Crash

anyway, this is what i wrote. i hope you don't hate it for having no capitals. my sis doesn't get the symbolism.~
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12-9-2006 (crash)
crash. that's what it felt like. a horrific crash; metal scraping on concrete, screams piercing the air and tearing at his insides. like something stabbing his heart as he laid there, unable to move, merely bleeding, hardly able to cry, let alone ask for help. and the only person able be offer help, the one responsible for his pain, walked away. and he died, just a little, inside.
sasuke walked away from the scene with hardly a scratch; only his pride bruised a bit and his forehead protector with a single mark. he left that behind, deeming it unnecessary; unworthy of him. unwanted. just like naruto. but he hadn't really meant it. he was dazed and confused, unaware totally of what he was doing. his decisions were not made of a sound mind. he was walking away from a car-crash; his head was banged up, and sasuke was disoriented.
naruto watched him leave, knowing it would be hard, if not impossible, to bring him back. it wasn't fair; this wasn't how it was supposed to go. sasuke hadn't meant it, he was sure. it was all an accident; a misunderstanding. maybe everything could get better if they talked about it? but he knew. he knew he was lying to himself. this was going to be a difficult and uphill battle. and sasuke would fight him every step of the way. but it didn't matter.
they were friends, and friends didn't let friends drive drunk. naruto felt that was what had happened. he hadn't kept a close enough watch over sasuke, had let him get behind the wheel, and he shouldn't have. so maybe it was his own damn fault. but no one would ever know.
sakura and kakashi both tried to help him see he wasn't the only one. they had let him go too; naruto was not the only one. though sakura had tried to stop him, it was too late. he had already hit the road. but naruto had decided he wasn't going to let him just take off. that's when it happened.
a head-on collision. chidori versus rasengan. uchiha versus uzumaki. sasuke versus naruto. and neither walked away entirely unscathed. while sasuke could actually walk, he was hurt, deeply. but it stayed hidden in his drunken numbness. but naruto wasn't drunk; he wasn't high. he could feel his pain, and kakashi had to carry him away from the crash.
but that was okay, because it meant naruto was safe for now. but sasuke wasn't. he had wandered off into the dark unknown in a drunken state, and they couldn't go find him. he was lost in the woods.
naruto has carried the guilt of letting sasuke get out and drink in the first place, but it wasn't his fault. itachi introduced him to liquor, but it took naruto a long time, and sakura even longer, to realize what an alcoholic he was. it got to be too late. they couldn't help him. they tried so hard. he had been getting on the wagon. but, when tempted by the siren, he had fallen right back off, then climbed in his car and taken off. causing nearly irretrible damage to his closest friend.
all for something as stupid as getting a taste. a taste of something new, but when he finally gets it, will his body be so numb and worn down that he can't taste it? will he be so immune to it that for it to take effect, he would have to poison himself with it? and if so, naruto knows now, that he will. and he will be lost. for good.~~