatus. (because I'm too poor to afford a laptop) It will also probably take me another week after that to write more chapters. I would love it if you guys dropped me a review (or 10) for this! Personally I think this sucks >.> but maybe you won't agree with me.
THANK YOU!!!
Chishio_rikka
WARNING: language, angst, and some hints at yaoi.
A One shot that's COMPLETE!
songfic
rascal flatts; what hurts the most
********************************************
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
Rain pattered gently on the rooftops of Konoha. It reflected the depressed mood of one Uzumaki
Naruto. It had been a month since he had been beaten and left for dead, at his best friends hands. Been a month Since he had lost something so dear to him, since he had been betrayed. Tomorrow he would set out with Jiraiya to further his training, to get Sasuke back.
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in awhile
Naruto had cried until the tears had run dry. And yet just thinking of Sasuke made his eyes turn wet and his nose run. He felt as if the gaping hole in his chest that Sasuke had inflicted on him was still there.. As if the wound hadn't closed and never would. His heart break was truly the worst pain he had ever felt. He brought his bandaged hand to his chest and clutched the material of his white hospital gown. The the tears that he had been holding at bay were let out. A choked sob was heard as wet streaks ran down whiskered cheeks unchecked. His hands were to frozen to wipe them away. He wondered if he would ever be warm again. Wondered if his heart would stop hurting.
Even though going on without you still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm OK
But thats not what gets me
He go many visitors while in the hospital. Everyone seemed to think that he was doing very well, even after what had happened. What they didn't know was that Naruto was a good actor. He put on his happy mask, and smiled brightly, it had come so naturally and he wondered if maybe this happiness had always been fake. He hid his tormented soul with laughter and jokes, boasts, and brags. He told them, he would drag Sasuke's ass back to Konoha kicking and screaming. But he didn't really believe himself. The lasts Uchiha's strength had been so great. The burning hatred in his eyes almost palpable. How could Naruto compete with such strength and hatred?
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Was what I was tryin' to do
Kakashi had told him that Sasuke was not a lost cause. Leaving Naruto alive was testimony that the prodigy had not been able to sever all bonds. At the time Naruto had smiled and agreed. But after his sensei had left he had hung his head and let his smile drop. He didn't believe the masked jounin. Maybe Sasuke had thought that the blonde was as good as dead when he had left. Maybe he had been too low on chakra to deliver the killing blow. Why would Sasuke try and kill him all those times, just to leave him in the end? He had been so relentless before...
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
Its hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm all alone
Yesterday Saskura had come to visit him. She had brought a large basket of fruit and had worn a large genuine smile. The first he had seen since the incident on the roof. She believed that Naruto wouldn't fail a second time. Believed that they would both be able to bring her first love back. He had laughed and plastered on his fox grin. Said that Sasuke wouldn't have a chance once they teamed up. His words had sounded dull and rehearsed to his own ears. But Sakura had eaten it up like candy. Maybe she just wanted to hear that someone had hope for their lost friend. Even if that hope was non existant on his part.
Still harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
At the valley of the end words had been exchanged as well as blows. It hadn't been enough. Even though he had been in that dire situation he hadn't been able to muster up the courage. To tell Sasuke that he... loved him. He had hoped to get his feeling across with facial expressions and the declarations of "Not letting Orochimaru have him!". It hadn't stopped the sharingan user. And even if he had confessed his love he was unsure if it would have made a difference. His friend had been too far gone. And when his Chakra had turned red and the demon had shown itself, he had lost all hope of return feelings. The look on Sasuke's face had broken his heart. The fear in his eyes had shattered it into a million pieces. He knew that if the Brunette ever found out about Kyuubi he would be abandoned again. But maybe Sasuke already knew.
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Was what I was tryin' to do
The tears that had been making wet marks on his cheeks came to a halt. His eyes burned and were swollen and red. He wondered if they would ever go back to normal. If HE would ever go back to normal. If this crying kept up people, would find out. They would know it was his cheeriness was all a facade. At the moment he was too ignorant to know why people disovering his true feeling would be a disaster. For the moment it was only deep instinct. Naruto often relied on his instincts. They had helped him out many times in the past. It hadn't worked at the end of everything. Now he doubted if those insticts were any good. He was doubting alot of things these days.
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Was what I was tryin' to do
Sighing he looked up at the ceiling unseeing. He wondered where Sasuke was. Had he made it to Orochimaru's hideout? Was he... regretting? Did he feel the same pain that Naruto did? And Naruto wondered if he would ever see the one he love again. If he didn't would he be able to go on? To forget? At least going with Jiraiya would keep away the daily reminder of the raven haired boy. There were too many visual stimulations in Konoha. It was too painful. Even if Jiraiya had not offered to take him on a long training excursion, Naruto would have left. Would have tried to leave these painful memories behind.
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
At this moment all Naruto knew was that if he ever saw Sasuke again he would tell him. He would tell him how important he was. That Naruto would rewrite history for him, that he cared for him. That he wasn't alone, and was precious. But most importantly Naruto would tell him that he loved him. Always.
Until the day he died.
No matter what happened those feeling would never fade.
**********************************
Angsty little oneshot songfic I wrote.
The song just seemed to fit. Though it nearly
killed me to write something without a happy ending, and no humor at all.
*sigh*
Anyway this is a little present I'm giving my readers. I will be vacationing in California XD
for two or three weeks. During that time my other fics will be on hiatus. (because I'm too poor to afford a laptop) It will also probably take me another week after that to write more chapters. I would love it if you guys dropped me a review (or 10) for this! Personally I think this sucks >.> but maybe you won't agree with me.
THANK YOU!!!
Chishio_rikka