Our last precious moment

Author's note:
Again, the drabblebug. Although I managed to get stuck with this one, so it took some time to finish. Actually, I think six pages is long for a drabble. And I think it might've turned out a little weird. Shouta is new to me @_@ But Uchihacest is love.

I tried making Sasuke's way of expreiencing this as childlike as I could, and hopefully I pulled it off.

actually I kinda wanna call this 'Our lost precious moment'... Humm..

Oh, and I updated Year of the Fox, so go read chapter 5. xD

Warning;
Incest, Yaoi, Shota, Anal sex, NC-17, you know, the usual stuff. ^-^

Our last precious moment
With darkness creeping in over Konoha, the Uchiha manor lay silent.
Those not asleep were out on missions.
Not a sound was heard.

There was one member of the Uchiha-clan however who wasn't sleeping.
The private living quarters where he, his parents and younger brother were as good as abandoned. It was far too big for the four of them, full of rooms that were hardly ever used. His room was one of the most secluded in all of the quarters.

That wasn't where he was headed though, he was heading for the room further up the hall.
Silent as the ninja he was, he made his way down the hall, sliding open the door.
But the room was empty.
The raven looked around in confusion, before sliding the door shut and then made his way down the hallway to his own room.

His room however, was not empty.
He was met by a lamp that was glowing weakly, a dim golden light flowing from a corner of the room.
A pair of dark eyes looked up at him, the boy, who was like a small replica of himself, smiling shyly. The shadow he cast on the wall made him seem a lot bigger, even his spiky hair looked longer.
"Sasuke," Itachi said. "Why are you here?"
The child smiled again. "I wanted to be with you."
Itachi ran a hand through his ebony fringe, sighing. But a small smile played on his lips. "Did you have another nightmare?"
"No!" Sasuke refused. "Ninjas don't have nightmares."
His elder brother crouched down. "Is that what you think?"
"Mhm."
Itachi ruffled Sasukes hair.
"That's not the case. Though I envy you the thought."
"What?"
"Nevermind."
"Nii-chan? Can I stay here tonight?"
"Why?"
"Just because."
The elder Uchiha regarded his little brother.
Sasuke smiled, with his entire face. Pink tinted his cheeks.
Itachi said nothing, but offered an approving nod.
"This'll be the last time." he said, sitting down on the futon next to Sasuke.
"The very last time."

"Nii-chan?"
Itachi turned to his younger brother. "Wha-"
Sasuke's soft lips silenced him.
Itachi's eyes widened slightly in surprise.
Questioning he looked back at Sasuke.
"Was that wrong?" the child demanded.

It was wrong.
Just like all the times before, it was wrong. Itachi sighed. He had no answer for him.
Instead he said; "You came here because you wanted to do that?"
Sasuke's cheeks turned pink.
It triggered something sentimental and...weak in Itachi.
He disliked it, but that was not enough to make him hold back a smile.
"That's..." he paused, but leaned forward, his eyes closing.
Their lips met, and parted again.
"...perfectly ok."
Sasuke's eyes seemed to be begging him for more, the big dark orbs continuously searching in his brother's face for some sort of confirmation. One that allowed him to snuggle up to Itachi, and touching his lips to Itachi's whenever he wanted.

And even though he wished for it, he was surprised when Itachi pulled him into an embrace, his breath feeling warm and cool on his ear at the same time.
Itachi had never held him like this before, he'd never felt like this before.
"Sasuke..." Itachi's voice was different too.
His lips found the spot where Sasuke's neck connected with his collarbone. He kissed it, noticing how Sasuke shivered.
He then traced little pecks up his jugular, to his jawbone, and then found his lips again.
Sasuke made a soft noise in his throat.
"Does that feel good?" Itachi whispered.
"N-nii-san..." Sasuke's small hands clenched the sheets under them.
Itachi nipped at the boy's lower lip with his teeth, gently biting.
Sasuke obeyed, his lips parting so Itachi's tongue could slip inside. Meanwhile his face flushed.

The kiss broke. They looked at each other.
Sasuke's gaze wandered, his eyes shifting. He didn't know where to look, while Itachi's gaze was lingering on him. It made him flush even more, and he felt all...weird.
"Don't look at me like that..." he mumbled, looking down at the futon.
"Why?" Itachi gave him an inquiring look.
"It's weird."
"Yeah?" Itachi's lips curved upwards.
He kissed him swiftly.
When he pulled back Sasuke's eyes were still closed, his lips asking for more.
It lit a fire in him.
It started a throbbing...something, it was almost painful. Not only because the oh-so innocent kisses had awakened his erection, but because he knew something Sasuke had yet to learn.
When those innocent eyes looked into his, and he leaned in to touch their lips together, he almost, almost regretted his decision.
But he forced it away. Sentimentality and emotion was for the week.
Those were things of the past, if he had ever been able to feel them.
An Uchiha was emotionless.
This would be the last time, he promised himself.
And it had to be more than before, so he could verify his existence.
That was how he thought, well-knowing that it probably didn't mean anything. Or maybe he just failed to sense the real meaning behind it.
What he did was wrong.
But what was right and wrong anyway?
Where did the line go?
When was it justified to do the wrong thing?

He growled softly, his hand touching Sasuke's cheek.
"Sasuke..." he said. "There's something I want to ask of you..."
"What is it?" the child looked up at him.
"It's something that's important to me. You think that you can do it for me?"
"If it's important to you nii-san, I'll do my best."
"Alright." Itachi kissed him, smiling. His hand was still resting on the pink cheek. "I want to touch you Sasuke."
"But you are." Sasuke's hand touched Itachi's own.
"Not like that..."
The elder's hand wandered, down under Sasuke's clothing. It touched smooth, pale skin.
"Like this." his thumb flickered over one of the younger's nipples. "And..." he took Sasuke's hand, placing it over his crotch, where his hardness craved attention. "I want you to touch me too."
Sasuke quickly pulled away. His eyes were uncertain.

"It's wrong." he said.
Itachi nodded. "It's always been wrong."
"Then why..?"
"Because...I need this Sasuke." he reached for his hand, their fingertips barely touching.
Sasuke hesitated.
His brother was acting strange, and he didn't like it.
Still, anticipation was awakening in him.
A part of him wanted to stay, to see what it was Itachi wanted from him.

He wound up staying.
He allowed Itachi to pull his shirt over his head.
He also let him kiss him all over, not fully able to stay quiet when something felt good and he shivered. He also failed to contain slight laughs when Itachi's fingers or tongue touched a ticklish spot.
Itachi got stranger and stranger.
His eyes were unfamiliar and heavy.
And so was his breath.
Sasuke wondered if he should be scared, but he wasn't. He trusted Itachi.

He gasped with surprise when his brother's tongue flicked over his nipple. Then he emitted a quiet groan as Itachi closed his lips around it, and bit him carefully.
Black eyes looked up at him.
Itachi's hand went for his shorts, tugging them down. His hand reached inside.
Sasuke opened his mouth to protest, but was silenced by lips on his own. "Ssh." Itachi soothed.
At the same time, the elder took Sasuke's hand, leading it to his hardness.
It twitched through cotton slacks.
"He must have changed after the mission..." Sasuke thought.
It was strange, he thought, that his brother was hard there.
Just as it was strange that he felt all hot and bothered when Itachi touched him where he'd thought it was forbidden for others to touch.
It was also strange that when Itachi unzipped his own pants, leading Sasuke's hand inside, placing his own hand over Sasuke's as he made him grab the hardness, his brother moaned softly. Like he would sometimes do when they kissed.
Like Sasuke himself would sometimes do.
And even stranger was it that he wished Itachi hadn't pulled his hand away.

But like always, Itachi knew everything.
Why wouldn't he?
Itachi was perfect.

His pale hand reached inside Sasuke's shorts, gently gripping what was for the first time growing, hardening, waiting.
Sasuke gasped.
Itachi's other hand was over his, and showed him how to slide his hand back and forth, each time drawing that soft noise from his brother's lips. He liked that noise. He continued, so he could hear it again. At the same time, Itachi was doing the same to him, and he found himself feeling stranger than before.
Itachi's lips were on his neck, and his entire body shook.
"I-Itachi...I feel weird..."
"Good weird?"
"Weird..."
"Good." he whispered back, moving his hand in a slightly quicker pace.
"Ah!"
The elder smirked.
He pulled his hand away from Sasuke's, both amused and pleasurably surprised that the boy kept moving his hand back and forth, in the same pace.

The spiky-haired raven uttered a low protest when Itachi retracted his hand for long enough to get the boy's shorts off. And then a jolt of surprise went through him as Itachi's hand came back, just as strangely good as earlier.
His eyes slid shut, his lips parting.
His own hand followed the rhythm Itachi was setting, his skin sporting goose bumps when the elder moaned softly.
And then his eyes flew open again as Itachi's fingers touched a place where they should not be.
"Relax...It' ok." Itachi assured, continuing to stroke him. He gently pressed one finger against Sasuke's opening, without entering. He circled around the tight hole, probing slightly, but didn't do anything else. "It'll feel good. Just close your eyes."
Sasuke did as told.
He closed his eyes.
"Focus on my touch." Itachi said.
He did.
And....
It felt good.
The two different feelings that he'd found to be weird, came together as something good. Really good. He opened his mouth, then closed it again.
His body automatically rocked against Itachi's hands.
He felt hot.
He felt dizzy.
He felt like something was growing inside of him.
His grip on Itachi's hardness loosened. His eyes opened to look at Itachi. He wanted to know what was happening to him. This was not normal. He was sure something was wrong.
But Itachi was calm. His words were soothing, his touch concentrated, and his lips were there to silence Sasuke as he cried out for reasons he couldn't understand.
Something warm, wet and white was covering the lower parts of his stomach and Itachi's hand.
He gave his brother a quizzical look.
Itachi said nothing, just kissed his forehead.
Then his lips moved lower, to Sasuke's lips once again.

Sasuke's breath was heavy.
His head spun.
It was as if that strong feeling, whatever it had been had drained him of energy. So when Itachi tipped him backwards onto the futon he let it happen.
The elder leaned over him, kissing him over and over.
He whispered things.
Mostly Sasuke's name.
Sasuke's fingers played with tousles of ebony hair.
"How was that?" Itachi asked quietly.
"Weird..."
A soft chuckle, and lips on his ear made him quiver underneath Itachi's lean frame.
"Can I do something else?" Itachi's voice seemed uncertain.
Sasuke nodded. No questions asked.
He trusted Itachi.
He needed no reassurance, though Itachi offered it anyway. "It's alright. You don't have to be scared."
Sasuke wasn't scared. Just curious.

But this... This wasn't at all what he'd had in mind.
Itachi pressed closer to him, kissing him deeply as the twitching erection touched against his entrance.
It was nothing like what he'd thought Itachi would do.
This really hurt!

"N-Nii-chan!" he cried out. "Nii-chan...H-hurts!"
"Ssh..." Itachi soothed him, kissing away the salty tears that streamed down Sasuke's flushed cheeks. "I need this..."

But his heart ached. He didn't like seeing Sasuke cry because of him.
And again it made him feel weak.
Weak.
The very last thing he wanted to be.

He pressed all the way inside.
Sasuke's nails dug into his back, leaving bloody marks.
Itachi's breath was heavy.
But when Sasuke cried out in pain, he let out something resembling a sob. "I'm sorry Sasuke!"
He closed his eyes, his bangs covering up his face.
He tried calming Sasuke, distracting him from the pain with kisses and soft bites.

Sasuke had never felt anything like this; the pain was unbearable.
But still...Itachi's voice making those noises... It made him feel like he was doing something right, even if he didn't understand what was happening.
And he felt so close to him now.
Because Itachi was inside of him. And he knew for sure that this...This was something Itachi had never done with anyone else.
It made him feel special.
It made it bearable.
It helped the pain go away. At least most of it.
And then, it was over.

Suddenly Itachi shivered.
His breath came in quick gasps, and then he sank down on top of him. He whispered something like a thank you, and pulled out.

The scratches on Itachi's back stung. But that was nothing compared to what he had done.
He felt terrible, and hated himself. Because this wasn't anything.
This was nothing he should worry about. Not now when the decision was made, all regret and insecurity chased away.
He cradled Sasuke in his arms, held him and told him that he was sorry.
Sasuke shook his head. "It's ok." he said. "Because you asked me to do it. And..." he blushed deeply. "It felt good...."
Itachi smiled against his neck. "Yeah. It did."

He spread the blanket over the two of them, holding Sasuke tightly.
Their bodies were pressed tightly together, and their breaths were synced.
The light had burned out.
He inhaled the scent of Sasuke's hair and whispered into the darkness: "Don't forget this Sasuke. Remember tonight."

"Remember it, because tomorrow everything changes. Tomorrow I will no longer be weak, not even for you."

*Owari*
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