Bring me to life!

Titel: Bring me to life!
Chapter: 1/2
Author: Firedemon(YaoiGermany) aka Black_Feathers(Animexx)
Category: Naruto
Rating:
Paring: Lee x Gaara
Comment:
I began this story, because I really really love this pairing and there are far to less storys on the net with them. Then while writing this I found a BloddyWings „Gaara(songfic)“ challenge on YaoiGermany and thought: Wow my story is fitting for it if I put a song into it. So I did and here is: „Bring me to life!“

Then I hope my english isn't that bad. I'm from germany an english is just my second language and this is the first time I wrote a ff in english and I just translated one of my german storys into english.
Whatever, I hope you'll like it.

Bring me to life!


Gaara sat on the windowsill of his room at on of Konohas Hotels and look up through the glas at the stary sky. The crescent moon captivated his eyes an his thoughts floated away into the sparkling darkness of the night, while his body remaind in the only slightly illuminated room.
Only after nightfall, when everyone except for himself was sleeping, he allowed his mask, that covered his face at daytime, to fall down.
Only after nightfall he dreamed about the things, he denied himself a long time ago. He thought about how it would be when Shukaku would be nonexisting, when he could be like anyone else. Since he met Naruto he asked himself this questions over and over again and even if he tried to banish this thoughts from his mind they kept coming back.
Again and again he caught himself wishing that there would be someone, to who he was important. Someone who saw the boy Gaara, when he was looking at him and not the sanddemon Shukaku and someone who would worry about him. Someone like Lees Gai-sensei or Narutos Iruka-sensei.
But he had only his siblings, who were still afraid of him and almost paniced when they saw him. They only cared for him because they saw it somehow as a duty.
And then there was his sand, that lay quiet in his gourd right now and would only come alive to protect the redheaded boy from any harm to his body with the only intention to keep him alive because if Gaaras body died Shukakus soul would die as well.
At least Gaara had only himself.
As to confirm this thought his fingers caressed the kanji on his forhead, the reddish scar he had carved into his skin with his sand, when he swore to only love himself, ever.

~ ~ How can you see into my eyes like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home ~ ~

But he had never thought about people like Naruto. Or Lee...
Lee...he and his Gai-sensei had been the first to give him doubts about his view on the world.
And Lee had been the first person who survived a fight against Gaara. The first who wasn't afraid of him although he must have reveived a warning from the boy with the dog; Gaara knew all the time, that he and his team were hiding in the bushes and watching him curshing the rainnins.
Maybe Lee was afraid of the sand and afraid of what Gaara could do to him, but never afraid of the redheaded boy facing him in a figth.
And even Gaaras intention to kill him in the hospital hadn't changed Lees opinion...
Temari and Kanukro could say what ever they wanted but for Gaara ist wasn't Naruto to trigger his changes but Lee. All Naruto had done was preventing him from going back to his old self.

~ ~ (Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I’ve become ~ ~

Gaara was so wraped up in his thought, that he didn't hear the soft knocking on his door.
Only when the knocking became louder he was drawn back into reality.
“The door is open.“, he called only loud enough to be heard. Gaara expected it to be Temari or Kankuro or even both. He didn't know why they should bother him this late, especially after a hard day as today when they came as back up for the konohanins who were trying to rescue Uchiha Sasuke from Orochimaru, but he also couldn't think of anyone else visiting him.
And because of that he didn't even bother to get up or to even draw his eyes away from the sky when the door opened silently and fell closed again with a also silent click.
The soft sound of steps impossible to be noticed by untrained ears, the steps of a ninja, floated through the room for some moment. Then it was silent again.
Gaara could feel searching eyes in him and while he was waiting for the one of his siblings to speak the room was filled with silence.

One minute...two minutes...until Gaara was sick of waiting any longer.
“What do you want?“, he asked and was suddenly surprised to see who was standing behind him when he turned his look around.
Right there in front of him stand the object of his thoughts in his typical green clothes, his orange legwarmers and the black bowlcut of his. But something was apart from his usual appearence.
His eyes were clouded with something and his face gleamed red.
“Lee?“ On the one hand Gaara wanted to know why Lee was there, on the other hand he wonderd what was wrong with the green clad ninja.
He took his legs down from the windowsill to jump down from it, but he was stopped when Lee suddenly moved directly in front of him. He was so close that he was almost touching Gaaras legs.
“Lee? What are you doing here?“, tried Gaara again to get the other boy to speak, but all Lee was doing was looking at him through half closed black eyes.
Slowly Gaara started to feel uneasy. Lees strange behavior worried him, even if he would deny it.
Lee was never silent.
But now? Gaara looked sceptically down on Lee.
“What do you...“
Lees hand interrupted him when it got a grip on Gaaras clothes and pulled him down from the windowsill right into Lees arms. Pressed close against the taller boys chest and his own hands on Lees schoulders Gaara wondered what had happend only seconds ago and why his sand hadn't even moved.
Shocked Gaara looked up at Lee who was almost a full head taller than him and his face actually showed emotiones...surprise...and...uncertainty.
They were so close that he could feel the warmth of Lees body through their clothes and he could also feel every move of Lees muscles under his hands. A strange feeling, although it wasn't the first time he was this close to the other it wasn't the same. The last time it had been during their fight in the chuninexams but back then he was surrounded by his sandarmor and it had been only for a few seconds until Gaara had used a jutsu to teleport himself away.
Now there was no layer of sand between them.
Lees breath hit Gaaras face and suddenly he knew what was wrong with Lee. He was drunk and his breath smelled of alcohol.
Nevertheless, or maybe because of that, Gaaras heart suddenly began to beat faster.
What was going on?
“Lee what...?“
Again he was interrupted. But still not by words, but by an action Gaara wasn't prepaired for.
Without any warning Lees face had come closer and closer and then Gaara felt something against his lightly opened mouth. Lees lips! Gaara widend his eyes when he noticed at the same time when a tingling sensation shot through him. With each movement of Lees mouth against Gaaras unknown sensation raced through his whole body and made him unable to breath.
His brain worked hard to evaluate the singnals it was receiving and made Gaara unable to move or do something else. His knees went weak when Lees tounge found its way through Gaaras still parted lips where it teasingly caressed its counterpart and new almost electrical sensation run through his overstimulated body. A series of pleasent shudders ran down his back and his fingers fisted in the green cloth under them.
Only when Gaara slowly went out of oxygen he was able to gather himself enough to push Lee away from him. Panting he leaned back against the windowsill und watched Lee tumbling some steps backwards.
“Why did you do that?“, Gaara demanded to know and his eyes had a dangerous look in them. In his mind he called for his sand to hold Lee in place where he stood but nothing happend at all. Neither did Lee answer Gaaras question, nor did his sand react to his order. Only Shukaku was laughing insinde of his head. It almost sounded like: 'Foolish little boy. You don't know what is happening and I won't tell you.' And Gaaras own body longed for more of Lees warmth which let him shiver from cold now that it had disapeared and for more of those feelings.
Without a word Lee turned around and made his way to the door but Gaara wouldn't let him go this easy.

~ ~ Now that I know what I’m without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life ~ ~

'Don't let him go, Shukaku!', ordered Gaara his demon or better he orderd his sand to do it. Actually this time it reacted and covered the door to Gaaras room and in the rushing of the sand Gaara believed to hear Shukakus voice
whispering: 'I'm not going to miss this.'
“You won't leaving without an explaination.“ Gaaras voice was threatening. „You'd die befor you'd leave.“ He slowly walked toward Lee who turned around again facing Gaara and...was grinning! He was grinning as if everthing was just a joke.
“You wanna fight?“, shouted Lee and got into a wobbly fightingstance. „Then c'mon.“
“I don't want to fight you. I just want an explanation, Lee.“
“C'mon...c'mon over....hick...!“, Lee insisted.
“No.“ Gaara was struggleing to keep himself from showering Lee with sand and crush him, if only that would be of some use. He took a deep breath to calm himself.
“Why did you do that?“ He could be as stubborn as Lee and with each word his voice became colder. Lee totally ignored it what would be a big mistake for everyone else.
“What?“, he asked innocently. Then he was suddenly behind Gaara and spun him around. Again the sand didn't react and Gaara cursed Shukaku who was giggleing.
“You mean that, Gaara?“ Lees hands took Gaaras wrists which made Gaaras skin tingle under the touch. Then Lees lips again caught Gaaras for just one moment. When he pulled away he moved his mouth next to Gaaras ear.
“I want you.“, he whispered.

~ ~ (Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name und save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become ~ ~

Gaara shiverd unvoluntairy and again he felt this strange weakness as before and he let Lee led him backwards without any real resistance. Then just when he had regained the control over his body he felt the edge of the bed against his knees and was shoved down on it. Lee followed at once and kneelt above him grinning down on Gaara who tried to get Lee off of him. But Lee was taller, heavier and stronger than him and the bed was too soft to support him in his attempt and Shukaku wasn't a great help either because he still hadn't recovered from his laughing. Well, it was questionable if he would ever.

~ ~ Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life ~ ~

A hand in his hair bend Gaaras head back and lips pressed against his neck. Black hair tickled his chin. Lees mouth slid down Gaaras throat, sucked on it in some places and his teeth occasionally scratched the sensitv skin. Unconsiously Gaara leand into the touch of the caressing mouth while his mind despairetly tried to find out what was going on. But even if he knew it he would have been unable to deny his body the touch it longed for.
“Hah...“, panted Gaara. Lees second hand had found a way under Gaaras clothes and caressed the soft skin underneath. His fingers rubbed against one of Gaaras nipples and again he lost the control over his body and bend up into Lee. His eyes closed without his doing and his fingers fisted on Lees schoulders.
“Lee...what...?“, he asked, but Lee again didn't let him speak and ceased every sound with another passionate kiss. This time Gaara instinctivly responded it by imitating Lees actions and put his arms around Lees neck to hold him in place. He couldn't think clearly anymore and every touch send new sensetion through him. His skin felt as if it was on fire. Breathing became harder and harder and in his mind he was trotured by Shukakus knowing laughters.
When Lee pulled away they were both panting hard. Blinking Gaara opend his eyes again and looked at Lees face that was floating only inches above his own.
The konohaninja was still grinning then he yawned and sank down heavy on Gaaras body. His head fell right next to Gaaras onto the soft mattress snoring while Gaara was unable to move and didn't dare to try moving at all.
Lee just fell asleep...

~ ~ Frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead ~ ~

Only when he was sure that Lee was deeply asleep and wouldn't wake up in the near time he freed himself. His legs felt unusually weak and threatened to buckle under his weight and his heart was beating as fast as if he had just finished a very hard battle. But after some Moments his body calmed down again.
Uncertain he look down on Lees sleeping form that was sprawled out half over the bed and half over the floor. A strang feeling rose inside of him at that view and turned away.
As if he hadn't had enough problems getting the other boy out of his head but now it would be near to impossible although he didn't realy know what had happend.
Hesitating he looked back over his schoulder, sighed and turned around again. With some effort he dragged Lee on the bed completly and pulled the covers over him. Then he sneaked over to the window and opend it, his throw his gourd around around his shoulders and jumped onto the windowsill. He climbed out of the window an landed on the ground without making any sound several stages further down.
Then he ran and let his feet choose where to lead him...


tbc...

...when I'm ready translating the second and last chapter